#:) dont worry. i wont hurt him

[davidtennan-t]

And I oop-here's my next Fourteen fic!

Protective Uncle Doctor up and coming in this one with the same soft vibes as my first fic and a sprinkle of whump. Will end with Donna taking care of her Spaceman!

#in which a slitheen threatens Rose and the Doctor momentarily comes out of retirement #i know hes supposed to have none of the horrors #but once wont hurt #his fam takes care of him dont worry #fourteenth doctor #rose noble #donna noble #fourteen x donna #my fic

[oblonger]

Chapter 11 of TPiaG: Body Swap AU

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@sincerely-sofie Something, Something, the character that feels the loneliest finally gets another chapter from her pov on the loneliest chapter. number 11.

Twig wakes up.

Twig's eyes slowly opened as the late morning sun filtered in through her window.

She tried to take a breath and felt pain all across her chest. A Migraine pounded through her head.

Twig lifted her arm to try and block out the light.

A sharp pain shot through it.

She looked down at it.

Why is it wrapped in bandages?

Twig stared at her arm as her eyes slowly widened in horror.

He was in a hospital.

The scattered memories of what had happened last night started to return to her.

Her stomach growled in hunger.

A claw cut into her chest.

Her heart pumped blood through her ears.

An energy ball flew towards her.

She smacked her lips, her mouth dry as a desert.

The glint of a leaf blade, inches from her face.

Fire.

Fire.

Twig couldn't will her body to move as she stared at the roaring flames.

The few shadows on the wall danced in mockery of her.

They were walking closer to her.

She could hear footsteps approaching.

Her heart was in her throat.

A cold panic rushed through her veins. She screamed at her body to move as the footsteps got closer.

In the side of her vision, a silhouette appeared behind the curtain leading to her room.

She's going to die.

She tried to blink. She couldn't.

Tears started to form.

She can't move.

Grovyle started to move the curtains.

"Oh! You're awake!" A voice exclaimed.

An Audino stepped forward through the entryway and blew out the tiny, dying candle's flame that Twig had been staring at. Her eyes snapped to the nurse.

She wore a white apron and wore a small hat atop of her head. Bags lay under her eyes.

The Audino's expression instantly became concerned. "Are you okay?" She asked.

Tears were falling down Twig's cheeks.

"Uh. Yeah." She muttered.

Audino tilted her head and put one of the feelers on her head, up to the side of Twig's chest.

"It's okay." She said, turning her head to look at her. "You're safe now. Just take deep breaths."

Twig listened to the nurse. She managed to calm down over the course of a few minutes.

"There you go. I will go and get you some painkillers and food, okay? Stay in bed please.

Twig nodded and the Audino left the room at a brisk pace.

Leaving her alone again.

Twig exhaled and stared at the ceiling.

Where was Kip?

If she was in the hospital, then Kip would have stayed with her.

Twig lifted her uninjured hand and stared at it.

At Darkrai's hand.

Twig's heart sped back up as she heard footsteps again approaching her room.

The Audino turned past the corner mid yawn. Pushing a cart with a delicious looking meal, some water and a few other things Twig didn't care for.

Twig gratefully accepted the tray of food and began eating.

"So..." Twig began after some time, having just swallowed a bite. "How long was I out?"

The nurse finished another yawn. "Nine days."

Twig swallowed another bite, faster than she probably should have. "Was I really down for that long?" She muttered, taking a sip of her water.

Audino nodded.

Twig sighed and rested her palm on her forehead as Audino gathered her dishes.

"May I see your arm?"

Twig started moving her arm to her, before realizing she probably meant her injured arm. Quickly correcting her mistake.

"Oh! Careful!" She quietly exclaimed. "You don't want to move too quickly! Those stitches are delicate."

Twig muttered an apology as Audino unraveled the bandages around her arm.

Three thin cuts run down the entire length of her forearm. Held together with stitches.

The image of a green claw dripping with blood flashed into her mind.

Audino gently rubbed a gauze across her injuries. The cool gel stinging before the pain got much more dull.

Twig watched her in silence as she gently wrapped the arm up in bandages again. Interrupted several times by Audino stopping to yawn.

Twig thanked her. Resting her arm at her side.

"We're not quite done yet." She gently responded. "I still need to replace the bandages on your chest."

Twig sighed as Audino helped her move her body into an upright position. Her heart pounding whenever Audino's hand touched her back.

She didn't know why.

Twig kept her eyes fixed forward during the process of replacing her bandages. Not wanting to see just how badly Grovyle hurt her.

Why did he do this to her?

A cold terror washed over Twig as she pondered these thoughts while Audino finished wrapping her midsection.

Dusknoir.

The passage of time opened, and Twig never saw who came out.

Dusknoir killed Grovyle and possessed him. Or he tricked Grovyle into thinking she was the enemy. Or he convinced him into betraying her.

They both already tried to kill her once. And Dusknoir already betrayed her.

Why wouldn't Grovyle find that common ground to stand on?

And Kip went out to defend her.

She didn't see him again.

He's not here in the hospital.

Dusknoir killed Kip.

Twig felt tears of inexpressible sorrow and incomparable wrath fill her eyes.

She's going to kill him.

She's not the same, weak charmander she used to be.

She's strong enough to finally fight back.

Audino pulled back and started to ask if Twig was okay, before being interrupted by another yawn.

Twig wiped away the tears in her eyes.

"I'm fine. Are you okay?" She asked the nurse.

"Oh! Yeah I'm fine. I just didn't sleep well last night. Kept waking up from nightmares."

Twig's entire body became stiff as a board.

She used her uninjured arm to feel her chest.

The pendant was gone.

"Are you okay? Do you need me to bring you anything?" Audino asked.

Twig's eyes snapped to the nurse and then looked away. "Yeah. Sorry about your nightmares." Twig said, attempting to keep an even tone.

Audino smiled at her. "Thank you. It's not your fault though."

Twig watched her in silence as Audino gathered her dishes, again asked if she needed anything and then left the room.

Twig listened as her footsteps became quieter.

She didn't have the pendant.

She was in a hospital. Surrounded by patients that are trying to recover from injuries and sicknesses.

She's giving all of them nightmares.

She is a plague that brings suffering wherever she goes.

This is her punishment for burning all of those people alive.

She deserves to live in this body.

Being a Charmander was too good for her.

Twig tore the blankets off of her and moved to the window.

Twig hesitated after opening it.

She should probably try not to freak the hospital staff out.

Twig searched for a paper pad and a pencil, both of which were gratefully inside the nightstand the bell sat on top of.

Twig wrote a note in shaky handwriting, saying that she is okay, and that her stitches are fully healed and that she's just going on a walk and she'll be back for her checkup.

All of which are lies, but it's an attempt.

Twig moved back to the window. It's too small for her to fit through.

Twig remembered that she can get pretty small actually.

Twig did that weird thing where she sticks her hand into her shadow, the rest of her body following suit.

It's such a weird feeling to describe.

It's like her body becomes muffled. Like talking into a pillow. Not her surroundings, she can hear just fine, and she can see everything, albiet a little darker... It's like her body has become the sound an outside observer hears when someone talks into something to muffle their voice.

Twig rushed out of the hospital in her 'shadow form' and into the forest.

Once she felt that she was far enough away, she rose from the ground.

Twig slowly glided along the trail. Hoping that it will eventually lead back to her house so she can find the pendant. Her eyes locked to the ground. Her thoughts swirled around, wondering just why.

Why was she such an awful person?

Why did Dialga ever bring her back?

Why did Kip ever associate with her?

Why didn't she die when Dusknoir attacked her?

Why did she write the note in English?

Why did Grovyle betray her?

Why was she-

Twig stopped in the middle of the trail. Staring at the ground for several seconds. She pinched the space between her eyes.

"Aw shoot." She said aloud.

Of course she tried to write a note and couldn't.

How did she even miss that!?

She can't even read most footprint runes!

Ugh! Now she's gonna be sending people into a panic and she won't even be there!

Wait, why did she even think leaving a note would work!? Of course they would still be concerned about her! She nearly died over a week ago! Theres no reason why-

"Twig?" A deep voice asked from in front of her.

Twig's head shot upwards.

Her blood ran cold.

It was him.

She might be near to his eye level now, but she felt like he towered over her still.

"D- Dusknoir." She stuttered.

#testing the waters to see just how many cliffhangers i can get away with before these goobers finally just have a group hug. #i was fully intending to continue it past the ending #but i figured that having is cut off where we left Dusknoir in the last chapter. After hearing Twig's thoughts of him #would hurt even mor >:) #text post #pmd eos #the present is a gift au #fanfic of a fanfic #pmd #writing #fanfic #body swap au #pmd2 #Dont worry #i wont dangle the idea of a happy ending in front of you forever. #things just tend to get worse before they get better y'know?

[seariii]

I have no clue why I hadn't read Muu's bday timeline of this year and I'm dead

I thought it was still a maybe that Amane was recruiting Fuuta (I have no idea what is the correct word, english isn't my first language, sorry)

I DIDNT THINK IT WAS ACTUALLY (already) HAPPENING

#i am actually low-key panicking wtf #please let me just pick up the wet cat before he hurts himself #honestly tho i really really just wanna hug Fuuta. im worried for him... and not that im not worried for Amane its just... #honestly? the more I look into it it's just more personal reasons i wont disclose on the internet. dont think she's unredeemable tho #but yeah damn im actually terrified about this? #fuuta kajiyama #amane momose #milgram #tw cult

[fairy-pd]

girlies im doing it

strap in for

Thomas Hewitt x age regressor!reader

WARNING: reader's little age is around 1-8 yrs old and okay with physical touch. GN reader, no mentions of what the reader's appearance is. Use of strong language, and use of the terms daddy, dada and papa. May not be appropriate to read while age regressing!

((this is my first time ever writing a hc drabble, sorry for all the mistakes aaaaakqksksk!!!!!))

BIG on the daddy/papa/dada stuff. will die. will melt. will blush and, most importantly, will do anything for you as long as you call him any of the above

You got this man wraped around your little finger

You were already the most precious thing in his life but after he found out you had this softer, more innocent side that was even more dependent on him??? you're the purest, most angelic thing ON EARTH to him now and he will do ANYTHING to keep you safe

Tbh he doesn't really understand what's going on, even if you explain it to him. He knows its something very far away from any kind of sexual stuff, this much he gets, and isnt bothered at all by the whole thing; he understands its something completely harmless that makes you both happy

Tommy boy is ye old Provider™️, sometimes to his own detriment

It makes it hard for him to throughly discipline you cus 1) he doesn't wanna make you upset, and 2) he doesn't understand that boundary setting goes both ways, and that he is allowed to have his own boundaries respected

This often leads to him trying to juggle between his responsibilities around the house, his own basic needs and taking care of you

As kids do, you'll end up testing his limits and he won't ever tell you "no", which can lead him to feel a little upset (not mad!!) over something you did

Picture Tommy grumpy all day long cus you bit his finger a little too hard

You'll have to talk to him about this when you're out of your headspace, about what kinds of things he doesn't want you to do and what kinds of things you're okay with him doing to enforce boundaries

You'll have to give him lots and lots of reassurance about his caregiving

Will freakout if you cry. In the TCM 2006 universe he hasnt been frequently around super small children, as far as I know, so he doesn't know that little kids cry that much about things that are so??? nonsensical???? sometimes

'Why are they crying about the cockroach I stepped on??????'

He'll spoil you as a result of his adoration for you, his permissive-leaning style of caregiving and his inexperience with children

Expect lots of hand-sewn gifts. You'll have all the plushies and clothes in the world if it the depends on this man

Expect also all the cuddles, kisses, head scritches, hand holding, all the nine yards of our big boy's biggest love language: physical touch.

He is going to be really gentle, even after you reassure him that he wont hurt you cus ur not made of porcelain, cus he is kinda terrified of scaring you shitless again and making you fear him. It tackles into his abandonment issues

But honestly? There's very few things in his life that make him feel so...fulfilled, and the biggest one is being your caregiver

A provider at heart, as I said earlier, Tommy loves the feeling of taking care of the people he loves and making sure they have everything they could possibly need. It makes him feel important to be relied on, and to be the person people come to when they need help. Makes him feel needed, valued, appreciated

So imagine what your little babbles and love declarations do to this poor man's heart

Nothing in the world compares to when you come crying to his open arms saying "I missed you, papa..."

Or when you tell him he's the "bestest most handsomest daddy in the whoooooooleeee wooooorrrrldddd"

Or even better, when you wrap your arms around his neck and your legs around his front, tightly, when he picks you up

He swears to God one day you're gonna make his heart explode

How in hell did he manage to find a baby so pure, so innocent, so goddamn tiny at heart like you??? how??? what did he do to deserve you???

He LOVES coming to your little makeshift bedroom in the basement to hang out after a hard day of chopping, killing, and chasing people all around town

He won't ever greet you with his bloody apron on, doing his best to present himself as clean as possible in case its "baby hours" as he calls your regression

You're not really allowed to go anywhere without him or Luda Mae, so you end up missing him a lot (and sometimes having meltdowns, all by yourself :(( ) and being extra clingy when he eventually shows up

He made you a little doll of himself, using an old dress shirt he was gonna give to his mom to use as a rag, and it smells just like him, which comforts and calms you down a little till he comes back

The softest, most caring and wholesome cg ever, thats all

Thats it for today aaaaaa!! I think ill eventually post a follow up for this cus its late, Im sleepy and this man makes me so so so so happy I cant even😭😭😭

Thanks for reading!!

#sfw agere #agere little #agere blog #age regressor #agere #agere slashers #agere slasher #thomas hewitt x reader #thomas hewitt #thomas hewitt x you #thomas hewitt fluff #thomas hewitt x ageregressor #sfw regression #slasher fluff #I ALSO WANNA CLARIFY #Its okay if you're fat!! Its okay if you're heavy!!! They didn't cast a professional wrestler to play Tommy for no reason!! #He CAN pick you up #he WILL pick you up #he is strong and no you wont ever hurt him honey!!! #dont you worry about that!!! #my writing #horror agere

[todayisafridaynight]

i think ichi would still go into work while suffering from *gameritis and hes so brave for that he's so committed

#snap chats #*aka playing videogames too much to the point of his wrist hurting from pushing the buttons so much #aka. me LMAOO OWWW OWIE OUCH VIDEOGAMES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN NOT PAIN #the alternative is him calling arakawa at like 8AM in pain and shit all 'boss... im real sorry... i wont be able to make it today...' #and then instead of ichi like. Dying it's just cause dragon quest 6 came out and he binged all of it over the weekend #CRYING at the thought arakawa keeping up with videogame releases just to know when to esp look after ichi #like Hey Totally Unrelated Don't Think About It But I Got Someone To Cover You This Weekend.... that kinda b ☠️☠️ #and then its like Oh Wow New Game Coming Out Friday What Luck :))) ☠️☠️☠️ #sometimes he'll put his foot down dont worry.... theres SOME limits to how lenient arakawa can be.... #n e way. i cant feel my thumb and my tendon feels funky.. so i am no longer playing games and i am Doing My Job.... #luckily my drawing wrist isnt affected but still.. lmao.. #im almost done with the sketches for them so then i can just send those off to my commissioners and then ima do a quick lil doodle #either that or ill sketch a comic... tho whenever i do that i end up never doing them.. #might convert it to a fic but anyway back to work

[selkiecoded]

i did not do any research prior to this and my paper is due on wednesday and i have to work on a different final throughout tuesday so im basically fucked. if i get a flat zero ill get a 72%/C- which i dont think is a failing grade but its still so frustrating. because i really like this topic and this class, ive just dug myself into holes too deep to crawl out of. its honestly really humiliating. okay.

#i was crying about it to my mom and she was sympathetic + consoling me so at least if shes disappointed she knows im even more upset with #myself so hopefully thats one thing i dont have to worry about. it still hurts though. #i like this subject. i like this teacher. i just dont like doing fucking research papers. i dont know. i dont know what to do. #were getting me an appointment for an adhd consult or whatever at the break but its not going to fix stuff immediately and it wont fix this #half considering emailing him like hey i dont know if im going to turn this in i loved the class but my brains broken. but. i dont know. #i dont know i dont know i dont know my head hurts i cried a lot. okay.

[sick-as-a-dog]

×

#just the thought of him not loving me the same way and amount i love him makes me want to slice myself up #ill only stop cutting when i cant feel anything anymore not pain not love just emptiness #just want to be with master but dont want to make him stressed out because im too dependent and reliant on him #why cant i just feel my emotions the right way or a normal amount or at least less strong? why am i like this? #why cant i love like a human and why must that shit be so complicated? why am i so feralminded? #and why cant i feel my loves separately? should i even? or am i not understanding it right? why do i feel everything wrong? #why must i love him like a wild animal loves its lifelong mate? but also like how that animal loves the taste of prey and hungers for it? #like a dog loves its master and feels the unending loyalty and unconditional love overtake remaining wolflike instinct #like a best friend i also wish to do stereotypical romantic and domestic things with and so much more #i want to be bound to him in any way possible marriage and collars and microchips and blood pacts and marking and such #but im so scared he wont want that anymore i want to stop feeling i need to completely stop feeling and worrying but i cant #even when im emotionally numb i still feel that canine love for him even if just a glimmer #i wish i knew what he thinks love is and what hes comfortable with and how he felt and experienced love and if he still loves me like #he did before he came out as aro....im scared to bring up how calling himself aro and me his exception actually hurts and idk if i should #tbh him saying hes aro yet says he loves me feels like when a close friend keeps saying they dont have any friends while youre right there #like my existence makes his identity a lie or a betrayal to him i cant shake the gross feeling that hes forcing himself to stay for my sake #....hell am i even his exception anymore? what did he mean by same amount but not the same? what changed? did anything actually change? #wish i could figure out what love is and how to feel it right..esp dont understand romantic or queerplatonic or anything its all confusing #i want to take on the world with him and stop being an emotional wreck so we can fuck anyone together like we swore to #i just want to live the rest of my life by his side and i want to experience all we can together #picnics and movies and living together and sharing a nest and....idk i just want to be with him forever and hope he still feels the same #it would literally kill me if he ever left or fell out of love i think i would lose whats left of my mind and end up bleeding myself dry #i want us to be together forever and never ever stop being mates but i cant help but be terrified and confused and hurt

[luigis-mogai-mansion]

So the people have spoken and you want me to coin more genders and do more lazy flag combos. (And some pronoun flags. I'll probably leave those to sunnydrop). However I have many avenues I'm interested in taking coining that I really can't decide on so here's my proposition.

Here's the things I can/want to do as of right now:

1. I have a shit ton of drafts of other people's coining posts that I want to add flags to. Usually from creators that aren't on here anymore and I wanted to add them to my board but I need a flag for that.

2 I have random coining ideas for genders/orientations that don't exist yet but are very scattered. Like literally my notes app has genders I've written down in the moment to coin at a later date and it's... Extensive.

3 I have an organized list of genders all themed around rain that's miles long because I heavily relate to it.

4. I also wanna make some flags for specific things (like a homoromantic flag that isn't just the gay flag tweaked or the rainbow flag with a heart.). These are also slightly scattered but I can't find some flags I'd like to find.

5. Make independent(aka dosent look like a mash up of both flags or just laying one flag over another) identity combo flags(like a demigirl lesbian flag that doesn't look like the demigirl or lesbian flag.)

6. I can also reopen requests for any kind of gender. Though I'd need a lot more interaction, I'd love to work on some -lexic, aldernic, -scentic and religiogenders.

7. Mass character/fandom coining stuff or genders related to characters and fandoms. Some would fit in the above categories but I'd love to methodically go through my fandoms and make extensive collections of charactegenders.

So I'll ask y'all to vote on one more poll-

(tags are generally unimportant but some people have asked about neopronoun-flag-archives, Millie, neo, sunny, etc. And I wanna clear up some information. That's all the tags are so if you'd like an update, here it is.)

#clover speaks #i want to clarify since some people are worried about millie and neo so ill give an update in these tags #dont read them if you dont really care cause thats all the tags will be. #millie and neo are the 2 tbat are primarily responsible for shutting down neopronoun-flags #all the other members like komine emma sunnydrop error etc all enjoyed the blog but didnt own it #i was also present but only on technicality to do blog maintenance like change backgrounds or sometimes write tags #i never contributed a single flag to that blog or anything beyond small work like that #millie and neo were given kinda offical and kinda unoffical ownership as those two were the most active #that was bascially their blog #which is fine thats why i made it for them #they shouldnt have to use my blog to mske their own content #but i kkow they upset alot of people with their attitude at the end and their takes on certain topics in this communtiy #although i generally agree with the topic of system responsibility im not going to tell my alters what to think or do #with their own blog #millie chose to shut it down and neo agreed #sunnydrop was upset but ive allowed him to post here and take on the flags and lists he enjoys #emma has always been mostly here and captin has pretty much lost interest so please dont think any alters were #truely hurt and dismayed by that blog shutting down #millie and neo are currently dormant to deal with the stress and i wont be coaxing them out any time soon #regardless of how i feel about them or their actions they are still some of my first alters and friends and i want them to heal #and come back on their terms #with their own beliefs in a way they feel is best for them #i appreciate the people who showed them support and were worried for them after they abruptly shut the blog down #but jsyk they are ok they are just healing and they will come back on their own terms #however they will be forced to make a new blog neopronoun flags will remain an archive indefinitely and im sorry if you miss them #but i just wanted to tell yall that they are ok and im sorry for the craziness that may of stirred

[angeltrapz]

not the misgendering again

#it definitely doesnt make me want to die :) #im fucking serious i am at my limit with my stepdad. like im fucking calling him by his name in my head bc he is NOT the dad i had before #i dont know what happened but its like my dad disappeared over night and now i live with a complete stranger #why it still hurts this bad after nine years i dont know but i wish it didnt #i wish it didnt still fucking hurt because it doesnt matter how i feel about it. it isnt going to change #i just wish someone would stand up for me in that regard but we all know it wont make him stop so whats the point. itll just make him angry #and then well all have to deal with it #connor.vtxt #im sorry i just. i was having a good night and now im considering smoking another bowl bc Fuck This Shit #i know i shouldnt do it but everything hurts and my heart is beating too hard #i just hope this gets better because i really cant keep doing this for the rest of my life. i really cant #dont worry abt the first tag btw im not going to do anything. im okay #well. not okay but not actually considering That. #he does not respect me in any regard. especially not as a person. but expects me to respect him and never tell him what he says/does hurts #he doesnt even apologize anymore #he thinks its 'another one of my mental illnesses'

[snekdood]

i just think hes neat

#im basically just broly if he was smaller and shorter and whinier with elf ears #so what im saying is im basically broly and kish fused dsfnbvsvdhgfshgdgfhv #kish minus all the weird creepy shit #maybe links in there too. oh oh and beast boy obvs. #idk who else #maybe a hint of goku bc im worried i have the same dumb drive to challenge myself and push my limits or whatever #at least i wont endanger my family............................................................ right? right??? #my bf was wondering why i identify w broly bc of him blowing up that one planet or whatever #(never mind the entire galaxy he blew up tho ig) but thats obviously not the reason. #its the whole 'becoming an invincible destructive force of nature that has bouts of wanting to Break Things often and usually bc #of being pushed to that edge by other people' thing #you dont get it u-u i need to go to one of those places where i can SMASH shit u--u. im just that kinda guy u---u. #and sometimes it is fun to imagine smashing ur enemies even though you probably would never do that and in fact imagining it #satisfies you enough kinda deal yaknow #as cheesy and on brand as it is for me rn i just love destroying shit and i always have im sorry im this way blame god ik i have been #maybe he shouldnt have made the sound of rocks crumbling and glass breaking etc sound so good huh? ya ever think of that?? #anyways i find when i suppress these emotions it just boils up until i explode which i think only leads to more of a chance of me actually #hurting someone instead. when i pretend to be cute and flowery and people pleasey- it only makes me more resentful. but thats the #only version of me people seem willing to tolerate. and i dont think they realize how much THAT makes me resent them too #im not an innocent frail delicate uwu bean i will literally eat you 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪 #idk. its not like i want ppl to fear me either. but sometimes it feels like thats the only way to stop ppl from disrespecting me #maybe if ppl didnt assume me being nice and Not trying to start fights is a sign of being weak maybe i wouldnt feel like its necessary #to intimidate ppl to scare them away from me. #i promise babe you are Not getting away with it- i just know better not to start a scene. especially among other whities like me #yall will be vocally violent about whoever behind their backs over and over and if im the guy who actually confronts you suddenly im #the only one being an asshole. im simply playing YOUR game with you. you wanna be dishonest and hide behind a fake smile then so will i #and ill just sit here and wait until you break. and then everyone can call you crazy and confrontational instead! #i hate white people (yes ik i am a white people... doesn't mean i cant hate the way a lot of white ppl act) #things could be so much easier if you weren't a coward and just spoke your mind about how you distrust me and how quick you were #to find reasons to back up your mistrust. we coulda ended it there and avoided eachother. but now we gotta pretend we like eachother ig.

[toberlonetrombone]

I love telling people I legitimately want to die and have since I was 11 bc they look terrified

#like buddy its okay im used to this dont worry #literally my coworker was like ah yeah do your dishes immediately and i was like bro i cannot #the thought of doing them immediately makes me want to shoot myself #and he was like well that could change and im like uhh probably not buddy its the anxiety depression combo #and him and the other coworker i was talking to was like uhh #and still they were like it could change and im like well considering i spent most of yesterday in bed actively wanting to die probably not #and one of them was like were you sick???? #and i just laughed i was like no im just chronically depressed buddy ive been wanting to die since i was 11 in fact almost tried to #and they just stared at me 😂 #i told them to not worry i wont actually do anything i have too many people i dont want to hurt so alas im stuck here #and one of them was like well stay for us to please #and the other one in character for him was just silent #and then i made a joke about meds and he was like wait youre doung all this unmedicated??? #i said yeah and then we started joking about doing cocaine so ya know work conversations

[kraviolis]

writing fics for cleo shaw is fucking HARD cus i literally started watching her when she came back from purgatory and have never really looked into her past much. everything i know about cleo’s life before she died and came back has been gleaned from cleo being told about her own life by everyone else.

#im writing a canon divergence thing about like. if cleo ACTUALLY trapped tessa for joe. if she was able to go through with it. #and how her relationship with joe would evolve from that bcus she'd be in such a vulnerable place #knowing she'd hurt someone she really cares about just to save herself. because she was too much of a coward to say no. #knowing that if anyone found out it was her then she'd have absolutely no one and be alone again #joe would play the sympathetic card and be the one to comfort her because he's the only other person who knows what she did #and the rest of the bundy bunch would be angry bcus they were worried sick abt cleo bcus she dipped without a word after getting STABBED #and then LYING to them all about it #and cleo wouldnt be able to stomach being around them all for very long bcus of her guilt #and would keep pushing them away while joe encourages it with manipulation and gaslighting #and cleo would literally just keep running to joe over this because as much as he disgusts her and she doesnt trust him #hes the only one who knows her now. he knows what she's capable of. he knows her darkest fears and her biggest dreams. #and shes the only one in the city who knows he and jonathan moore are one in the same. well bryce has suspicions #and its not a romantic relationship. its not sexual. cleo has no desire for either of those #but... joe wont leave her. no matter what she did. but cleo cant say the same for any of the bundy bunch #because they dont know what terrible things she's done. #and at that point #thats when cleo starts being afraid to lose joe #which is the worst fucking outcome in the world. thats game over. thats when cleo goes from victim of a blackmail & hostage situation #to a full blown accomplice of joe's #GOD i love writing fucked up shit #krav talks #np

[erwinsvow]

oh girl jealous!reader in the kook trio is EVERYTHING i neeed more of her !! she wont be afraid to use jj as her weapon lol and when rafe confronts her shes just nonchalant too like “what do u mean? dont u have a girlfriend to worry about?”

RRRAAAAHHHH I LIVE FOR PETTY READER 🦅🦅

"why the fuck were you talkin' to that fuckin' pogue?" rafe asks, and you push your sunglasses up.

he's still in his golf clothes, clearly having stormed down from the course to find you by the outdoor tables, reading your book after having just sent jj another text.

if rafe wanted to play this game, you knew how to hit him where it hurt. you resist the urge to roll your eyes, setting down your book flat on the table next to your drink, the reason you'd even come out here.

"language, rafe. there's a toddler right over there."

"i don't fuckin' care. why the fuck were-"

"i talking to that pogue? yeah, i heard you the first time." you pick up your lemonade, taking another sip. "it's not really your business."

you look up at your best friend, as angry as you've ever seen him. you hold back a smirk since your plan worked.

"i got fuckin' top tellin' me he saw you at the beach with maybank? are you fuckin' joking?"

"top has a big mouth. he should have kept it shut."

telling topper you were sensing a spark between you and jj had been the smartest thing you'd done this entire time you'd been pursuing rafe. you knew he'd go run and tell rafe the second he saw you and the blond pogue boy walking around town together.

"kid, i swear to fuckin' god, if you go near that pogue again-"

"why do you care? don't you have your own girlfriend to worry about?" rafe looks a little dumbfounded—mission accomplished. "that's what i thought. so you worry about her, and i'll worry about jayj, okay? nice talking, rafe. see you on the course."

you take your book and walk away, leaving rafe standing behind you. your phone buzzes with a text from jj.

jayj: u free tonight?

you text back yes before you can think twice about it.

#BACK BY POPULAR DEMANDDDD!!!!! #jealous kook reader my BELOVEDDD #hope everyone likes!!! <3333 #kook trio reader #rafe cameron #rafe cameron x reader

[mrfoox]

Uh.... Kinda brought up an topic which was tough but it was okay....?

#miranda talking shit #As usual i never said all i thought bc i always have so much on my mind #But ... Basically mentioned that people but is the recent case oliver can feel like hes too careful with me #So ofc he clarified that he doesnt and just generally liked to be nice and not rude and i buy that but kept on saying #That people in my past also have thought i am more fragile and maybe proper than i actually am #And that im a very uncomplicated person when it comes to some things. For example how i feel about other people #They can tell me and do anything and that wont make me suddenly dislike them or drop them. If i like a person already #... Theres a point where i do not care what else they have done or do? At least ive not encountered anything that have changed it for me #Ive never met someone who killed someone or something but... Who have opinions or have done things or do things which i dont care about #For example drugs. I havent tried anything and probably wont but i know multiple who have or are using and that doesnt make me... Think #Less of them? So. I explained that and said that he had never said something to me that has hurt me or something. Or then i brought up #The incident a few weeks ago and said that time i got hurt. But then i cried for an hour and realized he probably said what he said #Bc he was scared and worried. And it wasnt about me at all. So then i was just ... Fine. I wasnt planning to say anything about that even #But told him anyway. And then touched on the topic that i... Do things... Without thinking about it in the moment #And then realize afterwards its somewhat intentional? And its not something i like to say bc i feel like a bad person? #We didn't discuss that much bc he had to go so idk if ill even bring that up again unless the topic is close but yeah. #He said it was a good talk and i agree. Im always worried to share anything i think or how i work with people bc i fear they'll think im #Weird. But i did it and he seemed fine and i was stable enough. I think he wont care and thats what i like about him but also #I know bc we are so different... It's more likely we misunderstand each other. And honestly i cant shake the feeling i scare him a bit #Bc i feel so much and i want to talk about everything. Thats why i somewhat hesitate to say some things #He also said he have a history of. Dropping people or having his opinion of someone shift bc of something. Thus then it make sense #He got freaked out by me that time. Bc he thinks in his terms and for him others can be changed by small incidents so he thought i had #Changed mine. Thus the 'ive ruined it. I ruined our relationship and it was so good' It should scare me more that he said that his opinion #Of others can change so quickly and big. Bc... Im anxious but for some reason i.. Dont feel worried about that? Maybe bc i have always had #The mindset that people will leave me in the end no matter what and that i always care more about someone than they me. So i dont expect #Anything of anyone i like... But today was interesting talk tbh. I love discussing things with him. He's so different from me it's fresh #Possibly my autistic ass being hyperfocused on him and intrested bc of that. This is kinda how i was with Fabian at some point #He felt like an interesting individual bc he was so different from me so i was obsessed with talking with him about things #I enjoy it and i wont share how i think so i dont scare anyone so.... Should be okay

[dirt-str1der]

Was thinking about my ideal kazu/maji okinawa date again and realised that i fucked up with the late night jellyfish sting piss romantic beach walk because it leaves no opening for majima to get incredibly sunburnt in addition to being stung by a jellyfish

#Yakuza loveblog #i guess i could make them go out for two days and have the sunburn be on the second day ........ #see majima will comment on how tan kiryu got and then kiryu is like huh ... i didnt really notice haha its only been a few months after all #and then the next morning majima wakes up with his skin bright red and flaking after he played in the sand with the kids #but the jellyfish sting has to be at night because otherwise kiryu will be too shy to take his pants off #and he is so not going to just piss through his beach shorts you get me. hes better than that #like if it was daylight then kiryu would have actually gone for majima’s own dick and #told him IM AIMING. PISS AS HARD AS YOU CAN .. which is not what majima wants and he can tell that kiryuwill only risk taking his own pants #off under moonlight. at a time when all his kids should be asleep so they dont step out the front door and see his entire ass out on the #beach. kiryu is always thinking about his kids (unless hes under threat of going to jail in which case he will be like yum!jail i lovejail) #so if you really back him into a corner and majima starts to cry like ahhh it hurts so bad please i need you to pee on me. his thoughts wont #get stalled by the ‘oh no what if the kids see me’ and that wont leave him enough time to think ‘we should probably get a doctor instead of #my piss’ and just stand over majima and pee on him because theres literally nothing stopping him. and he will be like ...’probably shouldnt #have done that’ after its all over and majima is like Ah dontcha worry. think of it as a bonding activity #see you cant just ‘give kiryu a reason to pee on you’ you also have to ‘give kiryu NO reason NOT to pee on you’ and sometimes this involves #pressuring him quickly enough that the common sense doesnt have time to kick in. like hes already doing it and he doesnt halfass things #hes not going to start thinking ‘huh. maybe this isnt such a good idea’ midway through the act. if you tell kiryu to pee he will damn well #empty his bladder because thats just the kind of man he is #i have a put a lot of thought into this. its because i know in my heart that it could definitely have happened if kiryu just manned up #and called majima over on a little vacay to hang out with his kids and make merry with them and make love to kiryu also #like as respectful as majima is of kiryus boundaries (and he is VERY respectful at least after yk1 where he missed him too much to leave him #alone) i think he should get at least this from him. play a harmless piss prank on him like haha you peed on me when you didnt have to #and also i think kiryu should piss like a hose splattering sgaonst the wall and spraying everywhere wide shot high pressure

[pjackk]

Yep another miesrable "F my life" moment just hapened to me i basicaly walked 10 miles up the mountain to get to behind to the gas station to see my plug to buy me my with my favorite delta 8 pipe rocks and grab another 6er of tall boy steelies and i forgot i had my lit pre roll from brunch at the Country Grocerys buffet and i tripped on a congom on they away out and fell directly into a puddle of oil which normaly is fine when i fall and hurt myself ebcause nobody gives a fuck about me but the pants got stained wich is not unusual for me either but this time with motor guel or some shit but my pre roll was smoldering still and it set my ptants on fire so i dive in to the muddy ditch to put wet mut on my body to estinguish the fire and it and it shook the fuck up out of my steelos and the bursted all over me and it put out the fire but now i dont have any booze at all and my delta 7 "Fuck n chill" rocks burned tf up and i dont got nothgin left and my pants were all fucked up so i had to go home thru the woods wihtout them and it was so dark out and my peice of shit phone died even thouhg it was at 27% and i couldnt see shit and i was lost for along time so i decide to go to sleep in the woods to find my way back in day time + the animals sounds were high key scary as fuck so i cover myself in leafs and dirt and sticks and mud and other shit to hide from them and i woke up in the adfternoon still tired as fuck cuz i dont sleep good without some shit to put me asleep like my medicidne prescribed from Dr Maltlikker if U catch my drift lol or Dr thc Gummy lol if u get what im saying and these stupid little cunts with 22 rifles were plinking at me and tlaking about how they wanted to shoot my big ugly rusty head right in the head or to shoot a hole in my nippels so i got up and trioed to get them to stop i begged but htey just kept lauhging at me and shooting at me and it realy hurt my feelings so i pick one up and threw it into the sky then they all ran away screaming which is a classic "Dont fuck with honest joe,because he might try to hurt you or kill you if u piss him of moment" but the miracle of the story if that i went to walk 20 feet to findm y way out and i found my busted as shit old as fuck camry with a litle gas left ive been looking for it for a few days cuz i did a lil cruising when i was blackout and did lots of crazy shit i didnt remember at all but it was all on my story and 100 ppl were snaping and whatsapping me telling me to kill myself when i checked my huwawai thats how u know u had a crazy fcking night when u get that shit!!😂😂 but it had a litle gas left and it wasnt super busted so i was able do get back on I81 and soem stupid fcking crazy ass north carolina motha fuckas are driving insanly as fuck as usual and they keep almost hiting me while im just trying to read my fukcking phone to get rid of all these stupid messages and shit i still dont know how to use the app and its hard to type shit with my hands but eventualy i got back to my fuck buddys houe im crashing there even though he hates me now but i have nowehre left since ive been down on my luck and im realy not able to pay the bills no more with my online black jack/DarkRp trial moderator gigs and basicaly he owes me cuaz i got him 1 pack of menthols back when he was 19 and Sleepy Joe Brnadon banned them since "Freedom to do real shit" was aparently removed from the costitution when he was elected😂 but anywas now im sitting here bored as fuck with nothign at all do do cuz i got nothing to get fucked up wthi and i spent the rest of my meony on shit thats burned and blasted im realy worried i wont be able to sleep tongith since i cant get fucked up and thats when the demons starts to flow in my head i might do something realy bad to myself like pluck out my screws or some shit if u care abotu my which u probably dont my cashuapp is $pjack9 im desprate for another bottle to numb my p[ain away

Pic of my ride when i found it thankuly it still had gas😋