#? idk i'm shutting up now tho

[astrxealis]

if i do "?" in text i'm genuinely tilting my head like a dog if i do "!!" my eyes are sparkling and i am figuratively wagging my tail if i am IN ALL CAPS i'm screaming from the top of a mountain with all the power i can with love and the strength of RAGHHH within me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry guys. i will not shut up. #honestly i really miss it here on tumblr SNIFFS ..... i say this sm tho but damn real/offline life has really been fun <33 #anyway. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow me #very good day ty to those who greeted me anywhere or even just liked a post as a little hi hbd or just acknowledgement ya know arghhh arghhh #I'M SO TIRED NOW ACTUALLY i'm on 5 battery but watch me keep talking (writing) some more #i'm insane btw i went out w friends earlier this tuesday (love them sm) and then. they pitched in to buy me the origin of species bcs i've #been wanting the book LMFAO AS A BDAY GIFT IDK IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME BUT GENUINELY I'M SO HAPPY (NERD) <333 #and today i've talked a lot again w one best friend and another of my dearest friends and another too and idk fun day fr #okay i shut up now #that's a lie btw who knows when i will shut up #i might shut up now actually actually #actually i like rambling it's so fun teehee #BUT YEAH TY AGAIN ... genuinely makes me so happy i feel so giddy i was scared today would turn out bad and hey it isn't perfect but to me #it kinda is. in its own way. imperfectly perfect ^_^ <3 yeehaw!!

[b4kuch1n]

gonna start subjecting u lot to my rambling abt classic viet authors

#bakuspeech #nhân văn+giai phẩm #thats gonna be the tag I guess #anyways. idk shit abt shakespeares. gonna give yall a taste of what that feels like #jk that's mean I just like rereading this stuff once in a while #it's fun! I'm recovering from viet public literature education on main now #like. idk sometimes I talk to foreign friends and we both realize how we each are privy to #hundreds to thousands of years of stories and records and writing #that the outside world knows basically nothing about. #it's insane to me every time. I'm entering vibe mode. I will never shut up again #I feel like in ~5yrs I will become the most wrong person about nguyễn trãi specifically #and I need to own it early. so this is actually not gonna be a learning moment for anyone #actually tho it's so funny I'm invested in nguyễn trãi as a historical figure I don't even like his writing #it's mid! sad to say this but it's aight at best. nguyễn khuyến is much more my speed #and YOU will learn what all of that just now means! one of these days! when I get to it! #for now. oh baby we are gonna talk so much shit.

[squarebracketsmileyface]

I'm working on something that's not Sorry It's Locked right now (perhaps something that i was inspired to pick up again by seeing Sickmutes skully and the operator art hehehe) so have a snippet of it.

kinda nsfw? I guess what Alex says kinda insinuates the situation they're in (...and y'know, smut is just what I write for the most part, i consider myself a smut writer) putting it under a thingy anyway because i talk a bit more about the fic, and that is definitely a bit nsfw

Anyway, no idea what this fic's gonna be called, but it's so self indulgent and has weird ass kinks in it. like, normal weird like tentacle sex and gunplay and super rough fucking, and also just, ones that are probably a little too weird to be considered normal weird? like getting filled with pitch black, inhuman cum so much it leaks out of your eyes and comes up your throat💀 so... yeah. theres that i guess.

I'm gonna have so much fun with it.

God knows why I ever stopped writing it. got caught up in sorry its locked probably

#I'm hoping to keep it to somewhere between 20-40k words? I think? #A lot of stuff happens in it. yknow. multiple rounds. the operator showing up and joining in. all that jazz #It might be a while before this one gets posted tho cos i wanna upload the whole thing at once #even if i have to split it into chapters to make it readable lol #idk. anyway #marble hornets #jaylex #who's surprised that its them again? not me #they're just so easy to project onto and they just seem the kinkiest to me #i love brian and tim but they always seem either vanilla or like they go down the heavy praise kinda route instead of sadism and all that #except for that one brilex fic i uploaded this morning. but that was super short so it doesnt count #i didn't really get to sink my teeth into their dynamic in that one like i will with this #sorry i'll shut up now

[the-m0th-king]

Me, like ten episodes into season one of Metalocalypse: Oh they are SO dating each other

#damn it toby #metalocalypse #i've seen clips over the years but only recently started watching the show lmao #am I referring to a specific ship? #no i am not they're in a polycue now #like if I HAD to choose a ship I actually really like swisgar x toki and nathan x pickles #but those are like the most popular (that I see) ships #so thats def influencing it #murderface is at least bi if not gay and VERY in the closet fr #there's no way that man is straight hes def got internalized homophobia going on #I say they're in a polycue cause I think murdertooth is actually really cute tho ngl #also i'm highkey kinda buzzed/drunk rn so if this sounds incoherent thats why lmao #catch me fist bumping with pickles we're both drunk irishmen who are trans #idk if it's canon but pickles is trans in my heart #yes this is largely because I saw the headcanons and im running with it shut up

[yelenapines]

watched tbosas today. needless to say i am obsessed with the red uniform skirt and they should have been wearing those the whole movie. thank you.

#tbosas #much more to say about this movie but thats it for now #actually no lets TALK #they literally changed how the games end which is fine but like how is no one noticing #also um clemensia dropped in got bit and thats it?? bye bye? have fun? #also this annoying bitch in my grade said she hates sejanus in the movie but loves him in the book um please get his name out of your mouth #if you're gonna be speaking filth about my son #ugh #anyways um rachel ate #love how the movie can tell the whole story tho i *am* conflicted about my feelings on how fast paced it was #and then again not seeing his inner monologue is a problem but like it's a movie so idk #also ofc the vibe is different between parts 1 and 2 and part 3 idk why people dont like it i think its cool and like thats the point to se #his evolution #sejanus' death was horrible like i'm sorry the mockingjays reproducing his last cries for help are just. #anyhoo #i will not shut up ok let's keep going #ik that like ppl are simping for tom blyth and as u should tbh same but you COULD NOT CHANGE HIM OR FIX HIM IK ITS A JOKE BUT IT BOTHERS ME #SO MUCH #like ik it's being silly and goofy but it just rubs me the wrong way cause like its not true #also Tigris and Snow's story is so fucking sad kms #also TF WAS THAT MOMENT IN THE ARENA WHERE SEJANUS ALMOST KISSED CORYO WE ALL SAW IT OK #sejanus is not straight at all lmao he spent the whole movie batting eyelashes at coryo but ALSO i love the angst of the marcus x sejanus i #idea i made up #also coriolanus is so fucking goofy like bitch pls “mY oLd SeLf. I kIlLeD hIm To Be WiTh YoU” bestie sit down #ok rant over #yelenaposts #sejanus plinth

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

I need you to know I had a flower in my hair

#these are the final pics I'm posting from that day i swear sksksksosos #i will shut up about that day now 😅 #who knows maybe I'll even delete these posts idk #the flower was on my bad side tho lol so all the pics where the flower looks far more obvious just give weird uncanny valley vibes #idk it gives me the ick #portraits of a cruel mistress #portraits of the siren #c'est moi!

[lyxchen]

I don't like this season

#it has some good moments #but i keep wanting something to happen #like stuff happens but also nothing happens #and everyone is just sad and miserable and hating each other #like last season it was also like that but there were still enough happy moments #now it just feels unbalanced #and i don't like that they fully split apart amerie and malakai #they were so good together #and rowan sucks #like i know he's (spoiler) birdpsycho but he also just sucks in general #and he's so damn boring #we get it #amerie hurt you (or your brother idk) when you were little and never got (in your opinion) proper punishment and now that you're at her #school you wanna make life a living hell for her #i get it now get over it #(i'm still at episode six tho so i could be wrong and also no spoilers please) #also where is sasha's redemption arc????? #i feel like she got even worse #cause she isn't just entitled and selfish now she's also a hypocrite #like season one sasha would have picked that cup up and thrown it in the trash #and she deserved that redemption arc #but instead we get to see how deep spider problems actually are ohh poor baby boy :(( shut the fuck up #why does he get all this characterization and then they won't even let sasha feel one genuine emotion???? #also #WHY IS THERE SO LITTLE QUINNI?????? #and why would darren scream at her and say such mean things to her #i relate to her so much and all her friends just dropped her like that #like the thing happened at the zoo and then darren and amerie had like one line of 'oh where is quinni i miss her' #and they both didn't even bother to ho talk to her or make up #heartbreak high

[slushed-puppy]

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#i downloaded hinge in the hopes theres less creeps #but #then this guy commented on my thingy #mine was “wont shut up talking about overthrowing government” #and hes like “you barely look like you have a handle on your own life 🤣” #and I'm so intrigued how did he know?? #theres barely anything on my profile #that may be it? idk.. #but he's insulting me slightly so obv im gonna reply 🥴 #do i just have look now tho idfk

[byanyan]

byan getting angry, sometimes to the point of violence, when someone tries to diagnose them in any capacity.

#yes even in a professional capacity when they're sitting with a psychiatrist #they are FINE. there is NOTHING wrong with them. #nothing they've been through has affected them deeply enough to affect their development or behaviour or thought processes or anything #they're not normal but they're not not normal in a mental illness kind of way okay???? #and their brain is wired the same way everyone else's is so shut the fuck up and take that back #by which i mean a lot of their appointments with counsellors and psychiatrists usually end in byan shouting or throwing things #or even biting someone or simply shutting down and refusing to cooperate #........it's actually fully possible they've been in a psych ward at some point i'm realizing now while i think about this & #also the fact that they have overdosed... it's actually probable and incredibly likely and idk how that hasn't occurred to me #before now. especially as someone who's spent time in a psych ward. #new thing to ponder upon for a bit ig even tho that wasn't the point of this post at all akjfhsd #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me. #overdose cw #i feel like the mention of that needs a tag but i'm not sure if anything else might :x

[theforgottendaydreamer]

doctors and nurses should be forced to work in retail before being allowed anywhere near patients

#had to tell the stupid nurse “if i'm not familiar with any of this why am i expected to know everything about it? it's your job to explain” #“i- but-” no no shut up. i'm done with these things. honestly. shut up. #put them in their place. don't be scared to raise your voice when they act allmighty #“you're old enough to-” shut up. would you tell that to someone who's +30? #just because i'm young it doesn't mean you can talk to me like that. at all. stay in your fucking place. #i did every fucking thing by the book. shut the fuck up. it's not my fault if you guys don't fucking communicate #and you know. this happened to me when i got surgery. one doctor told me to take idk what before it. #then the aneathesiologist gave a second dose to me. and i was like “hm. i think i already took that one tho” #“oh really? you shouldn't have” #sir?? it's your colleague's fault. he prescribed it to me. said “take it before the surgery” and i did #how was i supposed to know that the two of you don't communicate?? #“what do you study?” “translation.” “ok then you know languages and this isn't your field of exp-” fucking exactly #so why the fuck are you coning at me?? i'm not saying anything #imagine pulling up to the hospital and a nurse decides to patronise you for being a patient?? uh?? #sir your people told me to do this and that. wtf. #coming* #“say something if you get lightheaded” i'd rather fucking die than rely on you. this is between me and god now. shut up. #* anaesthesiologist. i can spell. #“ok but if you got a weak immune system you should have-” sir. sir. i do what you people tell me to. i can't fucking do whatever i please. #you prescribe me the wrong stuff & then complain when you make a mistake as if it were my fault?? wow. #medical malpractice

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[pridewhatpride]

Seeing Idate and Sal art has made me realize that I can do what I want...

I can draw them as a ship fuck everyone lessgo

#shut the fuck up ulri #no I'm so excited tho idk I've been hyper about Idate for two days now

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

can someone tell comedians that being ‘edgy’ in comedy doesnt just mean being complete cunts lol??? 

#yes this is about both the dave chapelle thing and ricky gervais thing because apparently they cant shut the fuck up about trans people #the early 00s was such a detriment to the comedy world istg... #and all the ricky gervais fanboys in the comments on twitter being like 'it's a joke cant u just take a joke' #when they get mad when someone questions their 'manliness' or suggests they're anything other than straight like... fuck OFF #there's a great clip being shared from nish kumar's comedy special from a few yrs back #when he talked about edgy comics (esp gervais) and how they've always gone after the minority of the moment(tm) #so in the 70s it was poc and in the 80s and 90s it was gay people and now it's trans people #because they're often performing to an audience of like minded people who not only see the lives #and pains experienced by minorities as easy fodder to laugh at BUT are also boring enough to not #be able to make any decent jokes or anecdotes about themselves and have to resort to mocking others instead #and the whole 'dont like dont watch' thing doesnt work #not just because the stuff gets shared on socials anyway #but also because there is an entire group of people who went to that comedy and laughed at that jokes #and who you know now see your entire existence as a trans person as a fucking joke #idk i'm probs not making sense this whole thing rly fucking annoys me tho #personal

[bitegore]

i had the wildest fucking dream last night. Tfw your friend group goes to a maze, it's really boring, decides to have an orgy instead, and then after tries to leave the maze but the maze is now really mad and wants to kill you so the rest of it is like a slasher horror where the "slasher" is a building that can only move in certain ways moving at the right time to kill you super gorily and super dead

#red rambles #it was GREAT #most of the time the machines wouldn't kill you if you were like... smart about it so you could avoid getting killed if you didn't touch #anything sharp and were very careful about avoiding getting in the lines of motion of anything that moved #but we had to go through these big cement gates that slammed open and shut really fast and you had to trigger them open and hope they #didn't shut on you. and right at the znd before i woke up the structure decided we were doing a little too well and started getting reall #vicious. cutting people off between the doors or trying to catch thzm #picking us off like flies. not me tho i just said no thank you i am in charge and casually scooted myself out of danger with my 'person who #is dreaming' powers lmao #right before I woke up there were only three of us left and ? i think one was wildrider. like the stunticon. not sure why #anyway he gets cut off during this awful climb through a pathway lined with razors you can't stumble on or you die (harder now because #like there's bodies in the way) #he gets cut off between doors and gets pulled out into some sort of turned-off machinery somehow which implies someone started like #physically coming after us. we couldn't see much but we could hear the struggle #then i'm pretty sure they killed him by shoving him facefirst against a spinning wheel or something #idk there was a lot of blood and a LOT of screaming and also the machine turned on. we like did sort of try to get the door back open but #for the most part we just kikd of went 'oh no' #anyway then i woke up but i'm curious if when it got down to just me if things would've changed #it was a really fun dream fr

[ihamtmus]

they couldn't even let him have the spotlight for a week? okay 😶

#hobi #my post #idk what i should think.. #but what i think is that it's messed up and he deserved so much better #well i'm still gonna give him my undivided attention @big hit sorry you can't interest me in anything else for now #i wish they had waited tho because now i'm angry instead of excited for the new song.. sigh #i wonder if their schedule is really so packed they're going to release a new thing (or several) every week until the ''hiatus'' ends? #or is it just for hobi's album release? #btw weren't they in dire need of a rest what is going ON #anyway i'm SORRY for being so negative it's late and i can't fall asleep and i guess i'm bitter about it all rn #and the way the whole twitter is talking about this collab instead of.. you know.. a member's DEBUT ALBUM that dropped not even a week ago! #aaaghhh sorry. sorry i'm. shutting up now.