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ootori-sibs · 3 years

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Kyoya's second shot

Episode sixteen: Boy's night!

Tw: hallucinations (mentioned), suicidal ideation.

10:29 - I haven't told the hosts that I've been grounded, they would likely ask why.

11:42 - Haruhi is taking the day off, almost didn't note this down, due to its obviousness. The hosts are attempting to fill me in on what I missed; they are attempting to claim she was cornered by many more then she was,

And scolding me for not paying attention.

"C'mon Kyoya-senpai, we're trying to fill you in here!" Hikaru whined, frowning at him, "what are you even writing?"

"I am paying attention, what I'm writing is notes on the situation." He rolled his eyes, what was it with the hosts and assuming he wasn't paying attention? Did they not know how he saw everything?

“What were you up to?” Honey had piped up curiously, “when Haru-chan was hurt? Tama-chan said you were busy.”

Well Kyoya couldn’t just tell him that Honey’s own brother was the reason for Kyoya’s absence. So he merely shrugged, “personally, I don’t see why that’s important information,” he also didn’t want to tell them he’d gotten hurt- they would be sure to ask too many questions.

Hikaru had been a bit rude this entire term, and this rule held firm now. He stared at Kyoya in suspicion, tone brash, “well it is important considering how you've been so damn rude to her this whole year!” It appeared he was angry. This was bad news, if one of the hosts doubted him, then it couldn't be too long until the others did as well. So Kyoya would have to quell their fears quickly- he may have to tell part of the truth.

He sighed, glancing down and putting on the expression of sadness. “Well if you’re going to accuse me, and truly believe i’d ever do that, then i am forced to tell you; I was in the hospital, I had sprained my ankle.” Silence fell over the hosts as he said that, eyes going to Kyoya’s ankle. Kyoya glanced back at Hikaru, seeing the instant guilt in the ginger’s face, “I didn’t want to tell you, because I felt it would be selfish when Haruhi required your entire attention.” That’s the kicker, the instan flash of guilt in his fellow hosts’ eyes as they realised how uncaring they’d been.

Tamaki gasped, clinging to Kyoya, "aw noo! Kyoooyyyaaa! That could never be selfish! You should have told us you were injured, we wouldn't have gotten angry or anything like that."

He had always been the sweetest person, Kyoya had to adore him even more in this moment. He just sighed and leant into Tamaki's touch, something he never did. The hosts reacted as he'd expected, surprise and the obvious reassessment of how they'd viewed any and all of Kyoya's recent actions- even Tamaki was surprised, pausing in his big dramatic comforting to wrap his arms around Kyoya gently, he was so warm… why was Tamaki always so warm?

Hikaru had apologized to Kyoya for being so accusatory, and Kyoya just sighed, "it's fine… I understand." He did, he understood, Hikaru was entirely correct.

"Hmm," Tamaki set his chin on Kyoya's head, he was always so clingy but Kyoya had to admit he loved it, "why don't we have a sleepover tonight? Just the boys?" Oh fuck, Kyoya knew that was going to come back to bite him. The other hosts seemed really keen on the idea, nodding and adding fun things they could do. Kyoya absolutely hated the idea of ruining his friends fun, especially if he was finally going to get the quality time with his friends that he'd wanted for so long.

He sighed, pushing Tamaki away. The poor king looked so confused and concerned, Kyoya couldn't look him in the eyes, hanging his head- the light hit his glasses in the wonderful way that hides his eyes. "I'm afraid I will not be able to join you."

"What? Why?" Tamaki sounded so hurt in that moment, but there was so much concern in his tone. Kyoya felt so much guilt as he heard the other boy's questioning.

"I've been grounded…" a heavy breath left his lips, he felt as if he had admitted to a crime, "I won't be able to attend the after-school session either, as father has forbidden extracurriculars for a week."

There was a silence that fell over the hosts, their expressions one of a deep shock- Kyoya never got in trouble, not to this degree at least. Not once before had any of his family been grounded either, the most being Akito getting forbidden from attending certain parties. Kyoya is an utter disappointment, and now the hosts could tell. "What did you do Kyo-chan? Why are you grounded?"

He swallowed in shame, not wanting to explain, he simply sighed, trying to come up with an excuse, "it's… it's nothing, you shouldn't worry about it. Enjoy your sleepover." Kyoya went to stand up, but Tamaki grabbed his arm, pulling him back.

"Kyoya wait, are you sure there's nothing we can do? If it's nothing then surely you can just talk to him about it? Maybe I can speak to him for you?"

"No!" Kyoya snapped, clasping his hands over his mouth, he never yelled, so the fact that it made him panic clearly showed the hosts that something was wrong, "I… I mean, it's not nothing but I just don't want to talk about such things, it's really not a big deal. Just have your stupid sleepover without me." With that, he yanked his arm away from Tamaki, grabbing his bag and heading to sit and wait in the classroom.

12:23 - The hosts will be having a sleepov Tamaki's being s The hosts know I am grounded and will be unable to join them for any activities for a week.

12:26 - I somehow feel even more alone

He didn't even help with the lunchtime session, ignoring the texts and missed calls. It didn't matter, it wasn't like he was of use anyway, he could do his one job from here. Which was how he spent all his freetime that day: doing the club finances. Tamaki sat next to him in every class, so it was nearly impossible to ignore him and Kyoya had to resort to speaking only when the question asked of him was of academic importance. It hurt him to ignore Tamaki like this, he loved him so much after all- but it had to be done, Kyoya had to keep the hosts from discovering the mess that he'd become.

It wouldn't be permanent anyway, his being a mess. Once he was with Tamaki, everything would get better, the world would be good again. Tamaki was so special, so wonderful, and Kyoya only needed a little bit of love to survive, and he'd fight for it; that love, he'd fight like he'd never fought before. He wanted to kill himself so much, but he promised himself that he wouldn't let that happen, in this moment he swore to himself that he could never kill himself until he had Tamaki.

I refuse to die until I am married.

He'd forgotten to write the date, he always wrote the date. He supposed it didn't really matter as it hadn't been too long since his last entry, only an hour or two. Besides; it wasn't like it was something that had happened in a specific time.

The first thing he did when he got home was breakdown in tears, leaning against the front door and sobbing. He knew this was dangerous; father could come along at any moment. So he got up, and he tried to wipe his tears, heading up the stairs to his room. Once he got up into his room, he broke down again, on the floor and sobbing. He felt horrible, he felt terrible, he couldn't breathe, he was shaking through sobs and gasping for breath. Kyoya managed to drag himself away from the door and to the window, laying down there and just sobbing his little heart out, staring out the window.

He'd never been grounded before, he'd never been such a disappointment in his life. He didn't know what to do or how to handle this, it was entirely new to him. Kyoya was a mess in the moment, tears spilling out in ways it shouldn't be; Kyoya wasn't supposed to be weak, Kyoya wasn't supposed to be a failure, Kyoya was supposed to be just like his brothers and perfect in every way.

He'd been laying there for a while, just crying and wishing he was never born. He had turned his phone off about three hours ago, he wanted to ignore the world for a bit. There was a knock… but it wasn't at his door, it was at his window. Hm, that wasn't where knocks were supposed to come from. Kyoya glanced over and- oh what the fuck? Why was Tamaki here?

"What the… Tamaki??" He sat up, rushing to open the window. He watched as Tamaki climbed in through the window, followed by the rest of the boys. It was certainly a spectacle and Kyoya found himself chuckling at the sight. "Why are you here??"

Tamaki sat up, smiling brightly, "well we couldn't just have a sleepover without you! Since you're grounded, I figured we'd have the sleepover here!"

God… that was the dumbest thing Kyoya had ever heard. He stared at Tamaki for a few minutes, unsure how to react, "are you trying to get me in trouble?"

"Noo! We wouldn't do that to you!" Tamaki clung to him, rubbing their faces together, Kyoya's face went red. "We'll be good, I promise."

Kyoya nodded, "alright then, but you have to be quiet." He stood up, wiping his tears and heading to his bed, were the hosts were gathering.

17:01 - For once, I feel loved.

So the hosts sat quietly around Kyoya's bed, whispering in hushed voices. It was almost fun to hide like this, the hosts almost made the fear fun. They spoke of spooky stories- the perfect topic for such a hushed tone. Keeping the lights off, they spoke of ghosts and ghouls, zombies and other assorted horrors.

When it was Kyoya's turn, he took the torch that was being passed around and took a level breath in. "Recently, only wednesday, Tamaki spent the night at my house," he began, noticing how confused the hosts were, that this story wasn't spooky in the slightest, he almost smiled, "it was after his argument with Haruhi. I had waited for him during it, though that part isn't important. What is important is the fact that I found myself waking up late at night, and whatever had woken me, didn't stir Tamaki in the slightest." He recalled the thing he saw, shivering, "it wasn't a human, it was too tall to be human. It was… almost a shadow with the way it looked, not fully corporeal…" he glanced back up at the hosts, noticing they looked a mix of hooked and concerned, he continued, "it flickered in the sliver of moonlight that came through the curtains, it's eyes gave off more light then that though. It was grabbing at the bedsheets, staring down at us with bright white eyes- I would have woken Tamaki if I had been able to move. It was a horrifying creature, not of this world. It caused no visible harm, but I still believe my story is superior.”

The hosts looked at him in shock, Tamaki's hands were shaking, “is that real? Did you really see it?”

Kyoya paused, god- did that make him sound crazy? He didn’t want the hosts to think him crazy. “N… no, no, it was… just a story. Nothing to worry about.” He smiled, passing the torch along. He was mentally kicking himself for having been so supid, why did he tell them that story? Why didn’t he make something up? Ugh, he was so stupid.

The night continued nicely, with the hosts sharing stories and talking about everything and nothing. For once in what felt like forever, Kyoya felt calm, he felt at peace. Eventually they went to sleep, all curled up on the bed in a big pile. Kyoya was incredibly warm, with his head resting on Mori and Tamaki clinging to his torso, the twins had their legs over his and were snoring quite softly. He was comfortable… he wished this could happen more often.

In the morning, the hosts snuck back out the window, not wanting to get caught. Kyoya woke up alone, colder than when he'd gone to bed. His first thought was that he wished they'd stayed, then he remembered that he was grounded and felt his heart sink. He noticed that the maid's had left him some coffee, but it was out of his reach, and he didn't want to get out of bed… so he just flops down and tries to go back to sleep.

#kyoya ootori #ouran high school host club #tamaki souh #tamakyo #kaoru hitachiin #hikaru hitachiin #takashi morinozuka #mitsukuni haninozuka #secondshot

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eshithepetty · 4 years

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Steven Universe Future final episodes liveblog

I decided to write down my feelings while watching this time, to make it more special, so here’s my reaction under the read more!

Alright, here we goooo~ ;;v;; I’m so very scared

I just watched some season 1 eps so this is gonna be,,, painful!

Everything is NOT fine!!

My heart’s legitimately beating hard rn, I’m just mustering the courage to press play and watch

Okay. Here we go for reals.

He’s going back!! And he’s so big and pink, gosh. This form initially threw me off and due to it’s role in Fragments it made me kinda scared, but it’s actually super cute, even if angsty

And oh no, they’re going to see him like this,,,,

mood

Oh! Also diamond eyes,,, ugh, they’re really pretty, I’m a sucker for inhuman eyes (and inhuman traits in general)

Oh, baby,,, also, Connie!!!

Ugh, her voice sounds so worried,,,

Oh right, they haven’t spoken… these past 3 episodes have felt a lot longer than they actually were. I’m glad they’re talking now, though!!

“I’m great! Never been better!” DJFBHDVDDFGJK STEVEN

YES YOU HAVE STEVEN

Baby,,,,,,

Also wHERE ARE THE GEMS??

“There’s nothing to worry about, I’m okay.” HFGJHFGSGHSTEBES YOU’RE NOT!! FUCK!!! AND CONNIE KNOWS IT!!!!

Don’t hang up on her!!! Steven!! noooooo,,,,

ohhhnh…. oh noo,,,, son,, Oh No;;;;;

OH NO;;;;;

BABYYYY aGH

hhhhhbaby,,,,

“I’m Steven Universe” ugh, the way he says that,,, the emotion there,,,,, the parallel to episode 1,,,, fgsjgsjdgs Zach is so talanted

AHH STEBSE

AAHHHHHH MOMS COME HELP JUST DON’T FREAK HIM OUT

JSFGSJDFGSDGSDF STEBEN,,,,

I feel like I’m just gonna be keysmashing throughout all of this, my heart hurts,,,,

YOU’RE NOTTTT GUYS DON’T LISTEN TO HIM

jfghdghdjfgdhfgd

“We’ll take your word for it.” HFDGJDFGHDG GARNET DON’T!!!! YOU FKING,,, DUMBASSES

STEVENNNNN NOOO

fast boi,,, but this is such a bad idea, gosh I’m worried

I’m just remembering “burn little homeworld to the ground” and I’m fUVKIN SCAREDD

Oh! Pretty garden!

Volley!! It’s so good to see her!!

yeah, maybe it’s not the best idea to just,,, run around looking like that. I mean, not that it’s in any way BAD or that Stebes should be in any way ashamed or hiding but… I’m just surprised noone’s asking about what’s happening?

oh no,,,, is he gonna bring them to life and they’ll get agressive from his misery,,,

his laugh tho;;; he’s so desperate to prove to himself that he’s not terrible,,, oh baby,,,,,

THAT MLEM WAS ADORABLE WHAT

OH NOO

Agh, I’m so scared, but also, that was kinda hilarious

STEVEN

GARNET??? Why are you here?? Oh, she probably foresaw needing to be here, and the CGs do work here, but also, she’s a therapist?? Can you PLEASE also do that for your son???

“Steven’s here to help” that’s both cute and disturbing, my god

STEVENNN

Awe, the hug….

Ame’s outfit!! but seriously, how did they all get here so fast? there has probably been more time passed than I initially though

“You good, bud?” HE’S NOT, AME, PLEASE HELP YOUR LITTLE BRO AGH

Also, this place is full of lava and dangerous objects, oh no,,, nothing good can possibly come from this I’m TERRIFIED

GHgJjjgskg he’s so obviously fake it hurts to see and hear

Also, bispearl moment! They’re spending time together!!

Fabulous. It’s great to see more of th pearls, always, they’re all great <3

Okay, how’s he gonna fuck up this one

tiny hammer,,,, oh no. he’s gonna be too strong…..

OH NO

Oh no,,,, Bis I’m sorry,,,, Steven, sweetie, please go calm down,,,, CGs, why aren’t you doing anything??? Help the boy!!! Get him some tea and leave him to rest!!! I mean, he probably doesn’t want to, cause that would lend him space to think, and he doesn’t want to do that, but he has to! He has to be honest about how bad it feels!! So that he can heal and move on!

tootles,,, Stebes…

God, I’m sp sad for this boy, my son, no,,,,

Steven, sweetie, you’re a disaster rn, please don’t;;;

SHE’S JUST LAYING THERE. LIKE A CAT. ADORABLE

Oh no,,,,,

Woah, Onion!! But seriously, what’s up with that child???

Oh NO!!

THE BEETLES!!!

Oh! That was really nice, great job son!!!

“I did it…” oh my gosh, he’s so desperate, it hurts hhhh

“I didn’t mess anything up!” Steven, honey-

Oh NOo,, fuck,,, FUCK,,

STEVENNHHNN

Aah,,, STeven,,,, god, fuck, this freaking kid, I’m gonna start crying,,,

Connie! Thank god, they’re actually ready to talk. Let’s see if Steves is, and if they’ll be able to listen. carefully.

Also, I just realised, where is Jasper??

Oh my god,,,

HSDFBGSDKJFBSHELP THE BOY HE’S LITERALLY SUBCONCIOUSLY BEGGING STEBEEH STEP OUT OF YOUR DENIAL;;;

Grego,,,

Yea, they’re already worried!!!

Don’t trap him!!! GOD

Nonononononono

Yea, he didn’t tell them fgfgs

dgbdHFGDKFGgosH, that laugh,,,, my heart is broken, my stupid stupid boy, god, I love you, I just want to see you happy,,, this is so painful;;;;

LIKE SHIT IT WASN’T IMPORTANT IT CONCERNS YOUR ENTIRE CHILDHOOD AND LIFE

HSBGKSBFGSKZGBSGBSH I’M GONNA GET A HEART ATTACK FROM THIS SHOW

Aah, that music….. my boy,,,,

NO! MY BOY! SON! NONONONONO!!

God,,,, I’m legit gonna sob what the fuck,,,,

God, my boy;;;;

SDSDFSKDFSKDSKWHAT

AAAAAAAHH!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

***

OH. OH NO. THE THUMP

FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHAHHHTHIS DOESN’T FEEL REAL BITCH WHAT THE FUUUCKK

WORM WORM WORM WORM!!!!!

God, this is gonna be painful,,,

Don’t!!! Peri,,,!!

STEVENNGHHN

SGHSKGSKGBSYES IT IS!!! FUCK!!!!!

Mood, Ame

“but how?” “Nevermind that.” OH OKAY. not gonna explain it, that’s fine! I mean, I’m not upset, but that’s really funny, just, yeah, guess Steven's godzilla now. How? Fuck if we know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But yea what matters here is helping Steven!

DON’T!!!! YELLOW LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!

dfskdfskdf

WHITE DON’T FUCKING GO NEAR THE BOYY!!!! HE HAS TRAUMA!!!

OH NO

YES IT ISSS!!!!

Oh nooononononoNONO

Garnet,,,

Ahh! Cluster!!! Be gentle!!

SOBS,,,,

DON’T CRY, FUCK!!!! DO SOMETHING!!!! I MEAN, NOT TO BE MEAN, I JUST FGHDDJFGBDGJD FUCK

YES!!!! Grego!!!!

Oh no,,,, Spinel,,,,,,

DON’T FUCKING START A GUILT COMPETITION WHILE THE SON IS LOST IN HIS MISERY!!! GUYS!!!!!!

White,,,, hhhhhh

Go CONNIE!! GO CONNIE GO!!!! FUCK IT UP CONNIE!!!!

YESSS!!!!!!!!

GOD, Connie is great

!!!!!! LOVE!!!!!

God, this is lowkey very corney, but also cathartic and I sure as fuck ain’t complaining

Steven!!!! Ah!!!! <3

this is literally that *shoots hearts towards you* meme, oh my god

ah,;;;;,,,;;,,,

*insert crying cat picture*

Spinel,,,,

Steven,,,,,,

Pearl,,,,,,,,

Connie!!!!

Ah,,,,,!!

Steven;;;;; god, it hurts, my boy is back,,,,,

God,,,,,, I love this so much;;;; my sweet son,,, cry yourself out, your deserve it,,,, god;;;

Well that was super sweet,,,, gosh *send you hearts* aaaaaaa

***

Ah! The training music!

Ah, they’re hanging out!! Great!!!

Ah, what news? Did he get a therapist??? Please tell me he’s going to therapy!!

months,,, it’s been months…

oh, he’s leaving, right?

*gasp* Cookie cats,,!!!

AAAAHH THIS IS SUCH A CALLBACK OH MY GOD THE MEMORIES AHHH

Ah! She ate! a little bit! that’s enough, I’m proud of you!! That scrumptious was adorable!!

AAH!! OH MY GOD!!!

PEARL!!! AME!!! GARNET

“groceree store” MY GOD

“he left his family behind” oh my god fgskg

YES!!!! HE HAS A THERAPIST!!!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!! THIS IS LITERALLY ALL I CARE ABOUT FUCK YEA!!!! THERAPIST!!!! AHHHH!!!

Oh, they ŗe so supportive, this is so sweet!

Don’t just leave him!

Bis,,,,

Aw, Peri,,,,

“I like this one so much!” God, that’s adorable, awh

AWE!!!! My goodness dfhgdj his shirt

Ah!!! She’s an artist, of course!!!! That’s amazing!!!! I’m getting seconhand joy!!!

Lapis <3 <3 <3

Awe, the flag,,,, <3

“I’m gonna use my tears to make a watercolor painting of you”dkfgbdkjgbd fuck, that’s so good

Ahhh, they said they loved him!!! I can’t recall any gem besides Garnet using that word ever??? That’s amazing!!!

Aw, cry babies,,,, I love them,,, <3

Jasper!!!

no!!! Jasper, sweetie,,,,

THE HOLESJGBDFG

DFGKDFDD

I love Amethyst

Pearl!! She’s playing bas!! Adorable <3

Oh no,,,,, Stebes :(

Awe, your own!!!!

Oh noo,,,,, son;;;; look what you’ve done, now he feels like you don’t care about him!!!

Oh!!! He finalyy won’t have to live in a van! Great ^^

the stars!!

Aw!!! They kissed!! They’re so sweet, I’m glad there wasn’t like some big scene made out of that, just casual and fond!!

“Don’t breakfast without me” adorable <3

Oh no,,,,,,,

DFGJDKFGJD

AAHH

“Pearl agrees” DHFGJDHD

AWE <3 <3 <3 <3

Ah, Garnet!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

BITCH I LOVE YOUU

Pearl,,,,

Sweethearts;;;;;

Just a little time~

Awe, they’re all there waving goodbye!!! My gosh!!!

Awe,,,,,

AAaaaaand I’m crying

#Steven universe fututre #steven universe #liveblog #reaction #suf finale #steven universe future finale #swearing #nsfr #my own post #what even is a liveblog?? I dunno I hope I did it right but yea just wanted to do this to have something more to remember this finale by ^#dunno if anyone else wants to read this but yea

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masquad-fanfics · 7 years

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Can you write an imagine where you and Justin Foley go to the dance together and then spend the night at your house?

Before starting, I just wanted to apologize for taking soooo long to update it. I’ve been with exams until just a week ago. Anyways, I think I got a bit carried away with the story and it has a lot more drama that it was intended to have in the first place, but yeah, hope you like it.

“Oh sweetheart. Are you sure you’re not going?”“No mom.”“But you looked so gorgeous in that dress… It really is a pity.”“I know mom, but I really don’t feel like going anymore.”“Okay… Call me if you need anything, honey, I’ll be downstairs.” She kisses her forehead before getting up and leaving, closing the door behind her. (y/n) sighed, rolling over her side as she buried her face in her fluffy pillow.It was the day of the dance. A really important day to many, including (y/n). She was going with her boyfriend, and she couldn’t be more excited. That was until a few hours ago. She had to go back to the lockers room since she had forgotten something, and that’s when she saw it. Her boyfriend, making out with some girl in the back of the room. He was cheating on her. Who knows for how long. She kept it together for the rest of the classes, but when she got home she totally lost it. Going to the dance no longer seemed so appealing. Why go anyways? She’d only get laughed at for being such a fool and not noticing what her boyfriend was doing.She remembered she hadn’t even talked to him about it yet. He’d arrive at her house like nothing happened, and she didn’t feel like seeing him, so she just messaged him.‘We’re done.’ Those were her only words, and she hoped to get her message across just with that. (y/n) waited for him to read it, and right then blocked him. The last thing she needed was to see his lame excuses. Half an hour later the front door’s bell rang. (y/n) was about to yell to her mom not to open, but she was too late.“I don’t wanna see him.” She shouted from her room.“But honey, it’s Justin.”'Justin? What is he doing here?’ She wondered, and as she thought this there was a knock on her door.“Come in.” She grumbled, and Justin came into view. (y/n) hid her face in the pillow, since she didn’t want him to see her stained cheeks, but he still managed to see it.“(y/n)… I heard what happened with-”“How do you know about that?” She asked, cutting him harshly.“He was barging about it right after he received that message from you. Didn’t look like he cared too much though.”“Already supposed his reaction wouldn’t be too great.”“He didn’t say much… Why did it happen? You seemed happy with him.”“I don’t wanna talk about it…” She felt her nose itching again, something that happened whenever she was about to cry. Justin knew that well, so he simply sat beside her, engulfing her in his arms.“You know what you need right now? Some distraction, and I think the dance would be great for that.” He whispered as he drew circles on her back to soothe her.“I don’t know, I… I feel like it’s only gonna make things worse.”“Why though? I’ll be with you the whole time, and if him or any of his friends dare to come just the slightest distance near you I’ll make sure they don’t.”(y/n) giggled at Justin’s over-protectiveness. He was always like this in this type of situations. And he was also the kind of person who didn’t change their mind easily.“Do you want me to go that badly?”“Yes! C'mon, it’ll be fun.”“Fine. But I have to get dressed and all…”“No worries, I’ll just wait.”(y/n) rolled her eyes in annoyance, giving in to Justin’s request, as she got up to get her dress and put it on. It took her a while to get ready, and by the time she came back Justin was lying on her bed with his eyes closed.“Wake up sleeping beauty.”“I wasn’t asleep.” I mumbled before he lazily opened his eyes. Right when he saw (y/n) he froze, mesmerised.“Do I look that bad?” (y/n) asked upon seeing his expression.“No… You look way too good.”(y/n) blushed, murmuring a 'thank you’. “Let’s go now. I didn’t make all this effort for nothing. Wait” She stopped midway through the sentence, thinking about something. “How are we going there?”“By car obviously. I’ll take you.”“Last time I checked you didn’t have a car.”“Yeah… That hasn’t changed.” Justin admitted ashamed.“Fine, you can use mine.”Justin’s eyes lit up, as she handed him the car’s keys and he run outside excited. *time skip* The dance had already started by the time they arrived to the high school. A mix of blue light and music escaped through the open doors, and the outside of the building was decorated. There were some students scattered outside, completely opposite to the mass of bodies that crowded the gym.(y/n) advanced reluctantly, thinking about what could happen if she saw her boyfriend, now ex, or any of his friends. Justin noticed and reached out for her hand, holding it tightly and giving her a reassuring smile.“How’s it going?” Shouted Zach, wanting to be heard with all the loud noise as he approached them. “Hey (y/n). Thought you weren’t coming. Heard some say that.”“This boy here kinda dragged me.” She said nudging Justin.“Good thing he did, you’d be missing one hell of a party. I’ll be going now, just remember the drinks are over there. Might look the same, but the left one has a little extra.” He winked as he said this, and just as he had arrived he left, disappearing in the sea of dancing students.The first destination were the drinks. Justin grabbed two glasses, filling his with the liquid contained in the left jar.“What you choosing ma'am?”“Left.”“Getting risky today, aren’t we?”Usually she wouldn’t drink alcohol, it wasn’t her thing. But that day all she wanted was to forget. And isn’t it said that alcohol helps with that? She took a sip, scrunching her nose as she drank. It didn’t taste too good. Truth said, once you got used to it, and she definitely did, it got better.They sat by the bleachers for a while, both slightly tipsy, but that only made their conversation even more weird and funny. A few more glasses finished and they had lost any kind of sense of time. It could’ve been only minutes or hours. Not that it mattered, (y/n) was having the time of her life.“Let’s dance!” Justin suggested after a while.“Noo… I’m really bad.”“C'mon, why come to a dance if you don’t dance?”“Can’t argue your logic.”He stumbled a bit as he got up, making (y/n) giggle, and he then proceeded to do a reverence, holding his hand out for her to take. She did and they walked, not without tripping a few times, to the centre of the dance floor. They shyly swayed to the music at first, but the drinks in their bodies easily put them in the mood, as they followed the rhythm of song after song. Whether it was because of each other’s company or just the atmosphere of the party, they were both able to forget any problem they had.But of course nothing lasts for long.(y/n) heard her name being called. At first she wasn’t sure if it was for her, but in no time she recognised who was calling her. Regardless of how drunk they were, she could tell who it was easily. She didn’t want to look. She didn’t want to face him. But she figured that if she took longer he’d only shout louder in order to get her attention, and she didn’t want to make a scene. “Yeah, look at me you slut!” He spit out once she dared to turn. “Real nice of ya! Leavin’ me through fuckin’ text. The fuck did I even do to ya?!”She gulped, her voice sounding more scared than she intended it to be. “I saw you, in the locker room… can’t remember with whom, but I saw it.”“And what?”“What do you even mean with that? Do you expect me to stay with you after cheating on me?!”“But ya not dumping me ‘cause of that. Ya doin’ it to be with that dickhead.” He pointed to Justin as he walked closer to him. Last thing needed was a fight, and thankfully (y/n) was able to hold Justin back.“Fuck off. Haven’t you heard her? (y/n) doesn’t want to be with you. You fucked up good, so just accept it.”“You ain’t tellin’ me what to do.”“Justin, let’s leave. There’s no point in arguing with him, he’s too much of an idiot to get it.” She wanted nothing more than to be out of there. They walked out, as her ex continued calling them names, which were soon drowned by the noise.It was shockingly quiet outside. (y/n)’s heart was pounding fast, as she made her way to her car.“We’ve both been drinking, should we not be driving?” Spoke the logical side of Justin.“I can drive. Trust me, I’m pretty sober by now.” Without a doubt she was. After the striking events from the night, any alcohol in her had magically disappeared.

The drive down to her place was awkwardly quiet. Neither of them had too much of an idea of what to say. Regardless of that, (y/n) was able to decipher by Justin’s look that he didn’t feel like going to his own house. A sly smile appeared on his features the moment he saw how (y/n) pulled up at the driveway of her home. At first, they walked in carefully, trying not to make any sound in case her parents were already asleep, but that soon ended by the time they reached the kitchen and they saw a note which said that they had gone out.“You want anything?” (y/n) finally said as she opened the fridge, looking for something to drink. “Nah, I’m good.” Another awkward silence followed. So much was going through (y/n)’s mind that she was completely unable to form any coherent sentence.“I’m sorry for what happened.” Were Justin’s words after some long minutes.“It’s okay, it wasn’t your fault. I should’ve imagined that would happen if a went to the dance. Let’s not talk more about it though, I don’t want to think about him.”Justin nodded. “How about we watch a movie? To get your mind off all of it." "Yeah… I’ll go change then, you can choose whichever you like.”Mixed emotions raced through her as she laid on her bed, trying her hardest to settle them down. Relief began to stand out over her other feelings. She had faced him, and at least now she could begin to forget him. She remembered Justin was waiting for her downstairs and she got back up with recovered energies, grabbing a blanket as she headed back to the lounge.

All the lights had been turned off, and the tv was now the only source of light, illuminating the room. A bowl with crisps had been placed in the table, together with some drinks, and Justin was already sat in the couch, waiting for her. (y/n) smiled upon seeing this, as she curled up next to Justin and covered both of them with the blanket. The movie started, and she snuggled closer to Justin, enjoying the warmth and how safe she felt with his arms around her. “It hasn’t been such a bad night after all.” She said halfway through the movie. “I mean, I’m having the best time now.”“Yeah, me too.” Justin looked down to gaze at her. He couldn’t help but smile, seeing her with so much joy and tranquillity. Unlike (y/n), Justin was still drunk. He might have been staring at her for a solid ten minutes, until a sudden outburst of courage let him place a hand on her cheek, making her turn to face him, and lean in to kiss her. It took (y/n) by surprise, and there was no reaction from her. This probably made Justin aware of his actions, as he pulled back flustered. Regret washed over him as he realized what he had done. His drunk state had let him do something he had long time dreamed of doing, but had never had the courage to. “I-i’m so s-sorry I…” He stuttered, not knowing how to solve the situation. (y/n) didn’t know what to answer either, so she went with the classical plan of leaning in again, taking the initiative this time and kissing him. This time there was a reaction from Justin, as he kissed back with as much love and passion as he could, hoping (y/n) would feel it. And she did, as she was smiling and giggling the moment they pulled apart. She pecked his lips again before returning to their previous position, her head leaned against his chest and his arms secured tightly around her small frame. Not that they payed attention to the movie now, since they were both too busy thinking about each other, with a childish grin plastered on their features.

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SS1.10.1 - The Two Colors

Part 1 Side Story Chapter 10.1

Side Stories

[On the Streets]

Girl A: They announced the debut recording of Takanashi Production's new idol group! It's definitely about IDOLiSH7, right!?

Girl B: Yayyー! I can finally get IDOLiSH7's CD!

Girl A: Let's show how cool Mitsuki-kun is to all our friends!! …… Huh?

Girl B: MEZZO”? What is this……?

Girl A: It's not IDOLiSH7……?

[In the Studio]

MC: Now, let's welcome them! The hot topic’s idol duo, MEZZO” ……!

Sougo: Please take care of us.

Tamaki: Take care of usー.

MC: The promising idol duo, MEZZO”, with their best-selling debut song! It's a bittersweet love song! Have you ever had an experience like that, Ousaka-san?

Sougo: It's not an unrequited love but, I understand how it feels when you want to say something but couldn't say it in the end.

MC: Ousaka-san is so kind, it sounds just like you! Yotsuba-san, what do you think?

Tamaki: About what?

MC: Have you ever had an experience with an unrequited love or something similar with this song's lyrics?

Tamaki: None. I've already said this you know.

Sougo: Tamaki-kun, you said that at a different job, so...

Tamaki: Oh, really? No I haven't.

MC: Ahaha! Yotsuba-san is interesting, isn't he! What is MEZZO” to you, Yotsuba-san?

Tamaki: Huh? What is MEZZO” to me?

Sougo: Tamaki-kun……

Tamaki: ……Umm, I don't know. We formed it all of a sudden and……

MC: Eh?

Tamaki: Everyone is counting on us, so I think I should work hard to make it famous. Well, it's important to me.

Tamaki: It's like, um, it still has no shape. MEZZO”, I mean.

Sougo: .............

MC: Ah.... Um, so even the best of friends has some circumstances, huh! Ousaka-san, what about you?

Sougo: I'm happy I can sing with the talented Tamaki-kun. To me, MEZZO” is our biggest chance.

MC: You trust Yotsuba-san so much huh!

Sougo: Of course.

Tamaki: .............

[In the Hallway]

Tamaki: Liar.

Sougo: I didn't lie. And you shouldn't have said that ambiguous answer, the staff and fans are confused because of it.

Tamaki: What should I say then? What is MEZZO” to you, Sou-chan?

Sougo: I’ve already said it, right? It's our biggest chance.

Tamaki: Can I say that next time?

Sougo: Eh? U, umm……

Tamaki: I don't know after all. Same with you, you don't really know, right? What the two of us are.

Sougo: .............

Tamaki: MEZZO” was born for the sake of IDOLiSH7, but it's not for our sake, right? You don't have to force yourself to think about it so deeply. Just acknowledge it already.

Tamaki: It's like a transparent box that's made in a hurry. It's empty, with nothing in it.

Sougo: ……Tamaki-kun……

Tamaki: Don't pretend it has any important meanings to you when it actually doesn’t. Don't pretend like you are here because you wanted to be. That makes me sad, you know.

Sougo: .............

Sougo: What else can I do then? It's our counterplan so that we don't have to quit IDOLiSH7. What do you mean by sad. Why does it make you sad……?

Sougo: …… If your partner wasn't me, would you say that it has meaning? If you were with someone closer to you……

Sougo: Tamaki-kun doesn't want me to be his partner after all……

Sougo: …… Even if it has no important meaning, we have to make it so it has meaning. If it doesn't have any color, we must show that it has colors. We debuted first so we can do that, right?

Sougo: This is our job, Tamaki-kun. I know it's hard, but please be patient.

Tamaki: ............

Tamaki: He…… he didn't deny that MEZZO” had no meaning. So, it's not that important to him after all?

Tamaki: If he really is glad to be my partner, he would’ve denied it. But he didn't, so it's really like that after all.

Tamaki: He’s just saying that he's glad to be my partner, but he’s not thinking about me at all. He just thinks about the others……

Tamaki: I know we decided to debut together with everyone, and I'm working hard to make it happen. But, just a bit is fine so, at least think about my feelings too!

Tamaki: What I'm saying is……

Girl: Ahー! It's MEZZO”! I love MEZZO”! We're supporting youー!

Tamaki: …… Thank you.

Sougo: Thank you very much. We'll do our best.

[On the Streets]

Girl A: MEZZO”'s debut…… Isn’t it just Sougo-kun and Tamaki-kun? What about Riku-kun? He's the center……

Girl B: What will happen to the other five? Will they just be back-up dancers……?

Girl A: Let's support them more! Maybe the other five will debut too if we keep supporting them!

Girl B: But if they wanted to make them debut, they shouldn't have just picked the popular ones! Takanashi Production is the worst!

[At Takanashi Production]

Banri: …… They feel betrayed, huh.

Otoharu: Banri-kun, what is that?

Banri: The fans' reactions of MEZZO”'s debut.

Banri: We got a lot of mourning from IDOLiSH7's old fans.

Banri: I knew this would happen but, to think that there's this many negative reactions……

Otoharu: Now that the shape has changed, there's nothing we can do…… The fans don't know if we want to let them debut as seven, or just the two of them after all.

Otoharu: No matter how we explain it to them, we can't erase their doubts and sadness.

Banri: …… When the shape has changed……

[At another studio]

Yuki: I'm sleepy……

Staff: Yuki-san, have you heard? The idol group that got popular recently, they only picked the popular ones to debut.

Staff: What was it again? There were around ten members in it but only two could debut in the end.

Staff: They're so different from Re:vale who were good friends from the start!

Yuki: .............

Staff: How terrible, they abandoned their friends. I'm the type that would take care of my friends! Just like Re:vale……

Yuri: Betraying doesn't mean abandoning their friends. You jump to the conclusion of them abandoning their friends, but that just shows how you abandoned your friends to be here, am I wrong?

Staff: Ah, no, I……

Yuki: It would have been nice if you met me before I got popular. I'm sure you would laugh at me, just like how you laugh at those kids. (1)

Staff: Um! Please wait...! …… Aah…… Why did he get mad……?

[In the Lesson room]

Iori: Manager has entrusted me to help out with the promotion of MEZZO”.

Iori: Osaka-san, Yotsuba-san, please take care of me.

Sougo: Please take care of us too. What is everyone else doing now?

Iori: They are discussing about the contents of our WEB program with manager.

Tamaki: Sounds nice~. Hm……? Iorin, you have bags under your eyes though, are you okay……?

Iori: Don't mind me.

Iori: …… I will definitely make MEZZO” a selling success.

Iori: It was my fault that it came to this. I won't let us end with just MEZZO”. In order to make us IDOLiSH7, I……

Iori: I will analyze MEZZO”'s way to succeed, and make the perfect strategies for them.

[In the meeting room]

Tsumugi: Now, let's start thinking about the contents of our WEB program!

Mitsuki: Roger! Let's work hard, for MEZZO”’s sake too!

Riku: And for Iori! It looks like he’s been up really late recently. I wonder if he’s alright ……

Yamato: It's Ichi. I bet he blames himself that MEZZO” had to debut earlier, he must be thinking about a lot of things.

Nagi: OH! Then let's come up with some nice ideas, for the sake of IDOLiSH7! What is your plan Tsumugi?

Tsumugi: First, I would like for us to decide what our target audience should be!

Tsumugi: As male idols, should you target a female audience and make an exciting program for your female fans,

Tsumugi: Or should you make something like a variety show that doesn't only target female, but a male audience as well?

Mitsuki: If we target a female audience, what kind of program will it be like?

Tsumugi: Something along the lines of how you would invite a girl to a date, or other things that shows everyone's cool side!

Tsumugi: Let's try it out for now!

Yamato: If we are doing it now, we need someone to do the female role.

Tsumugi: I knew you would say that, so I……

Riku: Eh!? Manager will play the girlfriend!? I, I'm getting nervou……

Tsumugi: So I have prepared the female role for you all!

Tsumugi: It's Kokona-chan's body pillow!

Nagi: OH! So cute……!

Yamato: Uwaa, how sexyー.

Mitsuki: It reeeally makes me want to hug her tight, and bring her to the bed, huhー.

Tsumugi: Okay, let’s start! Starting with Riku-san, please!

Riku: Okay! Ehehe…… It's a bit embarrassing……

Riku: …… Uh, umm…… Would you like to have a, um… dinner? Or a cup of tea? with me……?

Yamato: A cup of tea, he said! So cute!

Riku: ……gh, don't tease me please!

Mitsuki: Hyu~ Hyuu~! Get closer to Kokona-chan! More!

Riku: L, like this……?

Nagi: Noo! Don't push!!、 Don't squash her please!

Mitsuki: I meant, make her more flustered!

Riku: But Kokona-chan is so quiet all the time!!

Yamato: That means she’s embarrassed! If you don't say anything now, you won’t win her heart!

Riku: I, is that so…… Err, I'm not a suspicious man, my name is Nanase Riku.

Mitsuki: My name is Kokona! What did you need from me? (2)

Riku: I…… I'm hitting…… on you……

Yamato: Your voice is so small we can't hear anything thoughー.

Riku: ……gh, I think you're really cute, so I came here to pick you up! Please go on a date with me!

Mitsuki: Gyahahaha! Hm~ What should I do now~?

Riku: Pleas……

Nagi: Hi, girl. Shall we spend a marvelous evening together after this?

Riku: ……!? I’ve been beaten……

Yamato: Gyahaha! Now it’s turned out to be a competition! Ok then, I'm joining in. Hey, do you wanna kill some time with Onii-san here?

Mitsuki: I won't lose to you, old man! I'm better than him right, Kokona-chan!

Riku: U, umm…… I'm so sorry, I'm busy today……

Mitsuki: Why is Riku acting as Kokona-chan now!?

Yamato: And he turned us down too!

Nagi: You know how much I love you, right Kokona!?

Riku: One more time! Let's do it one more time from the beginning……!!

[In the Lesson room]

Sougo: So, what should Tamaki-kun and I do today?

Iori: Partnership is important in every duo unit. Let's learn from the famous duo idols, Re:vale, and see what we can do from there.

Iori: First, let's watch this.

Momo: As expected of my partner! Darling, you're so handsome~! I love you~!

Yuki: Ahhahha. Keep it down, Honey.

Audience: Kyaaa……! Re:vale are the bestest best friends in the worldー!

Tamaki & Sougo: ..............

Tamaki: …… It's impossible……

Sougo: I think that’s a bit too hard for us……

Iori: The harder the better, right? Now, let's try it.

Tamaki: …… Darling.

Sougo: …… Honey.

Iori: That was the most monotonous ‘darling-honey’ exchange I have ever heard.

Tamaki: Isn't it okay as long as we look like best friends? Can I try what looks like 'best friends' to me?

Iori: You have a plan? Please, try it now.

Tamaki: Sou-chan, lend me your ear.

Sougo: Ah…… I see, okay.

Tamaki: Then, we're doing it now.

Iori: Go ahead.

Sougo: Hwawawa! I dropped the cup!

Tamaki: Geez, what a clumsy person you are, Ousaka-san.

Iori: Who said you should mimic Nanase-san and I…… And, we're not best friends!

Tamaki: But you are. I envy you a bit…… Ah! I have another idea.

Tamaki: OH! Sougo, you are so cute!

Sougo: Hey, Tamaki! Don't cling onto me!

Iori: What do you mean by 'don't cling onto me!’ Stop mimicking Nii-san and Rokuya-san!

Iori: Why does it have to be Rokuya-san in the first place…… No, never mind.

Tamaki: But, Mikki and Nagicchi are closer than Iorin and Mikki, right?

Iori: That's not true……!

Tamaki: Are you worried?

Iori: …… I am not……

Sougo: Tamaki-kun. It's not good to compare who’s closer with who in a group.

Tamaki: Why.

Sougo: Why…… It would make it awkward, right?

Tamaki: It won't. Sou-chan, you prefer to do ‘darling-honey’ with Rikkun or Yama-san than with me, right?

Sougo: Ahaha. It'd be embarrassing to do it with Yamato-san. And I'm sure Riku-kun will get embarrassed before I could.

Tamaki: Look, you sound happier if you did it with them!!

Sougo: I'd be happy to do it with you as well! It's you who doesn't feel like it, right!?

Sougo: Aah…… Sorry, I didn’t mean to force you.

Tamaki: ..............

Sougo: …… What do you want to do, Tamaki-kun? What should I do, so that you can do well with me? I will work hard, so……

Tamaki: …… Things like working hard, it's not like you have to……

Iori: Indeed, you have to work hard. Now is the most crucial and hardest time for everyone. Okay, let's do it again.

Tamaki: Darling……

Sougo: Honey……

Iori: This is the most discouraged ‘darling-honey’ I’ve ever heard……

Iori: .............

Iori: It was my fault that the two of you had to debut first.

Sougo: That's not……!

Tamaki: That's wrong!

Iori: Please hear me out. If the two of you are having a hard time and are stressed out, it'd make me feel bad as well.

Iori: Please take your time and talk with each other, so you can have the best time and succeed…

Iori: Before you can talk with each other, there's still so many things unsettled around the both of you, and I’m sure it will be really hard on you both.

Iori: But, I still believe in you. Yotsuba-san and Ousaka-san will definitely be a unit that only the two of you can make.

Iori: Both of you can paint it together, with the colors only the two of you can produce. Definitely.

Tamaki & Sougo: .............

Tamaki: If we take our time…… I wonder if anything will change between us?

Sougo: Without forcibly making up it's meaning. Without forcibly showing it's colors……

Tamaki: Will it have the colors only we can make?

Sougo: Without feeling guilty, will I be able to truly call him my partner?

Sougo: Someday……

To be continued...

T/N

*MISS YOU PLAYING IN BACKGROUND*

Proofread by Sophia @aseria THANK YOU!!

The title. 二人で色付けて literally means "paint it with two person's colors". We decided to use "The two colors" to make it sound like a title lolol

(1) MEZZO”'s current situation is similar with Yuki’s past. Yuki 'betrayed' Banri by forming a new Re:vale with Momo, but Yuki didn’t abandon Banri, he had no choice since Banri was gone that time, just like MEZZO” now.

(2) I highly recommend Wingu as Kokona's CV

Thank for reading~

#idolish7 #idolish seven #mezzo"#I translated this through my tears #MEZZOOOO #the next side story is about yama-san #reading it after pt3 is like #nngghhhhh #YAMA-SANNN #ok time to study #yazutranslates #sidestories translation

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guns-n-zeppelin · 7 years

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Never say die - Chapter 11

Pairing: Axl Rose x reader Words: 1979 Summary: Reader accidentally time travels back to 1985 where Axl, Duff, Slash, Steven and Izzy find her. Never say die masterlist A/N: Here you go again, sorry it’s a bit late but i try. I hope you like this one again, let me know what you think haha.

Next morning i woke up alone in my own bed. I had been hanging out with Axl last night after the party and trying to forget what exactly happened. I didn't get myself drunk at the party nor did Axl, we both were probably a bit tipsy though but not too much at all. We had played board games, chatted and joked and when we finally were watching movie, which was like 2 am already, i managed to pass out on the couch next to Axl. I wonder if he already left back his home, i thought and got up from my bed. I was still wearing the top i wore last night so i changed it to a more comfortable black t-shirt which had a Led Zeppelin logo on it. I had already changed the skirt i had last night to a nice pair of sweatpants. I went to brush my teeth and thus opened the door to bathroom. But then i saw Axl standing in front the mirror drying his long strawberry blonde hair, drops of water running down his body. It took me a while to actually realise that he was fully naked. ”Oh my god i'm so sorry! I didn't know you were still here,” i exclaimed and quickly turned around, not facing him anymore. He just chuckled, threw his towel over his left shoulder. I became a bit startled when he suddenly was standing right behind me and laid his hands on my shoulders. My heart had started to pump faster when his face came closer to mine. ”Oh, don't tell me you didn't like what you saw,” he murmured with a surprisingly low voice to my ear and i felt his amused smile. ”We could just continue where we left off last time after the bar night a while ago. Jon doesn't have to know.” I inhaled sharply air in my lungs. I didn't move and i must admit, just his voice made me already feel really aroused. ”You can't even imagine what kind of things i could do to you. After being with me, Jon would feel like a beginner compared to me. The pleasure i could give to you would blow your damn mind.” Fuck, can my body please control itself. Stupid woman hormones, shh this isn't what you want. You're with Jon, this feels too wrong. One side of me just wanted to turn around and take him right here and right now but my brain tried to assure me it wasn't right. I quickly shook my head and stepped away from Axl. ”No, no, no,” i laughed nervously and held my hands up, facing him again. He finally decided to put his towel around his waist. ”It's not gonna happen, don't even dream of it. I thought we were already over with the bar night.” I crossed my arms and rolled my eyes. I tried my best to not look at him on his eyes. Jesus, woman. Try to control yourself. He just laughed when he saw my reaction, i noticed how much he enjoyed teasing me. ”I was only joking, honey. I'd never let you cheat Jon with anyone, he seems like a great guy,” he said, winked and grabbed his clothes. ”But if you two ever break up and you change your mind… You know where to find me.” He winked again smirking and closing the door after him and left. God, why is he like that? --- Later in the afternoon i promised to meet Steven at the studio, the other boys were doing other stuff somewhere else so it was just the two of us. I had been practicing how to play drums for weeks already, i really wanted to become a drummer as well. Steven had been seriously the best teacher ever. I had tried playing drums a few times when i was younger but i just didn't have enough time to concentrate or something. I don't even remember. I was now trying to play Nightrain and i almost nailed it but not as well as Steven obviously. I finished the song and waited for Steven's reaction but he looked like he had listened probably just half of it or if anything at all. ”Hey, Amy?” Steven asked and stood up. ”Can i ask you something?” He looked a bit unsure and tried to avoid eye contact with me for some reason. ”Yeah? Is everything alright?” i asked worried. He scratched his neck with his right hand and was quiet for a moment until quickly shook his head. ”No, it's stupid. Nevermind, let's just continue,” he said and sat on a chair next to me. ”Noo, please, you can tell me anything,” i said and squeezed his hand reassuringly which made him look at me. I furrowed my eyebrows. ”I don't know if i want to talk about this to Axl, Slash, Izzy or Duff so could you please not tell them about this?” he asked and i just nodded and let a quick 'of course' out of my mouth. ”I mean, it's just. There's this one girl –” ”Oh my god! Is my Stevie having a crush?” i asked excitedly and hugged him tightly which made Steven blush and eventually look like as red as a tomato. ”No, shut up! I didn't say that,” he said in panic and when he noticed that i was listening attentively, he had courage to continue. ”It's just, she's the most beautiful woman i've ever met. I like everything about her, seriously. Her smile, her laugh… She's just amazing overall.” He scratched his neck again and laughed nervously. ”God, i sound such a cliché.” I giggled a bit but the look Steven gave me was a sign for me to shut my mouth. ”Well, have you told about your feelings to her? You should definitely ask her out.” He sighed. ”No, i haven't told her and i'm not going to do so.” ”Why not?” i asked confused. ”I'm sure she likes you as much as you like her.” ”No, she doesn't. She's already in a relationship with someone else, i can't ruin that and embarrass myself,” he huffed and rolled his eyes. ”I just wanted to get this out of my chest, i needed to talk to someone and you feel like the right person.” ”Well, that sucks. I'm really sorry,” i said and caressed his back with my hand. He smiled a bit. ”Yeah.” ”Do i know her?” i asked curiously. ”What's her name?” He was quiet and held his breath for a while until eventually decided to answer my question. ”Yeah, you know her but the name isn't important right now,” he said nervously. ”Well, if you ever want to talk about it, i'm here okay,” i said smiling. Steven turned his head to look at me. ”Thanks, Amy,” he said, was quiet for a while and i did the same. Soon he smiled widely, stood up again and changed the subject. ”So, let's stop this girly talk. Shall we continue before the others come back?” --- It was about 6 pm and i was taking a walk with Axl. We were walking down the street, both quiet for a while. There weren't many other passers-by near us, just a few. I had my hands in my pockets and Axl put a cigarette between his teeth and lighted it. He offered me one too but i decided to refuse this time. I wasn't sure if i should have taken the incident what happened in the morning part of the conversation but he seemed to be fine ignoring it so i did the same. ”Don't you ever just want to pack your bags and go to see the world?” i asked suddenly after a long silence and got his attention. He looked at me and smiled. ”Yeah of course. I've wanted to do it too many times,” Axl said. ”I've never stepped outside of the US. I want to travel, i want to see the world,” i said smiling widely and looked at the sky. ”I've never had money to travel, all of my friends had travelled atleast to like, three different countries and i was always so jealous because i had to stay at home all the time.” ”Well, you can totally come to our tours with us in the future. I couldn't just leave you here,” he told me and chuckled which made me smile. ”And, when i become a rich rock star, i'll take you anywhere you want,” he stated very proudly which made me laugh a bit. ”I'll take you to Italy, England and even Australia. Eventually we're gonna end up eating baguettes and drinking wine at the top of the Eiffel Tower some day for sure,” he said and winked. ”Oh stop with the lies, it's gonna eventually be just beer in some cheap French bar full of old drunk French men,” i giggled and Axl just shrugged but had to agree. ”But i'll remember that okay,” i stated and pointed at him with my finger. ”You owe me a trip to Australia some day.” He looked at me, pondering it for a while and narrowing his eyes. ”Okay, well, how about this,” Axl started. ”After 5 years in 1991, on this exact day, i will knock on your apartment's door and soon we're already sitting in an airplane heading to Sydney, just the two of us or with the other guys as well, whatever you want.” I looked at his eyes, smile creeping its way on my face. ”Promise?” He smiled and offered his hand which i grabbed almost immediately. ”I promise.” We stayed quiet for a while. ”Oh by the way, when's your next gig?” i asked, breaking the short silence, and looked at him. He looked at me quickly back before he lighted a new cigarette. ”Oh, it's in two days. You should come to watch it. The audience isn't big but it's something,” he said and chuckled. ”Well, i promise to be there,” i said smiling and nodded. ”Can i ask you a question?” he said suddenly. ”I'm just curious.” ”Yeah, ask away.” ”Have you been at our concerts before like, at bigger concerts than just at a bar or something?” he asked and chuckled. I chuckled as well. ”Just one. I think you found the ticket in which i was,” i said and smiled. ”It was really really great, seriously. I hadn't had an opportunity to go to other concerts. I was born a bit too late for that,” i said laughing and rolled my eyes. It made Axl laugh a bit too. But then i thought back at the day the concert was and the moments i stood there next to Amelie and Leo, spilled my water on some random guy's neck, cried during Don't Cry and cried even more during the last song, This I Love. I tried to remember the words Axl said before the song and when i finally realised who it was dedicated, i tried to hold my tears. How didn’t i realise it until just now? Soon Axl noticed that i hadn't heard what he had said to me a few seconds ago. ”Amy? Are you alright?” Axl asked concerned and i looked at him. ”It was about me?” i whispered but Axl was now even more confused than a minute ago. ”What was about you?” he asked again but didn't have time to say anything else since i put my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. He furrowed his eyebrows but put his arms around me as well. ”Hey, what's wrong?” ”Nothing,” i said and closed my eyes. ”You know i love you so much, right? I love all of you and i don't know what i'd do without you.” He was still really confused what had gotten into me but tried to smile. ”Yeah, i love you too, Amy.” He kept a short pause and whispered, ”I love you more than you can even imagine.”

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Bonds 1.7

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With the shameless self promo out of the way, lets begin.

Damn it.

The second time “damn” has started a chapter! Damn them all to hell Blake! Who knows, in an arc or two maybe you will actually be able to.

Rose was waiting for me on the third floor. “Blake! You idiot!”

I didn’t want to hear it.

You are though. Why couldn’t you leave the magical equivalent of a nuke alone....

“I had to check,” I said, feeling more grounded. Feeling a little more sure of myself, I said, “I was thinking it might have killed Molly.”

“What?”

“What Laird said… I had the impression this thing might have killed Molly, and that Laird was misleading us when he said he knew what killed her.

Never thought of that. I don’t know though. Even if there is a threat from the inside, the outside threat is very real.

“We can’t do this,” I said. “You second guessing me at every turn. This arguing. I’ve been through some shit-”

Blake she was right and she has saved your ass twice now AND she has read more than you she knows what she is doing just as much as you if not more! She is allowed to have opinions and to voice them. I guess he is super stressed out but jesus.

“There were worse days. Days I’m probably never going to talk to you about. Or tell anyone about, even if some people close to me maybe put some of the puzzle pieces together. I’m not aiming for pity here, I don’t want it. I don’t want to use this for leverage to win an argument. What I was going to say was that I’ve been through stuff, before any of this, and I made it this far with my instincts. I can’t and won’t abandon them.”

“I’m going to be a bit of a bitch here,” Rose said. “I don’t think your instincts are that good.”

At least he told her some things; the simmering resentment pot has boiled over. But damn Rose. Thinking back, his instincts haven’t been bad. Saved him from the pizza man ploy. Though it did screw him over with the whole Laird thing- but I don’t know if that was entirely a bad thing. He learned good info. So Rose, I think you are off base here.

“I’m going to ask it anyways,” I said. “That you trust me, and that you trust yourself. I’ll talk to you about this stuff more, but I need it to be a talk. Don’t second guess everything I do, or it’s just going to become noise, and the doubts are going to fuck me up as much as anything. I need cooperation, collaboration.”

“You want me to cater to your unique needs, but is there any consideration to mine? I’ve been dealing… I’ve got the memories of dealing with our family for years. It doesn’t exactly build up a team player mentality.”

“My experiences didn’t either,” I said. Barring the last year or two. “But I’ll try if you do. Please.”

But jesus what the hell Blake? Do you want her to just roll over and do everything you want without considering how she feels? Different perspectives are good! What did Blake do in the last year or two that made him a team player? I can’t think of anything mentioned so far.

This author cannot say whether he was attracted to the virgin aspect or the innocent, but this author was nonetheless happy to have an option at hand to serve both purposes. The child was unharmed and largely unaware of what occurred.

The summoning sounds gruesome but I’m glad granny wasn’t going around killing kids at least.

Those looking to interact with Barbatorem at any length should see about precautions against abstract entities in Classifying Others: Fiends and Darker Beings, chapter four, and the texts on means of attack and defense against Others, in Infernal Wrath, chapter two.

Blake do you know what I think is a good idea? Reading these books + getting awakened. PLEASE..

Barbatorem is both, a warrior of sorts, acting with surgical precision on whatever target he is directed at. A recurring theme in earlier stories suggests that he was sent against the summoner’s enemies, almost always powerful figures, and he brought them to ruin in the worst ways. He does not seek out mischief with those who summon him, but he takes advantage if one is offered. For this reason, he is a reasonably safe entity to summon if one takes care to follow instructions.

THANK YOU. Anyways. He seems pretty safe for a nuke, and single target, also unlike a nuke. Very powerful nonetheless. You could fuck some shit up with him. Like the practitioner to the north. or Laird. Or any other people.

The unawakened tend to note a stench of rot, blood or burning hair, or a crude but exceptionally sharp and sturdy cutting instrument found in the aftermath of a grisly event, invariably lost a day or two later.

OH SHIT THATS WHY HE COULDN'T SEE HIM! FUCK. PLEASE AWAKEN NOW. THANKS. Now it makes sense. Blake you dumbshit.

It is believed that he can sever his target’s ability to access any higher plane, forever and irrevocably denying them whatever good things might await them after death, and he can remove any ability a practitioner has. He can pass into a demesne without needing permission, though he cannot enter an ordinary home owned by a non-practitioner (see Classifying Others, chapter four). He can evade barriers and typical practitioner’s defenses. This in mind, he obviously serves as a suitable weapon if directed at a practitioner.

If I was in Blake's situation, I’d spend my resources learning how to use Barbs safely and use it as a threat. I ALSO WOULD HAVE BEEN AWAKENED BY NOW BUT THATS JUST ME APPARENTLY. But wow Barb is very over powered there is no way it is easy to get him to do this.

He will see a contract up to seven times before refusing all further contracts. In this event, one can dismiss him and summon him again, but it must be to offer something else.

Reading further, everything he wants is pretty gruesome.

“He has to be in the circle, still,” I said. “Or I wouldn’t still be here. Apparently we can’t sense him until we’re awakened, which might explain why I couldn’t see him. This guy’s spooky.”

which “MIGHT” explain Blake??? MIGHT??? I swear to god

Instead, I said, “We can’t know if he’s inside that circle or not without awakening. Which we need to do anyways.”

“On to the next part of the game plan?”

I nodded.

“My circle is drawn out,” she said. “Want help?”

YES GOOD FINALLY!

I approached the mirror, book held out. We each held our books out so her book was almost a reflection of mine. Sure enough, the text, the symbol for the inside of the little circle in question and the art for the token were all different.

“Grandmother?” Rose asked.

“I don’t know,” I said. “I get that Molly would have moved the components, but… I don’t think Molly altered the book.”

“The question is, what do we do about it?” Rose asked. “Do we each do a different ritual? Do I do your ritual, assuming it’s right? Or vice versa?”

Yo what the fuck. Blake being a girl changed the mirror world I guess. There has got to be a good reason for this. I hate this. This is important but I don’t know what it means. Anyways they should each do their own ritual. Safest bet.

We finished one line, almost chanting now as we sounded out the syllables with a kind of rhythm.

Blake... honey.. you are chanting... Blake is so funny sometimes.

The dreamcatcher, a hoop with a network of threads within.

“Dream,” I said.

But Rose was speaking at the same time, and she said, “Fate.”

I would have said dream too. Are you okay Rose? A dream isn’t fate. I guess your existence is kind of like a dream. Your fate.

The circle moved. The little silver skull. Deceptively small, no doubt valuable. It glittered in the light.

“Doom,” I said.

“Death,” Rose said.

I would have said death. I guess Rose has been the one more worried about death. But she is the one trapped in the mirror.. I would have siad it would make more sense for Rose to have said doom. Interesting.

The coin, an old one, from an era before coins had been pressed with exact images.

“Fortune,” I said.

“Ruin,” Rose said.

Rose is the pessimist, I suppose.

The lifeless rose.

“Family,” I said.

“Myself,” Rose said.

Ha. Lifeless. Like Rose is. Interesting that Blake sees a rose as representing his whole family, not just his granny.

“To everyone and everything that’s listening,” I said. I heard Rose start speaking behind me, but my words drowned hers out...........

Nooo I want to hear what Rose is saying. Blake has a good heart. He is doing this for others, even Rose. Aw.

I could hear Rose behind me, still talking, as if she were very distant. “-than a vestige.”

I want to be more than a vestige , perhaps?

I could see birds, flapping their wings, against my skin. They moved, and the branches they were on bobbed lightly. The watercolor background shifted.

YOOO THATS TIGHT AF

Her diagram was still on the floor. It hadn’t scattered like mine had. It was still in place.

I realized I hadn’t checked what her personal object was.

I searched the outer rim. Coin, skull, dreamcatcher…

Noo I wanted to know! Rose is so mysterious now.

Her voice sounded like it was on the brink of breaking with emotion. “Good night if I don’t run into you before you go to bed. I’m going to take a bit to myself.”

I guess it makes sense.. she isn’t a real person so why would the spirits care to do anything she wanted? Also can’t she lie though? The consequence for lying is losing your powers. Though I guess spirits see Blake and Rose as one and the same.

Which I was fine with. I eased the door shut, eyes still fixed on the floor.

There was a council meeting to prepare for.

Well Barb is there and fucking creepy as well/ But yeah council meting does need some prep. and YAY FINALLY AWAKENED NsadgASDN took ya long enough. Poor Rose. Sorry if there are typos today I am rushing to finish before work. Looking foward to next chapter very much!

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