#(even if i can't read most of them (yet!))

[bluebobatea]

if sasuke was the main character then he probably would've been a LOT more sympathised with than he is now (which is to say rarely). like the narrative wouldn't even need to change to show his pains or 'his side of the story', bc it does that plenty. it's just that he is not the main character. and idk what it is about our human minds but we tend to sympathise with main characters automatically (unless ofc you go off the rockers insane and do something like obliterate almost everyone from the planet *cough* eren yeager *cough*)

an instance that comes to my mind where this does happen is with lelouch from code geass. while i don't agree with his character motivations, people generally do sympathise with him as he is the mc and as viewers we know he isn't inherently evil. sasuke's goal towards the end is slightly similar but ofc people love to hate him so they don't even try to understand where he is coming from.

my point is, most people while engaging with the naruto story don't read between the lines and so don't see how traumatised and in pain sasuke is and hence don't understand his character motivations. heck, they don't understand a single bit about him and so they automatically hate him, as he is supposedly going against the main character's goals.

which is really sad given all that he has been through.

#there are bajillion other reasons people hate him for #honestly i have lost track of the stupid reasons i have seen people give for hating him #and sometimes they just do without any reason *not even exaggerating* unfortunately #im like yeah go on hate him. you guys obv don't have enough brain cells to comprehend his character #they never understood him. and it's not like any kind of reasoning is gonna make them change their minds #and it's not like one needs to do a deep character analysis to understand him. it's literally right there. #all you have to do is stop worshipping konoha and its militaristic policies and the people who enact said policies. #and also the people who enforce those policies while subtly hating them but can't do anything bc it's dictatorship :) #but maybe that's too much to ask of them bc that would mean they would need to question their political views #and we can't have that right bc it's all just fiction in the end right? and fiction exists in a void :) (yes I'm being sarcastic jc) #like the amt of times i have heard people say “you don't need to take this so seriously it's just fiction” #umm you do know that fiction is inspired by real life events right??? #tldr: most people throw away their brains while engaging with nart media and have zero reading comprehension skills #this turned into yet another rant T T why am i like this AAAAAAAAAAA #sasuke #uchiha sasuke #sasuke uchiha #pro sasuke #pro uchiha #anti konoha

[birdmenmanga]

@raventhekittycat

hi okay so I've been mulling this one over for the past day or two and I think I have the answer. not to be using hamburger to explain anything to an american but you're my detco mutual so I'm going to try and explain it in detco terms

There's a post going around recently about how if you've read detco and only detco, the first time hakuba shows up you're going to be totally flummoxed, because damn this guy is clearly important, he gets to be even cooler than Shinichi, he's got a half-page shot of him (in such a panel-dense series such as Detective Conan, no less!!) and he's got a fucking hawk. he's CLEARLY important. everything about the narrative is indicating that you need to PAY ATTENTION to hakuba and that he's the coolest guy and he's important!!!! and then he dies in the case lol (not for real. but still.)!! and you're like huh??? what was that. why did aoyama do that.

But with the context of magic kaito this totally makes sense. He's a beloved character that people have been waiting decades to see again. Of course Aoyama is going to hype him up!! It's his big moment after years of being locked in the backrooms!!!

Anyways reading birdmen for me was kind of like that. The author's previous series, Kekkaishi, was pretty one-dimensional at the beginning, and even after the main plot started picking up at around volume 6, it still felt quite understandable. I knew what she was trying to get at, and the spectacular job she did with the anthropocene and climate change metaphor towards the end of that series really made me interested in the rest of her works. That and the way she writes familial relationships is absolutely DEVASTATING. (I mean this with the highest of praise)

But when I read BIRDMEN for the first time, I was probably in... middle school, maybe? And I read it, sure, but I didn't get it. I could see what was literally happening on the page but the narrative choices were absolutely baffling at times. Why skip over the entire part of the plot where they figure out who the birdman that saved them was? She blatantly doesn't care about that. What does she care about then?? I knew I didn't get it, I knew there were parts of it that were important and I couldn't figure out why and THAT'S how it dug its pretty little claws into me. Even after I finished catching up it nagged at me a little bit, not often at all, but enough that every once in a while I go, huh, right, that was a thing, let me go read it again.

For the record this type of story haunting has happened to me twice. First time was the Heart of Thomas, second time was BIRDMEN. I think the thing is that these are both stories which are not what other people say they are and I think I came into both of these stories with a misconception, trying to look too hard for things that weren't important and therefore missing the things that were.

Because sure, BIRDMEN is about mental illness. Yeah, it's about an evil scientific organization growing mutants in a lab. Yeah, it's about what it means to leave your humanity behind. That's all technically correct, on a surface level, and the fandom at large likely agrees with these takes for the most part, but in my opinion none of that really delves into what the thematic messaging of the story is about.

There are cryptic conversations about authority and human extinction and peculiar outfit and ability choices. You can tell these choices weren't made to serve the purpose of "writing exciting shonen manga" because that was what she did for the most part in Kekkaishi and you can tell she wasn't putting her whole pussy into doing that here. So what was she doing? What's like. All of this. Waves my hands at this.

The short answer is that it's really about the interplay between capitalism (represented by humanity) and communism (represented by birdmen), and explores the role institutional white supremacy (EDEN) plays in enforcing capitalism. It is ALSO about queer liberation and the importance of community, but hey, that double-stacks conveniently with the communism metaphor.

But also take this opinion of mine with a grain of salt. As far as I know I'm the only one who really truly deeply believes that it is not only AN interpretation of the work, but one that was fully intended by the author.

So basically, I like it, because I think it says something true and beautiful that I also believe in, even if I didn't have the words for it the first time I read it. But I don't really think that's what people really look for in a media recommendation.

Do I like it? Yes, I love it. Will I recommend it to others? Yeah, sure. But do I think it's deeply flawed? Yeah, absolutely. It's flawed in the same ways as The Witch from Mercury— a rushed ending, too many threads that were opened and never tied together. The pacing and characterization is perfect in the beginning, and too rushed at the end. There are prerequisites you basically HAVE to read in order to understand the story (tempest for G-Witch and the communist manifesto for birdmen). I think a truly good story wouldn't have any of these things so if people don't like it I never blame them.

It's my personal experiences that make birdmen so profound to me. If you are not queer I just don't think Eishi coming out as a birdman to his mom will hit the same, just as an example. Sorry that I wasn't the kid you wanted me to be. I know you love me and you just want the best for me and that's why you're so controlling, because you think I can be saved by conforming to societal expectations. But I can't live like that. I can't be like that. And that's why I must go. etc.

Aesthetically I do love birdmen a lot. If I had to describe it in a few words it would probably be "chilling", "beautiful", and "powerful", which nicely coincides with the type of things I personally like to draw. It's also silly to a small degree but it's so serious and I know Tanabe can be way way way funnier (read kekkaishi for this. kekkaishi and hanazakari no kimitachi he were foundational to my sense of sequential art humor) so that's not really the standout trait of this series.

I can't let it go because I'm chewing this series like a bone. And it's taking me years but I am getting that sweet sweet marrow. By god. We are on year 3 of this shit and I am GOING to understand this series. and I'm going to make 3 video essays about it

#just thinking thoughts... #stray bird thoughts #so it's like... I don't like it because birdmen is good #I think I like it because I am a certain type of person and the author was trying to say something specifically to the type of person I am #OH #I'M THE TARGETED AUDIENCE THATS WHY I LIKE IT. #YEAH THATS REALLY IT!!! #A long time ago I said that birdmen wasn't written for the people who read it at the time it serialized. #it was written for the people they would become. #and I stand by that 100% #if it really stays with you there is going to be a reason even if you can't articulate it yet #and it may APPEAR sloppy to someone who doesn't see the queer or communist metaphor #like 'what is she doing what is she saying here she's not saying anything meaningful and emphasizing the wrong things' #but that sort of presumes she is gunning to make 'the best shonen manga ever' #which she clearly isn't. #I remember when I was reading fma with a bunch of my classmates and I'd lend them a volume or two every day #and a piece of feedback I received that has stuck with me was 'volume 15 was so boring' #(that was the volume recounting the ishval civil war. it was boring because we were middle schoolers and didn't REALLY get it.) #and like. I think to people who are looking for something like kks. the whole thing is going to feel like fma volume 15 #like WHAT is she going on about? ? ? #like witch hat and dunmesh I think are similar types of stories but I think these two are just executed way better than bm #but because of that it is just not as compelling to me you know. #like yeah yeah it's well constructed. we all see it's well constructed. #the metaphor is so well constructed that I don't feel the need to point it out. everyone is saying it already you know #but bm is cryptic enough and just slightly missed that execution enough that I feel like I'm pulling the analysis out of a smoking wreckage #recently I've been watching mentourpilot videos about airplane accidents and like. that's exactly it. #there's nothing to say about a perfectly executed flight. #it's the ones that failed. and in particular the ones that just barely failed by a little bit. that compels people the most. #cue my de communism is failure post. bc that bm sure did fail.

[non-un-topo]

Might fuck around and have a mental breakdown today

#it has been a while! #VERY suddenly i have 5 assignments and 2 novels to read by tuesday #and i'm working and in class on tuesday #so i have less than 3 days really. but most of them are due tomorrow or monday #and my professors are not being communicative #these assignments are also NOT small #because of the strike they're having to modify how the assignments are weighted #so they're all ranging from 15% - 25% #it's just been immediate. back to class and right away the big assignments are due #i want a fucking refund for this fucking year. at least a small percentage. #and it turns out i'm paying so much for some summer courses that don't even have class meetings- #-that my entire bursary has been eaten away and i owe more. #will probably have a balance of ~$1700 by the end of may #i'm never getting out of my partner's parents' house. i'm THIS close to graduating #and yet. #i'd open commissions to help pay for this but ha ha i have no time to draw now #like from now until the end of august -- ZERO time for anything. #then i'm fucking done with all of this. i've been very accomplished but at what cost #oh i also just learned that my parents are desperate. #like can't-see-me-because-no-money-for-gas desperate. so that's... #they're a 3 hour drive away and i haven't seen them since christmas. before that it was a year.

[iwatch-theworld]

Safu doujinshi!

The Safu doujinshi I ordered came in! They’re really wonderful so I wanted to share a bit! Disclaimer tho that my Japanese is at like a kindergartner’s level (if I’m being generous lol) so this will not be very comprehensive or in depth. Also apologies for my shoddy phone pics. But here they are!

I mentioned before that one was advertised as Nezumi x Safu, which is on the left! I ended up getting the one on the right too, which was labeled Shion x Safu, and I’ll start with that one, cuz it’s more just little snippets involving Safu.

First one is Safu underwater (?) with some dolphins (??) talking to Elyurias. Honestly worth it for this panel alone, the way this artist draws Safu is soooo cute.

SO CUTE. Second story is about Shion and Safu when they’re kids!

Third one is about Nezumi, Shion, Karan, and Rico in the underground room. It opens with Nezumi walking in on this crude picture they drew? lol. I’m not gonna pretend I understand the context for this one at the moment.

Last one is about Shion and Safu meeting up some time after Shion’s been kicked out of Chronos, and Safu has a nice conversation with Karan :)

& that’s basically it! As for the Nezumi x Safu one, there are actually two stories!

First one I understand the least!!! (I’m a coward with kanji!) It seems to be about Nezumi, Shion, and Safu when they’re in college. Safu and Nezumi do a lot of talking on park benches. Safu also seems to be doing some experiment with rats, and brings them to the park bench to show Nezumi at one point. The panel layout is interesting, as the pages are drawn to look like files in a folder.

Honestly worth it for this panel alone, lol.

Second story is about Nezumi, Shion, and Safu in high school. It opens with Safu apparently doing the whole “I want to have s*x” thing to Shion and getting rejected, and then venting to Nezumi on the rooftop about it.

The next day at school gives this adorable hair ruffling panel with Nezumi (assumedly) teasing Shion for being a dingus in how he rejected Safu. Things don’t stay awkward for long, tho, as Safu gives Shion a hand-knitted scarf and the three of them seem to be good.

Then we get another scene of Nezumi and Safu on a park bench, lol. I don’t know what they’re talking about, but Eve comes up a few times, so Nezumi’s alter ego shows up in this high school AU, apparently.

The next day back at school, the three meet up again, and I’m not sure what they’re talking about but all that matters is the panel below.

So sweet! Always wanted to see the three of them like this! <3 My wish to see them all interacting as friends, and Nezumi and Safu specifically interacting in a more positive, light-hearted situation has been fulfilled.

The last most important thing to mention is on the reverse cover for this doujin Nezumi is, indeed, wearing crocs.

#no.6 #safu #nezumi #shion #i'm so happy i got these #i've never bought doujinshi before so i'm happy these were so enjoybale #(even if i can't read most of them (yet!)) #i will get better at kanji eventually #just really glad to see more of my girl. seriously that first one she's drawn so cute i cry

[elvesofnoldor]

Local vampire (Lestat) thought he snatched the young hot rich single in the area, got trapped in an abusive relationship instead. More at 7 as the story develops

#anyways to the people who didn't unfollow me while i was busy not understanding the text of IWTV(book. 1976): thank you for beliving in me #or rather my reading comprehension skill -_- #alright i purged most of the AMC show's posts that i reblogged #mae overshares #not to be a killjoy but IWTV (book)transformed from 'barely horror' to 'the most horrifying. tragic and disturbing horror fiction i've read #about 3 days ago. when i did a serious re-read of some of the passages in the book. i first read the book more than a month ago smh #the story is horrifying because of what happened to lestat but also because what happened to poor claudia just to be clear #i have since gone through five stages of grief about 70 times at this point i will just have to laugh!!! #you know the crazy thing is that i never liked book version of Louis. i always liked lestat. even though he's an evil girl sometimes #(but we love evil girls in this house) #and yet!!! fuckers who never understood IWTV (book. published in 1976). fuckers who only watched the 1994 film #and fuckers who don't know the definition of an abusive relationship/fuckers who can't sympathize with abuse victims #got me hell bent on thinking louis as the 'good loving father' that he wasn't!!! i felt physically sick. #like i know it's fiction but also!!! i just. you don't have to LIKE someone to get manipulated into sympathizing with them #realizing this got me feeling quite perturbed lol #manipulative lestat this manipulative lestat that. im at my fucking limit. the OG manipulator is louis

[trans-cuchulainn]

i guess the reason so many books featuring trans characters have them able to go stealth and make it so other characters don't know they're trans unless they say something is because that's an escapist fantasy for many trans authors who don't get that and want to imagine what it's like to live in a world where you don't get misgendered on sight every single day, and because they don't want to write about the latter (very fair)

but also when these are YA books it depends on the characters being able to medically transition at like 14 and i have literally never in my life met a single person who was able to do that (partly because I live in the UK where you can't and also I am old enough that for people my age, coming out as a preteen would've been way harder and rarer than it would be for current teen-aged protagonists)

so idk. i would like to read a book with trans characters who feel like real people living in the real world occasionally. it's hard to walk a path when you never get to see other people do it first and never get to witness it safely in fiction before you experience it IRL, and only ever seeing people walk roads that don't even exist in your reality doesn't really help at all tbh

#i have mostly only read fantasy and historical adult books with trans protags #aside from Confessions of the Fox i guess. which is still 50% historical #but i never come across contemporary-set adult books with trans protagonists #compared to the growing contemporary trans YA scene #this may be that i am looking in the wrong places #but i can more easily find historical trans romance than a novel with a relatable 20 or 30something transmasc protag #oh i did read detransition baby i guess. but it didn't really speak to me for various reasons #(most of them to do with me being trans in a different direction but not all of them) #anyway idk. i read a lot of YA because a lot of my friends write YA and it is easy for me to find things #but even though i am glad there are trans YA books now I can't relate to them at all #i guess because I didn't know i was trans as a teenager #so the trans teenager experience is always inherently one i did not have #i am looking for something that will never be what i need it to be #i want coming of age and self discovery and all that because I don't feel like I've DONE it yet in gender terms #that's why i want the YA vibes but. i guess as a 27yo still trying to do that I'm not going to find it there. not meaningfully #so i need novels about adults coming of age and figuring shit out and being newborn baby trans adults i guess. where are those #and nobody is allowed to be cool in those books because i am unable to continue reading about cool people sorry #néide has opinions about books

[scribefindegil]

finally had enough energy to subject myself to manga confession arc and god!!! i love Mob Psycho!!!!

#time to go back and find all the close analyses of the mob & shigeo conversations #that i didn't want to read until i'd seen the manga version #and am now Ready To Cry About #y'all were not kidding about the bit where shigeo/???% gently cups mob's face in his hands #he wants so badly to just be ACKNOWLEDGED #to have mob admit that his powers have helped him--have saved him!!--so many times #but mob can't do it yet because he's too afraid #god. just #the themes of loneliness #the way mob has shut down and ignored and demonized this part of himself #everyone in mp100 is so lonely but ???% is the most lonely of them all #isolated and cut off even from the person he's a part of #he has NOTHING #no wonder he lashes out #i'm so happy that reigen's confession finally allows mob to extend himself the compassion he's shown to everyone else #i am. gonna cry about it. #mp100

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Wondering if I feel weird about jobs bc I have almost exclusively worked high stress high turnover jobs

#I'm the most senior tech in my pharmacy and i haven't even been there for a full year yet #i think i need to re-establish a work/life balance bc im just so tired. i need to let myself have my silly hobbies or SOMETHING #the extra money is nice but I'm really paying for it and i can't let this keep going #it's like. I'm seeing my friends get jobs and i wanna be happy for them but i think about how #when I'm out of work for a few days and I'm prepping to go back. I'll just sit on the edge of my bed and look at the floor #and think about how i do want more time to myself. to read. to draw. to not spend 8 hours on the floor #and that feeling comes up every time someone else mentions entering the workforce #it's an almost existential sort of dread for me #and let me be clear - i actually don't hate my job. people are another beast entirely but my actual job? not terrible at all imo #it just. takes a lot of time and energy and it makes me feel concerned for other people picking up jobs #but i mean. I'm also disabled in multiple ways and need more rest anyways; not everyone functions like me #but it's still a nagging feeling that comes back to me every so often U_U #shai speaks

[bloody-wonder]

3, 4 and 7 for the ask x

thanks for the ask!📚

3. What’s something you read recently and wanted to argue with (either with the book or the author or the fans)?

buckle up for a good ol' book rant!

so the dreamhealers series - a cozy slice of life scifantasy story about two neurodivergent individuals forming a queerplatonic partnership - is, it turns out, the origin story of the characters which the author mca hogarth has conceived a long time before as side characters in a completely different arc in her peltedverse. i assume she started developing said arc when she was a teen and wrote the dreamhealers when she was already an adult. the result is two stories that tonally and structurally couldn't be more different but that both feature these two characters which naturally resulted in characterization consistency problems. you can't take a weird lil guy from a pastoral novel where everyone just vibes and put him into a high stakes high fantasy plot without it taking a toll on their personality. now, this is not a problem if you finish the dreamhealers and just stop after book 4, however comma goodreads shows that there's this novella following the last book and you assume it's gonna be some sort of cute epilogue and you pick it up and it turns out it's not that but rather a short backstory of the characters mca hogarth wrote for her high stakes arc BEFORE she wrote the full version of their backstory aka the dreamhealers. are you still following? anyways i read the novella and was appalled at how jarring the difference is between jahir and vasiht'h in the series and this novella which, if you read in the order i'm reading in, basically serves as a link between the dreamhealers and prince's game. on the one hand, it's cool to see how much mca hogarth grew as a writer and how much more nuanced and relatable she made her characters in the course of their development. but on the other, it made me have unpleasant ruminations about what is canon and what isn't. this novella feels like a retcon designed to make jahir and vasiht'h fit a new narrative. however, it was written before the dreamhealers - does that then make dreamhealers a retcon and not as canon? both things can't be canon bc jahir and vasiht'h in the series would never do things they do in the novella. which makes it feel like a fanfic written by someone who doesn't understand the source material.

phew did it feel good to get all of this off my chest! tl dr please read the dreamhealers but under no circumstances read "family"

4. What are your top 3 comfort reads?

to be completely honest i don't typically re-read books for comfort purposes. that's what fanfics are for!✨ the top 3 i used to re-read the most (but not in quite a while tho) are lessons (aftg), astray (captive prince) and this unfinished theseus/the minotaur fic which i believe was called asterius und which, as i was distraught to discover, had been privated by the author😭 such tasteful monsterfucking literature i have never known before or since

7. What book do you love but usually not recommend because it’s weird or intense, etc?

i love aftg but i will rather bleach my soul by reading that fandom's discourse again than recommend it to anyone. and to be clear, it's not bc i think the seires is weird or poorly written or not good enough for general audiences - it's bc no one is worthy of studying the sacred texts except for me and a couple other initiated intellectuals

book ask

#book tag #with comfort reads i need instant gratification that only my fave fanfics can provide #the family novella is wrong on many levels but ngl the aroace qpp stuff felt the most heinous to me #and i can't even be mad cause ik it's not bc the author suddenly changed her mind about them #on the contrary it's bc she wrote the prequel series later in her life #when she had better understanding of what aroaceness and qpp can look like #i was specifically irritated by them calling each other brother - and she improved on that too #vasiht'h says in dreamhearth they're the very best of friends closer than any brother or lover #and in dreamstorm he calls jahir my forever-friend #so she clearly gave some thought to more appropriate nomenclature lol #and jahir's thing with his cousin who he never mentions throughout the dreamhealers books is just. major ew vibes #and she improved on that too! #in the piano short story she found a very elegant way to make a point of him not really being aroace without being gross about it #but does all that improvement really matter if she published the other stuff and it's canon too? #at least make this novella not show as part of dreamhealers so that people aren't left with a sour taste in their mouth #all of this is aggravated by the novella's high rating bc i assume most people read it long ago #when the dreamhealers didn't exist yet and they had nothing to compare it to #but even so i think i would've disliked it #it just does feel like it was conceived by a teenager #who has like. weird kinks and notions #so i will probably not try prince's game any time soon #since it's tainted by bad!jahir and wrong!vasiht'h #but i do want to see an eldritch who fucks so ig my next stop in the peltedverse is earthrise

[ryeonah]

tag dump

#✖plotted starter║with a candle through time i could still see your ghost but i can't close my eyes for it is there where you haunt me most #✖mobile post║& i sat in regret of all the things i've done for all that i've blessed & all that i've wronged #✖psa║a reaper's guarantee of responsibility #✖music║again this evening ancient rain is singing the same ancient song #✖saved║those painful memories are what help us make it to tomorrow & become stronger #✖wishlist║you don't have to be a ghost here amongst the living #✖open starter║how can i blame the cherry blossoms for rejecting this floating world & drifting away as the wind calls them? #✖dash games║i liked the bittersweet taste of danger touching my lips #✖dash commentary║so how do i apologize & put the tears back in your eyes? #✖meta║the glass of my intentions turns to sand & shatters in my hand #✖character study║the last person I have to save is me & in the end we are the only ones who can save ourselves #✖headcanon║death & i have been scandalously intimate for some time now #✖hae dae-soo║there’s a black bird perched outside my window he burns me with his eyes of gold to embers he sees all my sins he reads my sou #✖gop-dan║others may forget you but i am haunted by your beautiful ghost #✖the jade emperor║there was something beautiful & tragic in the way that she waged war #✖lim ryung-gu║i know the pain that you hide behind the smile on your face #✖park joong-gil║solace lies in the ritual of remembering the dead & yet he cannot find solace in his rotted ribcage made of anger & grief #✖choi joon-woong║does it make me unique to hold hands with the grim reaper rather than go to the angel? #✖koo ryeon║how many nights does it take to count the stars? that's the time it would take to fix my heart

[astrxealis]

i sometimes forget some stuff i’m into that i didn’t put them in my fandoms list oops ... i have a lot more i have yet to add

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #rn mainly dragon age and metal gear that i can think of :] and mass effect! #only ever played a bit of mass effect. like. i remember a hill. and. yeah i barely played... maybe 30 minutes #dragon age was longer bcs i did that whole castle but i need a mage so i went to that mage place but i stopped and haven't played since #bcs i'm stuck. SOBS. AND IDK WTF TO DO ABOUT IT. but yes i've played quite a bit of origins!!! #metal gear ik the memes and music and LOVE them. also read up on raiden stuff bcs he's cool. yeah. but haven't played at all yet ... #god of war is part of my childhood tbh bcs i rmbr my dad/tita playing that game where you go up a huge statue... i think #one of the early games and i don't think kratos and ares bad stuff happened yet ?? qwq anyways i will play gow b4 ragnarok comes out hehe #WHAT ELSE. WHAT ELSE. tbh idk. uhm. but yeah there's more #bcs of my tita i was able to read most of fma in MANGA!!!! HARDCOPY !!!! i am happy abt that still wah #have not finished the anime but we're close... will prolly rewatch tho bcs it's been YEARS. fma is very good though #not a big fan of winry tho :') i personally don't find how she hits ed even when he's really hurt funny ... just a personal opinion #i've warmed up to her more tho ^___^ but yeah!! really grateful to fma tbh bcs it's why i became friends w my bestie hehe #ARGHHHH. YEAH. i can't think rn but yeah ^^

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

my brain is leaking out of my ears fam, these last two and a half weeks of school are going to be ROUGH

#kee speaks #there are too many acronyms and number combinations in this trade #this past week has just been codes and the absolutely RIVETING topic of metallurgy #sarcasm cause half the class fell asleep during the metallurgy module today #and I'm not convinced the teacher that does that class actually knows what he's talking about #thank fuck we only have him once a week cause he just. reads the power point slides and can't hear for shit and if someone asks a question #it's usually another classmate who is able to answer the question better #and then fucking CODES. Cause Canada can't make anything easy and has got to make their own designations for codes #But instead of making their own they just adopt the industry standard made by the american based organizations and slap their own onto it #So this entire book is a word search of trying to find the associating codes between the American system and Canadian system #so like the Americans made ASME section IX for pressure vessels and all that shit but then Canada had to make the CSA #and just like. swiped some of the specifications of the code and slapped their own label on it as CSA B51 and it's all the same #but we have to know both the ASME and CSA designations of all this stuff #so I'm like trying to go through and find ok this particular thing is labelled as CSA W59 and this is CWB W47.1 and #then gotta find the associated ASME code that goes along with it because of course they gotta jumble it up and not put it together #This is all driving me up the WALL there is so much information #Thsi page I have open in front of me has like API SPec 12F and then B31.1 and CSA W47.1 and CSA W117.2 and Z662 and TC 44 #I don't even know what the fuck TC stands for I have yet to delve into that #And I think most of those are CWB designations so that's not even including the bazillion ASME specifications which half of them #are broken down even further into divisions so it'll be like ASME section IX div V or some shit like that #😵😵😵😵 #I was quite proud of myself yesterday because the teacher just did a quick review verbal test where he threw us questions and anyone could #pipe in with the answer and he asked what the specific associated CSA code for an ASME sect was and usually there's like four guys #that immediately answer and nobody did and I knew what it was and was able to chime in #that's the first time I've been able to chime in without several other people also answering so that felt good #but now I'm just sitting here like someone please just take me out there is no way I can make this all stick in my head #i find it helps to rewrite stuff into my notebook to help the information stick in my head but it took me five minutes to realize #that the acronym and the spelling out of the organization name of said acronym did not match at all #like the acronym was AISI and I wrote 'American National Standards Institute' next to it which does not match at all #well tbf the first and last letters match but the I and S should've been 'Iron & Steel'

[fictionadventurer]

If Elizabeth Goudge could stop making me want to break down weeping in the middle of Domino's, that'd be great.

#the rosemary tree #elizabeth goudge #books #to be fair most of it was probably hormones + low blood sugar #but her exquisitely compassionate character work didn't help #i had to actually stop reading for a bit while waiting for my pizza #because 'yet miss giles in the shadows seemed not far' made me want to bawl from the compassion in the idea #she was presented as the horrible teacher and yet goudge is so careful to outline the why #the strengths that could be heroic if she could overcome selfishness enough to be kind #goudge is just so good at entering into everyone's internal life to make you understand that everyone's a mess #yet everyone can be heroic and everyone deserves love #who knows which way it'll go but the fact that there's any hope says a lot #i'd almost say her treatment of the headmistress disproves the point #because now that she's pointed out the rot beneath the sweet exterior she's being painted almost as a boogeyman #but even there we see the flaws that led her there and signs that she *wasn't* always like this and could be better #it's just #i've never seen anyone more compassionate toward all their characters even while being so unflinching about their flaws #closest thing i've seen is isfjmel-phleg's treatment of her blackberry bushes characters #it's about understanding the why #we can't really love people unless we take the time to understand them

[supergraphicultramoderngirl]

breaking news: historically "gifted kid" gets a grade below a b in a class for the first time in her entire life at 19 years old and has a breakdown

#fuck that final exam man #you're telling me that the highest possible grade i could've gotten on that exam was a 57????? are you shitting me?????? #we haven't been given any feedback yet so i definitely feel like i'm being cheated out of some partial credit points #but the deadline for contesting a grade has welllll since passed and the c+ overall grade is in my transcript now so i can't do anything #i'm not as much sad abt my academic ability and more mad about the fact that that happened #bc i was doing well throughout the whole class and was regularly getting a's on them but then i bombed both of the exams #and all fucking ten assignments are only worth FIFTEEN PERCENT OF THE FINAL GRADE FUCK THAT #anyways. time to redeem myself this semester #i have to have the same goddamn professor again for the third time and he's the one i've consistently gotten lower grades in #bc he's SO BORING AND ALL HE FUCKING DOES IS READ THE SLIDES WITHOUT ANY EXTRA VALUABLE INFORMATION AND HE SKIMS OVER THINGS #THAT WE ALL NEED CLARITY ON AND GOES ON TANGENTS ABOUT THE MOST BENIGN CONTENT #i swear to god if i have to have this guy again after this year i will Heavily Consider dropping out bc fuck that noise #anyways. that is my evening #good fucking night

[bargledblocks]

Every time someone complains about a genre of fic (i.e. superhero au's) I make 5 more just to piss them off.

The reason for this is because their takes always reek of entitlement to people's hobbies and free time and they always demand for something "different" instead of realizing that a story someone isn't actually passionate about would be way more shit than one they like despite it being a genre you personally have grown bored with <3

#the blocks yell #Like I'm sorry but so many of y'all have been blessed with copious amounts of fic that isn't highly saturated by a ship #and I'm sorry but loosing a couple of fics by filtering them out really is not that bad #go into a different popular fandom and find the biggest ship and filter out the most popular ship or all ships and watch how fucking low #the fic count gets. Stop acting so entitled. #And that's not to say shipping is bad! It can be really really fun! But the idea of 'over saturation' in this fandom has become so skewed! #But don't complain becaus You Personally want something different. If you want something different then write it yourself! #And don't try and come at with a 'But I can't write!' do you know how many people Start Out writing fics? This day in age its a fucking lot #So get out there and make the stories you wanna see because until you do? Nobody else is gonna. Nobody else has your exact artistic vision #They can't do it like you. #And if one day you get to the point where you still like the story but don't like how you wrote it? Write it again! #Make it bigger and better! Use the old version as the first draft or even a really comprehensive outline! #And if you Don't like it anymore and don't feel any passiin for it then thats fine! You can let it sit because the thing is? #One day someone is gonna read that story and it'll be their absolute favorite thing in the world! #They might even make their own based off of it. Wouldn't that feel Good? Having someone love something you made so much that they create #something of their own. Despite the flaws you may now see? #Anyway. That was kind of a lot but if you can't tell I have a lot passion for this subject. #But just remember: fic writers make things to have fun. We don't get paid for what we do and yet we share it for free! #You accomplish nothing by whining about somethings success despite not having tried for yourself. Now go write a and have some fun #big rants at buildmart #<- also look i have a tag for these now

[falling-beyond-oblivion]

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#seems ya girl is getting into her sexually frustrated era again #why do I have to deal with this #I'm not ready to get into a relationship again nor do I have interest in it anyway #also need to have a deep emotional connection to someone to even have any interest in them #yet here I am wanting someone to exclusively fuck me #I know this is tmi so I'm sorry if you read this #can't really mention this to online friends since they're pretty much only male #would be weird most likely