#- they are suffering and trying to cope with it by romantisizing their life !

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" but that's fatphobic to not wanna be fat " kind of like i was diagnosed with a disorder where one of the main symptoms is fatphobia 💀 u literally have to be fatphobic to be diagnosed with it , how shocking ! how hard it must be for u that i have a disorder that will probably kill me before i turn 30 and i shouldnt talk abt it or try and seek help bcs thta could hurt ur feelings ! grow up

u guys will preach " mental health is important " till it comes to actual mental illnesses that arent just crying for a few minutes and then being fine but actually involve actively self destructive behaviors

like god forbid someone has a mental illness but doesnt want to or can recover . if u guys think it's so bad and should be banned from being talked abt then all mental illnesses should be banned from being talked abt bcs it could upset someone who feels uncomfortable seeing someone else in a worse position to them

god forbid a actually marginalized person copes with that trauma with controlling the only thing they can ( food ) . me wanting to lessen gender dysphoria ( bcs i look more androgynous when uw ) is so mean right how dare i want to feel comfortable in my own body for shame

not to mention that trans ppl r more likely to develop e/d's 💀 and then say that ppl with e/d's r privileged ( genuinely saw someone say that 😭🙏 ) like yea someone having a trauma based disorder is rlly privileged i ahve such a privilege to die at 30 ?? bro pls be fr rn

#god forbid someone has a disorder and dont have the means or wants to recover from it #btw making fun of ppl with eds can very easily lead to sui ; ppl with eds either die of malnutrition of sui and most die by 30 #' waaaa someone opened up abt how they have trouble eating let me mock them and shamw them from ever talkinv abt their feelings and then #- get shocked when they kts ' like bro wtf did u expect ? #we cant just exist and we cant let go of the disorder to sui is a easy route out #u guys seem to forget res eds r the MOST DEADLY mental disorders OF THEM ALL right ? #god forbid someone cant ' body postivity ' their way out of trauma how dare they not be mentally well this must be terrible for u that #- they are suffering and trying to cope with it by romantisizing their life ! #how dare they want to find joy and happiness #this is soook insultinv right ? ' someone doesnt want to look like me that's fatphobic ! ' so is someone not wanting tatoos tatoophobic and #- insulting to ppl with tatoos ? is someone not wanting to present feminine sexist ? #ana b0y #ana bllog #ana trigger #i want to purge #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #ana rant #ana tricks #anatumblr #ed no sheeran #fatphobia

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A Silent Voice: an incredibly thought out clusterfuck

Here I will be giving my interpretations of A Silent Voice's main characters, picking apart their thought processes and trauma! Beware, there will be brief discussion of suicide. I will do my best to keep it as brief as possible. And, of course, spoiler alert!

Ishida's character is wonderfully complicated and incredibly frustrating! I hypothesize that he suffers neglect from his family, thus copes by acting out in school. This, of course, self-rationalizing (convincing himself that he's just doing what anyone else would do and no one could possibly blame him for his actions) his bullying and bad behavior, thus worsening with age without treatment or guidence.

Shoto suffers abuse from her mother and her classmates, stunting her personal growth and confidence. She's led to believe everything is her fault due to the near constant abuse. This also had the side effect of low self esteem, which explains nearly all of her actions.

So, due to the guilt inflicted when he had a very minimal epiphany (due to the bullying of his classmates) hinting that what he did was wrong, Ishida did whatever he could (that wouldn't put his pride at risk) to relieve the guilt. Whether he realized it or not, it was absolutely for his own personal gain - which was to relieve the pain. He wanted to relieve the pain the guilt, thus his suicide attempt.

At his first attempt to redeem himself (showing up at her classroom), she's curious but hesitant. She doesn't have the ability to hold grudges or hold anyone other than herself accountable, so her hesitation doesn't last long. At first, it's apparent she had anxiety about him at first. She fled from him, running through the school and trying to hide. But then, they communicated. She was basically forced to communicate with him and listen to what he had to say. Then, she gave him another chance. As time passed, she accepted his poor attempts at redemption.

And so it goes, due to her low self esteem, lack of confidence, and inability to blame anyone but herself, Shoto then romantisizes and idolizes Ishida. He was the first one who showed any speck of guilt for his poor actions. She hasn't been shown that kindness for longterm by anyone other than her sister. After some time, Shoto tries to confess to Ishida and he can't understand her voice. Of course, her feelings linger. He kept being "kind" to her and nothing really changed after that other than some newly gained "friends."

Then, when there's FINALLY an apology and closure, after all this time spent trying to relieve his guilt, Ishida confesses to the girl he needed that forgiveness and relief from. He probably still feels unworthy of living, so he's trapped in his own subconscious feeling of never being good enough. This reaches a full circle with his neglect from his family. Ishida constantly acted to try to finally acheive the feeling of being good enough. He acted out in school to gain the approval of classmates. He tried bullying an easy target to make himself feel less inadequate. Once he was made to feel even more inadequate by the principal and his classmates, he did what we could to "redeem" himself/make himself feel good about himself again. When he reached rock bottom and thought he'd never be good enough, he attempted suicide. He acts on this to the point where he yearns for a romantic relationship with a girl he barely knows on a personal level just to gain some peace of mind and a feeling of redemption and adequacy.

In all honesty, I see his movie as a tragedy rather than a romance. The two main characters' actions were meerly due to each person's maladaptive coping mechanisms and mental/emotional shortcomings. Ishida felt the need to persue Shoto: the object of his redemption and relief. Shoto, save for - maybe - her sister and grandma, was never shown was a healthy relationship, platonic or romantic, was like. Even with her sister, it was unheathily protective and borderline controlling. After for her grandma, she showed minimal guidence or influence in Shoto's life. Ultimately, Ishida will realize that he still feels unworthy despite having gained the object of his relief and will probably lash out in anger at whoever he can: Shoto. Shoto will undoubtably blame herself, suffering never ending self-blame. Without guidence, Ishida will not become aware of his constant feeling of inadequacy, and Shoto will not stop apologizing and blaming herself for everything that is even the slightest inconvenience.

So, that's just my hot take! I realize one's perspective may be different, and that's okay! I don't think my perspective is the only right one. I'd like to acknowledge the view that takes Ishida being bullied into account, arguing that he realized how Shoto felt and genuinely, selflessly felt guilty and wanted to make it up to her.

Let me know what you think!

#a silent voice #anime #review #shoto #ishida #mental illness #suicide #tw: suicide #tw #deaf