#2???? im not even Sure anymore

[faunandfloraas]

It is kinda funny seeing people talk about Seungmin lately because he definitely has gotten more bold and confident for sure. He's also just getting opportunities to be perceived as an individual on his own as well for the first time in a while but it's still jarring to see people be like Aw he was always such a quiet goodie two shoes little nerd and it's like...... he was the one to leave and seek out his own vocal coach and blatantly talk about it, which of course lead to I.N and Lee Know also doing the same, he was the one to go on bubble and tell off sasaengs who used to camp outside their old dorm for invading members privacy but also because it effected other residents and staff at the complex, something that i'm certain upper management wouldnt have been happy about, and he wasn't curt or nice about it either. like he's never actually been a wallflower, he's always had a pretty strong backbone and seems to stick to his principals, its not really new.

#even silly shit like bringing up drinking even tho staff has clearly told him not too #like yeah its silly but its still sticking to his guns of being like we arent actually children anymore thanks #the food thing too like in an old 2 kids room he said something about not being able to eat on his bday bc they were filming so evidently #there was a moment in time when he caved to the shitty diet obsession kpop had but ever since hes never really said anything like it again #instead hes telling everyone to eat well and reminding people to have dinner or lunch every other day #even the comment about growing his hair out but then being like lol the stylist probably wont like me saying that or whatever #and like the yeah im going to the gym but im not lifting. dont expect me to bulk up. im doing it for stamina<< that made me cackle #bc i did see people on twt being like but what if seungmin got buff tho omg hed be so hot 🥺 Well him bein buff isnt what this is about #so he went and made sure people were realistic. not everyone needs to be noticeably cut yk #idk maybe bc i watched most all the skz content all the way through #and now i go back and gif stuff i notice patterns more easily than if youve been here for longer and havent watched older stuff #for a while- maybe? idk its just funny but i also see takes a lot and have to stop myself from going No <3 #anyway this is my obligatory insane ksm tangent of the week. see you in 5 minutes. #🐶

[nostalgic-bee]

I feel like in S3 the beef between the teachers and Sibuna is so much more noticeable and i just need to know what that looks like to the non Anubis kids

#im sure it was somewhat noticeable in s1 and 2 but I feel like not as much?? #I honestly could be remembering wrong but isn’t it so much more subtle in the first two seasons?? #meanwhile in s3 Fabian is basically glaring at Mr sweet while saying he knows what’s happening on the day of the eclipse #s1 and 2 I feel like they are far more subtle maybe but in s3 they don’t even bother anymore #actually maybe they stopped being subtle halfway through s2 #house of anubis

[satsuha]

u know im back on my bullshit

#octopath traveler ii #octopath traveler 2 #satsuhart #temehika #hikari ku #temenos mistral #i thought long and hard about whether temenos is a catboy or a dogboy (hound) #and in the end i decided on arctic fox. #i have.... thoughts but theyre all spoilery thoughts like no literally no one can talk about why they like them without mentioning spoilers #ive been seeing it happen on twt for like the past 2 weeks #but anyway (spoiler) (spoiler) just trust me dude. theyre a good ship #it has nothing to do with the fact that ive liked mage warrior ships for the past 5 years. shut up #also i bought csp v2 and the shading assist... she popped off a little w that one ngl #but im still very angry about csp's terrible autosave function #like fun fact that first pic? i dont have it in .clip format anymore LOL #it also deleted the little pic i made about my ship taste but i didnt know and i deleted that tweet bc i was embarrassed #i mean it isnt a big loss i can remake it anytime but like. shaking fist at csp autosave function #tags are really quite dangerous im not even sure if theres a limit? ill stop here tho gn... i am working on a temehika fic 👍 #octo2

[berryblu-soda]

Rotating Phillip (the last dimension) in my brain exponentially faster every day until season 2 is here

#lets hope it gets here soon; i dont know how much more he can take #lest he become but an amorphous mass of aiborne molecules #asahdfdg what am i even saying anymore #anyways super hyped for the next season; ik we got a release date >:D!!!!! #rereading it at 2 points simultaneously like a madwoman #on my third read in a week im pretty sure :D <- is so normal abt this webtoon; mhm... #aaaaaaaa sfgafshsfahsgahsfshsgahsgahsfahgshafshafsshsfsghsfs #there is!!!! so much lore!!!! i can tell we've barely scratched the surface and going insane!!!!! #shut up sheo #webtoon #the last dimension #phillip maxwell #semi new addition to my top tier blorbo list :') #hes my son my baby boy 😭😭

[thegreatyin]

i think the scoundrel mostly uses their bat privileges to get random things they want. like they're arguing with someone over having something they absolutely should not be permitted to have and after awhile they finally HUFF and stomp away and then two minutes later mr cards coincidentally rounds the corner and demands they have that exact same thing or else the full wrath of the bazaar comes upon the other guy's person. they are fully convinced this is a flawless and incomprehensibly subtle scheme that nobody could possibly pick up on or outwit. they think they're a genius. they think they're batman.

#yin-thoughts #fallen london #it's like the worst kept secret in london #they're REALLY dramatic about keeping it though. im not sure specifically why #the doomed scientist walks in on them taking off their robe and they hiss like a vampire and he's like you already told me this #everyone knows about it #you're the worst liar in history #and they're like No i am So Subtle i have 2 million mirthridacy #and he's like you have a grand total of one point in it. you haven't even bothered to train it. #and they're aggressively not listening anymore

[bunnihearted]

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity?? #im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!! #so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss.... #and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

[astudiouswizard]

I have only watched a little Dimension 20 but A LOT of Critical Role, so much of my perspective on D20 comes from Tumblr but here we go: the main difference from what I can tell.

Critical Role: classic high fantasy vibes with normally serious character types who are then subjected to horrors beyond imagining by their DM.

Dimension 20: something off the wall vibes wise with occasionally jokey character types who are then subjected to HORRORS BEYOND IMAGINING by their DM.

Am I close?

#critical role #dimension 20 #my feed is just full of 2 campaigns for d20 i think #one is candy? and the other is fruit? #im not even sure anymore

[pockycatz]

hayloft II fanart from 2021 that i just found in the depths of my laptop

#i literally don't even listen to mother mother anymore #this is from 2 years ago literally and im not sure why i never posted because there's already so much going on i don't think i could have #added anything to it... lol #mother mother #hayloft 2 #hayloft II #mother mother fanart #digital art #o my heart #the sticks #colorful art #neon aesthetic #eyeburner #music video

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful #like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched. #im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting #i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now #bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened #would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence #that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we #last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul #ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code #i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open #the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was #bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is #ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt #unrelated

[aberooski]

If I take a second to breathe and think and 3 seconds into it someone calls me over the radio to come clean something they could do themselves again I'm going to actually scream

#like god I knkw I'm the only usher here rn cuz im the opening usher on saturdays but FUCK #give me a second tk fucking BREATHE #I HATE when I'm doing something and one of the managers calls and is like actually can you stop what you're doing even though what you're- #-doing is more important and come sweep up this like 3 cernal popcorn spill literally right next to us that we could get ourselves but won' #I hate this job so much I want to quit so bad #somebody else hire me right now so I can leave this shithole #and also have a real job that pays mlre than 10 bucks and hour so I can actually pretend to be a semi functional adult #I can't even pretend right now #I've been stuck in limbo for the last 2 years at least and I really don't know how I'll ever get out #I probably won't let's be honest because I wasn’t born into a world where that's possible anymore #and my mental health has only been slowly but surely deteriorating for even longer than that but it's really crashed and burned lately #but i'm trying #and I honestly don't want to try anymore #I'm so tired

[thevalleyoftriumph]

im beginning to think that i am mentally ill and the internet makes my mental illness Worse

#i dont often get personal on this blog but im going to be so honest idc anymore. no one has 2 read this if they dont wanna i promise #but anyway. if *ACCIDENTALLY* rbing a Bad post and deleting it within ~5 seconds of it happening AND blocking the op #is enough to send me into one of my downward spirals of NEEDING to check my notes and inbox #and opening and closing my blog to make sure its Actually deleted and im not just Imagining its deleted #in order to feel even slightly okay #only to immediately remember/realize that blog notifications on mobile not only send INSTANTLY upon a rb happening #but show every detail of the post and dont stack either #therefor sending me even FURTHER into my checking and sending me into a panic #because this means people possibly Wont Know It Was A Mistake and instead might think its a genuine opinion of mine #therefor making me panic MORE #if ALL OF THAT is just because this fucking website cant impliment a proper quick-rb button for desktop #and a mistake happened #then i dont think the internet is good for me at this point and i think i need to smash all of my devices #i already get a lot of those like... needing to do Something to make sure nothing bad happened/happens #like i get that a lot already from my irl life i do NOT need it to happen online too. #because like.. i dont know WHO saw that. so am i making a huge fuss out of nothing/a mistake everyone could have made? #yes! probably! but i cant really stop myself now that ive started so this is going to Legit Haunt Me which is Not Normal! #whatever mannnnn #got so upset over this i cried and then circled back around to just Mildly stressed to apathetic entirely within the span of 4 minutes #still checking my notifs/inbox every two seconds but at this point ive accepted Someones probably gotten a notif and well. nothing i can do #kitkat chitchat

[technicalthinker]

being bi in theory should be the best of all worlds but in practice when it comes to dating it's like. I'm too straight to be gay and too gay to be straight. you feel me

#JUST BISEXUAL THINGS #i'm bi tag #amanda rambles #talked to a girl for a while now but afraid i'm faking or forcing feelings/interest #we're not actually a thing but we're talking a bunch #and i cant meet her until in 2 months when she moves back so i cant check the vibe in person. #more difficult IMAGINING the relationship #meanwhile i meet some cute normal dude and im like #i can imagine it easier ive dated a dude im more socially attuned to how that'd feel #but also god youre too straight and normal and we could have a lot of fun together but im not sure i could be fully me #im not even that stressed about dating anymore i have my hands full with dog and job and other existential crisis #(ive deleted the dating apps lmao) #BUT GOD IT HITS ME SOMETIMES #(obv feel free to rb if youre in the same boat as i am this is not a personal deep sad thought this is an EVENT) #(anyone can join if you feel conflicted enough)

[destructix]

my years-long mutual circle that's become sonic-lobcorp-kingdomhearts-tmnt ......shoutout 🫡

#u know who u are #i will never unfollow even if our interests dont really align anymore #yall are cool people 💖 #talk tag #was the common interest sonic i actually dont remember. im sure it was for zone but idk abt the other 2

[tofangirlornottofangirl]

the horrifying realisation of discovering you have *a type* and that type is sagittarius men

#I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT #NO FUCKING WAY #whats with the sag rizz #im suffering #im unironically having a breakdown over this #i would like to have confidently said 2 seconds ago that atleast gojo isnt my type but im not even sure about that anymore #what catastrophe of a placement has doomed me to like noncommittal men???? and so specifically #realising my only real long term relationships have been sagittarius people #this guy i dated for years but it was basically platonic with some teenage angst thrown in #and my only bestie in life #and the rebound friend i made after the bestie breakup #WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME #is it the father challenges #or the mother challenges #or the being a functional person challenges #*dies*

[4giorno]

i got the cutscene <3

#its actually crazy that there was even more content i missed that impacted the story this much #like this rlly illustrated how even tho my character and astari0n have both become better people astari0n is still so behind in that #(we know why ofc. hes still acting like a feral cat trying to self preservere with teeth and nail and all until the very end; the ritual) #my character had his most obvious 'shifting point' at the transition from act 2 to act 3 #like he fully realized that this is now truly bigger than himself. he has left marks on the lands and he has to go all the way #he has made true friends. one of his best friends is the kindest most compassionate person in the world #and very importantly he loves astari0n and THAT is the reason he now feels this actual compassion towards the other spawn #hes so personally invested in this issue now #and he can say that 'the world can be a wonderful place if you find your home in it astari0n' bc its something he has just recently had #a personal revelation abt #and astari0n deflects it and describes my character as someone who now 'spends their life sorting out other peoples problems' #and it rlly brings it to focus that he just cannot meet him where hes at anymore #just great conflict that feels actually meaningful and perfectly fits into the roleplay storyline ive made for my character #and omg the line 'im doing this for you too you know. to make sure were both safe. forever' from astari0n is just AAAAAAHDJJDJD. CRAZY #bc we know how toxic he becomes towards you if he completes the ritual!!!!!! #HHHHH this character!!!!! hes just MWAH. perfection #i cant wait until i get to doing the szarr palace again bc this added conflict will make the conclusion of this quest even more satisfying #anyway TOTAL tonal shift time. in start of the cutscene astari0n is standing next to the bed my character was sleeping in #so i can now have the hc that some nights they sleep in the same bed <3 #(WELL. you know. my character sleeps while he meditates)

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(