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forjongseong · 11 months

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carmesi part 10 HELLO LMAO i thought i havent read 9, but i did!!! so part 10 LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO~

You continued to pout and stare blankly at the screen before coming up with an idea. “Can I just sit with you?”

“You mean on my lap?” Jay asked to confirm. When you nodded, he nodded too and swiveled his chair back to face the computer. “Hop on.”

HEHEHEHE i just started and im all giggles and butterflies rn djksaldjksa

“It looks great on you, that’s the problem. It makes you look older.”

Jay’s eyes squinted at you before he chuckled again. “Thank you?”

LMAO i can see his usual facial expression with his eyebrow raised too lol

“Sit on my cock?” He asked, his lips grazing yours.

SAY LESS! I AM SAT, SIR

“Do you have any more of these that I can ruin?” Jay asked, his fingers lifting the hem of your night gown.

@_@ SCREAMING! Why would he even ask? There's a whole wardrobe fhasjkdjkas

“Can’t wait to see them wrapped around my dick tonight. See you at home.”

NANA LMAO I didnt expect this reply omg i choked on my water BYE

“You say that like I’m not allowed to stare at you,” Jay commented, leaning back on the kitchen sink and gripping the edges with his hands. “You look beautiful.”

oh jay <3 he is just so squishable lol i wanna hug this dude and let him just stare at me forever :3

Jay shrugged as he leaned back on the counter again, a smug smile on his face. “I mean, if that’s what you want.”

JAY! YOU DONT GET TO SAY THIS! YOU DID IT FIRST! WTF JFKASDLFSDFS

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

i just love the trust ceoyn has in jay. his tone just calms her and its like no one exists after that. PERFECT COUPLE FOREVER

“I don’t want a single drop staining the car,” you whispered. “Don’t make a mess.”

SCREAMING BECAUSE I REMEMBERED WE TALKED ABOUT THIS OMG AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

“Is that a hickey?”

You fumbled for your phone and checked your reflection, craning your neck to see the spot Seungho pointed at. Nothing was there.

“Made you look,” he chuckled.

IM THE BROTHER LMAO!!! Me to my siblings tbh

“Is this the famous Park Jay? Oh, I love your hair. So nice to finally meet you!”

HAHAHAAHAHHAAHHA I DIDNT MEANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD, BUT I DID OMG LOLOLOL poor hwi!!!!!

“For making my sister happy.”

okay, sorry to be that emo person haha but i did this to my sister's fiancee and brother's girlfriend T-T and one day, im gonna say this to my baby sister's future s/o when she gets one. we all really deserve happiness <3

“Good,” Seungho said. “Because if you hurt her, I’m gonna have to unleash all the hidden knowledge I have gained from listening to a lot of true crime podcasts.”

HAHAHAHAHA I AM SEUNGHO FRFR! My siblings had to tell me to calm down and stop scaring their s/o dhsajkdhsajkdhjak

“You’re the prettiest when you’re naked for me, though.”

CHOKING AGAIN AHAHHA LEAVING FOREVER

“Matching mugs for us!” Jay said with a huge smile. “Do you think it’s cute?”

THE MATCHING MUGS T-T MY EMOTIONS ARE LITERALLY EVERYWHERE RN! we talked so much about the matching mugs AND HERE WE ARE

Jay shrugged, also admiring the green mug. “I just thought of you when I saw them. I figured, since you can’t hang out with cats because of me, I should make an effort to add more cat stuff to our daily lives.”

he loves her so much that it makes me love them so much and now idk what to do but cry some more because hdjsakdhjakdhak THIS IS JAY

“Damn it, I forgot what else I was supposed to say.”

me tearing up and then laughing hahahaha dammit JAY! DHJSAKDHASJ i love him so much PLEASE!!!

“Y/N, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”

ME, BRINGING HONOR TO MYSELF BY BEING HIS WIFE! HELLO!

“Don’t worry, I’ve got pictures and videos of the proposal. I’ll airdrop them as soon as my shift is over,” Jake confessed. “Now I gotta run before my manager sees me.”

JAKE! BEST MAN! he wins for best man category lmao jkjk

You looked at Jay for a couple of seconds before you blinked. “So, when you were frantically patting yourself down and searching for something in your pocket, it wasn’t the car keys but the ring? You left it at home?”

JAY BRUHHHH LMAO the way i freaken snorted out loud as well. he was slick af though, for lying that he was looking for the keys dhjaskdhsjak!

Jay took the jade roller from your hands and made you give instructions on how to use it on your face. You did the same routine on Jay’s face, and throughout the whole process he was closing his eyes and smiling.

THIS IS SO FUCKING CUTE, PLEEEEASE NANA T-T especially him closing his eyes and smiling! my heart is gushing out so much love rn!

Jay chuckled and booped your nose. “I kiss you once and you already think I’m trying to get in your pants?”

“Aren’t you?”

“I am.”

I AM GOING TO FIGHT HIM DHJAKSDHAKSHDSKA A DAMN MENACE TO MY HEART

ANYWAYS OMG I FORGOT THAT PART 10 WAS THE PROPOSAL CHAPTER T-T So much tears, laughter, and screaming dhjsakdhjak i missed carmesi so much! fuck school, because i missed out on my favorite couple T-T BUT ITS OKAY, i can catch up slowly and gush and cry and scream again with you! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS TO CARMESI PART 10

ngl reading this recap I felt like reading someone else's work??? I don't remember writing ANY of this HELP AKSHDHKAJSDAKSJ HOW LONG AGO WAS THIS PART RELEASED OH MY GOD

especially this part

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

what happened there? HASDHASH I GUESS I HAVE TO REREAD IT MYSELF oh but yes I did remember discussing the car sex scene with you BECAUSE YOU SENT ME THAT SNIPPET FROM THE COMIC AKSJDHKAJSDHSA

not me going to part 10 and rereading it now BHAHAHA thank you for highlightingg these parts, it makes me relive them again

#ilysb #nanaanswers #nanafeedbacks #from.genie #fic: mon soleil

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evermorehaikyuu · 4 years

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Day 17

Title: Love vs. Exertion

Note: I’m not going to lie to you, it’s like my brain got worn out and started sleeping in the middle of the whole thing. So I apologize if it’s wack (it is), it’s very, very, VERY lighthearted angst, it’s not going to tear your heart apart.

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Love versus work was something that people from every industry. Most people choose a job that would be easy for them to maintain and head back home to their family at night, maybe even spend a weekend with them. There was, however, one industry which was utterly difficult to balance home life and their work life without the press coming for them. The entertainment industry, so hard to get into and so easy to get kicked out.

Semi Eita had chosen this career field even with that idea in his mind. Every single day, he came back, exhausted from all of the work he had done on that day in the studio. Y/N was always waiting for him at the door without fail. Already having cooked his favorite meal, she quickly led him inside and watched as he collapsed on the couch, chuckling softly. “Bad day?”

“My producers are reviewing the song I wrote.” Semi mumbled into the pillow. “I tried my hand at it but I think it’s better if someone else wrote the songs.”

“It can’t be that bad, they’ll probably fix a few parts up and try to make it, well, as you as possible.” Y/N said, walking over and rubbing his back slowly.

“Yeah, maybe.” Semi muttered, turning over and pulling her down with him. Hugging her close to his chest, he let out a shaky breath, closing her eyes. This was the only moment he had waited for everyday, he wanted to stay like that as long as possible. It was just a moment for both of them to forget everything else, but the other.

As much as he wished he could stay like that, it was out of the question. His work was difficult and it was already hard enough to keep the fact that Y/N was his lover. If the press discovered that, they’d ruin her life.

He had already told himself never to let anything or anyone ruin her life.

“......And if you sign this contract, they can make you bigger than ever. You’d be going to other famous places, there’s no way that your career won’t be influenced by this.” Semi’s agent told him, a placid expression over his face, but his tone said everything. He wanted Semi to take the deal. His agent would be taking 15% of the endorsement, mainly the reason why he was subconsciously pushing Semi the “right” way.

“Only if Y/N can come with me. I’m not going anywhere without her.” Semi said stubbornly. This was the reason why he had rarely taken these opportunities: if Y/N wasn’t coming, it was a straight no. She was the only thing grounding him to reality and leaving without her? Not an option.

His agent sighed, already having gone over this millions of times with him. “Semi, we have discussed this, she can’t come.”

“Why not? She’s not even going to be doing anything, she’s just going to be there for me. Don’t you ever think I get tired of having to smile and wave?”

His agent thought about it for a while, making Semi apply more points to his argument. “Just let her come. She won’t bother anyone, she’ll just stay in one room. I’ve told her that I’ve only left like seven times in my whole career and the next time she’d come--”

“No.” The agent looked at him sternly, crossing his arms. “She’s not part of the team. She’s not a stage designer or part of your prep team. She’d be extra weight. Either take the deal or find another agent.”

Semi clenched his fists. So here it was. Here was the point where he’d have to choose between what he’d have his career and his love. He knew it’d destroy Y/N if he left when he had promised last time that he wouldn’t go anywhere farther than Japan without her.

“Fine. I’ll leave her behind.”

Y/N had happily opened the door for him, the aroma of food wafting through the air. He immediately felt guilty at the news he’d have to tell her. It felt like a punishment to even admit that he’d choose money over love. Then again, he was doing it for the both of them. Right?

“How’d today go?” Y/N said nonchalantly.

He hesitated for a second. “Fine.”

She shook her head, glancing at him. “If you think you’re fooling me, you’re wrong. Something’s up, tell me.” She guided him over to the couch, sitting him down and staring at him. “Was it the studio again?”

��They offered me...another opportunity.” He mumbled, almost inaudibly, but enough so that Y/N could hear him. “It’s a good one too, it’s out of the country and it could probably take my career a step further.”

Her eyes lit up at the thought of going with him to foreign places and watch him rise up as he rightfully should have. “What did they say? Can I come with you? Where are you going? How long are you going?”

Just the sound of her happiness broke him inside. He didn’t want to be the bearer of bad news but here he was, about to do it anyways. “They told me….they told me you can’t come. We’re heading to the major cities. I don’t know how long I’m doing it for, they didn’t give me an exact date.”

It was a domino effect. Y/N frowned at him and said monotonously, “But you promised that I’d be going with you next time.”

“I know, but they told me I couldn’t--”

“Wait. Did you already take the job?”

Semi couldn’t look at her as he said his next word. “Yes.”

Y/N stared at him, not believing that he had made a promise and not kept it. Then again, what could she have expected? With a job like his, it was difficult to make sure their love life was under wraps, much less give up a great opportunity. However, it was different when Y/N was on the receiving end of this whole ordeal. Trying to keep her emotions under control, she kept speaking. “So you’re leaving for, what, the eighth time?”

He could visibly see her battling her rage internally. But along with that rage, he could see something else in her eyes that made him falter. Heartache. Both of them had been together since their third year in Shiratorizawa and she had happily obliged to be with him every step of the way, even though he was taking this career field. Never had she broken her own promises, but she was understandably pissed off at him. However, it didn’t mean that he was going to let this once-in-a-lifetime chance pass by. “I have to take it.”

Y/N took a deep breath. “So let me get this straight. I have to sit down and watch you go to other places without you thinking about me at all and before you say anything, you’re just like the rest of them. They say, ‘Oh, I’ll never forget about you, you’re the love of my life!’ But never once do they choose the right thing.”

“Oh? The right thing is choosing love over money? You do realize I’m doing this for the both of us.” Semi uttered, his anger bubbling. Why couldn’t she understand? “I have to go and do this!”

“Then go! You certainly don’t seem to need me at all, why even stick around when you’re gonna choose something else! What about me?”

“What about you?” He said, snark laced in his voice. “You’re practically nothing next to me. Compared to other musicians I could’ve been with, I chose you. Out of pity.”

Y/N took a step back, staring at him with her eyes wide. “This isn’t you that’s talking. The Semi I know wouldn’t say stuff like this. You aren’t the man I fell in love with anymore.”

“I never fell in love with you.” Semi spat. The words sunk in, a stunned silence breaking in between them. Once they were out in the open, the wound had been struck, there was no taking them back anymore. “Wait, Y/N--”

Too late. She had turned around and walked out of the house without anything. Semi had half a mind to go after her but after what he said, it’d take a miracle for Y/N not to run away from him.

Months later, coming back from his tour, he had hoped that Y/N had it in her heart to welcome him back in her arms. It was something of a stretch when he knocked on the door and someone else had opened it. A complete stranger. Semi’s eyes widened as he stammered, “S-Sorry, wrong address” and quickly went onto the street, calling Y/N.

The wrong number picked up. He ended the call as soon as he started it and started panicking, looking around. He could only think of one person that he could stay with while he tried to find Y/N. “Kawanishi!”

“Hey, Semi, what’s wrong?”

“I-I--” Semi had just seen Y/N walking down the street, chatting animatedly with another man who he had never seen in his life before. She stared at him and with a shadow over her face ignored him.

Kawanishi asked, “What’s wrong? Semi? Semi, answer me!”

Semi dropped his phone and his chest felt like it was folding in on itself. There was no way Y/N would’ve taken him back and he knew it. And yet, watching him find another man during the time that he was gone. He sat down on the curb, grabbing the phone and putting it to his ear, his voice cracking. “I lost her…”

“What?”

“I lost Y/N...all because I was stupid enough to say something that wasn’t true and now--” He hiccupped, shutting his eyes tightly to try and hold back his own tears. He tried to speak, but a small cry came out of him. He dissolved into hysterical tears right then and there, burying his face in his knees as the pain started arriving in intervals. He stayed on the phone, sobbing his eyes out.

Y/N watched him from afar, tears falling from her own eyes. The man she had been walking with was an old friend and he meant nothing to her. Watching Semi Eita break down in the middle of the street was the last thing she wanted to cause. Even then, she couldn’t go back to him. Not even as she almost reached out for him.

Nothing stayed forever and with the job that he did, it was bound to happen. Y/N was the only thing keeping him from becoming like the other celebrities. Now he was crawling into the dark place and there was nothing stopping him. Y/N had not stayed. It was useless.

I wish I could give you all you deserved, I wish you stayed with me, I wish so many things, none of them come true.

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screaming-paint · 5 years

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i wanna change up this shitshow of a blog but idk what i want to change it to

#not that anyone will read this #i have like two followers lmao #maybe a studyblr??#but like my classes dont start for another two months #aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

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jennhii · 6 years

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im crying over the new bnha chapter!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!

sorry i dont keep up with the manga BUT IT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING GOOD/AWESOME HAPPENED IM HAPPY FOR YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE READING IT

#i wanna read just not now =3=#if its bakudeku related tell me lol #Anonymous

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themarginalartist · 7 years

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congratulations on 500 followers! im honestly surprised you dont have more, your stuff is amazing!

OMG AAAAAAAHHHHHH THANK YOU!!!!!I DONT KNOW IF I COULD HANDLE MORE IF THIS IS WHAT 500 IS DOING TO ME CAUSE JUST LIKE MY MIND IS BLOWN THAT ALL YALL ARE FOLLOWING ME!!!AND AFJSKLADND YOURE TOO KIND AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

#answers

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foxstens · 5 years

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cant believe i have 3 eps left

#mine #liveblogging #i really liked this last case #tho i couldnt predict any of it #but it was kinda low-key compared to others #aND HAD SO MANY BEAUTIFUL SHOTS #also luo fei's entire attitude during it ahhhhh #ALSO LUO FEI WITH GLASSES AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH #idk what the last case has in store for me #and im afraid #also i dont want it to end i love it so much #i could watch 7 more seasons of it #:(#my posts #liveblogging detective l #dramablogging

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forjongseong · 1 year

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I AM FINALLY HERE FOR 7 AND 8.

Hwiyoung being the real one to stay by ceoyn when Jay freaken fainted. omg I PAUSED MY MUSIC SO FAST, NANA!! And the whole brushing his hair scene PLEASE! Jay let me run my fingers through your hair, dammit!

WHY ARE WE CRYING? Because we love jay omfg

“You’re beautiful even when you cry. That seems unfair,” he protested.

SHUT UP JAY! i'm still crying omg they are so beautiful wtf.

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH IS THE SCENE FROM TIKTOK WHERE YOU SENT ME ABOUT JAY STAYING IN T-T IM CRYING OMGOMGOMGOMG MY HEART

“Come here,” he invited. “Sit on your throne.”

BYE! I NEED HOLY WATER

Your lipstick began to stain the base of his dick, and when he opened his eyes to look at you he almost cummed right then and there.

WEE WOO WEE WOO I NEED TO GO TO THE ER I AM CRYING AT THIS SCENE

“Be a good girl and do as I say, will you?”

#TEAMFERAL BYE I AM DEACTIVATING

wtf nana THAT ENTIRE SEX SCENE i am levitating. omg i feel dizzy. someone needs to help me for a minute

NAMJOON?! EXCUSE ME!? WAS K NOT ENOUGH? omg my heart.

-- onto pt8

the very finger that was already tainted with your arousal.

I JUST LEVITATED YET AGAIN CAN JAY STOP?

There was a lot of pouting and whining and stomping your feet softly when it came to persuading your boyfriend

GIRRRRRL me right here dhajskdajk always trying to convince my man to go to places with me T_T i know how ceoyn feels

Hoseok noticed your behavior and was about to ask you about it

HOBI MY MAN! MY MAIN MAN NOTICING hjdsakhdakjdakj come here hobi

“If I win, we’re getting the fuck out of here so I can have some alone time with you,” he said, ever so gently and right into your ear.

WE LOVE THIS MAN BYE! jay we dont need play. lets just leave rn. right fucking now dhsajkdhakj

Okay their conversation about Nam is so mature and awesome? Like this is what communication in a relationship is about. You communicate before the assumptions build and I love it so much. Jay didn't like the way Nam was looking at her and its fair enough for him to say, "dont see him again."

“Was I too rough last night?” He asked again, voice lowered to a whisper.

JAY FHJKDHJAKSDAKS CHILL, MY DUDE! Our bodies hurt for different reasons okay!

JAKE BABYSITTING CEOYN T-T PLEEEEEEEEASE!! That is the sweetest thing every omg im weeping happy tears. Jake is the man for the job.

NANA T-T the entire bed scene of them cuddling and ceoyn in tears, afraid of losing something wonderful to jay freaking out about her being in pain lord have mercy i just wanna hug them both. ceoyn is soooooo relatable when she gets a lil emotional because im the same

Not Hwiyoung out here sharing information and Heeseung knowing dhakjsdhakjs HWI SHUT YOUR MOUTH SDFGHJKL

NOT JAY PUTTING HER IN A HEADLOCK WTF FGHASDJHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH EVERY GIRLS DREAMS OUT THERE RN

omg game night with the boys pls that is so fucking precious. me squealing at Jake telling them to get a room but they're the ones raiding her house dhsajkdhahaahahahha!!!

AND THE MINISODES PLEASE! I LOVE HOW CUTE THEY ARE I AM HERE GUSHING AND KICKING MY FEET IN THE AIR UGHHHH worth the wait <3

I'm laughing because I can't imagine how tired your eyes must be after reading all the parts that you missed!! I have missed your reactions! And I'm glad you liked the parts that I liked writing too especially when Jay explicitly said he didn't like her ex <3

I TRY MY BEST to make ceoyn relatable to all of you like... okay maybe not all of us own a company lol but she is a woman just like everyone of us and we get emotional sometimes!!!

also I didn't know you'd be that surprised to find Namjoon because I thought I talked about him a lot HAHAHAH GREAT THEN, A SURPRISE!

part 9 is in the making and thank you for always tuning in!!!

#your feedback is like fuel #nanaanswers #nanafeedbacks #from.genie #fic: aeropuerto #fic: ambulancia

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