#I WOULD DESPAIR IF YOU DID

[theminecraftbee]

When Cleo arrives at Joe's base, they discover him leaning over the increasingly large lockbox he uses to take things between seasons.

(At one point - when Cleo had first met him, actually - the thing had been tiny. Not much point taking that much between super hostile worlds. After they'd gotten onto hermitcraft, they'd discovered the box he'd used to carry stuff from season one to two was a bit larger. Now, she's not sure whether they should call that thing a 'lockbox' or a 'safe', honestly, but whatever it is, it's still liftable, so probably not a safe? It's not important. They share space with him, because they'd never felt the need to get one of their own, but occasionally...)

Anyway. When they find him, he's in his pinball back box, surrounded by shulker boxes he's not using, leaning over the lockbox, staring at something.

"Hey, Joe," she says.

"Hey Cleo," Joe says, not looking up.

"Did you lose something between here and Empires?" Cleo asks. "I didn't see you bring that thing with you to the Rift."

"No, no," Joe says. "I, uh - honestly, was looking for something else, got a bit stuck. Forgotten I'd... I mean, it doesn't really matter, I think, I'd just forgotten I'd put some of these things in here. I didn't have that much time to - well, no, I guess we had like, two months to think about it -"

"...lose something from season eight, then?" Cleo says, and they don't quite succeed in leaving their voice quite as light.

Joe shrugs. "Was actually looking for this thing Scar gave me after six, but..."

"Yeah?"

Joe picks up a notebook. It's dirty, but at least it's not singed, the way Joe had laughingly told Cleo half his clothes were, after. Cleo had laughed back and made a comment about dusty endstone. Both of them had made new wardrobes.

They suppose it wouldn't be. If he hadn't put it in the box before the moment of...

Joe flips through the pages. He shrugs, a tiny little hesitant motion, and gestures at the last page.

Cleo grimaces. They'd forgotten just how... messy... Joe's measurements had gotten over time. The ink is splotchy and inconsistent. There's a strange air of finality to the numbers, just as much as there's a strange sense of resignation to the observations he'd written to the side of them.

The date on the measurement is December 21st.

It's the last measurement.

"Oh," Cleo says.

"I really wasn't looking for it," Joe says, and his voice is tiny.

"I didn't think you'd keep them," Cleo says helplessly.

"I have - the castle floorplans are in this," Joe says.

"Oh. Right. And you kept -"

"I wouldn't not."

"Of course."

The two of them look at the notebook again for a little bit.

"It's really been a year and I didn't notice?" Cleo says.

"I mean - I mean, we didn't really think about - dates are a social construct," Joe says.

"It feels like the kind of date I ought to remember, is all," Cleo says. "Given."

"Christmas is in three days," Joe says. "We didn't do anything last year. That's why I was looking for - I mean, obviously we didn't do anything last year. What with the, you know, everything. But I was looking for some of the stuff I had - Scar gave me this thing after season six that I was gonna hide for him during the party."

"Are we having a party? All of those people are here," Cleo says. "Oh, god," they say after another moment. "Just because I forgot the date doesn't mean... all of them are here. Do you think someone ought to warn them that..."

"I mean, uh," Joe says. "I mean. We both forgot..."

He looks up. Cleo looks up with him. The sky is blue. It's lightly cloudy. It's a cold day. Everything is on the ground that ought to be on the ground, and everything in the sky is the place in the sky it should be, for a lightly cloudy, blue-skyed morning.

"You should put that away," Cleo says.

"Now I'm not gonna," Joe says.

"Joe," Cleo says.

"Help me finish my Christmas gifts?" Joe says.

"Fine," Cleo says, and they don't talk about it. Joe puts the notebook carefully up on a shelf, flipped to the page with the floorplans. All of the chairs and beds and tables they'd never got to put in are sketched out on the pale pages, and it strikes Cleo all at once that in some ways, Atlantis is already more finished than the castle got to be.

They resolutely decide it doesn't matter. The date isn't the thing that'll remind them, anyway.

#hermitcraft #joe hills #zombiecleo #moon big #one year ago today. merry moon big #a bee fic #i feel like the date wouldn't hit them the day of. it's not an anniversary they'd remember #i think it would just strike them all of a sudden in little things #joe finds his notebook. cleo realizes they've already spent more time here than they did there #something smells a little too much like smoke and despair #you know what i mean?

[corallapis]

all the details of the funeral rites that he got wrong because he didn't have what was necessary or he didn't remember how it was supposed to go. he doesn't have the right robes from the master's house, or the incense from a plant that only grew only on the slopes of mount perdition. he can't remember all the words you're meant to say or what order they go in. he stumbles over saying what he does remember, unused to speaking in his native tongue. the master never spoke one word to him in gallifreyan, that whole year. that whole year that no longer ever happened. and there is no matrix to upload his biodata to. he destroyed it along with every other piece of his culture and his people and his planet. there is no longer an afterlife. he'll never ever see him again.

#anon i'm truly and utterly losing it. #and you know he'd know that the master cares about all those kind of ceremonial things. he'd feel like he was failing him all over again. #GOD. the master chose to die over being with him. he must've run through everything he said and did so many times #what did i say that was wrong. what could've i said so that you would have stayed. fucking despair-inducing. #doctor x master #dw

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[jazzy-a]

I think Destiny really just wants to edit his Book, but there are- for that reason- NO WRITING UTENSILS in the Garden of Forking Ways.

..

Desire when Destiny visits: Well, hello, big brother! Is there anything you desire that I can get to make your visit more pleasurable?

Destiny: I desire a pen.

Desire: ... Srsly? :/

...

Dream: Destiny, it has been some time since you've visited my realm. Is something wrong?

Destiny:...

Dream:...

Destiny: You know... a pen would be a dream come true for me.

Dream: (-'_'-) Not this again.

....

Despair: Back again, brother?

Destiny: Yes.

Despair:... Is it about the pens?

Destiny: .... I think you know the answer to that.

...

(Delirium frolicking with electric butterflies while Destiny stands next to her.)

Destiny: Delirium. Apple.

Delirium: PEN!?

#Destiny of the endless #The sandman #Dream of the endless #Desire of the endless #delirium of the endless #despair of the endless #the endless siblings #Did you miss Destiny crack bc I know I did! #I just love the idea that Destiny knows how to tell delirium he wants a pen #I picture 12 different kinds of pens popping up at that exact moment #Also the cosmic injustice of NO WRITING UTENSILS in this man's realm would be so good #Destiny is looking at several events and trying to use white-out unsuccessfully---this is how we actually got Daniel -- fun fact #He's white... from the white out...

[pilferingapples]

as a big les mis fan, i have loved your blog for ages but recently you have especially piqued my interest - in your recent explanatory amis post, you referenced historical metacontext around jehan's death being first. i have a theory about what that metacontext is, but i am FAR from certain and hoping you could offer me some clarification

(also do you have any other pieces of interesting historical metacontext to share with the class)

OK you gotta tell me your Theory too!!! if it lines up or it was something totally different , I wanna hear it alllll

anyway! it's pretty solid that Prouvaire as he finally appears is largely an homage to Hugo's old friend Gérard de Nerval, who had died in 1855; a LOT about Prouvaire's description overlaps with how people talk about Gérard, and the conversation where he's arguing with everyone about the old gods still existing lines up EXTREMELY with conversations that other people remembered having with him ; there's THIS :

Jean Prouvaire was in love; he cultivated a pot of flowers, played on the flute, made verses, loved the people, pitied woman, wept over the child, confounded God and the future in the same confidence (LM 3.4.1, Hapgood)

“God is dead, perhaps,” said Gerard de Nerval one day to the writer of these lines, confounding progress with God and taking the interruption of movement for the death of Being.(LM 5.1.20)

(Hugo still trying to still have this conversation with his friend via novel guts me more than a little!! People are people and we never stop wanting to find the right thing to say oh geez I'm crying for real)

Bahorel , who dies in the same first-charge attack that takes Prouvaire, is also a (even more obvious) homage to a friend; Petrus Borel , who had died in 1859.

They're considered pretty minor figures today, but they were both really noteable names in their day, which is to say...about the late 1820s/early 1830s; they were two of Hugo's most trusted lieutenants in the battle of Hernani, held in French Romantic memory as a breakout event for the movement. And, importantly, they were the first of that core group of more radical Romantics to die.

So while i think there is a lot going on character- and symbol-wise with them being the first two Amis down, I also think there's definitely an Acknowledgement in them being the first of the named group to go; they get the sort of heroic deaths they'd have liked, and maybe the closest thing to Good deaths on the barricade until OFPD? and agh I'm emotional, QUICK tell me your theories before I start crying harder

#Poetry Smash #they get to leave the scene while everyone's still got honest hope for success #by the time more named characters go they know. we all know #not this time. It wasn't your time it wasn't for you #(at least you did everything you could do) #but Prouvaire and Bahorel die with the future so close they can call it #or stand between it and death #before despair and before doom #and on a practical level I would never argue it changes things #but on a symbolic level I think it does #also: they don't NEED the barricade like some do #they show up together. they go together. They're ready already #EMOTIONS #APPARENTLY #Jehan #Bahorel #Actual Romantics in Fictional Paris

[spacedlexi]

it honestly frustrates me when i see people reduce the ericsons cast down to "just some teens in the woods" acting like theyre no different than any other group of lone teenagers from other existing properties and treating them like an overused trope

it is sooo important to acknowledge the "troubled youth" aspect of the whole equation. theyre not just some random teens in the woods clem stumbles across. these kids were abandoned by their families for their various "difficulties" and fucked up by The System before the outbreak even began. and then once zombies started roaming the streets their familes never came back for them and the adults that were in charge of taking care of them just left them there to rot in that old boarding school (except for ms martin who was like their lee 🥺 the only person who ever saw them as the scared traumatized kids they were and died protecting them)

the whole aspect of them already being fucked up by the adults that controlled their lives is like.....kind of important when discussing the whole "delta is stealing kids to force them to fight in a war they have no real part in and want nothing to do with" aspect of the season. and its important when comparing them to clem and her journey of also suffering at the hands of the adults around her forcing her to become self reliant. AND its important when discussing the "just trying to build a safe home (and future) worth fighting for in this world that wants them dead" aspect of the season as well

these kids were forced to come together to survive. and a Lot of them didnt... theyre the only family they have left and you can tell that even when they argue with each other theyre still a close knit group who looks out for each other. theyre a Real family before clem even gets there (and its why what really happened with the twins and brody and marlon hits them all so especially hard)

all of this is what REALLY makes ericsons such a perfect home for clem. its a Real community of her True peers. theyre not Just teens. they mightve had a layer of safety clem never had by at least having walls to keep them safe. and having the benefit of the school being hard to find. its the only reason theyre still alive when clem shows up. but theyre also some of the only people who can Truly understand where clem and aj are coming from. and its why it hurts so much when they vote to kick them out. but its also partially why she merges back into the fold so easily when she returns. plus the fact that shes Really the only one who has any idea what shes doing. shes their rock and she makes them feel safe because underneath it all theyre still just those scared traumatized kids ("EVERYONE is scared, clem..." vi was Definitely including herself in that 'everyone'), and on some level, so is clem

they saved clementines life. and she saved theirs. "the school was supposed to help them with their trauma, now they help each other" its about the LOVE the COMMUNITY the SUPPORT!!!! and thats the shit that makes good zombie media honestly 👌

#it speaks #twdg #there i go again writing another essay but i will Always defend the ericson cast theyre one of the strongest out of all 4 seasons #complaints ive seen about s4 typically include mentions of the teens as a trope being overused and im like.......did you even pay attention #the fact they were branded “troubled youth” and basically thrown away by everyone who was supposed to take care of them is SO IMPORTANT #these kids are Fucked Up but theyre Trying to make a kinder world #nobody talk to me i fucking love the ericson cast 😭😭😭 theres not a single one of them i dont like im serious #them using poor pilgrim of sorrow in ep3....ericsons is heaven to clem 😭 all the comments she can make about feeling safe there 😭😭 #clem being everyones rock but violet being clems rock back 🥺😭💕 waaaaahhh thats why it was over for me when vi stood up for them in ep 2 #vi having the courage to stand up to her group for aj........... yeah she had me in a vice grip after that. she fought for them so hard #and if it wasnt for her advocating so hard for them to stay they ALL would have been taken or killed #vi cared about clem so much she undoomed them all #and aj loved clem so much he undoomed her :') #s4 is just the perfect ending to clems story truly itll make me happy for the rest of my life im so happy for u clem 🥺 #tfw the media you like gets a good ending and the main characters are respected and it feels like it was made from a place of love #instead of being like...actively hostile to its fanbase and destroying its own characters for the Laughs #and when i say “good” i dont necessarily mean “happy” i just mean “competently written" #i wouldnt call it perfect but it survived both a cancellation AND the financial collapse of a major game studio. its perfect to Me #for what it is (and what it originally almost was with the clems house plot) we truly lucked out so fucking hard #truly a return to form of season 1 but with less despair and more hope which i appreciate :') #all the things ive liked over the years that were destroyed for me by bad or weird writing decisions... clutches onto twdg like a lifeboat #god i love s4 so much nothing has ever been More Specifically Written For Me Personally

[onthevirgooftears]

not to be insane or anything but it really pisses me off when people say whit killed arei 💀 it is objectively never that serious but everytime i see someone come up with a theory or whatever it just shows such a fundamental misunderstanding of his character and not that I'm a veteran or anything but i just wanted to right some wrongs.

whit is not a killer. he exists in a sphere of kindness and prosperity and nothing else. people only think he's suspicious because we've been dispositioned to think every 'nice' character in danganronpa is secretly evil. whit does not have a facade, he's truly and 100% a good person.

looking back at some of his character defining moments it's so striking that he was one of the only people to give his kindness to the two people who were at the time not very nice people themselves. its striking that he doesn't reveal charles' secret in the first trial until he feels as though charles is comfortable enough for everyone to know and how he does the same thing with david in the second trial because it simply isn't his secret to tell.

he extends kindness to those who probably don't deserve it and actively is willing to put aside his own personal grievances in order to comfort someone when they’re in need. like, it's insane to me that you can look at all of that say "yep 💀 that guys definitely the killer!" HES A GOOD PERSON like literally what more do i have to say.

#i reblogged my first fanganronpa post and i felt so liberated and thats how this was born #bringing this back when it turns out he did in fact kill arei 💀 #whit analysis who cheered #idk he's suvh a good character because hes fundamentally #despite the flaws a great person who puts others before himself time and time aga #ain #he puts himself in shitty positions constantly during the trials and he masks his uptake about wanting to throw others under the bus #as humour and sillies when its actually reallh deep and means so much to his character and him as a person #HE DOESNT WANT TO BE THE PERSON who uses someone else insecurity or secret against them to gain brownie points #even if not saying something would cosg him his life #like he cares so much about saving face and being a good person and giving people the benefit of a doubt #id argue that hes more likely to be a victim than a killer 💀 hes so trusting and it will probably bite him in the ass #anyways if you couldnt tell i love him so much #there's not enough whit young analysis actually #whit young #drdt #danganronpa despair time #drdt spoilers

[quietwingsinthesky]

God I wish I had something coherent to say about hunger as one of spn’s core themes but unfortunately my brain just loops back around to “Sam should have eaten more weird supernatural things to see if they also gave him powers.” (Like maybe Lucifer’s blood idk idk)

#it really is Such A Thing #like. the bones of it are laid in episode 2. (in a not great way but still) #hunger as monstrosity. hunger as what turns you into a thing to be hunted #with the demon blood. ​hunger as what makes you strong enough to survive. to protect yourself. to protect others. #it’s selfish. it’s selfless. Sam saves people. Sam is damned for it. #they would not have killed that horseman if Sam didn’t starve for blood. he did that. he saved them. #I mean the show likes suffering. it likes when they martyr themselves on their own despair. and starvation is just another nail #I’m a samgirl my bias is clear but this is obviously a big part of Dean too #he’s the one famine can’t effect. he’s the one who grabs food whenever it’s available #(also the cannibalistic lovers in that episode. I’ve never stopped thinking about this. I can’t) #and it’s not just a Kripke era thing. it’s godstiel eating purgatory. it’s the leviathans eating… everything #Cas eating the grace of other angels!!! angel cannibalism!!! fucking!!! I wish I had coherent thoughts about this!!! #losing himself. keeping himself alive. what is he worth unless he can cannibalize his own kind and make them useful to the winchesters #I’ll stop now but like #my point is that this is a show about eating things. and other people. #I love that for them #spn #supernatural #Sam winchester #samifer #lucifer/sam winchester #fuck it it counts

[cuubism]

dream: i have learned something today. perhaps humanity is not so bad after--

hob: hey look! cheez whiz! how neat! :D

dream: ..... it is time we had The Flood 2.0 and started over from scratch

#modern life is the bane of dream's existence this i assert #god the sandman is just so ripe for shitposting #dreamling #also like #i feel like dream is pretty good at figuring stuff out and i mean he has everyone's dreams to help #but he also missed out on history for a full century #so there's definitely a few months where he's just having like. constant fits of despair as hob shows him YET ANOTHER #newfangled and cursed invention #and what's funny is i dont think dream would be averse to like phones and the internet and stuff it's probably FASCINATING #from a dream perspective actually #what gets him is the fact that the grocery store has 168 brands of white bread #hes like why. for the love of god why #so much shit has happened to catch up on like #more happens in the 20th century in terms of technological developments and stuff than in like 3 centuries prior #dream looking around at climate change: destruction and despair i see you've been running the place in my absence hmm #hob: hey did you hear about this thing called nfts #dream. who has in fact heard of this from many many distressing dreams: no. no. do not speak to me of this cursed object #hob returning from babysitting a friends kid: god childrens media is awful nowadays isnt it? i mean granted i had literally sticks #to play with as a kid but they have this horrible show cocomelon-- #dream collapsing to the floor in a puddle of pure desolation: noooooooo i have already had to watch 500 million hours of babies dreams #of this shit why would you REMIND ME #the possibility for crack is literally endless pun intended

[smudgesticksgonnasmudgingflip]

Mmmm five dollars...

#danganronpa despair time #drdt #david chiem #drdt david #leathal company #drdt x leathal company #Teruko or Ace would probably be the one holding the sign #yes I did draw the sign upsidedown at first #and you can't for get about tagging #divad cheim #I like the sketch better tbh

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i actually feel as though i am going insane bc i need to do TOMORROWS commissions to get the last story key for kaeya’s story quest because i was an IDIOT and and DIDNT

and now i feel like i’m full of BEES

PLUS. IM GOING ON A TRIP.TOMORROW

so i’m waking up early and doing my commissions and then a story quest bc i’ll be damned if i have to wait three more fucking days to see my favorite traumatized blue haired man

#my sister saw me yesterday when his story quest came out #and i realized i didn’t have enough keys #and i was fucking FUMING #and she was like “(name) you need to calm down” and i was like #“oh im SO FUCKING CALM RN you don’t even KNOW” while grinding my teeth and doing my commissions #i’m actually so upset why tf did i just ASSUME i would have enough story keys #i’m inconsolable #if i get spoilers i’m gonna be putting Diluc In Snezhnaya as the first thing on my kin list (that doesn’t exist) #but at the same time. i want to know so bad #my sister and i were arriving back at home and i was telling her how ME of all people is gonna wake up early #and do my commissions and the quests #and she was like “yeah i was on the hoyolab website earlier and saw a screenshot that i thought you might like” #and i was like “hokyfuckisng SHIT did it. okay answer me one questions. did he talk about—“ #“yes he said The D Word” and i literally said YIPPEE and jumped for joy #we were arriving home at the time and i fucking. skipped across our driveway #and i’ve been in a haze ever since #i feel like i’m. like my blood has been replaced by pure electrolytes. and like im #gonna explode if i don’t DO SOMETHING to occupy my time #was doing my commissions earlier and kaeya’s always on my team (ofc) but i heard one of his idle lines and i #went into such a fit of despair bc it reminded me of how i couldn’t do his story quest yet #DUE TO MY OWN DUMBASS CHOICES #that i. had to take him off my team for the day #AND THEN TWO KF MY COMMISSIONS WERE RIGHT BY DAWN WINERY #LIKE. GENSHIN JS REALKY FUCKING ME OVER HUH #why don’t they just spit in my face and stomp me into the ground i think it would feel better than THIS

[myheartismadeofstars]

My fiance just finished Omori (good ending) and I'm now obsessed with an AU where Mari survived...but most of canon still happened. Mari is knocked unconscious by the fall and Sunny and Basil think she's dead. Their cover up almost actually killed Mari, and paralyzed her. (she was found a lot sooner so she wouldn't strangle). Mari doesn't remember anything between getting ready for the recital and waking up in the hospital.

Sunny and Basil feel just as guilty as in canon, because they almost killed a LIVING Mari, and probably made her injuries much worse. Sunny still is a hikikomori, this time hiding from even Mari.

Mari thinks she was more subconsciously stressed than she realized which caused her loss of time. She thinks SHE is the cause of Sunny's state. After being transferred to a specialist physical therapist in the City, she spent a lot of time away from home, and then going off to college she didn’t spend a lot of time at home after the accident (which I think is fair, considering their current house isn’t exactly wheelchair accessible, this is actually why Mom has finally decided to move, to find a place more accessible so Mari can visit more. It was a hard choice to make for her, originally she stayed because she hoped Sunny would open up for his friends, but she sorta lost hope after a while. It’s just taken her a while to find the right place)

Aubrey is still troubled. She still feels abandoned, but it has less to do with Mari and more to do with the break down of her friendships: shut in, nervous wreck, far too busy for her...and her home life

Other than her now somewhat strained relationship with Sunny, Mari is doing pretty well! Engaged on her 18th birthday to Hero, they maintain a good relationship despite attending different colleges (Mari wants to be an Ecologist). They both are very excited to see each other again during summer vacation. Though Hero worries a lot about her (the idea of Mari seeming totally fine, and then trying to hang herself later that evening haunts him, this and the stuff that eventually goes down with Sunny and Basil help him choose Pediatric Psychiatry as his field of study, specializing in anxiety and mood disorders) he loves her and wants to be with her.

Obviously Mari would need to be told the truth as well. Sunny feels he ruined his sister’s life. He makes a much bigger deal of things like Mari being in physical therapy and being in a wheelchair, Mari’s early frustration with her disability, and pain.  And overlooks things like Mari and Hero are still dating, Mari is still going to college (even if she now needs to take accessibility into account) Mari has friends, Mari is doing okay. 

#omori #omori mari #omori mari lives au #mari lives au #heromari #omori hero #omori sunny #omori au #Mari is an Ecologist because of her interesting knowledge about Headspace Locations #i believe Hero would have a pretty strong response to the canon confession #''why didn't you call for help?'' #''why did basil know how to tie a noose?'' #stuff like that #mix of anger and despair #and in this Au he'd be just as upset #because you NEVER move someone who could have a spinal cord injury #also irrelevant to this AU but I also ship Sunflower and Sunburn #and baseball bat #Sunny and Aubrey have two hands #Basil is holding Sunny's hand with both of his

[villainartist]

i do not like when people say kaede would be a static protagonist if she survived the game like as if she wouldnt have 5 whole additional chapters for shit to be thrown her way and see how she'd change and adapt... plenty of writers have pulled off this idea with flying colors so idk why ppl say "ok but IN CANON kaede would just vote hope/despair in the end!" like LITERALLY WE DONT KNOW THATTT THOUGHHHH . shuichi was very different in ch1 compared to ch6 why is kaede exempt from this logic...............

#i legit think kaede would kinda go thru 'negative' development for a chapter or 2?? #before smth causes her to lock tf in and drop that one-track mind naive mindset entirely she had in ch1 #she would NOTTT be a good leader and ppl would quickly realize that and not see her as a reliable 'leader' type #after the death road despair #and finding out she went behind their backs with shuichi w their mastermind plan #who. well in most scenarios he'd be dead after ch1 #usually thats how it goes #kaito would absolutely still play the role of a supportive friend for her like he did for shuichi tho thats just who he is #ugh i wanna write a kaede lives fic so badly but i have comorbid autism/adhd and a full time job and im mostly a visual artist #Sad! maybe someday #guys can you play touys with me (roleplay an entire rewrite of alt v3 where kaede lives so i dont have to write the whole thing myself #and we can get real weird with it) #anybody? no? thats fine.

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#i was like. super sad after getting some news and when I thought about doing this one and asked if anyone would be interested #that was basically me trying to find something that would lift my spirits so I don't stay stuck in despair #and I wouldn't have been able to feel sure enough to do it anyway if not for all this support so thank you! #it really did end up lifting my spirits ( ꈍᴗꈍ) #asks

[randomnameless]

Typing about the best wildlife scholar made me realise something -

We know Dheginsea's extremist isolationist and non-interventionist policies were motivated by his wish to stop the propagation of wars, or at least, not to create a situation where the entire continent would be engulfed in War, else Ashera would wake up and erase the population.

Which is what he ultimately believes happened - that's why we fight against him in FE10, because the plot is stupid and cannot have Yune tell him "hi! We were woken by Galdr, Ashera mistakingly believes the inverse!" before his ultimate defeat.

But thinking more about it -

The Three Heroes (tfw Lehran's not part of the gang) made a pact with the Goddesses : they had to ensure 1k years of peace else they would stone Humanity. If they wake up in 1k years and the world is in chaos, they would stone it. If not, then kumbaya.

If they wake up before those 1k years due to war, the world is stone. If they are awoken by Galdr, they should, uh, talk to each other to decide what to do.

To Dheginsea, the only person who could sing the Galdr of Release, Lehran, lost the power to do so when he lost his abilities as a Laguz : ergo, without any possibility to wake the Goddesses up with Galdr, the only way to avoid Ashera's judgment was to avoid wars for 1000 years, even if it means... well, ignoring people suffering and letting them die at your doorstep.

So, Dheginsea, if he revealed the truth about Lehran, would have started a war against Beorcs (there's no way Laguz who know the truth will accept the status quo that if they live too closely with Beorcs they die), and without Galdr : Ashera wakes up "with war" and stones everyone.

If he intervened like Lehran wanted, and had Goldoa stomp Begnion/Beorcs who enslaves Laguz? Ashera wakes up "with war" and stones everyone, since she can't be waken up with Galdr anymore.

Hell, if Dheginsea terminated Ashnard and Daein as he planned too after losing Rajaion and Almedha (what FE10 tells us... but can we seriously believe this when in FE9 he dgaf about the situation?), again we have the same situation : Ashera wakes up due to war and stones everyone.

The only reason why the cast "won" and Tellius isn't stoned anymore is because unbestknown to Lehran, Dheginsea and well, everyone in Tellius, Lehran's branded descendants (who conveniently weren't all wiped out!) can actually sing the Galdr of Release and release Yune, who can circumvent the "Ashera wakes up with war and stone everyone".

-> When Lehran lost his powers and couldn't act as an alarm anymore, the only way to "wake the goddesses before 1k years happen" is with war and their judgment would be to kill everyone.

So Dheginsea had to grit his teeth and accept every fucked up thing that happened in Tellius because Lehran - due to this world's crappy mechanics - cannot "wake up the Goddesses" earlier and ask them to withold their judgment : if there is a war they will kill everyone - they must endure for 1k years, else Tellius is doomed.

Tl;Dr : TFW "make love not war" backfired in Lehran's case, and completely fucked up the covenant they had with the goddesses and if Miccy chocked on a pretzel, Lehran's love for Altina (aka him losing his powers) would have led to Tellius being wiped out even without his own participation.

#Tellius stuff #tfw the events of the game are triggered by the crappy universe mechanics #imagine their despair when Lehran loses his ability to sing the Galdr #'oh crap you were the only one able to sing to wake them up without the massive stoning what should we do?' #hopefully his branded descendants magically inherited the lyrics and tune but #can this also explain Lehran's despair that led him to agree to the massive stoning? idk #idk how much of a hand Lehran had in the entire Daein debacle #Goldoa being moved in the war Ashnard was trying to create fit with his plans #but it also implied he sacrificed his friend's children to have him 'react' and join the war meant to kill everyone? #or he knew Dheginsea and his kids would escape Ashera's judgment? idk #Dheginsea 'we only have to wait 200 years before they wake up we can do it' #Almedha 'dad i'm going to explore the world and fuck a beorc what could even happen?' #Lekain 'damn those subhumans what if I genocide a few of them for funsies? That'll make that subhuman blooded apostle mad lol' #'or maybe i can kill her too and rule over begnion for the lols?' #and then izuka graduated #those were the last 200 meters and they fucked the last lap #FE10 #this verse I swear #how much Lehran's despair was fueled by his inability to keep his promise to the goddesses? #and how did the 'great news' affected his allies and the world?

[aparticularbandit]

So I follow a bunch of Pokétubers and a couple of them are sponsored by Gamersupps.

And I can't stop thinking of Monokuma shelling out a Junko Enoshima partner waifu cup for 10% with code Despair (and the flavor of the year True Despair) during the Killing Game.

Pretty much every time.

#musings #danganronpa #monokuma #junko enoshima #i know i mentioned her ads during the youtuber junko post #one of them at least and like #just every time they talk about their waifu cups #me: junko would totally have one of those #me: junko would TOTALLY partner with them just for waifu cups with her plastered on them #me: and monokuma would TOTALLY shill them during the killing game #monokuma: your favorite waifu just died? 10% off her limited edition cup with code DESPAIR at gamersupps! #.... #junko would absolutely find a way to waifu cups for the other girls too #and everyone would get mad because where's chihiro #until the second trial reveal #and then all of a sudden jack would also have a cup #JUNKO WOULD MERCH THE HECK OUT OF THIS #...please understand that i did this with duke cody and glass onion too #but he got all the workout stuff and helix sleep with his shelling #can you imagine junko and duke meeting up through birdie #...i should write that fic actually #I SHOULD SUB JUNKO IN FOR WHISKEY YOU KNOW WHAT