#I am going back to being a server

[acutecoral]

So with the Train Station being worked on for the next few days...I've been thinking what it could be about, right? Because things are ramping up and a lot of things can happen in a week and it doesn't help that we're getting so many hints about shit hitting the fan so

Because the train station wouldn't just be closed because of the dark matter clean up. It's definitely something else.

So here's what I'm thinking...it might be related to Protocol AB, the thing they actived all those weeks ago in the Maze, since it's the one that started the whole roulette thing in the first place I believe

But also because some other details I've noticed when Forever was sent to the Nether.

Which was...the Building he ended up being spat out at was a kind of train station

And the Building had AB on it

Now, do I think that the Nov 4 event will be a server wide thing to go to the Nether and find Forever AND the Eggs?

I mean, I honestly don't know, but personally I don’t think so.

Sure, it would be cool, but...I don't think it makes sense with the Tickets people have been getting. Because that had been happening before Forever was sent to the nether if I remember correctly.

So I started to ask, what else could it be?

Well...they could be sent somewhere else.

The idea came suddenly, but I remember someone's mention of Quackity's server list in his last vod, and also previous streams

Like...this is kind of odd isn't it?

I remember the post also mentioning the idea that these are all other islands that the Federation owns and such?

So a possibility is that maybe, the train station comes back online and everyone who has a ticket gets to go to the trains out through the portal at the end of the rail line and...to get transported to another island?

I dunno, I'm not quite sold on the idea but it's an interesting possibility nonetheless

Because if there's an great evil and danger on the island, maybe this protocol was meant to send the residents to another Island for safety? Not sold on that either, just throwing out ideas

Also I'm thinking that whatever happened to the Eggs had them displaced, maybe to that other Island or server?

Did whatever evil that was mentioned before pull the Eggs there? Tallulah's sign said "here" when it mentioned about the Evil's presence, so is it wherever the Eggs are?

The nether could have acted as some sort of middle ground for all these different islands and such to be connected.

Anyways, I'm not sure, these are just mostly thoughts I wanted to put out there and hope they're coherent enough to be understood

Still if there is something I am sure of is that some travelling shenanigans is bound to happen on the 4th and I'm honestly so not ready for whatever they have in store because I am not sure what's going to happen

#qsmp #qsmp theory #mcyt #acuteliveblogs #how are they going to tie this all up together #i am so scared #anyways bring me back Forever please #bring us back the eggs we miss them #also if they are not travelling and instead new people being added to thr server #yeah that's good too

[ra-vio]

Linkle from Hyrule Warriors, my beloved.......

#loz #legend of zelda #hyrule warriors #linkle #god i miss the hyrule warriors. i always wanted to go back but i stopped around this time in 2018 and games just kept coming out #i haven't finished age of calamity yet. its been 2 years #this is a redraw but i found out the original version is not on this account which is fine by me #so anyway i never left the linear algebra discord. and now the server is active again because theres a summer course #so i get to relive all the linear algebra stress while also trying to help these students not fail too bad #at least two people have already gotten a zero because of format or tech errors. i am losing my mind #i am not good at math or a tutor i just like being useful where i can

[cactusdying]

redraw of that thing i drew. Yeah

#cacterart #brutal orchestra #this is actually a few days old i just forgot to post it #don't know if i'll post it to the talia server i am. scared. #i've been watching what people talk there for a while but never doing stuff there myself because uhhh #fear of being considered cringe? i think #and never since someone in there said that they wanted my disability to go back to being marginalized i just said “Huh!” #“i guess my progress of being open about that will now evaporate completely :)" #it's uh. not particularly fun #also my borchestra hyperfixation has slightly died out sorry borchestrabros #i still think about it a lot but like. i'm currently obsessed over silly singing robots. sorry #these tags are full of apologies i'm sorry for that #anyway ermmmm... i still have a buncha borchestra stuff i need to draw. might do that at some point in the future

[licorishh]

Most people really don't seem to understand that friendship is a two-way street.

They expect you to wait on them hand and foot as they rant about and constantly pour on you either their issues or their passions and when you finally have something you'd like to talk about you get a "Man that sucks :/" or a "Cool" in return.

Find somebody who doesn't do that. Then you'll have your best friend.

#i know i ramble sometimes and i'm extremely grateful that my best friend puts up with it :') #but see then in return i do the same for her because it would be completely unfair for me to expect her to act like a wall for me to talk a #or when i wanna show her something and i can tell she's being polite and it doesn't personally strike her fancy I MOVE ON #and she does the same for me and we have way frickin better communication and we have a frickin rad friendship #it's give and take #and also can we bring back the idea of being able to work through some things on your own? #like i am ALL FOR having a support system that can encourage you when things go wrong but some things can be solved on your own #i shouldn't be bearing the burden of figuring out your life for you you know? #i'm absolutely willing to help but if you're just going to spend all your time complaining to me and never ever take my advice #then there comes a point at which i'm literally just acting as your therapist and that's not how friendships are supposed to work #i've become kind of the designated therapist in a lot of friendships throughout my life #and it is exhausting constantly being complained at (sometimes over very minor things) #only to have that person or people COMPLETELY ignore your advice every single time you try to give it #that's not friendship my dude that's using me because you just want someone to complain to #like i said. support system good. treating your friend like an emotional punching bag to let out your problems 24/7 very very bad. #like when i was feeling completely unlike myself and irritated and frustrated for three dang years straight #i didn't really talk about it much because i knew it wasn't the kind of thing advice was going to fix #so i wasn't in the discord servers every two seconds “MAN I REALLY JUST DON'T FEEL GOOD :///” #because when other people do this to me there comes a point at which i'm like “WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT” #like i've given you all the advice i have and you have taken absolutely none of it nor have you taken any action on your own #so now i'm just here to make you feel better about yourself and that's really not my job #emotional support is necessary. patting you on the head when you refuse to do anything to better your situation is not. #tl;dr people who refuse to do anything to better their situation other than complain to ME about it 24/7 drive me nuts #and it drives other people nuts so please don't do it to anyone #don't bottle up your emotions but also don't let them come crashing down and drown everyone you know #just because you can't be bothered to put ANY effort forth to contain them #emotional regulation is attractive~~~ #society today has built such a culture of “it's not YOUR fault and if you cry about it hard enough someone will fix it for you” like no sir #sometimes it IS your fault and sometimes you DO need to take responsibility #and if it is your fault then absolutely no one but you is obligated to fix it

[nerosdayinanime]

kny x tokyo ghoul au

was thinking abt following tokyo ghoul's storyline and making nezuko get organ donor ghoul-ified like kaneki but on second thought that seems a bit boring. the slayer marks (tanjiro's specifically- that one frame in the red light district arc where he looks like hes absolutely lost it) made me think of the sort of insanity thing with centipede kaneki when he started eating ghouls. (nezuko's bout of literally losing control of herself beating daki is probably a bit closer tho) dont know what to do with that. tanjiro being human and having to keep nezuko safe with her new life as a half-ghoul is pretty cool but i dont know. could make it different

#sakonji as coffee shop owner and sabito & giyuu as workers and the fox squad being the underground Good Ghouls makes me kick my feet #goth/alt vibe makomo as the mask maker MWAH and sabito & giyuu playing as regular college kids. giyuu 'eating' out with friends and #sabito drive-by eating his food before booking it (Sabito-! you bastard!) and later when theyre alone giyuu holding his hair back #(you should stop eating my food all the time..) ((im fine- as long as it makes it easier on you)) #tanjiro working as a server & nezuko more as #. #i forgot hanae-san also voiced Kaneki #what the fuck is it with him and voicing the main characters of anime about the morality of cannibalism #its not much but its weird that its happened twice #i completely fucking forgot abt that and here i am literally putting tanjiro in his place #as i was saying nezuko has a 'job' there but shes not actually employed or forced to work she just hangs around in uniform like her brother #while tanjiro's the one thats employed. shes the cute mascot of the place and sabito gets hype with her and it entertains ppl #sabito nezuko interactions beloved<3 she makes him go big brother mode #giyuu's behind the counter helping sakonji make coffee so he doesnt have to interact with people (as much) #something something also half-ghoul genya being an antagonist at first until tanjiro & nezuko's bond makes him change his mind #and he becomes the newest employee at the coffee shop. que him and sabito bickering at eachother like children and tanjiro being so #sweetfaced and genuinely kind to him & giyuu being a chill comforting presence he can go to #confides in them his fear about his brother and the guilt he feels for being around them bc it puts them in danger #mm #sweet au. great playing field to ruin absolutely everyone #i should rewatch/read tokyo ghoul its been almost a year i think #do that then decide how i want the au to play out if i want it to try to follow that storyline or if i should do some worldbuilding fuckery #of my own instead to completely change how nezuko & genya's half-ghoulness would happen #i remember i dropped tokyo ghoulre but i dont remember why. didnt bother after that Hide scene in the anime but i dont remember y the manga #i was listening to Seijatachi for writing vibes and stared a bit too long at the album image i put #kny #tokyo ghoul #kamado tanjiro #kamado nezuko #kny x tokyo ghoul au

[swamp-world]

like i think that we really really really need to actually gain the social literacy and compassion to understand that. not tipping your server isn’t praxis, but the fact that it’s expected that the customer pay the wage of the server also doesn’t mean that the customer (often also stiffed and a victim of wage theft) isn’t obligated to do so, and that while this is within our own economic system a great injustice and act of violence that needs to be rectified, it is in fact not the greatest injustice in the world and seeing people comparing getting screamed at for war crimes to not being tipped demonstrates a drastic lack of any sense of proportion. this is me speaking as both a service worker and someone engaged in organizing. let me be absolutely clear that I am not saying that not tipping your server is praxis. if you are able to tip i think that you should. i also think that “it’s the social contract in america to tip your server” needs to be read as “the structure has been built so that resisting it is tantamount to being a class traitor, and there are no winners in this situation”. i make less than 1k a month. tipping at 15% is straight up not viable all of the time if i want to pay rent. that’s not praxis, that’s me trying to keep a roof over my head, same as the service worker who i can’t always tip. so much analysis of this matter on social media tends to boil down to brute utilitarianism that causes further fragementation among the working class, and not for unjust reasons.

but just as not tipping my server isn’t praxis, tipping my server also isn’t praxis. not because it doesn’t help the individual (it does) but because it functionally validates the extant system in which the customer directly pays the wages. especially in the digital age: whereas cash tips are often considered nontaxable income, digital tips are administered as directly taxable income by the employer. when tips are paid out as wages i think it’s a little unfair to consider them to be “gratuities”.

again: not tipping isn’t praxis, but i wonder often about how many people who parrot this point are engaged in labour organizing or support in any way other than tipping. everyone deserves to be paid for their labour. but likewise, putting the onus on the working class customer to do so doesn’t actually help anyone except for the employer.

if you’re getting pissed at other working-class people for not tipping high numbers, especially impoverished and/or marginalized people, i hope that you are also engaged in literally any form at all, no matter how intense or dedicated, to any kind of action or organization that supports increasing minimum wage and shifting this responsibility from the customer to the employer (i.e. working class to owning class).

#vent of sorts #i keep seeing that post about ''not tipping your server isn't praxis'' with the addition of #''i was a server who got yelled at by a european for being american at an american tourist memorial for 9/11 because of the iraq war'' #and again i say this in a sense that isn't meant to diminish the legitimate trauma of service work #trauma in a very genuine sense #(brief reminder that this is what the term ''emotional labour'' was coined to describe is being expected to regulate and perform emotions #for your job but only being paid minimum wage because the only ''labour'' you're doing is physical/mental and keeping a smile while being #berated isn't ''labour'') #but without directly comparing and weighing traumas and experiences in order to invalidate another #i'm so tired of seeing ''not tipping your server doesn't help anyone'' specifically being backed up by the idea #that tipping and paying into the tipping model (no pun intended) is a morally neutral or net-positive action #without actually considering the widespread consequences of tipping culture as a whole on labour wages and employee rights #of course not tipping isn't going to solve anything #nothing is solved on an individualist level #but the idea that NOT tipping is a non-solution that individuals take #being refuted by the idea that tipping as a buffer that individuals engage in #rather than it leading into any discussion about organizing #is absolutely fucking infuriating #because believe me i WANT to tip servers i WANT to make sure that everyone is paid #but if i walk into a local brewpub and buy a beer at the isolated beer shop next door by a till worker i am prompted to tip as if it were #a full service establishment and transaction #and i think that is evidence enough that tipping is not a ''thank you'' to your server but rather the employer offloading the expectation #of paying their employees proper wages onto the customer #anyways as ever the solution isn't individual action but collective organizing and community support #if you're going to tip then tip in cash and if you're not going to tip then be as kind as possible #and if you're acting as if tipping your server is the ONLY morally correct action in this situation then please #look around at your local community organizations and labour organizations and housing organizations instead of yelling online at people #who often are not being paid enough to be able to pay rent let alone pay another person's wages #mutual aid is great and important but i straight up don't consider it ''mutual aid'' if it's filtered through an employer's income

[frazzledazzlin]

thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie

#was talking with my gf some days ago and i have gotten less violent in my head HELPDGF #no bc personal rambles if ur not interested idm but #last year fucked me up so bad everyday i used to get strikes on insta for my private posts to vent it out #its the funniest shit to look back on tbh Help but i genuinely look back on some posts and go wow this motherfucker rly made me a violent- #person and he acted like all that happened to me was my fault #i seriously do not want another message from that fuck on ny birthday again i will make his life living fucking hell #this december will be full of copperright and thsc . i have not felt so emotionally vulnerable in so long LMAO #thanks to these little fucks i want to throw them around i love yhem #it took some silly gentle people of this fandom for me to realize perhaps i should tone down the violent humor #bc a friend in another friend group lately also opened up that hayy i think im. not ok with playful bullying anymore and i felt bad even #though i dont talk much there Fuck you timezones #i will admit the excessive usage of tone indicators in sticktwt seems too much to me but not a huge issue overall #i am but a reserved fucked up aunt of the thsc fandom that ppl seem to rly enjoy the reactions of when they post copperrifht HSGSSGD #i commissioned 5 people to draw copperright i think that's enough to tell the damage done to me by thsc #coping mechanism for when ur sick for a literal month without a day's break 👍 #anyway erm maybe i love u guys what are u gonna do about it #i cannot for the life of me talk in dms without being anxious but tumblr and discord servers are what save my life #i am here but hiding behind a pole cartoon style #gootbye

[administer-distractions]

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#im going to preface this by saying this is all really vague and personal and not funny #but its a gigantic step for me in terms of recovery and my bestie is busy #and im filled with anxiety so my thoughts have to go somewhere so it goes on my blog #which is i think how blogs are kind of supposed to work? #anyway #a year and a half ago some shit happened that kicked off about eight months of steadily building relationship traumas #that i felt stuck in because i was doing dnd with the people actively making my life miserable #and theres so much god damn nuance that it makes it impossible to concisely explain what happened #but the end result is that i lost all of my friends and it really truly wasnt my fault at all #and anyway now ive been diagnosed with pstd over the whole fiasco #and tonight i sent a message to the person who started it all #basically like 'hey i wasnt able to defend myself before but i can now you abused the hell out of me' #but they were never of the notion that they were ever wrong #and theyre friends with people im still friends with #i know that i blew up the evening for their discord server #and based on what ive been told it doesnt seem to be going exceptionally well #but when i apologized i was told twice in no uncertain terms that its okay #so i am attempting to will my heartbeat back into my control #sorry for being all personal but also this is my blog so i guess im not really #i had to cask of amontillado the part of me thats a nosy bitch though so i didnt unblock them to see if they responded #ill get her out in the morning shes fine in there

[chorus-communities]

i hate it here

#i wish i could leave. kk be faster at making that ve kincord challenge im gonna go insane in here #i feel so fucking STUPID this just reminds me of the same way i was bullied when i was visibly autistic #made fun of behind your back and being paranoid and knowing everyone hates you and thinks you have a stick up your ass #im just trying to do my job. im just trying to cultivate a better enviroment here #i just want people to stop breaking rules and saying really triggering shit for a joke #but i just feel mocked and laughed at and like a deer in headlights but the headlights are Always on and they are Howling in laughter at #everything i ever say. except for when they are silent #and then i have to delete all my messages and hop ena d pray that they leave me alone if i just delete and move on #i am a fucking moderator and a server co-owner i shouldnt be made to feel like thius #its the same in HHS. this is taking a toll on my mental health #i avoid talking in HHS because of this

[rivero-piv]

Ramble

#I spent three days going back and forth with discord equipped with the brain of an onion to do admin stuff #because I'd much rather make a whole ass server for friendos who want to see me ramble or ramble along with me about ocs #I wouldn't really care if there's a low join count or overall interaction because a majority of the channels are view-only #of course I got channels for chatting but I mostly intend it as sort of an online notebook for OC development; mostly for viewing purposes #is this a good idea or am I just being unnecessary 😭 #either way I'll still use it even if no one joins because I put down lore there I otherwise wouldn't remember #reev's rambles

[effigyofowls]

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#I would be more active with my mutuals (the ones that aren't in server) and show more posts/stuff about my OCs if I could #but I still am shy 😔 and kinda don't want to be the one to reach out unless someone actively shows interest in talking to me/being a friend #I just...got kinda sick of constantly being the one to make an effort/reach out/socialize and keep the convo going and I don't want to do it #not unless the person in question genuinely wishes to be friends with me and makes an effort back #also being perceived/known kinda gets me 😬

[professionaljester]

trying to cope with my crazy amounts of social isolation

#abc shut it #i’m not even tryig to isolate myself i want to talk to people #but i work #and i’m bad at texting #i’m forgetful and shit but i try my best to text ppl back #and all i wanna do is chat with my friends and stuff but no one is like around when i get out of work #and i just feel so left behind socially and when i ask for help and wish ppl would reach out to me #i know i’m not the best at texting first but i’m trying to get better at reaching out #i just feel so left behind and social stunted compared to my friends idk what to talk to them abt anymore #bc i don’t know what they like anymore and i can’t keep up bc no one wants to watch anything with me anymore #and i don’t know how to pirate shows so i can catch up with all the pop culture i missed out on #but i just get told to pirate without being told how to do it safely #like can someone invite me to a discord server where i don’t feel alienated and confused and out of the look #and that i belong there #like it feels impossible to keep friendships up when i’m the only one expected to iniate the convos #and no one tells me anything going on in their lives i’m suppose to just know from context clues online #like how am i suppose to know what you guys are up to based on context clue i see online #like i need people to talk to me #i can’t be the only one expected to maintain the conversations if i want friends #i want ppl to check in on me and ask me how i am #but ppl only remmeber i exist when i remind them #like at this point i should just kms bc my life has been like this for at least 20 years #i’m sick of it

[skyburger]

do NOT go through old photos from 2020 when u are dumb as fuck like me and take anywhere from 6.5k to 30k photos a year. you WILL waste so much time. DONT FALL FOR THE TRAP!!!!

#for the record my peak photos in a year (at least since i backed up my gallery to google photos + #and started fresh) was just over 30k in 2020 and thats Not including like jan fab & early march (i coincidentally cleared my gallery + #pretty much just before lockdown iirc) #it gets a little less every year though like 2021 was JUST under 25k #2022 was a crazy improvement (just over 10k) #and 2023 looks nuts in comparison (6.5k) #but if im being completely honest? i think thats only because i was pretty much exclusively online on my phone in 2021 and ESPECIALLY 2021 #i think it was 2022 ish when i started almost always using desktop and 2023 i used my phone a lot less #late last year i started just using my phons (and my ipad! which i didnt Have back then) p much all the time again #so if i had to guess. if i keep going like this my photos count is gonna be ridiculous again this year #but to add on to this (LAST PART I PROMISE) #i do still save a stupid amount of images to my computer #but when you take screenshots on windows. unlike on ios it doesnt just save a file to your gallery #it just copies a screenshot to your clipboard (which i normally paste in a priv discord server) #so that gets rid of half of all my screenshots #the other half i use the snipping tool for. Which also uses the clipboard. i think you see my logic here #ok thats all i had to say. sorry i think i am a massive nerd about really unimportant numbers :3 #muffin mumbles