#I’ll do it tomorrow if I remember

[kotorinz]

uh I’ll just do it tomorrow

#it’s nighttime #I need light #I won’t turn up my brightness bc I’m not gonna burn my eyes #I’ll do it tomorrow if I remember #OH THEN I HAVE TO START ANOTHER EDIT UGHH #it’s fine #I can do this #don’t be lazy #but it’s time consumingggg #plus I have to do smth early in the day #ill be fine

[magpieddd]

OCtober day 1: favourite (to the surprise of no one)

#I only remembered i wanted to do this challenge at.10pm #I’ll post just sketches anyway.uni starts tomorrow and i don’t have that much energy in any case #grimm’s art #toh oc #gatherer #backup au #bweirdoctober #oc tober #October challenge

[verdemoth]

i’ve been seeing flondon x animal crossing stuff around and i really liked the idea. and then the insp grabbed me by the throat and dragged me out of the mires of art block and exhaustion so here we are !

i wasn’t immediately sure what to do with Mel since i don’t really associate Mel with any particular animals ( i mean Mel has a raven but i don’t think species is Symbolic for Mel). But a wolf fit well enough and then from there this design was soooo easy to put together. very pleased with how Mel’s colour palette translated over

Knoll on the other hand was very easy to pick an animal for (obviously a bat. its their fursona.) but much harder to design? Maybe because there aren’t any animal crossing bat characters so i struggled to figure out the style, especially for their facial features. i’m content enough with this but it took me a while

#fallen london #fallen london oc #image #alt text #my art #my characters #char: philomel #char: knoll #eyestrain cw #any post with knoll gets that tag rip #me staring melancholically at the fun animal crossing au stuff crossing my dash. #like a sad animal on the other side of a window. wanting to participate so bad. and then i remember i’m an artist #maybe i’ll do some sskies guys too. this was fun. i’ve been really struggling lately #gonna have another go at drawing tomorrow. maybe make progress on some planned stuff

[shima-draws]

I just gotta make it til tomorrow. I just gotta,, make it til. Til tomorrow. Tomorrow…

#Hey remember when I said I wanted to draw and was jokingly like ‘I’ll be in too much pain tho ;)’ #Well I was RIGHT!!! #Currently lying in bed writhing in pain. HELP #Shima speaks #I have an orthopedic consultation tomorrow….they will tell me what needs to be done… #Physical therapy? Injections? Surgery? I don’t fucking care WHAT it is I need relief right NAOW #Again how do people deal with this. I cannae. It’s Rough ladies and gents

[goldkirk]

wait wait. I love hoarding lists of YouTube channels for myself. especially niche ones.

would it be helpful for me to make a post with a few of my most intense or long-term favorites? I didn’t think about other people also having this kind of content taste until now

#personal #to do #possibly #oh god i meant to check the to do tag weeks ago #*ago #oops. guess I’ll do that tonight or tomorrow instead #if I remember to write it down before it’s out of my head again lol! #I am also open at any and all time to YouTube channel or creator suggestions #of my favorites I’d say 1/3 I find on my own and 2/3 someone mentions and I get introduced to them that way

[shaykai]

Gonna slap the people who named bugs

#found a bug in my room- thought it was a sandbaby- turns out I don’t remember what a sandbaby looks like #so I do a bit of research and the first thing that I see that looks right is wind scorpion #now I need everyone here to understand that I love bugs deeply they are neat they are cool they are friends #but I have a deep fear of scorpions #zbznnsnsbsns they are extremely cool just not when they’re by me #so my first thought is shit I have to abandon my room and everything in it now it all belongs to the scorpion #but it’s late and I’m already in bed and I’m doing more research cause d u h #and turns out it’s not really a scorpion at all???? I mean like. same family tree #but it’s not your traditional scorpion- it doesn’t have a stinger and it’s non venomous #worst thing about it is it’s a little speedy a bit aggressive and can/will bite #but the REAL worst thing is it likes to cozy up in blankets and clothes #and it’s in my bedroom where I so happen to keep my blankets and clothes dhdhdhhdjdd #anywho I’ll try to catch it and put it outside tomorrow after work if I can find it again #whole point of this is for just a second I was like oh fuck a scorpion and was not okay about that djdjdjdjd #tw bugs #it’s also called a sun spider #cause why have one name when you can have two??? #dhdhdjjsjsjs anyways uh everything is fine and I’m going to bed #I will see to cleaning my room and maybe capturing our little friend tomorrow

[excusemebutiquit]

Uh oh besties, I’m feeling complex tonight!!

#my post #change is… hard. even when it’s very wanted. #even when it’s very wanted and very good. it’s still hard. #I’m trying to remember what going to college as a freshman was like. #so she can help me go though my current change. #idk I feel like she did better but also she had a routine right away. I’m hoping when I have a routine I’ll do better #I’m not even doing bad. #overall mentally I’ve been in much less despair but also change is hard #and I’m happy to be around my friends so much and I miss my parents and Im excited to grow and I miss being comfortable with my surroundings #so yeah. anyway. trying to give myself space to be complex but it’s hard because I’m in a whirlwind. #but tomorrow I’m gonna look at the eclipse. maybe I’ll receive some cosmic signs. maybe it’ll just be a super cool eclipse. #either way i will face tomorrow. and the day after that #and so on and I will grow and still be complicated but if I just keep going it will feel less big #UPDATE I cried a little bit and I’m feeling still complex but better so. adding crying only a little bit to the list

[piived]

not my manager trying to call me in the middle of my grandmas funeral 😐

#sent me a text right after that said ‘Hey dude just checking in on you how are you feeling?’ #like buddy i am actually bawling rn listening to my mom talk about my grandmas life how do u think i’m doing #ashdfkllakdhwj #to be fair #i don’t think he remembered that today was the funeral #he is normally great about these kinds of things lmao #he’s given me so much time off to deal with this all too #so it’s just funny to me #i also had my phone on dnd so i didn’t realize until long after so it’s not like he interrupted but still just funny #anywayz #back home now and emotionally exhausted but i’ll probably get the day off tomorrow or i can give him a hard time for ‘interrupting’ if i #do go in tomorrow lmao #vee’s void

[brigittefitzgerald]

applied to one job today

#do you guys remember this gif i was reminded of it today. anyway i started applying to more but lost the will to live half way thru #i’ll get back to them tomorrow ig

[fridaynight--saturdaymorning]

can’t tell if I’m happy or not tbh but something is up in my brain and it’s crazy shit. Like I’m not even stressed about the stressy I’m just. Vibes

#Like I’m not guilty either. Normally around now I would be feeling the guilt but. I’m good. #There is so much good in me and it is persevering so bad. It’s going to make me even better than I am now #I love the feeling of finally being destined for great things. I’ve never known what my purpose in life is going to be but I might be #Getting closer now. I know where I want to make good in this world. I’m not worried about what I’ll do for a job. #All I have to worry about is coursework and that will sort itself out like the coursework before it. #I’m going to plan a little to make tomorrow better #Having ‘side quests’ helps me to achieve small things towards a better day every single day so I want to set them now #I want to remember to wear my Monday T-shirt. And pack a good lunch and ask my tutor how to start an essay introduction. #I want to eat a good breakfast now that I’ve found out my favourite healthy breakfast #I want to listen to three songs that make me happy and pick up three bits of rubbish that I see on the floor #Or cans that people forget to put in the can recycling cause that messes with my brain lol #And give one person at least a compliment #Tell my mum she’s doing a good job #Tomorrow will be good :)

[diari0deglierrori]

Definitely feeling more sensitive than usual. I almost burst into tears because I realized I forgot the lemons at the grocery store today, which was a very important ingredient and I needed it today if I wanted to respect my schedule

#and I had chosen them and put in a bag and all #I just can’t remember if I forgot to put it in the basket or if I forgot them at the checkout #and don’t know if I paid for them either because I didn’t ask for the receipt #guess I’ll have to go to the store again tomorrow morning… #but it ruined my plans #when life gives you lemo- ah no :( #beautiful Corsican lemons you will be missed </3 #I’m pretty sure the little store that’s closer to me only has ones from Spain and they’re not as nice #but will have to do I guess #guess I’ll get some croissants on the way there #to cope

[ezraphobicsoup]

composition so good the laptop fan comes back after like 6 months to try and drown it out

#i would say it’s the loudest it’s ever been but that would not be true #lest we forget the time when it sounded like an angry insect whirring for like a weekend that was a fun one #i did forget how loud it being normal was though #it’s like almost nostalgic it’s been so long i remember back when i was but a wee lad listening to this noise #but actually there were unpleasant goings on but also zelda videos i think? i dunno that was a wild time. #anyway. anyway it is like nearly tomorrow i should like go to bed or get something productive done #tell you what i did do though i got the old musescore files of mine from a couple years back downloaded #i really did put the entirety of freak by surf curse into musescore in case anyone in the group project wanted sheet music #(none of them could read sheet music) #at one point there was a baritone part but i took that out #it’s not fully accurate but you’ve gotta appreciate the genuinely completely pointless effort #anyway i’ll get about my buisness #ezra’s real life rambles #also gingham <3

[knightobreath]

hi guys

#knightext #i don’t have anything cool ummmm #maybe i’ll stream tomorrow? or this weekend #but i’ll do something fun #if i can remember #also haha funny drafts number

[merevide]

it’s one of those nights.

#ok i’m gonna ramble a bit because it’s all hitting me like rn #first of all. i hate this song. but i also love this song. #and my birthday is tomorrow and i’ve felt soooo fucking ill about it like more i’ll than usual #n this song has haunted me all year like every time i listen to it i gotta reflect that wow i haven’t done anything with my life i’m #practically friendless and hobbyless and don’t really enjoy doing anything #AND I’VE ALSO BEEN SPENDING IT literally wishing that i wasn’t alive #or hating myself or hurting myself or sabotaging myself #or straight up not remembering anything because apparently that’s a side effect. a symptom #and i gotta rely on myself more than ever like to be more of an emotional rock than i already have to myself #and so many people who are in my age range are actually doing something or living their lives and i have it pointed out to me all the time #and it feels like it’s all hitting me at once. while i also feel like i still wanna sabotage or hurt #n then i remember that all i’ve really known about myself was the hurt and the concern #n it’s like wow. i really hate myself! i’m not doing shit! #but there are good parts so that’s what matters. and i try and focus on those good parts and then something hits me and then nothing matters #so i really hate this song bc it makes me think. but also i’m not gonna miss this year i almost got put in a psych unit i’m not even joking #anyway. i feel like this will all break me and the pressure will get to me and i’ll be on the floor crying again but also i really should’ve #died when i was born but i didn’t! so that means! something! #so yay 🎉 i’m alive. i should write this all down in a journal #my text #marina atd #she should i release this song bc it’s really that good i can’t take it #Spotify

[goldkirk]

god how much more of my life am i just missing memories of. When is this gonna STOP. I’m so tired of this

#am i going to have to keep doing this for years #is my life just always going to be Swiss cheese memory and variable functioning and variable working memory #and sometimes you can remember and sometimes you can’t even when you could remember yesterday and you wrote a note about it #etc etc #i don’t understand why my memory is so fucked up #and please don’t go it’s the trauma I know it’s the trauma but i still don’t understand #it’s just gotten WORSE over the past several years I made all these good changes I’ve gotten healthier I broke the cycle in my family #when do I get to have a working brain? when I can I trust that tomorrow when I wake up I’ll have skills i previously learned and they won’t #vanish overnight to show up again ten months later like they never left? #when am i going to stop remembering the same thing twenty times but never remembering I remembered it until i see a post or a note that i di #I’m just tired of this #I’m tired #i don’t see anyone else having memory issues like this and i don’t understand what I’m doing wrong #shh katie

[apathyfairy]

you know when you’re suicidal like 99 percent of the time but then some random thing comes and hits you and you just struggle so much with mortality and you want to live forever so bad

#i was watching suite life of all things and this fuckin honda commercial comes on and it’s like we’re gonna be carbon neutral by 2050 #or something like that and i was like nice. then i was like ..2050. i probably wont be alive in 2050.. 2050 is in 27 years #in 27 years i’ll be 55. my mom will be… and my pets w.. and no one will remember me when i die #and i guess it doesn’t even matter but doesn’t it?? doesn’t it matter what we do with our time here?? but then again it doesn’t matter.. #matthew perry is dead and my ex is dead and my dogs are dead and muriel from suite life is dead and nothing matters but Doesn’t It? #doesn’t everything actually matter so so much???? don’t i even care that i’m wasting my life? there’s so much life to live and i’m sitting #here watching a kids show from 2005? don’t i care what i do with my life? don’t i care that it’s almost over??? #and that’s what’s been spinning around in my head aaaalllll fucking day since i saw that commercial and i’m distraught even though i know #i’ll wake up tomorrow like i wish i didn’t but fr. don’t things matter. like they do. they do so much. everything matters so fucking much😔