#I’m not like conventionally attractive

[the-winds-of-destiny-xxx]

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#in other news #the foine boy on my course deffo has undiagnosed ADHD 😭 #we were talking about it today #his beautiful green eyes make my heart soft ngl #and he has beautiful eye lashes too #so long #I’ve always been a fan of the dark hair light eyes combo tbh #but it’s not meant to be #or he would’ve made a direct move on me by now #also idk my insecurities will come into play and make me pull back anyway #I’m not like conventionally attractive #both in terms of my face and body #my body is on the chunky side #and my face I guess idk if I get the right angle yes #but if someone had to describe like conventional beauty they wouldn’t describe me #felt like I was doing well at the gym #then my 🩸 came and I don’t go when I’m on it #surely my body shouldn’t have changed that much in a week #maybe it’s just in my head too idk #but feeling so bad about it again #only see him once a week too #and one of the other black girls on my course is feeling him #and the Palestinian girl #both smaller than me #he even stayed back today after class to be next to her and he usually leaves immediately after

[overly-hubristic-mad-scientist]

One thing about Dr. Daniel Cain is that he’s gonna be positively shit at his job

#That’s not how you do fucking cpr #How the fuck are you off midline at a point where he is presumed to be revered by his colleagues #What the fuck do you mean you got emotionally attached to your patient how do you even have the fucking time #All we see Dan’s patients do is fucking die #we don’t even get to see a close case no if you’re assigned Dan just write your fucking will now #The again a conventionally attractive friendly white guy getting way too much praise for a job he isn’t good at seems par for the course #I’m just saying say what you want about Herbert West but the man is a professional #Realistically with his perfectionism and god complex he probably will not afford himself the ability to not be a good doctor #Like neither is exactly a good choice since I’ll probably be graverobbed if things go south #But my chances of being in a grave to be robbed would increase greatly with Dan #reanimator #dan cain #herbert west #bride of reanimator #dan Cain Please get better at your job lives are at stake

[autumn-trekking]

Liking Star Trek TOS is just slowly developing a crush on every member of the bridge crew, I don’t make the rules I just follow the law!

Like why am I LUSTING after this silly fucking guy rn???? It’s just what happens!

#Like why am I being suducted by him?!?!?! #this is the reason why new trek and aos is so jarring for TOS enjoyers #everyone is too conventionally attractive #whe what we want is the rizzless 60s swag #Like new Spock? So hot and sexy and I love that for your legacy king #and I can live with you hot Spock because he’s supposed to be early in his career and shit #but when Ethan Peck takes his shirt off (and he’s fine af and he should be proud) the magic is GONE! #it’s cause he’s so smooth #like why am I looking at a smooth Spock? #the tiddies are biblically accurate but the hair was the FLAVOR #So I’m glad new Scotty seems like a silly guy and I wish him well on his journey #montgomery scott #Scotty #star trek #star trek tos #autumn trek posting

[just-another-frender-blog]

I’ve seen a lot of different “hot takes” about adult animation because of recent events that I don’t really want to get into on this blog. Mainly that all adult animated cartoons are vapid, derivative, ugly, nihilistic, cynical, shallow, etc., etc. But there ARE good adult cartoons out there, almost all of them get completely ignored.

There’s The Simpsons, Futurama (especially the earlier episodes for these shows), Castlevania, Close Enough, and BoJack Horseman. Then there are shows I haven’t really watched like King of the Hill, Bob’s Burgers, Inside Job, and Final Space. And there are likely quite a few that I’m missing, these are just off the top of my head. And of course, Close Enough, Final Space, and Inside Job just got canceled without getting much of a chance to get their feet off the ground.

And yes, I know these shows have fans. But if I’m being honest, their fanbases are so fucking tiny (with some exceptions). You rarely see people talking about these shows in the wider animation fan community. It feels like these shows are very much ignored outside of a small group of people. You have people screaming for good examples of adult animation, when the good ones we have are ignored and then get canceled.

And yes, I know these shows are flawed, but everything has flaws and problems. And if you actually watch these adult cartoons, you’ll find that they tackle a lot of meaningful subjects and actually have surprisingly positive outlooks on life. Not to mention that shows like BoJack Horseman and Close Enough have wonderful LGBTQIA representation that rarely gets discussed, if at all.

And you know what? The “art style” argument irritates the hell out of me. I personally don’t think any of these shows look ugly. They have art styles that are unique, that suit the show very well, and quite a few of them are diverse in terms of body types and race. Boiling everything to “ugly” is pretty shitty, given how many talented artists work their asses off on these shows.

I’m not saying we shouldn’t criticize adult animation, but I think it’s insulting to reduce an entire genre to “everything is terrible.” If you look into the history of many of these shows, the creators worked their asses off to get them greenlit, and are insanely passionate about telling great stories. It’s frustrating to see people boil everything down to “all adult cartoons are nothing but sex jokes and ugly art.”

#animation #the simpsons #inside job #close enough #futurama #bojack horseman #castlevania #king of the hill #final space #bob’s burgers #adult animation #i’m sick of seeing this take #i had to say something #once again i know these shows have fanbases #but they are ridiculously tiny compared to kid cartoon fanbases #and anime fanbases #my other hot take is that people just want everything to look like anime #where all the characters are conventionally attractive #because i see people shit on anime with unique art styles #but that’s for another post #long rant

[figofswords]

I feel like gender nonconformity is often taken to mean like. presenting as the opposite of whatever your assigned gender is. like as an afab lesbian if I want to be gnc that means I have to dress super masc. but I think for me at least gender nonconformity is more about completely divorcing yourself from any expectations of gender presentation one way or the other. I can dress masc or femme or androgynous, I can wear makeup or not and shave my pits but not my legs, I can be whatever I want to be on any given day without regard for what I’m “supposed” to wear. when I first started really thinking about my relationship with gender there was a period of time where I felt to be valid I had to dress really butch or it didn’t count, and if I wore a skirt that meant I’d been faking it. but I didn’t WANT to dress super butch all the time. I didn’t want to be butch or femme or androgynous or or or or, I wanted to wear what I wanted when I wanted. ultimately I gave up trying to pin down and put a name on my gender identity. I said to hell with it all. my pronouns are what they are and I dress however I dress and I don’t owe it to anyone to define any of that. my gender nonconformity isn’t a nonconformity with femininity specifically; it’s a nonconformity with any sort of gendered rules of presentation. and that was a really freeing thing to figure out. and I think that in online queer communities there’s really this pressure to put a label on everything and to identify as a specific thing and to prove your validity within your identity. non-binary doesn’t have to mean androgynous. gnc doesn’t have to mean butch. and I guess this pride month I’m just really thinking about that, that really all that being queer is about is saying a big fuck it to it all and just…existing, however you want to exist. wear what makes you feel good. be whatever makes you feel good to be. to hell with it all.

#ok to rb #idk where this came from I am just musing #I think also there’s this level of like. I deleted TikTok bc seeing the nonbinary teens on that app made me feel….bad #bevause they were all skinny and conventionally attractive and could pass for androgynous #I’m never going to pass for androgynous. I’m all hips and boobs. I’m curvy as hell and my voice is high pitched and I’m five feet tall #and it made me almost nauseous seeing this idea of what non-binary or gender nonconformity was supposed to look like #but in real life it’s not like that. gnc people look like a million shades of the rainbow #and it’s important to not make gender nonconformity into just another box you have to fit into #after taking gender studies classes I came to this conclusion like #its all made up to begin with. it’s real but it’s made up #so if gender is just a set of rules we agreed on as a society #then there ARE no rules and gender can be whatever you make it #and there’s a real relief to that

[adelaidedrubman]

google search about why no jaheira romance exposed me to the most cowardly statement i’ve ever seen btw:

if op saw the things i’ve said with full sincerity about auntie ethel they’d hurl

#i forget how dumb normie culture is about this shit like beyond the fact she’s not even THAT old for a half elf and has modest aging signs #and is literally still conventionally attractive like #‘‘do you really want to romance an old woman?’’ #um. they better give out extra doses of boniva at the nursing home before i come over that’s all i’m saying

[033h]

I’ve always felt like my relationship with romantic love was so different from everyone else’s, in some ways I feel the same as when I was a teenager because it’s never felt like it could be fully real to me. I genuinely believe I have qualities of a loveable person but that I will never find someone compatible with me, like all the minimum conditions will never be met. And honestly the barrier of anxiety has always been higher than the reward of going on apps and dates after a month or so.

When I was in my one and only relationship years ago I really hoarded and treasured every little moment and nice thing because I thought I would never experience it again (and so far I’ve been right). Even though I don’t even miss that person and it was short, I’m happy that I treasured that little opportunity to experience what I feel like will never be real for the adult me. I want that kind of love but I never expect it to become real for me specifically.

#it makes me feel like I was born wrong because I know I’m conventionally attractive and I can play nice with different kinds of people #I’m not asexual or aromantic but a secret third weirder thing #my only relationship was very situational and would’ve never happened if he didn’t do everything tbh #I want love but I refuse to settle I’m terrified of settling. and I’m also good enough but not right for anyone. #I refuse to feel like I’m reaching below me to find love because honestly it would destroy me #but I also feel like everyone I’m really attracted to is hopelessly above me and I’ll never reach them

[prans-micellar-water]

Two conventionally attractive men in a canon relationship and I found like three pieces of fanart for them. What is the world coming to

#don’t get me wrong I’m very proud of the state of the captain laserhawk fandom for this #its not every day that fandom focuses on characters with great stories but that are less conventionally attractive #I’m just. I genuinely really like Dolph. I want to watch him ne fucked up and unhealthy with Alex. Is this too much to ask #I want to support Alex’s gay wrongs

[thefandombringer]

okay.

#like i’m actually so tired of seeing this #erica sinclair deserves so much better #she’s been an established character since s1 and a main character since s3 #and is an ICON #and gets such a small fanbase #compared to an underdeveloped shallow white boy character #bc he’s a conventionally attractive white guy #WHY DOES ERICA GET TO HYPE WHILE FUCKING EDDIE DOES??? #erica sinclair #anti eddie munson #byler #not actually but u get it #erica sinclair supremacy

[gods-favorite-autistic]

I’m down very bad for women with guitars and women with drums and women who sing with gravelly voices or the clearest most mesmerizing voices you’ve ever heard and also Victoria from Maneskin and also so so many women singers

#give women instruments I’m begging you #I’m also slightly down bad for men who have guitars #give them to me now it was my birthday a month ago #for some reason my brain skipped right over all of the conventionally attractive or most popular female singers and zeroed in on like #Girls no one knows. and then Dove Cameron and Victoria from Maneskin and also Olivia Rodrigo #actually we need more girl band movies now #anyways. that’s it’s for me being gay at 3 am for tonight #women <3 #madurday night live

[mcnuggyy]

just remembered the fucked up dream I had last night where like 99% of the population switched bodies with somebody else somewhere in the world, BUT you weren’t aloud to talk about it at all or say who you really are or what your actual body looks like or else the government(?) would fucking kill you, like there was cameras watching us at all times, and people getting shot in front of us was common, it was very dystopian… but it was kind of an unspoken fact that almost all the people who were doing the best job at pretending to be people they weren’t were all transgender for some reason?? to the point where a lot of us had found ways to talk about it without talking about it and could bypass the cameras and shit… and the like guy who was all behind it had to get involved eventually…and he like started interviewing some of us and finally once and for all had us talk about who we really were and it was very dramatic and emotional but I woke up like immediately after saying what I looked like and who I was so 🤷🏻 who knows what would have happened next LMAO

#definitley some sort of weird queer horror trans narrative going on #but waking up I was like damn… I was getting misgendered left and right non stop and just had to deal w it #then I was like oh that’s already my existence LMAO #(I was on the body of a very very attractive young blonde woman btw #like MODEL type but I was still unhappy… even being conventionally attractive cause obviously I wasn’t myself #and I can’t even imagine what it would have been like with people experiencing racism for the first time or not experiencing it for the firs #t time… all sorts of wack stuff #I remember there being like a 60 year old guy who was on the body of a little girl #and when they die their bodies switch backed so you would see the like dead old man there instead of the little girl #but I’m not sure what happened to the other person you switched with? like did they die too? would u be responsible for their death? #or would they get to finally live as themselves again? #which would be worse? #idk… #cause then I could see like someone trying to find themself and then try and trick the other person #into talking about it so they could return back to their body #or you would always be on fear that someone out there on the other side of the world could kill you at any moment #NOT TO MENTION THE LANGUAGE BARRIER OF THATS A THING but I think in my dream people just were able to speak the language of the body they #switched into but yeah… anyways <3 #very interesting thought experience once again my dreams are always so strange lmao #callate guero

[gardenia777]

society if i wasn’t obsessed with the idea of being in a relationship

#omg me when i vent in the tags hold on #discord oomfies : here we go again #IDKKKKKKK i’m on my period but something about being completely romantically invisible for my entire life is so. IT FEELS SO SHITTY #like i’ve never had a talkikg stage i’ve never been hit on nothing ever like that #like it is hard not to feel like a hideous beast i just don’t know what i’m doing wrong #I WISH SOMEONE WOULD TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG!!!!!!!!! #bc as pathetic as this sounds i really do spend like the majority of my day wondering what the hell is so unattractive about me #bc i put all this effort in to try and be as conventionally attractive as possible. am i saying its working? no! but it’s not as bad as it #could be #and i mask SO HARD trying to be nice and normal #AND IM JUST!!! INVISIBLE !!!! #romantically that is the christian girlies who follow me around wanting to be friends don’t count. #omfg i know i’m whinging so much i’m annoying mysekf but if i don’t get this out i’ll explode #just keeping waiting for SOMETHING to happen and watching it happen to everyone i grew up with except me #IT HURTS!!!!!! #ok . going to go . idk do something . listen to rautavaara maybe

[lesbianyosano]

i will never be able to draw dazai the way i actually think he looks like not bc of lack of skill but bc it’d be sooo boring

#bc in my head he looks bland as fuck #like yes he’s attractive extremely so but in a way where it’s almost. too much??? #like his face is symmetrical and his smile it’s perfect and it’s unnerving #like with celebrities they’re good looking yes but it’s inhuman almost they’re attractive but sanitized even when sexy #and there’s sth just kind of dead in his eyes when you really look so no matter how charming he is it comes across as fake and disturbing #this uncanny valley he’s not real he looks like every beauty standard to a point where it’s just soo boring #and i just can’t bring myself to draw him like this bc i enjoy messing with designs too much and i love adding little features #plus i try to make his skin a little darker but realistically i imagine hes very pale and fair #but i don’t want him to beee not him and not any of the japanese characters tbh #i’m still not super good at picking skin tones but i’ve been getting better i think #the problem is bc i use an off white background and color the skin first it looks very dark and then after i put hair color in place it #suddenly starts to look much paler and it’s really frustrating #anyway i just think thematically he should be very conventionally attractive to a point where it’s unnerving and sanitized due to #it’s restraint #does this make sense #txt.

[aethertownusa]

“They’re conventionally attractive” they say of a recently pine sol’d laminate floor in a big city courthouse. “I mean obviously everybody has their own point of view and me I think everybody is beautiful in their own way, but they have, like, conventional good-looks.” They are talking about a plastic wrapper which went through the dishwasher accidentally

#every time someone’s like well of course he’s not my taste but he’s conventionally attractive #I’m like what the fuck conventions are these #are you from under the surface of the earth #they’re always talking about the worst blandest face imaginable

[sh5]

it’s difficult to talk about my disordered eating without sounding very “should we invite Bella Hadid?” because I am unfortunately very blasé about it but. I just wish I could express like, “I’m losing my fucking mind being on a hummingbird diet of adderall and sugary drinks and nicotine all the time and it’s probably taking important calories from my brain but every time I get hungry it’s a chore and a burden and I put it off until I’m physically weak and must eat” without um. my friends saying, “should we invite bella hadid”

#it’s not helped by the fact that I lost like 60lbs on adderall + nicotine and the entire world has opened up for me because everyone is so #much more fatphobic than they’d like to believe. like even though I am physically suffering under the amount of weight I’ve lost I’m still #encouraged by everyone around me bc they’re literally nicer to me when I’m a conventionally attractive weight :/ #lee speaks

[teethgnashing]

i need to stop talking abt body image issues with people who don’t have a double chin

#it always just fills me with anger and jealousy and then with guilt and even more self hatred #about to say some truly selfish hateful shit i am aware is wrong and cruel which is why i’m saying it here —> #like oh my godddd im soooo sorry your family told you you needed to be a bit skinnier #you are extremely conventionally attractive and skinny with pretty hair and good clothes #people like you at a glance. people give you the fucking time of day #you have dated multiple people. multiple people have wanted to DATE you #i’m always the fucking outsider in these conversations because they’re always so… personal? #in that like. “oh i know im okay looking but my brain won’t let me think it” #like damn that sucks. i’m actually ugly and nobody will let me fucking forget it #but do tell me more about your pretty partner you love who fell in love with you instantly #i’ll be over here walking behind you realizing i’m twice your width #and wondering if there’s a way to put out a lifetime’s worth of artwork and creation so that i can get this stupid hopeless life over with #i will die unloved. i don’t even fucking care anymore #i just want to make some decent art people might like and be done with it all #chatter #sorry i need to get this off my chest Now so i can push my mood back up and not be snapping at people. im so good im so fine #i hate myself but thats a me issue. time to go have fun