#MY APOLOGIES! i used to reply asap some time ago but i'm not quite the same lass and i feel cold and sleepy and then i get stressed about rl

[darabeatha]

/ Oh also!! One thing I would like to state; I apologize in advance to everyone i’ve ever plotted or had a thread going on and it kind of got dropped by my end, this has absolutely nothing to do with you and it’s just me being 1. a slow snail and 2. i’m sort of an airhead sometimes and some things slip past me frfr! Again, this is nothing against you so if we ever had a conversation and I just kind of slipped to the side, it’s just me being an airhead and pls do not feel afraid to come talk to me again !! Sometimes my social energy is also very low so i can also go through some periods where i don’t have much energy to speak to many people, but yeah!! also my attention span is lit everywhere so i tend to forget about ongoing threads (I’m quite forgetful as well but nothing personal okok) as i do not quite have a thread-tracker (yet);; so yeah! just that !

#;ooc #ooc #;psa #i get like; OHMEGOD- IT WAS MY TURN! #LIT that j.ekyll icon #MY APOLOGIES! i used to reply asap some time ago but i'm not quite the same lass and i feel cold and sleepy and then i get stressed about rl #so its entirely a me thing and pls dont think you are bothering me or anything! #you can always come talk to me ok!!! #also on the other hand; i absolutely dont mind you taking all the time you need to reply; or anything! #it's all chill! u could reply to my message a month later or more and on my end it'll be like its just been next day! #ur health comes first and i totally understand not having the energy or etc so its all chill! #butyeah on my end; apologies if u guys ever expected a certain reply and i was kind of floating somewhere oirtorituor #it happens that some times i feel more energy and others where im like; -hyperfixating on something- or just being the standing man emoji

[rachymarie]

Cyclone Update:

Day 7 with no power. Wishing and waiting. Hoping that we get power soon before they start introducing rolling blackouts, as has been rumoured. We need time to catch up power-wise to those that got power two nights ago. Constantly exhausted, and think mum is starting to understand a bit what it's like to be exhausted all the time (as per my mental illness), we've been saying "I just don't have the spoons for that".

People have been really nice offering help and quite a few local businesses have been giving away free food/hot food (meanwhile the supermarkets have been taking advantage and hiking up their prices then labelling them as !low price deals! 🙄

Pre-cyclone we had been wondering where the so-called bread shortage was that was forecast for this year - well now we're seeing it. Bread has become a bit of a commodity. Just wish my friends with power back would offer to drop some ice packs off in our letterbox so we can at least make a vain attempt to eek out the use of our refrigerated food. But only in the letterbox cos we don't have the spoons to be chatty/social right now.

Police Eagle helicopters are having to patrol the streets from the sky at night, thermal imaging and everything apparently. This is to stop the looters. Am hearing that people are stabbing people for food in supermarket car parks/atms and there's been a gunman that MAY or may not have taken a baby hostage the other night.

Of course the mainstream news is being notoriously useless at reporting on the devastation/what's going on here because a they care about is Auckland and Coromandel. Which, yeah it sucks for them but we still need news coverage too as half the country/world don't seem to realize what's going on here. It's kinda chaotic

Also, my telco Spark finally gave me my free 5gb as per their Connection Promise, but it didn't come until I messaged them in the Spark app. I did that early this morning and they replied within about 2 hours and had it sorted which was good. Still a bit nervous about whether the 10.3gb I have now will last me through the rest of this powercut but I hope so. So apologies for not blogging like I usially do with pictures/reblogs but I can't really afford the data to load/browse pics and videos as usual. Also in power saving mode which only allows 4 apps of your choice on top of the basic essentials such as Settings.

It's been especially hard for me as no access to my usual coping mechanisms that require wifi.

Of course that's nothing compared to people who have lost family/friends/homes but it's just been a really hard time on my mental health, with me accidentally overdosing on an anxiety med the other night cos I was so tired and in the dark so couldn't see much and didn't read the label.

So yeah we got advised to take me to the hospital immediately cos I'd had some red wine earlier with bbq dinner but I didn't know that at the time bc that info was kept from me so as not to stress me out further cos we couldn't actually physically get to the hospital as all the bridges into the next city, where our only hospital is, were washed away etc in the cyclone. So instead i was to be monitored every few hours for 6 hours.

Mum got really stressed which was what I was trying to avoid by taking that pill so yeah major fail on my part :/

So now I'm just trying to avoid that particular med and keep ontop of my regular ones and get lots of sleep where I can (usually my afternoon nap as I often have terrible sleep at night). Just tryin to babysit my mental illness as best I can out here.

So power asap would be great. We've been through enough already. We've half lost hope and half hopeful that it will be soon.

In the meantime I might try get back to sorting/organizing my room out especially since it's been hard to deal with that dang drawer unit in the middle of the floor in front of the wardrobe, waiting to be filled and put in the other corner of the room. And with all the clutter it's easier to trip at night in the dark (as per no power)

One upside is that we've got some sweet new solar lamps. Sorry if tmi

#spoonie #spoonie in a cyclone #Cyclone Gabrielle #Gabrielle #New Zealand #Spoonie: cyclone edition #tw overdose #content warning overdose #tmi

[otomehostclub]

I need help ASAP! My name is Natalie, and I'm 18, trans, poly, and bi. I have two boyfriends and a girlfriend. A couple of weeks ago, my girlfriend and I hit it off and had sex. And now, she took a pregnancy test and told me that she's pregnant. And...I'm the father. I'm a trans MtF, so that is how. Our parents were mad at first, but they did tell us that they would help us through it and take care of our baby. So did my boyfriends. But how are people gonna view me? A woman? A father?

“Forgive me for making you wait so long,” said the wary visage of Satsuki Kitaoji. “Things just couldn’t be helped in the delay of my arrival.” He then turned a gentle smile as he held a hand for you to take. “Come, let’s see if we can’t help lift some of that worry off your shoulders.”

Hurried steps can he be heard from the lobby as you wait. It’s been some time since you arrived yet you wait knowing you have to talk to someone about your situation. The tap of expensive dress shoes come your way, but you’re too focused on the piece of shirt hem you managed to wring into tight wrinkles. You’re feeling at your wits end when a pair of pressed dress slacks stand before you.

You gratefully take his hand, legs stiff from sitting so long, you follow your host into the tea room where someone has set out tea for two. Satsuki lets go of your hand to help you into your seat before beginning to serve. The steaming liquid gives off a light floral scent as a cup and saucer is placed before you. You breathe in the steam and it fills you with a calming sensation.

“Chamomile lavender tea,” Satsuki said as he takes his seat opposite you, serving himself. He sits quietly and silence fills the room for a few moments before you tell him the reason for your visit.

“I can see how this can be quite the concern,” he says as he mulls over every detail. “With everything happening as they are in this modern day, one cannot blame you for feeling this way. But, I think the more important thing to remember is what will you think of yourself in this situation and those that you’re with in this relationship. If everyone is supportive of the situation moving forward, I think that is the most important thing you need to worry about.”

A moment passes as you sip your tea and take in all this. You’re still on the fence about this and the worry still lingers, evidently showing on your visage.

“Regardless of what you do, there will always be someone that will have negative things to say. If you care more about how others think of you, then you can never be happy with yourself. You have to think about those that matter and you are one of them.” Reaching over the table, Satsuki takes your hand in his, that gentle smile shining towards you.

You flush just a bit, the kindness so unexpected. But it was a great relief that this was done and you could finally start thinking about other things. For the rest of the time, you sit and enjoy the tea and company, making small talk till the pot runs out.

We would like to apologize for the huge delay replying to this. We hope that all is well with you and your family.

#answered by satsuki #admin dori #family #friends #relationships #social anxiety #anxiety #transgender