“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!
(sur-ger-y!)
Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!
(my-my-mind!!!!)
I remember waking up with my mind repaired.
(A-OK! ^^)
I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”
Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!
Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!
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My grandma is getting rid of her floor loom and offered it to me. The only issue is I have never even seen a loom in person. She got it 30 ish years years ago but it’s been sitting in her basement for I don’t know how long, so I don’t know what shape it’s in but I did find a listing from someone who has the same loom (X). Apparently it’s from a fairly local company and there’s only a few of these specific looms?
Im very excited to try weaving and have been watching Dolores Jacob’s Learn How To Weave playlist on YouTube and a handful of other videos but if anyone has any advice? Other YouTube playlists or books I could check for at the library?
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i feel so lucky to have my special intrest be a group of people who seem to truely appreciate the people that support them. and to belong to a community where i feel genuinely appreciated and have to have made so many wonderful friends.
and to top it off, they are constantly putting out banger after banger. oops all hits!
i dont know if ill ever be able to express how much joy i get everyday from watcher, their content, and the community that surrounds them. plus, they inspire me creatively in my own field.
just needed to get this message out into the universe :)
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good news I decided to present my undergraduate project next semester so I won't actually have to sacrifice my time and mental health to get it done asap by next month 😋🤞 n my prof supported my decision
I can feel a bit more relaxed now and actually get to draw a bit more without the overwhelming pressure and guilt killing me 😩 also I might open separate comm slots (one at a time, im still slow srry)soon....
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Do you have any lucemond fics Planned for when LSTS is over or is close to finishing?
oh so many!! for the lsts-verse i'll probably have a compilation of sorts added to the series in a few chapters or so, of deleted scenes and flashbacks that aren't making it in
and maybe i'll actually post some of my luke-gets-warded-to-kings-landing, slowburn/fix it, enemies to childhood friends to lovers au that was being plotted long before lsts ever was, but has so many moving parts i've been hesitant to share lol :,) someday <3
honestly i have so many ideas it'll be hard to pick what to do next, i may start posting snippets here early just so it can all be archived somewhere even if they don't get full fics
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get the feeling that the first few episodes of the season were chock full of kacy to make up for both sad, angsty kacy last season and to give us something to hold onto in light of this expected multi-episode lucy absence
and if we're assuming the crossover (2x10) or the episode right after it to be the one when she'll be back, (she seems to be listed for ncis: la, but not the ncis: hawai`i episode), then we’re in for a month and a half long kacy hiatus, about 3 episodes or so (lucy could still vid-call or text and stuff, but there will still be a lack of her and it won't be the same 😭)
we know that both lucy and whistler are prone to spiraling/overthinking, and while yes, this is going to be a taxing 4-month long separation it would be hard for any couple to face, it rings a little hollow when they just moved in together and re-emphasized their commitment to each other and desire to be together all the time and as a viewer it’ll be hard for me to reconcile 3-4 episodes in reality being 4 months of time in the show
and it sucks that they seem to be leaning towards lucy conquering her fear of water off-screen. it’s disappointing because i don't want to see this type of tell, don’t show story-telling for a seemingly big part of lucy’s character, id prefer she do it with her team/family supporting her or having it be a big character moment on-screen (though, her going on the water for both jesse and whistler kind of was like that, it wasn't the highlight of those episodes or those scenes really, in Pirates, it starts off as an emotional thing that later turns into comic relief when they meet with Pike and we see her enormous life-vest). of course, there’s still a possibility that she comes back from this still deathly afraid of the water and having had a miserable time, but i don’t know if they’d introduce this storyline only for her to come back like ‘ugh it was awful i should have just stayed’ and brush over her time on the boat
there’s also a possibility this 4-month absence leads to the introduction of a lucy feeling anxious and worried about whether kate was messing around while she was away storyline, which obviously that type of storyline isn’t inherently bad, frankly im more surprised that hasn’t been brought up at all and they’ve been in a honeymoon phase, but like lucy said she has trust issues (and they laughed it off even though uhhh whistler you’re half the reason for that)
and to top it all off, she’s going to be aboard the Ronald Reagan, quite literally homophobia personified LMAO
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