#Their dynamic is just too compelling

[damaskino-26320]

What gets me about the Immortan Joe/Dementus dynamic is that it feels like Joe will see a version of himself reflected back at him in this charismatic upstart. He knows the kind of hunger that drives someone to carve their legacy into the ever shifting sands of The Wasteland-it’s what led to him taking the Citadel, and the title of the Immortan being thrust onto him by his own fanatical followers. The Biker Horde will threaten that very same thing happening to Joe. Two people cut from that kind of cloth could never really coexist, but damn will it be interesting to see how they dance around each other in their bids for ultimate control over the Triumvirate.

#Also it does put Joe into a similar position as Pappagallo’s in The Road Warrior #Which is interesting to me #Mad Max #Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga #I have many ​Immentus thoughts #Their dynamic is just too compelling #MM #Immortan Joe #Dr. Dementus #Immortan Joe x Dr. Dementus #Immentus #Furiosa

[taxinealkaloids]

horrible children who are. so so mean to each other

#tlt #the locked tomb #my art #precanon griddlehark dynamic is SO funny. the way they are just no-holds-barred absolutely AWFUL to each other. #the fact that harrow made fun of gideon for saying 'i love you' over her dead mother's grave so gideon nearly choked her to death #and then when gideon recalls this story in gtn she's just like 'yeah lol we were wild kids' #also remember when gideon responded to harrow being kind of bossy with 'your parents must have been so relieved to die' like #imagine saying that knowing full well her parents killed themselves in front of her when she was ten!!!! insane!! #there's no sense of going 'too far' between them. they casually hit what would be considered by most ppl to be 'too far' and then keep going #anyway i don't usually go in for characters-being-kids-together stuff but i will admit that childhood gid+harrow #following each other around absolutely terrorizing each other because they're desperate for each other's attention but also full of #hatred and vitriol #does compel me #like...2 very lonely very traumatized children with only each other for company. what will they do? ENDLESSLY TORTURE EACH OTHER!!! #and yet they are each other's emotional support person. its so good.

[aroanthy]

i love how fraught and complicated discourse around various utena characters ‘dying’ is when anthy is literally stabbed to death eternally by a million swords imbued with human hatred. and then utena gets stabbed to death by them also. like. ‘death’ is incredibly interesting in rgu because most of the time it’s this ambiguous figurative thing that has interesting implications re: ohtori as a closed-off world one can escape. we are all trapped in our coffins. mamiya is the only named character with a grave. nemuro memorial hall functions as one all the same. ruka is implied to have died in the hospital— was he dead all along? who was the boy we saw for these two episodes? is this dead boy the same boy, or is this just another coincidence from the shadow girls, cutting like a knife? it’s heavily implied that akio and anthy murder kanae by poisoning her, adding to the previous implication that they were poisoning mr ohtori too, but there are no perceptible consequences of this. kanae’s absence is not felt. she’s fed an apple slice. what happens to the bodies? we know what happened to the 100 boys, but what about everyone else? and so on and so forth. ‘death’ is a tricky thing in utena, i think it’s constantly functioning on figurative and literal levels in very different ways for very different purposes. dios died. dios was dying. dios didn’t die. he grew up. etc etc

#what am i trying to say here? #idk! think about all of the pieces you have #dying is complicated in ohtori in countless different ways #and i find it boring to see so much ‘this character is dead and that’s it’ stuff #when death is used farrrrrrr more figuratively than some ppl give credit for #and i think the movie too does wonderful things with death #and what ‘dying’ really means #being disbelieved. being forgotten. being rejected. haunting despite this #much more interesting to think about wrt commentary on abusive relationships than it is #to think about what?? oh me when my brother died but plot twist he’s alive and can walk on this road all cool. like????? #akio doesn’t have the power to make himself revenant #he THINKS he does and he absolutely has power when he’s alive and he imbues that power with such meaning that it does live on after him #but ANTHY. anthy is the one struggling with herself and her feelings and the impact of trauma and abuse (that power!!) in aou #he’s dead? he died? she brought him back through her memories? or she’s left him (metaphorical death) and he’s haunting her?? #all such interesting interpretations #i haven’t mentioned touga bc i don’t have the energy today. if dead and just illusion of others memories then why active. why awful #like in aou akio is only Obviously scummy when he’s alive. his illusory self is based upon anthy’s love for him #if anime!touga is nothing more than nanami/whoever’s memories of him before he died……. why does he actively choose to suck again and again #like nanami wouldn’t do that. unless it was meant to be a subconscious thing like ooo he’s dead all along but that’s not what her arc is #it’s not ‘he’s been dead all along’ literally or figuratively. it’s ‘he’s unsafe and i don’t want him’ #sigh. once again i am asking people to think about nanami and touga’s dynamic through touga’s eyes #it’s so interesting to me how people forget to consider his motivations or feelings on ANYTHING #like sure his motivations and feelings are scummy but they’re interesting!!!!! they intrigue me!!!! #compel me even #anyway ignore how i said i didn’t have the energy for this and then typed it all out anyway #dais.txt

[bacchuschucklefuck]

you get riz gukgak so well 👍👍

thank u!! he really kinda is all of my favourite character things rolled into one package (negotiation of principles/investigator-truth seeker-negotiator with reality and the narrative/obnoxious character whose narrative reward for participating in the story is getting to be even more authentically obnoxious/deeply and hauntingly aroace

#not art #everything else abt him is also compelling so Im just eating well while crying over here #the aroace part I believe from the bottom of my heart the moment he bribed a girl in freshman year First Day Of School to eavesdrop for him #In The Girl's Bathroom. like the decision itself isnt far off from a lot of noir stuff trapp's character in mentopolis did the same #but the supreme lack of awareness of what that decision says abt you in a social setting. now That's aroace #the only reason I dont read him as agender too is bc he didnt straight up waltz in there lmao #honestly bouncing off of that I also thinks folks sometimes downplay or buff off how cringe riz is... but its my favourite thing on earth #esp. in tandem with the Everything else abt him. theres an insistence in the genres he pulls from on the greater good and losing #ur real self in the work and being maybe strange but above all The Guy Who Gets The Job Done. and riz pushing the limit of that is awesome #like as a character I feel like some of it is like yeah I do get the job done. if it kills me even. how Strange do I get to be #or is it just being strange in a domineering and mysterious magnetic way. I will be cringe actually deal with that for my service #this and the part of his character that's yknow. Living While Goblin. that's a deeply compelling dynamic to me #anyways uhhh once again typing huge paragraphs abt this guy lmao. this happens forever I let it #anyways for the reason of spy theming and information dealer if u do class swap AU I propose bard!riz #u know. what is disguise if not a sister to stealth (<- extremely transgender sentence to say)

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

Boyf Riends in role swap au?

by role-swap i'm assuming jeremy has michael's role and vice versa?

- michael's squip is bob marley. sure. why not.

- michael got the squip for jeremy...? not to pursue him romantically like jeremy originally did for christine but to make things better for him ig. instead of taking the 'wait until college' approach he decided to actually do something about it

- jeremy is more full-on theatre kid in this au

- michael becomes friends with jake to mirror jeremy becoming friends with rich. no jake does not have a squip. (i actually have no idea what's going on with any of the other characters here)

- michael doesn't ditch jeremy because that kinda goes against his entire reasoning for getting the squip- instead jeremy finds out about what michael did and feels betrayed over it. you didn't think i was capable of handling this myself? you had to go behind my back and pull the strings with some shady technology? (and maybe there's something like i could've used that for myself, why would you keep that from me?)

#orca answers #i have so much trouble with role swap aus because i always feel like it's hard to make them compelling iykwim?? #like okay sure now these two characters have swapped roles. so what now. #usually people switch their personalities too to keep the plot and like. #at that point it's just. having their names swapped what's the point 😭 #i do like the idea of subtly mirroring certain dynamics like michael befriending jake though. it has potential #bmc #be more chill #boyf riends #michael mell #jeremy heere

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

[bellamygate]

I think it's really likely phee and jin happened bc they were both rebounding from non and maybe they caught feelings maybe they didn't maybe phee is feeling guilty for that but like to ME regardless of how bad they feel abt it they're fucking on non's dead body and I'm petty enough to put away critical thinking and appreciating the nuances of media to wish them a very die

#dff the series #dead friend forever #I GET IT I GET IT ik what yall r saying yes them as a pair can b interesting asf and if i wasnt a non girlie id be all over it but god #my nonnie deserves better #this is just the final nail in the coffin like #this is nons 13th (20th) reason #imagine going through all of THAT and then ur ex bf is fucking the guy who filmed u getting raped and dragged u back into a group #that was abusing u constantly when u were abt to leave it #like #yall r built different i simply cant hack it #i cant compartmentalise and not be disgusted of the non of it all in order to enjoy them #like there will always be 3 of u in that relationship and we all know it #i can't force myself to not be disgusted by them and it's required to feel any reaction besides auto recoil to the thought of them together #ur relationship is paved with sins and corpses how can u be together and have peace knowing every moment will be haunted by it #i dont wanna see them forgive themselves and eachother and be together bc its SO UNFAIR TO NON #and i simply cant get over that if i wanted hard reality i wouldnt b watching a gay slasher its just so unsatisfying #its unsatisfying to end it like thst with no justice for the victim #yes theres a compelling story there abt that dynamic between them but this isnt the show to explore kt #theyve put too much emphasis on the victim to go there #i understand the sentiment but a story like that doesnt go like this. this isnt the way u write a story like that & explore those themes #like the majority of the audience isnt wanting that theyre rooting for non BECAUSE of the way its been set up & written #the past and the actions against non r the focus not phee and jin dealing w the aftermath in the present

[zincbot]

kiruko heavenly delusion is so transgender to me

#heavenly delusion #(points) you are trans #kiruko i am obsessed with her basically. her SCARS?! HELLO #also maru is so funny he talks like such a teenager. 15 year old of all time #their dynamic is really compelling i like how maru calls her sis and dude and stuff. (dub watcher) #also kiruko is so like. she acts so casually with maru and it's clear they've been travelling for a while #and she tries her best to take care of him and protect him #but she still hides behind that wall of 'its just a job'. when maru clearly wants an older sister #but she doesn't even get it. even as she reassures him she won't leave. she just tries to keep things light always and never takes time to #like #examine their dynamic #cause i think if she did that she'd realize that she wants a brother too #(i am one episode in disclaimer) #also when i say transgender i am leaning transmasc but who knows

[grendelsmilf]

okay if none of the sibling relationships from utena are on that incest poll i keep hearing so much about then it’s all a bust anyway right

#i genuinely don’t know because i haven’t actually SEEN the poll #just heard about it vaguely #but if miki and kozue and/or nanami and touga aren’t on there then what’s even the point #anthy and akio too obv but it’s like. almost too paradigmatic as an example of incest #w nanamitouga and mikikozue it’s more compelling to me wrt the incest #bc the abuse is more lateral #even as miki and (esp) touga clearly have more power w/in a patriarchal system #they’re still being abused themselves and genuinely don’t know what they want or how they’re supposed to think #so it’s more nuanced in that sense #esp miki and kozue bc they’re the same age #but nanami and touga is also the dynamic of all time truly #utena

[jils-things]

since i have laras permission to post shit he made heres another favorite old art done by her ☝️☝️

this literally summarizes everything there is to know about these guys

#love this art too hard because like #1) stevaide kisses (which is something im so shy to do) #2) gold and ruby are there #3) gold is angry and ruby's innocence is protected /jjjj #4) oc friend is present (pokelara) (he's babysitting them I think HAJAAJSJSHSJJ #im not sure why but i just felt compelled to make gold this opposing force to not like stevaide at first #i like to think gold thinks people like him are stinky bleghhh and definitely thought steven was a team rocket mf (they all wear black) #so he was immediately against this #he didnt care when jaide (hypothetically) went uhm so there's this guy (i dont think she'd talk like that BUT HYPOTHETICALLY!!!) #but when he saw the pretty boy it was so joever for mister St.even Stone #but eventually he accepts him and they have a funny dynamic going on (where steven tries to make gold like him) #gold actually does start to like him because he actually feels relevant. we all know how the hgss arc went down #still i think gold is still too high and mighty to kinda cave in and go yeah i love my brother in law but he really does appreciate him #and of course - to see someone love jaide. he's happy for her (and like how jaide is happy that gold has his own circle of friends AAACCKC) #WHY AM I SUDDENLY TALKING TO DEEP ABOUT THIS IM #FUCK IT IM STILL TALKING #ruby probably doesnt mind the pda (because he adores them and doesnt feel embarrassed about it) until franticshipping confession happens #because I fucking love the idea of ruby watching his mom just gently mwa his dad and then hes like OH GOD WHY AM K THINKING OF SAPPHIRE EW #(hes in denial ok how long did this boy take to be fucking HONEST WHILE SAPPHIRE TRIED HER HARDESTTO CONFESS MF) #HE WOULD FIX HIS GLASSES AND TURN AWAY. OR COUGH. AHEM. MOM PASS THE DRINK PLEASE (gettin them to stop fucking sweet talking at the TABLE) #SHSBDBBSSJDJSHS OH MANN SEE THAGS HOW MUCJ I ADORE THIS ART BECAUSE YOU CAN GET AN IDEA OF JOW EVERYONE IS HERE SKSJDHHSEJS #💚 for me #lara tag #ruby.fam #gold.fam #stone family tag

[crowlore]

been seeing some posts about meryl lately, and some unrelated bigger posts about female characters that got me thinking about her. gonna ramble about it for a second. probably gonna bleed into the tags

meryl stryfe was always a solid and interesting character with promise who filled a very clear and necessary niche in the narrative of the manga, and just because i think she should have more of an active role in some parts of the story doesn’t mean i think she was maligned by it. i do however think a lot of fans are quick to say she was done dirty by the source material to cover for the fact that they’re too lazy to go to the lengths to invest themselves in her character that they would have without thinking had she been a man. not that they say this knowingly, or maliciously! just that it’s easier for many to blame the author than it is for them to examine their own bias against women when it comes to how they interact with stories. i say this fully aware that i have been guilty of this, because it’s so easy for me to say something like “oh, no, it’s that as i’ve come into my own as an adult man i just resonate more with male characters than i once did female characters when i was a teenage girl,” but no. even when i was a teenage girl i put more thought into male characters. i’ve seen it happen for years. nobody is immune to this mindset, and it’s okay to challenge yourself to do better when it comes to really engaging with the women in the stories you love as they were written. really, get passionate about them! dig into their strengths and flaws and really relish in them unapologetically the way it’s naturally assumed of you to do for the guys. trust me it’s good for you

#this is without even touching on how the shipping aspect of fan spaces can malign female characters #meryl had a SUPER compelling dynamic with vash that regardless of how you interpreted it does seem to often be written out of the story #entirely by fans who view her bond with vash as a threat to his bond with wolfwood. few even consider meryl and wolfwood’s relationship too #she’s often rewritten/mischaracterized just to have her existence in proximity to them justified which is a shame #because meryl was always interesting and endearing as she originally was. victim of yaoi..😔

[senadimell]

Many unformulated thoughts about The Scarlet Pimpernel, but one key point about the core relationship that was really striking to me:

It was never Percy’s intelligence that Marguerite was attracted to. It was the fact that he was utterly devoted to her.

So there’s a line in the book that says something to the effect of “she’d never been in love before and didn’t think it was something that would happen to her. She figured she was just not a person capable of loving.” But then Percy shows up and adores her, and she doesn’t necessarily reciprocate right away, but she enjoys being loved and goes along with things.

Importantly, Marguerite is established as extremely intelligent from the beginning. Percy is...not. Even before he leans into foppish shallowness, people are willing to believe he’s not sharp. There’s a discussion of his mother and Sir Percy inheriting ‘madness’ that suggests people are willing to believe he has an intellectual disability, though obviously there’s different terminology being used given the time period.

While Percy turns out to be an intellectual match for his wife, it’s not his intelligence that Marguerite falls in love with. She doesn’t bemoan how clever he used to be—she laments how he used to love her.

This is important.

Marguerite thinks he cannot comprehend how she was entrapped into betraying people to death, and while at least some of this belief in his slow-mindedness may have developed after the fact, it was still rooted in a sincere belief that he was unable to comprehend the situation that she was in, and his inability to understand broke his love for her because he believes her to be a murderer. However, while she does grow disillusioned with his foolish behavior and apparent lack of intellect, she’s not mourning the intelligent man who courted her. She’s mourning a man, perhaps a simple man, but an honest one who she thought she could grow to love.

As for Percy, his falling-out with Marguerite happens because he had to find out how about her role in an execution from other people, and then when he turned to her for an explanation, she offered none. He loved her and he hoped for some emotional intimacy or confidence in return, but instead, she closed herself off and he’s hurt and offended.

Then it all goes downhill, because as he closes himself off and cultivates an overly foolish reputation, she starts to hurt him in the hopes that it will provoke some emotional reaction. If he can’t love her, maybe he can hate her (which is cruel, ridiculous logic but pretty human). Percy responds to this by hiding every scrap of emotion and never rising to the bait, always allowing her to make a fool of him, and never fighting back, and in private, he goes to the aid of French nobility without even dreaming of confiding in his wife. Meanwhile, she snipes at him and secretly despairs until she is truly trapped and finds herself utterly without confidante.

Why does this matter? Because the Scarlet Pimpernel is a romantic superhero that all the women love. If someone falls in love with Superman while being a-okay trashing Clark Kent, it’s going to be hard to accept that love as genuine. It’s really important to the story that Marguerite falls in love with Percy again before she ever realizes he’s the Scarlet Pimpernel and before she realizes how clever he actually is.

“Rather did I speak of a time when you loved me still! and I...oh! I was vain and frivolous; your wealth and position allured me: I married you, hoping in my heart that your great love for me would beget in me a love for you...but, alas!”

and then, later on:

The lazy, good-natured face looked strangely altered. Marguerite, excited as she was, could see that the eyes were no longer languid, the mouth no longer good humored and inane. A curious look of intense passion seemed to glow from beneath his drooping lids, the mouth was tightly closed, the lips compressed, as if the will alone held that surging passion in check.

Marguerite Blakeney was, above all, a woman, with all a woman’s fascinating foibles, all a woman’s most lovable sins. She knew in a moment that for the past few months she had been mistake: that this man who stood here before her, cold as a statue, when her musical voice struck upon his ear, loved her, as he had loved her a year ago: that his passion might have been dormant, but that it was there, as strong, as intense, as overwhelming, as when first her lips met his in one long, maddening kiss. Pride had kept him from her, and, woman-like, she meant to win back that conquest from which had been hers before. Suddenly it seemed to her that the only happiness life could every hold for her again would be in feeling that man’s kiss once more upon her lips.

Percy does happen to be the intellectual equal to his wife. But that’s not how he wooed her. 

I guess the really important thing to me here is that Marguerite was really awful to Percy, and she realizes it and regrets it, and tries to make amends before she ever realizes her husband is a dashing superhero. Heck, she asks for help protecting her brother and believes he'll be able to make things okay even before learning of his secret identity. She’s willing to love him even when he’s still slow Sir Percy Blakeney. It’s not his intellect or lack thereof that offends her, but their total lack of emotional intimacy (that started with her), and she’s willing to overcome the gulf between them by being vulnerable first.

#the scarlet pimpernel #they're hopeless your honor #they're both too dang proud to actually apologize in so many words #but they are willing to emotionally reveal themselves and that's what matters to their relationship #anyways i'm probably not going to write about any of the uncomfortable class dynamics in the book #but this particular relationship is fascinating #also i guess i just find it really compelling whenever i see books admit that not everyone really feels love in a conventional sense #or on a conventional timeline #obviously they're quite passionate at later #but the line about marguerite seeing herself as someone incapable of love was just really relatable #eh...a-spec/aro stuff i guess?

[jahiera]

see my bg3 first romance dilemma is I could feasibly see Emrys romancing any of the cast (except for Minthara which… sad. babygirl I could love you if not for having to commit war crimes to get you.) so trying to choose a romance? impossible.

#Her stoicism and strength of spirit and capability to commit both horror and kindness compel these people body and soul #but like ESPECIALLY Karlach and Shadowheart I think would really vibe with her …. #Its just a bit of character arc tweaking to put her on a different path #but honestly this is how it goes in DA games too… my Lead Girl has a weird psychosexual dynamic with every single romanceable companion #it’s fine it’s cool we’ll figure it out #I’m half like…. make individual saves to run different parallel Emryses. However that would be unhinged #nay. I shall stick to my og plan and turn over parallels in my brain instead #playing bg3

[daisyachain]

so Momoe has a mysterious past. Deliberately obscure. Occupies an odd role in the gender-segregated world of sports. Seems to have had a clean break after junior high. Experienced with the medical system. Bonds quickly with Hanai ‘don’t call me Azusa’ Lastnameonly and Tajima ‘I hate tall guys’ Yuuichirou. Mentorship of Hanai carries clear undertones of seeing herself in him.

#kelsey liveblogs oofuri #it would add another fun and compelling aspect to their relationship to read all 3 as trans #tajima—gung ho about the whole thing. family supportive but a bit inattentive. often frustrated by the effort he has to put in #just to reach somebody else’s baseline (the height thing). #hanai—doesn’t regret transitioning for high school but deeply conscious of the social dynamics. #not helped by generally supportive mother not necessarily being the most sensitive with language. #momoe—been out long enough that she’s quite comfortable but has also been careful enough about covering her tracks #she’s a little…not resentful but conscious of the opportunities she gave up but she’s having too much of a good time to really get twisted #meeting hanai and tajima she tries to give them the advice she wishes she was given #crucial to this dynamic: momoe has good radar. tajima figures out momoe is trans from her obvious hints but not hanai. #hanai thinks he is all alone on the team. tajima is too wrapped up in rivalry feelings to clock hanai. #momoe has no interest in outing either of them but she is surprised that hanai has not picked up what she’s putting down yet #and so the dynamics are maintained. hanai and tajima are captivated by each other’s masculinity and also in awe of momoe. hanai is Afraid.

[obstinaterixatrix]

Actually I was telling a friend about the cool weird sentai bl from the pov of the red ranger’s boyfriend who never actually sees the sentai stuff and is also half-alien (?) and is being chased by a commander type guy and I’m still so mad that the writer abandoned it for 5+ years (10+?) to write her endless trite high school bl that’s been going on for 15 volumes like. HEY. COME BACK??? CAN WE GET BACK TO THE WEIRD SENTAI-THAT’S-ENTIRELY-OFFSCREEN?????

#orlbs #misclb #it’s mabayui hikari btw #same artist who did the really weird ghost bl #where it starts out as fairly standard supernatural shenanigans with guys who can see ghosts #and ends up being this existential apocalypse for a bunch of ghosts #I think the artist is really good at Weird Vibes #I think a chunk of her writing is a little too… subpar bl tropes and dynamics sometimes #but when she gets Kinda Weird it’s really compelling #but there is. NO weird in her endless high school bl. #there’s just no flavor. like it’s fine for what it is #but what it is #is like eating styrofoam

[moe-broey]

AUTISM JUMPSCARE!!!!

I'm just feeling especially normal about the Askr siblings and I have one million notes on my cell phone that were never intended to see the light of day but. If you. Wanna indulge me.

^ snippets from a scrapped Hel Sharena AU, not really a fic just figuring out scenes (meant to be a comic). Context is a near death experience (she fucking kilt him almost) and girlbossery I guess (ready to kill her herself but also understanding of the self and the pain and various other horrors and ultimately finding a little kindness for yourself even just a smidge.)

^ Broken ass family.

^ Some misc ones.

There were two more I was gonna include but I felt they got too personal for me LMFAO, but the main takeaway from them is:

> Alfonse is a funny little man who's full of contradictions. Yeah yeah he's super cautious and has extreme difficulty letting people in. But he will speak freely and openly to anyone who will listen. He trusts his allies wholeheartedly (esp drives me insane How he does this, in a strictly practical way). He's just... so earnest. Try as he might to distance himself and remain guarded, his earnesty tends to seep through. (And hell if we're talking contradictions, not even mentioned in this particular note but about a thousand others of mine LMFAO I believe Alfonse is a very emotional character. Like. His emotions DO tend to be a driving force for him. Unfortunately he is also his father's son. Jokes aside though, he does naturally have a very pragmatic personality to him too!)

> Something something there's something uniquely isolating about being friends w your sibling's friends bc you know they would simply never know you otherwise were it not for your older sibling(s). Sharena is here because Alfonse is. I'm here because my sisters are. There's nothing inherently wrong with that, it just leads to some strange grey areas and never really knowing where you stand sometimes.

These two did go hand in hand, just. Removing the context makes them seem unrelated LMFAO oh well!!!!

Anyways. Autism moment over it's so fucking late dude. It's almost 4 I gotta be up by 8 LMFAOOOOOOO GIRL HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😔😔😔😔

#fire emblem #feh #wwhy doenst my job understamt. i need to be autistic about characters or i WILL explode into one million pieces. to dust. ect. #i'm also just. well you know. the horrors. it's always the fucking horrors around here stg. #nah but like i'm good. just. experiencing things. family. ect ect. no more comments on that! #fe alfonse #sharena #ok to rb btw like yeah there are personal tidbits but i did my best ro share as much as i'm comfortable w #and really i just wanted to share like. all the intricate dynamics that live in my head. #i think the askr fam is really compelling. and this is just the main ones (offshoot would def include lif) #i have a lot of thoughts about him too but they usually end up goofy LMFAO. #sorry for making the serious sad n angry death man silly. as if it's my fault it's a healing experience. #but for this post in particular i really wanted to focus on alfonse n sharena. #i feel like. they have fucking intricacies man. by themselves and together.