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goldkirk · 10 months

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#okay things have gone wrong at most turns today #and my sister shared a video on her story where the op is claiming to save children from #children and infants I mean #from organ harvesting AND ‘satanic witch doctor rituality’ AND pedophilia/etc.#over in west Africa and I’m like. there’s so much wrong with this I don’t know where to start #and it’s so conspiracy heavy and unsourced #and my sister shared this TODAY #and she had been quieter about conspiracies lately #but today she announced where the oldest two are going for school/brainwashing this year #and shared this #and I hoped that the conspiracy she told all of us when I was in town #about the potatoes and food #was the extent of it now maybe #but it isn’t #and I’m sad and miss my sister #I feel like I lost her in 2006 #she was like my second mom. she changed and she’s never been the same #anyway #our lease expires and I don’t have access to sign it bc it just isn’t showing up #and my car needs to be junked so I don’t pay the parking anymore #bc I can’t afford it and also the car won’t start #and I’m not getting a new battery or anything bc I don’t drive now I use transit #but they couldn’t come till two weeks from now #and so I went to a different service but I haven’t heard back from scheduling yet #and I just got a bug assigned to me at work #and my body has been panicking for a lot of yesterday and today #the lease and parking stuff won’t be addressed till Sunday #bc that’s when the office people told me to come back when xyz person is back in the office #it’s all going to be okay in the end but heavens. heavens #shh katie

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sonofanactuallyveryniceperson · 16 days

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not to be super embarrassing but it’s kinda hard to write compulsory corporate law assessment when your brother won’t stop sending you pictures of your dead dog. king I love you, I don’t need this

#I miss him too I’m gonna be hella sad later but your sister needs to be devoid of all emotion right now this is half of my grade #text: words from e

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peculiar--princess · 2 months

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I wish I had girl friends to spend my birthday with. I wish we could go shopping and get our nails done and watch horror films together.

#I’m trying to be grateful that I got to spend the weekend out of town w my bf but part of me feels a little lonely and sad knowing #that on majority of my b day tomorrow l I’ll be alone #I’m going to make the best of it and go to the theater and see a film & maybe go shopping and such #but feels weird being away from my family and friends on my b day #this time last year I was just abt to move here and my sisters threw me a party #I miss them #:(#sorry for the vent lol

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eoieopda · 1 year

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we’re taking a bit of a breather from my parents’ massive itinerary (bored midwesterners who never travel to big cities, lol) so i am briefly back with crumbs of my actual life for those who care —

1.) for context: i’m 28, @cinnamin-ji just turned 30, and our older brother (one of two) is nearly 31. our parents were younger than all of us currently are when min-ji and i were adopted (which means they had four — FOUR!!! — young kids by the time they were my age ☠️ and they did not stop there, oh no!!) anyways, they’re in their mid-50s. when i tell you that it is MORTIFYING how much more energy our parents have than we do??? been struggling to keep up all day omfg. i cannot hang 😮‍💨

2.) i’m 99.9% sure my parents were more stoked to see my dog and best friend (he’s been my best friend since childhood) than they were to see me and my sister 😭🤪

3.) my jewish-italian mother (double whammy of mom-ness iykyk!!!) drove approx. ten hours with BAGS UPON BAGS of pre-prepared meals for me, my sister, and aforementioned best friend. as if we’re all starving to death (she did say “you’re too thin 😐” to each of us before even saying hello btw.) their SUV was essentially wall to wall with tupperware and i still can’t wrap my brain around how they transported three (3) entire adults and their travel bags, too?

4.) my dad cannot process the accents/slang here so anytime someone speaks to him, i can hear his brain making the windows pc error noise, lmao. poor guy.

#my oldest brother and his wife were supposed to come but one of my nephews has covid which is sad sad sad #but fuck i’m so happy i missed my fam so much 😩#non bts #jade speaks #saranghae sister #ot6

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buffysummers · 2 years

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#my sister has to put her dog down #my sweet Sadie #I have posted many pics of Sadie on here before #but I’m so sad #I went over to her house and just cried with her #and gave Sadie as many pets and hugs and kisses as I could #it’s so crazy to think about her not being here anymore #like walking into my sister’s house and not seeing Sadie there howling #she’s such a smart girl #with a lot of personality #and I’m gonna miss her endlessly #anyway sorry to get emotional #I’ve just been crying so much I am dehydrated

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arthur-r · 8 months

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tonight is my last night sleeping in my bed. possibly for the rest of my life. and my last time in my room possibly for the rest of my life. and i want to just get a good night’s sleep to be ready for a long day tomorrow but it’s really not working out like that.

#my family is still up in the air maybe selling this house within the next month #in which case i will never be in this room ever again. otherwise i will be back for the holidays so there’s still a month of this bedroom #if we sell the house in the spring instead (only rational option there’s no way we can empty it in time)#especially since i will not be in this house whatsoever until after that sell date. my mom all by herself can’t empty it all #anyway i’m struggling a bit. saying goodbye to my home of 14 years????#i’ve been through a lot in this place and most of it is bad memories but like. every good memory i have is from here too….#and everyone i know irl is staying local i’m the only one who’s leaving. one irl friend is going to the same school as me but we had a fight #within the past month and i don’t think we’re ever going to recover because she just kind of never treated me like a person #so i’m starting from scratch and it’s really.. like fuck i want to get out of here but i’m also not at all ready to actually leave #i’m just going to miss all the stupid little things so much. even my online memories are tied to this place #like the woods down the street where my deer friends live and the ditch i fell into back in the day and all the places i’ve gotten lost #and they’ll be right here waiting for me and i’m SO excited for college i am but why does it have to feel so sudden????#i dont know how anyone does it.. and all my friends are going to colleges in their hometown so i don’t even have anyone to compare with #i found out today that if we keep the house through the winter my mom is planning on using my room as a guest room and office. and of course #that makes sense and everything but now i have the most crushing guilt for not cleaning it up well enough. i thought it would be okay and #i’d just have to deal with it when i come back and i didn’t know she wanted to use it and she’s going to box up all of my things without me #and i feel guilty that i didn’t do that and i feel scared and upset because it’s my things and my room i don’t want it to change #i’m just really anxious and sad and scared and i don’t know what to do. school is going to be good but none of this feels real or normal #and i just feel sick and scared and i don’t know what to do. waking up at 8am and leaving at 9am and moving in at 2pm and that will be it #my mom and sister are staying for a couple days and that will be good i hope. i dont know i feel so conflicted about everything #and i’m tired and sick and angry and overwhelmed and i just want to take a week off and come back alive again #and i guess that’s what i’m about to do.. after i move in there’s eight days before college starts and all i’ll be doing is moving in #(and welcome week activities. and a lot of sleeping. but hopefully i’m gonna get a rollator through a loan program and that will help a lot)#anyway here’s what’s going on. i’m going to maybe try to sleep i guess. but if anyone has advice or encouragement about moving to college..#now is the time i really need it. it’s just so strange and conflicted and everyone i know has been telling me i just need to get out of here #and myself included i really want to get out of here. but how can i start anew when everyone i’ve loved is shattered. and what have you #think i have to listen to that song for long enough to remember how badly i want to leave….#i’m just really not feeling well. i’m angry that i never got to have the childhood i deserved #because now i’m leaving and that means it’s officially over…. i’m just really not feeling well. i think i’m running out of tags….#i hope you all are well. i’ll be around in the morning maybe.. i’m not sure. hope everyone has a good night

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katnissgirlsmakedo · 9 months

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one of these days i will get to watch this movie not at some obscene hour of the night and i will get to actually laugh out loud….. and when that day comes it will heal me. actually i could do that tomorrow my parents and sister won’t be home like. all day. shit i could watch it on the big tv even…. could be huge. big things happening rn

#not to be excited that my parents and sister will be gone because they’re going to a FUNERAL. 😐#but well i’ve been at rock bottom all summer i can’t exactly go lower just because someone else died not to be mean he was a lovey guy #and why am i not going you ask. well i’d be happy to go to the funeral. i would not be thrilled to go to the two other places the rest of #the fam will be going after it. where i would be trapped until possibly even nighttime #like. sending love to heaven and whatever like rest in peace man it’s sincerely sad you died #but it’s not as if my presence is expected and will be missed. none of those people give a shit if i’m there #beth.txt

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milo-is-rambling · 10 months

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Going to eat a brown sugar cinnamon pop tart for the first time since my dad died. I’m craving it. It will make me cry. Going to hot box the bathroom while I take a bath and then cry and eat a pop tart in the bath. I’m bringing pocket joe for companionship

#I took a dab and then went oh shit a bath would be fantastic rn. and then I said. wait. I’m hungry. I want a pop tart. I also want to cry in #the bath. this feels like a win win then when my high wears off and I stop feeling my emotions I can smoke the joint and it will fix me #life hack.#also pop tarts make me sad bc my dad ate pop tarts like every fucking morning with his coffee and it was like his thing and he always joked #about pop tarts being programmer food #ughhhhh I want to cry I miss my dad I’m pmsing I just got fired I feel like a total failure my mom likes my brother more than me my dad #understood being the fuck up kid who’s traumatized and struggling like oh my god now that I’ve experienced losing someone that close I want #to go back in time to when he was alive and talk about losing his sister and how hard that was on him I mean he was my age when his older #sister died and it fucked him up and his death fucked me up around the same age I feel like I’m destined to become my father and I hated him #so much growing up but now that I feel like it’s gonna happen no matter what I can’t help but just wish he was here to talk to #my mom is far too good at being a normal person and so is my brother and my dad was the fuck up and he understood how I felt and now I have #no one who was the fuck uo and grew up anyways like ughhhhhhhh I hate everything I wish my dad was alive

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autoneurotic · 2 years

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i know i’ve talked about my horrifyingly vivid nightmares on here before (and definitely in therapy!) but like. how on earth do you stop them. i’m not anxious in my waking life, the anti anxiety/sleep medication i take just gives me different kinds of vivid nightmares. what’s a guy to do