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whambamvam · 1 year

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I feel like this is an accurate representation of my current mental state

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v0idwraith · 28 days

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John calling Mariana “Mari” is just fueling my “Mariana is both ms Hudson and Mary Morstan” headcanon

#i don’t even know if headcanon is the right word but ‘theory’ also feels wrong #mary morstan #john watson #mariana ametxazurra #sherlock & co #mrs hudson #sherlock and co #for the record since i’ve seen a lot of people get a bit worked up over this;#i have no issue if john and mariana get together. do i want johnlock? sure. but i also think mariana and john could be good #as long as they don’t make sherlock straight i’m happy (on my knees begging for ace sherlock PLEASE)

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garoujo · 6 months

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i’m not normally one to bring negative vibes onto my blog but i’ve gotten a sudden wave of unease being on here tbh so im considering drifting from here for a little bit once more. i’ve thought about creating a new blog but also wouldn’t want to waste the masterlist that i’ve worked hard to build for the people who enjoy my work + support me!

i’ve never had a super close circle of friends as such on here but i’m very grateful for the few friends i have made that continue to interact with me. i do really enjoy tumblr and i love creating, i’m grateful for the interaction i get and i know i’ve been on here a while but there always seems to be a sort of uneasiness that i feel stems from previous problems with other people on here.

it can feel a little silly from a blog like me feeling a little ‘outcasted’ and i don’t even know if i’d use that word, but i’ve just never been one that felt comfortable with the sort of underground, high school energy that i sometimes feel radiate around here. i guess i sometimes feel like i’m walking on egg shells to avoid sub posts / bad energy because i really only want to enjoy myself! but yeah, i’m gonna be less active for a few days atleast because i really need the rest anyway after my holiday + a few things on here have just sort of triggered my mental health.

but just know i love all of u, thank u for everything no matter what <3

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#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry.#cw vent #i’m gonna tag this cos ew it feels so gross to even post this like i don’t want sympathy i’m just spiralling i fear #idk sometimes i just get the random urge everyone is talking about me + normally i wouldn’t care ….#but if it hits at a bad moment w my anxiety / bpd it just sends me off the deep end sob

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askinnyblackman · 27 days

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at work now we get two (2) personal days and i decided to take my first one today and I wanted to complete TWO (2) tasks: doing my taxes and locating+touring a place and i am proud to say that i did both of those things so naturally i am rewarding myself with ICE CREEEEEEEEEEAM

#trying to find a place to live makes me want to die #every part of this process makes me want to pull my hair out #everything is too expensive #and every place that i can afford to buy is a place where you don’t want to live if you can help it #poor people problems #the place we looked at today was a co-op and i was like ‘tell me more’#and the nice man told me like ‘imagine an HOA but worse. if you want to live there you have to be approved by a board of directors’#like even more restrictive and probably racist #so back to zillow i go 🤷🏾‍♂️#but i’ll be on zillow with ice cream 😎

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bandsanitizer · 3 months

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in all honestly tho I respect people who like heartbreak girl or easier or don’t stop, especially when it comes down to it being this is my first 5sos song how am I not suppose to feel a way about it bc there is something incredibly special about the moment when you go oh this is it and as much as it’s like yes I am personally tired of this song over the others in their discography also it didn’t age well, I also get it. there’s a moment when you know and if there’s a particular song tied to that then all the love to you and it. I’m glad it’s gotten the live performances and different versions it has. I’m glad there’s part of integral to the band as well.

#alison speaks?#like i don’t usually do disclaimers but i feel like i need one #just cos i know i’ll make a lot of fun of the other tracks on self titled 1 this year #if we’re being transparent try hard was my first 5sos song #and i’m like emotionally attached to it even if i don’t listen to it much #so i get it and in the name of the whole cringe culture blah blah blah (not negative i just dk what to call it)#i just wanted to say #THAT SAID #some of yall (/nbh) making a scene about them playing or not playing heartbreak girl needs to stop going forward thank you #5sos

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krash-and-co · 5 months

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can i just mention here, it is not show fan vs book fan, at least from me? i know a large amount of my followers came from the show and i absolutely love yall. it was never meant to be anyone against anyone, and i sincerely apologize if that happened. (well, it has, im seeing it, and it makes me absolutely sick.) i don’t know how it turned into this. i do not hate ANYONE for coming from the show. period. i don’t even know where that came from. i can’t stress enough how much i love you guys.

i dont hate any of yall, i don’t want yall to hate everyone either. everything has blown so out of control and we’ve been very misunderstood; im not going to try and explain my claim again here as that is not the purpose of this post, but we’ve been very misunderstood and that led to more misunderstanding and it’s one big spiral of pure hate that we had absolutely zero intentions of starting. i did not post online to say ‘i hate you.’ i did not message on discord to say ‘i hate you.’ because i don’t. and i never meant for you guys to think that, and if you do, im sorry.

#the last thing i want is you guys to think i hate you cuz it couldn’t be more true #the only people i hate are the ones being huge assholes in the comments of posts about this subject and trust me if you’re them you KNOW #and i don’t mean those who say they disagree. that is not being an asshole #there’s like. three people that’s it #and there’s no question about who they are if you’ve seen it #trust me on that one. nobody else #we do not all need to agree but the hate is absolutely out of control #and to the people who don’t agree with what we said but said so respectfully ILYSM #MY HEROES FR #along with even more of yall lol a large percentage of you guys were so unbelievably kind i almost cried #lockwood and co

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biscuitrule · 1 year

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I’m personally choosing to believe that the sequence of events in “You Never Asked” was this:

Lockwood saw Lucy with Kipps, went and got the necklace, went up to the attic to give her said necklace, saw what she was wearing, then immediately after searched for socks to change into so he could match her.

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rideroftheoctocorn · 1 year

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Maybe this is my “I’m from New York so I didn’t choose to live here I was just already here” kicking in but can we actually learn to respect people’s privacy and acknowledge the fact that not everyone who lives in a major city is doing so because they want to be famous or the main character or an influencer or whatnot. I’m so sick of seeing tiktoks go viral that are just plainly stalking or doxxing random people who didn’t ask for attention or fame and are just living their lives. Especially given how many people in NYC are living with a wide variety of mental states, abilities, divergencies, and diversities treating them as a spectacle for your entertainment is deeply dehumanizing. Particularly in the past few years seeing so many content creators move here and gain their fame here it is becoming increasingly frustrating to feel like just existing in my home is not coherent with the burgeoning voyeurism culture that’s growing online. I, nor anyone who lives in a large city, should have to leave their homes every day worrying about the potential of being recorded and ridiculed online for just being a person.

People should be able to live their lives with the right to privacy. This isn’t to say that certain instances of internet activism shouldn’t have happened; for instance the Central Park bird watching incident (google it if you aren’t familiar but a woman was being racist towards a black man bird watching in central Park and his recording on the incident vindicated him). But instances like those are the exception and not the rule and many cases of publishing interpersonal conflicts/interactions is not from good faith activism or even from an activist point at all. Honestly what sparked this for me was that dumb tiktok that blew up of that girl looking for the person who kept writing “monke” on the whiteboard at her gym and the series of videos she made amassed more than 25 million views as she made a very public game out of trying to find the identity of this person. Some of her tactics included staking out at the gym waiting for this person or even asking the employees at the front desk who the person was. Maybe this person didn’t want to be a viral tiktok sensation and just wanted to write something goofy on the whiteboard at their local gym. Instead, this person has millions of strangers online seeking them out using unethical/invasive methods. All over someone who just wanted to write “monke.” Can we not just be a little silly in public without being at risk of it being the next internet sensation? If you live in a busy metropolitan area is it now your responsibility to make yourself as invisible as you can every time you step outside your front door? I genuinely leave for work each day wondering if I’ve maybe picked the wrong outfit, makeup, or maybe there’s an embarrassing stain or issue with my appearance that someone is going to see, record, and share online. I’ve even now seen TikTok’s of people recording through peoples windows commenting on how they’re living in their private lives now as well (the video in question is of a young woman recording a couple dancing through their apartment window). Even the guy who goes around “turning average people into models” initiates these videos by first taking non-consented photos of strangers on the street. Invasion is not flattery as much as people on the internet might like to think it is.

It is deeply unfair to ask human beings to live their lives in an unending panopticon. We should be able to go outside, make a joke, leave a silly note, have a bad day, an embarrassing moment, an emotional outburst, leave the curtains open with the knowledge that these moments belong to ourselves and are not suddenly (and without our consent) just become something for the masses to consume. Small spats that should remain small spats become global debates, a conventionally attractive or unattractive person becomes the internet’s object of desire or disgust. Let people exist. Let them have their dignity.

#I FUCKING HATE TIKTOK CULTURE #This is also hitting a bit close to home for me but I work at a museum and I constantly dress to hide my identity #because of how many cameras are pointed at me all day everyday #and in the year of two thousand and twenty three it’s pretty hard to be a person #so to ask people to be media ready all the time is just impractical and inhumane #we aren’t all public figures but we are now expected to be ready for that level of attention #even certain internet phenomena that came from a good faith place such as recording Karen’s as a way to combat a certain kind of a racism #was co opted by non black people to publicly shame and embarrass any older white woman they don’t like #now the entire concept of a Karen has lost its original meaning while still existing as an open threat to older women who don’t behave #as expected in public #and yes I have seen white teenage boys yelling at women calling them Karen’s for just asking them to stop being rowdy #which is anecdotal evidence so take with a grain of salt #but I am simply EXHAUSTED #apparently I need to live in the mountains if I want to live in peace #also I wrote this in like a 5 minute rage so feel free to DM me or comment if I got something wrong

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melrosing · 2 months

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Something so deeply cringe to me about people with the RP accent deliberately heightening it to sound posher so that Americans will comment on it and then they can act bashful about their Britishness like sincerely as a fellow RP speaker shut the fuck up

#there’s a big YouTuber who does this but I won’t name her cos I don’t want to get shot #worse still are the ones who aren’t even natural RP speakers tho like I see u and im wincing

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dai-nana-han-agenda · 1 year

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What's your response to people saying Sasuke viewing Team 7 as his family is “unrealistic” because they only knew each other for a few months?

Ouuu I’m sorry this is such a late response, I was drafting it out and I totally forgot to finish it!

Figuring out the timeline of Naruto is HELL, but from what I gather, Sasuke was a part of Team 7 for about a year. For plot purposes, we don’t really see how Team 7 bonds, but we know they basically meet up / train / go on missions every day. During the Wave arc, Kakashi gives the whole “abandoning your teammates makes you worse than scum” speech to a group of impressionable 12 year olds. Not only that, he’s been drilling the idea of teamwork since the very first meeting. On top of all that, it’s established at the academy that it’s essential for teams to gel if they want to survive on the field (the team becomes your second family, wink wink.)

Considering all of that, no I don’t think it’s unrealistic to believe that Sasuke begins to cherish Team 7 (something that is CANONICALLY proven, and I’ll prove it after this.) His time with his team provides structure, routine, and an escape from his relentless thoughts abt revenge (and if there’s one thing I know, kids need routine and structure, even if regrettably, that comes from being a fucking child soldier.) Team 7 becomes Sasuke’s support system. I’m not pulling this out of my ass btw - after seeing Itachi again, Sasuke himself acknowledges that because he spent so much time being with his team, he forgot abt his revenge (for clarification cos I’m too lazy to find the manga page, this is when Kisame and Itachi come after Naruto while he’s training w Jiraiya.)

During the invasion arc / Naruto’s fight against Gaara, Sasuke calls Naruto and Sakura his “precious comrades.” (Even without the words, if you read the manga, it’s clear from Sasuke’s body language that he cares about/is very protective over his team.) When Kakashi is trying to convince Sasuke to forget about his revenge, Naruto and Sakura are the people he thinks about.

Somewhere between the formation of Team 7 and Sasuke’s defection, Naruto and Sakura have become important people to Sasuke, so much so that the thought of leaving them behind almost convinces him to stay (but of course, in the end, his hatred for Itachi and need for revenge wins over.)

I’ve seen the criticisms and I’ll admit that the execution of Team 7 as a family is not as strong as it could’ve been. But I do think that if you read the manga, you can see Kishimoto’s efforts. And canonically, Sasuke cares deeply about Naruto and Sakura, and anyone who tries to argue against that is wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️

#i always see people say shit like omg nrt and skra don’t rly care abt ssk cos they never actually supported him #like let’s get something straight #nrt and skra supported ssk killing itachi even if they didn’t understand it #what they didn’t support was ssk going off w orochimaru’s psycho ass and being consumed by his hatred #i’m gonna touch on skra and ssk’s relationship specifically bc i feel like nrt & ssk’s is strong on its own #but as much as the fandom shits on skra’s crush on ssk there’s something v innocent/protective abt skra’s love for him #lemme explain: after ssk gets the curse mark skra threatens to tell kakashi abt it. ssk lashes out at her #skra continues to express her concern abt ssk and the way his hatred/desire for revenge is consuming him #when she confronts him before he leaves the village she tells him that getting revenge won’t lead to happiness #this is basically the same discussion kakashi had with sasuke earlier that day #all skra rly wants for ssk is for him to be happy #is that naive? yes probably. but i don’t think her crush on him was as superficial as people make it out to be #let me remind y’all that skra was one of the first people that saw firsthand what the curse mark did to ssk #all she wanted was for him not to fall deeper into that darkness #team 7 has always been compassionate to ssk. they just didn’t want to see him destroyed by his hatred.#which is essentially what almost happens to him in shippuden #I can keep going but for the sake of readability i won’t #team 7 #pro team 7 #dai nana han #ask #thanks for the ask!

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kirsctein · 1 month

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I’ve seen a lot of those reels/tiktoks where bookish “influencers” show their shelves and turn around the books they haven’t read yet, and the read to unread ratio made me so angry and frustrated (the goddamn consumerism just for the sake of buying things and trying to stay relevant!!) that I wanted to do that with my own shelf too

And well……

……maybe I should judge too hard actually (accidentally didn’t turn two of these! So two more unread actually :^)

#however!!!! the culture of doing huge hauls #(and later ~unhauls~ when they realise they’ll never read those books cos they don’t even sound appealing to them)#is just. why #sure it’s good in a way that authors get more money #but over consumerism is ruining our planet #and it includes books #use the goddamn library and maybe think very hard why you feel the need to buy hundreds of books you won’t even read maybe #these are all books I want to read. sure I buy them a little too easily #but having a small language as a first language means they libraries don’t have /that/ many books in English #and not that many books get translated #books #mine #blah

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swiggity-swexual-i-am-asexual · 13 days

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Do y’all ever think of how the most random post can influence you? Not just the ones that save lives, but the ones that shift things for a person.

Like… I like doing analysis of characters and side characters, usually focusing on how they FELT in realizing xyz thing. I tend to focus on… quiet tragedies, I guess, of when a character sees something, and their perspective shifts, and suddenly everything is different. Of looking at their friends after a trauma and realizing that friend is now forever changed. Or, on the humor side I often like to write, comedic misunderstandings that snowball into one person being CONVINCED the other is part yeti or some such, when really they have a husky and also just don’t feel cold often. I do more than that, but like, I have trends, and I have to wonder what led to them, outside of just How I Am and How I Was Raised.

And I think about my first remembered exposure of this. And it was a twilight post, as in the vampire novels, in the midst of the twihard versus potter/head years.

I couldn’t find it if I tried, but I remember reading someone’s thoughts on the fact that Charlie Swan looked at his daughter post transformation and realized his daughter was Someone Else. That she DIDN’T survive her first child, her first honeymoon, her first anything at all. But this was still His Daughter. But she was no longer His, if that makes sense.

And. Idk. It’s just. Something.

#I also remember a humor one about how everyone in forks would talk about how Bella absolutely got taken in by a cult #two sides of every coin #I also saw plenty of analysis on… I don’t want to end up in the tags for the #harry and co books and such #but they didn’t strike me as hard?#I wasn’t even really involved in the so called fandoms war I was just here #media analysis

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dreamerwriternstargazer · 2 months

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Having a mental breakdown at work while smiling and teaching 😄

#star speaks #no because we had like two spirals last night #and then anxiety all night and then I made it worse :D #then I didn’t properly eat this morning and now I’m spiralling about five different things at once #and this is what I mean when I say PTSD is a physical disability because :D as soon as I get home and I don’t have to be at work #I’m going to be physically incapable of doing anything :D #I want to kms because it’s not even an environment problem it’s just my brain doing things #and being at work around a triggering co worker just started a new spiral #and I am taking five in the bathroom ^_^#and now I’m scared to go out #but I have to #*grits teeth and mentally punches a wall*

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wacky-nameless-inventor-24 · 1 year

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Hey y’all can we all figure out a coordinated spoilers tag??

#because there’s so many different ways to spell it #e.g. Lockwood and co Lockwood & co l&co #and like even if we know the plot there will still be things we don’t want spoiled #just doing this so I or anyone else can block the tag in case we can’t watch it in time #Lockwood and co #lockwood & co #l&co #l&co. Netflix

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deankarolina · 4 months

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.....forgot to buy my hotel for mitski in london next year early so now I gotta decide if I want a cheap hostel or treat myself and pay double on a hotel choices

#or do I wanna treat myself more #cos being in london does mean that I have a few friends who immigrated close enough #Like I could hit up reading or southampton or portsmouth or bristol or leicester theyre all like what 2 hours away on a train hmmmmmm #but this is a bad imaginary thought train to go down cos them I'm v easily like well the uk has the eurostar #so I could easily just hop on that and go to my friend in belgium and really I should not think this because I do not have the time #so really i'm gonna do none of this other than looking on google maps and procrastinating from work #can you tell I haven’t slept yet #and i don’t want to clock into work even tho i told myself i would like 2 hours ago #might just clock in at 12 #ramblings

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pepprs · 8 months

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so with all the hullabaloo with me possibly being exposed to covid + the fucking fire alarm going off + other things i cannot discuss on here but are tearing me to shreds in real time… i forgot to update everybody but im maybe possibly in grad school now and will be taking one 3 credit class this semester before officially applying to the program (and the credits will count if i get in… 3 down 27 to go) 🤪

#purrs #and the prof is really nice. and will also be taking off for yom kippur (first prof / instructor i have EVER had who like. observes holidays #when class is happening lol (it’s a co-taught class so the other instructor will be teaching that day) and she found me a ride home out of #the city and. it’s completely free bc of tuitionremission. so. i don’t even know w jat im getting into ijust hope i won’t be miserable and #suffering and i hope that this isn’t going to kill me like undergrad did. im kind of excited and i know it’s not for the right reasons like #i just really hope i um. LIKE NOT TO SAY IT but i hope i fall in love or make friends w ppl in the class 💀💀💀💀 esp the fall in love part like #i just want to meet someone by happenstance and finally be normal. cringe. and i know im jinxing it by saying it lol. but i just really hope #it goes well and everyone is nice and i am not miserable. god 🥲🥲🥲

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