#bit of a rambly post but yeah i'm feeling weird rn

[flattery-suplex]

I'm feeling a lot of things right now about the rooster teeth situation. I stopped watching RWBY near the end of volume 7 for a variety of reasons (mostly poor writing decisions but also bc rooster teeth was trash tbh) but there was apparently a part of me that was still holding onto it. I put years of my life into the RWBY fandom in a way that I never have with another one. It really did consume me a bit. Half of my music playlists were filled with the ost and I spent hours analyzing and theorizing. One of my most popular tumblr posts is one comparing lines from one of the songs with gifs from the show. I've never put as much effort into another fandom as I did RWBY and I guess there was still that thought in the back of my mind that one day it would come to a natural end and even though I wasn't a part of it anymore I would still get to see what happens. But now it's very likely that we will never know and I'm feeling a bit hollow inside.

#it's a strange feeling #i dreamed about it last night lol #oof #rwby #rooster teeth #i'm actually tearing up holy shit #i devoted years of my life to rwby #i guess that doesn't just go away even though I stopped watching it #bit of a rambly post but yeah i'm feeling weird rn

[welcometogrouchland]

Stories abt teenage girls who are unabashedly cringey but still treated seriously as the hero of their stories and given depth and nuance by the narrative I am kissing you on the mouth

#ramblings of a lunatic #this post was inspired by ppl talking abt how lumity is literally a couple comprised of two teenage nd girls #who write like fanfic abt their favourite shitty ya series together. #and how it doesn't make a big deal out of it like. this is just how gay little teenage girls behave #and they're so true and correct but thinking abt luz got me thinking abt my childhood love of the first vol of ms marvel #(i never read past the first cause i pirated it off janky websites as an 11 yr old jdbsjfn( #and literally they come out the gate in that series with kamala as the epitome of a cringey fandom obsessed teen girl #and then they go all in on still letting her be a hero without sacrificing those traits #I'm forgetting other examples of stories w/ this rn (turning red comes to mind??) #and I know these are all series targeted at like a teen girl audience but a) i am a teen girl and b) bitch they need it. badly! #no more being 'that girl'! embrace the urge to be weird and off putting but happy! and still be given depth and love by the narrative! #(also. fellow audio drama enjoyers. antigne fun is just a toned down 35 yr old version of this. y/n?) #(also i took some letters out of her name in the hope that keeps it from showing up in tags cause while this feels okay to post- #-in the tags of the other examples mentioned i felt a bit bad abt putting it in the wo tag lol) #anyway yeah. literally this genre is braver than any us marine

[shrunkupthejams]

hello tumblr, good timezone! a little life update (which was written at 2am? and gets very rambly and long but *shrugs* i tried to break up the walls of text a bit):

1. did i disappear? yes. will i elaborate on that? not really, i don't feel like it. but i will say that once you take a break from social media it is really hard to go back. it's very freeing, and that made me worried about how tumblr would take over the little free time i have if i came back. also hyperfixations are a lot harder to not hyperfixate on when i frequently spend time on here. overall, idk how long i was gone for, but it was a very good, much needed break that was probably great for my brain.

2. idk if i'm back back yet. we shall see. again productivity is doing much better without any tumblr in my system, as much as i do love spending time here.

3. i have read some very inspiring fics lately and am having many writing thoughts! which is great bc i really fell into a slump that i haven't been able to get out of this year like... back in may, or whatever. unfortunately, i have no time between catching up on missing school work from being sick, my job, and fucking moving. so.

4. not very tumblr relevant, but oh my god im fucking moving. again. story of my life basically. it's. fine. just happened really fast and it's weird to process. im officially in moving limbo for the next two weeks. and that sucks. but it's ultimately good for my system, i think, because i was getting restless waiting for the usual regularly scheduled "big change" in my life, and that quota is now being filled and it's relieving.

5. dear lord i don't even want to look in my notifications.. if anyone tagged me in stuff while i was out... im so sorry but it's likely lost in the pile. avoiding my problems on social media is like my specialty, and my notes is currently one of those problems.

6. (if you see me unfollow a bunch of stranger things blogs (hello, i know some of those are mutuals), im sorry but i clogged my dash with st blogs so bad and i cannot afford slipping into that hyperfixation rn. i can't do that to myself. it's not personal or anything. so um. don't mind me haha.. i should really consider the state of my dash before i follow... but alas, i do not. one of the main reasons i typically avoid the hellscape that is instagram! oh and tbh, i knew it was time to come back to this hellsite when i started casually wasting like. an actual amount of time on instagram semi-regularly. that's when yk it's time to go like fuck i do not want to be in a place where i am wasting time on instagram of all places. wasting time on tumblr is at least tasteful. sorry artists of instagram ily but i simply cannot.)

7. ahaha watch me avoid my sideblogs after this (not that's incredibly relevant). i can only involve myself in social media so much rn...

8. more irl news: after, at least of 2022 and then some of saying i need therapy, i'm finally getting therapy! first appointment booked for this wednesday babey :) thank GOD. definitely needed this after discovering that apparently you can have grandfather issues, as if my current parental issues weren't enough.

9. another irrelevant irl update: i got my license! fucking finally! idk if i ever complained about that on here but YEAH. it feels like so much has changed since i was last active on tumblr..

10. as a final bit of news, since this got fucking long im so sorry, im trying out the name kurtis now. seeing how that fits :)

and um yeah that's how my life is going rn. ill try not to go off in the tags about anything, considering the length of this post. sure makes that relatively new dashboard post shortening feature come in handy tho! haha..

#not writing related #ps.txt #goddamn that is long im sorry #but hiiii mutuals im baaaack(?) :) #i missed y'all + tumblr <3

[buttercup-bard]

Hey there, as someone who seems to have watched loki in its entirety: could you please send some spoilers my way? I'm not sure if I should watch, even though I love Loki as a character. Did they actually have him fall in love with himself-as-a-woman? And what happened to moebius (and between moebius and loki)?

Hello! 😊 Sorry this took me a while to answer, I had more thoughts and feelings than planned (I hope I won’t come up with anything else the moment I posted this). 😅

Ok so first of all even though the series is (very) far from perfect, I still mostly enjoyed it and would recommend watching it. It’s just cool especially if you like Loki for him to have his own series, even though towards the end he feels a little different in the series from what he's like in the movies he was in (character developement i guess? we're here for it).

(I’ll put the rest under a cut cause this got kinda long.)

Ok so about Sylvie.. yeah we thought we would get actual genderfluid Loki and it's all kinda disappointing cause she's "just" genderbent Loki from an alternate timeline yaaay. So two seperate people but like still the same person, it's all a bit weird. :') BUT I still mostly like her as a character, even though they did her dirty in the finale.

And yeah it's heavily hinted at that Loki fell in love with her. Mobius certainly thinks so and told him so (and was very jealous 😂), and they do have scenes in the later episodes that play very much into it being a romance. But I have to say it all feels very rushed and awkward and not very well developed. Plus of course there's the whole "selfcest" thing which is very icky. Like ok I kinda get it, it's supposed to be a metaphor for self-love and -acceptance, still would have preferred for them not to express that in that way but ok.

Also yes the finale has Sylvie kissing Loki, but imho only to "distract" him and send him through a portal right after to be able to go through with her plan which he was trying to stop her from. So to me, if he's supposed to be in love with her, it doesn't feel like she reciprocates at all? (In other words, Sylvie had better stuff to do and even kinda says so explicitly at one point. 😅) Also all "romantic" gestures before came from Loki. The speech he gave before the kiss did not feel very romantic to me though, but more "I care about you" in like a sibling/friend way (which is also mostly the vibe I got in Ep3 which is the first one that she was in properly, and Ep4 is where things started to get weird).

So to summarize yeah it's definitely implied that at least Loki fell in love with her and he for sure does have a soft spot for her, but they're not like actually together or anything (yet? I hope they listen to what I feel like is the majority of the fans and keep it that way). There was this one kiss which wasn’t romantic at all at least from her side if you ask me. So like yeah they did go there, but it’s still very open.

Not to start rambling rn but the whole thing reads to me a little like "hey you get me, you're me, we've been through the same stuff and think alike, and you also fascinate me", which might be mistaken for romantic love from Loki's point of view. He also says to Sylvie he's never had anything "real" with anyone before, so I’d get how that “mistake” could happen, becuase he just feels this connection of some sort with Sylvie. So if they want to "take back" the love interest route they took here in S2, I feel like it could work like this.

Ok next up, Mobius. Nothing like happened-happened between them, the most you get is a hug (a very beautiful one though). But they get along very well instantly and have insane chemistry? They trust each other so much and work together so well and their friendship is very well developed and they care about each other very much and they have such a good influence on each other and ugh yeah. They’re smitten with each other from the beginning but the bond they have by the end (or right before the very end) is just *chef’s kiss*. Also personal space? They’ve never heard of it. And it’s not just “our” Loki, all his variants instantly adopt Mobius. 😅 So I'm not saying he would have been the much better and obvious choice as a love interest for Loki but yeah that's what I'm saying (especially since they confirmed Loki as bi on screen already so it would not even have been that big of a leap).

Mobius got “killed” for a hot second in Ep4 but he’s fine now, BUT what happened to him at the end of the finale to my understanding is basically Sylvie fucked up the timeline(s) and now he doesn't remember Loki at all and it hurts a lot and I hate it very much. (But he’s still so nice to Loki even though he doesn’t know him I could cry I’m fine this is fine just let Loki be happy and not alone for once maybe aaah. 😭)

Ok so sorry for the rant I guess, I hope this answers your questions! If you want to know anything else and/or do decide to watch it and want to talk, my asks and dms are always open. 😊

#i got mail <3 #ask #mandygoestomedschool #loki #i'm sorry this might end up in the tag but i guess i have to tag it for spoiler/blocking reasons?

[wonderer-ru]

Okeyy so last night I went to the BTS concert in London and!!! Now I'm feeling numb. It's such a strange feeling. Seeing them for the first time so close during soundcheck had me shook. Like literally frozen and I wanted to hide 😂 I had this feeling that I shouldn't be there because we don't exist in the same world?? I'm so used to seeing them through a screen that they don't seem real?? But they were right there and now I feel weird. They were amazing!! Everything was done perfectly but...

… My heart felt so bad for Jungkook since he couldn’t dance for both London nights. During soundcheck he looked so heartbroken. He must have taken it really hard since it was their first time here. Regardless, they are all such wonderful performers who have really honed their art. (Hoseok is such a big presence its insane). But now I have this feeling that I should really focus on myself and my future so that I can be successful in my life which includes less BTS in my life. So I guess…

… I feel sad because I know the next step for me is to focus on work and less on BTS. So I guess it’s an end of an era for me so I feel a little heavy. I’ll always support them with my whole heart and wish them all the happiness in the world!! Just time for me to grow some more so that I can be happy through my own devices rather than through them. But I’m so glad my first experience of seeing them in my hometown went perfect and I can check it off my list. They are such beautiful people!!!

End note: Hopefully I made sense, sorry!! Too many feels!! Have my whole life ahead of me to experience everything and I am thankful to have BTS and their music there too. But now it’s time for other things. It’s a bittersweet feeling since it feels like I was somewhat chasing them this entire time. But to finally have them in front of me, I knew it was the moment to stop. Much love to them and what they stand for!! Thank you for listening to my inner ramblings!! Hope you have a lovely time 💚

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Oh, that’s right! You went to the London show! Sorry for the late reply, it’s kinda hectic rn, getting ready for Berlin and all! It seems like you were the definition of “I wasn’t ready!” hehe that’s cute! Tbh I don’t know how to prepare for seeing them irl! The closer it gets, the more surreal it seems! I am actually terrified of all the feelings I am going to go through! Post-concert depression is already breathing down my neck lol 

Yeah, I felt so upset for Kookie, I actually woke up already sad the next morning 😅 It was heartbreaking, but he seemed happier the second day. They want to give us their best, and it was the first Europe stop, so yeah… it must’ve been really hard for him. And now Jimin… I actually felt so shitty yesterday, because if Kookie’s injury was an accident, Jimin’s seems to be more exhaustion based, which calls for lots of rest, but now he has to perform (maybe he won’t dance) for ME, and, in a weird way, it made me feel guilty about still wanting to see them all perform, when I KNOW that they are tired… but like, I just wanna see them :( Today it’s better though :)) 

(No kidding, even when I just became an army, three years ago, EVERYONE was saying that Hoseok live is something else, and I’ve always wanted to see him specifically, so I can’t wait!!) 

That’s an interesting journey you went through heh it’s kinda like this experience… well, bts themselves basically inspired you to get away from them 😅 But you know what? I don’t even think it has to be bittersweet :)) even if you want to start doing your own thing, THEY are not going anywhere! They are actually always there. You don’t have to follow every single thing to feel at least a little bit connected. Music and the message are it! So don’t be sad, I feel like with time you’ll find a way to enjoy both: your own adventures and accomplishments (the main part) and bts’ crazy journey to world domination hehe But I understand if you want get off the bts hook for awhile, maybe even completely, just don’t think of it as a break up, just some healthy, beneficial time apart 😅 I wish you all the best and I am glad you had a great, even life changing concert experience! I will try to report back after my concert! 😄

#message #randomness4u