#but apparently thats just for people who dont want him

[awaywardwish]

Wyll, you're pretty and you dance like a goof which honestly goes straight to my heart, but I had a thing with Gale and now he's in a rest-of-the-game bugged-out little sulk, so I need you to wait for the next Tav.

#i wanna romance Gale so bad #but apparently thats just for people who dont want him #boy wants what he cant have ONLY #please let me romance the nerdy wizard #the buggy as all get out nerdy wizard #WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME #gale of waterdeep #baldurs gate 3

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[vaasistdas]

I am so fuckin. Tired and pissed lol

#why did the ONLY messages i get from the 2 people that bothered messaging me when i said i got covid #both have to be the most insensitive bullshit ever. like LOL guy. #one guy bitches at me for getting it bc i wasnt hanging out with HIM so WHO am i hanging out with that i got it #the answer is nobody you fucking asshole. my boyfriend got it from work and gave it to me. but im surviving thanks for not asking #and the other person didnt even acknowledge it at all???? #just wanted to know if she coukd call me to OOOHHH SURPRISE bitch about her life to me. again. #bc apparently thats all im worth. being used as someone to complain at. thanks man #fuck you and fuck off. i dont want to fucking hang out with either of you anymore lol

[malkaviian]

i have a headache but also i dont want to go to sleep just yet dkjnfjds i want me-time

(warning: as i was writing the tags of this post this turned into another kinda-heavy rant about the situation my group of friends and i are. so keep that in mind)

#things were weird today when She(tm) was there but when she left things were normal again #but these hours were kinda stressful rip or more like... there was an inherent discomfort and tension in the air #with some ugly commentaries and actions on her part. like its your (supposed) best friend's birthday at least try to hide your disgust 👍 #birthday you ~apparently~ forgot until it the day before. also you didnt had a single penny to spend on the gift for him #but you sure as hell had it to go eat with your college friends to expensive places! girl at least dont post about it on insta #and just in case; this wasnt a '*goes to expensive places before* -oh i dont have money sowwy :((' #this was a '-oh i dont have money sowwy :(( *goes to expensive places after it*' #what we were asking for collaboration was way less than what she spent on those places. it was AT THE VERY LEAST 3000 ars per food #and you know what she wanted to give for the gift? 500 ars!!! you cant buy shit with it; let alone if we only collaborated with 500 each #like she wanted. we're 4; genuine question what kinda shit can you buy for $2000. maybe a good quality cup but we already gave him that #but even then the point is not the money; the thing is the attitude. you cant spend more than $500 on us #but you can spend at least $6000 on your other friends; given you went to eat with them two days in a row. priorities i guess? #OH! and talking about it!! can you fucking believe she INVESTIGATED the phone of our ~new~ friend (the one shes jealous of) #and DEADASS said 'oh i see. my mom has an A51'. our friend has an A20 if im not wrong; which might not be an A51 but its. still expensive?? #also your mom has an A51 but you have an iPhone 5 since you were on high school. but hey; apple i am right?? inherently better than an A20 #sorry i have less than that; i have an A10s (that i got on the start of 2020). can i still breathe the same air as you and your mom /s #once again the problem is not the money or the phone or WHATEVER. its the fucking attitude shes having. you want to pretend you have money #and act like youre superior to people who 'dont'; when in reality YOU ARE MIDDLE CLASS. YOU ARENT UPPER CLASS; NOT EVEN UPPER-MIDDLE CLASS #YOURE MIDDLE CLASS. MIDDLE CLASS LIKE THE REST OF US; NOT LIKE YOUR COLLEGE FRIENDS YOU LOVE SO MUCH AND WANT TO IMPRESS #YOU SPEND MONEY YOU DEFINITELY DONT HAVE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO APPEAR UPPER-MIDDLE AT THE VERY LEAST. but thats a lie #a lie that if these beloved friends bothered to ACTUALLY know even the slightest about you; like we do; would fall apart. but they wouldnt! #because they dont care about you as much as we care(d). do you think they will tolerate this fucking attitude youre having towards us? #no they wouldnt. trust me; they WOULDNT. they will tell you to fuck off and leave you completely alone. go cry a river. #god fucking dammit why are you like this. WHY you turned like this. or rather; why we were SO GODDAMN blind we didnt noticed this before #negative

[souppippin]

had a weird experience with my bachelor thesis advisor today

#im writing this out here because I need to put it in words but this is not relevant to anyone like ever #I'm going to start my bachelor's thesis in mid September (there has been a holdup of a few months because my device broke) #and I did fix a lot of it myself because?? i know how to screw screws? and he is quite busy and i dont have stuff to do so I can do it #we met by chance at the cafeteria today and we talked about the time frame again bc apparently there are other people who also need my devi #and he offhandedly mentioned that hes gonna be on holiday but that isn't a problem because im so independent #and I'm not sure if he wants me to be? less independent? #because in my mind I actually do very much enjoy confirmation by him? and getting a go ahead etc.? #and that was something that bothered me in the beginning bc he'd just let me do stuff for days without checking in how I'm doing? #so now i do stuff because thats the vibe he gave me in the beginning? #but the way i was like?? do you want me to check in more? do you want me to give you more reports??? because I can #but I thought you were annoyed by the amount of checking I did in the beginning? #yeah idk its probably nothing I'm just overthinking

[scattered-winter]

hoo boy today was a Bad Day huh :]

#im so fucking tired #apparently i cant fucking be a good sibling to my brother like. at all #because apparently he thinks i HATE him?!?!?!? im just. really really upset about that rn #because my siblings are the only people on this planet who i KNOW i would jump in front of a bullet for #i fucking. i cant even form words on how much i love them #and the thought that one of them thinks i hate him genuinely distresses me so much ive been crying for the past half hour #hhh and now i feel like im just being Dramatic #i want to stop feeling emotions <3<3 #i need to talk to my brother and work this out but like. #talking about emotions is something my family Doesn't Do. we never have and never will #there's a reason why i relate to the batfam btw. like. a legitimate reason. #but yeah i need to figure out how to Not lock everything im feeling down and have a chat w my brother #and somehow put into words that he (and my other siblings) are the only people i love more than anything else #like. i love my friends and mutuals ofc #but for my siblings it's...Different #i love them with everything in my fucking soul #and i cant SAY that because i dont know HOW when nobody in my family has ever talked abt emotions to each other #my dad told me he was proud of me today and i legit almost started crying #thats the first time i can remember where he's said that #my family is just like the batfam fr [derogatory] #anywayyyyyyyy #gonna cry myself to sleep and then completely shut down everything emotion-based in the morning like always ✨✨✨ #winter speaks

[meringuejellyfish]

currently i like to think that maybe qifrey and alaira met during a silver night festival .. if it is true that they are childhood friends then maybe they became best friends in the whole world that night but thought they were never going to see eachother again. but then uh yeah i mean the great hall isnt that big i think. they found eachother again eventually and then 20 years or so pass and theyre still very good friends. alaira is also probably very passionate about magic and they could talk about it forever .. they just seem very comfortable around eachother even if they dont get the chance to see eachother often these days

#allisters atelier #i like them #man. when is alaira coming back #i want more of alaira and qifrey friendship but also just of her because .... we know ultimately nothing about her #who ... is she !!!!!!!!!! #growls #anyway. i think that they met and became friends when they were likee late teens maybe #but based on how alaira greets qifrey in her first appearance it seems to be implied that she is also a childhood friend like olly #''it's been some time since you last set foot on the seabed... young dissident of the great hall'' ''days long past alaira'' #in a fan translation she calls him a problem child and hes like hey that was a long time ago. im normal now (lie) #alaira apparently also grew up in the great hall now that i think about it so yeah probably childhood friends #i dont mind it they just feel like people who met when they were a little older #one thing is for sure though and its that theyve known eachother for a very very long time. and are very comfortable around eachother #i like how qifrey has uhh 3 close friends. and thats all he doesnt really go out of his way to interact with people #man they gotta invent discord for witches. qifrey and alaira have been around eachother maybe twice in the manga #and qifrey literally lives with one of his friends and still goes days at a time without really seeing him due to their schedules #and responsibilities #so sad. if they had wizard discord then qifrey could send olly pictures of brushbuddy and olly responds with thumbs up emojis #teenaged alaira and qifrey playing minecraft for 11 hours straight but also qifrey has the worst mic in the world #eh. what was this post originally about

[semercury]

Really hate when people imply I should be in a relationship with someone, be it specific or in general. Bc like. I'm ugly + I'm annoying + I have issues with physical and emotional intimacy. That's three strikes and I'm out. Nobody want me and nobody should want me. I rest my case etc.

#stuff sarah says #it always hurts bc like. i would love a relationship on theory! #i have so much love to give and id love the idea of expressing that in every way possible! #unfortunately God intended me to die as a baby so i was never supposed to get this far #so to keep the timeline intact i can never have a long term relationship. friendships are already pushing it #plus my affection is a reason to mock those receiving it so why would i do that to someone? #im apparently so offputting the only person to ever show true interest was ??? lying about it maybe??? out of?? pity?? or smth?? #other guy does not count. so much alcohol was involved i doubt he saw my face or registered me fully #like me ghosting him was a favor. i hope he knows that #like i dont even want to spend the rest of my life with me. why would someone else? #and i dont say the bits about me being ugly like. for trying to get people to say the opposite. bc its just true? #like i have eyes. i have ears that heard all the people say it #some people are just ugly and thats okay. im fine with it. people usually leave me alone bc of it which is nice #i mostly just feel bad for everyone who has to look at me #but ive felt bad about that since i was what. 7? #sorry i exist and you have to see my rotten form

[thecherrygod]

im thinking about my great aunt, who was basically the only family member from my moms side that we really knew. i remember her being kind but like. i was a little kid, if every time i went to visit you youd give me candy, or a toy, or a candy that came with a toy, id think you were a wonderful person

but im not exactly thinking about that, but what i think was the last time i saw her. like im. unsure if im remembering it right. i dont even remember how old i was, maybe a 5 or 6 year old.

it.. felt like a party of sorts, in her apartment. a lot of people i didnt know so i stuck to my mom. i. dont even remember my brothers or my dad being there i just remember being right next to my mom, and my great aunt was in bed i think, i dont know if she simply couldnt get up or what. but i also remember she gave me a... flower? or something like that. she had sculpted it before giving it to me, and the clay, or whatever the material was, was raw.

and i just. remember walking around the apartment. seeing an amount of people i didnt know, in my memory everyone was having a good time? and everyone was dressed sorta like for a party

..... also i think i managed to spend most of the party with the clay flower as a flower but at some point i sorta started playing with it bc i loved doughs and stuff a lot and i couldnt get myself, and i think i got a bit disappointed i couldnt turn it back into a flower

i cant remember if i managed to ask her to make it into a flower again or not, in fact i cant remember if i saw her again that night before leaving

#my posts #i... i guess i did see her once more that night. to say goodbye. but that not in my memories of that day so idk #........ maybe it was a party. maybe it was in fact her last birthday. but... i dont know #... i dont even know her name lmao of course i cant tell if that was her birthday or not #......... shes the only extended family member i ever met i think #apparently i have some.. second cousins from my dads side who lived near from before we moved #... one of my brothers and i only learned that last month #also apparently my dad is on bad terms with them so thats probably why #maybe thats for the best i dont want more of my dads side of the family. us is more than enough suighud #once. once we were on vacation on another city. my grandma was like hey my brothers there can we visit him? #we get there. i dont remember anyone other than my dad and grandma getting out of the car to greet them #....... what the fuck is wrong with this family man. #also i dont have great memories from my moms parents and she was on bad terms with them too tbh #i have better memories of my great aunt and she died before them. man #... idk if great aunt is the right term #we basically called her something between grandma and aunt. but maybe thats what great aunt means idk #anyways... yeah. #.... having thoughts about family i guess #... is it bc today all of the people we consider the full family had lunch together is that it #yeah no i have weird feelings about family in general. i was just.. thinking about that one day #which i will continue to wonder about i think actually but its whatever i guess #..... sigh. anyways #gonna pretend im not thinking about this

[mrfoox]

Help, I don't think I've met another person with these many exceptions in their views ajnsnfjskajsjfk

#miranda talking shit #Talking with oliver can be so spicy. He can do an long rant about people in an group i fit into and when i point it out #Hes like NO YOU ARE NOT PART OF THAT GROUP NO! Like bro... I am. I'm not trying to guilt you but technically i am #Numbers do not lie ajjsjfjdkskskd i can say that much lol #Talking about overweight people and how its dangerous and shouldn't be promoted #Yeah that makes sense and all but also... Im overweight. Im like 20kg over the normal weight limit. I am by numbers overweight #But he wanted to argue i wasnt... Bc i... Didnt look like it? Which i mean uh ty? But i am. Doctors have told me its a fact i know it #I am not so... Bothered by being called fat anymore bc thats true ya know? But he got so fired up about me not being fat it was like #Um... I dont mind it buddy its true? I definitely am. It's okay it wont hurt anyone if you say it i already have #I understand what he meant like obesity is dangerous people die and get sick bc of it. But his 'line' of overweight people is apparently #Very different from the norm...? Or even like Healthcare yeah. I dont think the word fat now is as sensitive to me as it was #In the past. But i also know thats... How to describe me with a mess nice word than chubby. I have a too big belly its a fact #Did i enjoy him being so willing to argue me on this point ? Yeah it was funny #Maybe im not the norm but feels like now a days thin people are scared to use the fat word but fat people dont really care much #Maybe its how our culture have pushed for it to be more acceptable or at least not be shamed etc. But ive had more than #One friend in recent years who have argued on the point of me being fat. Like... I am im not saying it to earn pity or something its true? #Funny to hear he doesn't think i am tho. He always react strongly when i hint at it even #'people are built different youre not fat' its confirmed fellas im just built different lmao

[othercrossee]

#z rants #NOT MAD ANYMORE ITS JSUT FUNNY TO ME NOW #okay i eed to actually ramble about this cuz i ended up laughing reading shit on twt about how what he said was a mistranslation #ill be censoring his name cuz i dont aant it leak into the tag and i dont want yall pieces of shit to argue with me #a fat person who can comprehend what he said and how it cpuld come across despite it not being his intention 👍 #also cuz as a fan for 5 years who love these guys a lot but still see them as human who can very much do wrong and judge them for that #yall bow to these bitches a little too much like they arent grown ass men who are being idolized by many its so crazy #first of all. an apology is so easy idk why u think he csnt comprehend what he said or refuse to answer but sure #lets get into it #amother thing is yall must be some pretentious little cunts telling people to apologizs to hao instead #i do want cunts who were bodyshaming him in recent news to do that whatever but. people who r rightfully mad? #they have the rights to be idc what wrong translation when u read at the sentence throughly it stil came off....weird #lets not make this into a personal issue thing we all know the industry is filled with fatphobic cunts whos awaiting the moment to say sum #so what he said is apparently * they need to stop esting but i cannot say it thoughtlessly. because whatever your body type is- #you just need to love yourself* which is understandable mind u. id say this is an okay answer #but i do think the way he just word this shit is so bad like u didnt nedd to add the first part my god 😭😭😭 sir 😭😭 #he meant well mind u i do think he does but its just craazyyyy #* they need to stop eatinf but i csnt say it thoughtlessly* just dont say it then bro 😭 not that hard #do u not see the undertone of that? EVEN IF that wasnt hsi intention #thats another one of fatphobia undertone babey! csnt say it thoughtlessly. god thats so good man #so if u were to say it thoughtfully what would it be then? they ened to eat healthier? #let me repeat this. no matter which is his intention. he should still be educated about this more #especiallh coming from a person like him with skinny priviledge and in an industry so filled with hate for fat people #twt bitches r a bunch of bootlicking little bitches be serious for once yall r too dramatic idk laugh a little #*theyre attacking him! apologize!* we r asking a 25 yo man to be accountable for what he said as an idol with milliosn of fan #who all comprehend his answer differently and how that answer could mean when u think of fatphobia rhetoric 😁 #twt carat dni yall cannot think st all its sk crazy that the first thing i saw was someone being so emotional about the whole issue #and how the people who r mad should rethink this snd spologize and r fake fans #must be so much to not use your brain at all like them #grown ass man accidentally says sth fatphobic and csnr even apologize a little bit when we all kmow its get swept under the rug anyways

[austinsastrology8991]

Saturn the father you always wanted and always have. Saturn in da houses, and why your life sucks. Im blunt here so don't complain don't read if you can't handle the reality of saturn. Saturn in the first house - okay you don't like to try when you present yourself, you think people should just instantly respect you because youve been through many trials in life... well people usually dont know how to talk to you because you have a stick up your ass. Saturn in the second house - everyones greedy, but when you are, its not cool. Well it isn't because when you are greedy you act like a goblin. be more mature its okay to be greedy but your acting like its a virtue stfu. Saturn in the third house - everyone thinks your dumb af, and you are only because you lack confidence to drive your points home. you just need to learn how to communicate better, your not dumb but you act like a dumbass. Saturn in the fourth house - sad boy/girl now everyone knows you had a rough childhood but would you grow up already, everyone else has but your still stuck being sad about how life has treated you (or your momma/dadda) grow up your not getting any younger you can't change the past stop wallowing. the past has taught you well, use it to your advantage or let it hold you back. Saturn in the fifth house - pretend players who get played everytime. Always gotta pretend like they are fun but whenever you do try to have fun with them they are annoying. yes you could be fun in the bedroom simply because everyone knows your too sensitive to break someones heart... because your heart is the most broken. Saturn in the sixth house - the real try hards always putting in 100%. suck ups to there boss or whoever is above them. but when there authority disrespects them they go rogue and try even harder just to spit in there boss's face. i respect it because i got cap here Saturn in the seventh house - if your a bad person good luck in this life, because your karma is received ten fold by your partners, they always like to complete your karmic cycle because thats just how it works idk. so better act right or your partner will ruin it before you ruin yourself.

Saturn in the eighth house - will do anything to get to the top. no pain is too painful. well it all is, but the ends justify the means. when they put there foot down the whole room shakes. so when your making a move make sure its the right one because your power plays are on display for everyone and itll make or break you more than the other placements. Saturn in the ninth house - lazy asses, always looking for an easy way out. they know what the right thing to do is, but the likelihood of them doing it is never. its because saturn restricts there luck/ mind and they just have woe is me energy and its annoying make better choices, and if you dont stop crying about it. but if they act right saturn blesses them the fuck up. Saturn in the tenth house - okay these people think they are better than everyone and deserve everything, but they never receive the applause they crave. its never enough even if the whole room is looking at them they suddenly don't want it anymore. there karma everyone can see, and if its too good it feels like a curse, and when its bad and reality comes crashing down they just want to hide but they cant. own your life or it will own you. Saturn in the eleventh - there community will give them there karma, always these people dont have a place where they feel safe. because they never make anyone feel safe around them, then cry when no-one gives them that favour. stfu and treat us better and maybe we will do you better. Saturn in the twelfth - okay apparently this is where saturn is in its joy, and i guess its because god/ spirits judge you. and i guess thats a good thing because if anyone should judge you its him. except the pain here is you have ultimate freedom, you rarely get signs on what to do. will you make the right choice or the wrong once? well they are lucky because they always get there karma quickly so they can always recover fast. but these people struggle to empathise because they don't feel the energy of the room. sooooo just grow up you got the best saturn, and your karma resides is in your empathy. disclaimer - saturn wants you to be the best. and no one is.... so i like to think if you want a sense of direction (where are you going wrong) look at the saturn house and if you are successful congrats your doing saturn right. but be careful he always thinks you can do better, and he loves to humble you. so be-careful out there.

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