#but i thinkit looks good

[st4rstudent]

I always love seeing people post about having a trope of favorite characters. Universal experience.

#clemramble #ive seen like 3 of them lately and i thinkits really funny #if i dropped a list of favorites i dont think you guys would be surprised in the slightest over. well. heh. wellpp. #but thats for another time unless someone asks nicely #anyways its just really funny to me that theres almost always a certain character type that people like and it usually reflects on them #just a little #its really awesome. ithink its really good . let us all frolic in a field together #my friends say i am predictable but to that i disagree. i am CONSISTENT. there is a difference. hmph looks away and turns my back #and then trips over a rock and then falls down and then

[kurouzus]

playing pioneers of olivetown again i think it is so unfortunate that they made all the hot people undateable in this game

#idk the bachelors are really lackluster in this one. #like ig if i had to pick one from.either side it woild be either damon or laura bht i dont vibe w any of them much #which is unfortunate really bc in previous games theres always been someone who instsntly won me over #fritz ♥️ #but idk. they are not that great in this game also this game suffers really bad fron like #theyre all veeeery flat. #which isnt out of the norm for harvestmoon/storyof seasons but #its definitely a downgrade from the first game under the story of seasons title #where most.of them actually like. felt like people #i didnt really get in to sos trio of towns so i cant speak for then #and in tale of two towjs which btw is my favourite one. #the personalities were flat but thryw ere enough like #its so funny actually i romanced cam and got all the way to the point i couldve proppsed to him bht then i realized i did not like hjs #personality very much so i turned around andstabbed his heart and destroyed it and i.married his best friend #i also thinkits really funny how after you marry someone else all the other bachelors speak to yiu as if #youre strangers #like it wasnt a good breakup cam wouldnt even fucking look at me he hated me

[aries-online]

Losing Score

(platonic)TWST housewardens x Reader

Authors note: ig this is angst to comfort, maybe. Enjoy or perish <3 /j. Working on requests after i post this, will be posting my oc masterlist thingy soon as well :)

also, this a little over 2500 words, sorry if there is any typos. :)

My video recommendation of the day is this , it's two hours of nothing but chill shrimp. Idk why I thought of floyd, but i did. This has absolutely nothing to do with the fic btw, just thought I should share.

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Synopsis: Reader learns how to magic, Reader then fucking overblots

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“I lost, Didn’t i?”

For the longest time, you thought of NRC as a home away from home. Being brought to a new world was taxing on you mentally and physically. Thankfully, you were not alone in this new world. You made a new friend, A boy named Yuu. like Yourself, he had no magic and nowhere else to go. Yet, as things went on, you two began to drift apart after the second overblot. Yuu had made new friends he could hang out with, yet he chose to bring you along. No matter how uncomfortable he and his friends were. When you noticed his waning friendship, you began to study more. Your private studies led you to learning a few basic magic spells. You were estatic to say the least, but you knew to keep this under wraps. No one could find out about this. As more overblots came and went, what began as a basic protection spell grew into more powerful magic, more untamed magic. You had drifted so far away to your first, and what you considered your only true friend in this place. You were much more of a loner, the once cheery air that surrounded you before replaced with one that was dark and heavy. You hadn’t spoken a word to anyone besides yourself in over a month at this point, and to say the least, people were concerned about you.

“Hey, [NAME]” Yuu called out, carefully making his way across the dorm to where you resided. You hadn’t bothered to fix up your hallway at all, saying you preferred the eerie atmosphere. Yuu spared a glance to the small crowd behind him. HImself and the other dorm leaders had decided to hold a little “intervention” of sorts, all were concerned about your drastic change in behavior. “[NAME]” he called out again, a little louder, hesitating infront of your door. With a sharp inhale, he grabbed hold of the doorknib and opened the door. You were nowhere to be found. “They aren’t in here” Yuu stated, dumbfounded. He hadn’t seen you leave the dorm at all in the day. He slowly examined your room, noting how dark it seemed, even with the light on. “What do you mean, They aren’t there” Riddle called from down the hall. “They aren’t here, like at all.” Yuu called back, sparing another glance over your room before leaving. “All their stuff is still there, but they aren't,” Yuu explained. ‘Well do you know of anywhere else they could be?” Riddle questioned, the other dorm leaders nodded to Riddle's question. It was quiet for a few minutes, while they pondered where you could be. ‘They like to go on late night walks” Yuu pondered outloud “maybe their somewhere along their usual path?” he suggested. “That is a good idea, Yuu,” Azul replied, earning a nod from Riddle. “Indeed” riddle replied “well, we know where to start”.

The group of eight had been walking down the forest path for about ten minutes. Your voice had picked up, but it was so faint that if you werent listening for it, you wouldn’t hear it. “I can hear [NAME]” malleus said, speaking up for the first time since they began looking for you. “It's quite faint, but i can hear them”. “Your hearing must be really good, Malleus” KAlim complemented, earning a small smile from Malleus. “Thank you, kalim” he replied, before turning his gaze back down the path “we are headed in the right way”.

“Maybe I should just blow this popsicle stand,” you laughed. The bird sitting on your shoulder seemed to laugh with you. “How long do you thinkit would take them to find out i was gone, i don’t attend school regularly enough for it to be noticed quickly” yo commented, twirling a tree branch you found here when you learned your first spell. The bird chirped at you, beginning to fly off your shoulder “yeah, i guess you're right there ” you replied, sighing “i guess Yuu and grim would notice pretty quick, He’d probably notice that whatever he leaves for me to eat wasn’t touched”. You fiddled with the branch more, tossing it and catching it “i do wanna go somewhere else though” you commented, looking at the bird who now perched on a tree branch a few feet from you “i don’t feel like this place needs me anymore, yknow?”. The bird gave you another chirp, you let out a heavy sigh “i know i don’t have a place to stay, but i could build something, yknow”

The group approached where you were, your voice growing from an inaudible mess of words to more coherent words. “I'm just surprised nobody noticed the magic i have sooner” you commented, throwing the group off. “You’d have thought that the people with the magic would notice something off about me, but I guess not.”. Yuu froze “how could they have learned magic” he muttered “Crowley had told me it wouldn’t be feasible with how far along we were in life”. “I think we all thought the same thing” Maleus commented “it should be a near impossible task, even if they managed to it wouldnt be anything too powerful” he replied. Meanwhile, your little bird friend had alerted you to the oncoming group, “Thanks Aj '' you muttered, petting the bird on the head before turning to grab your messenger bag. “I guess it's now or never” you sighed. “ i know you're there” you shouted, catching the group off guard  “i have ears, yknow”. The group had made their way from the forest's edge, and into the clearing where you stood. An angry look crossed your face “what do you lot want” you shoute, your voice ringing across the clearing. “[NAME], we're worried about you” Yuu began, before he could open his mouth again, you let out a cackle. “Why do you care now?” you asked, covering your mouth as you laughed “do you suddenly feel regret for freezing me out, Yuu?”. Vil casted a glance over at Yuu “what do they mean, Yuu?” he asked, concerned with what you just said. “Go on Yuu, tell them what you did” You mocked, holding you hands to your chest “tell them what you did Yuu” your voice grew darker as you continued to stare. You felt something like water drip down your face, the concerned stares from the dormleaders turning into those of fear. “C’mon Yuu, tell them” you said, your voice quiet and gravely. “TELL THEM WHAT YOU DID” you shouted, your voice shaking the area around you. The dripping water grew more frantic, before your vision was clouded over. It felt like forever trapped inside the inky prison that was your feelings. Consiously aware of the frantic shouting coming from those around you. When it was finally seemingly over you felt you body sink to its knees. “I lost” you whispered, sobs escaping your lips “Didn’t i?”. This time, when you retreated back into your mind, the memory of what started you down this slippery slope replayed back to you like a movie.

“Hey! Yuu!” you called out, laughter escaping your lips as you ran up to where he stood talking to Ace and Deuce. “You’ll never guess what happened!” You laughed, holding a poster in your hands. “Hey, [Na]-” Ace began, before being interrupted by Yuu “Not now, [NAME]” he sighed, textbook under his arm “Can you just tell me later?I’m really not in the mood” he snapped, causing Ace and Deuce to give him a weird look. Your excitement quickly died down “oh-, Uh- sure” you repiled, a lump forming in your throat. “I’ll talk to you later, i guess” you replied quietly, turning on your heel. You hoped they couldn’t see your tears as you made your way as far away as possible. 

Despite slipping the poster under his Door, as an invite to the performance you were invited to do at Monstro Lounge, you couldn’t see Yuu anywhere. You shook it off, letting yourself be guided by Jade towards the small stage. “Your up, [NAME]” he said, patting you on the shoulder, “your going to do wonderful”. You let a smile creep up onto your face “thanks for the encouragement Jade” you replied, shooting him a grin before making your way to start your performance. When you finally finished your performance and made your way off stage, you still saw no hint of Yuu. with a sigh, your shoulders dropped. He didn’t show up. He didn’t even bother to say he wouldnt come. You felt anger build up inside of you, Why was your best friend avoiding you?

The next night, you locked yourself into your bedoom, a book you freshly checked out from the library in your hand. A soft know could be heard on your door “Suppers done” Yuu Said, his tone bored and apathetic. You didn’t bother to answer. Why should you anyways? you gently shook your head and continued to read. You wanted to learn as much as possible about this worlds magic, if you could even gain magic. Turns out, you could, but it would take alot of time and energy to learn just a few basic spells. You were determined though, you wanted so badly for your best friend to notice you again. 

You took to teaching yourself spells in a secluded part of the forest surrounding Ramshackle. At first, it was going nowhere, but eventually you got the hang of a rather basic spell. You let out a loud cheer when you finally managed to build up enough energy to shoot a beam of light at your makeshift target. Although, after that you felt rather lightheaded. But the light headed feeling didn’t even begin to quell your excitement. “I did it” you laughed “I actually did it!”. Your excitement was shortlived though, you had realized that if Yuu found out, Crowley would find out and you didn’t need either of them harassing you on how you did it. It was difficult keeping it a secret, but you knew it was for the better of yourself. One night, while you were out at your clearing, you broke down into tears, the stress of everything that happened in the past few months finally catching up to you. “I just wanna go home” you whispered, tears streaming down your face “Why couldn’t i adjust like Yuu did. Why does he get to have friends and i dont”. A small sparrow fluttered down from a nearby tree, landing on the tree stump you used as a stool. It pecked at your face. “Sorry” you muttered, trying to shoo the bird away. It chirped at you and gave you a small headbutt, trying its best to comfort you. “thanks, little guy” you muttered, your hand absentmindly petting the birds head “thanks”

The next memory to come to you was a week ago, you had learned to use your newfound magic to float small things, despite the exciting development, you couldnt help but feel a lingering anger. Your newfound Bird friend was one of the only things you felt you could vent to. You had slowly been frozen out by the people you called friends, the only  person really wanting to talk to you was kalim. “Screw them” you grumbled, ploping yourself down on the stump. “Screw all of them, ‘specially Yuu ''. your bird companion chirped at you, hopping onto your lap. “Yeah, I get what you're saying. But none of them deserve to speak to me anymore”. You sighed, gazing up at the pinkish sky above. “It's getting late” you muttered, nudging the bird onto your finger so you could stand. “I guess I have to go back to my dorm room, so that no one finds out”. the bird cocked its head to the side, chirping at you once more. “Yeah, i’ll tell them eventually, but not anytime soon.” you replied, turning your head towards the path. “One day, but not today”

There you sat, in your own head, watching your memories like a movie. “ “m sorry” you muttered, wiping tears from the corners of your eyes “ ‘m sorry for being such an ass”. You felt a hand on your shoulder “i'm the one who should be saying sorry” you felt Yuu crouch next to you, gently embracing you in a side hug. “This is sorta all my fault” he said, gently petting your hair “if i maybe just communicated how i felt a little more, maybe it wouldn’t have ended up like this”. You two sat there quietly for a short while, just enjoying eachothers presence. “Next time you do any big performances, i promise i’ll be there”

When you woke up, the group around you all let out a collective sigh of relief. “[NAME]'' one of the blurry figures exclaimed, although you could barely see who it was, you could recognize the voice as kalim. “Thank the seven you're okay, we were so worried about you”. You rubbed your eyes, clearing up the blurriness, but when you owned your voice to speak, no noise came out. You gave Kalim a small smile, clearing your throat . “ ‘m sorry” you whispered, your voice hoarse. You felt a hand gently rubbing your shoulder “what matters is your better” Yuu replied, giving you a half smile. You gave him a sort-of smile back. “Im happy you two are on good terms again” Malleus commented, eliciting nods from the other dormleaders. “I agree, its nice to see you being friends again” riddle replied.  Your heartfelt moment was soon interrupted by someone clearing their throat. “If you all don’t mind, may i speak to [NAME]?” Crowley asked. You felt fear grip you, clenching your hands on the bedsheet, gaze fixed to your lap. “Is it alright if i stay?” Yuu asked, glancing between you and crowley. “I don’t see why not” he replied, before ushering the others out of the room.

A week after you were finally released from the infirmary, you made your way to your clearing once more, this time followed by Yuu, Crowley and the dormheads. “I guess i should show you what i can do” you laughed, playing around with your shiny, new pen wand. Your little bird friend swooped down, landing on your outstretched hand. “This is AJ, by the way” you explained, the bird on your hand letting out a friendly chirp “He’s a pretty cool little dude.” you motioned for yuu to stretch his arm out, Sending Aj over when he did. “Now for the real fun” you laughed, twirling the pen in your hands. Curious eyes watched as you began to alleviate the smaller things in the clearing, slowly moving to bigger items, then eventually, you began to lift the dorm leaders into the air one by one. Your smile grew as you heard their laughter. Slowly you let the wind pick up around you, letting a gentle breeze blow over everyone. You let everyone down slowly, letting the breeze die down on its own. A grin had formed on your face. Finally feeling accepted once again.

#twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twst dorm leaders x reader #gender neutral reader

[windmermaid-blog]

#24: Takeomi Akashi

He is sadness incarnate and deserves a hug. I'll give him one 🫂

TW: smoking (?)

This time I tried giving the image a bit of an ethereal feel playing with the transparency of the smoke plume. I chose a different, real life picture reference to shape and fill it, to make something that looked less solid and heavy than the manga panel.

Also worked with several shades of pink to give depth to the scar. I know it's supposed to be an old injury and realistically the edges wouldn't look so sharp, but I liked the contrast with the soft curls of the smoke, the cloak edge and the hair.

Also, didn't find a real, manga canon eye colour? He is always in the background in the official coloured images and I can't discern the colour. But he feels grey. It suits him, a bit "colourless". I don't know, he gives me melancholic vibes, being the rainbringer and the "good for nothing" friend.

I combined several techniques I have been testing in these portraits: semi realistic hair, frayed inking, shiny metal colouring, and volumized black. Also, I forgot to mention it before but Sanzu and him are the first for whom I shaded the eyes in a different colour than grey, and I thinkit looks way better. They look much more alive.

#takeomi akashi #akashi takeomi #god of war #black dragons #brahman #tokyo revengers #tokrev #bonten #tokyo revengers fanart #polychromos #colored pencil #colouredpencildrawing #faber castell

[joycxi]

emo

i made this best friend like back in the school year 2018-2019 and shes here visiting chicago. I havent seen her in like two fucking years or whatever and im like GAH LEE shit has changed. but we are still tight i think. I just thinkits quite interesting how chit has changed. 

I was in the car with all the girlies from freshmen year, and its like weird looking back on who i was then. When i was first with my bestie and these girls i was so confused and unsure of myself and blah blah blah blah. Now im in the car with these girls after like 2 years of separation from my best friend and im like gaaah damn like shit is like different. im not confused anymore so thats good but then also now im just like stressed about how things will turn out.

everything changes idk so it doesnt really matter its like fine i just wanted to word vomit on tumblr for a change because i always word vomit on twitter

[voicecflight]

✍

@sinister-spellcaster

Send me '✍' and I will draw your muse horribly on MSPaint 

#i make queue look good #CONSIODERING I DIDNT LOOK UP FOR REFERENCE I THINKITS GOOD #sinister-spellcaster

[fckntf2hcs]

OH HI HELLO!!! I didn't realize you were the one who made the stimming mercs headcanons omg... I was looking thru your blog as a headcanon writer and it's SUCH A GOOD POST OP- Oh uh uh uh right I should probably ask for a headcanon too- Besides raccoons, d'you think Solly takes care of any other animals? If so, which ones?

TYSM!;&:?;!!;😭💞

I think Solly would take in a lot of forest animals that should not be taken in. He doesn’t even ask before he does. This ranges from squirrels to a literal bear. Sometimes it’s animals that don’t even belong to that area. The base will be nowhere near any mountains and he’ll bring back a mountain lion. He’s just silly like that.

He will be gone for an hour and right when the mercs start wondering where he went he’s back with a deer following behind him.

I think sometimes he’d comeback completely covered in like scratch and bite marks looking like he’d fought the animal, but then he’s all smiley about it and the animal is acting completely docile.

I do like to think about him finding small cats and just bringing them in and the mercs would try to refuse at first but then take care of kittens until they can give them back to a shelter. I just,,i thinkit would be so cute,,.,.,,.,,

#IM GOING THROUGH MY INBOX RIGHT NOW #THANK U SO MUCH THOSUGH THATS SO NICE #CRIES #team fortress 2 #tf2 #team fortress 2 headcanons #tf2 headcanons #tf2 soldier #soldier tf2 #tf2 mercs

[talkbykhalid]

sending an ask again bc i think our post might be getting too long 👩🏻‍💻 HAKDHWH

omg that's rlly rlly cool !!! pottery n graphic design look like so much fun, i would definitely pursue an art course without question if i could 😭 but like i said i'm considering it ulet so i'm going to try talking to my parents again soon !

omygod i was definitely one of those kids who said they wanted to be doctors ..... but tbh i never said it w much confidence coz as time passed i realized more n more na med courses will probably be too stressful n too long for me :( so now "doctor" is kinda just my last choice nalang, parang safety net 🥲 but actually i think i feel u ren,, i don't go to a sci hs (that must've been v pressuring n difficult tho ;-; ) but i also have a lot of batchmates who seem so sure abt the job they want and the course they applied for (which are mostly stem-related, abm or law) and then im just here like 😟 idek if the course i put sa college apps ko is what i want so sino yung tanga 😀 but hopefully i'll be able to figure things out soon coz im tired trying to think abt what i rlly want for my future HAKDHAHS </3

ur dad is rlly cool for that we stan 😩‼️ and good luck w requirements if you're working on any !!! also i hope u're having a great day/night depending on what time u read this HAKDJ <3

i feel u )): hopefully u get to pursue arts!! and if they ever argue na walang pera ang arts tell them that that argument is stewpid. kase everything around them stems out from arts or smth related to an arts track naman. the clothes they’re wearing, the house they’re living in. honestly napaka ignorant ng mga tao na mag look down ng mga art majors. ang baba ng tingin nila just bc its not academically focused. Like may creative industries prof ako ngayon at ang first topic na diniscuss nya ay ang stigma around arts careers and then it rlly made me realize so many things

ALSO!! another advice i got. theres no deadline to anything in life unless u make one. like when i was picking what i wanted to take up after jr high i contemplated on like staying and pursuing stem, but my friend told me na if its smth that i want then i should pursue it. it doesnt matter if u start little by little, like sharing ur stuffs (bonus bc it helps build up ur portfolio) and then u slowly go up to making a career out of ur works. u shouldn’t rush things kase bc u should live at ur own pace etc etc.

rlly glad to have a dad like him. i thinkits mostly bc he himself wanted to pursue arts but then he couldnt bc they werent able to financially support that. n like maybe he knows what it feels like. AND THANK YOUUU working on my pottery project currently so rlly need some sort of encouragement 😰 U TOO!!! GOOD LUCK!! hope u get into the college u want!! stay safe alwayssss 🤍

#tbarkada #1102 #. #college is so intimidating #BUT DW! #it’ll be fine

[gayspock]

Look I’m not saying that it is. But eating your chicken best friend could be a very good Cruella backstory for why your name is Eggs

LITERALLY i thinkits all connected... ive had sooo many chicken incidents in my life. like its leading up to some sort of boiling point!!!!!

#egg yells back

[spinchip]

Idk if you’ve ever done this but: Nya or Jay tells Zane about Echo

A/N: I think Zane will always be pretty upset over not knowing about Echo, but i thinkit would be especially bad after the Never Realm lol

“Echo?” Jay stutters, astonished. He slaps a hand over his mouth half a second later, openly wincing at the words that stumbled out of his mouth.

Zane goes very, very still.

Then he closes the door to the garden with a definitive click, leaving his brother to explore the flowers and plants there in peace. Echo had shown up earlier that morning and had the good fortune of running into Zane first, a tearful reunion only put on hold so Zane could hunt down his team and introduce them. By all accounts, no one else should know about Echo, because he just showed up today- after struggling for years to get off the island that he was imprisoned on. Jay should not have recognized him.

He looks at Jay with a questioning gaze, “How do you know his name?” there’s no reason to be suspicious, but Zane feels an inkling of it anyway. It’s not like Jay would have kept Zane's last living relative secret from him, right? They were friends.

There’s an uneasy pause, and Jay can’t think of an excuse.

“Jay?” There’s a plea in there, something that’s asking for a reasonable explanation.

Nya moves forward, “Zane,” She starts, cringing, “Jay and I… we already kind of know Echo.”

“I do not understand.” he says flatly.

“We- Just, a few years back, we first met Echo after this genie-”

“A few years?” Zane cuts in sharply, disbelief overtaking his face. The others staring on with wide-eyed shock.

Jay steps forward, “We can explain-”

“I really do not think you can.” His voice takes on a tightly controlled quality they’ve never heard before, as if he’s speaking through grit teeth, and Jay blanches under his burning eyes.

“Everything that happened was so… it was so messed up, and I lost everyone and Nya- she died in my arms, I just didn’t want to think about any of that ever again.” Jay looked up at him with pleading eyes, “We went to the lighthouse and Echo was there and he helped us out, but after everything went back to normal I just… I never meant to leave him behind-”

“You could have fooled me.” Zane says icily, fists clenched at his sides, “Do you ever hear yourself?”

Jay cowers, “Zane-”

“Of all of the- the heartless, irresponsible, cruel things you could have done!” His voice begins to raise despite his obvious attempt at keeping it level, “What was he to you? A tool? Something to be discarded and left behind once he finished serving his purpose?” His voice cracks on the last word, and he can’t blink back the tears that spill down his cheeks, swallowing down a gasp as he scrubs a hand over his eyes, shaking with emotion. Would they have left him, in the Never Realm, if they believed he wasn’t needed anymore? Did they see him as a friend past his silver skin, or an object?

Lloyd can’t bring himself to defend them, he can’t bring himself to speak at all. The all consuming fury and hurt washing over Zanes face has glued his mouth shut, forced his tongue to stick to the roof of his mouth, even squeezed out a stuttering step back from him. Zane never raises his voice, not like this, and it’s- frightening.

Why didn’t you tell us sooner? He nearly begs, Jay and Nya looking like kicked puppies, shrinking under Zanes bright eyes.

“Please-” Nya starts, alarmed at the sight of tears. She takes a step forward, reaching out to him-

He slams a wall of ice up and she yelps, jerking back- but it doesn’t come near her, not it angry outward spikes like Lloyd half expects. No, it curls inward.

A shield, for Zane. to protect himself.

You really messed up.

#lol idk my friend #spinchip fic #zebra-all-the-time

[icewindandboringhorror]

in a very faint way I do enjoy the summer, just because the way it smells at night and other factors in the general background experience of the time of year give me Nostalgia Feels for various summers of the past and different periods in my life, but I DISLIKE summer for just about every other reason possible and especially the fact that my body disintegrates in any form of weather above like 70 degrees (constant headaches and etc.) ... why must I be so Weak.... more evidence that I am supposed to be an ice demon but was accidentally dropped here in the ole human realm because the astral being who was carrying me sneezed too hard

#i should just... have an air conditioner like any other disabled hermit that only leave the house once a week or less #but bhhh Thats Money and also I dont think you can have them?? like the lease says something about banning or inspection or #somthing like that i just remember the person i live with being weird about it like that it would be Secret or not allowed or something #anyway itd be such a process saving up for one anyway and its one of those things where like #idk i dont thinkit gets too hot here. like theres hot weeks and stuff but its not like other places ive lived where literally #the entire summer for MONTHS AND MONTHS its always hot as hell and like regularly 75-85 degrees and some weeks 90-100 often #it weil be hot some weeks but then go back down and idk is it really worth spending the money ??? idk but I HATE heat regradless #you wold think i could get more done since i have trouble sleeping but the constant overwhelming fatigue of beng hot i think #balances that out and makes me if anything a bit less productive. also i hate that things are BUSY because peple are out of school!!! #my only like... saving aspect of going out in public is that USUALLY i can be like 'oh well if i go 10am on a tuesday everyong #will be in school or at work and it wont be very busy!' but once school lets out its like my options for times to go places are severely li #mited. also can never go anywhere like beaches or restaurants because even early in the day they seem Busier. ESPECIALLY cant #step foot in malls any time of day lmao... aaaa.. I do like that the days are longer! but thats really all... days are longer and there #are fragments of nostalgia looming around me at all times which can be nice. I find it more neutral? like nostalgia to me feels #like the situation was not necessarily always good. its good and bad times and nutral times like its not a feeling of missing and longing #for what once was but more just like a weird dissociated reflection of the idea that I am separated into past versions of myself #and a faint reliving of the general mood of those scenarios whether they be good or bad. such as the smells at the time or my current #thoughts and responsibilities at that period and etc. it's never good or bad but is more just an interesting concept to experience #especially because of mental things like my lack of genuine emotional attachements and general separation from everything that i experience #looking back on my past to me is in some ways pretty similar in internal feeling to recalling a dream i've had or future nostalgia #which is something i dont fully understand but i often get the same exact feelings over just very vague concepts of places I've never been #beofre or etc. it all feels smilarly to me so it's almost like.. just looking at any other aesthetic mood whether real or not except just a #bit more detailed since i've actually experienced it. kind of the same feeling when i look at the sky. its not a place #ive ever been or something ive been strongly attached to but evokes something similar in me like a detachment from myself and #reflection of experiences ive had but didnt have and etc etc. idk anyway lmao theres something i cant describe about the concept #but Nostalgia feels very similar to many other reflective feelings i get in an abstract way and its like semi positive neutral but cool #then again i have a very very good memory so i tend to have nostalgia type things ALOT like everytime I take pepto bismol it reminds #me of like a ver very very specific time and event and etc. and I have millions of other small things like that lol #so maybe im just a permanently detached being never living in any relatiy but constantly experiencing snapshots of the past and ideas #for the future and things that will never happen .. or mayhaps i am just ... a dungus... either way lol... summer.. interesting... bad.. hmm

[in-sempiternam]

Okayyyy lol I hope you don't mind another bunch of oc asks, but I really liked the questions in your most recent oc meme reblog. so for that; Dougal, Donas, Marius and Nars!

Of course I don’tmind. Keep them coming. XDAlso, very interesting choices… I actually decided to let them answer for themselves.Just out of curiosity how that will go, because they do get along on asuperficial level, but none of them tend to spend too much time with each other,so I have no idea how the dynamics between them will be.Some questions were difficult for them, because they never really left their bubble, or at least didn’t get in touch with the modern world.So, here we go:

answers under the cut

1) What is their one embarrassing secret favorite song?

Rohan: *lookingconfused* Marius: *trying to read his expression* Ah, right. Music has changed a lotby now and there are songs some people would think are weird for differentreasons like the text, or the melody or the singer’s voice. Or it’s songs thathave been playing in the radio so often, that everyone is annoyed, but stillsorta like it, when they hear it years later. But you don’t talk about it,because everyone immediately remembers how annoying they were.Rohan: I’m trying to follow you, boy… I really do… but I don’tunderstand half of what you’re saying.Marius: *chuckles* Wait, I show you… *pulls out his cellphone and startsswiping around* Ah! This is a good example *plays Barbie Girl*Rohan: *going through a culture shock this very moment*Donas: *whispering to Nars* Isn’t that text a bit obscene?Nars: *to Donas* Ssshhh! *Then smiling at Marius* Hmm… I don’t thinkit’s embarrassing. It’s more quirky and it’s very you, sweetie.Marius: *gives him a very happy smile*

2) What is one thing they do when they’rehome alone?

Rohan: I like to playthe piano.Marius: *looks at him puzzled*Rohan: What’s the matter, kiddo?Marius: There’s a piano in the stables?Rohan: *squints* No… ? Wait… You thought my home is the stables?Nars: It’s not?!Rohan: Uhm, no… I have a house near the stables?Nars: Wow. I never knew. It’s like… everyone thinks you live in thestables. You sleep in the hay!Rohan: Yah… but I do go home sometimes.Nars: To play the piano. Alright.Rohan: You kids make it sound like it’s a weird thing.Marius: *smiling at Dougal* I like to play the piano, too!Rohan: *sighs*Donas: I like to read, when I’m at home.Nars: I play chess.

3) Have they ever killed someone?

Rohan: Yeap.Marius: *very quietly* Yes…Donas: I was born to do it.Nars: No. And how is none of you in jail?

4) Describe their childhood in five words

Rohan: Let’s see…dirty, poor, hard work - aye, that’s technically two words. Mh… war… aannd…simple.Marius: *nipping his finger* Uhm… happy… uhm… funny… then, uhm… exciting. Idon’t know, I can’t think of more that don’t sound all the same. Dad loved meand always did his best to protect me.Donas: Contended… for a while. *frowns* Then… violent… depressing… lonely…abandoned.Nars: Okay, mine… carefree, funny, happy, … interesting! Hmm… and … wild.*smirks*

5) What Pokemon would fit them as apartner the best?(since none ofthem -beside Marius- have even a vague idea of what Pokémon are, I’ll answer ontheir behalf)

Rohan: Mudsdale“Mudsdale is known forboth its powerful body and emotional fortitude, which prevents it from becomingagitated. Regardless of the trouble it is in, it will never cry out. While itis not swift, it has excellent stamina.”Marius: Skitty“It is fascinated bymoving objects, and chases them. It is known to chase its own tail and becomedizzy from it. Although it can be difficult to earn its trust, it is verypopular due to its adorable looks and behavior.”Donas: Mewtwo“It is said to have themost savage heart among all Pokémon, lack compassion, and strike fear into itsenemy with cold, glowing eyes. However, it was also speculated that part of itsapparent savagery was predicated in fear and feeling tormented. Because it wasengineered to be the ultimate in battle, it can only think of defeating itsfoes.”Nars: Gardevoir“Gardevoir is able to seethe future using its psychic powers. Additionally, it is able to create smallblack holes, distort dimensions, and support itself without feeling the pull ofgravity. Its power reaches its peak when protecting its Trainer, whom it willprotect with its life.”

6) Most traumatic experience?

Rohan: I’ve got none.Marius: *rustles around in his chair uncomfortably* When I was abducted toblackmail grandfather…Donas: Being born. (Geez! Could he be more dramatic? XD)Nars: Uhm… yeah. I’ve got none either.

7) Favorite smell?

Rohan: Horses.Marius: Marshmallows!Nars: *amused* You sound excited.Marius: *with a bright smile* Yes!Donas: I like the smell of the attic in the eastwing.Rohan: That smells of decay and rotten wood…Donas: *looks at him without expression*Rohan: Aaalllriiight… weird as ever.Nars: Perfume with the scent of Lilies of the Valley.

8) Do they have any social media? What dothey post there?

Rohan: What’s that?Marius: Hmm… it’s kind of like different kind of bulletin boards, where youcan share things you like, or talk about things that bother you and people canleave commentary and share your things, if they like it.Donas: *inhales*Nars: Ohhh, Methos told me about that some time ago. I thought it wasstrange, but giving it a second thought, I’d think it can be nice, sinceit seems way easier to get in touch with people who share your interests andopinions.

9) If they ever attended school, what werethey like as a student?

Rohan: In my timeline,school didn’t exist. Education was exclusively for the rich. And I wasn’t one of them. *laughs*Marius: I did for a while, but after some incident I was homeschooled.Donas: I always studied ahead and knew everything the teachers brought upin class. I ended up skipping classes because I was bored and everyone was soloud. Usually I would spend my time at the school library. At least no one waspicking on me there. Nars: *laughing* I was way more busy ogling girls and never paid attentionto my teachers. I remember I had to study with Donas after school to keep mygrades up. You did a good job teaching me.Donas: You were a good student when there weren’t any girls around, soit was easy to teach you.

10) Ever did any form of self-harm?

Dougal: No.Marius:*bites his lips and looks at the ground* Yes…Donas: Yes.Nars: No.

11) Do they have a creative hobby?

Rohan: No. I justreally love to spend time with the horses and take care of them. That’s both myjob and my hobby.Marius: *scratching his nosetip* I do like dancing, would that be acreative hobby?Nars: Of course. You do think of choreographies, that’s very creative.Marius: *smiles at him satisfied* Thank you!Donas: I write and compose songs… I also do drawings… and I write poems.Nars: Really?! So that’s what you’re locked up for in your room most of thetime?Donas: No, I just want to be alone, that’s what I’m locked up for in myroom most of the time.Nars: Why do we never see any of your works?Donas: They are very personal. Rohan: Aye? I remember Rahab talking about it.Donas: That’s because he has no respect for my privacy. He wasn’t supposedto see any of it.Marius: *pouty* That’s rude.Donas: *giving him a brief smile* Right?Nars: Listening to you two, I’d say I don’t have a creative hobby.

12) How would they imagine hell if therewas one?

Rohan: *pulls hisshoulders* What people do upon each other is hell enough. I doubt it can getany worse.Marius: *looking sad* I think it would be a place where all the terriblethings that can happen, do happen. All the time. There would be no rest and nohappiness. Only suffering. *shudders*Donas: “L'enfer, c'est les autres.“ (Hell is other people – Sartre)Nars: I don’t know, Idon’t believe in it so I never really thought about it. But I guess it would besomething along the lines what the others already said.

13) How would they imagine heaven if therewas one?

Rohan: Wine, women andsong? *laughs* Or what else people enjoy.Marius: *smiles and nods* Yes, I would think it is a place where everyonecan be happy.Donas: …Nars: Again, no idea, but the others probably had figured it out. *smilesand pulls his shoulders*

14) Where do they think would they goafter their death, hell or heaven?

Rohan: *laughing* Iguess like most people aiming for heaven, but end up serving in hell.Marius: I hope it wouldn’t be hell.Donas: Don’t worry, you deserve nothing but heaven. You would never go tohell.Marius: *looking uncertain* How do you know?Donas: Because that’s where I go.Marius: Hmm… *bites his lips* But if you’re there, I’d be alright.Donas: *sighs and shakes his head softly* I won’t allow it. You go toheaven and be happy.Nars: You all are making me slightly uncomfortable here. I never kneweveryone had such clear visions of that stuff.

15) Thoughts on overweight, beautystandards and gender constructs?

Overweight -Rohan: Why, I think if someone is very overweight it’s not healthy, butneither is being very underweight. Though being average isn’t a guarantee forbeing healthy either. Hmm… I guess a bit ineach direction is fine, if you’re comfortable? … … am I talking shit rightnow? Aye, you know what, let me put it that way: it wouldn’t be for me. I needto be fit to do my work and can’t imagine myself in any other way.Marius: I think it’s cute.Donas: Disgusting. Not being overweight in itself, but everything itstands for and what comes with it and causes it. It’s unnatural. In my timelinethe rich were stuffing their fat asses like Christmas turkeys, while the restof the nation was starving. That’s disgusting. And it’s also disgusting, thatin another timeline people are kept poor so they can only afford low qualityfood that makes them fat and depressed, they end up eating out of frustrationand boredom. That system makes me want to vomit my guts out. Nars: *looks at Donas with a slightly lifted eyebrow, clearing histhroat* You know what… I don’t think I can add anything to this topicanymore, that wouldn’t just sound ridiculous after your rant.Beauty Standards - Rohan: They are way too often way too extreme, if you ask me. There wasa time, when they put iron plates on the chests of twelve year old girls,because a big chest wasn’t fashionable, so they tried everything to preventtheir breasts to grow. Also, that probably didn’t look beautiful anymore whentheir clothes were off. Just damaged. That’s sick. Certainly not worth it.Marius: I find people beautiful who look different than me.Donas: I don’t care. Humans spend too much time thinking about nonsense.Nars: I think it’s weird. Look at this guy *points at Donas* Sobeautiful. But most people would say it’s a feminine beauty and I do rememberfrom our school days, he was always ridiculed for it, because as a guy hedidn’t fit the idea of masculine beauty. I don’t understand, why so many peopleappear to have problems to take things for what they are and just accept it asbeautiful in itself without any conditions.Gender Constructs -Rohan: Well, there’s women, and there’s men… *looks at the other three*and then there’s men who don’t look like men… Nars: *shaking his head at him, then laughs* Why, thank you!Rohan: *chuckles* Aye, but in all seriousness. I like women, that’s allI need to know. And before you ask – I’ve seen all kind of humans down by theharbor that are neither man nor woman or both of it. Fine with me.Nars: So, if you take a woman home and you start to get it going andthen you find out it’s not a woman in the traditional sense….?Rohan: If they haven’t told me somewhere along the way from the harborto the bedroom, I’d damn well be surprised at first. Had that sort of thinghappen already. I thought being straight forward would be best and just tellthem I’m not quite sure how to proceed from there, because it was unexpected. Usuallythey told me then what to do. Sometimes we continued, and other times we gotdressed again and just had a talk about the world and his brother.Marius: *in deep thought* I never thought much of it, because usually Ilike men better and I assumed that was pretty clear. But now that we aretalking about it, I remember there are men who used to be women, but hadsurgery and using hormones, so they can be men. I don’t think, I ever metsomeone personally. So… I don’t know, if it would be the same? It probablyshould be?Nars: Probably… if you never knew about their transition, do you thinkyou could tell the difference?Marius: *biting his lips contemplating* I guess not. So it would perhapsjust be important that they have a good personality.Donas: Thanks to my face, I’ve been on the other end so many times andit is annoying at best. Some people are retarded – I may have a feminine face,but I do not have a feminine body and I’m taller than most men. How do theyeven confuse me for a woman to begin with and then get upset, when it dawns tothem that they were wrong? I can’t fathom that. Though it’s an advantage to beunderestimated most of the time, just because of the way my face looks.Nars: To me it’s similar as for Dougal. I do have a strong preferencefor the female shape, but I don’t think it is relevant whether it’s biologicallyor through transition. People should have more acceptance for eachother soothers wouldn’t be under the permanent pressure to explain and justifythemselves.16) Kinks, fetish, phantasies?

Rohan: I’m a simpleman, I like breasts.Marius: *turns red in his cheeks and looks at the floor shaking his head*Donas: That’s too personal, so I won’t tell it.Nars: It’s perhaps a bit odd, but a girl dancing for me in private wouldbe… well, I’d like that.Rohan: *looks over at him and raises an eyebrow* You know you can hireexotic dancers with extra service, aye?Nars: Yeah, but that’s not it. More on a personal level and spontaneous,you get me old man?Rohan:Nah.Nars: *sighs, then laughs softly*

17) Songs that make them cry

(leaving theseout for the moment)

18) Pet Peeves

Rohan: *contemplating*Marius: When people are mean to each other. Nars: *laughing* Sweet pea, that’s a very serious issue you carry aroundwith you.Marius: Oh! So it’s not a pet peeve?Nars: *smiling as he shakes his head* No. A pet peeve is somethingminor, a lot of people think is not really an issue or no big deal and justshrug it off. But for some reason, it bothers others a lot.Marius: Hmm…Nars: Like, when someone forgets to flush the toilet when they peed andit would make you irrationally angry.Marius: Ahh, I see. No, I don’t have anything like that.Donas: Mine is Rahab… everything he does gets on my nerves. Even hisbreathing.Nars: *laughs* Well, mine is definitely when people forget to flush thetoilet. *looks at Dougal* What about you, old man?Rohan: Huh? Ah, yeah… I couldn’t think of anything, so I guess I don’thave a pet peeve.

19) Something they would never wear

Rohan: Aye, anythingthat is uncomfortable.Marius: Uhnnn… Clothes from my sister. She would chokeme.Donas: Bright colors. They hurt my eyes and make me nauseous. I would feellike a clown.Nars: *laughs softly* I’d wear anything at least once for shits andgiggles.

20) Have they ever stalked someone?

Rohan:Nah.Marius: No.Donas: … Yes.Nars: *coughs*Donas: …Nars: Uhm…. No, I haven’t.

21) Nightshower type or dayshower type?

Rohan: I work hardduring the day, so it makes more sense to shower after.Marius: *scratches his nose* I like to shower when I got up.Donas: I shower both, in the morning and the evening.Nars: Dayshower. *chuckles* I hope this is actually about showering and notsome code words for something else.

22) How many stuffed animals do they own?

Rohan: *laughing* Notone.Nars: You are aware that could mean none just as much as two or more?Rohan: *laughing hoarse* As usual, a smartass.Marius: Mmmmh… let me see… there is Lara, Tony, Elizabeth, Bianca, Poo,Gustave, …Donas: *looks at Marius*Marius: … Jacob, Muriel, Floppy, Pumpkin, Tomtom, Beautemps, … Donas: *sighs*Marius: … Helena and Paris, Sir Lancelot, Skittles, Mishka, …Donas: *rubs his forehead* So, one could say you just really have a lot ofthem…Marius: *gives him a big smile* Yes!Donas: That’s nice. I guess… Marius: How many do you have?Donas: I have one small Teddy bear.Marius: Oh! Do you want more? I could give you Gus…Donas: *interrupts him* No! I’m good. You keep them. They are moreimportant to you, anyway.Nars: *chuckles* I have quite a bunch, too, but most of them don’t havenames. They were gifts from girls.

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