#but like . i just . idk whay to do abt it .

[krynutsreal]

braindump incoming

ook ohMYGOF one thing I keep thinking about is like. Not a fear but like I'm getting that feeling where I'm "scared" of the fact that I might b. Be like. not getting uninterested but like .maybe kinda sorta maybe idk moving on from ishimondos even tho they mean the world to me. like maybe it's because I've been so busy I just .don't think Abt them as often maybe for some (my irl friends) it's like no way kry is healing from Dangan disease BUT I D. I CANT .I feel like I can't become uninterested when there's so SOOO much I wanted to do involving them and STUFF!!! I haven't even gotten around to talking about sky au!!!!! And that was something thats been like. IVE BEEN MEANING TO TALK ABT IT BUT like I've rambled before I feel like I'm not prepared enough to. talk about it I don't even know how to explain it's not even that im embarrassed bc that's bound to happen with whatever I do but AHH!!

maybe ikm getting that guilt™ or whatever but it's NOT EVEN HAPPENED UET!!! Like I am just .nervous of moving on from my current fixation even tho they still make my brain ill they make me sick (positive) like there's no doubt that theyre .gonna be living in my brain rent free forever but I DOKTKNKOWW

and before I start confusing anyone or whatever. no I'm not uninterested in ishimondos no I probably won't stop drawing them bc I'm still very ill about them so. there's that! okay ! Thank u for coming to my Ted talk

#like i still. think about them j just IDK IDK monkey brain scared of change #bwomp bwomp #uhhhh i for reals need to catch u guys up on my sketchbook doodles bc then u can see my thought process on. what the past few....uh weeks? #have sorta been like with my art #most of it is prompttober stuff (cringetober amd mobtober) . i did draw the ishimodnos uhhhh fairly recently (i think a day after #i made the post abt me missing them #BUT STILL #mahbe im missing yhrm again maybe thats whu i am nervosu of changing intrests (or gaining new interests) #EVEN THO I LITERALLY DID THAT. WITH MOB PSYCHO #and ishimond and mp100 are like my two fixations right nwo #they can coexist why am i like ooo ahh im so spooky nervous abt gaining new interests #GIRL LIVE UR LIFE!!!! #anywyas whay if i went back to my roots (lps #wgat if i drew my fav littlest pet shops and subject y ou to tjrm #what if i made th ishimondosbas lps ............. #Ohmgof i wanna do mob as one tok im gonna go crazyi #im talking out of my ass at this point ok if u took the time to read all this bs thej thamk uou #krambles #goonight

[junkiee]

I am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy i am not crazy

#losing my mind. i have no friends no one to distract me fromm myself #just Sitting here thinking bad thoughts idk whay to do i fucking hate my life #wveryone fucking leaves me. i hate every person who i ever thought was my friend i fucking hate them #everyone is selfish everyonf turns on u it doesn’t matter how good it seems everyone will end up hurting me #swear to fucking god its alwaysthe same shit I’ll never be happy #always comes back to this #how could i POSSIBLY trust anyone??? fucking how? doesn’t matter how much i care abt them or love them or give myself to them #they will hurt me. i literally can’t trust fucking anyone how do i keep living like this #and u know i will stick around bc i have no one else so of course you will hurt me again like u already have #i give soooomuch love and all i get is damaged over and over and no one fucking cares not evn you

[29121996]

.

#going insane i wanna ask to borrow $20 and see if my irl is down ti play $10 worth of pool games #bc i am going Insa e being in yhis housr !!!! i wanna go out !!! #am seriiusly . like praying i get some kind of money so i csn . #its not thst i need to get drunk to play its that i WANT to after the last . 4 days ive had seruously. #i wanna get a lil wasted n hit some pool balls i am Dying . #not having a job has rlly limited my ability to do shit i am going to c r y #ik shit will happen as its supposed to but MY GOD i dont wanna be inside anymore but i cant go for a drive at all #n thetes literally nothing else to do in this shit hole of a town #so FUCK . #i just m am terrified ti ask my dad to borrow the money for fun shit #even tho . ive done fuck all for fun n i hsvent borrowed money for anytghi g except impirtant shit #but like . i just . idk whay to do abt it . #today has been fucked n id like to shut my brsin off abt it all . like rlly all i wanna do isnplay pool w mynfriend :( and drink 1-2 drinks #n idk if hed even givr it to me. i isually wouldnt ask but i just . idk wbay else to do #hopefully tmr night i can get out of this damn house fr

[shatteredfears-arch]

see what i like about google is it knows when i type the wrong word what im actually trying to dohble check to spelling of in replies

#out. #also i hust realized how tumblr randomly doubles the threads i do in mobile when i draft them after cutting them so #t hhi s is a meme reply not a thread but whoops i hope my last few replies didnt do that cause thats embarassing #ive had four pink pills and my bottom lip still looks like i got plaster in it #it frels that way too lol #idk whay happened either bc every spider i found and tried to keep my two grey cats fucking aTTACKED AND ATE #considering as their mother they should behave like my fsmiliars #im v upset st them let me rescue these random spiders breaking in to bite me #its not like theyre actually intelligent enough to survive onntheir own ironically rnougg #my mom was asking me why jumping spiders have so many rules for keeping them bc she wNts one but #doesnt want the upkeep and im just like #because despite the intelligence they do have. spiders are fucking idiots #you can shove food into their web and wiggle it so they know its there and they still miss #they dont survive many years inthe wild despite having up to 15 years lifespan in some )moreso turantula) slecies #they!! are!!! dumb!!! #cute but dumb!!! kust like me!!!! #now would my cats stop eating tem!!!! #insects cw #i csnt sleep idk whay to do abt that lol

[an-theduckin]

MY THOUGHTS N THEORIES ON THIS!!

PKAY OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL. IM LITERALLY SO EXCITED RN LIKE IM LITERALLY SHAKING I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. BUT STILL, IM SO SO NERVOUS CUZ IT MIGHT NOT LIVE UP 2 MY STANDARDS N NOT BE GOOD (WHICH IS UNLIKELY CUZ ID EAT UP EVERY SCRAP OF MARK CONTENT BUT STILL. IM PARANOID) LIKE. WHAY IF IT GOES AGAINST MY HEADCANONS OR SMTH. IK I SHOULDNT TREAT IT SERSIOULU N JUST IGNORE CANON BUT STILL!! IM SOMEONE WHOS CONSTANTLY OBSESSED N INSECURE ABT GETTING CHARACTERS WRONG OR MAKING THEM OOC. SO YEAH I FEEL SO CONFLICTED RN CUZ I FEEL BOTH EXCITED N NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME.

ENOUGH ABOUT HOW I FEEL. LETS TALK ABT WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN. Okay okay so! Many things can happen lemme just list down all the possibilities. More maf lore, marks life b4 Billy, marks life after Billy n how he got 2 the void, Mark interacting with Argos/Mr plant, Mark just doing smth in the void like "A day in the life of Mark" (Just realised that's literally my fanfic's title after typing that LMAO) so yeah. Ashur said "A YouTube video related to this series is coming out tomorrow...", the word 'related' suggest that it might not be fully about Mark and could include like. Mr plant and Argos too. Which crosses out the possibility of it being more maf lore, marks life b4 Billy, and 'a day in the life of mark'. I considered crossing out the possibility of the marks life after Billy thingy but like, maybe ashur would show how mark moved into the void and could like connect it 2 Argos delivering mail 2 him or Argos being the welcoming committee for when he first moved into the void (eeeeek this is what happened in my Mark fic!) Sooo yeah the most possible thing is Mark just interacting with plargos. Ughhh but idk cuz he has interact with them b4 and ashur didn't made a whole announcement for that. Maybe its cuz this time he'll have more screen time? Gosh I really hope so. Idk man maybe all my theories r wrong n ashur just do a completely different thing and in that case I'll go hide in the corner from embarrassment. I really really hope he does this green goober justice n doesn't just ruin it yk. I've seen it happen before and I'm just so scared of it happening to Mark.

Anywaysss so yeah if u couldn't tell IM SO FUCKING HAPPY N EXCITED ABT IT IM SCREAMING

@machathecat @labratgurlz @faenemy SORRY FOR TAGGING I JUST THINK U MIGBT WANNA SEE THIS N ALSO I WANNA SEE UR REACTIOM 2 MY CRINGY ASS (/AFFECTIONATE) THEORIES!!! :DDDD

#an_theduckin #twomp #ashur gharavi #mark and friends #the world of mr plant #my ramblings #twomp theory #my theories #maf #fuck Billy Hendricks #my text posts #long post

[sweet4roma]

can you write something abt isa? IDK WHAY NO ONE WRITES ABT HER LIKE SHES SO PRETTY AND HOT AND EVERYTHING I NEED TO READ MORE OF HER

ty for the request!! and yes i agree she is the prettiest girl ever snd she so underrated!! hope you like it :3

I’ll try

pairing: dom!isa x sub!fem!reader

wc: 0.5k

warnings: smut, pussy eating, established relationship?, no aftercare, thats it ig

‘Do you think i can take the lead tonight?’ you girlfriend asked you as she pulled away from a kiss. She was seated on your lap, with her slender fingers caressing your cheeks. Her request took you aback, as she was usually a pillow princess and a subby person overall. But you couldn’t refuse Isa, she was basically seducing you with her eyes right now.

‘Do you think you can handle it?’ you smiled at her. ‘I’ll try’

That was all she said before diving once again into your lips. This kiss was significantly rougher than the first one. She quickly began biting your lips as to make you open your mouth, and when you did, she slipped her tongue inside, exploring the inside of it. As eager as she was she even sucked your tongue for a little bit, this new version of her giving you a heartbeat between your legs.

She further moved to you neck where she bit your flesh, licking it afterwards to soothe the pain. Isa’s hand moved under your shirt and went to your breasts, where she squeezed one of them through your bra.

‘take it off, baby’ she demanded which you happily obeyed. Everything was moving so fast that you didn’t even notice her taking one of your nipples in her mouth, sucking roughly at it. ‘fuck, isa’ you moaned, gripping her hair. You could feel her smile into your chest.

Getting impatient, you started pushing her head downwards, so she could get to where you needed her most faster. She clicker her tongue but decided to listen to you.

Luckily for you and Isa, you were wearing a skirt so it was easy for her to just slide her head between your legs, disappearing inside of your skirt. The sight was so pretty, you wanted to take a photo.

Your mind went dizzy as you felt her tongue press against your panties, sloppily making out with your covered cunt. You couldn’t stop your moans and whimpers anymore, but you know your sweet sounds were music to your girl’s ears. You felt her move your panties to the side, now making full contact with your pussy. Her warm tongue moved up and down your lips, and brought you closer to your orgasm without any full on touches.

‘Do you like this?’ Isa asked you as she brought your fingers to your entrance, pushing in two at once, streching you. She felt your walls tightened against her fingers, and by the sounds you were making you definitely liked it. ‘More… more’ your mind went cloudly as her fingers combined with her tongue on your clit eventually made you cum on her face, having her drink it up instantly.

Coming up back to you, she gave you a kiss, making you taste yourself on her tongue. ‘how’d i do?’ she asked excitedly. How could you forget that the girl who ripped an orgasm out of you was actually the sweetest girl ever? You kissed her in response. ‘you did so good, baby, let’s sleep now’ she obliged, snuggling agaisnt you.

Maybe change wasn’t so bad.

#sweet4roma #stayc smut #stayc x fem reader #stayc isa #isa smut #isa x reader #chaeyoung smut

[scrunkalicious]

Ramble abt uhhh viktor for me, ACTUALLY how did those goobs meet ??????

HEEELPP0 FHE KID??????? THATZ WHAY MY KID FINNA LOOK LIKE WHEN I LET MY BROTHER BABYSIT HEEELPPPP (I SHOWED THE KMAGE RO HIM AND HE CACKLED)

ANYWAQYYYZZZZ 😈😈😈 YAPPALICIOUS TIME

{{I actually have a small literature draft written out for whatever I explain below!! Lmk if y'all want me to share it 🫶}}

So basically Viktor and Marly met before the time of the Arcane show, when Vitkor first became involved with Piltover's Academy. One of the people who worked on the show posted this on Twitter (sorry for the bad quality I screenshotted it over YouTube Shortz 💀) 👇

It reads: (From Amanda Overton, one of Arcane's show writerz!!) "We have a backstory for Viktor that wasn't made canon to explain how he got into the Academy. His parents saved up their money to buy him a uniform and he pretended to be a student until he gained Heimerdinger's attention. Instead of punishing him, Heimer made him his assistant!!"

I've been going off of that tweet for their story,, and treating it as their canon bc i make the rulez now‼️🗣️

So basically when Viktor was made Heimerdinger's assistant, Heimer was probably all like "You need a proper tour of the school" and whatnot,, and since he himself is supa busy (Head of The Council which is Piltover's government system, and also dean to the Academy), he chose someone else to do the official more in depth Academy introduction and tour instead!

AND WHO BETTER TO PICK THAN MARLY????!!!!!!?? Mostly basing this off of my own experience, the amount of times I've been put and placed to help out new students due to being "friendly", "able to work with many different people" and "responsible", (all said from my teacherz,, thank you teacherz,,) is quite frequently!! And I almost alwayz get along w these ppl so shout-out to all the new studentz I knew back in like elementary school!

So basically Heimerdinger calls upon Marly to help out with Viktor, such as touring him around the building, helping him set up his dorm, ECT,, the two also share a few classes!! Marly is down for the task as she is for most thingz,, but shez surprised, as shez never been directly called upon to help someone, itz usually she seez someone new in one of her classez and she startz talking to them. But nevertheless, she pullz up and is ready.

So BASICUHLLY she tourz him around for the day!! Marly is excused from her classez, and Viktor doesn't start his official classez until the next day. They hang out and have lunch in the school library (idk abt y'all but at my school you can do this itz so fun) and just chat n whatnot teehee,,,,,

The two got along really well initially! Marly (and me I've been told multiple timez) is a super easy person to talk to, very friendly!! And as Viktor eased into the conversation, the two practically bounce off one another'z wordz. They both got lil sparklez in their eyez when they talk about thingz they're passionate about. OUGH y'all shoulda seen Viktor'z face when Marly mentioned that, along with being an artist, she was interested in geneticz, and was quite skilled in that field.

THE FRIENDZ TI LOVERZ PIPELINE IS WILD THO JSYKKKKK ANWYAZZZEEEEEEEEE

AAAAHGHHAAEIRHTH I ANSWERED THUS OVER A PERIOD OF DAYZ LMAOOOOOOO I GOTTA PUT THO8GHT INTO THESE ASKZ HELP

#SHOULD I RELEASE THE MARTOR DRABBLE???? #ITZ THE FIRST MEETING #I HAVE YET TO EDIT IT 😔 #BUT IF YALL RLLY WABT JT 👁️👁️ #💜martor💜 #marly answerz??? #THANK HOU FIR ASKKKIJGNG #<3 #scrunkalicious #scrunkalicious?? more like yappalicious #self ship ask

[stonerzelda]

Just like i find myself thinkkng abt these interactions so much recently. Especially this one young family I had in Dollarama, a man and a woman that looked like they were maybe in their late 20s at the time. They has this tiny little baby girl that couldn't have been older than a year, and she had an accident in the shopping cart. Her mother looked so stressed out and she was trying to clean her and the cart up with some napkins she had on her but she didn't speak any english so she was just exchanging these looks with me like "im sorry, please dont be upset" and ofc like wtf was i gonna do but help her. Obviously!! I cleaned it all up and while they were checking out I threw a couple of diapers and baby toys + a blanket into a bag and just gave it to the father so they could change her and get her home comfortably. And the wife was so so so surprised by this. She was so grateful. And even when she left with the baby, her husband took me aside and talked to me for a little while and made it a point to tell me that they had only moved to Canada recently from Palestine, and told me that his mother had always raised him to be appreciative and considerate of strangers and to do for them what he would do for his own family. I wish I could remember exactly what he said but it was basically him just saying that whay I did for his family that day meant the world to them, even though it was literally the barest of minimum that I could do between customers. He told me not to lose that kindness. And that memory has always stuck with me so strongly, even though i was like 18 back then and still didn't fully understand where he had come from and what they had likely seen. Idk. I never forgot about that.

#big rambling tn i guess sorry ive just got a lot of feelings about all this and its maddening. every time i think the world cant get any #worse i see how manipulated everybody is and how blind everybody seems to be and i cant handle it. #anyway.

[burgerpal]

hai.........im gonna ramble about my ocs while eating ice cream out of the tub.

i want to create high school designs for them so i can think about the progression of their relationships properly. i need to put more thought into penny and her friendship with oscar and archie but rn im just thinking about oscar anr archie kissing ok. to be completely honest i dont know how they got together🤔🤔🤔 its not like i ever came up with a serious story for them they just exist in my brain as cringe transgender 14 year olds for me to project my trans experience on to. but i think now that ive had them for so long i do need to start coming up with at least the bones of a story so im not drawing the same things over and over again and so i can expand on their characters...because currently they go from 14 and crushing on each other to being like 19/20 and in a serious relationship 🤔 i dont want them to date at 14 i think they would start dating around 15/16ish.. but i do like to spin the idea of archie being physically affectionate to oscar and he reciprocates and oscars like. sigh... i wish he liked me... and archies like wow i love my boyfriend. bc theyre dumb and 14 and didnt have a serious conversation about their feelings😭😭 snyways. i woukd like for the progression of their relationship to slowly get more serious.. like with each year of high school maybe 🤔 i think that would be the easiest way to keep track of it.

now the OTHER thing is relationships are supoosed to have rocky moments i think. like they cant be sunshine and rainbows all the time i guess 🤔 i dont think they would ever break up mostly bc i dont want them to. but i do want to play with the idea of insecurities and stuff especially earlier into their relationship. because theyre stupid teenagers who are both autistic and mentally ill im sure (i refuse to do anything too bad to them. but whats teenagehood without depression and anxiety......) plus considering theyre both young ajd its their first relationship it would only be natural for there to be some miscommunications and stuff at first. i DESPISE the miscommunication trope so it cant be thaaaat serious. i would never make one of them feel like the other genuinely dislikes them yk. but without a little bit of insecurity and miscommunication their relationship wouldnt feel natural. of course i dont need them to be Super realistic but i still want them to feel like real people. at least a little bit.

i think my biggest issue with navigating the progression of their relationship is the fact that they would start dating within 1-2 years of knowing each other. and they arent besties right away bc oscar was scared of him at first (anxiety and autism) when it comes to my relationship with my boyfriend we knew each other for 4 years before we started dating so um. we knew each other very well at that point. also we were 17 and not like 15. so i dont have any kind of romantic experience that reflects oscar and archies. which is DIFFICULT! because i dont fully understand romantic relationships which could be the autism or the aromanticism. who knows. of course they dont have to follow the societal norms for romantic relationships🤔🤔 they can be as weird as i want them to be🤔 but once again i do want them to feel realistic and unfortunately im not sure how to write that first step into them dating. unless i do the thing i mentiomed before where archies convinced theyre dating and oscar is pining and listening to fall for you every night before he goes to bed. which is funny but AUGH yk. somethjng to think about.

FURTHERMKRE. i need to think abt their families. i have little ideas for how their families are structured. like archies parents are probably together ? and they live in this small house and he has siblings. oscar either has a single mother and idk whays up with his dad or i can project and his parents got divorced when he was 14 (if i really project it can be his moms second divorce. but in that situation i would want him to have a good relationship with his stepdad even after the divorce... tbh idgaf about his biological father he doesnt need one of those) assuming divorce then his mom moved to an apartment and he lives with her. his mom works a lot regardless of what i do with his dad so archie comes over like all the time and theh get into shenanigans 🙄🙄 penny im noy sure about her parents. i dont know how normal parents function if im being honest. penny can have a dad maybe her parents can be divorced but she has a good relationship with her dad and primarily visits her dad (can you tell im a child of divorce) shes an only child but she has a lot of cousins who live near her and she babysits them/neighborhood kids so shes bossy 🙄🙄 um i forgot what else i was going to say bc my mom got home

#ok. nobody has to read this. its wayyy too long and probably doesnt mean anyrhing to most of you #i jusg needed a place to ramble on and on and on without a character limit lol

[edgyval-archive]

uni's takes on various discussions in this community..

i guess i should make a post like this,,,, uhhhhh,,, ✅ means i support it, ❌ means i dont support, 🌃 means im in the middle/sorta split, 💫 means i dont know enough on the topic to make a decision

figured id make a big post like this so if anyone tries to come to me abt discourse i can just link then here.

note that these are coming from the perspective ov an amab, furry, therian, nonbinary/xenogender, vincian/gay, neurodivergent, aspec, arospec, singlet, minor who pet regresses.

✅ not using the "expected" pronouns for a gender (i.e. transmasc mlm who uses she/they)

❌ proship/antianti (i do not support shipping 1nc3st thanks)

🌃 self diagnosis (i was professionally diagnosed with autism and self-dx'd with ocd, but then again if you're gonna self-dx with something serious DO RESEARCH)

❌ nonbinary skepticism (the belief that nonbinaries are faking it???? uhm as an enby myself i say NO)

✅ amab lesbians + afab vincians + nonbinary lesbians + nonbinary vincians (assigned se× at birth shouldn't have ANY SAY on whay someone's sexuality is, & imo using someone's asab as an argument is borderline transphobia)

💫 mspec gays (i used to identify as omni so idk if that counts)

✅ cringe culture SHOULD die (it hasn't really, unfortunately)

❌ z00phi1ia/maps/p3d0phi1ia (im a furry but im not a zoo)

❌ truscum/transmed/terf (you don't need dysphoria to be trans, it's about euphoria)

❌ endo systems (sorry guys)

🌃 eating from places that have practiced bigotry (ex;kfc donating to anti gay organizations. i'm gay myself and do not agree with their beliefs but their chicken is really good.)

✅ aro/ace inclusion (im arospec and aspec myself)

✅ nonbinary inclusion (this is a xenogender blog so i'd think nonbinary inclusion would be a given)

💫 lesboy/turigirl / hesbian/shegay (idk what these are sorry - i think hesbian/shegay refers to he/him lesbians and she/her gays, which i DO support, but idk what a lesboy/turigirl is)

✅ neopronouns/xenogender (uhhh no shit im a xeno hoarder myself and this is a mogai blog)

✅ trans men having a word for their specific oppression (like transmisandry or something)

❌ transrace/transabled/the like

🌃 age/pet regression (as a pet regressor myself, it's totally valid. however, if you make it a f3t1shy thing, it's gross.)

💫 transage/chronosian (i support age regression but idk enough about transage)

✅ reclaiming slurs (it depends for me ig)

here's a cute doggo

feel free to unfollow if any ov my opinions fit your dni,,

#⚠️⚠️ #mogai discourse

[one-way-dream]

o|-< man

#sorry m about to spill my guts here again #but i did talk to my therapist abt reinitiating therapy but im put on a waitlist till i get another appt and like #past 2 days ive done ok holding everything back and today was going well bjt every single time i thjnk abt home #or going home i mean iiiii feel like throwing up #just. some of the most intense anxiety ive ever felt in my life i dont want to go home for the weekend bc im scared #and i feel sick. thinking about it but i cant avoid it or act differently bc i dont want to make thjngs worse and #staying neutral is the only thing i can do. but doing so has its own set of problems but #if i get anymore involved ill fuck up everythjng more bc i cant mediate this properly when one person is emotionally blackmailing me and #the other is Also doing the same in a way and promises to burn all our bridges and never look back for good #like shes serious #and i cant take sides here its impossible they Need to talk but ones so angry i idk whay she'll do (not violence or anythjng but. worse?) #sorry i keep coming on here to vent like again i. dont have sny other place without potentially being found #i just feel so sick and anxious and i feel like being a coward and running away but #its hard when my life n existence revolves around them i just fucking wish theyd talk like normal people #i have promises to keep and rships to rebuild and i just Cant abandon either of them i cant snd #i get accused of being two faced bc i cant speak my mind on the spot and you know whay thats fine #i stopped having mental breakdowns in the bathroom at least so thats nice FJSHDKS #but i need to talk to a therapist rright the hell now and sort out that like #vile empty but anxious feeling thats in my system almost Constantly unless i busy myself with fiction or something #aaaaaaaaaa AAAAAA god whatever im so. #all this isnt as bad as what folks go through but it also fucking feels like my life and everything ive worked towards is falling apart #so thats neat? #anyway ANYWAY SORRY this was ridiculously long n i am at work and got curbstomped suddenly #i dont want my family to talk to me i just want them to be like. Normal this weekend. just one weekend. #m going to lose it h #vent / #tee.xt #also will delete this later if i remember

[liarsweapon]

besidesthe first one idk if ima color any of these bc these sketches were primarily my looking at multiple references and trying to copy what i was seeing as closely as possible w the exception of like clothing changes and little things like that but these are the base sketches i got done before my mother decided she needed to control a 24 year old again

last one @folkesange my mom interrupted me before i could figure out how to lineart an ether merm tail slksskks

#out. #may increase janies eye sockets #i checked four times bc i felt like the face looked off but no the proportions to nats actual face were right so #idk maybe its bc ive been looking at it for an hour each of these linearts took abt an hour or so #the first one more like two but i wasnt trying to duplicate specific styles as much on that as actually having to brain it so #almost midnight and ive done no coloring #whoops #tomorrow im either gon actuslly clean or do more lineaorks so i have bases to work in later when i dont wanna draw and only wanna color so #hopefully ill at least clean a bit bc jfc my dog made an absolute mess on the floor idek whsy she did #executive dysfunction is bULLSHIT but i cant get riddalin anymore thanks to my sister stealing them from me so what am i gon do lol #ridalin didnt work anyways tjo i just hyperfocused for 10 linutes then passed out #evidently tho it means it djd kinda work bc i did hyperfocus but i still passed out afterwards so #mep i know theres other options i just dont remrmber whay theyre called #kinda wanna ask if j can go back on ambien its not adhd but i mean i slep so #for those noticing the even more spazzy bs of the brina #my cats threw their tree on my head again a few nights ago #it bles a bit #and i had another concussion #and adhd symptoms worsen from concussions #my cats are effectively trying to destroy any function capabilities i have lol #my ribs hurt and idk why #oh i have replies too dont i #may do those tomorrow too idk #no promises but i will t r y #honestly ones w/o icons or w ppl tbag dont mind my not cutting posts will be prioritized just bc going on lappy is a lot rn #iTS MIDGHT NOW AND IM OVERMENYAL INWANNA DRAW MORE MOM WHY #oh yeah i only put the sig over the lineart so ppl cant just take the lineart and claim it as theirs #like my lineart is 90% my staring at pose references and copying what i see down so like #i think anyone can do that #its like tracing without tracing bc youre not like drawing over an image bur sometimes you put the image over and lower opacity to see if

[explosionoftara]

uwu

#ah another #tara talks #in the tags again #lol #i broke up w the love of my life last night sigh #got really overwhelmed and shit??? idk but it hurts so much even tho i’m the one that did it #i hate making people i love sad!!! okay!!! i’m just!!! #we are staying best friends which i’m so grateful for bc she really is one the most important people in my life #it just hurts even tho. i did it. ugh #she’s like home to me and that isn’t easy for me to get to that level of connection with anyone #it’s okay it’ll be okay #idk fuck ugh i love her so much i feel nauseous a bit at whay i did i’ve never been so.. broken up abt someone #ok my grandma bc she fuckin died but i mean over a person who is alive hello #i jus miss her even though we were long distance like wow #i have her perfume her hoodie which i’ve just been holding onto and photos of us and it all hurts but brings me so much comfort #and like the lil things like the nicknames and all are we allowed to do that? i don’t even know but god i miss it already #i just don’t wanna lose her in my life... i want her there bc she’s the greatest person i’ve met #i just realized she follows me uhhh whoops she’s also the person i talk to abt everything but i didn’t know how to say all of this i’m sorry

[plethodontidae]

just cried for almost an hour because the white rhinos became extinct last year and i didn’t hear a fucking PEEP about it from any news source

#hanna talks #im literallt so angry our planet is fucking deteriorating right in front of our eyes and the governmenr chooses to ignore it #like how can you see that evidence from actual fucking scientists whose whole life is centered aroind this shit and not do anything about it #im so upset whay the actual fuck #idc i will prove MYSELF wrong and become a wildlifw biologist/conservationst and do something abt it bc who the hell else will #hopefully in college i’ll be going zero waste #idk im just really fucking angry lol

[applehairboo]

ppl telling me these days i will always have a second job chance like mall cashier or designer and not incouraging me that i have determination and the will to achive my dreamjob as nations illustrator slut are rlly something uh

#with al RAWl RESPECT for cashiers and designer for dealing with the shit they get like u guys are good (i prefer cashiers u guys suffer ok) #but i rlly want to get to my own dream why do i need to be costantly reminded of an eventual fail im enough negative alone abt my own futur #damn !!! #im fuly aware im gonna take works as designer when i will start off getting pieces at the beginning like logos and shit but its just for #experience. #idk it just settles me off how im on repeat getting told how if i fail theres a backup but not whay i want cause my work is so difficult to #get good and known at it. im aware already !! i wouldnt pick a easy quest im a bad bitch i want the best for myself and i will get that #fucking thing i will put myself to it and make u eat dirty bitch #personal #dirt* yes.

[softshouyous-archive]

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#i love being contacted just for the sake of someone needing something (~: #it feels really fucking shitty ladies #i called my friend today to see how she was doing #and shes like one of the irl friends i dont see too often bc we dont go to school together nor do we really mesaage each other #so i wanted to see how she was doing and ((((((: thst fucking backfired #she was like what do you need you dont call without a purpose i dont buy it #and i did feel bad bc for a while i would call to talk about something or a problem so i wanted to change that and yo just see how she was #doing. but she kept denying it and asking what i had to say and it was so frustrating and a little insulting #like she never fuckimg contacts me so i have to or else we wont reqlly talk abd this is the fuckimg result?? im trying to change a bit of #our friendship for the better and this is whay happens???? and then she said to she had to go and that shed call later #and she did and all she fucking asked me for was about dmv stuff and getting an official state id #i was so fucking upset like wtf????? idk i just felt reallt used and like she didnt give a shit and i know I'm probably making it a #bigger deal than it is but jm so upset and frustrated with our friendship right now??? and when she was done asking she was like 'okay bye' #and hung up #im so??? i feel lile she doesnt fucking care about me even if that may not be the case because that's how shes making me feel #and last year she forgot my birthday because it was after her and her bfs anni and that just makes it worse because she put SO much effort #into remembering and organizing their anni but didnt even fuckint bother to remember my birthday like!!! okay nice yo know that you care abt #him more than your friends!!! or just me!!! because it feels like she cares about everyone else more than me and im just there when #its convenient (~: and the other day she called me to study and i coulsnt bc i had?? school?? and i was like sorry i would if i could and #she wss like why dont you ask me to study and i was like?? you always get distracted and it felt like you blamed me once?? and idk whenever #youre free bc you dont know when youre free??? and when youre not free its too late bc you didnt let me know??? #god this whole thing is a fucking mess and i am judt so upset #i put in effort and it gets totally fucking dismissed and i get questioned and asked why i dont put in effort and am used for convenince #anf am not even thought of because im apparently below everyone else and am not evem worth putting effort into to spend time with (~: #dl