#but like i cant cause im in mobile

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[mydetheturk]

hi this is a general "myde where the fuck have you been this week??? don't you have trigun meta you're working on????" post

"where've you been?" ive been working on fics for the mashwood ship week next week (the 9th-15th) and have been deep in a fugue state of writing since getting home from work on monday. there will be somewhere between 2 and 4 fics going up, don't worry about it; im still alive, i just somehow ended up blacking out and writing two full fics and getting partway through two more.

"what's your next meta gonna be???" im gonna talk about the Vash And Wolfwood Argument in vol 2. and the Vash Crying Blood scene. then we get to volume 3! (i still also need to find out whether or not wolfwood is left handed, or if he just smokes Like That (potentially complete with pictures? idk if y'all're gonna get to see my face, but perhaps behind a cut))

"when's your next meta gonna go up tho???" give me like two more weeks ok? i gotta finish the mashwood fics and I've got at least two dnd games this week, plus im picking up my sister and we're going on a road trip from where im meeting her to my house to our parents, which is like a six hour drive altogether in one direction. i also have work because im an adult with a job. please be patient.

check out my trigun meta and trigun book club tags, and if you're an ao3 member check out my ao3 for fics I've got up already (if you don't have an ao3 and want to read my locked down fics, or hell if you just wanna talk, dm me! im always down to chat!)

#myde talks #trigunbookclub #ive been doing some stuff! #real life happens #i know nobody's actually asked me this but i feel like y'all should know #im taggin the book club cause i know at least some of you probably miss me cracking jokes to hide the pain <3 #i miss posting for you guys but im in these fics too deep to pull out now #i swear the meta link works on desktop browsers #and also if you're on mobile firefox #idk why its not working for mobile tumblr #sorry? #i cant fix that

[gentaroukisaragi]

Seein all the talk about the stage show suits made me think of an idea for how to more accurately portray inubrother

[Id: 2 sketchy digital drawings of the idea. Both contain a blue humanoid wearing a puppet/costume of inubrother on their lower half. Inubrother is a large dog head with a small body and noodly limbs that lead to oversized hands and feet. In both images, he holds a vaguely gunshaped object in his right hand with text on it saying: i am not drawin the donblaster.

In the first picture the humanoid is facing the audience, with their right arm lowered and their left arm raised, using the strings attached to inubrother to make him look like hes waving.

The second image is a side profile, with the blue figures right arm raised to make it look like inubrother is shooting.]

#i had a lot of fun drawing this it literally made me cackle #but the more i thought about it the more i realized the mobility issues this would cause. #and you cant like manipulate it super dextrously but like. i think the point of stage shows is cool stunts for kids #so the lack of mobility is the real issue #also the back side wouldnt make sense unless theres a separate back side eith just the legs? whatever #this is a stupid idea and should not be taken seriously #dont brothers #<- today im the one putting the dont in dont brothers #inoue whyd you shove your sonic oc into this years sentai

[biohazard-inevitable]

Who I thought I was gonna main in apex

VS

Who I actually ended up maining in apex

#apex legends #octavio dearie i love you so much #but i cant aim and i suck at mobility #i will 100% play you as a fun pick cause i love you #but at my heart fuse is my main #because i like his playstyle better #IM SORRY OCTAVIO I REALLY AM #but fuse is just the perfect kind of chaos to me #walter fitzroy #octavio silva #octane apex #fuse apex legends

[kingcunny]

your blog and brand is genuinely so batshit like when i first openned it to a mlp banner and a post about licking viserys's crusty eyesocket i was like "well i can't NOT follow this person" please keep doing what you're doing bc youre doing great sweetie

what do you mean do u not support the cmc smoking weed.... theyre TRYING to get their weed smorking cutie marks >:(

but like genuinely thank u so much omg? ;_; ive honestly gotten nothing but love and support since making this blog and it means more to me than it probably should <3 like idk having this little group of people supporting my wavelength of bullshit <3 who GET IT or at least support my version of getting it <3 thank u all for enabling me i couldntve done it without yall

#the banner was supposed to be temporary but i got so attached to it i cant change it now #whenever im on mobile and it doesnt show up at first i panic refresh until it does cause i get scared #tumblr removed it #one of my to-do projects is mlp loremastering #embarrassing to admit but i struggle a lot with. being just humiliated by everything #and this blog has sorta kinda helped with that #abig part of that IS having people support it #so like honestly <3 thank u #melts my heart #asks

[homoeroticvillain]

the fact i cant reclass my oathbreaker paladin without taking up my oath again is stupid, i just want to change the first feat i choose

#i chose mobile at lvl 4 and it does practically nothing esp cause i just found boots the help the terrain thing #so i was like well np i can just give withers 100g to reclass and choose a different one #only for him to tell me i have to take up my oath again for that #nu uh that is 2000g im not rich and then id also have to break my oath all over again #cause i honestly have no idea what i cant kill with my oath #is there a mod that lets me change feat or smth without actually reclassing cause i am willing to break my no mods 1st run for this #i want to pick polearm master instead... it turns out i fucking love halberds they are so cooool #i know i saw a mod to make taking up your oath again free maybe i just do that and live with it..... #but i like being an oathbreaker its funnn #trying to make my pouting come across as well as possible in these tags #klepto talks to himself

[skenpiel]

okwait I was gonna ask you if you could do polls but im looking at your bio oh fuck i missed your birthday im so sorry im so sorry ouuuurgh

19 days late. what a FRIEND you are -_- (<- only learned your name like a month ago despite knowing you for way longer)

#ehehe jk ^_^ its ok i like late birthday wishes anyway #also no i cant do polls. until they work it out on desktop i wont be able to #i cant see em either cause i have not and will not update tumblr mobile #havent done so in ages and im not about to do it now. #its a bit annoying seein everyone havin fun with polls but only seeing the ‘unsupported content. update to see whats new’ thing though #but thats ok!!!!!! id rather die than update the tumblr app at this point tbh

[lightningfilledsaber]

sigh I’m not doing yaoi discourse in 2023. takes three seconds to look up how it originated versus other gay genres/subgenres like yuri, shounen-ai, bara, or BL. I seriously don’t give a fuck if people create/engage with yaoi but ignoring its origins is not helping anyone especially if you’re trying to reclaim the genre.

#mud rambles #yaoi is not yuris counterpart and people pretending it is. is like. ridiculous #men writing yuri and women writing BL in of itself is not an issue but like. yaoi was literally created out of the fetishization of gay men #by women for the consumption of other women. that is not 'pushing a bias' or what the fuck ever it takes two seconds to confirm that #reclaim the genre! idc! but again ignoring how it started isnt helping anyone #it's very distinct from BL bara and shounen-ai #i have a love hate relationship w yaoi as a genre bc it was a big part of my self discovery journey #and it's not even inherently bad. its just that. AGAIN. you cant ignore its origins in favor of having an aesthetic pair with yuri #ive been researching and learning about this shit since i was a teen #anyway seriously. this is the last im gonna b talking abt this #dont send me shit i am not engaging w it further #this was brought on bc somebody screenshotted tags i left on a post i reblogged but have since deleted #cause again. not doing fucking. yaoi discourse of all things as a fucking grown man lmfao #again. idfc if people create/consume/etc yaoi i literally would just like people to actually be critical of what they consume and #not ignore shit because they cant deal with the reality of how certain genres can come from shitty origins #okay bye <3 back to my regular blogging experience #dont reblog this or screenshot this or whatever this is my post my blog if i could figure out how to turn reblogs off for this post i would #i was able to do it before on the mobile app for other posts but that function apparently just does not exist on the web for me specifically #and i deleted the app a while ago. anyway. k bye

[a-new-dork]

Idk how to explain it properly but Target pulling some of the pride stuff off shelves due to customer complaints is kind of terrifying to me

#my life #idk but i feel like once the corporations stop supporting queer people thats it #and target had always been the quote unquote safe store for queer people #bc they wouldn't refuse service to queer people #but now theyre removing stuff from shelves #gotta back track one sec cause i feel like corps supporting queer people isnt the right wording #and im on mobile so i cant edit the tags #but what i mean is the corps no longer find us profitable

[caladbolg]

hm

#and i feel like theres such a stigma against the mental exhaustion the world causes these days but like in particular on the internet #like obviously willfully ignoring problems or whatever bcos u cant be assed is kind of shitty not everyone has the luxury of turning a #a blind eye to issues bcos it probably literally affects their whole lives but like #literally every day im being drowned w information #despair. hatred. malice. confusion etc etc 500 fucking things straight up lies or people fighting abt 20 different facets of a truth #the tv spitting out news that doesnt matter and is all just a cover up for anything that does #and how confusing discourse can be. dialogues and debates are important but i cant help but feel like so much of it is missing the point or #wait i forgot how i ended the previous tag. im on mobile so idk thought ended #anyway the point is its not that i want to ignore things or that i want to be willfully ignorant i just literally cant cope w the like #overload every single day. its so dissonant my brain hurts. just a gaping void a whole lot of nothing im staring at a wall

[farmersliga]

nah not my country’s fucking president posting a vlog of him chilling (on taxpayer money) in new york while we’re literally in a calamity

#meanwhile MY president; aka the one i voted for; is already mobilizing to help despite having no govt position now #anyway uh life update i guess im still alive but the rains are getting stronger and it’s not yet at our area #the nearby river is already sending out warnings cause the water is rising #and its 12 am so i cant rly see whats happening outside but i can hear the wind blowing the rains like crazy #it’s downgraded from super typhoon to regular but still hella mf strong typhoon though (thank u mountain ranges for breaking it up a bit) #(sidenote my government wants to destroy said mountain ranges bc theyre fucked up like that. hahahahahahaaha)

[todayisafridaynight]

The bento counter clip you shared is EXTREMELY funny (if it's not a glitch I'd love to try and trigger it), but I couldn't help notice the flower petal-shaped particles in Jo's "heat trail" for the first time. I somehow managed to overlook them until now.

RGGJo also has petals in his heat trail, and personally I've always liked to link it to the fact he canonically wears perfume. What if 7Jo wears a floral scent too...? Would be neat, given I can't tell which of them is supposed to be the one with the sensitive nose lol

Jo’s counter is actually a programmed thing from my understanding: he is meant to deflect regular/MPless attacks and items, but considering most people use exclusively special attacks at this point I reckon not a lot of people catch it (and as for items, you’re either using a rocket launcher/projectile or you’re too far for him to do... that LMAO). Still, it’s going to entertain me for a while the fact he CAN just cancel your healing

And I’m SO glad you noticed the petals too! I didn’t catch that they were a thing for RGGJo as well, but I thought they were a cute detail for Y7Jo when I first noticed them a while back! It’s especially sweet if we put it in the context of a reference to him and perfume :)

#snap chats #i answer worse while on mobile excuse me but im gonna be out for a while but i really wanna answer this #ive personally adopted Y7Jo having the sensitive nose but who’s to say it cant be either honestly #which reminds me i do wanna do something silly with that fact.. #mothers day is tomorrow maybe i can think of something with flowers or something lmao #Maybe I Gave Myself A Brain Blast Actually hm... ignore me im rambling to myself.. #ill stop there for now in case i DO think of somethig and then it can be a surprise lmao #but back to the Main Discussion of the flowers i guess its a nice callback to his more ‘romantic’ counterpart so to speak #also i just love flowers. guilty as charged #Rambling Part 2 but ive somehow reminded myself of hijikata’s sword having plum petals on it.. #‘snap how did you get there’ well i was thinking about how jo uses okita’s sword in this fight and then i thought of The Mine Parallel #and i remembered hijikata evidently and i was like Oh Yeah #ignore this part this isnt anything significant just me rememberin fun facts #if youve read down here tho ill let you go LMAO ty for sendin an ask in ! #ALSO FORGOT TO SAY THIS ON THE RECENT ASK YOU SENT i totes dont mind this smaller asks in-between the larger ones ! #i always love getting asks and i love chattin so ask away as much as you like ! #ok ill let you go fr now LMAO #i hate rambling on mobile cause i cant check my tags.. lets just hope im making any sense here

[astroellipse]

Tired tag vent 😞

#collecting my thoughts #seriously though why cant i do a read more on mobile #ah whatever. the informality of tags feels better for this. i guess. #just. anxious. i was chill all day everything was fine granted i was tired as hell cause i alept like shit #and now all my anxieties are hitting me! suddenly heart palpatations! yayy!!! #maybe i should not have watched better call saul before bed i shoulda done aomething more chill #granted i was getting j ro that funk where i didnt want to do anything but k couldnt aleep yet #going to implode head going to turn j to a great big fireball #theres just a lot all at once but its not even really that much im just a nervous wreck #i start school soon. never filed my fafsa for some godforsaken reason. hopefully i can focus through that #the place i replied to stopped replying abruptly while trying to digure out skmethjn with their website #had a weirsly atreasful time dealing with healthcare stuff #ambient worry about self image and my current situation and the future #aocial worries that i cant even vent about anymore because relevant people follow me now #not that thats a bad thing that's a net positive love havin friends #sparking with nonsense i need to ramble about but i cant cause its all just non issues and pity party stuff and hrg #the one thjng ill grant myself is oh my god maybe entering that relationship before was a bad idea now i know what it feels like #to be in love and i want that again so so bad #exploding again #i need to shower someone with love and affection jfc #maybe thisll pass or get less with time hopefully it does #but man its bad #as part of my weird sleep nonsense dreams last night there was one where i was in a relationship with fucking JERMA. #and it wasnt a dirty dream or anything we were just a tender couple talking about mundane shit and i rest my head on his shoulder and #ok now im getti g sodetracked because why the FUCK was it JERMA?? it coulda been my actual crush! that woulda made sense!! #hes not even my type!!!!!! god. anyways back to my crippling anxiety remembering that dream lightened my mood a little at least #heartrate atill funky but less overthinking #anyways going to pass out now its 1 and ive been exhausted all day that was enough no sense rambling #good night reader

[sol1loqu1st]

ugh

#looking into mobility aids #and i am. quickly realizing that the ones that would likely actually help me /without/ causing a ton of shoulder/hand pain would be like #those fuckin. sick ass forearm crutches that are designed to distrubute weight more evenly so it puts less strain on ur wrist #PROBLEM IS theyre $200 fucking dollars #which is. well outside my price range. and idk if i could get insurance to cover them #but even if i COULD the soonest i can possibly get in to see a doctor who could MAYBE help with that is. october #and. imma be real i want to be able to go to pride this year. i want to go to cons. i want to be able to stand at concerts #without wondering how im going to get back to my car #i'm. trying so hard to work past my own shit about this so i can even work up the nerve to ask my mom (h #(have to ship to her house so she has to know) #and at this point the fact that theyre so expensive is what's really terrifying. if it was just like $30 it'd be annoying but Worth A Shot #but $200 is like... a big decision #$200 is a 'this will definitely without question drastically improve my life' kind of purchase #and while i hope it would... i cant be sure

[sunsage]

He's not that keen on parties anymore (last time he didn't get invited to one, things kinda... escalated), but where there is free food, there is Great Sage. As far as he's concerned, sneaking in and stuffing his face is what parties like this one are all about.

#isola beach episode #iconless cause it's the middle of the night and my cat is asleep on me so im on mobile #like she was the one who woke me up but now she's napping away on top of me and i cant fall back asleep #anyway #feel free to bother this old man #iconless no more! (dragged myself to the laptop for this (not worth it))

[tezerenotameiki]

#venting in tags bc i cant figure out how to read more on mobile #god i feel so stupid for crying over this cause this always happens 75% of my appointments cant canceled or noshowed last minute #but i just feel so overwhelmed! with my own medical appointments and then dad has stage 2/3 cancer and might be ok but might not #and im scared but mom thinks he’s lying (which he probably could be!) and then he’s gone right back to manipulative shit! #stomping all over whatever boundaries/ground rules i tried to set when we fought ~2 months ago and he told me to go fuck myself and #blew up my phone and told me he was never speaking to me again! #and how tf do i enforce boundaries when he’s talking about chemo and shit??????? #and now i know i need to start over with a brand new therapist bc my current one is totally unreliable #but it’s like the past two years of opening up is all down the drain #and i dont even know what to do anymore. bro i’m so tired and my head hurts so much lol #sorry for dumping this. i am floundering rn