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forsythi-amitie · 8 months

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god I am so sorry I got excited and it made me gag a little (I'm fine.)

I can't be assed to take the time to figure out the lyrics right now but The title is just "the time of flowers" the song starts out pretty dramatic, and the colors are pretty dulled. Mika is also in the background of Shu, placed a distance away, and reaches out, from out of Shu's "shadow". When they touch hands, the stage changes, becoming bright, and Mika is now on the same level as Shu, and they begin to dance in unison. (The music also changes at this point) Around the halfway point however, the music shifts yet again. (there's this ascending-descending bit of music that I thought sounded cool, but also it's the kind of piece you'd hear in something to signal... something. Tension, a sort of buildup to a climax. I'm no music theorist) The two seem to attempt at grasping something (eachother? ) though unable to reach it (well the music changes again and goes back to flowery and pretty) Also they touch hands. Wowie. Actually for the first time in a mv? Up until now they've just brushed hands (or barely)

I want to say that valkyrie's music has changed, as they grow closer as equals. (and partners. in art. and life.) This one feels very "shu", compared to the last one that was very "mika". To me, the MV resembles a stageplay, with all the moving set pieces and such, telling the story of their relationship. The changes in music are like "arcs" for the story, setting the stage for the ups and downs they've been through. Okay I actually do have something to say. wall.

A lot of the previous valkyrie songs had a very dramatic energy to them? Like yeah shu is all into drama and the wondrous spectacle that are their performances, but I feel it's a different kind of dramatic to this new one. -> For one, it's got a very different feel..? Their dances are reminiscent of ballet, and instead of a very powerful show of artistry, it seems more elegant and delicate. Valkyrie's outfits are notoriously... maroon, and the stage matches. Lots of dark reds and purple and gold, things that drape, but also look somewhat heavy? This time, the stage is set to be out in the open, with the lighting kind of resembling sunlight, and with all the flowers around, it gives the whole stage a very weightless look. Their outfits as well, are very fluttery, and I think this is the first time there's been this much white in an outfit, as valkyrie's outfits trend more on the darker side. It's a bit hard to notice, but the two of them are wearing rings on each hand, one pink, the other teal. Actually for that matter the entire outfit is subtly decorated in their colors. I think this is pretty interesting, since the "main" colors are just plain black and white, split down the half. (Here's where I comment about the color palettes again) There's. like no maroon in the outfits this time. Oh, and I went back and watched [��宮電子回廊] (can't be bothered to type it) again, and their outfits had lots of vibrant teal and magenta accents, maybe also representing their individual theme colors. -> Another point, (forgive my rather lackluster vocabulary) but I want to say that the music itself has a lighter, brighter feel to it. It also sounds rather triumphant, compared to some of the more somber sounding songs of theirs. (I don't really know what key it's in so I can't say anything about that.) Also Shu doesn't do his weird little growl thing. (Yes, I rewatched all previous valkyrie MVs for this)

(so glad shu isn't wearing a damn hat I want to see his round haircut) (Okay bear with me. I do not know the exact lyrics and I can't quite tell what mika is singing in some parts. I can only hope I translated it right. If it's wrong, I'll know once in game MV is available so....) (ahahahaha I hate lyrics) [don't worry about this, I'll post something later] I think. wow they've come a long way. Shumika real.

Uh, kind of ran out of things to say. I don't know if I'm just hungry or still shocked-excited-nauseous. maybe both.

#enstars #ensemble stars #enstars ramblings #valkyrie #kagehira mika #mika kagehira #itsuki shu #shu itsuki #I'm not really that deep into analyses of characters and themes so this is the best I've got #I'll work on the lyrics once I actually know what they are #Edit: about the lyrics I'm working on it now so this post is suddenly being edited

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mukuberry · 2 years

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regarding Haruka: why don't you believe the brother theory?

Ok so the brother theory I've seen spoken about the most is the "Haruka is jealous of his younger brother and the love he gets, so Haruka kills the things he loves and in the end, the brother himself" so I'm basing this around that, if there's any other form of this theory feel free to bring it up 👍

So at the start of the mv we see Haruka sitting in his childhood home, looking in a mirror, before his perspection of himself starts to flash between himself and his younger self. They look extremely similar, with 4 noticable differences, 1) the younger version is well... younger, probably around 8? 2) He has a brighter colour scheme 3) He looks alot happier 4) He has a light permanently shining on him. The image outside the window changes from a normal looking tree and sky (current Haruka) to the sky we see his memories later on (young Haruka). After his reflection rapidly changes, Haruka falls back in suprise, into what I'm calling the "Ocean of memories" cause it sounds cool as heck.

You could argue that the reason they look similar and the reason he sees his 'brother' in the reflection is because he envies him and wants to be him which- fair enough makes sense. BUT I'm not swayed yet. I think Haruka envies his younger self alot, if we look at his current life he's completely and utterly alone, his mother has abandoned him (as we see later on), he's in a pretty shitty place right now (in his life i am not judging his childhood home im sure its great. He constantly says in his mv that he wants "to be a pitied and loved weakling", something which child him was. Sure, he was still verbally abused and his father still had abandoned him, but his mother was still with him and he was still able to make friends with other children (seen later in mv). All Haruka wants is to not be alone, and child him isn't. Because of this, the younger version of him looks brighter and happier, because current Haruka can't really understand why he wouldn't be, also in many cases, when a child is born into an abusive home, they don't really understand that whats happening is wrong, they repress the abuse, make excuses from it, dissociate from it, so it makes sense that younger Haruka was genuinely happier than current Haruka.

After falling into Memory Ocean, he sees alot of things from his childhood: drawings, his dog and his mother and younger self walking. Younger Haruka looks pretty happy again here :D, and current Haruka, filled with envy, stops the memory to push him down. When younger Haruka falls into the water, current Haruka takes his place, which doesn't make much sense to me if they were different people. Haruka in the Memory Ocean now looks upon his younger self with a young girl of the same age, watching fireworks together and holding hands, before current Haruka reaches out to her and he's seen laughing over her dead body.

It's not really clear why he killed her, however I believe it was to stop her from leaving and forgetting him. As he reaches out to her, he says "I just had to make sure". She's the only person excluding the mother and Haruka in this mv, so I assume he doesn't talk to or interact with people very often, and I'm pretty sure he didn't go to school, I feel like once the firework event was over they wouldn't see eachother again. We're also never shown his father in this mv, however it's mentioned in the interrogation cards that Haruka 'disappointed' him and that Haruka loves him. It's safe to assume that his father left when he was very young, which probably left Haruka with a huge fear of abandonment. As to why it was current Haruka killing her instead of younger Haruka? A mix of 2 things. 1) As said before, children block traumatic memories out and dissociate from them. Before the murder, the girls face was censored, after the murder her entire body and surroundings were. The mv has alot of this- more traumatic things are completely censored out, but everything is overall weird, things are missing or out of place, discoloured or stuck together unnaturally, like Haruka is trying to piece his memories together. The only places that aren't like this are the room he's in at the start and the bed he wakes up in, when he's not in his memories. That's why current Haruka is doing the murder, he can't remember his younger self actually doing it, so he puts current him in place. It also ties back to his envy of his younger self, it's kind of hard to be envious of someone for how happy they are if you see them muder someone while crying, so he just changes the killer from younger him to current him.

Haruka falls through the Ocean of memories again, before finding a memory of younger him with his mother playing with his childhood dog. His dog runs off into the forest, and younger Haruka runs after him. Something interesting is that he's nervously walking through the forest in one scene, then he's out of breath in the next, rubbing sweat of his forehead. He looks down at his hands and sees them covered in blood. If it was his younger brother, why would he be out of breath and why does he have blood on his hands?? I think Haruka himself makes this connection, as when he sees the blood, the younger him suddenly has current Harukas colour scheme, as the bright perception of his younger self starts to break and blend with his perception of himself, and his brain panics and quickly shows current him doing the murder (for reasons I said in last paragraph lol). When he murdered the girl, we didn't see the actual murder take place, just him over her body. We do however, see him murder the dog (beating it to death with a rock, wowza!) This is his brain slowly unlocking more memories, and Haruka himself slowly starting to accept his childhood as being more brutal than he first believes.

After the dog murder, he wakes up in bed again, before we see current Haruka standing in Memory Ocean, the background completely filled with bright coloutful doodles, Haruka himself is coloured completely blue. He's lost sight of who he is and who he wants to be, his idealised younger has started to fall apart completely but he's not quite there yet. He tries to reach for his mother, but unfortunately for him she's abandoned him aswell, leaving him alone. If Haruka's mother loved his younger brother, hence Haruka's envy, why would she have just left him behind aswell? Same with his father, why just leave him instead of taking him with them? Eventually the background completely fades to white, this time not because his memory is broken and repressed, but because we're at the current day. One last time, Haruka falls into his Ocean of memories, and is confronted with the memory he saw at the start, of his mother and younger self walking.

Haruka is desperately trying to piece everything together and understand why his mother and everyone else abandoned him, and he's so close to figuring it out (kind of). He focuses back on the happy face of his younger self, and instead of looking on with envy, he is absolutely distraught. One last time, he reaches out, not slowly like the previous times, but as quickly as he physically can as his emotions all explode. And he goes straight for the throat. He can't handle what he's just realised, but he can't unrealise it. He can't be that 'pitied and loved weakling' not because he is no longer a child, but because he was never loved in the first place. Despite this however, he can never stop his need to be wanted by others, and because of the verbal abuse he's faced his entire life, the conclusion he comes to at the end isn't "the people around me failed me and even though I've done terrible things, I didn't deserve what I've been through" he instead understands "I've always been a terrible person, I was unlovable from the start and always will be". The spotlight that has been stuck to his younger self finally shifts to the current him as he says and truly means "I was wrong. Yes, it was me."

TLDR: Weakness isn't a song about a boy torturing his brother due to jealousy over his mothers love, it's a song about a desperate man stuck in the past, trying to figure out why his life is the way it is, and coming to the wrong conclusion.

Sorry to the anon who asked this probably expecting a few sentences and getting an essay haha, honestly I was expecting like 3 paragraphs but while writing this I got a lil carried away, but atleast I finally have all my Haruka thoughts together ^_^

As always, obviously I could be 100% wrong about this! Milgram is about giving us little information at a time, there's no way we'd get the whole story from one mv and with his second trial video coming out soon who knows what could be revealed! If you made it this far, thanks for reading :) sorry if it's incomprehensible, most of my thoughts are

#milgram #haruka sakurai #sorry to my other anons i swear I'll respond one day ♡#anyway time to cry what a tragic character

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nightswithkookmin · 3 years

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Hi Goldy! I am curious about your take on how Jikook are edited in the behind the scenes clips since October (such as the ones for the Life Goes on music video, ABC Holiday Dynamite, and the Japan one (search on youtube for BTS japan shoot || behind the scene of Japan)). Do you think Jikook are interacting less, being just friends, being more professional, or is BigHit editing their interactions out? It just seems so different from the ones before Oct (FILA, Dynamite MV, Season's Greetings 2021)

Huh???😲😲😲

BigHit is doing what what now?😥

Do you mean that as a fact or theory?🤔

Why though?👀 They are not Tae Kook? 😥

There's Bangtan video of Jimin with his third leg dangling loose in the air somewhere on the internet, I don't think BigHit is that savvy.

Lmho. I mean I see what you mean but they are editors and cutting is what they do for a living. But this is Jikook sis. I don't see BigHit's incentive for 'cutting' Jikook's moments and you shouldn't assume that-

Unless...

You don't think Jikook's been groping eachother homoerotically on set lately have you? Cos, chile I'll believe that! I don't trust Jikook anywhere near eachother's vicinity and personal space.

I've seen enough to traumatize the devil himself. Chilee. Lol.

Bighit, in recent times, mostly tend to cut scenes and moments if they are a bit risqué. Like JK shoving his butt in Jimin's groin face, sliding his hands down Tae's chest...

Often times too they cut moments if its redundant. If a part of a scene is already in the main content they don't bother showing it in the behind scenes. From my observation.

When an interaction is awkward they skip it too, I feel. I mean I am still waiting to see JK touching all over Jimin and feeling him up in Run 106- honey, I'll pay to watch that shit with my kidneys. Lol.

Often too they save some scenes for memories or some other shit that they use all those pent up footages for. Lol.

BigHit is a business, they produce content that per their research and analytics garners more engagement, audience retention and a whole other metrics. They put a lot of creativity into what they do as creatives and artists- I mean if the baby noises is anything to go by. Those bites are tired!

But often times too, they're tired and they're lazy, and they just put anything together and toss it out there without giving it much thought- isn't that how they leave Jin or Tae out of packages, how certain Jikook moments that should have never made it into screen time ended up in screen time- how JM's third leg made it to the internet? They should have cut that shit before uploading it with those subtitles and yet here we are.

I think people give BigHit too much credit- talking about JK shouldn't gay panic and run away from certain moments with JM if he knows BigHit editors are going to cut those moments.... JM's dixk begs to differ. Chilee, Jimin you should have just worn pants. Can't trust these phony ass editors my guy.

The editing is really not a big deal. Not to me. But I love your question anyway. Especially the bits about what's different about Jikook and the content BigHit has been putting out since October.

Well something sure did go down in October, I don't care what anybody says.

I keep saying BigHit banks on the bond and intimacy of the boys, and the boys are more than happy to showcase their bond for the cameras just as Tae said and confirmed in a recent interview- Tuktukkers y'all did an Oopsie on the whole Taekook don't like to show their bond on cameras! Lol

Tae said it himself not me- he lives to showcase his bond with the other members. *where is my skull head emoji. Lmho.

I think what has changed since JM's birthday in October to now, to me where BigHit is concerned, is the general marketing strategy of the company.

It seems to me the company is adopting a marketing module opposite of the strategy they had been using before the pandemic. I think I've talked about this though...

Hate to say I said it, but I said it. Lol.

They are limiting access to the boys to drive sales as and when. BTS dominates the internet and have amassed greater reach and attention partly due to the free content they put out on the internet. But those were never monitised- not in a direct or significant way.

In the wake of the virus, they've had to monetize their online presence. A single tweet from their Twitter account is a phone brand promotion as I pointed out in past posts. There's been an increase in their sponsorship collaborations, in Soop and many of the content they've put up this year. They even turned on ads on their YT channels it seems.

Like I've been saying, this situation is global and novel, they are going to experiment with means and methods till they find that sweet spot and that is what I feel we are experiencing- amongst other things.

Unfortunately for us, our access to Jikook is gonna take a hit like I said before because the numbers are in their favor. I mean go to their YouTube page and see the metrics for yourself.

Jikook's holiday remix pulls way ahead of their counterparts. If their going to monetize any ship brand in BTS it's Jikooks. Trust. But that doesn't mean any ship in BTS is spared.

Someone asked me a while back, when I talked about this, whether all these changes the company was going through was going to affect the way Jikook interact on camera and I couldn't answer that with conviction then.

But I mean we are seeing a subtle, if not drastic change in the way Jikook interact with eachother and with their glass closet.

What that means for us, I think, is the company is going to choose when and where to show us content and certain interactions but that doesn't mean Jikook aren't interacting- know what I mean? I mean they have them. The juicy moments that's gonna make us slap our mamas. BigHit has it all. They are just gonna save it for as and when based on their marketing strategy, if you know what I mean.

I mean we all saw that blackswan performance, we all saw the holiday remix performance etc.

And you are right about the less interactions post October and I've shared my thoughts on it so I won't go into it. But I will state again that they are not broken up either, not to me. Lol.

I think we need to examine what interacting less means. To me, I consider Jikook interacting less if they have an opportunity to interact and they don't interact in a way that is usual of them.

Majority of the content we've gotten in recent times are pretty much very official contents, interviews, etc. The entire BE era, as I said is not about Jikook or even BigHit.

It's about BTS, all seven and Jikook can't monopolize the shine like they tend to do in other BigHit marketed contents in my opinion.

Jimin tried to be funny and chill in the dynamite mv and RM nearly went ninja turtle on his ass when he called him out for not taking things seriously enough during the shoot- Left to grandpa Joonie, the kids will sleep at five. Lol.

Seriously though, there is a huge gap between what BTS views as marketing and marketable and what Jikook or even BigHit views as marketing, in my opinion. And conversations like that between RM and Jimin goes to prove it.

Another interesting thing about this whole marketing approach is how BigHit isn't substituting any other particular pair in Jikook's stead. I see them giving equal screan time to the individual members- well not in a technical sense but I think you know what I mean.

Are Jikook required to be professional in certain situations, absolutely. And in previous years, I think they took too many liberties with it. But as I said, now more than ever they are learning and need to learn to read the room because they wouldn't be able to get away with much if they don't.

BE is a self produced project, after Soop- after when they were isolated to help them bond and repair fractures in their bond. If there were anything they were not happy with that led to Soop, trust that they are going to fix it post Soop and it's going to reflect in every sphere of their interactions.

RM for example has chilled on his monitoring and censorship of Jikook, Jikook have been pretty considerate of the group and have tried not to do anything to have RM pop a vein, Tae has been stepping up too- with the members going out their way to praise him and push him to the fore front of the group unlike in previous years *cough cough I don't want trouble but chilee.

I mean Jimin pointed it out in the Be behind when he said Tae was working hard and putting his best foot forward because the members had been showering him with lots of compliments in recent times and he wasn't kidding.

In the LGO comeback live, RM praised Tae for working hard forgetting it wasn't just Tae and JM's reaction was telling. Of course he backpedaled to compliment JM too.

Suga did the same thing in the Be behind video when he was talking about JM and praising him- I mean it's Suga and his Jimin, uWu. But then he too backpedaled to compliment Tae when he realized what he was doing and I was like CAN SOMEONE PRAISE KOOKIE TOO PLEASE AND THANK YOU. Lol.

Anywho, the company is equally chilling on their Jikook agenda which I have speculated on several ttimes so won't get into- it's all so very kumbaya and God, I hate it. Lol.

Give me the chaos goddammit!

I feel Jlkook loosen up in contents that aren't like super official business moments and that's when you see their domesticity. Lol.

You see them having their me time in the background of some of the content, and in one of the interviews where they were sat a good feet apart but they kept moving closer and closer till eventually after their lunch break cut, they were sat very close to each other.

I'm not a fan of the cameras being shove in their faces during their private moments- Kookie certainly doesn't appreciate that either.

But they are working for a living nonetheless and making content is what they do for a living. So we are definitely gonna get the content from them alright, the fanservice, the organic moments passed off as fanservice, the moments that should never make it to screen- all nine. Lol.

We are just not going to get them in a way we are accustomed to. And it certainly doesn't help that they are each on their own personal growth journeys- gradually disconnecting from their fanbase, I mean Jk's been long gone duh, and Jimin did say he has come to the realization not everyone in the fandom loves him and he is learning to react less strongly to them; which to me translates as bye bitches you don't deserve me. Lol.

I mean dude didn't bother posting for new year this year- y'all Jimin is done with our ass. We might as well pack our bags and join him in Kookie's Casa. I call dibs on the broom closet under the stairs. Lol.

Jikook gets called fanservice and other creepy slurs in this fandom but people forget all of this is their choice too. They choose, are choosing to share all the bits of them they share with us, with us. Inspite of all the hate and insults, they choose to do that- if they did it for the fanservice don't you think they would have called a time out on it long ago because it's not worth it?

I hate it here.

I guess what I'm saying is, you are right about these observations you've made and some of the things you've pointed out are facts.

But we have talked about all of that so it really shouldn't be anything new? Kindly check my previous posts. I think I shared my point of view on what I think is going on with Jikook, BigHit and BTS.

Other than those, I don't think there is anything major up with Jikook honestly. I keep saying I don't think they are broken up. I don't see either of them closed off, emotionally open to connecting with the others.

If anything I said I feel Jimin is falling in love all over again with Kook. I mean when he looks at him he looks to me as if he is seeing Kook in a different light.

And it's funny how all through out 2020 he kept reiterating how his friends and family and relationships were important to him, shading the ef out of Kook during the Japan Stay Gold promos claiming his relationships were important to him and was what was Gold in his life.

He even went on to talk about picking an accent spending time around his friends and talking with his friends around his birthday but suddenly in the Be behind scenes he was talking about how he's come to the realization BTS is his only true friends and how friends come and go.

Clearly he's had an epiphany of a sort and has been through something post his birthday that has him setting his priorities straight in the aftermath.

In his Weverse magazine, he mentioned how he's recently discovered something about himself, about how he loves to be loved. He then went on to clarify that when during festa he talked about having a desire to perform with the members for a long that that he meant to say he wanted to be with them for a very long time.

But then JK said Jimin said that bit to him first. And if this is the interpretation Jimin is giving to that statement then- one plus one is two honey. Numbers don't lie.

Dude don whispered those sweet empty nothings in JK's ear telling him he wants to be with him for a very long time and shit.

And now homeboy out here setting up roots in gay boulevard. I don't think their well is drying up any time soon. Lol.

They are in a honeymoon phase again and they are not showing us. Stingy bastards! Lol

And when JK said to JM in response, that BTS is his home- wow. He really said that...

He is Jimin's home. Literally. Please, my heartu😭

Jikook is real. Please support them.

Signed,

GOLDY

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heywardsarchive · 4 years

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Track #1. Heartbreak weather✨ Listen to it here (watch the mv it's so frikin adorable)

Peter Parker x reader (unnamed female)

Warnings: very floofy, angst if you squint, brief mentions of death. I guess that's it...

Special thanks to @im-a-writer-right for beta reading this🥺

Word count: 1.3k + words

Let's go!

Peter Parker's life wasn't all fun and games. He felt pain. Lots of it. Losing his parents at a young age and then his uncle and then his mentor. His heart had broken too many times. He didn't he could take more pain after that. But alas, luck wasn't on the side of sweet Peter Parker. Peter felt that his heart was beyond healing. He put up a smile on his face everyday but was shattered internally. He kept a brave face for his aunt. For Ned.

Peter stopped believing in love after that. He'd seen too much suffering on those who loved. That was until he met her. She was different. It was like she radiated joy and happiness just with a simple smile. Their meeting had been purely co incidental. He was at a pub with ned and Betty to celebrate the ending of college. He drank from his glass watching everyone around him dance around with joy. Everyone but him. Then he saw her. The golden girl. The ball of sunshine. She was with her friends dancing to the music. She laughed and threw her head back in joy. He was mesmerized by her. She noticed him staring and smiled. She walked over to him. "dance with me." He refused at first but after a pout from the girl he gave in.

I swear there was lightning coming from your eyes

Starting a fire in a hotel room

And yeah we were dancing, dancing to Bruno

And I couldn't turn away from you

She smiled brightly and pulled Peter onto the dance floor. She cheered at the sound of her favourite song. She danced for hours with Peter. He smiled. A true, happy smile. One he had never had in a long time. She made him feel happy although he had just met her. She made Peter dance till he laughed and felt free again. He looked at her once more and thought, I've never felt this way in a while.

Yeah I saw you smiling, breaking the silence

Telling me just what you want

There in the moment, I was reminded

I haven't felt this way in a while

The night ended with them exchanging numbers. She kissed his cheek and walked left. Peter started at the golden girl walk away. He could swear there were sparks flying when she smiled.

He went home with a smile and messaged her. She replied immediately. They spent the rest of the night chatting. Peter was starting to believe in love again.

Blinded by the sparks

We were driving around in the dark

Finding reasons to stay where we are

The second time Peter met her was when he was wandering late at night around a park where he saw her sitting on a bench looking at the stars. He sat down next to her and her lips upturned in a soft smile. She held his hand and pointed out the constellations in the sky. He couldn't take his off of her. She shone brighter than any star in the sky.

He stood up and offered to drop her home. They sat together in his car and drove around the dark streets. It was silent but calming. They exchanged a few words and enjoyed eachothers presence. They reached her house and she got off. She placed a kiss on his cheek and was about to leave when he grabbed her wrist and pressed his lips to hers. They pulled away and she blushed. "I really like you." He said softly. "I really like you too." She whispered close to his ear. She pressed one more kiss to his lips and walked to her door. Peter couldn't stop smiling that night.

All of my life I've been sleep-walk living

Running around the same bars I've been in

It can be so lonely in this city

But it feels different when you're with me

All of my life, it's been heartbreak weather

Thinking to myself it won't get better

It can be so lonely in this city

But it feels different when you're with me

Most of Peter's life had been filled with tragedies and heartache. He never felt such happiness before. All his life he'd been living in an endless loop. Getting up, working, eating and sleeping. He spent all his time running around the city alone, or third wheeling Ned and Betty, watching other couples in love. He never let himself love, until now. He drowned himself in drinks to forget. He never thought he'd get better, he'd be lonely living alone in a small apartment. But all that changed because of her.

Yeah, it was magic, you were a vision

Watching the way your body moves

Taking your clothes off, you look in the mirror

Telling me just what you want, and I

He took her out on dates and spent his evenings with her. Aunt may noticed a change in his behaviour. He was smiling. Happy, free,After so long.

One time they went on a road trip together. Shared their deepest secrets. She promised to stay by his side forever. She hugged him and fell asleep. There with her in his arms he felt loved. He felt safe.

Was blinded by the sparks

I was holding you close in the dark

Finding reasons to stay where we are

He occasionally had flashbacks of the loss of his mentor. He cried and she held him in her arms. She soothed him with soft words and loving words. Everytime Peter lost himself to the darkness, she was there to hold him and pull him back out. Then he knew that she would be by his side forever. He understood why people loved. It was worth it.

All of my life I've been sleep-walk living

Running around the same bars I've been in

It can be so lonely in this city

But it feels different when you're with me

All of my life, it's been heartbreak weather

Thinking to myself it won't get better

It can be so lonely in this city

But it feels different when you're with me

All his life Peter ran away from love but, now he didn't want to run. He moved from one bar to another trying to forget. Now he didn't need to. He had everything he ever wanted. All his life he hated the thought of loving. Now all he wanted was his one love to spend the rest of his life with her. He embraced love rather than pushing it away. Peter was happy. She made him happy.

You, that's what I've been missing

Was tangled up and twisted

Now all the clouds been lifted

Lately, my heart's been so empty

You, that's what I've been missing

Was tangled up and twisted

Now all the clouds been lifted

Lately, my heart's been so empty

He figured out that his heart had been aching because it yearned to hold someone in it. It desired to be loved and to love. All of Peter's thoughts had vanished when she entered his life. His walls had lifted. The clouds that blocked the warmth had disappeared. Her heart had been entwined with his and fulfilled it's desire. She saved him.

But it feels different when you're with me

It feels different when you're with me

She made feel wanted. It felt so good to feel that way. He visited the graves of his parents and father figures. It had been a while since he had. She stood back and waited. He smiled at her and told them about her. How he was finally happy. He, for the first time looked at their graves with a smile rather than guilt.

All of my life it's been heartbreak weather

Thinking to myself it won't get better

It can be so lonely in this city

But it feels different when you're with me

She changed him for the better. Peter didn't know what he would do without her. He thought he would drown, but she came like a breath of fresh air and pulled him out of the water and gave him a new life. He felt different, loved around her.

It feels different when you're with me

She was the one he loved.

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RECAP OF GOT7 FANMEET 1/29/2017

RECAP OF GOT7 FANMEET/CONCERT Sorry I'm still a bit hyped and excuse my language OMG HOW DO I EVEN START ON THIS SMH. GOT7 WAS SO FREAKING PERFECT UP ON STAGE ;-; WE CHEERED AND SCREAMED FOR EVERY THING THEY SAID CUS WHY NOT ... RETURN MY SOUL, LIFE, AND VOICE NOW .-. i recorded the entire 2hour thing with one arm smh give me my arm back too got7 First of all, we went to go get our merch (poster, jacket, shirt, and light stick) and got to our seats and all... and then we were just waiting for GOT7. Mark's family came exactly 16 minutes before the fanmeet started and we all went wild for a good 3 minutes. So I just went crazy on my Snapchat story and uh spammed it :O THEN it was 7pm and HARD CARRY started playing and we all were just screaming got7 got7 got7 got7 got7 GOT7 CAME OUT LIKE WTFWTFWT I WAS NOT READY i screamed so much with this girl next to me haha she's a jackson bias <3 IT GOT LIT AF. So they sang Let Me I SWEAR THEIR VOCALS ARE BETTER IN REAL LIFE OMG MY EARS GOT BLESSED MARKS RAPPING WAS SO FREAKING PURIFYING OHHHHHHHHHH YOUNGJAES VOCAL BLESSED MY LIFE LIKE WTF MAN They were sitting in the chairs from left to right: Jackson, Jinyoung, Mark, Jaebum, Youngjae, Bambam, and then Yugyeom. THEN THEY SANG Prove It I SWEAR JAEBUMMIES VOICE IS SO SEXYYY AND CHICCCCC X1000000 I LOVE BAMBAMS RAPS IN THIS SONG IDK WHY I JUST DO OK. AND MARKS OMG THOSE DEEP VOICES ARE JUST SE(ductive)XY AF. (NEW FAVORITE SONG IN TURBULENCE) hey all did self introductions (ALL IN ENGRISH YUS IM SO PROUD) and all seemed pretty shy at first OMG HOW COULD U BE SO CUTEEEEE Bambam (ATTEMPTED TO) get us lit but then it got awkward af. Like he told us to say Got7 everytime he says Ay and the third time he didnt even realize we said GOT7 and he just kept looking at us like SMH BOI SMH. idk their host was annoying af BUT I MEAN HE WAS THE ONE THAT ENCOURAGED THE SEXY DANCE FROM THE MEMBERS SO NO COMPLAINTS THERE. Q&A started .... Jackson's Question: What's your ideal type? Yugyeom: Sexy cutie IGOT7 (I swear I heard someone from the back saying ILL BE SEXY AND CUTIE FOR YOU YUGYEOM) it was super cute when the host was like raise your hand if your a sexy cutie IGOT7 :3 WE ALL RAISED OUR HANDS haha and yugyeom was like "so many heh *nervous laugh*" Bambam: a girl who is cute, but when you get to know her, she's sexy. I'd like a girl with a sexy side. BOI U NEED A GIRL TO DAB WITH U EVERY MORNING. Youngjae: ummm.. ummmm...... OKAY YOU *points to girl* *breaks everyone else's hearts in the crowd* "BECAUSE YOU ARE AN AHGASE" *HYPES UP CROWD MORE SCREAMING* -everyone else starts saying IGOT7/Ahgases- *Bambam trying to calm us down lmao no it didn't work because Youngjae basically just told us he loves us all* Jaebum: I don't really have an ideal type... (he was nervous af) Host: So you like all AHGASES? Jaebum: yeahhhh.... Host: YEAHHHHH... * I THINK I ACCIDENTALLY STOPPED RECORDING HERE OOPS * MARK: (MINDY IS MY IDEAL TYPE) YOU... I love all AHGASES (boi) Jinyoung: I love IGOT7s <3 Jackson: I love everyone, I love you, I love IGOT7 (love me jackson) Next question: Can the members do a sexy dance? Jackson: Yugyeom Yugyeom you first <3 Yugyeom does sexy dance to Prove It (inappropriate content pm me for those details :3) i will never think of that song the same way again. nope nope nope yugyeomie yah. Mark turns around like no i aint seeing this shit again (even though ur hyung man) Jackson looks down at Yugyeom doing his uh-sexy dance- and is very proud of his work. After Yugyeom was done with the sexy dance Jaebum reached out his hand and took it back and made Yugyeom fall again (savageee) but yes, he did help him up afterwards Yugyeoms face was like why am i even living rn Question: What inspires you in writing a song? Jaebum's: Experience and imagination (DEEP) Host: OH AND JAEBUM READS A LOT (JAEBUMBUMBUMBUM) and watches lots of movies... what kind of movies? -Jaebum's face: wtf is he saying...- Jaebum gets translation: La la land (what is that...) -sings a song from that movie SEXY AF VOICE- Question: What do you like the most of the MV music? Youngjae: i like the small parts and the really strong beat and you can bounce around to the music Question: You (meaning Bambam) and Yugyeom.. can you dance to (???some lit af american music which i clearly dont know of since i got into kpop but it was lit i mean yehhhhh...) music Bambam: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASYYYYYYYYYYY *Insert note: YUGYEOM IS SUCH A CUTE BABY OMG I WANNA ADOPT HIM* Question: If you were an American artist who would you be? Yugyeom: *asks crowd* Yugyeom: Kendrick Lamar? someone from crowd: DONALD TRUMP DONALD TRUMP Bambam: oh? what are u guys saying *laughs* Bambam getting ready for a dab like its his routine DABDAB dabs* crowd goes wild* DABDAB IS VERY PROUD OF SELF* MOMMA JINYOUNG SHAKES HEAD* bambam ur ded. BOOM BOOM BOOM (BOOMX3) PLAYS* G7 TURN UP <33333333333 *me singing to the song but rly i probably pronounced everything WRONG BUT NO REGRETS) HIP THRUST DURING BOOM BOOM BOOM PART YUGYEOM AND BAMBAM CALM DOWNNNNNN When bambam sang "turn all the lights on" MARK LOOKED AT HIM AND NODDED AND WINKED WTF YO I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW GOOD THEIR VOICES ARE IT JUST SOUNDS SO GOOD LIKE UGHHHHHHHHHHAAAHHHHHH PARK JINYOUNG IS LIKE A FREAKING PRINCE IN THAT BLACK JACKET WITH SILVER LINING AND RED UNDERSHIRT OMG HE IS A TRUE PRINCE HIS PERM IS JUST HUKUHKHUHKUH then... JUST RIGHT PLAYS CROWD GOES CRAYCRAY AGAIN *MINDY'S NONSTOP SHAKING YO* THIS ENTIRE SONG IS SO WARMING I LOVE THE WORLD NOW lol thats funny. YOUNGJAE SWITCHING UP THOSE VOCALS MADE US DRUNK AF BAMBAM IS BEING EXTRA AF LET ME TELL U WITH THOSE LONG LEGS HE LOOKED LIKE HE WAS READY TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD (JACKSON). IN HIS RAPPING PART JACKSON WAS very inappropro lets make this less inappropro and just say he was like "SAY OHHHH YEAHHH.... SAY OHHHHH YEAHHHHHHH... SAY OHHHHHH YEAHHHHHH. SAY OHHHHHH YEAHHHHH." BAMBAM: "SAY OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (voice cracks* smh boi) SAY OHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHH (voice cracks again*) SAY OHHHHHHH YEAHHHHH (now imagine this in a deep deep voice) SAY OHHHHH YEAHHHHH (this was even deeper) ++++++++++++++++++++++++ GAMES ++++++++++++++++++++++++ Game #1: Guess the Song Game #2: Hacky Sack (each member from GOT7 plays with someone from the audience) Everyone chooses who they partner with MINDY WAS 2 NUMBERS AWAY FROM MARKS NUMBER SMH MARK MARK MARK IF YOU ONLY ADDED 2 TO THAT LAST DIGIT I WOULDVE GONE UP .-. you wouldve hugged meh <3 (that's for lataaa) mindy's heart breaks NO BUT I FEEL HAPPY FOR THOSE IGOT7 WHO WENT UP STAGE MAN NONE CRIED??? I WOULDVE FLIPPED HELL (sorry sab's natural habitat) GOT7'S COMPETITIVENESS IS CRAZY EVERY ONE WAS SCREAMING AND DYING AND KILLING EACHOTHER TO GET THE RIGHT ANSWER OMG But overall, Youngjae won the first round after guessing the most amount of songs correct <3 He even went on his knees for "Beggin' on My Knees" *lowkey feels like Jinyoung, Yugyeom, and Mark were pretty ignored... almost never got called on...* Game #2 begins and the people who were chosen gets up stage :D Every IGOT7 does their self introduction Yugyeom's partner: Amy, favorite GOT7 song is Fly Bambam's partner: Molly, 24 years old *PAUSE HERE FOR A SEC* Bambam: ohhh.... NOONA *continue* Bambam's partner: favorite GOT7 song is If You Do Youngjae's partner: Arianna Youngjae: Arianna, ah, yea, WOAWWWW Youngjae: How old are you? Arianna: Who's that Youngjae: I asked how old are you. Who I am? I'm Youngjae HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH Youngjae: What's your favorite song? Arianna: Who's That Youngjae: You don't like Home Run? Jaebum's partner: C(K?)at Jaebum: Cat? Oh wow oh oh uhhhhh okay What's your favorite song? Cat: Just Tonight Mark's partner: (mindy ;-; jk) Serena, favorite song is Fly Jinyoung's partner: Vivian, favorite song is Mayday Jackson: Sussy, from China, favorite GOT7 song is IDK because she doesn't understand engrish. and her favorite member is Jinyoung (BETRAYALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL) Jackson: Can you be more confident? *HUGS* (i need a man like jackson ;-;) JACKSON SAYS HIS PARTNER IS PRO AND WEARS HER COAT SO SHE CAN KICK THE THINGY JACKSON YOOOO GIRL WANNA TRADE (wait but mark) Scores for the second game: Youngjae team: 5 Jaebum team: *Jaebum trying to be calm but almost trips smh* 3 Bambam team: *STARTS MAKING SHIPS OF HIM AND HIS PARTNER* "Holly, Bambam... Hollybam.... Bamlly. Bamlly you go first" 4 Jinyoung team: *JINYOUNG IS SUPER GOOD AT THIS* 15 (Jinyoung made like 12 im so proud of this mother) MARK TEAM: (mark im so proud) gets 16 ---- PRAISES THE KICKY THINGY hugs the girl up in the air .... mindy is reminded that her last digit was only 2 numbers away sad face XD Yugyeom team: *hits his partner and she fake dies lol* 8 Jackson team: "She's pro" *CONFIDENT HES GONNA WIN* *TAKES OFF HER JACKET AND HOLDS IT FOR HER* *AFTER HIS PARTNER IS DONE PUTS JACKET BACK ON HER* 5 WINNER IS TEAM MARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK the girl gets marks jacket LUCKYYYYYYYYY WE GOT TO SEE THE "SECRET" BEHIND THE SCENES OF THE MAKING OF HARD CARRY'S MV THEY ARE SO SEXY IN THEM. THEY START PERFORMING FLY JB IS BACK TO HIS EXTRA SELF AND THIS TIME ALSO BRINGS IN YUGYEOM SMH. MARKS RAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP HOW CAN MY HEART TAKE THIS LOL NO I DIDNT I DIED. JINYOUNG'S VOICE IS SO SOFT WTF MANNN even mark screaming at the end was sexy af everything got7 does is sexy af SMIRK FACE INSERTED NEXT THEY PERFORMED IF YOU DO THEIR PERFORMANCES ARE SO GOOD I FEEL LIKE IM REPEATING SO MUCH BUT ITS RLY RLY AMAZING IM SO PROUD OF THEM GAWD GOT7 IS SO AMOOZHING GOT7 say their thank yous and YUGYEOM WIPES HIS SWEAT uughgghhghghg and its sexy af THEY SAID THEY WILL COME BACK JINYOUNG SAID THEY WILL COME BACK THIS YEAR. JINYOUNG SAYS KCON JINYOUNG SAYS SO. *MINDY STARTS SAVING NEW YEARS MONEY THEY START PERFORMING HARD CARRY HARD CARRY HEH WOH HARD CARRY HEH *no jackson did not lift up his shirt like i expected* Jaebum wraps HIMSELF IN A HOODIE AND IT LOOKS SO DARK BUT SO CUTEEEEEE THEN THEY PERFORMED HOME RUN ONE OF MY FAVS <3 JINYOUNG AND HIS SASS OMG JINYOUNGGGGGGGGG BAMBAM TAKES SOMEONES PHONE AND RECORDS HIMSELF BAMBAM KNOWS HOW TO KILL FANS. BEWARE OF THE BAMBAM.. SO DOES JINYOUNG. BEWARE OF BOTH JINYOUNG AND BAMBAM. THEY SAID THEIR GOODBYES AND LEFT </3 -------------------------------------- overall this fanmeeting was a very very very amazing experience and I got to see GOT7 in real life, not through the screen bUT IN REAL LIFE ive been crying since 11 smh i need help it's so surreal I can't even believe it's already over like. HUKKKK. Got7 is probably at Mark's house right now and Mark finally gets to reunite with his parents that he hasn't seen since summer. got7 is probably resting up for their next comeback

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