#but still in pain occasionally

[saturnvs]

equine therapy starts again today for the first time since … october? nervous 🫠

#debating whether or not i want to continue because so far it’s only given me more anxiety #and i’m not sure the therapist and i … match #i need something softer and she’s not always very soft in her approach #+ she thinks i’m ‘too young’ to occasionally have debilitating back pain #and she also did not believe when i told her i was diagnosed with autism because i ‘don’t look like it’ #🙃 #many parts of the therapy Have been good but i’m not always sure if she even likes me that much? she gets frustrated when i get anxious #i’ll just see how i feel about it today although i’m shaking with anxiety lol #let’s just say it wasn’t entirely what i dreamed of when it began #and i’m still hoping for my old riding school to get back to me #i might need to resend that email..

[dreamerinthemoonlight]

Do you think Zhongli ever has nightmares?

Like, the man is insanely well adjusted and takes things in stride, but he also seems to have a sense of nostalgia...

So are there nights where even millennia later he can't help but remember the past? How fucking hard must the archon war have been? Or the Khaenri'ah incident? He's seen war and death and has lost so many people.

And he isn't heartless. When you look in his eyes, you find intensity and power and more passion than his refined demeanor lets on.

So yeah, does Zhongli fall prey to nightmares?

#It might be interesting to write that kind of fic #Headcanoning that Zhongli is well adjusted but still occasionally feels the pain #Maybe not from the violence but from the loss #Like he dreams of the people he's lost and wakes up half expecting them to be there #Shit that makes me cry #I think I'll add this to my ever growing to do list #genshin impact #Zhongli #teyvat talk

[ladysophiebeckett]

been off coffee for about a week but i still take excedrin for a headache. im trying to only drink teas and water and its okay. im not, like, dying. but i feel i deserve a little treat and that little treat should be a latte.

#im not uncontrollable about it #but i still miss it #my period lasted 4 days which is good and it wasn't super painful. #so the changes ive made have done something #so now im giving up coffee and trying to drink more water in various ways #i still have the occasional problem where i skip a meal and it alternates between lunch or dinner #but i still try to eat a full breakfast #its just the rest of the day that i mismanage #but like i said i feel like i deserve a little treat : (

[cringefaildiaz]

Whatever you do don't go back through and watch all 5 seasons of buddie/chris scenes while thinking about how much of a family they've been in 6b. I'm experiencing chest pains.

#buddie #911 fox #i did this last night and i am still occasionally stabbed in the heart by the image of chris trying one of bobbys snacks in 'stuck' #pain and suffering

[albatris]

#i was thinking about how #i dont think nat actually dislikes being a vampire lol #like its painful and a bit annoying but. but. i dont think he has nearly the same qualms lots of vampires do with Who Is Acceptable To Eat #like alex is in HELL bc it doesnt think its ok to murder at all and is still in hell even only #feeding on the absolute scum of the earth #nat eats rich pricks and abusive assholes. i think hed be fine with eating the occasional customer #like the really really gross ones who hurl abuse or slurs or have harassed other coworkers #like. if nat is ok with following riley's lead and hanging out at bars eating creeps or people who #say stupid sexist racist homophobic etc things #then this boy Definitely is ok with eating abusive customers right

[egoborderline]

I called my therapist :)

#it helped I'm still kind of in crisis but it very much helped #she's been seeing me since I was 12 and first diagnosed with major depression #as an adult I've only seen her occasionally but she always helps #she's doing something other than Private Practice but we could still work together in some capacity and she is going to contact some other #People ic an talk to #Mental health #Woof #Evan has an ulcer I think too poor guy is in so much pain. So far ngl 2024 sucks

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

the actor having a cocaine addiction since 1922 and literally doing it off of silver platters vs jack making henrik shoot him up with morphine stolen from the hospital every single night. and somehow both these guys are still alive despite this

#jack also drinks heavily and occasionally abuses pain meds if henrik cant get him his drugs #idk if this is too dark to post but i think about jack abusing drugs and stuff because being a Creator takes its toll #not sure exactly how jack became....the way he is i still need to develop that #meanwhile everyone was doing hard drugs back in mark's day so hes been doing that shit for 100 YEARS and STILL HASNT KEELED OVER #old habits die hard ig #drugs tw #addiction tw #again apologies if this is too dark or insensitive #i just think jack abusing henrik for drugs because he can manipulate the medical system well (he did this to get jackie his meds initially) #makes jack a whole lot shittier #also i think mark being this hollywood famous actor from the roaring 20's its apt to end up with hard drugs #if i need to tag this as anything else lmk pls #ego posting

[thatskindarough]

Pre-fall Crowley is literally an angel.

#good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #gos2 spoilers #gos2 #good omens s2 spoilers #Crowley #angel crowley #I adore the difference between Crowley when he was an angel and Crowley after he’s fallen #Aka Crowley post trauma. He was so bright and bubbly #and he still is #occasionally #But it’s tinted by pain and rejection. #And they don’t draw any attention to it #but I think it’s so interesting #like truly kudos for that

[caffeinatedopossum]

Getting sick as an adult and having the terrifying realization that when I would get multiple sinus infections a year from my "allergies" and my mom told me I would die if I didn't take my medicine even though I only felt mildly ill...

yeah turns out what she meant by that was not "sinus infections are very deadly" but was in fact "I will not take you to the hospital if this gets so bad that it starts to kill you and I cannot afford a dead kid on my hands"

#like not to shame people who suffer from sinus infections. like sure they suck. but under normal circumstances they should not be killing u #and neither should allergies to pollen for that matter #it was also a problem because i was pretty severely underdeveloped (still am) and my throat was genuinely so small i couldnt #swallow the pills without very bad pain and fear of choking. especially since i was unable to breathe through my nose #like taking any amount of time to swallow something when your nose is completely congested feels bad #i also couldnt handle the liquid form of dayquil that i wad given because i knew it made my siblings gag and i had awful emetophobia #anyway yeah just thinking back on the neglect as an adult really puts things into perspective #i can think of at least 10 times off the top of my head that she would have let me die without batting an eye #and idk how i survived honestly. i guess i was just fortunate because theres no way i saved myself in those scenarios #actually there was one time my sister took me to the ER (against my moms will even though she had health insurance 🙃) #but that was when my sister was an adult #i mean that same sister also did allow other shady stuff though without batting an eye so idk how grateful i should be #like she was perfectly fine with the fact that our house had no heat and i just occasionally (every day) could not be woken up #idk what kinda double standards she had going on there but yeah #i lived! yay...? #yea yay

[squidcreature]

feeling that ache in my chest about writing

#its damn near painful how much i miss it #but i don't even know what it is exactly i miss about it #not the act entirely because i still do it occasionally but ..... the passion #writing used to be my reason for existing and now its just .... a thing i do sometimes

[mantisgodsdomain]

7 vi but instead of food (i get the vibes your vi just straight up doesn't refuse food) crimes or drugs whichever you prefer

(for this ask game)

7. Lots of people don’t have a favorite food drug or crime when put on the spot, but what’s a food or drink drug or crime that your OC would never turn down if someone offered it to them?

...listen the conditions under which our Vi would refuse food are extremely specific but they do exist. Depending on the variant, you might hit that faster or slower, though it varies on the person offering it to her and the circumstances surrounding it. Wereweevil Vi, specifically, will absolutely fucking not refuse food under any circumstances, but she is an outlier and most other Vis actually have a point where they'll say no.

In terms of crimes and drugs... listen, Vi has a sense of self-preservation, and people absolutely don't just hand out drugs either For Free or For No Reason. Getting her to accept doing it is the hard part, if you're not already someone she trusts - what are you, a cop? Gonna tattle on her if she takes your offer? She does, actually, have a fair amount of trust in most of the Underground Tavern regulars, and would probably take up an offer for Illegal Actions if offered, because she trusts they won't try to fuck her over and will probably be willing to back her up if worst comes to worst.

If she's being, like, offered something to try and do, and it's someone she knows, then she has pretty decent assurance that her friends won't deliberately try and kill her, but she might still want to question if it's safe for her species, whether in a "this open job offer might not actually be open to a bug where almost everyone seeing her will immediately assume she's associated with the Bee Kingdom and might report them back to the queen" way or a or "whoever made this drug has never accounted for her species in test runs and there's a solid chance of her experiencing adverse side effects from it" way.

She's not entirely naive - she knows what she's doing, she knows it might be dangerous, and she's only really willing to assume the Tavern bugs have her best interests in mind because of experience. Unless she's being paid for it, she won't take up an offer from just anyone, and she has decent confidence in not getting fucked for taking the offer.

That said... in terms of drugs, the one (1) thing that she might consider getting from Random Unlicenced Sellers She Doesn't Know would be Daydream. Chronic pain reasons, as per usual. If it's getting to autumn and times she Knows that she's gonna run into more Bad Pain Days and her usual dealer's not got enough she might go hunting for another supplier, and in that case - yeah, she'll take random handouts and shady offers, and yeah, she'll probably get fucked over for it. Probably better than lying on the floor unable to do anything due to her body swinging a fire axe into her spinal cord that makes it feel like there's a white-hot rod of metal permanently impaled into her chitin and through half of her vital organs. She might reconsider if it's particularly shady and she's with Team Snakemouth, but being in horrible pain has a way of making you abandon your previous convictions in favor of not having to endure part of your body trying to violently kill you to death by making your entire nervous system fry itself with chronic pain.

With crime if you pay her enough then she'll do basically anything but for profit-free mischief, uhh. Listen if you walk up to her in a bar and say "hey, wanna vandalize something" then she'll probably agree before asking any further questions. Some day this will bite her in the dick but she will probably only learn "plan more when vandalizing things" from it.

#asks #ask games #headcanons #we have one specific fic in which she winds up with one food she absolutely fucking will not eat unless she actively HAS to #as in. “would rather starve for days on the hope of Food That Is Not That than eat it” levels #with the beemerang shes less upset about “it was stolen” and more upset about “it was stolen and shades didnt tell me from who” #but being a bee means she has slightly more leeway on it than. say. a mosquito who shouldnt have been in the hive in the first place #plus depending on how he got it he might just Not Know that it was originally bee tech. equal odds of bee or termite and such #its not necessarily guaranteed and since shes not a part of the hive anymore that chance is SIGNIFICANTLY decreased #and YES shes likely to be in contact with the people that it was stolen from who thus may recognize it and get her in trouble #also necessary context for daydream it is a painkiller that is also occasionally sold as a street drug under the name daydream #known as morpatamine in like. generic medical brand form. though vi might take a few seconds to recognize it under that name #it may be a prescription drug but she has never taken out a prescription in her life and shes not about to start now #it is. VERY strong. produces a “floaty” high. vi takes it for chronic pain reasons because she enjoys not being in pain and is Used To It #we have it as a. semi-consistent vi feature? takes it pre-tsm for pain reasons and then goes cold turkey when she gets hired as an explorer #shes functional under it and could probably actually get More done under it for pain reasons but she still. no longer takes it #this Is Not Good for her. she is in pain that she absolutely does not have to be in for Not Taking Drugs Points awarded by no one. #unfortunately she also thinks that if she tells her teammates about the fact that she has done A Drug and might want to do them again #they will drop her like a hot potato and/or tell her entire family that she is a druggie #because she was still raised in the hive and still retains some of their views on drugs for Herself Specifically #because though obviously her friends are cool & doing a drug is neutral for them it is a sign of deep moral corruption for Vi Specifically #anyways this means that she will go out on a mission while being like an 8-9 on the pain scale and do like. maybe 1 ibuprofen about it #this specific dynamic means that though she trusts kabbu and leif SIGNIFICANTLY more than shades in p much every way #she would never ask one of them to help supervise her use whereas she might ask shades to keep an eye on her #generally this is a bad decision. he will absolutely fuck with her for fun. they both know this wont stop her from asking him again tho #she could probably ask doppel if she didnt want to be told that shes been given forever weed #but doppel has a job to do and she doesnt want to interrupt and plus if he knows shes been Doing A Drug he might be disappointed in her #realistically he already knows and just doesnt care but vis already a bit high strung on it with anyone whose opinion she cares about #we will retag this to put it in the main bf tag in a bit maybe. we are not sure how the fandom proper would respond to this flavor of post #chronic pain hcs tend to be localized to kabbu and undetailed on management. we deal with heavy duty painkillers

[treecakes]

i gave in and ordered compression socks to try and reduce walking induced leg pain… and who knows maybe some other issues will be helped too 😭

#i still don’t know where my medicated ointment is it completely disappeared on me #even though it’s been in one single spot for over a year #but just whyyyyy is the leg pain flaring up i haven’t even been doing strenuous activity lately #i’m just wondering how i got by doing 30000 steps a day in may but i’m dying with maybe half that now? #like minimal leg pain back then occasionally it hurt but not this badly!!! what did i do!!!!

[aropride]

omg february 14th is my favourite holiday (anniversary of me getting my wisdom teeth removed)

#text #better than being in a romantic relationship 💯 #jokes aside when the meds wore off it was probably the worst physical pain id ever felt in my life that i can remember right now #<- but i have Cant Remember Upsetting Things Easily Disorder. so #anyway. 3 years 🌟 and im still startled occasionally by the missing teeth