#but sure! invite friends over!

[lesbiansanemi]

Still thinking about the conversation I had with my roommate’s bf like two weeks ago where he said he was scared of furries but also didn’t even know enough about furries to know they were called furries I had to figure out wtf he was talking about. The urge to become a full blown furry now. Despite having all the makings of a furry I for some reason have never ended up enthusiastically becoming one despite my best efforts. Well. With spite as my motivator here we are. Where are the furry artists, I’m commissioning both my tentative ideas for my fursonas. I’m inviting all my friends who are furries over and we’re gonna work on making fursuits. I will also make this a hostile living situation for you AND I will get the added bonus of doing fun furry stuff

#during the same conversation he very heavily insinuated he thought I was a cringey weirdo in the most derogatory sense #by making fun of most of my hobbies and calling ppl who liked them cringey weirdos #but then going ‘oh! oh no! I don’t mean you though you’re fine you’re like Normal 😀’ #so. you know. #anyways last night I walked in the door from work #and the entire apartment smelled like weed and there was a dog barking at me and he was watching tv SO loud #🙃🙃🙃 sensory overload immediately in main part of apartment so I hid in bedroom all night #I’m also irritated cuz I’ve had convos with my roommate about weed FOREVER ago #literally my one ask was if he was gonna smoke he do it outside so the apartment doesn’t smell like it #idc if you smoke and you are free to do edibles/dabs/whatever inside just pls don’t smoke joints #I hate the smell and it’s bad for the animals #so why is it 🙃🙃🙃 all of a sudden happening again as this guy moves in 🙃🙃🙃 #anyways about to become a revenge furry and also suuuuuper fucking cringey just to bother/embarrass him #esp cuz he said he wants to have friends over all the time which I’m also FUDJDJSJSKSK about #but sure! invite friends over! #I’m gonna sit in the living room with my giant easel and draw furries and listen loudly to vocaloid while they’re here 🥰 #I’m gonna have a great time! you won’t tho lmao #kaz rambles

[maryoliverdotcom]

guys help—there's this girl in class who stares at me everyday...i've noticed this since last year but she keeps staring at me this year as well,,,am i doing something wrong/stupid??? help

#apparently she told her group of friends to invite me over to their table for lunch #& she used to be rly shy and quiet but now she does things to “annoy me” & tells me she loves annoying me #which is really out of character for her #and she turns away when i catch her staring. or she waves awkwardly #like i'm sure i've done smth wrong!!!!!! what did i do man fucking hell #literally bursting w anxiety at this point.....what did i do to solicit all this. Behaviour

[hella1975]

end of march is crazy for writing like i have a 1.5k essay im doing today and tomorrow, a 2k word essay im doing wednesday and a 1k word research proposal im doing friday. and in the remaining week of the month i am WILLINGLY going to finish taob (~10k OPTIMISTICALLY) and make a solid start on tams (~5k-10k depending on how well writing goes). like yes girl write around 20k words worth of MULTIPLE PROJECTS in a handful of days there is no way this can end badly at all

#'hella no one is pressuring you to post anything if you arent able to or are overwhelmed by the barrage of uni work you have atm' stfu #i cannot stress enough the moment i give myself a self-imposed deadline for a fic it HAS to be met #like you guys could beg me to chill out and i simply would not cave #also i just got back from dnd and it was such a good session like i have actual friends there now #and the DM from today actually messaged me on facebook afterwards saying how much he enjoyed playing with me #and he said i brought a lot to the table and my interaction was 'better than some people that have been playing for 5+ years' #I GOT A GOOD GRADE IN DND SOMETHING THAT IS BOTH NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE #and next week is the first week im going without my mate bc she's away so i was a little nervous #but then this guy that's basically adopted us was like 'omg i'll make sure we're on a table together so you at least know me!' #which was nice enough on its own BUT THEN this dm that's been playing for over 40 years who always chats with us after #was like INSISTANT that we go on his table next week which im SO buzzing for bc he's like a veteran player he knows SO MUCH #and it felt very cool that he was actively inviting us like i dont think that's something he does often #hehehe im having fun with the freaks and weirdos <3333 #hella goes to uni

[despairingethics]

will canonically does shrooms (bc of the cult) i wonder how he felt

i assume he stopped when lila was able to fully manifest, right? or did he always need to smoke to see her… or are the mushrooms used for something else I can’t remember

#imagine he invites friends over and they see the mushrooms in the mirror cabinet #like… “william we didn’t knew you did this” something like that #how would everyone react hmmm #i’d assume everyone would be shocked and specifically martha would be worried #and maybe someone else like regina? idk she seems like someone to worry about her friends and mike #if he loses memory of lila after the tower ending what would he think of the mushrooms #i mean sure he’d remember the cult (right?) but not lila? ugh idk #who's lila #it’s almost 12

[bonepriests]

when i have a sec after work going to push out a little sprite commission sheet. or maybe i'll work on formatting a shop thread for it??

#i guess drop a note here if youre interested in getting pinged #not sure when i'll have a sec. invited some friends over for dinner on thursday and somehow 'some' turned into 8 people counting me & gf #got prep to do LOL

[archduke-enver-gortash]

posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

#god i am trying so hard to just have fun and be myself #but when i do that i'm immediately a strange outsider creep #and since i can't really mask my version of masking is just not talking and then obviously you don’t find any joy in fandom spaces either #i will always be a shitty unlikable freak no matter how much i pretend otherwise. it was obvious from the start that getting involved in #fandom spaces was a fucking mistake. it's always a mistake because you're some laughing stock at best and a horrifying freak at worst #i don't blame people for not liking me i've realised what an awful person i am long ago #but it's always so hard witnessing something like fun social groups from the sidelines knowing you'll never be a part of it #this is why my mental state has been deteriorating so severely in the last few months. that Realisation once again nothing fucking changed #i know it's stupid to get so upset over fandom but it's only a pattern for me #i stopped trying to be friends with people when i was a teenager because it hasn't worked a single time #this attempt at integrating myself into the wotr and bg3 fandom by sharing my shit was just one mistake #gortash/zeke is so different from anybody else’s work and i wish i could find joy in something that it isn’t fucking deranged but i can’t #like yes it’s just fandom bullshit! gortash/zeke is a fucking oc x canon ship! why am i getting so upset over it! #i love writing them. i’ve never been this happy writing anything. and it’s entirely indicative of a common pattern in my life #when i earnestly share parts of myself/things i’m passionate about people get creeped out. and honestly? rightfully so #i would leave the discord servers i’m in because it’s fucking crushing me dude. this is so petty but i’m so jealous of what you people have #but in one i am server owner and i don’t want to just dump that responsibility onto someone else and then dip #and in the other two i’m not sure anyone would even notice that i’m gone but i still worry about being rude #though i’m not entirely sure i didn’t get invited to one of those just so people could laugh at me. idk probably just being paranoid but i #it’s been gnawing at me #ok no if i’m being this vulnerable on tunglr.com i can also say that part of me staying is also still having the hope that i could fit in #one day. logically i know it won’t happen but it’s nice to have hope sometimes #watching you all from through the window having fun like a creep #so yeah. i’ve always felt like this but it’s been rapidly getting worse with my failed attempt at the bg3 fandom #idk just been crying non-stop for the last few hours. went through an entire pack of tissues in an hour it’s very disgusting #they’re all lying around me as i’m typing this like a pillowfort of snot lmao #so yeah. idk. if someone could come over and lobotomise me that’d be nice. orin where are you when we need you most #i never had any friends irl so i foolishly gave this a shot. i’m sorry #also doesn’t help that i can see someone dropping me for people that are easier to be around in irl rn #it just hurts because it’s always like that. someone you are around when you have no other option at best. not even that sometimes

[blujayonthewing]

a fundamental problem with me is that I do like people and I like being around other people and I like hanging out with my friends but I also almost exclusively like doing completely solo activities, which isn't, you know, how anyone expects or wants socializing to work

#the last time justin and I went over to our local friends' house for a game night I opted out of the board game #which I almost always WANT to do but almost never actually do because what inevitably happens is #that my good kind loving friends are good and normal humans and keep checking in to Make Sure I'm Good (am I SURE?) #and I'm just sitting there knowing that just sitting there is ruining the vibe and I'm making everyone uncomfortable #they ended up playing a game with max 4 players so they didn't need me! I was drawing and perfectly happy! #for ME that's the ideal but everyone else would be happier if I acted normal. you know. #even as a kid I never liked inviting a single friend over because the pressure to Think Of Something To Do felt so high... #normal people want to Do Stuff With You and I am-- in many many ways-- inevitably disappointing #'ooh have you tried [MMO version] of [cozy little solo game genre you love]?' I don't want that! why would I ever want that!! #and how do I express this without being seen as an anti-social no-fun bitch!! #it's not even a 'nobody likes me' problem it's literally a 'people DO like me' problem-- if nobody liked me I wouldn't disappoint them #can't be a shitty friend if you don't have any friends! but ALAS. #a lot of the ways that I naturally am are just... incorrect #about me

[jimmyjrsmusoems]

my mil : “so how is kaitlyn? is she sending thank you cards to everyone? it’s the LEAST she could do since they weren’t even invited to the wedding.”

we had ELEVEN GUESTS!!!! my own twin brother wasn’t even able to make it!!!! i’m not sending a thank you card to some random ass woman that you went to high school with, has no idea who i am, AND didn’t send ME a card or anything!!!!!

#like??? am i missing something??? #in what world am i supposed to send THANK YOU cards to someone i don’t know / didn’t invite / didn’t receive a card or gift from???? #like obviously i’ll send them to my ACTUAL GUESTS and those who gave us a gift / card / even well wishes!!!!! #but why would i do that for someone who doesn’t know my name / knows nothing about my partner / i’m not even sure exists #also why can’t HE do it!!!! #these are friends / family members of HIS mother!!!!! #idk i’ve been bitch eating crackers with this woman lately #less than 24 hours after we got married she goes ‘so are you having kids?’ and we were like aha NO. #and she goes ‘well that’s something you’re supposed to talk about BEFORE the wedding. 😢’ #WE DID??????? #we as in MY HUSBAND AND I????? #and then i told her that she has a grandson already (my cat) and she got mad lol #okay rant over #she just makes me want to pull a bob in the crawl space episode #personal

[sparky-is-spiders]

I want Jon and Sasha to both be the archivist and to drag each other down through a corruption arc.

#they’re dating btw #not maintagging this but please know that the Jonsasha Eye Corruption Arc is constantly being rotated in my brain #I think Sasha is very smart and capable but wants to Know so badly that she gets really reckless and is willing to jump right over personal #boundaries. I think she’d make a great beholder and I lover her #but I hate fandomized hyper-competant Sasha #like sure there’s a lot of gaps in her characterization that could be filled #but I swear to god just about everyone who writes about her COMPLETELY glosses over the characterization #that we DO have #she makes the same risky and dangerous decisions as Jon in pursuit of knowledge #under much less dire circumstances #(talking about Michael specifically here. meeting the Creepy Monster that was hanging around who invited you to a cemetary after dark #and told you to come ALONE. is really suspicious?? but not only did she meet with it as asked she didn’t even tell anyone????) #don’t get me wrong I love sasha sosososososo much #but I think it’s really annoying (and kinda weird tbh?) #that most of the fandom seems to have sanded down everything we DO know about her #cuz she’d make a genuinly good Archivist?? she’s got the hunger for knowledge down and racks up two marks back to back (corruption and #spiral) #but everyone wants to IGNORE that so that she can be the competant and cautious Archivist who does everything Right #she HACKED. the employee records. of her coworkers/work friends. for FUN #and I love her so much for that???? #but that just makes me think a paranoid s2 Sasha would be a terrifyingly effective stalker #and that her and Jon should be paranoid messes together and bond over late nights spent spying on other institute employees #they have a romantic picnic in a park while Jon painstakingly explains how Elias spent his entire evening last night #and Sasha considers this before launching into her own analysis of Tim’s browser history #just. just think about it. okay? #I’m very sorry if my ramblings show up in the js tag #I’m not sure how frequently it’s used #but enjoy my lengthy hot take about my two favoritest characters

[raccoonfagdyke]

I just wish people liked being around me

#i feel so fucking lonely #like i was yalking to my friend who was talking about how he was imvited to go out tonight #and thats never happened to me #ive never been invited to places really #unless i kinda invite myself tbh #ive never gone to a bar and then gone to a second location #i just wanna have people who think pf me when theyre doing things #i want people to want me around #and is some of this the DID talking ?? yes #i have parts who mever get to do things like that for one reason pr another #i want people to think im cool in some regard or at least interesting enough to keep around #but no #im just here alone on a friday night and i couldnt go out cuz im sick #meanwhile my partner is sleeping over at a friends place cuz hey shes got a car and is good at people #she gets invited to things all the time and im so fucking burnt out from work that i never get to fucking do anything i hate this so much #i just feel so goddamn alone and unwanted #i know the latter isnt true but it sure fucking feels like it rn #and im gonna be even more isolated this summer since im working 2 jobs #and none of my close friends like to do anything interesting #im just so bored and stagnant and lonesome #i wish i coul sleep

[dreamhot]

october's supposed to be my favourite month yknow. frankly i think i should be able to get a do over

#LOOORD ALMIGHTY alt followers know but my household has suffered a 2x breakup combo IT'S HELL !! #thank god for small favours (friends and distractions) #i do miss art tho #and the dash u_u #i'm sure there are still malingerers in this midst simply bc this blog has been inactive #and like. IS there a point to using it ?? WHO TF KNOWS #but my reblog blog isn't for m.cyt content at all so like ?? what do i do exactly. idfk #in the event i do work up the courage to use this blog again . Well #i would invite anyone who doesn't wanna see the content to unfollow/sb. no hard feelings as previously mentioned #i don't exactly owe anyone my justifications here but rest assured i have done. ALLLL kinds of talking and thinking over the weeks #i'm comfortable where i presently stand #and have no intentions of convincing anyone to feel differently abt their personal convictions #u do u and all that #anyway blah blah blah i hope everyone is doing well #smile.txt

[greppelheks]

My new friend invited me for new year's eve 🥹💖

#with her and her husband #I was supposed to have dinner at their place a few weeks ago but she was sick #and she was like my husband's pretty much been asking me every day when you're gonna come over for dinner again #lmao so sweet I'm pretty sure he's so nice #anyway she invited me for new year's #it's so insane how I've been making friends #I'm taking a friend for christmas? I'm going to friends for new year's?? #I'm so happy #personal

[pallases]

#personal #i miss having a best friend like it sounds so pathetic but there’s no other way to put it… i miss having someone to share an earbud w on the #bus and to go driving around town and picking up fast food w and someone to invite over to hang out and play video games and make art w and #spend the night and honestly just text back and forth w without restraint… #i literally have no one to hang out w for the whole summer like 😭 there’s my one roommate i’d feel comfortable w hanging out w one on one #but she’s in another state wrdhdjf and the other one lives really close to me and i love her too but our conversations without the other #roommate can feel so stilted sometimes 🙈 #im sure i’ll meet up w her at some point this summer but i want to give it some time so i’ll actually have things to talk abt LOL #then there’s my old best friend who if i reached out to her im sure she’d find the time to hang out but she also hasn’t really reached out #to me since like november and there was like a solid three months where i would send her posts that reminded me of her and she never replied #to me so. i don’t know #we did end up running into each other on campus before spring break and she offered me a ride without prompting and we listened to into the #woods the way home and sang along and it was FUN it was good and we decided we should try to get back into the swing of things but then we. #did not so. yeah i don’t know! was it bc finals took over our lives or bc we really have moved onto separate paths who knows. anyway

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them- #better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so! #anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎 #i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay. #.vent

[lonestatus]

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#like we both wanted different things right. like she wasn't sure she wanted a relationship from the moment she confessed but like. #the fact that she hasn't reached out to me since she decided that we should just be friends fucking breaks me #in no small part because the last person who said we should just be friends hasn't spoken to me in the 2 & 1/2 years since they said that #and i don't want to lose her too. she means too much to me to just lose contact so suddenly... #but shes been keeping a distance. we only talked when she decided to invite me over so we could end things in person (respect) so imso #scared that she's never going to talk to me again. can i just be rejected and still keep in touch for once please

[marvelousartcatastrophe]

People really need to stop inviting themselves over to my dorm and then just not leaving like bro I have stuff to do and it’s weird if you’re gonna just sit on the spare bed for literally five fucking hours

#art catastrophe #shit post #okay let me explain #i have this friend who has now made a habit of showing up and inviting himself into my room #my roommate is probably not fond of this and neither am I cause it’s been going on for three weeks #but niether of us can say no to him cause we’re both cursed to be people pleasers #one time I was in a really bad mood and wanted to take a nap to cure my anger and I thought surely he would leave if I went to bed #but I woke up two hours later and there he was???? #he’s not friends with my roommate btw so it was probably weird for her but it was especially weird for me cause he like…. stayed???? #while I was sleeping???? #i dragged him to a bookshop cause that’s what I wanted to do today and he complained the entire time and wanted to go back to my room #but it was still a nice walk and we hung out so I was like #the excursion is over we will go out separate ways now #he went back to my room #and I was like okay bro well I’m not talking to ya cause I’ve got shit to read #and I hoped he’d get bored and leave but it’s been three hours now #and he’s still here #so in total it’s been five hours today and I’m like trying to come up with excuses to get him out of here #like you’re my friend but bro pls