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mysterytickingnoise · 3 years

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Someday

Pairing: Merlin x Reader

Genre: Bittersweet Angst

Word Count: 2,058

Summary: After getting caught and accused of doing witchcraft, and failing to prove your innocence to Uther, you have to take desperate measures to flea the kingdom. Unfortunately your escape plan works a little too well, and without your knowledge the people close to you end up mourning you.

Request from @joyismycenter : "If you’re asking, I’d love some bbc Merlin x reader where he though the reader was dead but she/they turn out not to be. Love me that happy angst"

Authors Note: Thank you so much for sending in the first request for this blog! Fair warning I'm doing all my writing on my phone at the moment and I couldn't really get the ending to flow how I wanted it to so it's not perfect, but I really hope everyone likes it!

[Image Description: A gif of Merlin (from the BBC Show Merlin played by Colin Morgan) looking over his shoulder. End description]

It was such a silly mistake.

You trusted someone too soon, tried to help them.

Next thing you knew you were being accused of witchcraft. It was true but considering your accuser had no real evidence you thought perhaps you could argue your way out of it. You called them crazy, demanded proof, spouted off any alternative explanation for what had happened to no avail. Uther didn't give a damn about proof, the moment the word magic was held against you it was up to you to prove you hadn't used it.

Even if you hadn't, how do you prove a thing like that?

Pleading your case was useless, and the one person who could help you had left with Arthur and the knights before any of this had begun. Even if they somehow showed up before the execution, you wouldn't want Merlin's help.

He couldn't be caught helping you, not with his destiny. You weren't worth the risk, though he certainly would've argued otherwise if he'd had the chance.

No, you only had one choice left in your small cell. You would have to find an opportunity to use something that you saved for a situation such as this. When an old friend came to visit, to say goodbye, that was your opportunity.

You asked them to come back with the blue vial tucked in the back of your armoire. "It's a poison," You had told them. "I don't want to give Uther the satisfaction."

Tearfully, they obliged. In the middle of the night you chugged it down, and not one hour later your 'body' was wrapped in a sheet and wheeled out of the dungeons 'To be buried in the morning.' But the enchantment on the potion wore off before then, and you woke up alone and free.

You crept out of Camelot at the break of dawn with nothing but the clothes on your back, making it to the treeline before your will broke down and you turned back to look at the old castle peeking out over the tall walls.

Your home was behind those walls, your friends lived there, and the man you had surely fallen for. Tears stung your eyes as you thought about him, the fact you never got to say goodbye, how long it would be until you would see him again.

You could risk waiting for him to return, but if someone outside of Arthur's party were to catch you...you would be forced to do something you'd regret. You'd have to cross the line of no return and goodbye at that point would surely be permanent.

'Someday,' You thought, 'Until then, he'll understand, he might even come find me.'

Little did you know the guard who discovered the empty cloth had no intention of telling the king that the body of a prisoner had gone missing on his watch. No, he had a family to tend to, he wasn't losing his position because of some witch. It didn't even cross his mind that you might not be dead.

There was an empty grave in the pauper's field the next morning, and any questions on your whereabouts were contained in the mind of one underpaid guardsman for two years.

Meanwhile, Merlin had been devastated when he heard the news, even confused. Gaius told him the whole story, what he knew of it anyway, but he could never wrap his mind around it. It didn't make sense. He had spoken to you only a few days before, you smiled and hugged him and told him to come home safe. And just like that you were gone? The irrational fear of someone you tried to help, and the blind tyranny of Uther, that's all it took and now nobody would ever see that smile again. No, it didn't make any sense at all.

He eventually did what he had to do, put on a brave face and got back to work. And yes, a while after that night things got somewhat close to normal again. But there were always moments where he'd think to himself that he'd have to tell you about his day or a joke he heard, and then he'd remember. In other moments, he'd see Uther laughing at dinner or be forced to hear one of his speeches and his jaw would clench just a little tighter than it had before. And when he found himself awake in the middle of the night, when the world was dead silent and the only light in his room came from the moon, it was because he had found himself caught up in the memories you had together.

You had those nights too.

You had been dead on your feet by the time you stumbled into the small, reclusive village you'd learn to call your home. You'd been told that nobody really ever passed through on purpose, and they liked it that way. You told them that you could use a life like that, and then asked if they had need a physician. They did.

Sure, a reclusive person probably would've loved the little life you built for yourself. You had a small but cozy spot to live on the edge of the village, not long after you showed up you began to tend to minor wounds and ailments, making a few friends along the way. Occasionally two farmers would ride into the city to barter off crops for supplies and other things, eventually they began to bring you back a book or a small trinket each time to thank you for your work. It was nice.

But still loneliness tugged at your heart, more than you imagined it would when you took that last look at your home. On the most random days, doing the most random things, you'd find yourself thinking about everyone again and crying for up to an hour before you could pull yourself together again. Those moments became more rare over time, but they never hurt any less. You were never quite back to normal.

Finally, you were wrapping a farmers broken finger, speaking about the state of the kingdom and how you were surprised Uther had felt the need to improve anything it all, when you heard the news.

"Oh, no. The king died months ago, Arthur's in charge now."

You knew you must've gone pale, as the next thing the man said to you was a question of your health. You were quick to respond with a growing smile, "Why didn't you say something earlier?"

He shrugged at you, "I'm not all that concerned with politics. These men, they're all the same to us out here, you know?"

But you knew the difference.

Your life depended on it.

You finished his treatment and sent him away without much else to say on the matter. You had to pack, after all. Later on that day you pleaded with a neighbor to let you borrow her horse, and your friends gathered around as they overheard you say you needed to go to the capitol. You honestly felt a bit bad leaving in such a rush, but after you relayed a safe version of your story, why you came here and why you had to leave, they all seemed to understand.

With many promises from you that they could send for you if they ever needed to, and many words of encouragement from them, you took off. Even when you stopped in the night to allow the horse some rest, you never got any yourself, too excited and nervous and overwhelmed all at once. You spent hours contemplating what to say to everyone, but nothing seemed right.

Another days journey, and you were home.

The response you got to your return wasn't what you expected. Your first stop was to check on the friend who got the potion to you in the first place, and strangely they let out a short shriek before slamming the door in your face. You knocked again, speaking through the door. "It's me...I'm back?"

"Go away!"

You furrowed your brow at them, hurt and confused. But ultimately you walked away, thinking a reaction like that might be deserved considering what you must've put them through that night. As you continued down the street there were a few people who recognized you and proceeded to clear out of your way with gasps and whispers, pulling along anyone they were walking with.

Last time you were here you had been accused of witchcraft, and two decades of fear don't just disappear with a new king, so you simply accepted that as the reasoning and started to make your way up through the lower towns.

On the other end of the city, Merlin had just reached the end of an extremely long day. It had dragged on so long that it felt as though the walk from the armoury to his room took another hour. He didn't even bother to get something to eat, he just wanted to sleep. So naturally when he had just layed down in bed when someone decided to knock on the front door, he didn't know any better than to be annoyed.

At first he thought Gaius would take care of it, then he remembered that he wasn't home.

Maybe they'll just go away.

Whoever it was knocked again and he pulled the pillow over his head.

Please go away.

The front door creaked open and he heard a familiar voice call out. "Hello...Gaius? Merlin?"

He sat up, a heavy feeling settling into his gut as he realized where he had heard that voice before.

But...it couldn't be. Could it?

He shook his head, leaving his bedroom to shoo out the person who couldn't have been you.

But there you were, flipping through an old book that had been sitting on the table since the day before. When you noticed he was standing there you looked up with a sad smile, saying the only thing that you could think of; "Hi..."

"Hi?"

"I uh- I know it's been a long time," You started, crossing your arms over your chest in an awkward stance. "I wish I didn't have to leave like I did but..."

"Leave??" He repeated what you said once more. Finally you registered how strangely he was looking at you, not angry or upset but bewildered, and maybe even scared. What he said next confused you even more. "How are you alive?"

"I thought you might've had more faith in me than that." You joked, but he wasn't amused. "Am I missing something?"

He was hesitant to approach you, unsure of how he was supposed to say it but he tried. "They told me you were gone, that you'd poisoned yourself. I mean...Gaius saw you."

"It was meant to look like that, but it was a trick." You said. "I left when I awoke, they didn't tell people I escaped?"

He shook his head no, tears starting to stream down his face. "...I can't believe this."

As the reality of the situation hit you, you couldn't help but cry as well. All you were guilty about, what you thought you put your loved ones through, it had actually been so much worse. "I am so sorry, if I had any idea I would've- well I don't know what I would've done. I'm sorry."

"Don't be. I'm just, I'm so happy that you're here, and you're okay." Striding over with a grin, he pulled you into his arms. "I've missed you."

"And I, you. More than I could ever put into words." With a laugh you continued. "Things got so boring without you."

"I'm sure they did, you won't believe some of things I have to tell you."

And that was all it took, you both sat down at a table as you filled each other in on everything that had happened in the last two years. It took hours, there were multiple times you had to stop and collect yourselves as certain stories had you laughing until your stomachs ached. Gaius came home and after another tearful welcome back he made you all something to eat and had plenty of his own twists on things that had happened.

As if no time had passed at all, the world felt normal again. You were back where you belonged.

You were home.

#Merlin x reader #bbc merlin x reader #bbc merlin fanfiction

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drarry-with-a-side-of-harry · 4 years

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THAT WAS ONE OF THE GAYEST EPISODES IN A HOT MINUTE LMAOOOO WTF

so i’ve just watched series 4 episode 10 ‘A Herald of the New Age’ uhhhhhh

wait wait wait so gwen’s gone for two (2) seconds and Arthur and Merlin are flirting like they’re in a school playground all over again lmaoooo i’m so done

so first of all they get back to Camelot and Merlin’s falls back into his concerned boyfriend routine 🥺🥺🥺🥺 SIDE NOTE THE KNIGHTS ARE JUST FULLY AWARE OF THESE TWO AT THIS POINT THEY ALWAYS FLIRT AND ARE REALLY TENDER IN FRONT OF THEM I CANNOT BE ARSED anyway Merlin asks Arthur if he’s alright and Arthur’s all sad and brooding 🥺🥺🥺 so Merlin says he was being quiet and Arthur just answers him with a snide remark but with none of the laughter and ARTHUR, KING, SWEETIE WHY WON’T YOU JUST LET THIS BOY HELP YOU???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺

SO THEN WE SKIP AHEAD A BIT AND OMFG LET ME TELL YOU I WAS CACKLING WITH LAUGHTER AND KEPT HAVING TO PAUSE IT. THIS SHIT IS GOLDEN

so Merlin walks in on Arthur asleep at his desk. if you’ve watched the show you will remember this scene because it’s too iconic but am i gonna run through it anyway?? you’re damn right i am because i am obsessed lmaoooooo

SO MERLIN JUST STRAIGHT UP BANGS ON THE DESK REALLY FUCKING LOUDLY TO GET HIM TO WAKE UP HAHAHAHAHHAA AND ARTHUR HAS FOOD ALL OVER HIS FACE I-

who fucking wrote this shit it’s too good man

Arthur jumps out of his mind and Merlin the little shit has the audacity to say “oh i’m sorry i didn’t mean to scare you” HAHAHAHAHAHA YOU ABSOLUTE DICKHEAD MERLIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭 and he barely even cracks a smile how this man holds it together i will never know. honestly how Colin Morgan managed to deliver that just once without cracking up is beyond me.

OH BUT WE’RE FAR FROM FINISHED

so Arthur responds “you didn’t scare me, i was asleep” LMAOOOOO YEAH BITCH WE KNOW HAHAHAHAHAHA IM STILL SCREAMING ABOUT THIS

so now Merlin starts to laugh a bit but he’s holding it together. you know when you’re in school and something funny happens with your mates and you shouldn’t laugh because you’re meant to be working but you can’t not laugh and you’re all just snorting to stop yourselves from laughing??? yeah same energy

Arthur: “why’ve you got that stupid smile on your face?” baby i don’t know what to tell you anymore

Merlin: “it’s nothing. why were you sleeping with your head on the table?” and his face just drops to confusion HOW DOES HE NOT KEEP LAUGHING

Arthur: “i fell asleep while i was reading” uh huh okay sure thing

Merlin: “what were you reading?” this is turning into the most mundane conversation you’ve ever heard but it’s priceless because Arthur’s still half asleep and Merlin’s just fucking with him i’m so done

Arthur looks around trying think of something and realises be can’t lie anymore so this bitch just has to say “i am the King of Camelot i do not have to answer to the likes of you” LMAOOOOOOOO KING JUST ADMIT YOURE AN IDIOT AND LEAVE and Arthur’s almost cracking a smile at this point too we get it you love him

Merlin: “oh you’re in a good mood, you obviously got out of the wrong side of the table” AND THIS MAN JUST STARTS PISSING HIMSELF AT HIS OWN JOKE I-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

AND ARTHUR’S DEADPAN STARE IS PRICELESS

and Merlin explains the joke while he’s still laughing and Arthur replies “that’s extremely clever and funny Merlin there really are no limits to your wit now will you please just get me some breakfast” HAHAHAHAHHAA MATE WHEN I SAY IM HOWLING WRITING THIS POST

‘there really are no limits to your wit’ sent me

so Merlin goes to get breakfast and Arthur (who has loads of food on his face remember) uses the plate as a mirror OH BOY

THIS SCENE COULD NOT BE ANY FUNNIER I SWEAR

he lowers the plate with another deadpan stare aimed at the door. boy is FUMING LMAOOOOOOOO

he shouts Merlin and i will suck my own big toe if there is anyone in the castle Camelot that didn’t hear him MY GOD THAT WAS PRICELESS

me current state: deceased

OH AND IT DOESN’T STOP THERE OH NO NO NO

so the very next scene we’re at training Arthur tells the lads to pair up and Gwaine asks what’s in his hair. Arthur’s face is just a picture. Merlin helpfully answers that it’s stew. Leon asks him why he’s got stew in his hair. Merlin quickly responds “because he was reading” in that tone when Merlin’s being a right snarky little shit oh you know

the lads just turn to look at Arthur like “wtf man??”

Arthur takes a minute and says “change of plan. i think we’ll try something different” lmaoooo you just know what’s coming next

so Merlin’s used for sword practise

Arthur has first go and the lads are smirking at them and each other like “oh these two had another domestic” “about the stew this time ahhh right” lmaooooo

JUST GOLD

there was a whole two (2) minutes of just solid flirting, taking the piss and just generally annoying the shit out of each other i-

OH AND THERE’S MORE

it’s nighttime now and this cheeky bastard asks “would you like me to make up the bed Sire, or will you be sleeping on the table again?” with a little smile on his face HAHAHAHAHAHAHA it just keeps getting better this episode really is a gift

Arthur doesn’t respond because he’s all moody again and Merlin all but roles his eyes all he wants to do is cheer up his boyfriend 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 so he sighs “is this about Gwen” and Merlin looks kinda irritated and sad and Arthur won’t even look at him and Merlin says “we all miss her. you more than anyone” and Arthur cuts him off with “you can go now” maaaaate the feels

Merlin: “Arthur”

Arthur: “get out” oh so now you look at him

omfg you were happy earlier can you please just let him help you ffs you’re just making each other really fucking sad and it’s not helping anything

and Merlin leaves and Arthur kind of looks over his shoulder and almost shakes his head like he doesn’t actually want him to go 🥺🥺 and every damn time something like this happens i expect him to say “no, wait” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

and now Arthur looks even more sad. well baby i don’t know what to tell you but you did just do that to yourself a little bit. just leT MERLIN HELP YOU ffs

SO Merlin storms in and dad Gaius is at the table reading and Merlin’s just ranting that he’s done being nice to Arthur and he doesn’t get any thanks and he’s saved his life so many times and all he ever does is shout at him. yeah boy we know aND SO DOES GAIUS because this man does not look up at him!!!!!! tell me that’s not Merlin ranting to his dad about his crush i swear-

Gaius tells him there’s more important things to worry about like the plot of this episode perhaps??? lmaoooo this is getting out of hand now. dad’s so done with Merlin’s lovesick bullshit lmaoo

so we move on a bit and Arthur tells his uncle that Merlin thinks Elyan’s possessed oh so now dad’s dead you value Merlin’s counsel huh king?? we love to see it

we love that Merlin can speak up a bit more now ehehehe

so uncle says that Merlin’s just tryna protect his friend and Arthur just looks at Merlin like “i believe you don’t worry but we need evidence man”

oh my christ we’re only half way through true episode i’ll try and speed things up a bit i think the main Merthur action’s done anyway

Merlin breaks Elyan out. arrives back at Camelot and walks into the throne room. Arthur’s drinking and reading something and just looks up when Merlin enters with the most glorious look on his face like “oh this bitch is back finally” and carefully considers what he’s gonna say to him 😂😂😭😭😭

Arthur: “Merlin! good of you to join me. perhaps i should fill you in on all that’s been happening while you’ve been... that’s a good question. what the hell have you been doing??” LMAOOOOO these two i can’t

Merlin: “i was...”

Arthur (cutting him off): “choose your next words carefully. they may be you last” pahahahahahaha alright king pipe down

Merlin: “i was searching.. in the woods.... for some herbs for Gaius” boy’s just rambling about herbs and says he got lost

Arthur: “you mean to tell me that you’ve been wandering around in the woods all night???”

and the look on this man’s face. WONDERFUL

Merlin says yes and Arthur asks what happened to his head because it’s bruised and i just knew it was coming ffs “i tripped over a root and hit my head on a tree and knocked myself out” this fucking moron. this fool i despair

Arthur just toys with him and offers him some food with him at the table is it a joke though Arthur if you actually just want to have a lunch date with him and Merlin realises he’s joking and we get another golden deadpan stare from Arthur and it’s the funniest shit damn this episode is blessed and Arthur just stares him down as he fucks off out of the room lmaooooooo 😭😭😭😭😭😭 and then to finish it off dramatically picks up his paper again so we all know he’s back to ‘important reading’ uh huh Arthur sure you’re not just thinking about that interaction?? like the rest of us clowns

fast forward and Arthur let’s Elyan go and somehow Merlin’s there again???

anyway Arthur talks to his uncle and when he’s gone Arthur confides in Merlin and Gaius i’m sorry but we have to stan some A+ development (also i really hope Arthur’s starting to lose trust in his uncle because i was sort of getting that vibe from this scene idk we can only hope)

Merlin’s in Arthur’s chambers that night clearing up and Arthur says “that’ll be all Merlin” anD MERLIN REPLIES “are you sure you don’t want me to stay?” UMMMMMMM FOR WHAT????? I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT ARTHUR WAS GOING TO SLEEP UHHHHHHHHHHHHH IDK MAN SEEMS KINDA SUS TO ME WHAT’RE YOU GONNA DO MERLIN JUST SLEEP IN HIS BED WITH HIM??? HMMMMMMMMM THE PLOT MAJORLY THICKENS BECAUSE ARTHUR DOESN’T EVEN FIND THIS AN ODD SUGGESTION BECAUSE HIS RESPONSE IS JUST “think i’m gonna get an early night” OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL THAT IMPLIES THAT HIM AND MERLIN WOULD BE- *BIG COUGH COUGH*

AND SECONDLY THAT IMPLIES THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THEY’VE DONE BEFORE I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THIS INFORMATION THE EVIDENCE SEEMS PRETTY CONCLUSIVE TO ME YOUR HONOUR

then they have a nice little joke about Merlin not getting an early night lmaooo we do love to see the bants

so later on Merlin follows Arthur into the woods lmao of course he does would you really expect anything less at this point?? and they have this whole why are you here?! no why are you here?! moment lmao

Arthur tells him he’s free to go back to Camelot at any time sweetie you really think that’s gonna happen?? you fool Arthur Pendrgaaon because obviously Merlin’s not going anywhere AND THEN ARTHUR’S BACK TO BEING A SELF SACRIFICIAL LITTLE SHIT AGAIN BABY YOU’RE KING NOW YOU CAN’T BE SO WILLING TO DIE AT EVERY FUCKING PROBLEM WTF we find out that this whole thing’s Arthur’s fault but this whole scene is honestly so nice and lovely and warm and he knows what he did was wrong and that he was a stupid young man 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and the druid boy forgives him 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and he’s CRYING omg recently Merlin’s constantly on the verge of tears but when Arthur cries you know some bad shit’s going down and the music omgggg 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 “from this day forth the druid people will be treated with the respect they deserve, i give you my word” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i love him your honour

so then we’re back in Arthur’s chambers and Merlin says “you know that was incredibly moving what you said at the shrine” Arthur says “it served it’s purpose” because Elyan’s alright ARTHUR STOP PRETENDING YOU DON’T CARE TO LOOK COOL FOR YOU BOYFRIEND MERLIN KNOWS YOU’RE 10X THE MAN YOUR FATHER EVER WAS

Merlin says “you meant it” and then Arthur gets a bit snappy because he’s embarrassed 🥺🥺🥺 and Merlin says “i don’t ever think i’ve seen you cry before. well not like that. you had tears running down your cheeks it’s nice to see this new sensitive emotional side to you, it suits you” doesn’t it just baby???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺 then we get a classic shut up Merlin and this is the first time Arthur dares to look at him throughout this conversation 😭😭😭 and then Merlin mocks him *gasp* “i really thought you’d changed” lmaoooo “then you’re as stupid as you are ugly” lmaooooooo Arthur just tell him he’s pretty and leave

and just to finish things off

Arthur’s walking to the door

Merlin: “so there’s no chance that we could have a hug?” and he’s half 🥺 and half smiling/laughing ready to play it off

Arthur turns back to him and starts play running towards him and Merlin runs away and Arthur tackles him off screen aND YOU CANNOT TELL ME ARTHUR DID NOT GIVE THAT MAN THE BIGGEST HUG WHEN THEY WERE BOTH DOWN ON THE GROUND AHHHHHHHHAHAHAHA THEH ARE SO PURE I LOVE IT 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 can you not just imagine these two giggling and chasing each other round the room i-

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holisticfansstuff · 4 years

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the diamond of the day part two

I don't like sad endings but I really liked the show, so I did all I could to prepare myself for the end. I found out about Arthur's death ahead of time, exactly how and why he dies, what Merlin says to him, looked up the scene in advance so I'd be ready, skipped to the end so I could see for myself who survives and who's conspicuous by their absence.

It wasn't enough. I've watched the end of the finale before. It still didn't prepare me for the emotional impact of what happened, when I watched the entire episode. Nothing could have prepared me for Colin Morgan's acting in those last scenes ( and Bradley's too! He'd gotten so much better by the end of the show! ) Colin made me feel his pain with him, suffer with him, as he suffered (as many great actors do. Look at Jensen. You can love Dean, you can hate Dean, but it's almost impossible not to empathize with him when he's in pain). I thought I'd be able to stay detached if I made fun of them or knew ahead of time what was going to happen. I was wrong. Lol.

The episode was so beautifully shot and acted with the most lovely music playing in the background to set the mood. Hats off to the writers and the cast, honestly. It's not how I would have chosen to end it, but then again, I've never written a script for a hit TV show with fans and producers all breathing down my neck, so... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The ending wasn't as bad as it could have been. At least Gwen was still alive. And without a Pendragon on the throne, perhaps magic will be allowed back in Camelot? Especially since the Battle of Camlann was won via sorcery. Perhaps that's what the prophecy meant? Maybe Arthur was never meant to survive the process, or he was meant to only live long enough to play his part in making that happen. Merlin didn't fail. He just lost sight of what his real goal was. Somehow, somewhere along the way, for Merlin, success ceased to mean the end of bigotry against magic and came to mean the survival of Arthur at any cost, including magic itself. At least that's the only explanation I can come up with. Let's pretend for a moment that TV scripts make sense and there is logic at least within the narrative.

I don't think Merlin never returned to Camelot. He had friends there too. Yes, Arthur was his best friend but his other friends needed him and he, them. I can't see him abandoning Gwen, newly widowed and a peasant queen, vulnerable to threats within the court and outside it. Gwen was his first real friend, or at least the first friend he had who was close to his own age in Camelot. No matter how grief stricken he was, I just can't see him simply taking off.

I think Gaius had his favourite meal ready like he'd promised, when Merlin finally returned. I think Gwen, Leon and Percival rallied after allowing themselves some time to grieve-after all, they had a kingdom to care for. They governed Camelot together, for a long, long time, before the time came for them to move on. The ban on magic was lifted for good, the magic folk and regular people lived side by side in peace, and prospered.

Merlin never gave in to the temptation of deliberately creating a crisis, so that Albion needed Arthur so badly that Arthur had to return, as I surely would have, so-ahem. Just kidding. Haha. Or am I?

We know Freya lived on in some form as the Lady of the Lake, probably in Avalon. It's fair to assume that Arthur did too, then. He had a life there, as did Merlin, in another dimension. And they are fated to meet again. So far every attempt to avert any prophecy in this story has failed spectacularly, so we can assume this one is set in stone too. At some point in the future, they are reunited. And in the meantime, they find new purpose, discover new passions, find happiness in old friends and new.

#the diamond of the day part two #merlin #5x13 #arthur Pendragon #merlin headcanons #merlin emrys #emrys #the once and future king #since Gwen is the once and future queen #I'm assuming she returns too when Arthur does?#heh #freya #avalon #long post #mt #merlin finale

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elirwen · 6 years

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Colin Morgan in "The Happy Prince"

There is so much I could say about the movie, but as I don't want to totally spoil it to you, I'll try to not talk about plot too much.

As you probably know, the story focuses on Oscar Wilde's last years. Ruppert Everett in the lead role shows us a man completely destroyed by the two years of prison and forced labour. From the life of popularity he fell into the life of shame, forced into hiding, using alcohol, drugs, and sex to escape his pain.

Colin, playing Wilde's lover Bosie, gets a chance to show off many facets of his characters' personality. In the screen time that he's given he shows us moments of Bosie as a romantic, gentle man, but also a vicious, cruel one.

When Oscar meets Bosie for the first time after his imprisonment, breaking into tears, you can see Bosie's love for Oscar in his eyes, you can see how badly he wants to comfort Oscar in more intimate way, unable to because of the societal rules.

Then we have the scene that gave us this promo pic:

Smiling gently, breeze ruffling his hair, a picture of innocence and beauty, you can totally see why Oscar would fall in love with him. (I definitely would if I wasn't already. :D )

He's far from innocent though and the movie won't let you forget that. We're given the lovely moments of Colin with his shirt unbuttoned, Colin without a shirt, Colin naked. He's flirtatious, open to moresomes. These types of scenes are definitely very enjoyable (and will serve Merlin fandom really well for future manip creation).

But in spite of all the casual nudity, the movie never get sexually explicit. There is no full frontal nudity, no sex scenes. Not even on the level usually used for hetero sex scenes. It fits the overall feeling of the movie. It's not about titillating the viewer with naked bodies. Sex was a part of life for Oscar Wilde, a part that he thoroughly enjoyed, but the act of it isn't important for the story. More important is what happens before or after, the heated glances, the witty dialogue, the vulnerability, weaknesses revealed.

Which brings me to the less flattering aspects of Bosie's personality. He's careless, selfish. He might not hurt others physically, but his words cut deep, ruthless, brutal, aiming at people's most vulnerable spots. Colin sells all of that with heartbreaking precision.

The movie doesn't shy away from the ugly, gritty aspects of its characters' personalities, doesn't romanticise them, but it doesn't demonise them either. They're shown as human, with all their flaws and quirks. Not saints. Not devils. Just humans.

So, if there's a cinema screening near you, I encourage you to go. And if not, definitely give the film a try once it gets out on DVD (or other platforms).

TLTR: The movie is amazing. Colin is amazing. The script is really good and acting superb. Watch it if you have a chance.

#the happy prince #colin morgan #irish muffin #the sweetest muffin to ever muffin #mine

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Rum and Cupcakes (Chapter 8)

Here’s more, @a-city-dove ! I made a lot of progress on chapter 14 last night, and it’s looking like that will be the end. Not 100% positive, but for now, here’s chapter 8/14.

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Emma didn’t want to leave after The Princess Bride ended; she was far too comfortable pressed up against Killian. He leaned forward to brush some cupcake crumbs off the remote before putting on the pilot of BBC’s Merlin.

“Just trust me, Swan. You’ll like this.”

“Another one of your geeky sci-fi shows?” Emma overexaggerated her eye roll.

“It’s about Merlin, but before all the legends we know. There’s magic, a dragon, and - what’s that word you kept using to describe The Doctor and Captain Jack Harkness?” Emma sighed.

“Bromance.”

“Aye. That’s it. You’re going to love the bromance between Arthur and Merlin,” Killian put air quotes around the word, “bromance.”

“Alright. Even I’ll admit a show about an early Merlin sounds cool.”

“Shush, Swan. Telly time.” Killian sat back against the back of the couch. He casually wrapped his arm back around Emma’s shoulder and pulled her into him. Emma unconsciously cuddled into him, not that either of them minded. Killian was so warm and solid, and her body fit perfectly against his. Emma still didn’t notice the cuddling as anything out of the ordinary because the closeness seemed so natural, it’s like they’ve been doing it for years. They worked so well as best friends emotionally, the physical connection just seemed right. Emma would’ve fallen asleep on his chest had she not been so invested in Colin Morgan’s Merlin getting put in the stocks yet again. Both Emma and Killian were fighting to keep their eyes open three episodes later, so Emma took her exhaustion as her cue to head home for the night, but not before making plans for Killian to come over Emma’s for dinner the following night to continue their Merlin marathon. Emma yawned her entire drive home, and she crashed the second her head hit her pillow.

Emma ordered pizza and chicken wings for dinner the following night. Killian came over directly after work. Shedding his leather jacket, Killian jumped into his favorite spot on her couch. Emma sat beside him and handed him a plate for his food. She put Merlin on Netflix and watched Killian grab and devour a chicken wing in a matter of seconds.

“Impressive,” she remarked. Killian responded with a cheeky eyebrow wiggle as he licked the sauce off the thumb and index finger on his right hand. Emma swatted Killian’s hand as he reached for another wing. “Ew! No!”

“What?”

“You just licked your fingers. Don’t go touching all the wings with spit-covered fingers. Wipe your hands first.” She handed him a napkin.

“Oh, please.” He used the napkin anyway.

“Savage.” Emma shook her head jokingly.

“Savage?”

“Fine. Umm… scoundrel.”

“That’s better.” Killian grabbed another chicken wing. Emma grabbed a slice of pizza and sat back, crossing her legs in front of her. She and Killian made their way through an entire pizza and an entire order of buffalo wings during the duration of only two episodes of Merlin. They paused before the third episode of the night so they could clean up before they ended up mostly passed out on her couch; they learned that lesson the night before when Killian just left the cupcake trash on the table until he woke up the next morning. The two settled back onto Emma’s couch for another three episodes. Emma and Killian ended up in the same position as the previous night. At least the cuddling was totally platonic.

Much like everything else in Emma’s life, her movie/television marathon nights with Killian became routine. They didn’t have regular, set-aside days for movie nights, but they agreed to have them at least once a week. Killian was appalled that Emma hadn’t seen Titanic, so he screened that movie first. Then they watched all their favorite Disney movies. They started with 101 Dalmatians. Emma pointed out the similarities between Killian and Flynn in Tangled, and Killian spent the entirety of The Lion King telling Emma how the movie is a really cute retelling of Hamlet. They alternated whose apartment they went to, and if one of them fell asleep, the other let them stay overnight. She had a drawer full of her clothes at his place, and he had one at hers. Killian had become such a wonderful part of Emma’s life, and she wasn’t sure what she’d do without him.

Emma was finishing putting out her chocolate covered pretzel-flavored cupcakes when there was a knock on her shop door. She was positive she flipped the sign on her door to “Closed,” so she couldn’t imagine why there was someone knocking on her door.

“Killian, you know the way into the back!” She went back to her displays. Of course Killian would knock even when he knew he was welcome to walk in the back entrance at any time. The knocking began again and Emma sighed and closed her display case. She walked over and opened the door. “Look, I’m a bit-” Emma froze mid-sentence.

“Ruby?”

“Hi, Em!” Ruby waved at her and grinned. “I know you hate surprises, but I couldn’t resist.”

“Oh my god! Ruby!” Emma gestured for Ruby to follow her into her shop. Once safely inside, Ruby squealed and pulled Emma into a hug.

“I missed you, girl!”

“I missed you too.” Emma pulled out of the hug, still smiling. “What are you doing here?”

“My first movie is in post-production, and I had some time off. I thought I’d come visit my best friend.” Emma grabbed a churro cupcake and handed it to Ruby. “I missed your baking.”

“I can’t believe you’re here. I’m so happy to see you!”

“As if,” Ruby exclaimed with churro cupcake still in her mouth. “I follow you on Instagram, Em. You’re so busy with Killian, I can’t believe you even remember my name.”

“Are you kidding?”

“You basically replaced me.” Ruby popped the rest of her cupcake into her mouth.

“I could never replace you, Ruby.”

“Killian is in over half of the Instagram pictures you’ve posted since I left.” Ruby didn’t look hurt; she looked more intrigued than anything.

“Yeah, well. You told me you wanted me to make friends after you left. I did.” Emma shrugged and looked away from her friend.

“I’m glad you did. It’s wonderful. I’m not jealous or anything,” Ruby reassured Emma.

“Well good.”

“So.” Uh oh. Emma knew that look. “When do I get to meet Killian?”

“Not now. I have to open for the afternoon.” Ruby sighed overdramatically.

“Alright, girl. I get it. Avoiding the question.” Emma rolled her eyes as she flipped the door sign to “Open” for the afternoon.

Turning back to Ruby, Emma suggested, “why don’t you go visit Granny until I close up? I know she’d love to see you.”

“Trying to get rid of me so you can go see Killian?”

“No! I just know you. And you’ll be bored with me working.” Ruby waved as she strutted out the door, yelling behind her, “I’ll see you later, Em!”

“Later, Ruby!” Emma smiled as she relaxed onto her stool. She had both of her best friends in town; this was amazing for her. She never had more than one best friend in her entire life, let alone more than one in her small town. She picked at one of her green tea and honey cupcakes happily as she finished out her day.

Ruby came back to Swan’s Cupcakes a half hour before the shop was closing for the day. Ruby sat at a table in the corner of the shop and occupied herself with her phone as she waited for Emma. Ruby got bored enough to help Emma sweep the shop floor as Emma cleaned the kitchen area. Both women jerked their heads to look at the door when it opened suddenly, scaring them both.

“Swan,” Killian sang as he walked in. He stopped in his tracks upon seeing not one, but two females. “Swan?”

“Killian, hi. This, um… this is Ruby.”

“Hello there. Pleasure to meet you.” He took Ruby’s hand and kissed the top of it. “Emma has told me so much about you. You seem like a lovely lass.”

“I’ve heard a lot about you too.” Ruby could play the smooth flirting game just as well as Killian. He looked in Emma’s direction and raised an eyebrow. Ruby nudged Emma with her hand at her side. When Emma looked over, Ruby nodded her approval of Killian. Ruby whispered a “he’s even hotter in person” into Emma’s ear, and Emma elbowed Ruby to get her to stop. Killian’s gaze switched between Emma and her friend.

“I suppose this means movie night is postponed.” Emma caught a flicker of disappointment in his clear blue eyes.

“Killian, I’m sorry. I didn’t know Ruby was coming to visit.”

“Not a problem, love.” Killian made his way to the door. “Oh, I forgot this last night.” He handed Emma a new book: The Princess Bride. She tried to keep from grinning as she read the sticky note:

“This is my favorite book in all the world, though I have never read it.” Actually, Swan, you have never read it, but I remain hopeful it could be your favorite book in all the world; it is certainly one of mine. -Killian

“Thank you, Killian.” Emma hugged the book to her chest. “Sorry again about movie night.” Ruby’s eyes bounced from Emma to Killian like she was watching a tennis match.

“Actually, Emma and I were going to go to The Rabbit Hole tonight before having a movie night of our own. Why don’t you join us?” Emma’s eyes widened as she stared at Ruby. Emma mouthed the word “no” at Ruby repeatedly, but Ruby was going to do what she wanted. Killian chuckled and scratched at that damned spot behind his ear.

“Ah. Thank you for the offer, but I would hate to intrude on your plans.”

“You’re not,” Ruby stated before Emma could get a single word out of her mouth.

“It’s not a problem. Really. I’ll just head home.” He ran a hand through his hair and pointed at the door.

“Come with us, Killian.” Ruby crossed her arms; she wasn’t going to take no for an answer. Killian looked at Emma for permission.

“Swan, would you mind terribly if I joined you? Your friend here is quite persuasive.”

“It’s fine, Killian. You can come.” Emma stared at her boots.

“Are you sure, Swan?”

“Yeah. It’s okay.”

Ruby broke the tension, “Alright. So, let’s go. I could really use a drink.” Emma and Killian hesitantly followed Ruby. They all got in Ruby’s convertible and she drove them all to the bar.

“So, Ruby, Swan tells me you work in the film industry.” Killian sipped his water.

“I do costume design. I just finished all the costumes for the new Beauty and the Beast movie.” Ruby swirled the wine in her glass.

“That is very interesting, lass. Tell us more.” Emma couldn’t believe Killian was so interested in Ruby and her life in LA. She felt a twinge of something that could only be described as jealousy. She knew she was foolish to be jealous because Killian flirted with everything that moved, but she couldn’t help it; he was her best friend, not Ruby’s. Emma took a sip of her rum as she realized she wasn’t listening to Ruby’s stories.

“What happened with the director?” Emma interrupted Ruby, hoping this topic would make Killian back off.

“Actually…” Ruby grinned.

“Ruby! What?” Emma sat up straighter as she waited impatiently for Ruby to finish her glass of wine and answer.

“I’m in a relationship. A steady one.”

“Rubes! That’s great! So he finally gave in?” Killian stared intensely into his glass of water as he let the girls do their talking.

“Not really. I met someone else.”

“Who? Come on, Ruby, tell!” Killian may have smirked as he listened to Emma gossip. He wasn’t used to hearing her so excited and energetic.

“The actress who plays Belle in the movie. Her name is Dorothy. She couldn’t stop thanking me for the gorgeous dress from the finale scene, and she asked me to eat in her trailer one day. We had more lunches, then dinners. And, well, we’re going out now.” Ruby got her phone out and showed Emma and Killian pictures of herself and Dorothy.

“Congratulations, Ruby! This is amazing! You both look so happy.” Ruby and Dorothy looked incredible together. Emma was so happy for her friend.

“Congrats, Red. Many years of happiness.” Killian raised his glass before sipping again at his ice water.

“Red?” Ruby asked Killian. She started to wonder just how much Emma talked about her.

“Your nail polish, and lipstick, and the ends of your hair.” Ruby nodded in understanding.

“My favorite color. I like it. Maybe even better than ‘Swan.’” Ruby nudged Emma again.

“Don’t change the subject. I can’t believe you’re finally in a serious relationship.” Ruby dated a lot of people, and Ruby slept with a lot of people. Ruby did not participate in real relationships often. Plus, “Red” was not better than “Swan.”

“Well maybe I finally met the right person.” Ruby seemed almost bashful. “And I’m really happy with her.”

“Ruby, that’s great!” Emma stood up off her stool and hugged Ruby. Killian watched the two girls reconnect and he smiled to himself. Emma sat back down after pulling away. She finished off her first, and only, glass of rum before Ruby spoke.

“So, tell me about yourself, Killian. I’d like to get to know the person taking care of Emma in my absence.” Emma wanted to disappear. Ruby wasn’t exactly wonderful at keeping her thoughts to herself; she was nosy and liked to know everything.

“I’m afraid I’m rather boring. Emma informed me I own the building your store was previously inhabiting.”

“You opened a bookstore, right?”

“Aye.”

“Do you have any family in Storybrooke? Emma never told me anything about your family.” Ruby was really trying to get some information on him. “Alas, I’m on my own here in the states. My family is rather small. My brother is back home in London. That’s about it.” Ruby nodded, clearly giving up on prying any more information from him. He hid his life story as much as Emma.

“So, back to Emma’s place for movies?”

“Sounds good.” Emma made her way straight to the door, Killian and Ruby following closely behind. Ruby told them all about her relationship with Dorothy on the car ride back to the stores. Ruby dropped them both off at their cars at work so they could drive their own cars to Emma’s apartment. Emma and Killian waited on Emma’s couch for Ruby to get her suitcase from her car. “I’m really sorry we had to cancel our own movie night.” She hugged her knees and rested her chin on her knees.

“I already told you, it’s alright.”

“I still feel bad. You’re probably bored out of your mind. And Ruby is trying to meddle into our lives-” Emma rambled.

“Swan, don’t worry. It’s nice to see you so happy.”

“What?” She looked up at him.

“You’re participating in ‘girl talk’ and gossip and you’re hugging and giggling. It’s a new side of the Swan I already know and love.” Their conversation was cut short when Ruby came barging into the apartment with a suitcase in her hand; Emma didn't even have enough time to dwell on Killian's casual use of the word "love." Ruby threw the suitcase onto the floor and settled onto Emma’s couch.

“So, what are we watching?”

“What about something light and cute, like Zootopia?” Mary Margaret had texted Emma mere days before, telling her she just had to see the movie. Her two best friends stared at her. “What?” Neither of them answered as Ruby grabbed the remote and hit Zootopia.

“Wait!” Ruby immediately paused the movie. “Snacks.”

“I’m on it, love.” Killian ran into the kitchen.

“Okay, Em. Neither of you want to talk about yourselves much, but I want you to know I’m happy for you.”

“You told me to make friends. I did.” Emma shrugged, hoping Ruby would take the hint and move on.

“You made more than a friend.”

“Oh no, Ruby, I-”

“Good for you. I’m glad you got yourself a man. Especially one as hot as Killian. Seriously girl, damn he’s sexy.”

“Let me clear this up. Killian and I are just friends.” Ruby rolled her eyes.

“Uh huh, Em. Sure you are.”

“It’s true. We’re just good friends. Best friends.” Emma glanced to the kitchen where Killian was taking a bag of popcorn out of her microwave.

“Whatever you say, Em. But I saw the way he was watching you at the bar. And I saw you staring at him every chance you got.”

“I- I wasn’t staring. And he was probably looking at you, but he was behind me. So it only looked like he was looking at me.” Ruby sent Emma an unconvincing expression of defeat as Killian placed the bowl of popcorn on the couch between Emma and Ruby.

“Everyone ready?” Ruby saw her company nod and she pressed play. Killian wasted no time before he had his arm around Emma. Ruby’s suggestion echoed in Emma’s mind as she was suddenly made aware of his arm on her back and his hand on her shoulder. She tried to focus on the movie, but he pulled her closer. She looked up at him; he seemed totally unaware of what his arm was doing. She definitely didn’t mean to rest her head on his chest as she finally distracted herself from the thought that she was unconsciously dating her best friend. The only downside was when the movie ended and she had no distraction from his firm chest and the soft fabric of his navy blue sweater (one of her favorites) under her cheek. She was hyperaware of every place their bodies touched. Her heart raced in response to Killian cuddling her, and she couldn’t let herself enjoy the feeling. Maybe the platonic cuddling wasn’t so platonic after all. She excused herself to use the bathroom, even though she didn’t actually have to go, just to get away from Killian. She threw some cold water onto her face before taking a couple breaths while looking into the mirror to psych herself up. She would never make it through the night if she got flustered every time he looked at her. Emma knew she had been in her bathroom for a while, so she had to get back out there. She returned to her place on the couch and Killian immediately resumed cuddling her: their usual movie watching position. This was going to be a long night.

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