#during which time i've had maybe

[cerise-on-top]

Nikolai with a s/o who always has a hand on his chest? With consent ofc, and it’s always to feel his heartbeat. I think of this all the time and it’s always super cute in my head.

Hello! That is pretty cute!

Nikolai Always with Reader’s Hand on His Chest

Nikolai is a pretty laid back and chill sort of man, so he usually doesn’t mind you putting your hand over his heart. Maybe not while you’re walking, though, he doesn’t want you to trip. It’s very sweet to him: You wanna make sure that he’s alive? That he’s still with you? That his heart is still beating? Trust me, not even death could take him away from you. He’d dig his way out of his grave after killing the reaper with his bare hands himself. You can always put your hand over his chest while you’re at home together, though. It’s nice to feel you. After a while it would be reassuring to him as well, feeling that you’re there, that you’re with him. He thinks it’s sweet that you always want to be touching him, because if it was up to you he’d do the same thing with you. After some time, once he’s realized that you’re always touching him whenever you can, he tries to get into positions that facilitate you touching him a bit. Usually lies on his back when you’re cuddling so you have full access to him. Can and will fall asleep like that, but will also want to hold you back. Will also put his hand over your heart as well so he can “get back at you”. In reality, feeling your heartbeat is also just nice and reassuring to him. However, he sometimes might lie on your chest in order to hear it as well, something like it lulls him to sleep, after all. You can put your hand over his chest in public as well, though, he doesn’t particularly mind cuddling in public either. There’s a good chance you’ll be nicely clothed, though, so you won’t feel his heartbeat unless you slip your hand under his clothes. You can do that, he doesn’t care about strangers staring in public. However, once it’s time to continue walking around, release him. You can continue your antics once you’ve found another nice bench to sit on.

#cod #cod x reader #cod nikolai #cod nikolai x reader #tomorrow is finally friday for me right now. I am so tired. but tomorrow I'm gonna take a long long nap #I have the next two weeks off but I can't promise that I'll be able to post too much during that time for driver's license reasons #I'll try but I have a lot of errands to run then #besides it's not like I get too many requests in per day luckily. at one point I got 4 requests in one night #now I get one. maybe two at most per day. which is good. it's relaxing and doesn't stress me out too much either #at one point I had eight requests sitting in my inbox despite working on them ever day. that was really stressful #but these days I'm more willing to close my inbox. people usually don't mind the waiting too much anyway #I do work as fast as I can though but I'm gonna stick with posting one request per day. that's a much better pace for me #haven't written for Nikolai in a while though. I'm glad people still like me writing characters other than the girls as well #but it seems as though for now I've become a cod girls centric blog haha #I don't mind. I'm just glad that people like my writing enough to want to request it. I'll write for just about anyone of the main charas #two exceptions apply but I refuse to write for them. i just genuinely don't like them #but I like Nikolai. he's good he's nice. he seems like someone who'd be great at giving bear hugs

[dragonlights]

Like I don't Post about drama but vis a vis predestro's Tumblr ban, like. I don't necessarily think it's a good thing that we on the Internet have become so desensitized to threats of violence that we use them as jokes, but like.... That's been Tumblr culture for, what, a decade now? At least four years. Almost definitely longer.

And like. I've seen so much worse. Folks admitting to sending asks telling others to kill themselves!! Folks outright wishing x/y person killed themselves!!! Folks harassing trans folks (esp. trans women!)

But what gets this one lady banned was her man door hammer hand car boom-ass post???

Like, talk about enforcing the TOS from the wrong angle.

I totally get that part of it is "this person had their rule breaking reported en masse so something happened" but shouldn't the severity of the response have more to do with the severity of the offense, rather than how many people reported that user?

Like. The fact that we have to do mass reports to get anything to happen to anyone is ridiculous.

And, the fact that INCORRECT mass reports aren't punished more is also ridiculous.

There's also no report function for discriminatory content, or for seeing users harass each other. So... If you're not the one being harassed, your report does... Nothing??

Unless you, what scroll through someone's blog looking for things you could report as threatening violence??

On the "I hope every politician dies" webbed site???

There's obviously something fucky with their reporting system- either the way that reports are handled, or the way the severity of the reports are being judged.

Cause right now, it looks like they got a flood of reports from TERFs, photomatt saw a post about him, and went "well, fuck it, get her out of here" without looking at the context of HER BEING HARASSED FOR AGES. And that the post in question- the only one I saw shared!- was almost certainly a vent post for Said Situation that was...

Comically mishandled?

Like this one?

Like. Look. Do I think maybe at some point, on the "way too comfortable with violence on people I see as Wrong in some way" webbed site, a popular user said something that could actually be construed as a threat, and due to rampant transmisogyny got, got her shit reported?

Yeah, I can see that.

I don't follow her blog too closely, I know she does a lot of hyperbolic stuff. (as is Done on this Web site, again... I've almost certainly rb'd things just as bad)

But the example photomatt uses is hilariously bad and so obviously not a threat, and one would think, IN LIGHT OF THERE BEING ALLEGATIONS OF TRANSPHOBIA ON THEIR TEAM FOR YEARS, THEY WOULD BRING OUT A MORE CREDIBLE PIECE OF EVIDENCE THAN A LOONY-TOONS ASS DEATH WISH.

Just. The bar was on the ground and they still fumbled It! Fucking! Amazing!

#dragontalk #i don't like all her views on transandrophobia. but her takes on the ways trans women are policed are spot on. #but seeing this shitshow is wild! I've followed thia lady for ages and she's like. Intense but fine? #again. i don't follow her blog too closely! there might be more harsh shit that I'd never seen! #but. mostly i see a lady who's had to fight constantly. in a way lots of trans women have. to be taken seriously. #not as a threat. not as a joke. not as a hypothetical. but as a person! who's experience this like. #really shitty intersection of transphobia and transmisogyny and probably regular misogyny and like. l #i think most of us would get pretty snippy at that point too #and given we exist in a culture way too comfortable with wishing violence on people... yeah. #most of us would have wished ~someone~ got hit with a falling grand piano or an anvil or stepped on a rake so hard they died #just. truly wild times we live in. #maybe i should start a collection of 'this post wishes violence on someone' #maybe even narrow it to 'violence on someone who hasn't upheld state sanctioned violence during their life' #to cut out the ronald Reagan margeret thatcher queen lady ass violence wishes #which i can't even bring myself to care about. and that says something about me o don't think i like. but like. #but at the aame time too much colonial ass violence in this world. I'm Tired.

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

and with that the run is officially done!! only took me *checks notes* one year and 4 months!

#i've had the concepts for even longer than that lmao but i'm going by the earliest save i can find of them #which was from december 2021 #the first sketch i can find of them is from april '21 tho so technically it's their birthday in a couple of days! #laya plays dragon age #now i gotta figure out how to play the dlcs lol #i did the ritual by habit but decided not to reload cos technically ali would be alive in this timeline so it fits ig #i think i'll go to an earlier save to play thru soldier's peak and maybe honnleath (big maybe) before doing awakening #cos they didn't get around to either during the blight but i imagine that noya is interested in checking those out once there's more time #idk about witch hunt tho; maybe i'll load a save in which renan survived? cos noya would have no incentive to seek out morri #we'll see #oc: noya tabris #my ocs

[tardis--dreams]

There's silverfish in this apartment so the only chance for my body to get some rest would be collapsing from exhaustion otherwise i will not sleep for a While

#how long does it take to get rid of them? #ages probably #and i have only one room (+ a tiny bathroom) so i cannot avoid them #they're in my bedroom therefore the bed isn't safe #god i hate it here #i had them in my first apartment too for a short time and i hoped to never experience this again #well #also the guy living here before me apparently has never cleaned the shower or the toilet in his lifetime #the shower is filthy and I've been cleaning it for 3 hours in total already #I'll have to scrub it everyday in order to get a chance to get rid of these years of dirt and limescale #(like scrub it for 30 minutes using cleaning supplies and all. not just clean it after showering like usually #which would have prevented this from happening in the first place if that guy had done this even just once a week) #also cannot fathom how my landlord accepted this bathroom to be left like this #there was literally still toilet paper in the toilet and there is dirt so bad i haven't gotten rid of it after scrubbing for hours #but yeah #the insects are the worst #i mean in korea i had actual bugs but there weren't as many and i think they couldn't climb the walls so i felt less #disgusted by my bed and everything i touch #(there was one in my bag and in the kitchen sink and in my blanket once and #I'm not exactly scared by them but actually disgusted #i guess this is what some people mean when they say they aren't scared of spiders but don't like them anyway #it's just gross and i don't want to see them) #and i will tell my landlord about it and ask if he can at least fix the bathroom silicom so maybe some of their hiding spots are gone #I'm just very tired of everything rn lol #still not using that extra time i have during the night to work for university so that's great #not getting anywhere #void screams

[altruistic-meme]

WHY DO I KEEP FORGETTING TO START WRITING EARLIER KSFHKSHF

#me who woke up at like 6: oh i hav plany of time :) #me now that it's 10:30: OH MAN I'VE ONLY GOT LIKE AN HOUR #WHOOPS #ok well no it's actually just largely bc i texted my friend to /call me and wake me up/ #and she didn't #which is fine #so i've kinda just been putting shit off like 'surely she'll actually at least text me at some point rihgt' #no #no she didn't #and she's probably asleep by now so :) #(i texted her to wake me up when she wanted me to come over btw bc i had briefly woke up from my sleep and saw she had texted smth about it #which idk. maybe it is somewhat my own fault but also she knows i sleep during the day. #and shes been texting me and i haven't been seeing it until i wake up which isn't until like 7-8 on weekends #which is too late to justify driving to her house bc they go to bed at like 9-10 so #yeah. at 3 i texted her to wake me up when she wanted me to come over. and she didn't. #this got WAY off topic i have to go write #hghhhh but idk what to write rn...... i'm not feeling (wit)jitp OR the rbb............... #we'll see #shh ac

[chantlight]

I am once again thinking about Characters Who Haunt the Narrative, and how Anthony haunts Cassandra's. This is so true on so many levels. His death decided the course of her life — as does her memory of who he was. So much of her was shaped by him. A lot of it is hero worship, honestly. She was only twelve when she witnessed his murder, and he'd been raising her since she was about seven. Yes, technically Vestalus took them in, but in reality, Anthony was doing all the real work of bringing up his sister. And, she still adores him. In her memory, he is a peerless warrior, a superlative dragon-hunter, and an individual of staunch morals who died because he would not bow to evil. He can't have been as accomplished as she recalls, but it doesn't matter. What matters is that's how he haunts her life.

That forms the cornerstone of Cassandra's identity. We can talk about how stubborn and driven and passionate she is, but what truly defines her, even more than faith, is her unyielding moral compass. Her moral code guides her entire life to the point that adherence to it can upend the very foundations of her existence. She is someone who will do what she believes is right no matter the cost and consequences. Even if it costs her her life, even if it costs her her soul, even if it costs her her sense of self, she must hold to her morals. Like Anthony held to his.

There were many points in Cassandra's life when she was started down a dark path. She's always been just a decision or two away from becoming Meredith or Lucius. Many times she stood within the jaws of anger, grief, despair; and that many times she's narrowly avoided being swallowed. All that has ever saved her has been that unfailing morality her brother inspired in her. His legacy, his haunting, has been louder than the agony of his death.

#OOC / HOLLY. #I think it also haunts her relationship with Vestalus #I've said in the past that the uncle Anthony calls out to during the massacre #the one who ostensibly died protecting Cassandra #was not a biological uncle but an 'uncle' in more of a found family sense. someone Anthony was close to in his guild #HOWEVER for a while now maybe a year or more I've really been thinking about it #maybe being Vestalus and him being terribly but not fatally wounded in the fight #and how that would inform his subsequent choices such as pulling strings to get Cassandra into the Seekers #despite opposing her even learning swordplay before that point #so that's one way in which it haunts their relationship [the guilt Vestalus feels in failing to raise them + save Anthony] #[and also allowing Cassandra finally to pursue a martial path which Anthony had always fought for her to be free to do] #then on Cassandra's end it just adds to all the bitterness and resentment she feels for their uncle #he was never really THERE and didn't really raise them beyond the basics #they were living in his house but the dead had more of a place there than them #the one time he was there Anthony still died horrifically rushing to protect them both #fighting to join the templars [altho her uncle got her into the Seekers] also slots here #Anthony always fought for her and encouraged her. now she has to take up that fight #she can't give up and give in to what others want for her. he never would have #if he didn't give up on her she can't give up on herself

[running-in-the-dark]

if there's one thing I hate it's nurses who treat you like a child or an inconvenience when you're in pain despite them insisting you shouldn't be.

no, I can't sit on the side of the bed to eat my soup, sitting up hurts like hell and I don't care that you don't think it does. it does. I know it does because it's my body and I feel the pain, so what the fuck is that about?! I had surgery this morning, there's a wound in my belly button, so it's going to hurt for a bit, I'm not being dramatic or anything!

the weirdest part is that I didn't complain or say anything, I just started sitting up very slowly to eat, and she felt the need to treat me like I'm an idiot for being in pain 🤷

she also rolled her eyes and made an annoyed noise when I showed that I was in pain during and after she gave me the injection to prevent blood clots. lady, I don't know what your problem is but that shit hurts like hell for me, every single time I've gotten it, and it keeps hurting for over an hour. so I'm going to fucking wince a little and you're just gonna have to learn to deal with that without being an asshole.

it's like there's two categories of nurses - the ones that are incredibly sweet and kind and caring, who apologise if something they do hurts and are calm and understanding when you show that you're in pain. and the ones that are completely dismissive and treat you like you're a fucking idiot for every single question, statement or reaction.

#the one who said this has generally been really unfriendly and harsh #the nurse who was here when I came in this morning was SO nice though so I really hope she'll be working tonight or tomorrow morning #and I might complain (a little) about this one when the doctors come in tomorrow morning... or at least mention that she keeps being rude #like. this is the ward for people who just had surgery so how can you be that dismissive and rude about this?? #anyway lol I can handle this behaviour now #last time this happened in I think 2019 I had a breakdown after one specific nurse kept treating me exactly like this #sorry but if you're such a huge bitch maybe you shouldn't work with people. especially not patients. #I've vented and now I feel better lol so it's fine now. and I should be going home on Sunday anyway so I won't have to deal with her for #too long #personal #tw medical #tw hospital #oof this just reminded me that the shitty nurse in 2019 actually told me to stop overreacting and being a baby when that stupid injection #hurt me. like??? why?? even if I was the only person who ever experienced pain during that (which I don't think is the case) that still #wouldn't give anyone the right to treat me like that?? over simply making an involuntary sound and shedding a couple tears #it's not like I said anything to her or was angry at her. it's so stupid #at least this time the lovely old lady I'm sharing a room with said after this that she thinks it's surprising that I can even sit up at #all so soon after surgery. that felt nice

[mishkakagehishka]

Socialisation is key, i really am just like a bunny

#felt genuinely happy and all i did was go over to my friend's flat between our lessons since she rents close by #and we had coffee and talked ab our failed loves and laughed so much and awughhhhhh #i've really been feeling off these past few months but especially these past two weeks #i don't wanna say it but i just felt like i had no meaning #and hanging out and having fun and doing paid work really managed to make me feel a bit better #and like i actually am a human being with some sort of purpose #even if it is to offer cheap and quick last minute translations or a ''DON'T FALL FOR HIM'' through laughter #sighs #idk. maybe i shouldn't let myself get consumed with anxiety and ''if i fail this then this will happen which will lead to this and that so #essentially if i fail this minor thing i'll fuck everything up and there'll be no fixing it'' but that's easier said than done #i can always distract myself tho and just do my best #i think it was during that coffee that i thought ''okay so even if i fail an exam or two - i can take them during the autumn. i don't have #to pass everything on time - few first years do - and i will still be able to rest between summer and autumn dates #so it's not like i'll be a lost cause if i don't pass everything by july's end'' but. it's still hard to think of it #but we'll see. in God's hands #we also laughed a lot bc i mentioned being religious and she went ''YOU?!'' hdbsbsbsjdjd😭😭.... is that so shocking.........

[cinematicnomad]

i’m leaving for india today! my first international trip in...literally almost a decade, and my first international trip for work EVER. my nerves are basically just one giant jumble of Oh Fuck and Oh My God! 

one v good thing: my friends who got married this weekend are going to germany for their honeymoon and while talking about their plans we discovered, through no intentional planning of our own, that we are LITERALLY on the same flight today (bc i’m transiting through germany). which means i’ve got some friends to hang out with at the airport! 

#kat liveblogs her life #kat travels #literally i was talking to the bride last week when we were getting our nails done #and was like 'oh yeah so when are you going on your honeymoon?' bc i know A LOT of people who wait for a better time to travel post-wedding #and she was like 'monday' #which i thought was great! bc i said 'oh! COOL! i'm gonna be at the airport on monday too! maybe we can hang out! what time?' #and then we just kept comparing details being like '....no way. NO WAY.' #but she didn't know the airline so we couldn't be 110% sure! #but then when i arrived at the wedding weekend literally the first person i saw was the groom and he was like #'KATY TOLD ME WE'RE FLYING TOGETHER AND THAT'S AMAZING' #and we both pulled up our tickets to compare and it's TRUE WE ARE #we're like. less than 10 rows apart from each other #katy and jim LOVE telling people about how i've always been there for some of the big MOMENTS in their relationship #(i even got mentioned in the wedding ceremony!! bc during a long drunk wine weekend jim referred to himself as katy's boyfriend) #(which they had Not Yet decided so i called him out like 'WAIT. BOYFRIEND?? 👀👀👀' and that's how they became Official™) #so he kept introducing me to people over the weekend like 'you know that friend i told you about who's always at our big moments? HER!' #and then told everyone who would listen about how we'd be on the same flight lol #i do expect some potential awkward conversation about me hooking up with his brother though 😬

[pinkanonhopes]

i have been reading???? so cool

#since i got a phone and such (so like in middle school) i stopped reading so much #so far during high school i have read very few books #but every now and then i manage to get through some more and i love love love it #and i found out that rereading a book from start to finish already knowing that you will love it is a great way to get back into reading #six of crows was fenomenal #i read it like. 4 years ago?? maybe even before #but i hadn't understood much cause i was young #now it's so much cooler and i even read it in english which was even better and i've started rereading crooked kingdom as well #then i'll get to the following series that i had never read cause it hadn't been translated in my language at the time #anyway. #yayyyyyyyyyy #leo scrive

[curiousorigins]

Most days I’d rather be asleep. Probably going to end up watching another sunrise. I’ll have you know I was mildly, but nothing important, productive today.

#Chronic Insomniac #I am OP #I'm like regular person tired... which means I should be able to sleep #But alas I was interrupted during beginning sleepy time #So my body and maybe brain are convinced it was already done #I get ranty while sleepy and my quality of sleep has been way done #apologies if nothing makes sense #I kind of want to get back into the social media and all that stuff #But I don't want to explain my absence in anyway #And I have people who actually care enough to notice #if anyone has decent avoidance techniques and reads this #feel free to share them #Like I'm fine #But I know if I share the actual reasons why I've been gone #It'll turn into a big thing because it's been a crappy time. But I've had people. So it's fine. #But I'm trying with the honesty thing now #So if I'm asked directly I don't know what to say #I just need a decent true thing that explains like a 2 year absence without it being too big a deal #Also I have no idea where my phone is so that's awkward

[sinsistersin]

wow wait my periods has never been this fast after each other, will they actually turn normal and happen at a normal rate 👀👀👀

#like last one was end september/beginning of october #and now we are beginning of november #which still leaves a bit more than a month between #but you need to understand my period has never come at normal intervals in my entire life #like it's not even weight or diet related at any moment since i've had them they have been fucked up #like i only had my period every so many months #which yeah i probably should have gone to the doctor about it #but i always started writing down when i got my period but then forgot about itr #so i never had an actual calender of how often i had it #but like #this is like good? #i think i've had my period during the summer months too at a moment? i would have to check if i might have written it down #but i think it did #which means they are happening more often! #like i'm happy i don't have to deal with blood coming out of me every month but also maybe it being more regular will make the flow #less and cramps not as bad #perhaps #idk #okay i checked and last time i wrote in my diary that i've had them was in the middle of june #but i've barely written anything this summer so maybe i had them somewhere this summer too? #but i actually doubt it #so middle of june - end sept/start okt - start nov #mmm #idk if this is at a faster average rate but certainly the okt - nov one is way closer than i get them normally #again i want to point out that my period has never been normal in my life so that it hasn't to do with me dieting that they are fucked up #atm i think that i either have pcos or that my period is very sensitive to me being stressed (which i am a lot of the time) #but like what is there to do about that

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[literatefreak]

hi! tell me I will not be Tina'd by a Bette! my biggest fear is becoming a housewife! I thought not being with men would fix that!!

#the l word #I know for a fact my insecurities/anxieties are being triggered #but its been a few times now where my gf has had to do work stuff during our time together #and we were supposed to have a whole day together just the two of us tmrw #and I've been working basically all day for two days straight so I would be able to not do anything tmrw #and now she has two work meetings #idk like it's basically not her fault too #anyway maybe I'll be healthy and communicate #and she apologized too #I think I'm just having feelings #which #ew

[dartlekey]

Life update: if things do not go as planned but it's technically still fine, I just have to do a bunch of rescheduling, am I allowed to be grumpy about it? (I know the answer is yes, as long as I don't make it someone else's problem; I'm just being dramatic. Nevertheless - )

#I am in the middle of moving apartments but the person whose couch I am currently surfing got the rona #Which makes me potentially infected so I had to cancel plans with my friend who was gonna help #I'm double-renting both apartments during November so there's still time #(Both to move furniture and clean the old apartment) #But I was looking forward to it and now I'm grumpy!!! #(also I do not want to have the virus again. The first time sucked ass) #(and also studies show that every new infection heightens risk of longterm health complications so haha. Fuck me I guess) #(but I've been testing negative so far so maybe I got lucky?? I need to chill out maybe idk) #in conclusion #This sucks and I want someone to snuggle with me and pat my head and tell me it'll be fine #Although that thought crops up at every minor inconvenience and is probably symptomatic to my parental abandonment issues #Yanno. The usual. It's cool I just need to eat something probably #Anyways if anyone wants to hang out via text I've suddenly got no evening plans lmao

[sreegs]

I reblogged it earlier but I'm glad the Something Awful Forums 9/11 thread was archived because it's an incredibly important slice of internet history. For the record I think 9/11 was thousands of personal tragedies for the direct victims of the attacks but one big national farce that led to America's ongoing slide into fascism, and the nationalism and remembrance around it is a joke especially in the wake of the same amount of deaths every fucking day in the US during the height of coronavirus.

Nevertheless I think it's important that if you do not remember because you were too young or just didn't exist on Sept 11, 2001 to read the Something Awful 9/11 forums to get an idea of what the internet was like at the moment when America changed to 24 hour news cycles and renewed hyper-nationalism not seen since WWII.

This all happened before Twitter, Facebook, before Discord. Before smart phones. Before most people had cell phones. When a lot of people still had dial-up internet, even. Some people in the thread were relying on radio because internet and TV weren't keeping up.

It was a live event of internet denizens reacting to the biggest national event (and among the biggest international events) of the past 25 years. It was also a slice of what the internet was like at the turn of the millennium. Not only that, but people accurately calling out who was responsible, and what would result before the attacks even finished.

Keep in mind that the links that follow contain images of the event, lots of Islamophobia, people calling for the Middle East to be nuked, people blaming Palestine, casual racist and homophobic language (this was Something Awful after all), etc etc. They preserved the first 17 pages which spanned about 24 hours during the events. It's the origin of the "WATCH BUSH START A FUCKING WAR" screenshot.

Links under the fold. I've also annotated the pages with notes regarding the timeline and any posts of interest. Note the thread was preserved in Pacific Time even though the page says times are Eastern. That's incorrect. Post timestamps are 3 hours behind Eastern Time, which is the time zone where the attacks occurred:

Page 1 - Note the first post was edited to include images of the second attack. The thread started after the first plane hit. Second plane hitting the WTC happens here too.

Page 2 - Poster accurately calling out Bin Laden was responsible at 9:14 AM EST

Page 3 - "WATCH BUSH START A FUCKING WAR"

Page 4

Page 5 - First official acknowledgement it was a terrorist attack.

Page 6 - Pentagon hit

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Page 9 - Commercial flights grounded by FAA (Federal Aviation Administration)

Page 10 - First mention of towers collapsing at end of page

Page 11 - More reactions to collapse of first tower. People thinking it was a bomb or yet another plane. Rumors about a fourth plane just missing the White House (these are false and predate the actual 4th plane crash by minutes)

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Page 13 - By this point there's just rampant speculation about more bombs at the WTC, the US Capitol building being hit, etc (all false). Remember this is all just people reacting to TV news and radio and the rumor mill via phone, AIM, IRC, and maybe text messages.

Page 14 - By this point internet news sites are overwhelmed

Page 15 - Second tower collapses. First acknowledgement of the fourth plane that crashed in PA.

Page 16 - There's an abrupt time jump in the threads, I think it was the result of admins pruning the activity or the SA forums going down. This page starts on 9/12 even though it is page 16. American flag signatures and ribbons start appearing.

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#9/11 #something awful