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kitty-does-stuff · 10 months

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QUEER, DISABLED & NEURODIVERGENT HOMELESS FAMILY SEEKING FUNDS FOR HOUSING & SURVIVAL

Tldr: homeless 8 months family need money for day to day survival & to help seek housing & work.

Ko-fi.com/kittydoesstuff

Longer version is that I have made this sort of post probably like 10 times now, each time explaining that we evacuated our home due to gun violence from another unit, each time when money is a stresser because of things like storage bills to protect all our worldly belongings or data bills that keep my family in contact with the world, allow me to write this or because we don't know what's for dinner or what as a whole we are eating.

Each time I write this I hope, I think that will hopefully be near the end, and then each time I have to make another one of these I feel like I lied, deceived & I hate it so much.

When you're homeless people treat you 1 of 4 ways

Pitied, like you're weak & stupid, something they need to "save" from yourself no matter how much of your freedom & body atomutoity they have to violate to feel better about the emotions THEY feel when they see you.

Like a criminal, like you did something wrong, like you choose to be homeless & have crisis after crisis that lead to unexpected spending. This, this here is why for roughly 6 months I have felt like a lier, I had believed in something that didn't work out & with so many viewing my family like this, despite how much we have tried to do the right things & how the only laws we've broken are the ones that say you cannot exist in a public space, especially if you're homeless.

They leave you, they decide it's too hard to watch, that they can't handle it so will just leave & leave the emotional weight. The crushing weight of calling out for help & no longer hearing them call back on you.

And the last are a little rarer, fair bit rarer: those who just treat you like people, like how they always have, like someone deserving dignity & respect.

Whenever I have made one of these posts I have been scared that someone along the top 3 would show up, so far it hasn't happened but I have had it make me hesitate to ask for help when the chips aren't down, when we have food & no bills, just simply more long term things.

Now I don't simply want to be negative, I want to show briefly how money has helped us so here's what stuff has looked like so far

Truck where we all had to sleep sitting up -> truck where me & brother could lay down -> found reliable sleeping spots -> spent a few nights here & there in motels for showers -> brought the camper -> found a campsite to stay for a little while -> found a semi parament campsite (ehich closes at the start of fall)

None of that would have been possible if people hadn't donated to us, we won't of had money & probably would of had toc resort to extreme & time comunsemming means to survive.

Which brings us to now, we have a place that is safe to stay, that we feel safe being left while our is gone with our mother as she looks for work & goes things like apartment viewing.

We need money for the following

Bills

Food, drinks & basic survival things.

& once those are covered money I am rising will be directed to things like housing & dental bills to help my brother.

If you need more info on the exacts of what is going on I urge you to look though my Kitty Says Stuff tag which prior donation posts are all tagged.

WHERE TO DONATE

Ko-fi.com/kittydoesstuff

& dm if you need a paypal to send it to instead.

#homeless #donation post #mutual aid #single boost #kitty says stuff

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dick-chugger · 5 months

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You've infected me with a desire to watch a show from the 70's that I've always actively avoided because my racist great uncle likes it. What have you done to me?

How queer actually is it? Will I be able to bare the laugh track or is it Big Bang Theory level bad? Help. I am afflicted.

First thing: I've only seen a few clips with the laugh track and it's horrible. Probably wouldn't be able to watch the show with it. But it's available without it on DVDs and at least one pirating site (ehich is where I'm watching from). I can send a link in DMs if someone asks me to.

I've only seen like 1 season so I'm not an expert, but like if you ask me it's really queer, especially for a sitcom from the 70s.

I can't remember if you follow me for IASIP but if you do, I think it's pretty similar queer rep. Like there are many jokes about homosexuality in general, but most of the time it doesn't feel like queer people are the butt of the joke. A lot of the show is the main characters hating war and being subversive of the manly culture to either get away or to just annoy shitty people. There are a lot of scenes of the main character flirting with his male friends and making jokes about being bi (and also about getting pegged and getting pregnant) so I think it's pretty safe to say that he's queer. And from what I've seen every single male chaarcter has flirted back with Hawkeye so that's fun. Also without the laugh track one major character crossdressing doesn't feel like a joke, despite the fact that with the laugh track it pretty obviously is supposed to be. So if you can, watch it without the laugh track, you should.

There are also more serious episodes about things like racism, homophobia and the horrors of war (obviously). In general the show feels way more progressive and less mean-spirites than any 2000s sitcom I've watched.

I'd say the worst part is that there are some really shitty jokes directed towards women, and some pretty bad rape jokes. (The worst one so far is in the episode Bananas, Crackers and Nuts.)

This is really disorganised but yeah. I recommend it 👍

#mash

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yeaimfishboi · 6 years

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Soft Bias Tag

I was tagged by @bangchanstic and @felixthekoala todo this and it’s cute uwu

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 1. Who is your bias?

Kim Donghyuk

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 2. What made you notice them?

A lot of things, the first thing I noticed were his warm eyes and welcoming smile. I love his selflessness, and the fact that he cares so much. I love his cute little nose, and his adorable little laugh. There was so much about him that drew me in.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 3. What’s your favorite thing about them?

Everything. I love his laugh, his passion, his selflessness, his humour, and his ability to light my darkest of days.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 4. Who would initiate skinship more?

Uhhhhhhhh idk I want to say me but I think it’d be him as I am a very indpendent person so sometimes it may be too much, and I just don’t initiate anything. Ehich is why I think he’d initiate it more.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 5. Who would hog blankets more?

I think we’d probably have separate blankets because we’d both hog during the winter, and I’d kick all the covers off in the summer. So every once in a while we would share but we’d have our own.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 6. Who would be more clingy?

Honestly, me. I require physical affection and to fuel my day and verbal confirmation to help fuel my passions. I’m very clingy to begin with ( @twerre calls me his tumor)

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 7. Who would say ‘I love you’ first?

I’m very scared to do things out of my comfort zone, and so if I said I love you first (as a romantic thing) it would take a very long time. So he would probably say it first

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 8. Who would be more easily flustered?

Both of us get flustered very easily but I think I would be a tad more flustered, because he would like to shower me in compliments to boost my self esteem.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 9. What cuddling position would you two have?

Ummm probably the Sweethearts Cradle or a traditional spoon!

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･10. Which colors remind you of them and why?

He reminds me of a soft Canary Yellow, just a calm person with a big warm heart, with a desire to make the world a better place.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 12. What season would you want to spend with them?

I honestly love Spring and I think it would be cute with him, but imagine us camping by a lake watching the fireflies as we roast marshmallows, cuddling by the fire, and then counting stars as we drift off to sleep on a fall night? (10/10 ideal date/trip)

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 13. Who would bake the cookies and who would steal the batter?

I’m the cook in the house. It’s not that he can’t cook, it’s just he only knows how to make a few things, so I usually cook. With cookies he would try and help, but I would get slightly irritated and kick him out, but he would then grab the batter and wipe it on my nose for revenge.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 14. Which one of you would make bad puns and how would the other react?

Ask @leeknows-min-hoe I love puns. I don’t go out of the way to make puns but I love hearing them. Dong would use them to make me giggle and to also get him what he wants.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 15. Who would want to adopt 50 dogs and cats?

Both of us love cats and dogs, but I have really bad allergies. So we would maybe get like 2 dogs and 2 cats and then some fishies. They would be our loves, and the idea of it makes me uwu

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 16. Which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a pop tart and who would come to the rescue?

Both of us would burn it, but we both know you don’t cook pop tarts in the microwave. Somehow we would put it in the oven to toast and completely forget about it. Me especially bc I’m spacey af.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 17. Who likes to lean over tall railings and who pulls them back?

Neither of us are idiotic like that. I’m deathly terrified of heights and he would probably be trying to comfort me as we cross them. There would be no time to lean over XD

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 18. What would watching a horror film with them be like?

Y’ALL KNOW I LOVE ME SHARK MOVIES, so we’d watch those a lot and later in the relationship he would know all the random shark facts I’ve taught him. We’d laugh at all the dumb mistakes made in movies. If we were to watch like a slasher I would probably be making sarcastic comments and laughing, and he would probably be very indifferent, but we would occasionally jump up a lil.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 19. Who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt?

I’m cheesy af (Like I once said to an ex “Do you like llamas” as an attempt to flirt). I can’t flirt for shit and he would just be really freaking cute.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 20. Who is more competitive?

Uhhhhh, neither of us? Maybe him? We’re both laid back, but I feel like when it comes to things like dancing he’s more passionate.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 21. Who would have to be given constant reminders? (Remember to eat, don’t forget your keys, etc)

Both of us would do it. He would worry about me more because I’m really bad at taking care of myself, which means quite a few messages. But he would mask it really well, because I don’t like being pestered and pitied (idk how to describe it), so he would send messages like “What’d you eat for lunch babe?”, “What did you write today?”, “Did my baby girl sleep well?”, “Wanna go get Subway for lunch?” as ways for him to make sure I’m doing ok, without me going crazy.

*♡ ｡･ﾟﾟ･ 22. Who sends memes and who sends cute ‘I miss you’ texts at 3am?

Ahhhh the easiest question. He would send I miss you texts and I would probably respond with this

I tag @changbinishere92 @leeknows-min-hoe @justlovingkpop @kimjongdaely

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wow-very-emo-such-bands · 6 years

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Reason why i do not like K-Pop

I know already, as i am currently writing this, that no matter what, a lot of K-Pop fans, Saesengs and lovers of Kpop in general will critizes and hate me for this, and i will definitly lose a bunch of followers, whether they actually read this post or not.

But for those of you who decide to stay and hear me out, thanks alot.

Now first of all it‘s mostly cuz the music genre is simply not for me. By that I don‘t referr to the fact that the songs are in korean, so everyone who is about to call me a racist for not liking K-Pop songs, can sit down again. Cuz really i couldn‘t care less about in what language the songs are in. My problem isn‘t the language in which the lyrics are written, but their meaning once you translate them. Most of the lyrics are meaningless, bland and repetative. Most of the K-pop songs i’ve kinda enjoyed due to a catchy melody, every time i went to look up a translation on the internet it turned out that the song was always just about vanity, needing to be the best or it was a love song even cheesier than early Beatles songs, and the Beatles used the word love 613 times. So that’s saying quiet alot in my opinion. Basically K-pop is in that case identical to western pop songs: Whenyou‘ve heard one, you‘ve basically heard them all.

But in the end everyone is entitled to love the kind of music and lyrical nonsense they want to.

But anyway up to the second reason why I will most likely never get into K-Pop is the toxicity of the fandom. I know this has been discussed and talked about a million times by now that i am basically just beating a dead horse, and altho the major toxic part of the fandom is mearly a vocal minority, it‘s unfortunatly avocal minority equipped with megaphones.

From Shipping Wars and the infamous Fandom wars between EXO and BTS to straight up trying to murder an idol, the K-Pop fandom really had seen it all.

Because there is so much to material and incidents i could cover about this point, i will try to keep it only 6 examples in order to show you what I‘m saying.

The major reason’s and incidents about the EXO vs BTS Fandom War: •The Exo-L‘s (the EXO fanbase) tried to accuse BTS falsely of plagerism, crushing their success just because they were afraid that BTS would gain more popularity than EXO after the release of BTS‘s latest album and the EXO-L‘s even going as far as making the A.R.M.Y (the BTS fandom) look bad by creating fake A.R.M.Y accounts and behaving utterly obnoxious, to make the oublic believe every BTS fan behaves like a moron to say the very least. •Actual A.R.M.Y members sending hate, immature insults and even death treaths to people who like EXO or other K-Pop or even western Bands more than BTS, regardless of wether they said bad stuff against BTS or simply didn‘t enjoy the music cuz it wasn‘t their cup of tea.

the A.R.M.Y attacking the group Stray Kids (a K-Pop band that didn‘t even had it‘s debut at the time) and accusing of plagerism and trying to sabotage them for minor similarities in the trailer to one of their songs to BTS.

Saesang fans, harassing, stalking their idols to their home, one even stealing some of their urine from the toilet and trying to sell it on ebay, another one writing a letter to one of their idols with their menstruation blood and all around behaving like their idols/bias/oppa belongs to them. I experienced the latter one actually first hand with a Koreaboo friend of mine nearly beating another girl up for dearing to like "their bias“ and talking about how "she was totally going to marry him one day“. And i‘m unfortunatly not talking about the ones who say those things as a joke. Now i know that certain Stans of western bands harass their idols too, for example Brendon Urie from Panic! At the disco didn‘t feel safe anymore in his old house after dozen of fans stalked him in his own home, yet no bandom that i know about, has fans as obsessive as the K-Pop Saseng and Koreaboo fans

Anti-fans, now this is like the polar opposite of the Saesang and Koreboo fans. While the ones are so obsessed with an idol that they won‘t stop at anything to be near them, Anti-Fans hate a certain idol so much that they won‘t stop at anything to get rid of said idol. For example did those anti fans scream racisl slurrs at some K-Pop idols for example if they had chinese or japanese ancestors or if one of their parents wasn’t korean or asian. There was also an incident where a dozen of people signed a petition to force an idol into suicide, others even tried to straight up murder some Idols by putting dangerous poison in their food or planning on bringing shotguns and other weapons to their concerts in order to kill them with them, posting their plans on social media like twitter and getting cheered on and supported by other antis. Some of these so called Anti fans even cheered and had basically an online party after Kim Jong-Hyun, a member of SHINee, comitted suicide last year and made fun of both the idols himself and his fans

Cultural apropiation is unfortunatly quiet the problem in, mostly the wester part of the K-Pop fandom. People posting videos, pictures and text posts showing how they eat traditional Korean dishes like Kimshi or just simply eat noodles out of a bowl (sometimes still while using a fork) and than say how korean they are or how they brag about being able to speak fluent korean when they can mostly say 3 words. Most of those people are caucasian teenage girls who think from speaking a few words and knowing one or two things about korea, imidiatly makes them Asian and Korean when they still have the legal nationality of a western country and are caucasian. Your ethnicity is not something you can change like a hairstyle. It‘s part of your DNA and is unfortunatly a part of you that you are stuck with forever. Just like the Weaboos in the Anime comunity, Koreaboos are simply people who need to feel special and superior to others by behaving like they know more about korea than anyone else when in reality all their knowledge about Korea is based on cheesy K-Pop songs that a lot of times weren‘t even written by korean people, but more about that later

6. This one is more of a personal experience which is basically the reason why i don‘t ever want explore or even becom part of the K-Pop fandom. Basically i have this BTS fangirl in my Arts and Crafts Classes and one day while we were working on our projects, she started ralking to me and asked me random questions about K-Pop bands, both BTS and Bands that I have never even heard off. She asked stuff like : "Who is your bias? Don‘t you agree that Rapmonster looks so hot! Korean boys are way hotter than white boys! Why are you dating a white boy? Like I would never date a white guy. What do you think of this ship and that ship? Don‘t tell me you ship that other one???“ and i explained to her calmly that i‘m not a K-Pop fan and simply do not care for it, cuz it‘s not my cup of tea. Than she started going absolutly crazy, calling me a racist even tho i explained to her that my problem with K-Pop is the meaning of the lyrics and most of the melodies and rythms, not the fact that it‘s from Asia, but she refused to listen and started telling everyone in our class i was a homophobic (note: I am actually bisexual) racist and that i triggered her. And besides the obvious fact that triggering someone doesn‘t mean that you disagree with somebody else, i guess i don‘t have to do further explaination.

Thirdly ,and I know I will definitly get hate for this, K-Pop artists in my opinion got their fame basically like a present, they didn‘t work for it like other bands and artists have to. Most Western bands, like Twenty one Pilots, All Time Low and even the Beatles started off as nobodies. They started off as small garage bands, often with an audience of only a few people before getting discovered bypure chance and signed by a record label and even then they mostly had to work for their fame themselves. Twenty one pilots was signed to a record label in 2012, they had already produced 2 albums (Self titled and Regional at best) in Tyler‘s basement before that even happened and even after Fueled by Ramen signed them because they recognized their talent but didn‘t really push them much. It took until 2015 (the band exists since 2009) that they hit mainstream popularity with their Album Blurryface. Tyler Joseph, the front man of Twenty one pilots, wrote all the lyrics and melodies by himself for that album. The Beatles started off as the little unkown band, playing in the cave bar (a pub in liverpool) and had already written some of their most well known songs like she loves you and Roll over Beethoven at the time. They were about to give up on their dreams of ever becoming famous before Brian Eppstein discovered them after years of already having played in that Pub and signed them to their label. And even then it wasn’t the record itself ehich made the Beatles famous, but their talents and those world famous lyrics written by them once again on their owny K-Pop Idols do not have to work themselves up to the top through hard work and dedication with little to know knowledge about wether or not their dream will ever come trough. They simply go to an Agency which after 2 years of training, makes them famous. Though i can‘t say that most K-Pop idols are talentless when it comes to their voices and dance moves, it still doesn‘t change the fact that they get fame as a gift from their record labels while Idols from other countries (i‘m not just talking about western bands) have to climb the steps to the top themselves. K-Pop idols get put in an elevator by their record label which transports them to the top. And most of all K-Pop idols don‘t write any of the lyrics of their songs by themselves themselves, which in defence of the K-Pop Idols, isn‘t really their fault, yet still pretty unfair towards foreign bands in my opinion.

And my last and most of all biggest reason why i do not like and support K-Pop is because of the K-Pop industry.

I know the western music industry isn‘t made out of honey, rainbows and butterflies either but compared to what the K-Pop Industry does to its idols should be illegal since they basically take away all of the idols‘s human rights, treating them more as products which can be sold like Coca Cola, rather than actual human beings; Which is also why some people refer to the contract between an idol and its label to a "slavery contract“ because once that contract is signed, the label literally owns the idol. Let’s start with the minor examples to the bigger issues to begin with:

Most if not all K-Pop labels forbid their idols to fall in love with someone, so that the fans fantasies of being together with their Idols won‘t be crushed. There was even a case in which a female K-Pop idol had to shave off all of her hair and give a public apology for spending the night with her boyfriend.

Unlike idols in western countries, who, after becoming rather famous, earn like a million dollars and can live in a big luxerious mansion, K-pop idols usually only get a very little to basically no money from their record label, even members of some of the most successful K-Pop bands are as broke as a bunch of college students, their money often just being enough so the whole band can share one meal and the idols are also often forced by their record label to live together in small cramped appartments, as near to their record label as possible so that record label can control them even better. So just imagine for a moment having to live with up to 6 to 12 people in a small 1-3 room appartent after having spent all day working and training with said people. I guess i don‘t have to say that this could lead to severe stress, mental health problems and even tensions between the bandmembers.

The record label takes away all of the Idols individuality and creativity and the right to express themselves. Like mentioned before, the majority of K-Pop idols don‘t write their songs by themselves. And most of the time it‘s not even because of them having no ideas or being uninspired but instead it‘s once again the K-Pop industrie, forbidding it to them. So instead of letting the idols creat their own original music, most of their songs are being written by Martin Sandberg, mostly known as Max Martin, a swedish song writer who writes most of the modern Pop songs, both in korea and western countries, that we know today. He is the composer of Hit me baby one more time and i kissed a girl and so many more. And him also being one of the major writers for K-Pop songs just shows how and why just like for western pop music, the rule "once you‘ve heard one, you‘ve heard them all“ also applies to K-pop unfortunatly.

Anorexia and beauty surgery. The K-Pop industrie wants everything and really everything to be perfect about their products- i mean idols. So in most cases they highly recommand if not even force the idols to get a plastic surgery, often around the nose, and even undergoing the so called V-Line operation in order to obtain a face like an anime doll, by first breaking the jaw completly and then reassembling it and given the fact that the V-Line operation is a very risky procedure and usually is done in case that teethlines are misarebged and need to be corrected and not in order to become more beautiful. K-Pop idols are also forced to be as thin as possible, to the point where it‘s almost anorexic. Most of them eat only one meal a day or only eat raw food like fruits and vegetables in order to stay thin. Others like the boygroup TVXQ who the week before their debut, only consumed water and nothing else. So if anyone wants to tell me that the diets that the industry is forcing on their idols is healthy, than i have to tell them that they are just utterly dilusional and nothing else.

Some companies and labels even forbid their idols in their contract to see their friends and families for years, isolating and keeping them trapped almost enterily so the only people they can talk to are the people working for their label and the other members of their group.

Prostitution. Yes you’ve heard me right. The record labels literally force their idols to straight up prostitution. Luckily just like in Hollywood with the #Metoo movement, korean people start to do something against this problem in the K-Pop industrie, but it‘s unfortunatly still heavily present.

I mentioned before that before K-Pop stars even start their debut as a band they have to train for about 2 years, and even after their debut and even after becoming famous their record label forces them to train and practice every day. Now first this sound that wierd right? Cuz foreign idols have to do that too. But oh boy does the K-Pop industrie take this to a whole new level. Because of them K-Pop idols often have to train to the point where they literally faint from exhaustion. An average work day for K-Pop stars lasts +/- 20 hours each day. Many of them needed to be taken to the hospital from over exhaustion to the point where it‘s almost seen as normal. A K-Pop idol by the name of Crystall even is forced to work so hard and faints so often even on stage from exhaustion that it‘s becoe their trademark in a sick way.

Beside the long working hours, K-Pop idols are forced to perfection like machines. Thus once again back to my point that the industrie sees them as mere products that can be produced in mass, rather than treating them as humans. There are many cases of abuse from the trainers to the K-Pop idols they‘re teaching. If they get one note or one dance move wrong thdy are imidiatly hit and slapped, causing some of them to even break down crying.

So to wrap it all up i guess you could say that my biggest problem with K-pop is how the industrie and even the fans treat their idols (and other people too obviously) instead of the music itself. Because even though i do not care for K-Pop music i would have never done this post if it were for the songs alone because music tastes are different from person to person. But i simply will not support K-Pop until at the very least the K-Pop industrie starts to treat their idols like actual human beings, giving them the right to express themselves and do their own thing, because i am sure if it weren‘t for the fact that most K-Pop songs are written by the exact same dude and the idols could write them themselves, we would get awesome songs with beautiful lyrics and melodies.

Bibliographie:

https://youtu.be/ClVqqJ3Peuc

https://www.sbs.com.au/popasia/blog/2017/12/14/dark-side-k-pop-according-former-k-pop-idol

https://www.google.lu/amp/s/aminoapps.com/c/k-pop/amp/blog/the-real-dark-side-of-kpop/3VIB_ugQqkW484YnV1Y2gbrJDabz3o

https://youtu.be/URZ1-Pmi9JY

https://youtu.be/g_3a-w0JqIg

https://www.thestar.com.my/news/regional/2017/12/21/star-suicide-highlights-dark-side-of-the-kpop-dream/

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artichoke-that-hoe · 6 years

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Full Avengers Infinity War Review (Broken down into spoiler free, mildly spoilerish, and extremely spoiltt[after the page break dw] sections)

Spoiler-Free:

Initial thoughts: what. the absolute. fuck. How can one movie tear my soul apart like this?? And the end credit scene?? Holy shit so many mixed emotions I’m having trouble processing this holy shit what the fuck

After calming down slightly: there has been a clear change in the tone of marvel movies as they moved from their angsty teen goth phase to their wine aunt I don’t give a fuck phase. I went into this film thinking the tonal shift between comic relief characters and more angsty characters would have been harsh and abrasive but for the most part it was actually very smooth, it gave us a more complex look at otherwise two dimensional characters and added a bit of lightness to an otherwise heavy film

The back and forth between different groups of characters till their inevitable union at the end was smooth and kept the plot moving forward at a reasonable pace

The pace was actually so fast, but not an unfollowable fast, it felt as if the movie somehow morphed time in our world, what felt like half an hour to me was actually the entire duration of the movie

And holy shit the lighting!! The cinematography!! The CGI!! It wasn’t dark and hardly viewable even on the big screen! There were so many beautifully lit scenes(albeit there were some murky dark scenes that reminded me of the old avanegers movies) they really took a page out of Thor Ragnorak and Black Panthers book because the fight scenes (of which there were many) were so incredible and dramatic and full of emotion!

But honestly, so much of it was shocking and unexpected that there were moments where it didn’t feel even remotely real in the out-of-body experience type of way.

Mildly spoilerish but no real details:

The trailer actually threw us some curve balls. I generally avoid trailers because I believe they give away too much but the few stills that I did see were actually very misleading and as I’m writing this I’m thinking that they might actually be hints to the events of Avengers 4????

There was so much loss, with such a huge cast and such a daunting and powerful villain (that was teased for like 13 movies) it was completely inevitable but each loss hit so hard it’s hard to process it. And there are characters that we still don’t know the fate of and it’s killing me that I have to wait an entire year for the next part.

Related side note: you know the Russo brothers are sick of mcu’s bullshit when a character literally says “no resurrection this time” after a death jfc I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time

FULL SPOILERS LIKE IM GONNA GO INTO SPECIFIC EVENTS OF THE MOVIE(be warned I get incoherent bc I’m still so emotional):

Holy. Shit. Literally wide cut to the opening scene where thanos has literally murdered HALF OF ASGARD and in the first five minutes he’s murdered Loki (see: above reference to no resurrection) and heimdall (there goes MatPats theory about the soul stone) I’ve never had a movie shake me to my core this quickly. Before heimdall dies he uses his final moments to send hulk back to earth where he spends the rest of the movie as banner bc hulk is throwing a teenage temper tantrum and banner has erectile dishulktion like bitch get your shit together when did hulk become poorly timed comic relief.

Skipping forward a bit because I’m not gonna recap the entire movie; when the guardians find Thor in the wreckage of the asgardian ship it was honestly the best thing ever. Drac literally describes Thor as a cross between an angel and a pirate all while fat shaming quill oh my god it was amazing and I’m so incredibly sad we lost him

SPEAKING OF HEARTBREAKING DEATHS PETER PARKER YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!

The way he clings to tony at the end and just keeps saying he doesn’t want to go oh my god that absolutely broke me

And then there were the simpler deaths like Bucky who just says “Steve” EHICH IM PRETTY SURE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME HE SAYS STEVE SINCE BECOMING THE WINTERSOLDIER HOLY SHIT MY EMOTIONS

Holy shit I can’t explain in words to you the emotions I felt when t’challa reaches for Okoye and says “this is no place to die” then his hand just crumbles away along with the rest of him and the rest of my heart (SIDE NOTE BLACK PANTHER DID SO WELL IN THE BOX OFFICE HOW THE HELL ARE YOU GONNA KILL OFF THE LEAD?? DOES THIS MEAN NO BLACK PANTHER 2??)

and dear god help me the end credit scene how the hell are you gonna kill off Maria Hill and Nick Fury in the fucking END CREDITS???

There was literally a collective gasp in my theatre as Fury started fading away

Buttt the captain marvel reference at the very end!!! Our girl carol danvers is gonna be in the next avengers!! (We need her they killed off so many female characters lord give me strength to overcome this adversity in the face of lack of diversity)

OkAy coming back from all the death let’s talk about the fact that throughout the film Thor calls Rocket “rabbit” and never once gets corrected??? It was honestly one of my favourite things

And Thor trying to relate to Gamoras fucked up family by telling her about his and quill getting jealous it was so cute I loved their dynamic.

Vision and Wanda’s relationship felt so natural, their chemistry was fucking fantastic and their final scene together where Wanda gave in to the inevitable and had to destroy the mind stone and vision along with it holy shit that entire scene was so incredibly heart breaking with the way vision kept saying it’s alright over and over again till his final moments. They had a chance to be a normal couple living happily in Scotland away from everything, they could had had it all and it was torn from them so savagely.

And as I’m writing this I’m realizing that none of this makes sense. How could they kill off half the cast especially so many fan favourites and so many characters whose contracts don’t expire anytime soon?? So on tooo:

Theories:

Okay so why would doctor strange give thanos the time stone in exchange for Tony’s life? Why would he give up the thing that he has sworn his life to protecting and essentially sentence billions of beings to save the life of one that was not guaranteed to survive? None of that makes sense unless the one out of 14 million alternate futures he saw involved all of this happening and then somehow being reversed??

At the end of the movie we see a burnt out gauntlet implying that it can no longer be used but what if the individual stones can still be used? What if they’re still able to turn back time and bring back those they’ve lost?

This theories got a bunch of holes and it definitely wouldn’t make sense to bring back the entire roster but after a quick google search Holland, Pratt and the rest of the guardians, Boseman, and Cumberbatch all have marvel movies coming out in the next few years so really nothing is real death is a lie and I feel nothing 🙃 .

#The Avengers #infinity war #avengers infinity war #review #is this a review or is it just the incoherent ramblings of a madwoman??#por que no los dos #anyway #spoiler free #but also #spoiler alert #only after the page break

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22thoughtdumps22 · 4 years

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there are days when i wake up, i wish i was already asleep and done w the day.

i felt like that today, it was the first day back from “summer break” for me & i was hoping it woulda gone ok, i even played this 5-min meditation instrumental 3x and it did help me stay focused, altho i was still barely like, awake and functioning lol....like a robot lol. ...so i was hopeful today would be a good day

i made sure to sleep early enough (1230) but wasn’t until 1247 when i was finally able to sleep bc i had this fucking tension headache right before bed (ehich after everything i’m writing i’m getting another one lol, i need to clear my head out lol —how to clear out negative mental energy)

so i ran a hot bath to relax (barely) enough to be able to sleep comfortably enough....my skin was hot so i used the white woven blanket bc it’s light but heavy (which i should make it into a weighted blanket, w faux fur on the other side maybe...kinda feel —> Joanns) but then i got too cold bc of the ac blasting in, so i woke up but couldn’t bother getting a warmer blanket so that’s how i slept. slighlty uncomfortable.

waking up wasn’t too hard bc i was trying to motivate myself for it to be a good day, i was gonna even meditate for 3 min at work but realized maybe not w elaine there 😐

which, honestly i like that she comes in & asks what i need, but then she gets all rude like today damn, she snapped at me to close the fucking sink cabinets & that was so f annoying honestly & i think i’m gonna say something bc i’m not gonna stand for this white woman snapping at me. but ima do it nicely bc i still work for this woman (just be straight up but nice lol)

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so then i played that meditation song 3x bc it was helping, & was just trying to basically send out positive energy for the day but today didn’t go so good i feel, and it’s bc of my fucking allergies. i was v impatient today w the kids bc my allergies were fucking w me. so stressed out rn for my observation visit, i feel like i already fucked it up bc of what happened today w mili too, bc she was outside w maria talking. i didnt even know i was being..harsh? and all bc of my fucking allergies. i felt oht of it today but i was trying. idk what’s wrong w me to be doing that kind of shit, like i really want to be better for these kids but idk how , & it’s frustrating bc i’m coming from a finance background & i want this credential to prove that i can do it , that i’m serious about it & i can learn this & experience it but maybe i’m searching for it in the wrong place (at FCCDC) ?

espc when i feel like i’m not being supported by my boss at work? what a strained relationship. that she fucked up)

(i think i’m at a painful point in my growth & i haven’t wanted to move on so i’ve been holdjng on to anger, specifically on my trauma and my mom (it doesn’t feel right to call her my abuser. she was verbally abusive ->emotional abuse basically tho) & just thinking of my childhood and memories coming up kinda. like the fact that i can’t remember a lot before pre-k (sometimes idk the little girl i see in pictures)

being alone in the classroom is fucking w my psyche i think. i can’t do all that work by myself, it’s so overwhelming i feel like the only thing i’m able to do is put out fires, and i get so focused on that that i forget about teachable moments and everything i learned/ing about early childhood?

wtf does this mean?? damn am i counscious in the fucking deEP?? i got that jmposter syndrom.

i worry about not doing enough that i overwhelm myself & don’t even know where to start or communicate these things, or who to communicate them to bc it takes a lot for me to trust (thanks mom) . in ths case, w teaching these kids..how the fuck?

i was brought up strict u djmb bitch LOL AND CATHOLIC TOOOO OH FUCK AND IM A FUCKING GAYYYY

i have some serious allergies fuck they fuck w me too much

i just feel like something is wrong w me bc i was more impatient than ever today bc of my allergies

i’m afraid of being abusive, that i am being abusive, & i feel awful about it & remorseful bc these kids don’t deserve that. should i even be allowed near kids? idk.

it feels like i try to put oht positive energy when it comes to hoping for a good day at work & it all goes to shit. that’s the 3rd this has happened, is the universe trying to tell me something? is she trying to chew me up and spit me out? what is going on??

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eenefangirlanalysis · 7 years

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“Talk about stupid.” Eddy’s favorite catch phrase.

Eddy takes his friends in both hands, albeit a little roughly, to have a little meeting.

In this perfect screenshot showcasing each of the Ed’s individual personality Eddy let’s his friends in on a secret. He knows a place that is practically invisible for them to hide.

Ed and Edd glance at one another.

Edd is hesitant on whether or not he wants to hear another one of Eddy’s plans. His last plan nearly get them all killed and now they’re on the run from a bunch of maniac kids.

Ed and Edd have no choice. They’ve always relied on Eddy to help them out from their situations. Ed and Edd could easily escape from Eddy’s whim, but choose not too. They’re not confident with relying on themselves. Nobody has ever encouraged them to put themselves out into the world. Nobody, except Eddy.

Eddy gives his friends a chance at trying to be the leader. He wants one of them to take over his leadership position so he can take a break. He can’t come up with all the plans. Being leader puts a lot of pressure over ones head. Although you’re in charge you have to encourage whoever is bringing out orders to ask questions and make suggestions. That’s what the working world is for. Working helps a person grow better socially.

Ed and Edd don’t have the best social skills. No, Edd does not. He is blind to other people’s emotions and also won’t let others have an opinion. Eddy helps him learn to better appreciate others say. He also helped him absorb back into the world in season 1. Edd was such a different person who acted like a kid. An immature kid who was still smart beyond his years. He had a hard time interacting with the kids.

Ed and Edd would not be better off without Eddy. I have said this a million times but I will keep saying it. Eddy has helped them learn that their is more to each of them and they can make their own decisions without turning to Eddy. That goal is finally achieved in the movie.

Ed and Edd bite wishing for Eddy to go on.

Eddy scoops up his friends one more time. This time he brings them into a physical huddle.

Interruption: Ed is adorable.

Wow. It’s rare whenever you see Eddy’s face from the front. It’s strange not seeing him without his trademark... beak? Is that was fans or artists from this show have called it. It’s also called his lip.

Eddy’s use of physical affection is a very important trait. Physical touch is how Eddy gets his way. It’s a ruse to show people that he cares.

Everyone knows Eddy’s one arm hug technique. There is a strong theory ehich states that Eddy must have gotten this technique from his brother.

Here’s something I just noticed about Bro’s appearance. Bro never shows any physical affection towards Eddy when we see him. It was all a lie. A ruse. There was one moment where Eddy took hold of his brother’s arm trying to make Bro stop hurting him. Bro completely looks past it. Bro never had a real sibling bond between his brother.

As I was saying Eddy takes advantage of physical touch trying to make people feel special. It is a cold move. Eddy doesn’t understand human emotion. He blocks out his own emotions. There are multiple times where he goes to far such as a certain famous swamp scene in this movie. If Eddy believes that faking his death will get him attention he is need of help.

On a side note: Edd’s cheek is practically being pressed against Eddy’s teeth. It is so cute how they’re smooshed into Eddy’s face. And Eddy doesn’t mind one bit. He can’t stand anybody touching him.

Pay attention to Ed and Edd’s reaction to Eddy’s one arm hug. Edd isn’t too fond of being this close to Eddy while Ed does not mins one bit.

Eddy always side hugs Edd. Edd loves physical affection. It’s sad that Edd has no interaction with his cold parents who send their love to their son through sticky notes. There is no relationship between he and his parents. They’re strangers.

Edd always falls pray to Eddy’s scams when he uses physical affection. He senses it as the series goes and tries to ignore Eddy’s plea to help with scams.

As for Ed he is hardly given any physical affection. This goes the same for verbal affection too. Every day this poor boy is constantly harassed and put down. Since he and Eddy have been friends the longest he doesn’t think to believe that his relationship with Eddy was all a lie.

“And if any of those losers find us there they’ll be mailed back to Peach Creek in a body cast.”

The major difference between Bro and Eddy. Bro uses physical strength while Eddy uses words to get his point across.

And think about the meaning behind this line. Bro hurts anybody. Does that mean Eddy was in a body cast at one point in the first five years of his life? Everyone feared Bro. Even Kevin who has only heard stories about him. Kevin moved into the cul-de-sac when he was a toddler.

What if neighbors constantly moved out from the cul-de-sac feeling unsafe because Bro was there? Kevin heard all sorts of stories and rumors about Eddy’s brother. Along with Rolf where it’s heavily implied that Bro killed most of Rolf’s chickens.

Ed excitedly asks where Eddy is going to take them.

I love this Eddy face. He loves when he has friends under his wing.

Eddy was never given a lesson on friendship. I believe that Bro must have told him that friendships were meaningless and that you shouldn’t waste your time with them. Instead friends are more like cronies. The Ed’s friendship grows stronger each day. The chemistry between he and his friends intrigues Eddy. They make him feel special when money is supposed to.

Friendship is more important then anyone things. We can make a bond that could last a lifetime or for just a short time in ones life. Every single person who comes into our lives has an impact. Ed and Edd are the best thing to happen in Eddy’s life as they keep him grounded. Eddy already hates himself enough. If Ed and Edd have stuck around all this time then surely he is doing something right. He has no idea what.

‘Oh, why don’t I wait... may I won’t tell.... I’ll make ‘em wait and keep guessing... I wonder if this is a good plan.... should I go through with this... is it a good plan?’

“MY BIG BRO’S PLACE!”

I remembered hearing this line in a trailer I saw for this movie. It really made me excited. The lines draws people in because we’ve all wanted to find out more information on Eddy’s brother. He’s an ambiguous human being that has left quite a history even when he has never been seen in a single episode.

However fans had no idea if Danny was actually going to have the journey to Eddy’s brother’s place be the main plot line.

Eddy has a different plan entirely.

#Ed Edd n Eddy #eene #ed edd n eddy big picture show #Eddy's Brother #Ed #Edd #Eddy #Cartoon network #danny antonucci #EEnE analysis #character analysis #Kevin #Rolf #eene head canon #EddEddy

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