#evgesha's thoughts

[horrible-oracle]

currently in my sleepyboy era (started taking escitalopram)

#i have to go to work tmrw how am i gonna do that aaaaa :( #so sleepy fr #evgesha's thoughts #escitalopram #lexapro

[selesta-confident-blog]

Angel or demon

Parental divorce was for Genis the most horrible . Then transfer to a new school . Death of mother and life with father and his new wife .For her, it was all so difficult that she decided not to take the place in this world and to escape into another world but then there was Alex and save her from this act . But it's not that bad . Better you yourself to know everything in detail .

Chapter 1

The most difficult challenge for me was the divorce of my parents .After living in marriage for 20 years, my parents decided to divorce because of his father's infidelity . Mom loved it , but I also hate this person, not what is left . Although not long ago it was my beloved father . And soon my mother was hit by a car and I had to move to my father .

I was standing in my new room by the window, wondering what I should do next .I still hate my dad because my mom died because of him . She died in my arms that day my mother and I went shopping for new clothes . Along the way I met classmates and stayed with them and mom started to cross the road when suddenly from around the corner popped a black jeep I do not why from the beginning did not understand but then saw the bloodied body of a mother on the road I ran up to her, but it was too late she died and left me here . The picture of that horrible day came to my eyes and tears came over them . My thoughts were distracted by the knock on the door

-Log - coming dad, I had no doubt, but it turns out I was wrong

-I need to talk to you - it was Ale's new dad's wife.

-I have neither the desire nor the time.

- Listen to your mother. - If I am not mistaken this my room – she has nodded her me in the answer – so get out from here I you not was calling for-But I now your mother

I felt an outburst of anger like this thing could be called a mother.She doesn't want children, she's just a gold-digger .

-get outta my room you're a home wrecker and my mother when you don't .I have one mom you understand, now get the fuck out

- This is my house

-It's not your house ,it's my father's house and you're not here. you're his fiancée's wedding is only a week away, so you're out of this room.

-bitch teenage

- who would? You're 4 years older than me, considering I'm sixteen .- I pointed my index finger at the door-you should go .

-Stinker

- Bye-when she came out, I looked at the door with relief and began to unpack.

The room I had is spacious and light. Everything was done in light and warm colors . The walls were white , there was still a large bed covered with boiling white blanket ,there were also shelves filled with books ,a Desk on which stood a laptop . The window in the room was a large one but it was the wall of my room but it was glazed , large wardrobe was filled with clothes which were not only ranging from summer tops to its warm parkai . All clothes were branded and expensive . Shoes were too much . I also had my own bathroom with a mirror and lots of shelves with all sorts of women's accessories

Looking around I sat on the bed and took the laptop climbed in "Vkontakte" there I had 6 unread messages All were from friends with words of support . The main message was from my boyfriend " Evgesha you forgive me but more I can not we need to leave I do not like you anymore I understand that you are now difficult but not what I can not do I think you understand me . Bye»

In the most difficult moment, I was abandoned by the most precious man who betrayed me when I needed his help . I cried and cried until the evening, at 9 PM there was a knock at the door

- Jen, you _ came a soft male voice

- If I say no, it'll change something.

- No

- Then why ask

- I need to talk to you seriously.

-Ale to complain ?

- No, and needs

- ask her.

- You have school tomorrow.

-Already

-Yeah

- Okay.

I'll take you x

- Okay, now I want to sleep.

- Good night.

-Calm

He left and closed the door behind him affection, he certainly does not seek to be Yes, in principle I don't want it . I'm already used without it of course mother's affection is not enough but I manage . Mom how I miss you I miss you like crazy . I need to get these thoughts out of my head before I cry again . Need to think in than I do in school.

I stopped my choice on black tight pants and white shirt picked up a black cardigan and a small black briefcase of shoes I chose black sandals with a small heel . All together in my opinion the perfect balance of cool and now it's time to sleep big day tomorrow .First day of school .

Sleep I could not because all the time I thought how will tomorrow at school . It was the first time I was transferred to another school and it was not usual for me . I was wondering if my classmates would like me or if I could find friends or stay alone in a strange city . All this tormented me and I did not know how to sleep so I took my phone stuck in his headphones and started listening to music . About 15 minutes later, I fell into a dreamless dream .

I woke up from the alarm clock showed 6: 30 I went to the bathroom washed . I had to figure something out with my hair to pick it up somehow . And my hair was just above my shoulders, I was a hot brunette. I saw Curling I combed the hair to the side and started to twist after about 15 minutes I had nice hair . I put on my pre-cooked clothes and went downstairs .

Dad and his Ale were sitting at the bottom when my father saw me his mouth opened in surprise. Elka also does not leave my appearance and my wide green eyes , the nature of her brown eyes but since she went blonde and started wearing lenses .

- Something is wrong –I was embarrassed . I didn't care if my dad and his wife didn't like it, but the first day of school, I wanted to look awesome.

No, you just look gorgeous and so like her mother –his father said

- And you're not satisfied ?- I frowned.

- On the contrary, I really like that you look like her .I have at least one thing left-the her.

- Thank you. I'm glad you remembered.

-Zhenya, don't start

- I'm not done to start.

- Stop it, we have to go . Ale thanks for Breakfast

I'd forgotten that puke-eyed man was sitting here watching us with his father . By the way her mouth opened in surprise although it is not clear for what reason ,or omitted from my appearance , only from my conversation with my father but I could not resist and could not nahom her .

- Ale mouth shut and then fly flies

- Hahaha very funny . I just love the way you look.

- Thank you. I appreciate your efforts to be my mother, but you're not gonna be the most you can be my friend.

- Zhenya enough

Roma's fine . I'll at least try to be your friend .

-Try –I muttered walking to the front door – and while

- While

When I went outside I saw a big car like "Edward Cullen from "Twilight .Saga "" only black. I really liked this car and I did not hesitate to come to her .Father approaching the car opened the door and proteol hand in an inviting gesture . I did not resist and sat down but a hard-ass sentence, I couldn't refuse and also couldn't help notice the absence of the driver

- Not enough money for the driver, huh ?

- No, I just wanted to take you myself.

- I'm impressed by your generosity.

Not even bothered with me to fight

- No, and not when you get bored.

- Maybe we can do it like before because you're my daughter and I love you.

- I'm sorry ,but I can't answer that.

[horrible-oracle]

cecil???? whats going on????? do u not love carlos anymore????? what the fuck do you mean "wicked science"??????????

#wtnv spoilers #wtnv 229 #evgesha's thoughts

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time to lay on the floor and listen to placebo

#not in a depressed way btw #surprisingly #evgesha's thoughts

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happy aro day! woohoo

#aro #aromantic #pride #evgesha's thoughts

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transition goals: ppl look at me and think, is that a butch dyke or a twink, and the answer is, he's both

#evgesha's thoughts #transgender #trans

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an autistic person i know told me im "textbook autustic" when i said ive suspected i might be autistic for years but only quite recently became sure of it, and like, wow, ive struggled all this time to actually call myself autustic and not say that "well i kinda think i might be autustic" but recently i found out my brother has been diagnosed with autism and this other autistic person tells me im quite obviously autustic....feels validating :)

#actuallyautistic #autistic #autism #evgesha's thoughts

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inspired by me getting my first t shot and having no issue at all sticking the needle inside me, though for most ppl it seems to be stressful, from what ive seen. never given myself injections before!

#evgesha's thoughts #poll #tumblr polls #pride #testosterone #hrt #estrogen #<- tagging this so this might reach transfems too lol #trans #transgender #nonbinary #genderqueer #im very curious so i wanna get more responses so i use a lot of tags lol!

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the psychosexual tension between me and any guy whos nice to me

#too gay to function fr #evgesha's thoughts #like i dont even want him actually but i keep thinking of that #me being aroace but having aesthetic attraction

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i am not butch but i believe in their beliefs

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ran away from my parents home. happy pride!

#im ok :)))) #<i will not specify whether that is sarcasm or not #evgesha's thoughts #pride

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also what will happen to carlos now....oh god.......

#wtnv spoilers #evgesha's thoughts

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she took away *THE WEATHER*?!?!?!?!

#somehow i didnt get that from the last episode #wtnv spoilers #evgesha's thoughts

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uhhhhh im kinda tired of tumblr i think ill delete the app for a while

#im not sure how long this would last since tumblr is such a huge part of my daily life #but thats precisely tge reason i wanna log off #im alright im just too much on social media #goodbye for a while :) #evgesha's thoughts

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ok ok i gave in and listened to the new episode even tho i still have stuff to do (and an upcoming deadline oops). i gotta say i liked it a lot, finally carlos was doing smth and saying smth directly in the episode, but also i feel like this resolution is kind of unsatisfying? like it was all too fast and easy? not enough buildup? sure this arc has been going on for almost a year but carlos was almost doing nothing so it feels like the resolution had little buildup. idk. still liked it a lot don't get me wrong! the new intro song was...eerie, i laughed at the "most importantly not peer reviewed", i liked how that they're going to restore some of night vale and also fuck yeah research on the desert other world

#carlos sounded very epic with the intonation and the background music #evgesha's thoughts #wtnv spoilers

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i dont understand???? is the new wtnv ep out already??? i don't see it on my podcast app but ppl seem to be talking abt it :((

#its probably time zones idk #either way im to busy to listen #evgesha's thoughts #wtnv