#fuck her up babe <3

[inkskinned]

am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.

you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?

okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.

but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.

i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.

and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #she physically assaulted me and then screamed in my face #but not before sh'ing first and blaming it on me #while she was locked in my bathroom. at 1 in the morning #while i begged her to please just calm down and to try taking a deep breath and to go to sleep #and then she was like - ur just like my abuser #bc she had screamed in my face which was triggering to me and i froze like a deer in the headlights #and since i had shut down at that point evidently i was the problem child #i know she is out there telling our mutual friends i abandoned her and it makes me SO pissed off #like dude you spent so much fucking time forgiving & forgetting that your decrepit asshole of a boyfriend #pushed me down in the fucking hallway #but noooo hes <3 troubled <3 at 43 and divorced #bc according to you it's important that u don't '''see anyone as a monster'' #but god forbid i not handle you SCREAMING IN MY FACE #i couldnt even get you to say sorry for crossing my original and only boundary you were like ''what did you want me to do'' #babe i said 'the bf is not allowed around here he scares me and u said ur broken up with him' #that was the thing i wanted you to do: not fucking invite him to WHERE I LIVED #godddd typing this shit out and knowing it's only 2% of what actually happened makes me feel pathetic #i can't believe i let you treat me like that. you were a TERRIBLE friend.

[lunar-years]

I like to think Roy leaves little notes for Jamie around the house. Some are for little reminders like "don't forget to pack this..." or a list of meal prep instructions on the food he's left for Jamie in his fridge, etc. and some are just general well wishes like "good morning beautiful, meet you at the club x" or whatever. Except Roy's handwriting is so tragically bad, and this combined with the fact that Jamie already finds reading difficult results in Jamie never having one single clue what the hell that man is trying to say to him. He keeps all the notes in a shoebox anyway because they're from Roy and because Roy always signs them off with "I love you," the one sentence in Roy's handwriting that Jamie is never not going to recognize 🥰🥰

#he also doesn't tell roy he can't read his handwriting because he likes receiving them too much and doesn't want it to stop #one day roy finds the shoebox and is like. babe. #why the fuck do you have a stack of post it notes from me telling you to microwave for 3 min on high? #and jamie is just like wait awww is that what that says? 🥺 #roy is suchhhhh a note leaver. in my head. #like i completely made that up but it's so real in my head. #he's also putting little notes in phoebes lunchbox and notes in Keeley's work bag for her to find at the office. xx #royjamie #ted lasso #roy kent #jamie tartt

[nat-20s]

was reading a doctor and donna novel where the doctor is like "time to employ the ol' Donna Noble method: answering questions with more questions" and im like GIRL YOU'VE BEEN DOING THAT FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS BEFORE DONNA EXISTED

#they're so fucking shady and terrible i love them so much <3 #doctor who #tennant doctor #donna noble #BABE YOU ARE NOT PICKING UP THIS STRATEGY FROM HER. YOU BOTH ARE JUST TERRIBLE SOMETIMES KFDJSD

[rocker-socks]

Slade losing his eye in a literal blink and you'd miss it moment is kinda iconic but Adeline Kane (his ex-wife) should've shot it out like God intended. Boss babe erasure that I will not stand for. Someone serve this man divorce papers.

#my adventures with superman #slade wilson #deathstroke #love livewire tho shes cool as fuck #her maiming slade was great <3 fuck his face up babe!!

[h-doodles]

truly not sorry but once again thinking abt miranda/mc/mia in RL. i need them SO bad. like, 2 of the most morally unsound persons (Mia & Miranda) + their little meow meow. Knowing both are so possessive and destructive (TO OTHERS) when they love and instead of running, fully embracing the chaos of it. Loving them despite their delusions of grandeur, the crimes, the secrets, and the deaths (+ undeaths) caused (or ordered!) by their hands. Acknowledging this is fucked up but you can't help it. Lovingly bitching abt their fights but fully done and gone to do anything else but to soothe and continue loving them, because after all those years of waiting and doing and redoing everything to be perfect was worth it for this.

also did i mention being their little meow meow. sorry Miranda, MC was the original gremlin in the relationship and Mia being the fucked up feral racoon she is now is not solely by her doing, MC was and IS the enabler in both relationships that it bled over sm and OUGHJJJJJHHHHhhhh im being so emo abt three (3) women being utter menaces frfr

#sorry but i truly love it when corruption didnt spread #it was in there all along #ALSO GOD. sorry but RL Miranda/Mia happened once to me in my brain. Dreamt abt one loop that they get so fucked up drunk they slept together #and like. they didnt process it until MC comes back fr and sees the unresolved vibe #miranda's screaming shaking crying throwing up when mia alludes to it in front of mc and mc is like. huh. good for u actually. #mia: so u dont mind? that we fucked once???? #mc: babe did u forget the stint of us fucking drunk before i met miranda. i expected u guys to do it more actually. #miranda: you WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. #mc: dont worry my love i truly do love and adore u!!!! and i wouldnt mind if u wanted to bring mia in really #mc (inside her mind): my god. these bitches gay. #mc (still inside her mind): miranda doesnt know mia's a menace when she's starting to fall and mia doesn't know mira's circling her either. #mc: god i love u both but u need to opem ur eyes really. my god. #then i woke up #and thought. hey. if this was plausible eva gets to have three (3) mommies fr and IM upset its not real ekdbdofjd #anyways dreams were sponsored by cinder's re8 harem fic #thank u cinder <3 #resident lover #mother miranda #mother miranda x reader #mia winters #mia winters x reader #mother miranda x mia winters #mother miranda x mia winters x reader #personal.txt #clown.txt #simp.txt

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology

#fghgjhjhggh #'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3' #like thats where you'll end up right #'find out when the aliens come try and take over' #eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably #forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it #and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end #i dont think you come out of that.................normal #even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like #functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think #she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13 #i dont think shes normal under the surface #i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched #dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand #can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become #can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups #the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like #i think they'd be weird #4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a #matter of urgency and duty #and then losing the third member of your party? #dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up #iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of #having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years #when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with #i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O #she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly #or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist #has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it #and shes like oh fuck google

[corroded-collections]

my love for companions really depends on the character I'm roleplaying as huh

personally, I cant stand lawful characters. as a result, Wyll has been my second least favorite companion for almost 500 hours and 3+ playthroughs. I just do not get along with people who follow strict rules, and him and Lae'zel just feel like party poopers to me.

except last night I started a paladin run. I decided at the character creation stage that I was going to romance Wyll. I wasn't really excited about it, but I wanna play through all the romance lines once and I'm getting to a point where I'm running low on options (Wyll and Lae'zel left (and Minthara but she wont make it out of the goblin camp alive on a paladin run)). I honestly figured I'd drag my feet through the romance parts and would focus more on the other aspects of the game. so I created my character, and I had an idea I really loved for her, so by the time I was done creating her I already felt more connected to her than half of my other Tavs. as soon as I started playing, I felt myself slip into this lawful good mindset I had planned to set out on, and I was excited to watch her navigate this chaotic world on her quest to make that world a better place.

so when the time came that I got to the druid grove gate, faced the goblins, and Wyll leaped down from the wall to aid us in our battle... my heart skipped a beat. like genuinely. suddenly I was in love, head over heels right then and there.

my entire opinion on Wyll did 180 on a flip of a switch. now I actually adore him, I cant wait to see my paladin Tav build a bond with him and see where that connection takes them. I'm actually so excited to see how his romance plays out lmao. these two are gonna be so god damn cute I'm gonna lose my mind.

#this same thing happened with Gale too tbh but my distaste for him was much more neutral than with Wyll #I just didn't give a fuck about Gale until I made a Tav that fit him and now his romance has actually been my favorite so far #I kind of actively disliked Wyll for his stuck up lawful alignment but now I'm like oop wait you're kind of a babe actually? #this is convincing me I will have the exact same change of heart with Lae'zel when I eventually get to her lmao #I just need to create a Tav that understands her and falls in love with her and I know I will too #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyll #bg3 wyll

[crowrelli]

ive had a migraine for THREE days and it just keeps getting worse

#i have like a headcold like thing again that fucking nothing is touching #steam doesnt work #caffine doesnt work #meds dont work #weed doesnt work #cutting down lights and everything helps it not flare up but like what the fuck #BUT i have to work on coms and sketches today so end me #tw illness #tw drug mention #vent tw #i dont talk about it a lot but fuck my immune system has just tanked the last few years and its honestly moved past being scary into just #straight up obnoxious and time consuming #also babe if u see this im toooootally taking it easy toooootally mhm not working at all the tag above was a lie completely ilyyyy <3 <3 <3 #feeling like the sister from the big time rush show where she gets bundled up in blankets with a vacuum sized humidifier in her face

[constantvariations]

It's kinda funny to me that so many people are up in arms about Neo's actions in C8 when it's easy for me to dismiss simply because that ain't Neo, yknow?

Like, Neo has never pussyfoot around murder. If she wants you dead, you gonna get dead. From Neo about to stab Yang while the latter is unconscious to Neo and Ruby falling through the void while Neo uses the visuals of Ruby's loved ones to try and weaken her enough for Neo to strangle her to death, Neo has always been fairly direct in her methods

So, it's difficult to reconcile that version of Neo with the one who would passively let her target take themselves out

Not to mention the semblance shift. Neo's semblance, Overactive Imagination, is illusions manifested via semblance glass. They shatter upon contact. Because they're illusions

That's the biggest deal breaker for me. Crwby changed her semblance so much she might as well be a whole ass other person. Fuck, it could've been an Afteran. It's not like Neo was needed here, especially with how easily she was discarded

Instead of illusions, Neo's new abilities seem to be... animorphing people/creatures she may or may not have met via semblance clones and allowing them sentience

Mcfucking what???

The point of illusions is they're not physical. It's not an actual transformation, but rather the aesthetic of one. This could have worked if they kept the semblance evolution to multiple illusions at once OR allowing physical transformation, either of which would have been super cool to see, but they pushed too far. There's too many upgrades that deviate so much from the original ability that it's a whole ass new power

So, immediately on her introduction, the og Jabber is killed(?) and in its place is... multiple Neo-Jabbers. Who can eat other creatures alive. And apparently desire to do so

McFUCJING WHAT

This implies that all her semblance clones of others have their own sentience. Which would never make sense when she never interacted with anyone in that torture scene besides Roman. Seriously why the fuck is Lionheart here? Give us nothing, king

Now, given that we are shown the stream of souls, what could have happened is the illusions were possessed by folks who needed to get a last word in, but that's not. what. happened.

Instead, we have the writers disregarding a character's inability to speak so they can brutalize a teenager in the stupidest way possible, and throwing away all logic of a fairly easy to understand power because it suits their plot needs

Riveting

#rwde #idk its hard for me to actually hate anyone in this show besides jaune bc of the writing #and jaune specifically BECAUSE of the writing #neo deserved so much better than this storyline bb i am so sorry you ended up in this dumpster fire #but honestly the fucking semblance evolution thing is absolute bullshit plot convenience and this is its peak #neo gets like. 3 fucking upgrades to her semblance because *checks notes* she was betrayed by a bitch she knew was unstable/ untrustworthy #fan fucking tastic #whats even the point of having a pre established villain if you're gonna switch them out last minute anyway??? #idk its always silly to me when people stretch a character's influence beyond writer capabilities #like 'urgh oz is evil because uhhh politicians in other countries suck' #like babe. youre putting way more thought into this than the writers who couldn't come up w a more evil oz than 'bird twins' #the energy is wasted #at that point write your own damn story bc its clearly more interesting than anything crwby can come up w #i have more thoughts but i need to sleep or else my next 12 hr shift is going to drag my spine through an apple orchard so peace lol

[nightingaletrash]

thinking about Sparrow and how both times she reunites with someone from her past, it just makes her feel like a ghost in someone else's skin.

When Derrick greets her in Old Town, its like he's mistaken her for someone else entirely. She's not the little girl who ran around with her big sister, collecting warrants for a gold piece, but she can't bring herself to say so. She doesn't have the words yet, doesn't quite understand where the discomfort is coming from. She brushes it off as a symptom of returning to her childhood home. She's come home, but she and home are different now and she can't really explain it.

But then she comes back from the Spire, and she's changed once more. Before she was hurting. Now she's broken. A bundle of survival instincts wrapped up in the skin of a woman who has come back wrong, and she will never be the same again. She comes home to a husband and a child who don't know her, and she doesn't know them either. She loved them once, and they loved her. But now she's a stranger and she's broken, and nothing matters anymore. Nothing but killing Lucien at all costs. She can't love them the way she used to. Love is for people, and she's not a person. She doesn't know what she is besides her goal.

#fable 2 #sparrow #don't mind me i am literally just having Feelings #every time i look at my sparrow i'm like 'wow babe you are Fucked Up' #she was never going to be okay after what happened to rose #but the spire took everything that was wrong with her and turned the dial all the way up #she's broken. she's a ghost. she doesn't feel human anymore. someone please hug her. #at least i know she gets to heal #she gets rose back. she meets walter and jasper. she finds a new purpose and gets another chance to be a mother #its not perfect by any measure thanks to the Visions that began to plague her in later life #but she gets something good. something that's her's and she gets to be so very loved <3

[detectivechandler]

why write chandler if you hate his canon relationship?

canon relationship - ? i ... buddy, timon and pumba are more canon than fucking joe and kent

#would i really write a character if i didn't disagree with the majority of the fandom's really fucking awful ideas? #no. #but sure i can list the reasons for the hate #1) it is offensive to argue that IMITATING someone's mental illness is a healthy supportive gesture #imitation does not mean understanding. #if my partner tried to 'understand' and 'support' my mental illness by pretending to fucking have it in an effort to be like 'me too babe' #i would simply fucking lose it #2) NOT EVERYTHING IS GAY. just bc youre a woman that wants two men to be uwu in love .. doesnt mean that they are. #even if you are also a gay man (hi buddy. i love u) ... remind urself that not everything has to be gay. we should want GOOD representation #3) i'm sorry did no one watch the show? kent is literally so unlikable. he is the walking pole that holds up the giant red flag #4) the argument that the actors supported it is completely invalid bc rupert said in EVERY INTERVIEW that joe was absolutely not aware #5) the ending scene is not joe agreeing to go with kent. hes agreeing to go to the pub with the TEAM and im sorry but you are cheapening #that boy and his arc and his struggle through the entirety of series 4 not to mention the whole show by making it about kent. #6) yall just gonna sweep morgan under the rug and leave her laying there huh? thats fine thats fine.

[theangiediary]

.

has 1 day to find live entertainment for a birthday date celebration

nothing going on at the venues i look at bc ya know. random tues.

found one! but don't finalize ticket purchase

confirm plans with gf

they are now sold out 🙃🫠

#pls random independent cultural center let us attend your music 🙏 #i've been to a show there before its a VERY artsy community based chill place so IM HOPING #but also feel terrible bc i don't want to come to her like. sorry babe. fucked up. we can do this art market instead and rhizome later?? #its not really Birthday-y but also her birthday was 3 weeks ago (she was traveling) #and mine's in 2 weeks and we'll be going camping together so idkkkkkkk #we're not like. an instagram couple. #not spn

[payslipgig]

…

#my mum came to visit on Thursday for the weekend #I haven’t seen her in a little over 3 years #I was in the hospital and she flew over to be with me. so. I was in pretty bad shape. not prime interaction there either #and THAT was probably after a 2 year gap? idk anymore #but she visited and tonight she went to her hotel and I won’t see her in the morning bc work so. this was the last night #and it was a fantastic visit by and large. complaints are for things that aren’t her haha #but she left bc the trip is over of course. I’m an adult and I still can’t get over it #I’m happy - seriously so grateful bc her life is very busy and my stepdad picked up a LOT to make it happen #but I guess there’s always going to be that empty wanting for my mum like I’m 4 again and she had to go off to college never REALLY returns #summers off and then occasional holidays and then maybe once a year and. idk I guess you don’t get over some things. I know that! but #I suppose it’s a good thing that when she leaves I’m sad for it #complicated relationship still but. she’s my mum. #no worries I’m just going to be a sop for the next Whenever. needed to jot it down. explain myself haha #payslipgig talks too much #I need to fucking change playlists tho jfc I’m listening to my bloody valentine and expecting a chipper mood?? like babe come on

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

"this is the third secondment youve been selected for" "i thought it was the second" ... "this is your fourth secondment"

#ive called 13 a liar a Lot this is yazs turn #lying to fucking everyone babe this is great <3 #her and 13 would literally be SUCH a funny couple if they just like communicated and had the rest of their lives together #like very powerful but also so fucking funny #they wouldnt necessarily stop lying to each other i think but they wouldnt believe each other anymore and like #/know/ the other wont believe them which makes for a great but also really funny kind of trust #and then how they'd just keep doing this to anyone else like turn it useful #back each other up like in fugitive and lotsd #it would just be soooo funny they'd be so funny #can you imagine #theyd be so great

[winepresswrath]

drusilla's canon grandma kink is a thing that can be so charming & unhinged.

#do i empathize with darla not being into it. yes. 100% it is horrible #but come onnn it's so funny and endearing that drusilla wants to go there #sexually and also emotionally she's making it uncomfortable for everyone. if she wanted to play nuclear family & iirc sometimes she does #they'd role with it because they're creatures of the night perverting wholesome domesticity is their jam. but no. #drusilla says this is an intergenerational household of cringe and i want a boyfriendson just like grandma #spike when drusilla is like you're the knight and i'm the princess: overjoyed. honoured. so turned on and blissed out he could die (again) #spike when drusilla is like i want to show grandmother my new baby: incest is just a very touchy topic for me right now babe #you can't cancel her she's just processing her trauma!! #incidentally i think it's also interesting that william the bloody awful poet does not have daddy issues at all as far as we see. #very much unlike angel and also penn! angelus has so many daddy issues he actually sought out another human with daddy issues to turn #so he could play vampire daddy about the art of murdering your family. like a full 2/3 vamps we know for sure he turned (i think??) call hi #dad. only partially as a sex thing. yikes!!! this manpire is so unwell on the dad front #but it looks like william's father predeceased him #and he had time to process and come to terms with that before he got vamped #if he had a bad relationship with him he doesn't think about it unless i'm misremembering season 7 which is very possible #but spike the vampire is so daddy issues flavoured and it's just. it's just angelus issues like imagine you're 27 years old reborn #to eternal night and your girlfriend's other boyfriend she calls daddy fucks you up like that. there's so much oof in that relationship #no wonder he's mad. that is just embarrassing. like yes obviously the backdoor of his mommy issues provided an opening but still. still!!! #press says btvs #cw: incest #cw:drusilla

[gregmarriage]

“patty chose a life of celibacy.” marge, babe, patty is a lesbian.

#2x14 principal charming my beloved <3 #one of my fave eps as a kid #soooo funny for me and patty to both end up as lesbians hehe x #also the way skinner is supposed to go out with selma but falls for closeted lesbian sister instead #truly a vibe x #‘choosing a life of celibacy’ is just the old fashioned way of saying someone is gay likeeeeee #patty bouvier being a lesbian since 1990 is sooo iconic <3 #i knew there was a reason i related and loved her as a kid #it was my dykedar going off #imaooooooo #i still they fucked up with patty’s coming out #like that whole ep is weird and vaguely transphobic #like i see what they were going for but they really fumbled the bag #i think we can blame it not the episode being from #2005 tbh #but still great tho #patty has canonically been a lesbian for like over 15 years holy shit #congrats babe!!! #i felt a kinship with you when i was a wee bean and i love you more now <3 #not me getting emotional over patty from #the simpsons but shushhhhhhh #gwen rambles #gwenposting