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gt-ridel · 3 years

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Several hundred words of Half-Life Borrower!AU goodness

(Hi, this is Passportinspection!) Oooh goodness. I actually started writing this as an ask. I really thought what I had to say would fit into an ask. Since sending that anon about having 350 words of thoughts, I ended up getting distracted for a few hours, and then when I came back to this, I apparently had 400 more words to say. I just love rambling what-ifs about AUs. :’>

Hi Passportinspection! Sorry it took so long to reply to this. I had more work than I thought yesterday. >__< I totally agree! Rambling about what-ifs is WAY more fun than actually writing a story. ;;>__> _

These are… not all A-list ideas, and I was very tempted to cut it down to the best bits, BUT I know that if someone said to me “I had 5 ideas for your au but only told you the 2 good ones” I would be extremely interested in hearing the 3 bad ones anyway, so… here it all is. This was written pretty stream-of-consciousness and then rearranged a bit to form my pinballing thoughts into something a little more linear, but, fair warning, it wasn’t edited much beyond that.

_ Ooo, I absolutely want to hear everything! All ideas, good and bad! Are you kidding? (Gets comfy) _

I keep thinking about the end of that “gordon takes borrower!barney with him through the events of HL1” scenario; Imagining gman’s speech at the end, I like the idea of him saying something like, “As for your.. /passenger/..” and both of their bloods running cold. I can’t decide if I’d rather barney actually go into stasis with gordon or not I think it could be an interesting/cute concept- the idea that gman/his employers figured barney was enough of a factor in gordon’s success that they thought it would be wise to keep them together for future “assignments.”

_ Bro I'll be honest, I hadn't gotten that far in the AU because I still haven't finished the game. My only reference for G-man is Mr. Coolatta. So I'll have to at least look the ending up on youtube before I'll be able to give my informed opinion. But taking it as is? That would be freaking terrifying. They've met some other scientists and security guards during their escape, but the HEV helmet was a perfect hiding place. None of them ever noticed that Gordon wasn't alone. But somehow this reality bending creep knows, and it looks like he's not going to let Barney and Gordon just go home, which was basically what they were fighting for the whole time. _

I’m also thinking about, like.. With Barney in Gordon’s helmet with him, Gordon must be able to feel him tense up and hear his breathing speed up whenever something particularly scary/dangerous happens, maybe even at times faintly feel the fluttering of his heart, and it strengthens his resolve to make it out of there bc it’s not just himself he’s saving. 🥺 Also Barney can provide running commentary, which perhaps soothes both of their nerves a little. Maybe he even helps with some puzzles. :> I also think it’s funny/convenient that that would work really well for an actual video game format. A friend that’s with you wherever you go that sees everything you see but can’t interact with the world but provides commentary and occasional helpful tips? That fits in nicely!

_ Ha! Something I was thinking about was how Barney has spent his whole life living in the vents and such. He would probably be a perfect guide for Gordon. :3 As for Gordon feeling when Barney gets tense or scared and that fuling his drive to escape, that was ABSOLUTELY one of the reasons I wanted Barney in the helmet. It would be uncomfortable, inconvenient, and down right dangerous sometimes. But you cannot deny the unique opportunities for deeper emotional exploration it would present. _

…But also, now that I think about it, maybe there are parts where the only way forward is for Barney to slip through a crack in a blockaded doorway and use a control panel that opens another door- that sort of thing. He gets to help with more than just talking sometimes! :> Oh, dang, imagine the part where gordon gets jumped and almost killed by the military. Poor Barney. D: Maybe a factor in Gordon escaping the trash compactor before it crushes him is Barney frantically trying to wake him up.

_ I was defo hyperfixating on what the whole beat down would be like from Barney's perspective a few days ago! Gordon would be at an extra disadvantage in the fight because he'd have to be careful not to accidentally bash Barney between his skull and the helmet while he's being smacked around. Imagine Barney being tossed all over the small space, maybe ending up pinned when Gordon finally passes out. Noticing when a small stream of blood starts leaking from his friends mouth and soaking into his clothes. Gordon is completely helpless, and so is Barney as he hears the soldiers talking about what they're going to do with the body. I just think that whole scene and the escape from the trash compactor would be so fun and exciting~ -

Also, unrelated, but I wonder how barney would wake up in city 17, if he did go into stasis with gordon. That is, since gordon is wearing a citizen outfit when he comes out of stasis, barney obviously can’t be in the helmet anymore. Maybe gman elects to move barney to a pocket somewhere instead lol. I’m imagining as soon as gordon is released from whatever effect gman had him under and he’s able to move again, he starts patting himself down looking for Barney (the same way one does when they forget which pocket their phone is in ), bc last he knew Barney was right up against his face and now he’s /not/, and that man SAID they’d be “hired” as a team so /where is he/ because Gordon needs to know he’s /okay/. As Barney is released from the same effect, he probably moves and makes himself apparent, so it’s only for like a second that Gordon is doing that.

_ Once again, I can't speak much to what would happen in a HL2 continuation of this story, but that sounds about right for an initial reaction scene. Imagine Barney just coming out of it and being in some sort of... bag? being jostled around? He feels a giant hand pat over him from outside and he grunts in surprise. Then the hand rests against him and Barney realizes he's in a humans breast pocket, being held against someones chest as beside him a thundering heart slowly begins to calm. He figures this must be Gordon. He doesn't KNOW any other humans, and he can't imagine that man in the suit would be all that concerned about Barney's wellbeing. _

Barney doesn’t know where they are/who else is out there at all ‘cause he can’t see from where he is, and Gordon can feel him shifting to lean out of the pocket and get a look, and he just puts a hand over the pocket, covering the opening in the process, and applies a gentle pressure for a couple moments, and Barney knows that means he needs to stay put because it’s not safe to come out yet. Thankfully Barney heard Gman talking to Gordon and addressing him by name, so he doesn’t have to worry about whose pocket he just woke up in. He would probably somewhat recognize Gordon’s gait/the feel of his hands at that point, too. As for how Gordon avoids boarding the train to Nova Prospekt without canon barney there to stop him, I have no idea.

_ YEAAAH that is a good point. Barney is kind of vital for that role. Maybe we can slot a different character into his place. ^__^;; _

Oooh, going back a bit, maybe when the nihilanth is teleporting gordon around in the boss level, or from the very beginning when gordon jumps into the portal to Xen, they get teleported separately and end up in different places? (Ignoring for a moment the parts with portals in Black Mesa ^^;) That sure is an additional level of distress for the both of them during the Big Final Level(s). And then perhaps at the end, part of gman’s speech can be like, “As for your.. companion, you can rest assured he was recovered safe and sssound. After all, you two performed so well, together, it would be ideal to hire you as, a team.” Or whatever

_ Imagine Barney, stranded and alone on Xen, desperately trying to find Gordon, and having his OWN creepy G-man encounter. :U _

Our Barney AUs differ in some exciting ways and it’s fun to play in someone else’s sandbox for a while. :p I’ll probably cut my notes doc down into something readable and post it sometime in the near-ish future.. Either that or actually write the dang fic.

_ I would absolutely LOVE to hear about your AU too! So if you do either of those things, be sure to @ me! Thank you so much for playing in this sandbox with me. I am ALWAY down to talk Borrower AU stuff. It's just so much dang fun! ^0^

#Half-Life #Borrower!AU #Borrower!Barney #Gordon Freeman #Barney Calhoun #G-man

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kriber · 3 years

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ok well since im Thinking about it now lemme just make a huge ass masterpost of my tmavrai au bc im stupid lmao (also i wanna get into using this blog for more than art since this is my main)

buckle up cowboys this is gonna be lengthy

ok so to start off, it’s a kind of fusion au. some tma characters are replaced with hlvrai characters, and some just exist on their own. for example, elias is replaced with gman, but jon and gordon both coexist together

speaking of jon and gordon, they’re both eye avatars and co-archivists of the magnus archives. gman fucked up a little bit while filing shit but its fine, its fine. they’re both fit for the job.

tommy, darnold, and coomer work at the institute in various departments, along with tim, martin, and barney. tim and tommy have been best friends for years and live together as roommates, and darnold’s another one of their closest friends. coomer and martin just chill there, and barney likes to talk to gordon a lot. tommy brings sunkist over a lot, who everyone loves

since his dad is basically the head avatar of the eye, tommy asked him one time how to make a dog and gman, because that’s his little boy, told him how. now there’s an immortal entity soup dog that’s way too big to be normal. but that just means she has more love in her :)

jon and gordon kinda tolerate each other at first, being forced to record in the same area, but they tend to... tune into each other a lot. they sometimes read statements in unison, even if one of them isn’t looking at the statement. they take turns speaking in dialogue parts if need be, and they dont really notice it.

eventually prentiss attacks and gordon notices something... off about their coworker benrey. wait- wasn’t his name barney? no, he was probably remembering wrong. but something about benrey is just... weird. he cant put his finger on it, and jon has no input.

so yea benrey is a not-them and a stranger entity, and they just kinda chill in the archives and check ppls passports at the door. its also pretty fun harrassing feetman, especially when they can just pop in and out of michael’s doors bc they’re friends with the spiral. unknowing goes well, as you can assume ;w;

after they find gertrude’s body in the tunnels, several cops get called in. basira and daisy come over, supplying jon with tapes, but daisy brings her old high school/college friend forzen, who’s in the military. and yea they’re both hunt avatars. it was simple and obvious don’t blame me. he hunts ppl down by having beyblade competitions then shooting them. standard stuff.

tommy had gotten claimed by the slaughter years back, but now its really starting to take effect. coomer, local end avatar, isn’t much help, as he doesn’t exactly view death as a problematic thing and even compliments tommy on his kills. during jon and gordon’s comas, forzen goes rogue (instead of burying himself like daisy) and tommy goes after him, trying to mercy kill any victims he has his sights set on. its a body count contest at that point

bubby takes the place of agnes montegue, but still alive and not as hostile to the main cast. obv bc coomer’s there and i love me some gay grampas. yea bubby’s kinda forsaking his desolation cult thing but he’s fine. he just goes and chills at the archives a lot to get with coomer

after the unknowing, things go to shit. martin and benrey close themselves off, both allying themselves with peter lukas, to defend the institute and its workers. tommy and darnold are heartbroken after tim’s death, and tommy, unable to deal with living alone without tim or living in his dad’s house (who’s in prison now), moves in with darnold. its angst central babeyyy

darnold, basira, alyx, georgie, and melanie start a group chat called “babysitting the avatars squad” since they’re the only humans left allied to the institute or its workers. they vent about shit their avatars do bc good lord they can do some weird shit sometimes. oh also alyx and georgie are cousins here bc i feel like its funny that both gordon’s and jon’s childhood friends are related and no one knew dfgshgfgsfghgfrsbfsxg

for the last thing im gonna cover bc im tired and i dont want to type anymore is that joshua definitely exists and oh boy it gets fun in the apocalypse. he runs around and plays around with all the domains with tommy and benrey and the other three are way too tired to deal with this. he just wants to give daddy a flower! ignore the eyeball, it’s just a normal flower! how... sweet.

#tmavrai #tma au #hlvrai au #jay.error #whooh thats a lot of text #i might add more #bc weh #tma hlvrai

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sonicfrontiers · 4 years

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OOUGGH IM SO GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE THINKING ABOUT SEA OF THIEVES HLVRAI AU... PLEASE !!!! PLEASE PLEASE SHARE UR IDEAS I WANNA HEAR THEM SO BAD

OHHH ANON YOU HAVE SAVED MY FUCKING LIFE WITH THIS ASK THANK YOU SO MUCH

SO !! i barely have anything yet bc i just had this fucking brain blast like an hour ago but. here are my Thoughts so far:

so the very first thing i tried to think of was like. what everyone is? i did my best w this but i am so fuckin open to ideas..... i don’t know shit!

the easiest answer right off the bat was who the humans are (or at least the pirates who appear to be human) in this. we got the science team as the pirate crew—gordon, tommy, bubby, and coomer! they are sailing the seas and maybe they are not doing a very good job of it but it’s fine. it’s Fine

the second easiest answer was benrey’s situation. we got skeletons fuck yeah. benrey got some of that curse uh oh! however w benrey’s situation that’s more like... sometimes being a skeleton rather than just steadily turning into one, i thought maybe the curse fucked up on him? maybe it’s like. he’s only half cursed to just sometimes be a skeleton but he can also look human again too. i don’t fucking know. also OH SHIT BENREY HAS TO BE NOT HUMAN UHJHHHHHHHH fuck it guess he’s part ancient now too. i guess. shit i’ll have to spend more time on him but this is.. the gist

next we got uhh forzen babey. i’ll be honest i’m not too confident on this one. i had the vague idea that maybe he’s a mermaid? although whether he’s one of the mermaids that steals sunken pirates and turns them into mermaids or one of the mermaids who was turned into a pirate i can’t really decide. i mean the pirates-turned-mermaids are always helpful in game, and forzen. well. Isn’t, but the mermaid-mermaids live so far deep that they’re never seen? so i don’t know. but he’s out there.... in the ocean....... somewhere....... waiting for me to have more brain power to answer this

it’s darnold time! i’ll be honest i also don’t have many ideas for this guy. i thought maybe he’s got something to do with the order of souls? that’s vaguely related to potions right? sage darnold with the oos eyes curse and he reads the fuckin skull juices to help out the crew with their voyages..... i think? there are other options too but this is the one that jumped out at me the most!

GREGORY MAN. the man himself. SO I GOT TWO POSSIBILITIES HERE FOR THIS GUY. what i can’t decide on is how much of canon sot i want to be canon in this au... mainly, the stuff abt the pirate lord. i got two options here, one of which is that ramsey still exists as the pirate lord and he hangs out doing mostly the same shit he does in canon, and gman is like. an ancient who stuck around the sea of thieves for whatever reason? which would make tommy a descendant of the ancients too, hence why i specified earlier that all the pirates in the crew might not be human..... EITHER THAT OR gman is the pirate lord and ramsey fuckin uh doesn’t exist in the au. and i CANNOT for the life of me decide which i like better. ANY HELP APPRECIATE HERE PLS

OH ALSO I FORGOT SUNKIST HE’S A MONKEY THAT TOMMY HAS AND HE CAN DO COOL TRICKS AND EVERYONE LOVES HIM. HE’S IMMORTAL SOMEHOW. DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT

THEN. it’s tim,e for “how the fuck did everyone get past the shroud into the sot”

i think no matter who the pirate lord is in this au they’d have no problems letting pretty much anyone in honestly. ramsey just kinda says “oh you washed up unconscious on the shores of old sailor’s isle? cool let me just not ask any questions and part the shroud for you real quick ok bye” and honestly i can’t imagine gman would be much different—although he’d probably be more cryptic abt it than ramsey is

SO. GORDOS. i feel like him coming to the sot was a last resort of sorts. he feels lost in life, unsure what his goal is or where he’s going, and he hears of this mystical sea that nobody who enters ever leaves but apparently there’s adventure and treasure and wonder there so he’s like fuck it, i’ve got nothing else to do and goes there hoping to find some sort of purpose. and find it he does :)

tommy time! i feel like whatever brought him here had to be partially related to his dad? either he’s just There bc. well. his dad’s the fuckin pirate lord, or gman’s all cryptid abt being an ancient and left tommy to sort of grow up in the sot on his own while gman kept a distant eye on him, just so tommy wouldn’t find out too much abt being an ancient or whatever. uh. so he’s pretty familiar w the world of sot and all its wacky magic shit!

(actual sot lore question here bc this is smth i don’t know—does all the magic that happens in sea of thieves happen beyond the shroud? i wonder if the rest of the world also has skeletons and giant sea monsters and magic and shit or if it’s just inside the sea of thieves...... hmmm for this au i’m gonna assume that all magic is something unique to the sea of thieves and doesn’t happen beyond the shroud)

The Bubby. honestly i like the idea that bubby came to the sot just to like... get away from the outside world? like maybe he’s on the run from something............ this is very very vague in my mind and is extremely subject to change but i like the whole “I’M LEAVING THIS WORLD!” thing as bubby being like fuck the regular world i’m going into the flesh eating devil shroud and nobody can stop me. and then he did

coomer. the man himself. i think coomer came to the sot searching for adventure! and more to learn! he’s always looking to broaden his horizons and where else to go but to the mystical sea of thieves when looking for new experiences? coomer is just here to have a good time :)

UH i think darnold already existed in the sot... he just sorta Lives There... there are npcs who just fucking were born and raised there right. like tasha was in the sot at age 4 so it makes sense right?? darnold just live here and he helps get the crew from the outside world familiar with the sot!

FORZEN has been in the sot for ages—either he’s always been here as a mermaid or he got turned into one so long ago and he’s just been getting angrier and angrier w it every year he’s trapped here. he barely remember why he came anymore but god does he regret it. :(

gman either way just kind of Is There huh..... as the pirate lord i honestly can’t imagine his origin being much different than ramsey’s? like he just makes friends w the ancients like hey what’s up i like this sea. my sea now. or he Is an ancient and just fucking chills there. whatever

OK THAT’S MOSTLY IT FOR WHAT I HAVE FOR TECHNICAL STUFF WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT..... HERE ARE SOME OTHER FUN BITS I THOUGHT OF:

bubby discovers firebombs and Uh Oh. Uh Oh Everyone Watch Out Bubby’s Got Fire Powers Now. he only accidentally sets the ship on fire SOMETIMES it’s FINE. (also his favorite region is the devil’s roar. unsurprisingly. he likes the chaos it brings)

bubby and tommy + coomer as well are agents of chaos in general. they don’t follow the fuckin Rules and it makes gordon’s life a living hell.

bubby: look gordon i dug up some grubs! gordon: cool man, put those in the barrel and we can use them to fish late- bubby: (shoving the grubs in his mouth) gordon: BUBBY NO WHAT THE FUCK DON’T EAT TH coomer: oh, what a good idea, bubby! i am feeling quite hungry myself! (also starts eating worms) gordon: I’M COOKING DINNER AT THE CAMPFIRE RIGHT NOW PLEASE DON’T tommy: oh are the worms okay to eat? i wonder what they taste like gordon: NO STOP benrey, shoving worms in gordon’s face: eat worms? eat worms now please?

coomer finds out how to launch himself out of a cannon and he becomes unstoppable. the crew is attacked by an enemy ship and everyone’s like “oh fuck everyone get to the cannons!” and they go there to find coomer fucking launching himself directly onto the enemy ship, and he kills their entire crew in seconds. by the time he mermaids back to his ship everyone is fucking stunned silent and coomer is just like “well, that takes care of that! let’s get back on course, gentlemen!” and since then they just fucking fire coomer at people like a weapon whenever they get attacked by other pirates or skeletons. It Always Works

UH AND I THINK THAT’S KIND OF WHAT I HAVE SO FAR? i might be forgetting something but this post is long enough as is......

IF ANYONE HAS ANYTHING TO ADD FEEL FREE!!! i love sea of thieves so fuckin much man... and i didn’t even TOUCH on anything like any of the reaper’s bones shit which i would be interested in looking at getting involved in this au somehow...... i will probably come back to this if anyone else is interested !! otherwise that’s all i got for now!!!! thank you so much for asking anon!!!!!

#hlvrai #sot #UM. I GUESS I'M PUTTING THIS IN THE MAIN TAGS?#half live vr but the ai is self aware #sea of thieves #hlvrai + sot fans..... all three of you...... come get your juice #SORRY FOR THE LONG POST TO EVERYONE ELSE HGHNFDNJHG FD #anyway thank you anon..... thank you so much.................. i lvoe you #I'M SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE I GOT SO MUCH... ON THE BRAIN....... but i love you !! THANK YOU FOR THE ASK

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birdybirdnerd · 4 years

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cabinet benrey au here get ready bc boy howdy i can Ramble

so its gonna be an animatic bc i have a Vision (but i might write smthn for it too idk ill burn that bridge when I get to it). not sure if lyricstuck style or straight animatic? maybe both. i believe in myself

okay so real ideas now:

benrey used to be A Dude but black mesa experimented on him and turned him into a vr arcade game monstrosity. going with vr bc i can fucka you

person who runs the arcade (gman? idk) finds him, brings him to the arcade and he goes wild

it. basically follows the plot of the song tbh

gonna have to figure out how benreys game works exactly like what it Is. thinking maybe just like. keep it half life vr asjfgssgsv but hes an npc companion

the science team are gonna show up as players!!

im frenrey trash so at the line 'this must be what live would have felt like' will have benrey giving gordon heart eyes

then... The Bad Stuff

i have a really cute and sad visual of benrey sitting alone in the corner of his empty screen with the arcade closed so expect that

but uhhh

yeah

so gordons gonna be the one who breaks in and smashes the game up. was thinking bubby but tbh i heard the line 'smashing in my face with a crowbar' and Knew

we're gonna see benrey go thru the five stages of grief before going batshit with the final chorus and cutting off gordons arm before killing him bc im allergic to happy endings

have a cool visual of eldritch glitch benrey reaching thru the screen and towering over a terrified gordon and im a slut for those good good visuals

alternately: the above starts to happen, gordon still gets his arm ripped off, but he (and the rest of the science team, summoned by panicked screaming maybe?) manage to beat benrey and destroy the arcade machine! might go with that tbh

anyways yeah My Mind Is An Enigma and im about to go just absolutely feral in paint tool sai

#personal #hlvrai #lemon demon #half life vr but the ai is self aware #im gonna call this uhhhhhhhhhhh #cabinet benrey au

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thezeekrecord · 3 years

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hi im waiting for pain meds to kick in before i continue sleeping so im gonna sit here and talk about the intents behind character arcs in good afternoon good evening and goodnight ok i try not to talk about it like this Too much but hey it's fanfiction why not

so like. essentially the big overarching theme was obv supposed to be the subjectivity of reality and what it meant for themselves and their relationships

for gordon especially the game meant a lot about who he is/who he gets to be or wants to be, the idea of being a player character and second guessing your own intent was something i was excited to write as i was first starting to plan this fic out. i wanted him to struggle a Lot retroactively with reality when it felt like everyone else had long since accepted it had been a game, and ultimately that was supposed to play into his relationship with benry a lot. also obviously a huge thing for him was Trauma, we all love a good gordon freeman trauma hurt/comfort moment right? i wanted to write sort of a backwards progression for him when they were in hl2, like i tried to reverse the script a little between gordon and benry where he just. he was doing his best contrary to what happened with benry and was Worried because that's very gordon, but him just laughing thru a lot of shit and not taking it entirely seriously like he should, not even paying attention to how bad he needed a break because Well It’s Not Real Right? meanwhile benry.....well i gotta back up for him for a bit

benry i feel like i struggled a bit with, i wish id written him Slightly different in the beginning at least but ehh. idk there's a lot of content out there for benry that i feel like skips over the idea that he hurt everyone (im Not getting into disc horse over this even though i have a lot of thoughts about it) but it was important to me to write an arc of him really trying to reach out? i think ppl fall into the trap of putting "gordon has to understand benry" before "benry has to make an effort to be understood". i think it's easier to project and say you want the others to put in that effort on his behalf, but the truth is i think that effort has to be very mutual! i liked writing an arc for him where he doesn't even understand himself very well and had to give his relationships time. i wish id had more time for it, but trying to juggle so many character arcs was Really tough lol. but regarding my choice w/the hl2 part, i do wish id had the opportunity to have him there More, i entertained the idea of him being powerless but with gordon the whole time or smth, but plotwise it just wasn't working out And it felt relevant for him to have that whole experience with the nihilanth. i wanted him to have the reverse experience to gordon was having, suddenly realizing there were actual consequences and he could die, essentially living out what gordon felt was his experience in hl1 fighting benry even if ultimately things would have been ok, bc he didn’t Know or register that at the time?

Whoa 2 Paragraphs For Benry anyway after that, even tho i took his powers away temporarily for adding context to the others' perceived experience and fpr worldbuilding/adding stakes to the situation, i don't really like story arcs for redeeming characters where their arc is represented by having powers taken away Permanently. like "its ok guys i just literally can't do it anymore so i won't" u know?? it doesn't feel like Enough. i wanted to show something where he took back his powers and what made him who he was and used it for Good. i think that rounds things out a little better? it was important that everyone, especially gordon, got to see him taking back the powers he used to attack them in the game and using them to protect them instead. it was a part of his identity, being like Not Human, and played v importantly into his relationship with tommy

with tommy i feel like. ok with everyone in gagegn i feel like i was deliberately mischaracterizing a bit for the sake of the story because My City Now, but i think tommy got hit pretty hard ajchdjshg i just wanted a very particular arc from him....so he was Very serious and i wish id worked in more moments where he got to be like, comedically just super wrong about something or just generally silly but Oh Well. anyway tommy's experience with knowing it's not real was very much implied to be a lifelong struggle and i was Heavily projecting, like, i love the unreality elements in hlvrai because [dissociates and gets delusions about nothing being real] and i just wanted to leave it implied he's always had a hard time with feeling like he Knows it's not real, and still just. Keeps Chugging Along bc what else can u do? also this is a very particular thing but i feel like with psychotic characters in media there's always a question of "but what if....the whole thing isn't real....." but i wanted to write an arc for a character where delusions Prepared them for something in a sense? i could go on for a whole other post about the dsm and psychosis representation etc etc but he was just. Prepared for knowing it wasn't real. my experience i projected heavily onto the story was acceptance of such a weird, abstract concept, and just trying to have a fulfilling life/relationships anyway because what would trying to unravel it all just for the sake of it do?

and that plays into how i wrote gman as essentially a foil to tommy, but im almost done with a ""post-canon"" fic about him so i won't say much on that (i think the fic caters to only me specifically maybe but i'll still post it ajfjsfh) but regarding tommy's whole thing with g-man, it was Very intentional for things to feel sort of unresolved and for him to still second guess himself. it was important to me that way idk, i feel like that's more true to life?

i WISH i had more time and ideas for darnold though.... he's another case of my projecting definitely, and i actually almost had Him go into nova prospekt with alyx instead of gordon and reappear at exactly the right moment for dramatic effect, but i wanted an arc for him where he discovered he wanted more than anything else to be with the science team and to have him disappear kinda contradicted that :/

im running out of steam to keep typing this. well with dr coomer i feel like that was another wild thing that was me projecting again ajdjajfjd i just love a good fantasy DID/OSDD situation (NEVER SEES THIS FOR REAL) and i wanted a little extra flavor with the clones to sort of mirror bubby's struggles

and with bubby. like ok with the prototypes and vortigaunt friend, i had the idea maybe a prototype survived the resonance cascade and had been hiding that whole time and bubby actually finds and rescues him? but that felt too weird and complicated for everything else going on so i threw in a vortigaunt as an emotional standin for him. the reason i wrote bubby resentful to his prototypes at first is one of those things i only introduced to represent part of his story arc and not necessarily a headcanon, i love the idea he considers them family and likes them for the most part! it was just something to slowly represent him growing past black mesa without just Saying it

it's like 5am. lastly.....the player......just like gman was to tommy, i did my best to write the player as almost an opposite to gordon even if i tried to make them as similar as possible. something i rarely see is exploring how complicated i feel like it would Actually make things to have a player, outside your game, trying to be your friend? i understand why ppl don't go this route and i didn't go too hard on it, but i mean, he's this guy who has control over your world and is living outside of it, and views all your life hardships as trivial in comparison to his own? i wanted to represent this in only small ways, because i thought it made sense to show him genuinely making an effort, but in moments like when he was talking to benry and when he talked to gordon, i wanted to show him just. Trying but still not taking it as seriously as he should, he gets Mad but he's treating it like a video game still! it's a power imbalance, and if nobody else was going to explore that then i would afhjchkg

my choice getting back to tommy and benry at the end.... maybe i wrote it a little angstier than i should have but that's something I'm glad i ran with, i was nervous ppl wouldn't like it but. having that flash forward was important for tommy especially after he fought with gman about like, the significance of short lives. he still had benry who i think i could have tried to show being a lot happier to be there to drive the point home, he's just kinda deadpan and maintained him that way but genuinely i wanted him to be happy to explore space with tommy! they had a weird beginning to their friendship, and solidarity of being partly aliens in their own regards, and they were out there finally exploring those aspects of themselves, PLUS

they were very literally just. freely exploring their reality. they got to do Anything without it having to be established by the player! that was supposed to be something Good, they were happy to have that freedom and liked seeing new things with each other that even the player probably never dreamed of. it's Their World, they can do and see anything, even their goal of finding an equivalent of where gman could have come from was kinda just something to slowly work towards to keep them going in some vague direction. the primary goal was to just have a good time

anyway this story was the longest thing ive ever written in my life idk what came over me lol

#zeek speaks

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hlvrai-but-im-crying · 4 years

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someone sent me a screenshot from twitter of holly saying she’s interested in twewy and . hlvrai reapers game au.

preliminary thoughts:

coomer is a support reaper (or more likely a harrier who just kind of. mostly spends his time helping players anyway for fun).

like a certain someone from twewy canon, he’s actually been around for a long time and is quite strong, he’s probably been offered a promotion but turned it down.

his overall power is why he can get away with being.....Like That. (a rule breaker)

he probably likes hanging out with living folk. he boxes with them. they’re weaker than him by default but the other reapers don’t care to humor him. they’re too busy (he wins every time and they’re salty)

bubby is a harrier reaper

obviously he Loves it when the reapers are allowed to attack directly during the second half of the week, he doesn’t care about much else

i doubt he would care about getting promoted either. i think he would go the “kill god” route if he wanted one and not actually work for it.

not sure how to incorporate the tube stuff yet? can you engineer a reaper??? not really. i could make it painful and say he was a test tube baby who died but. what age did he die and why

benrey could be the composer just because it’s hilarious as fuck to me.

not sure Why yet, but maybe he killed gordon and took his memories so he could partner up w him during the game.

(i could be mean and like. make it angsty.

they Were friends but gordon forgot about him for some reason? maybe gordon could see spirits as a kid? and made friends with the lonely composer? and benrey got tired of being lonely and waiting for gordon to die)

he can still be the final boss! not up to working out the logistics of how this Game would go right now tho

since he’s gordons partner he has to have a combat motif. its gotta be passport related but idk yet

gman would be the producer i guess. no thoughts about this it just makes sense from a canon perspective.

WAIT GMAN RUNS A DUNKIN DOUGHNUTS RIP OFF INSTEAD OF THE FUCKING CAFE ASDFASDF IT FITS

tommy...m. if gmans the producer and he’s the producers son is he like? half-angel now? i don’t know how the angels feel about half-angels in twewyverse, but something tells me Badly

maybe gman is hiding him? in his cafe or w/e?

maybe tommy is the conductor? just bc i don’t know who else would be able to fit the slot, but presumably he’d be pretty strong if he’s half-angel

but i like the idea of him being Game Master better i think

tin pin slammer. TIN PIN SLAMMER (for the uninitiated its uhhhhh kind of like beyblade (i don’t know anything about beyblades, but tin pin is fighting tops? so)

gordon is a player ofc! which for anyone who’s not familiar means he’s already dead lol (so is everyone else tho) but if he Wins he can maybe come back to life (or become a reaper)

what if i said “take damage” and told u joshie was his entry fee?

he doesn’t mention joshie for the entire duration of the Game, and it’s because he literally doesn’t remember him!

instead of mr. h, it’s coomer who imparts the lesson of “trust your partner” to gordon. maybe he knows benreys the composer as he says this, maybe he doesn’t

obviously benrey takes his memories of Dying. but being around him causes him to Remember, so like. even though there’s no hand cut off scene he still ends up feeling betrayed by benrey bc he kind of remembers being killed

no darnold or forzen thoughts, i guess they can be players too but i just. we see them so little so idk. feel free to contribute to this i had more but my brain just shut off as i was typing

#god save me #should i put this in main tags lol?#well fuck it Why Not #hlvrai #twewy #twewy folks i'm so sorry to make you see this except i'm not #how bout that anime huh #(i say as if im not twewy folks #follow me at eldritch-composer for twewy content #but spoilers are not tagged)#long post

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whitegladiolus · 5 years

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im doing an askmeme for my three and simply answering everything lol. below the cut and the meme is this one.

morning 🌞📿

Are they physically affectionate? extremely in private and after like permission to be (time/obviousness/etc); eventually in public, too, once he’s married and like... u kno once u save the world or whatever it feels like people can get over u kissing in public even if ur using tongue. Do they have a type? Decently Attractive And Nice To Me What are their deal breakers? being called. stupid. lmfao. unwillingness to engage like emotionally. inability to take him seriously. like being too mean. Are they sub, dom or switch? i feel like this was meant to be top/bottom/switch bc like sub/dom is so... specific to a subculture. morning doesn’t really like hardline d/s stuff. he likes a little light bondage in either role is as far as he’d go. How long do their relationships tend to last? real relationships he usually lets fizzle out, so they go longer than they should. shortest was a year. but he had a lot of one-offs, or things he knew would only go for like a month. Would they ever get married? he IS married. he is married and IN LOVE. Do they give their partners cute nicknames? nothing will top honeybee he really peaked huh Are they more sensual or sexual? hard to say... he is very sexual but i guess for him with gman after like. the first few times together i wouldn’t really separate these two. What is their favorite outside of the bedroom activity to do with their partner? kind of just lay around on each other? snuggling but like when ur doing other things like reading What is their favorite bedroom activity to do with their partner? nothing in particular, i think, he’s mostly seeking out specific sounds and reactions. getting him sputtering. Are they prone to jealousy? noooot really Does their demeanor change when in a relationship? yeah... he’s... he’s already SO sweet but he gets really touchy-feely like a cat next to a heater. uhh very defensive of the other person i guess too. Do they display affection in public? What about in private? answered above Are they open to threesomes or a polyamorous relationship? threesomes yes but not polyamory he can’t manage that Do they have a certain type of person they will not enter into a relationship with? people who are Too Mean How long until they feel secure and comfortable in a relationship? LMFAO YEARS :-) Would they ever confess their feelings first? only after being EXTREMELY SURE the other person would reciprocate. sometimes u already live together and whatever before u say anything. it’s no big deal. (it is kinda) Would they ever cheat on their partner? no :( Do they want children? yes :) and he has three :) Are they a cuddler? big time baby....... absolute top tier big spoon material but likes being laid on and laying on others too. hims... a cat. Do they believe in soul mates? yes.................................................. Are they protective of their partner? yes............................................. sometimes u die in a graveyard for them lol How far are they willing to go for the person they love? sometimes ur happy to die to the king of demons if it means ur family wont deal with it :))))) Do they fall in love easily? emotionally he is an open oozing wound so yes Do they share information about their relationships freely with friends and family? absolutely not Are they concerned with the social status of their partner? nope Do they tend to sleep better when in bed with their partner? of course. of course. warm. tender touching. little sleep noises. the delight of waking up first and seeing his stupid sleep face. it’s all very good.

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sawyer 🗡️🐀

i dont know why the formatting went haywire here lmfao

Are they physically affectionate? they can be? but it’s not common or meant to express affection. they’re not really assocating “i want to hang off this person” with affection even if that’s what it might be.

Do they have a type? fast and clever and loud. somebody who can keep up with them but not like tie them down while STILL having a Okay... No point. i hate to say this. but probably fucking benny.

What are their deal breakers? too serious, not willing to break rules for the sake of fun. rigidity in general.

Are they sub, dom or switch? absolutely hates d/s stuff. in general the epitome of vers tho.

How long do their relationships tend to last? not long at all. they were married i guess three times but the longest of those was like... i wanna say three years. they’re too flighty.

Would they ever get married? for japes and fun.

Do they give their partners cute nicknames? not really

Are they more sensual or sexual? sexual

What is their favorite outside of the bedroom activity to do with their partner? i feel like crimes is too on the nose, but probably pranks and capers. just something active and fast. dungeon delving. object recovery. setting up OR solving a mystery.

What is their favorite bedroom activity to do with their partner? Weird Physical Things. changing their body around mid act. wrestling for dominance. etc.

Are they prone to jealousy? nope

Does their demeanor change when in a relationship? incidentally being sawyer’s friend is exactly like being their partner except you see them naked 45% less

Do they display affection in public? What about in private? they will in public if they think it’ll embarrass their partner. privately they have like moments of compulsion where they can’t like... help but be affectionate. like walk by and spontaneously hug or kiss their face or whatever. a random vigorous handshake. stuff like that.

Are they open to threesomes or a polyamorous relationship? yes and yes but they don’t really have the stability to do the latter

Do they have a certain type of person they will not enter into a relationship with? the answer to this is Morning, while also resolutely knowing they would 100% fuck the daylights out of him

How long until they feel secure and comfortable in a relationship? immediately, but their idea of these things is admittedly way different from normal

Would they ever confess their feelings first? i don’t think they have ever actually confessed feelings. they just kind of express things and figure they’ll figure it out or just like Know it. possibly this is why they have had three divorces lmfao.

Would they ever cheat on their partner? nah

Do they want children? not when their friends have so generously provided them with theirs :)

Are they a cuddler? in the way a cold animal is

Do they believe in soul mates? no

Are they protective of their partner? not really

How far are they willing to go for the person they love? they don’t really have separate spheres of Friends and Partners so equidistant on the terms of: Well I Won’t Die, But Someone Else Might

Do they fall in love easily? yes and no, i will not explain further

Do they share information about their relationships freely with friends and family? ajfl;ajg;ahga no they just think everyone knows what they know and don’t realize that like. if you could have a passive deception score. theirs is 25.

Are they concerned with the social status of their partner?nnnnah

Do they tend to sleep better when in bed with their partner? it keeps them worm :o)

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constance 🐿️🏜️

Are they physically affectionate? haltingly. he’s affectionate enough with people he likes in general - lot of casual touching, upper arms and shoulders. but that drops away once he’s aware of like. Having Feelings. gets awkward. Do they have a type? no! :-) What are their deal breakers? impatience, lack of curiosity Are they sub, dom or switch? he is a baby, he does not know these things. the only thing about a d/s relationship that would appeal to him is the aftercare part and you can just, like, have that. you can have just that lol. How long do their relationships tend to last? he’d try and make it work as long as he could, or as long as feasible. he knows people have Responsibilities. Would they ever get married? for love? possibly. in general? he will. Do they give their partners cute nicknames? only if they do first, mirrors a lot of behavior in order to figure out what feels good Are they more sensual or sexual? sensual............................ What is their favorite outside of the bedroom activity to do with their partner? he likes to rough house. share things he’s learning or working on. ideally he would do projects with his partner. just having smth to work on together. Collaborative Efforts. What is their favorite bedroom activity to do with their partner? constance............................................ makes love and i can’t answer this. the answer is sucking dick but it’s killing me to type it. my hands are shaking. Are they prone to jealousy? oh absolutely. hypervigilant towards being replaced. it’s not like great. Does their demeanor change when in a relationship? more bashful. he’s trying a lot of new things/new ways of being with people. uhh more willing to just be exuberant and enthusiastic about things, as opposed to trying to check those behaviors in order to not take up too much space/seem too affected. Do they display affection in public? What about in private? only until somebody said something, and then he’d stop. privately it’s extremely muted, small things like just some part of the body touching or whatever rather than like constant petting or etc. Are they open to threesomes or a polyamorous relationship? probably he would have a threesome under EXTREMELY SPECIFIC circumstances. not polyamory though. Do they have a certain type of person they will not enter into a relationship with? someone who’s going to antagonize (like genuinely antagonize) him for fun, make fun of his interests, etc How long until they feel secure and comfortable in a relationship? i don’t know! i think there is a comfort that comes with knowing something is going to end eventually. Would they ever confess their feelings first? nah, he’s used to just simmering on things. also he really wants to be romanced while knowing it won’t happen without some kind of catalyst from himself, but that kind of defeats the purpose of the thing. Would they ever cheat on their partner? i want to say no, but he would openly have an affair in the marriage his parents arranged. on somebody he actually considered his partner, however? no. Do they want children? i don’t know that he can separate want and will have honestly Are they a cuddler? not at first. he doesn’t really know what’s appropriate. eventually he would be but only for a little bit at a time. doing it for too long would drive him nuts. Do they believe in soul mates? hmmm.... no Are they protective of their partner? in the sense that he is for most people... but not especially so. lot of respect for autonomy. How far are they willing to go for the person they love? :-) we’ll find out won’t we :-) Do they fall in love easily? kind of. there’s handful of different little gestures that would do it near immediately. Do they share information about their relationships freely with friends and family? yeah Are they concerned with the social status of their partner? he really has a strong division between partner and spouse - for a partner, no. for a spouse, yes. he’d have to be like REALLY in love or else REALLY established individually in order to ignore it. Do they tend to sleep better when in bed with their partner? yeah, sometimes it helps just to know you make someone happy ya kno

#dusty do this #simple passion #simple violence #bloody mischancing

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whitegladiolus · 6 years

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these are extremely embarrassing but i LIKE THEM okay an otp askbox meme i’m just answering all of bc i am feeling soooooo soft for mornmore rn god my pal don’t judge me for this one okay

this set

Who kisses the other on the nose and the one receiving the kiss blushes? g-man to morming... i think probably very small or like stupid displays of affection offset him a lot vs like open and flagrant sexy talk or whatever... one’s Embarrassing and the other is just Oh We’re Gonna Fuck That’s Nice and he’s used to that vs just someone being like sweet w/ him lol

Who sits on their partner’s lap as they wrap their arms around their partners neck? again g-man bc he is a waif and morning is a big strapping young lad with the arms of an angel

Who kisses the inside of their partner’s palm before reassuring them everything is going to be okay? morning.................... he’s nice.............. but also like feasibly what problem would g ever fucking have

Who initiates the forehead touch™? Good Luck Bitch He Has Horns but it’s gotta be g bc morning’s too considerate of it to bother trying

Where do they first say “I love you”? i think they’re both to emotionally repressed for that but if i had to hazard a guess: a) hell b) somewhere extremely mundane like g’s fuckin “living” room (living is in quotes bc it is debatable whether or not what he does constitutes as living)

Who wraps their arms around their partner who is cooking? morning is the only one of em that can cook but if g tries he’s getting an elbow to gut He’s Busy

Who breaks out the first aid kit when the other gets a paper cut? morning’s so stupidly powerful he could like spit and bring somebody back to life like... he just gotta touch ppl... i think he subconsciously heals him anymore

Who cuddles up to the other on the couch? a hearty mix of both, imo

was stricken for the record for being too embarrassing for me to even think about

Who picks up the other fireman style in a playful way? this can literally only go one way

Who brings the blanket to wrap them both up in it? being the only person with any sense of how to care for oneself: morning

Who falls asleep on who? What is their reaction when the other falls sleep on them? slightly uneven mix of both favoring g-man just bc morning is toooooo wound up around ppl, like just a lot of nervous energy, so rxn mixed btwn: Oh This Is Nice and Thank God ☀️☀️. reverse wise... who’s to say... not me... i like to think he gets a lil thrill each time morning does smth that’s like Normal For People Who Are Together To Do Without Making It A Production in my heart gman is a romantic

the thought of ppl holding each other is so fucking... it’s too much... it’s like the one hill i can’t climb in terms of mortification. have i thought about it. yes. am i going to share that. no.

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