#going absolutely fucking insane. oh my god

[johnslittlespoon]

leaving bikeriders anon here again i’m going crazy over the back and forth constant neither of them saying anything out of nervousness of it all like of COURSE it would take them forever to actually get together there would have to be an honest to god crisis a completely off-kilter situation for them to get together they’re so bad at communicating. also have not been able to get the thought of them running into each other by chance at a bar across town and even though bucky showed up with people he just ends up at a table in the corner with gale the whole night. gale jokingly asks if john is even old enough to drink which turns into a whole thing where john suddenly has to prove to gale that he CAN drink and he IS old enough and is Definitely Worthy of gale’s attention. anyways!

HIII i'm still ON one about this too dw

exactly my goddd the back and forth would be physically painful to write/read honestly lol the flirtation and the sexual tension!!

ur so right smth absolutely wild would have to happen, or one of them would have to slip up, or there'd have to be an argument where feelings are blurted out in anger/hurt, orrrr, in relation to your idea at the end which i'm going clinically insane over bee tee dubs:

john is so offended by the insinuation that he's too young to drink even if gale's joking, made worse probably by gale throwing in a kid– "you old enough to be in here, kid?" with the corner of his mouth quirking up a bit.

john puffs his chest out and tries not to let the one beer he's had slur his words, goes "'course i am" all huffy, rolls his eyes, reaches for gale's full shot glass while holding determined eye contact and tips it back without a second thought, really has to clench his fist in his lap for a second when it threatens to come right back up, not used to anything quite so harsh.

it's not gale's intention to egg him on like that, john's just bristly, a messy college kid used to bulldozing his way through life, never turning down a bet or challenge, has maybe been watching a pretty girl hang off gale's other side on top of everything and wants to prove that he can be exciting and mature too.

john ends up drinking too much, taking whatever shots the others in gale's group pass him for their entertainment until gale shuts the next person who tries down with a pointed glare, slides the shot glass away before john can reach for it, says "alright, we're cutting you off" when john whines out a complaint, leaning heavily against gale's side.

the night ends with gale helping john out of the bar because john's friends leave long before he does. he gets john out to the parking lot out front, gets him situated on the back of his motorcycle, keeps a hand on his shoulder and asks where home is, and john's like, "oh, no, can't go home like this buck, dad'll gimme a shiner" and gale's jaw clenches hard, but it's not the time to get angry.

he's at a loss, because he's not gonna bring john home to an environment he's had a faint suspicion isn't the greatest since they met (however that might have been, that's shit for me to plot out later lol) but bringing him to his house seems like a bad idea, but he's also not sure what to do and john's friends don't seem the greatest to just leave him with a borderline stranger. so what else is there to do?

"am i gonna have to tie you to me, or are you gonna hold on tight?" he asks as he climbs on the bike in front of john, and john giggles out a "y'can tie me to wh'tever y'want," filter completely gone from how sloshed he is, and gale looks to the sky and says a silent prayer because jesus fucking christ. what.

i'm like 99% certain that alcohol would be involved in a feelings confession, probably that night when it slips out from john's lips, so drunk he doesn't even realize it. nothing would happen that night, because gale's trying to be a responsible adult and he wants to make sure john's not just saying shit, but he's also quite forward, so he'd bring it up in the morning after he's brought john a water and some painkillers, and john would go so red and he'd drop his head into his hands and whisper an "oh my god" because he can't believe he's slipped up so bad.

and then yk. feelings–talk ensues. john is so mortified, he wants to die. gale is so enamoured but trying to be realistic about things. etc etc i'll flesh it all out eventually when it's time to start writing it >:)

#leaving bikeriders au #<- for other posts set in this au/future fic <3 #i already know this au is gonna be stuck in my brain for a while #i'm not gonna be able to shake it loose till i finish the dog fic and then get to writing this one lol #buck x bucky #buckbucky #johnslittlespoon asks #johnslittlespoon brainrot

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[evankinard]

my beloved mutuals you are all doing yourselves a disservice by not giving kdramas and cdramas a chance. there's literally a show where a ghost king and the ex-leader of a spy organization who has three years left to live become so immediately obsessed with each other upon meeting that they adopt each other's adopted children and live together as a family. at one point the ex-spy leader gets tortured with meat hooks. he's such a pillow princess the ghost king threatens to leave him cause he keeps not doing any of the household chores. they keep selling their souls for each other. there's an entire political plot going on in the background with the stakes to tear down their world as they know and they just don't fucking care. they call each other their soulmate and there's an entire scene where all they do is look into each other's eyes and repeatedly say the other's name because it's good to have someone to call. chinese censorship doesn't allow them to be more explicit because showing gay people on tv is fucking illegal so they mouth "ai ni" which means "I love you" without audio instead. they're the ultimate battlefield couple. they're the biggest bastards in the world. they're childhood friends. they're immortal nightmares.

#every once in a while I forget about word of honor and then I fucking remember. oh boy do I remember #buddie girlies please for the love of god I know you would go batshit fucking insane over the untamed and word of honor #do yourselves a favor and put me out of my misery I cant stand to watch you all not experience these ships #which btw for anyone not aware are based on actual novels where the ships are fully gay and canon #and the tv show people did their absolute best to make the couples as obsessed and committed to each other as they could with censorship #and they did an amazing job

[vettelcore]

people with outdoor cats be like: yes my cat came back home half dead, caught hiv, is full of parasites and sometimes has gone missing for weeks but i don't care bc at least the cat is free and not locked inside like selfish people do!!!

#i cannot fucking stress this enough PLEASE do not let your cats roam outside freely if you care about them #if they're used to going outside leash them!!!! #the amount of cats we get at the clinic who come almost dead/with horrible wounds bc they're allowed to be outside is insane #not to mention how many run over cats i see where i live #they could get attacked by other animals too #like its just not worth it #we had to put down a cat today after the owners found her almost dead with an INSANE infection bc she had ruptured her intestines #her hip was shattered too #looked like probably some asshole kicked her #and the owners were like oh we had just buried one of our other cats the other day after she got attacked by another animal #and im just standing there like ?????? and that's normal to you?????? #oh but at least the cats can climb trees though 🤪 #remember the dude i talked about a while ago who brought his cat in honestly the worst condition I've ever seen? #covered in poop vomit piss and fuck knows what else? #that had a colony of cats all infected with FelV bc he refuses to vax them? #yeah this woman was a family member btw #thank FUCK he didn't come today because that would've been a shitshow #all things considered at least this woman seems to be... not absolutely fucking insane? i guess? #but anyway she kept saying how it was sudden! and how the cat was perfectly fine last night! #oh my gOD that cat had maggots eating her from the inside that doesn't happen overnight #cats are tough and will hide a lot of pain but can't you just tell the truth??? #you either didn't care enough to bring this poor baby earlier or you just noticed now what had happened to her

[watery-melon-baller]

HEY GUYS SOMEONE MADE A TV TROPES PAGE FOR WEEKEND AT BELOS'S

#I'm absolutely losing my mind rn #in a good way #holy shit I'm. so fucking honored oh my god #if I had a nickel for every time this happenedn #although our large white rock isn't really something I worked on but #god. going insane #ty to whoever made this #weekend at belos's #lilac post #toh

[doublekanble]

557 tabs and counting (at least 300 of them are for this one fic) and a prediction of 10k at the lowest with a tons of fucking dialogue and 4k of setting up the plot (still havent reached the middle act, 2 scenes planned and still havent comb thru 3 part that only serves as structure layout) for the first time ever i raises a white flag over the horizon, this HAVE to be post in chapters over courses of like a week at least.

#/kbtalk #im doing my very best to not go insane theres so much dialogue #im an actual semi neet irl i havent have an irl convo that lasted for an hour in YEARS what am i doing with my life #lucky for me i finally get around to making an ao3 account recently so i can just post these there too. the format makes it more neat #i like to keep my work short and tidy in terms of posting so like at least 2 of them were posted as a package deal going against my plans #im scared of posting in parts bc ik ppl r less likely to read them #im doing this for fun but also i want to feel validated over it goddammit (i love you even when you dont comment but also #low self confidence i need to be reassured im doing well. i am nothing but a little guy #tis a part of life i supposed #i absolutely love concept of gods that exist in spite of each other (imagine hoozuki no reitetsu) and i have at least- #10 wikipedia tabs open looking up religion and shit #but also the beta for this will be so fucking brutal im just vying to write the blood kiss atp #oh to be an exorcist. being kissed by the demon possessing the prettiest girl alive with blood in her mouth...

[unopenablebox]

every now and then i'm reminded that there are people who don't grasp that like. no matter how great and fine you think a specific hypothetical boss-employee relationship might be, even if you insist on claiming that there are zero issues whatsoever in that relationship itself

the problem is that now every other employee in the general vicinity has to evaluate whether their boss is going to try to fuck them, because now that's on the table

#people in academia say some really insane stuff about whether it's fine for a PI to date one of their postdocs sometimes. #to be clear this is not about a real situation or one that involves e.g. anyone i would recognize by sight just conversations #but like. oh my fucking god how do you not get that ''PI of your lab dates person in that lab'' is THE NIGHTMARE SCENARIO #absolute-power zero-supervision-type workplace situation! your boss doesn't have a boss! you can't leave because they get to keep your last #3 years of intellectual property and work on a 5-year project with no intermediates that is the only way to advance your career! #HOW could it go okay. what are you ON #box opener

[pineappical]

so that finale huh.

#ted lasso spoilers #ITS..... NOT GOOD... NOT BAD EITHER.... its a finale alright #i understood why he had to go back to his son i knew he couldnt stay in london forever but oh my fucking god what the fuck was that ....... #probably absolute horseshit take incoming but oh my goddddd just the whole thing with jamie and his dad and beard and jane what. what #its a show about bad fathers and forgiveness yeah and people can change but that doesnt excuse all the terrible things theyve done to you #before that... #IDK I CANT PUT MY THOUGHTS INTO WORDS RN IM JUST SO. SO BAFFLED? #there were alot of scenes i loved dearly like the singing and colin finally being able to kiss his fella or the video scene but it all felt #so so so rushed for some reason?? #i have so much more to say about this rip mail for getting the brunt of my insane ramblings on dc IM SORRY AHJGKVJHAGDF #BUT IDK??? spare some thoughts? talk to me about it. send an ask or reply idfk i wanna hear people's thoughts on it #i know ted must be happy to be with his son again and we just. dont know what his life is like back in kansas so. scratches head #not art #pn.txt #its 1am.. ill probably come back to this later to add more thoughts IDK

[fellhellion]

touga is NOT the same level of shitheel as akio i am throwing myself into space

#HES IMPLIED TO BE A VICTIM OF CSA IN HIS FAMILY. AKIO LITERALLY GROOMED HIM ON TOP OF THAT #OH MY FUCKING GOD. ONE OF THE PEOPLE HERE IS A FULL ON ADULT GROOMING MINORS AND THE OTHER IS A SHITHEAD 16/17 YEAR OLD #WHOS LYING TO HIMSELF ABOUT BEING ABUSED BECAUSE OF WHAT HE CAME TO BELIEVE *BECAUSE* HE'D BEEN A VICTIM OF #ABUSE #I AM GOING INSANE #TOUGA IS NOT A 'GOOD' VICTIM. HE HURTS PEOPLE. HE HURT HIS SISTER. BUT HES ALSO A DEEPLY DAMAGED TEENAGER THINKING HES GAMING THE SYSTEM #PURELY ON THE KNOWLEDGE THAT HE KNOWS ITS RIGGED #AND THAT BELIEF IS WEAPONISED BACK *AGAINST* HIM IN ORDER TO GROOM HIM #RAHHHH!!!!! HIS WHOLE ARC IS ABOUT COMING TO ACTUALLY OPERATE W EMOTIONAL SINCERITY #HE TRIES TO 'SAVE' UTENA SINCERELY. COMPLETELY SINCERELY. ITS PATRONISING ABSOLUTELY BUT ITS HIM BEING INDOCTRINATED BACK INTO THIS SYSTEM #BUT INSTEAD W THE MINDSET HE MOCKED OTHERS FOR HAVING #ITS BOTH SO FUCKING TRAGIC *AND* A VICTORY BECAUSE GOD. AT LEAST HES FINALLY SINCERE. HE FINALLY GOT OUT OF THAT ONE ASPECT #RAHHHHHHH <- insane person #tunes talks utena #csa mention

[crushpunchh]

nothing serious just thoughts about a DR au that i got embarrassed about putting up here <3

#thinking about my DR au #sorta a swap au in the sense that people are in different roles but like its not a 1:1 swap situation #also theres some insanely detailed subplot with spamton who isnt even very important. might make the roles less defined because its actuall #absurd. #anyway. what im thinking about is specifically the snowgrave equivalent #and how Absolutely Hilarious it would be if after a genocide chapter 1 ralsei just called up lancer like IF I TELL YOU TO DO ANYTHING WEIRD #TOMORROW. DONT LISTEN TO ME. PLEASE? #and then in ch2 lancer basically went LOL no. im not doing that. and theres just no snowgrave because ralsei thought Oh God Oh Fuck #What If Other People Get Involved In This Too. #lancer voice ohhhhh ! nope :> #Only way to do snowgrave is if you did pacifist ch1. Otherwise Lancer will simply go ? no. and then tell susie ralsei might need to go to #the vet when they run into her because he is a little bit more bloodthirsty than usual. #crush.zip #crush.txt #love this au dearly. ralsei is hysterically funny in how he reacts to the possession situation #hes like okay i guess this was divinely ordained ! um ! please dont involve my friends in it though ! #Literally i think if you play ch1 pacifist all he does after taking the soul out is make something to eat because he hasnt eaten all day LO #neutral/genocide ch1 though. like anything that in canon wouldve had the revolution not work. #then he calls up lancer like HI I THINK SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME. IF I SAY ANYTHING WEIRD TMRW DONT LISTEN TO ME PLEASE ? PLEASE? #PASS ON THE MESSAGE TO SUSIE. THANK YOU. NOW I HAVENT EATEN ALL DAY SO IM GOING TO GO MAKE SOMETHING. SORRY FOR WAKING YOU UP. GOODNIGHT. #figure maybe in a hypothetical game situation youd be able to check his phone and see he called lancer at like 3 in the morning #no further context unless you try snowgrave. #im not settled on whether lancer WOULD actually just straight up go 'no lol' if you played ch1 like that #like i think the first few snowgrave specific scenes hed be way less down for but maybe it would still be possible? harder but stillpossibl #idk. i do think it would be very funny if you just straight up couldnt do snowgrave without playing ch1 pacifist though. #none of that 'worst possible genocide route' shit you HAVE to play ch1 pacifist or lancer will go Yeah no not happening ! :> #it would be funny but probably not actually good like from a gameplay perspective. #so no maybe. #I think definitely if ch1 was neutral/genocide there would be a lot more chances to back out though.

[ughscara]

i ascended into heaven

#( ❀ ) ── standby. #idol kuni !! 🖤🖤 #i would have had the energy to scream in the tags but not today unfortunately i have worms rotting in my brain and writing to do #.. plot twist; i /will/ scream in the tags #OH MY GOD HE'S LITERALLY SO PERFECT #AND HERE I THOUGHT SPY KUNI WAS ENOUGH NOW THIS ?? I AM GOING INSANE #god the chokehold he'd have over me if he had a promotional artwork for teyvat turboflux ......... save me racer kuni oh lords #im having idol kuni brainrot now when i fucking shouldn't but that's the price of having an active imagination ( and he made it worse /lh ) #imagine him guiding you backstage after a performance‚ absolutely spent and desires nothing but being in your presence ... #... dreamy sigh. excuse him if he goes a bit overboard tho‚ he missed you an incredible lot is all 🤭 #OH and even the fun sounding concept that is being his manager!! ah so many ideas .. so much potential .. #i am so going to write for idol kuni someday this month im sorry the brainrot is too strong for me to handle #( side note: i am not sorry at all ^-^ )

[widevibratobitch]

havent heard her sing the 'dignare domine' part today and i realise i may have gotten addicted to it throughout the last few days. im having withdrawal symptoms and apparently a real actual crush on this woman lord help me jesus h christ im in trouble haha

#nonononononnononnnnonononononooooo #i dont even care about that te deum all that much. like yay dvorak but its pretty meh. it has incredibly beautiful moments tho #and that dignare domine is really mid until *she* sings it. like oh my god christ on a stick the way my knees go fucking weak #this is NOT okay #heard her sing it four days in a row and every time it was a religious experience and every time i forgot to come in with the miserere #cause i was too busy making hearteyes at her and listening to that exquisite fucking piano and all the overtones fucking with my brain #my god. she DOES have technical issues... and we have VERY different opinions on chest voice lol but my god my god my GOD #honest to god never heard a voice like hers live before. its nothing crazy in a classroom but when she actually sings in a big hall. christ #the overtones are INSANE. she has a case of caballe where her piano is better than her forte lol but when i say better i mean #ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SUBLIME #this is a voice that MUST be heard live. fucking chills. one in a million honest to god (the fact that im sure she'd sing even better IF.) #i dont even care about her Modern Ways tho lol like legit. dont care. #also she's easily one of the most beautiful women i've ever seen. #god god god i hate it here. im gonna have to try and be So Normal now and i fucking bet ill make it weird oh for fucks sake no #quitting this fucking uni istg how am i supposed to do this

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i have to drive to the big city tomorrow morning... which is... #itll b fine. ive done it multiple times before so itll b fine #but also everytime i have to drive somewhere im a sobbing mess bc its so scary #and i space out which is terrifying so i have to sing and talk to myself the whole time so my brain doesnt drift too far #and i dont kno how long i have to b there or if ill b able to find parking... #i just hate is so much. literally its not a far trip. if we have a fucking working train system there would b a train between our two #universities and it would b like 30min. such fucking bullshit. that would b incredible. i would actually b able to go places #fuck the lack of public train transportation. its stupid. #at least i was busy all day. its crazy how much less terrible my day is when im in a semi empty lab working with algae #hopefully i didnt kill the culture bc i had to transfer immediately after making media. i think it cooled enough but well see #fuck. i dont wanna drive. i should sleep so im not more insane tomorrow #its crazy how distorted i get abt driving. i will convince myself that my car is gonna like fall apart while im driving #and that im absolutely going to have an accident caused by me. so i get up like ok this is where it all ends #in a smear across the highway #oh god i have to get gas tomorrow too #thry recommended i get there at 9 but maybe ill get there 8.30 and just like sit in my car crying for half an hour #lol i turn up to the lab with tear stained cheeks like hey sorry if it seemed like i was resistant to coming down here. im very unwell ✌️ #bleh. lets not think abt it. dont think just do. and pray i dont have to fucking go multiple days #my reward for success is no spring break bc a stressful project will begin this weekend #but im not even sure i have spring break bc im a lab tech so i think mayne thats not a loss? idk i dont kno #when im supposed to b working or not. it doesnt matter. my tine sheets r a lie #time sheets :-P #unrelated

[tillman]

*vibrates excitedly* you watched jjk? Favorite characters?

I DONT KNOW .. I like the entire cast a bunch. I think the main 3 r so good like the last arc rlly cemented them as extremely solid to me … like besides itadori who is just such a solid protagonist… also my good sweet boy. I think the supporting cast also is stellar the other students (todo my friend todo) and their dynamics r all so solid and fun … and like the adults too. I think gojo is a fascinating beast … slowly catching up in the manga so I can learn his deal but the way he cares for all the kids is so 🥹… also nanami is hot and ijichi is cutes I can get those out of the way. Also for characters I think the villains r all exceptionally written. Sukuna is a deeply fun character (even if every time hes on screen the autism in my brain goes 😏) and like. Intimidating while being just so incredibly silly and enjoyable to watch do shit. Literally ended up rooting for him to show up cus I love when he kills people.

#other than that I mean the worldbuilding is so good #the magic system is incredibly creative and unique while also feeling so fitting for this world and cast #and the way the magic reveals shit about the characters. my favorite shit. like nanamis overtime thing had me cheering out loud #also the way the whole cast is insane. my favorite shit. #the last fights w megami going. like that. #and nobara. oh my god. I love nobara so much shes so fucking sick in the head #anyways I really liked it. absolutely gonna catch up with the manga even if I dony like reading ongoing stuff #its just that fun of a series …

[ace-beef]

the last time MCR/Gerard were trending was the first MK show when he debuted Meta Man and was covered in fake blood

and the next time they hit trending? Was it when Gerard was covered in motor oil? No of course not it’s when he decides to wear a basic pair of black shorts

#I literally find this so funny #like did people go feral over the motor oil? #kinda but not as much as I was expecting #but oh people go absolutely fucking insane over SHORTS #this is absolutely hilarious #god I’ve loved watching this tour unfold #mcr #my chemical romance #gerard way #mcr gerard #mcr gee #my chem #beef speaks