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The problem is they both make sense.

John lacks any agency, and as his abilities start "failing" he loses more of what little he has. The only things he can do is perceive the world through Arthur's eyes and talk to him in his head. That's it. He has no material effect on the world around them. He is solely 100% reliant on Arthur for his continued existence and influence on the world. He can't ignore Arthur whatsoever (unlike Arthur who can ignore John easy peasy) he can't Do anything but talk and observe (and also experience the deaths of people Arthur touches but ultimately that does nothing). Of course he is going to be distrustful of other people and possessive over Arthur.

Arthur feels like suddenly he can't rely on this very reliable thing that has been keeping him alive this whole time. It would shake anyone up. Especially with the shit they have to deal with? If he can't rely on directions he will be sliced to ribbons or shot without a chance of fighting back. They may as well be dead already. And for all of John's lack of agency, it's Arthur who has to actually deal with the consequences. He's the one who's getting wounded and torn to bits and has to fight all that. Plus it's HIS body. If someone's existence relies on your body, you have the right to refuse, bodily autonomy is a human right.

The problem is they've gone through this cycle before (cycle of learning and forgetting and learning that they are One Unit and need to work Together vs The Problems and forgetting) but never has it shaken Arthur so much. Even when they've argued before he would still listen to John's directions. But now? Everything is in question (as is probably the intent behind John's "failing" abilities.) They DO need other people to help and they DO need to be careful and include John. They cannot truly trust someone else while keeping John a secret or without his input. Arthur has the most control over the situation and the onus is on him to make the compromises. Yeah it's his body but 1) countless times he promised to John that they were in this together and 2) at this point separating them would be so traumatic that they may as well be One.

All of this is to say, curious that Arthur is so willing to tell Oscar about literally everything EXCEPT John. What happens if he does? What if there's someone else to assert for John in a way Arthur can't ignore so easily? Would that legitimize the shared ownership of Arthur's body? What does it mean for John to gain agency by the loss of Arthur's autonomy?

#im being Bold today and not saving this in the draft #pls be nicey if you disagree #i have a lot of confusing thoughts and feelings about what bodily autonomy means when youve got a guy living in your head #that is somehow separate from yourself #malevolent #malevolent spoilers #goobabble #also to be clear I think Arthur is being complete major dickhead #i understand why he feels the way he does #or at least how i think hes feeling #and i think john would stab him if he could #slap him upside the head for being a dummy #i wouldnt blame him lol #i cant include all the intricacies of their dynamic so theres def things that may be missing here but you get it #also yeah i watched the fionna and cake finale lol #to be completely honest i dont think these guys even know what Trust is #they are all men of faith #posting before i can overthink myself into a spiral about this

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Sometimes I will be sad and then I realize-- oh yeah! I haven't listened to Music in a while

#goobabble #it's important to listen to music every day or else the Sickness gets you

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(reblogs appreciated!)

#collecting data #ran out of spots for other/show results #polls #goobabble #if u are also youngest and it sucks I see you I know most dont

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I LOVE sex it's so cool!!!!! No I am never going to have it <3

#goobabble #maybe! #who knows #not me!

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My music is now on Bandcamp!

To celebrate I've also released my silly little single Brorca (coming soon to streaming services near you!)

Here's another taste of some of my music as well for you, please check me out on Bandcamp or your local stream!

Tips is you're feeling generous (thank you everyone who has supported me so far!! ♥)

#music #gooboogie #goobabble #pinned #goobarts #fun fact about brorca #i made that for an rp i was doing years ago #where bro strider is an orca mer who gets rescued by abro alpha dave #and lives in his pool #and dave makes a shitty song out of his orca noises lmao #fart #meat posting #Spotify

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it's one of those against the kitchen floor earworm kind of nights

#one of the stabbing himself songs #and god. yeah though like forreal actually though #goobabble #not quite sure theres a song makes me cry like this one #i mean cmon you screamsing “im really trying” without tearing up

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Toxic codependent avatars JonMartin where Jon helplessly draws statements from Martin who then fights and divorces him (casual) Jon is so lonely without him that Martin feeds off it, invisible and nearby until he's sated and before Jon gets too irreversibly lonely. They get back together until Jon compels and pulls statements from Martin again and the cycle repeats, feeding off each other back and forth <3

#tma #goobabble #this feels like cannibalism somehow

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Running an experiment

Can you like/unlike/like this post a bunch of times? I want to see what this does to my notifications

Feel free to reblog for experimenting too

#i thiiiinnkk it'll just give you one notification? #but im unsure #so i wanna test! #goobabble

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The real reason why Ty has all those Mike's and Edgars is because he's trying to make a pair who will polycule with him

#as he SHOULD #im on ep 130 i think im almost there #and then i can finally get cracking on the au's in my head #wrist be damned I'll at least try to write #wbg #woe.begone #w.bg #oh fuck theres. 133 lmao #SOON #goobabble #wbg spoilers

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Is there a type of attraction that's like, I want to tear you to pieces and roast you over an open fire. I want to spend the day cooking and seasoning you for hours like making love. I want to devour every last morsel and scrap you have until you're just bones and then even those I will break open and scrape out the marrow and use the rest for stew

#goobabble #meat posting #i want to kill and eat people #cannibalism #coquette #girlqueen #pussyboss #slay #love #coquette cannibal #cottagecore cannibal #men #truck driver core #meaty men #meat men #men made of meat #meat for me #girlboss #boyqueen #balls

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HUGE fan of the it/its angel thing to masc he/him angel judge of hell Gabriel pipeline really really good

#hehim pronouns to get them closer to god The Father im so obsessed im SO obsessed #goobabble #ultrakill

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I think it's good for your health to play in the fictional realm of something that disgusts you sometimes. It could be a ship, character dynamic, situation, the characters themselves, their beliefs, whatever. You don't have to share it or even tell anyone, it's just for you to experience, to sit with what you find to be truly grotesque and see how you feel and what it's like. I think it's a good exercise to do from time to time, enriches the soul, allows more texture in your life. You could come out of it feeling the same, you could come out of it learning something new, maybe it'll sit with you and you'll discover something about the experience weeks later. Disgust can be very informative and we assign so much shame to it when it can actually be quite valuable to go through and see what's on the other side for us. I promise it's okay and no one is getting hurt by this creative exercise as uncomfortable as it is. Go forth and play in the mud!

(please note: things that Disgust you, not Triggers you. If it triggers you probably steer clear of it or do this exercise with the guidance of a therapist)

#i know a lot of us like to call ourselves freaks and weirdos who like fucked up shit #but lets take a moment to consider whst we Actually find to be fucked up and gross #and sit with that for a moment. stare it in the face and ask why? what does this mean to me? #and you might think well its very obvious but set that aside for now bc things that seem obvious can be misleading #stuff in your dni list could also be good for this #it's interesting to be uncomfortable sometimes #my 2 cents #goobabble #disgust is a valuable human emotion but not in the ways youre likely thinking #no shame in being gross my friends it's the human experience #peace and love

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I turned off auto updates but discord still updated :( cries a billion years nightmare nightmare nightmare

#goobabble #sobbss

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🌻again! if it's fine with you :з

It is! Please allow me to introduce the one and only baby of all time love of my life Rosey!!

Bonus: her when we first got her!

#we didnt know if they would give us a boy or a girl #if boy we were gonna name him Davey :3 #we got her from a coworker when we used to work at a haunted house #goobabble

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doomed by the narrative to go to work 😩

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suddenly filled with immense grief that I'll never be able to see a full eclipse in my life

#i just didn't have the money or ability to go see it #sobbing and sobbing and sobbing #goobabble