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[eduardex-blog]

Try this? Take a match or a stick and see how far you can throw it, yikes not that far, now take the same match or stick and by placing it in between your thumb and forefinger and flick it. What's the result, weirdly enough (I did) flick it loads further than I could actually throw it. Then taking the mechanics of actually throwing something vs the flick it makes no sense that the flick actually went further the throw had more motion more distance but the end result wasn't as good. A silly story I know, but this had me thinking that it was probably the kinetic energy from the flick, the forefinger pushing towards the stick or match and at a certain point, when the energy compounded by the thumb giving way drove the match further away than the throw. Now, why am I pondering this, mmm Perhaps if applied to life, no matter how strong your arm is or how fast you can swing it because there was no resistance it didn't help much in throwing it. The much smaller less powerful finger flick due to the resistance did way better. I take this lesson from it, when you are facing resistance, learning something staying up late going the extra mile, or merely facing some adversity which could be judged as resistance. Keep pushing. at some point, the resistance will give way and you will be further towards your endeavor than by not facing the resistance! Perhaps we then it would be advantageous to seek resistance do what is hard and difficult for it will yield a better result. Just something I thought would add a little light on a Wednesday. #weirdwednesday #somethoughts #facetheresistance #keeppushing #growbydoing #learn #move #more #faster #youmaketheday #mindmatters #allinyou #trainyourmind #thisday #lightuptheweek #montreal #pei #saskatoon #toronto #calgary #love #magic #wonder https://www.instagram.com/p/CRmoS_2DQWL/?utm_medium=tumblr

#weirdwednesday #somethoughts #facetheresistance #keeppushing #growbydoing #learn #move #more #faster #youmaketheday #mindmatters #allinyou #trainyourmind #thisday #lightuptheweek #montreal #pei #saskatoon #toronto #calgary #love #magic #wonder

[geauxmeaux20-blog]

Still Not There Yet

A big ole No Height on my first official professional meet:( What a bust! I built this meet up so much in my mind with the nice facilities, the meet being on TV, being invited, all the fans there. When we arrived my heart kind of sunk. It was one of the crappiest set ups I've ever seen. It was a skinny raised runway and it was not level. I went ahead and started to warm up. I'm not going to lie it was HOT, but as the day went on, it did get a little better. I started warming up my jumps and I could tell right off the bat warmups were going to be a struggle. It took me a couple of run throughs but I started to figure it out from the short runs. I had to back up 2 1/2 feet! I've never had to do that ever ever! I'm very mental about my run. If it does not feel right I will not jump. That's my main downfall, especially right now as I transition to the pro world. I was not always this way. It was after my eye surgery, I rushed back to compete to soon, and I created and started doing some bad habits. This year has been my best year by far, but I can still tell I have a lot of doubt when it comes to the vault. I have come so far but I'm not even close to where I should or need to be. Anyways I moved back to my long run and ran through six times!! I have not ran through that many times in a very long time. It brought back a lot of old fears. Today was the first time in a long time I was scared to pole-vault. On my last run through I was finally really close to feeling like I could jump but I still needed to back up 6 inches. When I went to take one more attempt, they had shut the runway down to get ready to start competition. So I literally took zero attempts in warmups on my longer run. While we were warming up they had the javelin warming up as well. It was pretty crazy, they would have to stop the pole vault to let the javelin group throw their javelin over the pole vault runway. Then they would have to stop the javelin to let us warm up and compete. It was wild. Competition came around and even though I didn't take one up in warmup, my last run felt a lot better and I knew that I'd be okay to at least take one up on first attempt. Sure enough I took it up but again was 6in under. I wasn't able to swing up but at least I finally took one up. I felt a little better and was ready for my second attempt. I went for my second attempt, which finally the run felt really good, but I didn't quite move through the pole and get off fast enough. I had a lot of height, but I blew through the bar just enough to knock it down. I really thought I had that attempt, but not quite. This gave me hope for my third attempt. Then third attempt came around we decided to back up 4in and bring my grip down one hand. I tried not to run quite as hard but I still killed the pole and the bar came down:( I thought this competition was supposed to be fun and I really had no height expectations going in. I just wanted to jump and enjoy my first pro meet. But I felt that stupid horrible feeling again and when I walked off the pit I immediately started to cry. I was not the only no height, two other girls no heighted as well. The worst part is I came in at 4.20m! I have not came in that low since nationals! I know I was struggling in warmups, but I never expected to no height. I was actually getting into a rhythm during the competition, and had my next pole in mind that I was going to jump the next bar on. To make matters worse I could of won a little money just for making opening height. But because I cleared no height, I do not win any money. I was so embarrassed and just did not expect what just happened. Only two girls made heights, and then I found out Sandi broke the American Record! At this crappy place that I just struggled and no heighted at. I could not believe it. Which I get it, if I would made opening height we probably would of made a lot of heights, because now that I was in a rhythm I would have been able to move up on my big poles, but because I didn't make that first bar I wasn't able to even try my bigger poles. I saw Sandi struggle a little in warmups, but once she found her rhythm she was good. So I'm not saying because of the crappy place that's why I didn't jump high, I just couldn't find my rhythm in time. I became to mental and over thought everything and I payed the price for it. I have a lot of growing up to do. And this meet was proof that the professional world is not even close to being perfect! I thought the pro world's facilities would be even better than college. College spoiled the crap out of me! I'm not going to lie I'm sick to my stomach right now. I can't believe what just went down. I really want a do over, can I please have one:( I was really counting on this meet to move on from trials and show I'm good enough to compete as a pro, but it's pretty obvious I'm not. I just hope I can get into some European competitions. I think going to Europe and competing will help me grow and adapt and learn how to be a pro vaulter. I want to do this so bad! Sometimes I think I want it to bad and I over expect my abilities. I did receive a little bit of bad news on Friday. My jump knee has been bothering me for about 3 weeks now and the guy I'm seeing for therapy thinks it's my PCL and I need to get an MRI. So next week I will be getting an MRI. So if you are reading this pretty please say a little prayer. I don't think it's that bad, but we just want to be safe. I'm not saying that was my issue today either. Today I just got to much in my head and I was my own worst enemy. Next week I'm going to go ahead and take the whole week off from jumping, running and lifting, and focus more on core and gymnastic work as recovery. Also so I can hopefully heal this knee pain of mine. I actually think I may have rushed into this pro world a little to soon. I think I may should have taken the week after trials completely off and recovered then. Trials was such a huge let down, I probably mentally needed the break. But you live and learn. My heart is hurting right now, but I know I'll be fine soon enough. It just sucks loving something so much when it makes me so miserable. Im ready so much for it to be my time to rise and to stay on top. I'm tired of being at the bottom. Patience would not be a virtue if it was easy though. I have a long road ahead of me and I will not let this one meet define me. Like I said I have a lot of growing to do. I need to work on my mental toughness and trust in myself that I know what I'm doing. I also need to start expecting the unexpected. I will say I did get the trip paid for. We didn't lose money. The American Track League put us up in a really nice hotel in downtown Houston. Just because I am angry about my performance, does not mean I am not thankful. The anger will pass. This blog is for me to get the negativity and feelings out and to move on. One day I will appreciate this meet and laugh at the way I felt. But I just have to be patient and keep on grinding. My time will come. Until then I have a lot of work ahead of me not only physically but mentally as well. Still I'm so thankful for the opportunity, my health, and my wonderful support group. I really do have some amazing people in my life. And even though my life is no where near perfect, I would not trade it for the world!

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