#having a boss is still so weird for me

[doubledyke]

it doesn't really make sense in the logic (lol) of the show but part of me loves the idea that edd is being raised by his grandparents.... kids who are raised by grandparents tend to be overly mature and a little uhhhhh off-beat. i feel like it could explain a lot.

#before you ask yes this is me projecting #i know some folks hc his parents as being a bit long in the tooth which i like too #but idk i just think it would explain so many things about edd to learn that he was in fact raised by senior citizens #and shit i still call my grandma 'mom' so to me its not weird at all that he'd call his grandparents 'mother and father' #everything else about them stays the same though #theyre still aloof and neglectful #and i still think the worst of them #anyway i love projecting my trauma onto edd specifically for some reason #he's such an easy target for angst i can't help it #oh and speaking of angst #for anyone who saw that post a while back and is interested in an update on my whole bastard landlord/roommate kicking me out situation: #i found a room and will be moving in 2 weeks 🥴 kill all landlords etc etc but hey at least i'll have my own bathroom #and won't be living with the final boss of millennials/reddit incarnate #unfortunately for you guys though that means i should be able to indulge in my tomfoolery again soon (shit posting and shit drawing) #even though it seems like our tiny fandom has gotten even smaller recently #alright i'll shut up now biiiiii

[needylittlegirl]

im having so much fun !

#this is a lie everythings going bad suddenly #my sister wants to move cause everything being going downhill since our landlord changed #and i Hate moving i moved a lot as a kid so it just makes me feel awful now even though its for the best #and at work my bosses boss just got replaced and theyre talking about moving us around #like i’ll have to work at a different pharmacy #and my cats acting weird again and im still waiting for his vet appointment #and im nervous that whatever it is i wont be able to afford #and i dont want him to be in pain and i know hes uncomfortable right now #thats just too many things out of my control i feel like a stupid helpless kid i just want it all to be fine #tbd

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

i've been thinking about how weird it is that sometimes your favorite pairings go exactly how you expect them to go and sometimes they just don't at all. specifically, in the context of crowley/aziraphale and ted/rebecca. i feel like in both cases, i was really paying attention to the details and nuances and seeming symbolism around the relationship for years. and in season two of good omens, the text itself seemed to absolutely completely vibe with everything we'd noticed as a fandom about season one, and make a logical progression from there that was really in line with what felt true about the pairing in s1. like, you could really tell the show was also extremely aware of all the small moments that the fandom had picked up on. whereas in season three of ted lasso, obviously, the show wound up just not seeming very interested at all in all the stuff i'd thought was an argument being made for why ted and rebecca belonged together. (in earlier seasons, but also even within season three!!! green matchbook what????) i pick out these two examples because, well, they just happened on my tv in front of my face recently, and because i think both had a lot of symbolism and a lot of underlying 'see, THIS is why they're meant to be together!' details. but the payoff could not have been more different!

it's just so weird how sometimes it goes exactly like you expected, like it's proven that you were in fact vibing exactly right with the text, and other times it's just like, "nope, mate, YOU'RE WRONG."

#another example of this where i think it really paid off was grace and frankie #i'm still not over the nick of the show having the exact same fate as the infinite nicks in fanfictions #idk it's just so odd how sometimes it happens and sometimes they're like NOPE! SUCKERRRRRRR! #i still maintain that they had to abandon a lot of subtext in a weird way with ted/rebecca #dollsome's deep thoughts #ted x rebecca #good omens spoilers #good omens #the weirdest thing to me about ted/rebecca still is that they just abandoned biscuits with the boss. #having no last acknowledgment of biscuits with the boss will forever be weird as hell to me #but i guess that also ties into how i thought BWTB was very significant in terms of them being an ideal romantic fit #and they weren't i guess! so!!!!!!! might as well throw it aside!!!!!!! #i'm still very confused about almost everything that happened in season three of television program ted lasso

[prolibytherium]

Not to overshare online but just got like randomly assaulted while on a walk and now it's just like. Umm... so that just happened!!!! XDDD

#Maybe a weird post to make but my friends will freak the fuck out which I cant handle rn and I need to talk to SOME uncaring void #honestly nothing super serious but just enough for it to ruin my life for a little while #Pretty sure it was a hate crime too bc so thats great #AND i have to go to work now though if I'm still fucked up and willing to undergo the humiliation my boss might let me go home if I tell LO

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#man i was like y tf am i so tried i didnt do shit today but no i got like 5hrs sleep. walked to the store in thr 12F weather. carried back #all my groceries. walked to the police station to get keys to the autoclave. read 40 slides abt anime. started redoing a tutorial #and spent 45 min on the phone giving my intake info for a new therapist. everytime i give the spiel it gets more exhausting #it feels so dramatic like whatever ill b fine but no im seeking help for a reason bleh #but now im tired and worried abt the semester bc itll b a lot. many plates to juggle with a fragile mind #my old boss was like u have an ambitious plan for the semester and im like oh boy well see how this goes #hopefully itll b fine once i get in the groove. just go one step at a time #currently i just wanna redraw 4lways sunny screenshots but idk what ones to draw #but should sleep. i gotta write a long email tomorrow morning for a class intro bc look at me im a professional who def #does not have underlying emotional problems. ugh. idk if i described my mood stuff right to the lady on the phone but like i got diagnosed #as b1polar for a reason idk i just still feel like its fake. like ill look at the checklists and get mad when i get a positive result #which is weird bc its like. u went to 3 doctors and they said the same thing shut up. ugh whatever. i need to sleepy #unrelated

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 22

"Too Sweet" by Hozier

#song of the day #new Hozier songs!! absolutely adore this one. listen to that bass line!! #and as much as I also take my bed at three--or later. since it's after six now. whoops--the chorus isn't my very favorite part #'I aim low / I aim true and the ground's where I go #I work late where I'm free from the phone / and the job gets done / but you worry some I know' #love the build there #I still haven't had the bad talk with my boss. she had to have another meeting with another person disappointing her and mine got delayed #hooray? gonna cause more problems later but it got me a reprieve for now so hooray I guess! #it's raining now and it'll be freezing later so I haven't gotten out to the garden yet either #it looks like the weather will be better for it on Monday which is also when my meeting got rescheduled for #so I'll get to garden as my reward for being a big girl and doing my job even when it suuuucks #also tentative plans to play Stardew with my siblings this weekend!! very excited to see the updates #I want one of those blue farms so bad #and then /next/ week we'll go around to the pet stores and scout the stuff for Duncan's frog tank #we got the filter matting that's going to make up the lowest layer of 'land' in his paludarium today and it's neat-weird squishy

[whalesfall]

thinking Weirdly about that time an ex friend was telling me about how she shittalked me with one of HER ex friends about how I was pretentious and how like, deeply alien to me that was. like I refuse to talk down to people (or try very hard not to) and I have difficulty Distilling shit into shorter sentences because I hate reducing ideas or not being totally clear, which isn’t for everyone but. pretentious?

#and then she said that their friendship had fallen apart and this was probably the moment I should’ve RECANTED my 15th second chance #but the pretentious accusation is so funny. no idea why I’m thinking about it right now but it’s so funny #like I’m sorry I guess. I don’t talk to people like they’re stupid. #will do that next time boss 🫡 #I don’t know… being pretentious is so ew. I then sat and listened to two hours of ‘what I would do if I met the queen of england’ like what #what was I doing!!! this was embarrassing for us both. #I hate the ‘I AM pretentious’ culture though so it was really bothersome at the time #The life I lead is Not dark academia core I can only assume I hit some insecurity nerves and move on #now I have zero patience for cloying attempts at praise in the form of ‘are you sure I’m smart enough to talk to you 🥺’ so #maybe this was weird for everyone involved. #I am surrounded by some really smart people and I’m only grateful for it! #sometimes the conversation isn’t for me or it’s above my understanding but it’s still fine? #🍂.txt

[justalittlebluetiefling]

I’m keeping my same exact job but switching to a new organization within my company, because after 6 years it was decided that’s where my role should live. So I’ll have a new boss and coworkers starting in March. But my same exact job. 

BUT I just talked to my boss who won’t be my boss anymore and she negotiated a raise for me “as a parting gift”. I’m like really emotional over this.

#personal #my boss is INTENSE #like i can work for her because i know how to deal with her #and i knew how to deal with her before she was my boss so her intensity wasn't a shock #but it didn't expect this from her it caught me by surprise #and is very sweet of her #she's like 'of course i'm giving you a raise before you move out of my department i still have control and you deserve it' #she's been my boss for like... almost 5 years though #this will be very weird

[stonerzelda]

ah fuq i did not factor in canadian prices for that. Special edition arzette collection uhm. So much for the idea of quitting my job soon to look for others again lol

#i shouldve known like when the price came up being. like way more affordable lol i was like um sick #but theb i saw the actual transaction number in my bank account and uhhhhhhh i mean itssss. not Devestating but. i would not have done it 🧍 #and yeah im basically getting really sick and tired of the bullshit of working at this place like i keep trying to just press on #cuz it was NOTTTTT EASY finding a job AT all not even a LITTLE bit for the LONGEST time #but its literally so fckin uncomfortable when your coworkers dont like you and your boss is a bit of a dick lol! #like i get in shit for Every Single Tiny Little thing i ever do wrong #and i still have an assload of other training to eventually learn but they 'dont trust me' to teach me yet #its just weird and im over it but at the same time i cant just quit cuz 'um i dont like it <3' #i need income very very very very very Badly. like VERY badly especially now #its just so fucking stupiddddd im tired of feeling like an idiot and like NOBODY wants me there man

[jlf23tumble]

I'm really trying to understand. I know Joshua does take good pics but some of his pics are awful and they still get so much praise. I'm seeing comments "I know the pic is blurry but it fits Louis' tour aesthetics". Seriously? Is that the excuse now? "This pic looks like shit but it fits Louis' tour aesthetics". Since that pic Harry posted on IG that was super super blurry, which I think he was trying to make a point with. That fans don't control him. I thought Lloyd's pics have got better since. They show more of the audience. I really like his recent pics that show Harry and the audience. They give a vintage postcard kind of feel. Old school. But he's still being trashed as ever. Sometimes I'll see a pic and think... that's not that bad so surely they won't be trashing that. But they will be, always are. He can't do any right. But Joshua can't do any wrong. I think it could be partly because Joshua talks to the fans on twitter. So they feel 'closer' to him. They're still incredibly bitter about the iHeart? tour photography award going to Lloyd, while also saying that it means nothing. If it means nothing then why still so bitter? Why the desperate push to vote for Joshua? They say that Lloyd only won the award because of Harries. Well yes. If Joshua won the award it would be because of Louies and Larries. That's how fan voted awards go. If anyone does like Lloyd's pics they get insulted for having bad taste. They really despise Lloyd and they just don't stop complaining about him. Why is it always like this? That everyone Harry works with is hated by the fandom and everyone Louis works with is loved?

I'm sitting here, nodding my head as I read this like a goddamned kitsch toy dog on the dashboard of someone's bitchin' Camaro because yeah, YEAH. I have some thoughts about it that I'm sure I'm not all that articulate about, so I'll take it to the tags and let your ask just shine up here, uninterrupted yet fully appreciated

#a lot of my thoughts go on pure vibes and gut instinct vs. proof #so take it with a grain of salt #but there's SUCH a weirdness in the fandom reaction to harry's photographers vs. louis's when louis's admit they love and emulate harry's! #and i don't know if it's larries exclusively or if it's beyond that #with helene it was fucked up STRAIGHT UP misogyny from the larrie camp #super telling on so many levels and even more so because her pictures absolutely mirror his (see: his super artsy ig posts) #and the stuff she does professionally is so varied that it's even MORE telling when said people tried to say she was a shitty photographer #she's not--not even a little--and she outright said he picked the shots that she took that he loved the most and chose them to post #and that's true for both anthony and lloyd by the way: harry is looking for a certain aesthetic and they are providing it #and he is both paying them and selecting the pictures he likes best to share #if he thought they were awful--he'd fire 'em (just like he has with actual people in his band lol i kid) #i've long wondered if he is just so sick of the slick perfect idealized shots of himself that fans create and manipulate #shots that echo the manmade boybandness of it all #and he has his own eye for what he finds beautiful or interesting and it just merges in what he wants to represent himself #it's so FASCINATING it's multilayered and yet you STILL have these dumdums out there bitching about how much they hate lloyd #as if it's HIS fault his boss is pushing for a specific type of aesthetic--if you hate it take it up with his boss #and if you 'don't understand it' take it up with his boss #the fandom urge for this squeaky clean perfect image that absolutely matches simon cowell's for the same is mighty funny in a real venn way #me? i cannot fathom why you wouldn't want to see what a celeb is actually choosing to use to represent themselves #ESPECIALLY when it's not pretty-pret #and then to turn around and blow some smoke up the ass of someone who is doing the thing you HATE SO MUCH with your other fave #yet you have special stupid baby tags for it when it's someone else? #i don't think it's any subconcious hatred of louis or anything when it's from the biggies repping larr nation #but it's mighty curious when you have at least two photographers from louis's camp #doing the EXACT same thing as harry's photographers #and at least one of them citing at least one of his as an icon to emulate #yet....silence #and even worse this weirdo urge to push some kind of larrie interaction on joshua and lloyd #the fan-voted thing was extra funny to me on so many levels my god #i'll shut up now i've officially entered old man yells at cloud territory

[therealvalkyrie]

bath + asparagus time

#I did some cleaning and my day’s gotten slightly better #long story short I’ve had a fucking weekend lmfao #last Thursday I had a complete breakdown on my way home prompted by like the smallest comment u could think of #nevertheless it made me sob violently #like picture florence pugh in midsommar but more hysterical #on Friday I had a good day!! but it was fuckin busy man and I didn’t get around to #half of the stuff I needed to #Saturday was also busy and on the way home from work my car started SMOKING!!!! from under the hood #nothing was on fire but it freaked me the fuck out and I couldn’t get it to the mechanic until today so I had to find rides everywhere #and that was stressful #I only got like 3 or 4 hours of sleep Saturday night bc I had a (fun!!!) thing that went really late and then had to get up at 5 for work #on Sunday #so Sunday afternoon I got home and napped from 2-6pm and then just went to bed at 8 so I STILL didn’t get any shit done #and then this morning I opened again and I spent my sh #ift w people who are even newer at my job than I am so I was like training them/doing everything they couldn’t do yet and it was just #a weird day and my boss was acting weird and I didn’t like it at all #and then this afternoon I take my car to the mechanic FINALLY and he says the radiator’s busted and leaking coolant everywhere and also #one of the tires is fucked so we have to get them all replaced #and that’s gonna be several hundred dollars which is fine it’s all fine but I’m fucking tired #and when I got home there were still dishes to do😭😭😭 #I need someone to baby me and clean my house #gawd #valkyrie talks

[gibbearish]

like theres not a lot of games im REALLY good at so when there are ones i latch on super hard. and boy have i latched on to this one

#and i think part of it is that im on console and therefore kinda at an automatic disadvantage? #like no matter what you do you still will never have as many buttons or the quick cursor movement as pc #so you have to make do with way less hotkeys and either just Way Less Weapon Options or brute force your way through them #like most ranged weapons are Ass on console aiming them is so frustrating because you cant just Put Cursor On Enemy And Track It #and grappling is so much harder too #like i have played a lot on pc too so this isnt just me going 'woe is me this must be harder' like it is So Much Harder #i had to kinda build my own key mapping from the ground up bc the defaults werent intuitive at all #except jump‚ you dont feel like having jump on a trigger makes sense and then you set it to b or a and then the next time you want to jump #while shooting youre like Ah. Its So I Dont Have To Let Go Of The Aiming Stick To Jump. and switch it back in shame #but ! all of that combined. console is so much harder. so i think my brain was like 'alright well in that case #fuck you im gonna get good at it anyways' and now we're here #also i didnt realize until recently that most people play it multiplayer??? #like i looked up something i cant remember what but it was like 'if you like most others play in multiplayer-' and im like #Wait Huh. #and it said something about the bosses kind of being more scaled for multiple players and that #single player makes it harder again #so im just like. clawing my way through mud and barbed wire for fun #its funny too cause i remember the controls thing almost made me drop it again but then one day i was like #yeah they are weird as fuck controls and complicated as hell but i bet if i did it long enough i could force myself #to learn it well enough to make it instinct #and sure enough !! like the grapple button when i first set it to b it was sooo hard to use at all #forget shit like grapple dashing or grapple dodging i could barely aim it while walking #and then i realized i had to just. only use the grapple when i could be pointing the movement stick the way i needed #so i couldnt use it as often or as versatilely as pc but i can still use it to some degree #adapt achieve overcome etc i fucking love vibeo game #sorry if this is bragging or weird im just very proud of the amount of skill in this game ive built up so quick #its my one (1) thing right now #my other ones are binding of isaac (not dead god but still p fuckin good tbh *tucks hair behind ear) #splatoon (2&3 specifically salmon run) #but those ones arent really active right now

[swampghouls]

also had the weirdest experience at work today.

#i was in the back doin my pull n i hear over the headset one of my baristas tell me that some guy needed to see my store key for the locks?? #n i just was like. HUH. UH. NO????? #so i went out there n was like. what are you here for????? to this random bald man n hes like oh im a DM we were looking at the locks #n i need to see your key to see what brand of lock it is and i was like. UM. no?? Who Even are you again????? #n this man is like oh i dont have my business card there in my car n im even MORESO LIKE. OKAY. UM. NO I CANT DO THIS?? #this random bald man pulls out his DRIVERS LICENSCE n is like look my name is ____ im a district manager #i just look at him n go. okay. i hear you. im still gonna call my store manager bc this is sus as hell. im not gonna give you #my STORE KEY random bald man #WHEN MY SM PICKS UP SHES LIKE. WAIT. WHAT? WHO? n im getting more and more sussed out liks boss lady im gonna need u to come here if fhis #man isnt whp he says he is n also get OUR district manager out here #but she jus goes. okay. hold on. let me call __ (our district manager) n this random bald man is like. oh look! here! shes (dm) is calling #he talks to her n hands me his phone n it IS my DM n im like. i can show him my store key?? okay.... shes just like yeah. hes legit hes real #just a pain in the ass n im just like okay sorry bc it probably wasnt supposed to be a whole ordeal for him but iM LIKE. MAN. YOU JUST ASK #FOR THW SSV N THEN ASK SAID SSV FOR THEIR STORE KEY LIKE. but hes like. dont worry! dont be sorry you did everything right lol it was a very #weird thing to ask for. n like. YEAH thanks random bald man were om the same page! he did end up giving me his business card lol #but yeah. that was. so weird. n i just was like. 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️ #my sm called me afterwards n was like. you talked to dm? whatd she say? n i go. just that hes a real person lol idk smtg abt the locks #shut up danny ur dumb

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#srry for the continued pause in scribbles ive been feeling not very good at all #idk something just broke in my brain after our last sampling trip idk y bc it wasnt that bad but when i got back #it was just a couple days of my brain being real crazy in terms of thought patterns. it still kinda continues to b like that #but idk i haven't had a session of hysterical crying today so maybe im on the mend. its weird i haven't felt this bad in a really long time #i dont even have the energy to complain about it its just no joy. burned streight thru that. bruned streight thru my desire to draw #i mean i still draw every day but its like shitty i dont have time scribbes bc idk it all feels so fucking pointless. and im terrible at #hiding how i feel abt things so my boss is like: maybe u should take a break this weekend i dont want u to burnout. like. lady we crossed #that bridge way back in March. u r speaking to a ghost. i just. i dont kno if i can stay here until like next july at least if not longer #and it sucks bc i kno someday ill look back and this time in my life will make me real sad bc im laying here choosing to make myself #miserable and i somwhere halfway across the country my mum has tumors growing in her abdomen. and i cant go home for Thanksgiving and idk #how long ill get at Christmas. not bc anyone is telling me i have to stay. my brain just wont let me do things. i just lay here in my #increasingly chaotic apartment not taking the steps to get refunded for travel expenses worrying over deadlines and agonizing over social #interactions. worrying about all the things my brain wont let me do that need to be done and not taking the steps to get better #its stupid and annoying and i know its only going to get worse when i have to start taking measurements in the lab #ive at least been practicing a lot of german tho lmao. someday ill look back like: lol remember when u got super depressed and filled the #void with learning german? literally today my dyslexic read the word albeit as aber and it was v disorienting #idk its just fun and i feel like im at least being productive. so yea idk when ill b able to post scribbles again #but i thought id at least post something while i had the energy i accumulated by taking with a happy Canadian lab group #maybe ill join them in a year idk idk decisions decisions and so many applications the cost of which is trying to dissuade me from #getting a tatt0o :-P ay ay ay live a little! pls i beg u. but no prob not. against the rules #unrelated

[octal-alchemist]

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#going to bed in a min but want to ramble #i signed up for extra shifts and partial shifts next week like a dummy:) #so im expecting at least 53hrs #and i just found out i have paid sick days?? what?? and theyll expire in august #i have 48hrs of paid sick leave. but i cant get overtime pay on a week i use sick leave + i dont wanna do that to coworkers #i had just been going unpaid on the 3 days ive called in sick in the last 9 months oops #but now im so torn. if i was gonna call in sick for fun i would want to do it on thursdays Fridays but. those r the days i picked up #double shifts for. bc my shift is fully staffed those days but the previous shift is understaffed #and i know my boss wants me to just switch shifts for thpse days but i dont wanna ruin my sleep like that!! #hhhhhhhh #like i could do something like only working the partial early shift... feels mean tho #mb i will take days off on purpose and i can use paid sick days not pto? idk #i still have 65hrs pto and i dont know if that will also reset or something but it better not #working is so weird!!!!! i was unemployed so long im so confused by everything #i just wanna be independent and feel secure but its all confusing

[cantquitu]

Little Miss and Squirt are proud of you.

AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!! <3

#went into my usual hyper mode to finish up today and am currently on my 12th hour straight at my desk #but i am about to finish up #feels weird #the world hasn't fallen in #my boss told me lots of nice things and although i know she's terrified that i won't come back it was still nice to hear it #and i'm writing that here so i will remember it when i have to go back to work and my brain tells me lots of terrible untrue things #to frighten me #ok i'm gonna make some spaghetti #i was supposed to be at a big work party tonight but there's a storm and it is LASHING so it's for the best