#hhh.

[scuddle-bubble101]

It's all good! Oh, no! I hope the hurting goes away soon Serif. D:

Glad to hear that you've been enjoying yourself and it's my pleasure to. ❤️

I hope so too!! Thankfully, it ain't all that bad yet... Just minor cramps but, like... I know it will be. I indeed have been enjoying myself! Still gotta bustle out some comic stuff when I am able. Story stuff you know, gotta get it outta the way. Justtttt, owwwwie rn.

#serif talks #@rainbowut #hhh.

[milkweedman]

ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.

months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.

#im kind of impressed that i can at this point carry a normal conversation (as good as i ever can. which is bad but irrelevant) #while being in agony and having been in agony for as long as i can remember #usually also with something dislocated just for some extra fun #because what i actually feel like doing 100% of the time is lighting myself on fire and/or screaming forever until i die #however thats the kind of shit that puts you in the psych ward again #so i am. smiling and making small talk while migraine auras wash out my vision and i try not to visibly dry heave #its really really really fucking bad. all the time so fucking bad. #i need to message my neurologist but likelihood of me doing that is low #because 1) the stuff she's put me on has so far done nothing but add intolerable side effects to the hell that i am already existing in #and 2) its fucking hard to do anything. even the bare minimum im not doing. so extra shit is just. not happening #i want to scream. #i am gonna. go for a walk and smoke a cigarette instead and then get really high because at least then i dont really care #the auras are making it really hard to see though. theyre like bleach all over my vision. just this wash of white #hhh. #chronic illness #chronic migraine #and its like. when my knee also gives out and it feels like theres metal in there slicing everything up with each tiny movement #or any of the other one million goddamn things broken in my body #i end up so overwhelmed by pain that i just want to lay on the floor and cry #at which point everyone around me gets mad that im not being productive and im costing them money and im not good enough #like ok kill me then. cheaper for you happier for me. just get a heavy object and go to town i would thank you for it #but i cant even say that because openly expressing suicidality just makes people angrier #im rapidly running out of fucks to give but also i will do anything to avoid returning to the psych ward #literally anything. morals out the window. i dont give a shit. #so its a catch-22. #vent

[shoezuki]

u should get back into hsr.... penacony is peak. also sampo appears

G o d ur so right. Fuck. Ive done penacony up to finding robin dead n thatsit i havent even done black swans companion quest even tho i Know sampos in it. I gotta play it

#hhh. #and i know fuckall bout aventurine too nflsbdksdvd

[silvercaptain24]

Growing up is weird

#silver rambles #vent #that post about the ‘how you knew someone else came from money’ is just. sticking with me #mostly cause as a kid I didn’t realize how bad off we were #like. I didn’t realize we got groceries from the food bank run by the church my dad worked at until I was a teen #it just. affected me subtly I guess #being worried about a $2 difference in shoes when I needed new ones because I liked the more expensive ones #and my mom having to convince me that it was fine #it still sticks with me #it’s really hard sometimes to not think about cost if my dad and I go get lunch or something #I’ve never been to another country #meanwhile my friends would go to Rome and Sweden and India and Greece and Mexico for their 12 year old trips #I stayed in the same state for the one with my mom and only went a state over for the one with my dad #but like #yeah. I always sorta knew #I just. couldn’t have told you that I knew #all the little things you didn’t know growing up #I didn’t know about the groceries thing until yeah. I was…16-17 I think #and now we’re much better off and I have my own job (technically two) but like… #hhh. #why is my brain fixating on this? idk #sorry #needed the thoughts out

[fleaearred]

species dysphoria go wild (I’m in class and all I can do is know that I am wrong. My spine isn’t right and my ears are almost there just almost and I can feel the fluff on my jaw but it’s not there.)

#woof woof #hhh.

[fluentisonus]

I'm once again consumed with gender envy for whatever is going on with the pogues' recording of I'm a man you don't meet every day

#hhh. #thoughts

[fawnarchive]

ARRRGH IM SUDDENLY SLEEPY. pain. agony. i want to do things but my eyes are heavy

#fawn.txt #HHH.

[lovers-kryptonite]

Me: hm I really need to stay awake and finish what I’m working on

Also me, glancing at my phone and finding a really cute sleepy picture of ❄️: oh but if I don’t go lay down who’s gonna cuddle him,,,,

#hhh. #he got me. he got me good. #crush: ❄️

[sonofsin]

technically speaking. I may have been. sort of physically abused by my parents. not like... hit beaten or anything that I can remember, but grabbed and intimidated and cornered and maybe slapped once or twice if I was really out of line

#abuse tw #hhh. #it's not a good time in here tonight

[sparkmender]

“Children! Children. Small but very important reminder, put our listening audials online, please! Do not mix the charcoal, activated or otherwise, with energon, no matter how festive or traditional you want to be for the Feast of Mortilus and related celebrations! You will combust and then die! The combusting and dying is why it is traditional!

Human children! Also please do not eat the charcoal! You will probably not combust, but you will end up purging your medications!”

#!|rungposting #HHH. #I SEE CHARCOAL SHIT ON MY DASH AGAIN. #STOP THAT. #ONLY USE IT FOR DRAWING

[scattered-winter]

I'm thinking abt that zuko fic idea I had forever ago and now I want to write something with it........ <- guy swamped with finals

#hhh. #im thinking abt the ocs i made for that story......ough...... #head full......when it shouldnt be........help......... #winter speaks

[tomezatos]

I want shigeo to win the autism poll not only because he deserves it but because of the sheer amount of unprompted racists assuming that him being from an anime means that he must be a bad character or ableist or only liked by weeaboos or. Something

#idk imb so tired. stop spouting your us american exceptionalism so boldly love and light xoxo #hhh. #mine

[autumnalfallingleaves]

Nothing like having dreams of your blorbos in neat clothing that inspire you to actually draw the blorbos in the neat clothing to beat artblock!

#had a dream that involved one of my favorite characters in a cool dress and now im actually drawing the character in the dress #its a very nice dress. I would wear it. #also been able to actually finish the sketch and move onto lining which I havent been able to do in a bit #it feels good to be able to do art again #ive been so fucking tired lately that its been hard to set up my drawing stuff and move from sketches and concepts to lining #hhh. #beans rambles

[gigolohifumi]

NEVERMIND THE BITCHES CAR IS GOING OFF STILL

#💝.txt #HHH.

[peepsburt]

FHSJF HHHH GUYS I MISS MY BOYFRIEND,,,,,

#literally JUST called him last night but. i want 2 talk 2 him again. #its literally sooo fucked up that hes in texas rn like what the HELL #like come back babe i miss u.... #i MISS him.. and his pretty face... and his slutty little waist... #hhh. #boyfriend posting

[carfuckerlynch]

hips hurt and i’m. :(

#hhh. #odhran.txt