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chaoticaptendyte · 1 year

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Get to know me :3

Was tagged by @grippysockgang :3

1. Are you named after anyone?

Apparently after a sri-lankan first lady

2. When was the last time you cried?

Uhhh well yesterday afternoon i had a terrible bout of acidity after lunch and everything hurt so bad that tears came to my eyes, does that count?

3. Do you have kids?

Nope, i mean i am only 20. But i want to one day, two kids, I'd love if they're twins too

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Uhhhh not really no, i use it to the normal extent ig

5. What is the first thing you notice about a person?

Hm, damn i people watch on the train everyday and yet i cannot for the life of me tell u this. I suppose the way they're dressed? And then their hands maybe 👀

6. What is your eye color?

Dark chocolatey pools for you to drown in :)

7. Scary movie or happy ending?

I am actually scared of horror so no, not scary movies EVER unless i have someone to cuddle into and can hide my face in their chest okie. Once my friends forced me to watch conjuring, i spent a month thinking my mom's possessed. Happy movies ftw. Forever.

8. Any special talents?

Hmmmmmm, idk lemme see. I think I'm kinda a decent photographer. I can cook well, don't do it often cause college and I'm kinda lazy and my mom does it for us anyway but yea. Oooohhh, I'm the official taster in our family. Anytime anyone is cooking anything and they need to know if the balance is right or something they come to me :3 which is pretty cool, i guess that counts as special.

9. Where were you born?

In an operation room ✌🏻. I was a C baby. Refused to grow any further so they had to pull me out.

10. What are your hobbies?

Um well it's been a while since I've done some of them tbh butttt- cooking, painting(watercolours), writing poems and fanfic and stuff, origami?, stargazing on my roof, doodling(which i do all the time actually), uhm watching shows and listening to music if it counts? There's prolly others too, just can't think of it rn. Ooh reading too, but it's been a while.

11. Do you have any pets?

Nope🥲, I've always wanted a dog though, a little shih tzu or fox terrier. And somehow my feed everywhere is always full of cats. I used to have goldfish but they kinda died extremely brutal deaths 💀💀💀 they kinda got sucked into the water filter cause the suction was too strong and got kinda uh shredded and another time one of the fish kima uhhh ate all the others 💀💀💀 so haven't got anything after that

12. What sports do you/have you played?

Rn i don't play anything, but i used to play pretty much all of em in school- badminton, tt, basketball, throwball, volleyball, football, cricket. Oh and i played pool once tho idk if it counts. Board games too lol.

13. How tall are you?

5'6 ^w^

14. Favorite subject in school?

Science :3 especially physics and biology. But i also loved English just as much tbhhh. Had a phase where i was super into history and geography too and also in like the fifth grade and twelfth i was super into math, like the satisfactionnnn of solving a problem is just *mwa*

Basically I've liked everything at some point

15. Dream job!

Honestly, not having one. That's my dream. I just wanna live in a nice little cottagecore world and bake pjes and cookies and just take care of the house and chill in the farm and look out at the world everyday and be content. If i could I'd love in the 'Anne with an E' world. Or in the hundered acre woods in a treehouse with Christopher Robin <3

This was funn, @astr0-j4y @gamerboyafterdark @alt3r-ego wanna join in?

#me #mine

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lapeaudelamemoire · 2 months

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Had a dream about Tra last night. It was a good dream. A nice dream. In it we just laid in the same bed curled up by ourselves but facing each other and slept, hung out in a room that was his again and spent some time. In the dream he smoked and I shared some cigarettes or had some too - but they were rollies, not the tailors he used to smoke.

He looked the way he looked when I knew him then, nearly a decade ago now; because of course memory stops at the frontier of reality. I'm getting sentimental now probably, but - just as beautiful.

The room was doused and drowsed in purple, violet light, dim and cozy - the kind of colour that Ta-Ku album cover I have tattooed on my thigh is in hue, matching.

And we talked and smoked and then we turned the lights out and I came back into the room and we laid next to each other in bed and just stayed like that.

And I wanted to touch him, and I didn't. And he didn't touch me either, and we just stayed like that, falling asleep.

And really it's that exact photo I put on the cover of that chapbook I never put anywhere except sent to him and never finished, on the tram and it's blurry, he's blurry, his face, and the whole thing is - his face. And it's one of those moments you're just struck by someone's beauty the way you're struck by any kind of beauty, really, like watching a natural phenomenon like the night auroras in the sky. And I don't know why we've got the word lovestruck but not the word beautystruck, because there are those moments in life you're looking at someone - or something, but most inanimate things are less wont to actively move, unless it's something like the sky - and the moment moves, is about to pass, and indeed moves to pass, but in that fraction of a second, it's struck itself into you, your memory, by the moving of you instead.

I guess this is because the other day someone reblogged an old picture of me from when the watercolour tattoo on my inner right arm was still vibrant and fresh - it's faded to nearly not quite being there any more, an echo that's still trailing - and I noticed it; had been noticing recently how much it's faded. And it was that Flume song set to the colour of that sunrise sky on the train out in Horten against which that backdrop of the dates, and really I never realised it before, that I'd done that in tattoo context translated and pinned, or maybe I'd just forgotten by now what I had done with intention then (although I think I would have remembered doing this intentionally. I was too poetic at the time not to have done). But I'd also only realised this again just now, after seeing the zips and flashes of the tattoo next to it, too, and vaguely thinking then that it was to do with a Flume song. (It isn't/wasn't, it's for a Terranova track.)

But I've been thinking and I think that maybe purple is the colour of that lingering sky, in transition and out of reach, but so brilliant and drawing and stunningly visible, and reachable in that single sense, that you may witness it, and be in its presence - what I mean to say is, I think purple, for me, is the colour of all that warm longing, and the beauty of it - having and not possessing. Solnit said that blue is the colour of distance and yearning, and maybe that's true, but for me, I think that warm lavender haze of sunsets when the sky goes brilliant and the flowers bloom in the lavender fields, and the waking up sunrise when the changeover comes, and night turns day or day turns to night, that colour of transition and passing brilliance, but so warm - that that, for me, is where and what I am. In that in-betweenness, where really where we all are, in this life that is fleeting and transitory, and ephemeral.

Like that blurry photo. Or really, all blurry photos then, one might say. (Perhaps that's why husband likes them so much? Without necessary knowing it. Or the way K hated posed pictures; as unnatural, and by that proxy, almost or even unreal.) Some clearer than others, but by nature most encompassed by the blurriness - subject in motion, the moment passing, fleeting and fleeing and faster than you can catch when you reach out your hand to.

And I woke up today and went to seek out Fleetwood Mac's Dreams to listen to in the morning, on my way to work - and I've never sought out a Fleetwood Mac song to listen to of my own accord this far into my life until now - and you could attribute that to the .gif or screenshot set I saw yesterday of Stevie Nicks singing the first verse of the song, which would be true, but you could also maybe also say that all of this converged and formed a confluence all at once leading to the dream; these dreams.

And I'm singing again for the first time in what feels like ages; and I feel like I'm remembering what dreaming feels like, the day backed by the sound of dreams, where I'd stopped listening to music in the day, dreaming in my days. The days so stripped of dreaming that they lay out stark and sharp-lined, 2D; only a list of things to do and the day so itself and nothing else, no dreams - to sell or dream in, just tasks, and reactions, and tiredness, the colouring out, leaking saturation.

But really what I wanted to say is - how nice to think back on someone with love. The purple haze is warm.

#personal #tinged with a yearning #there's a chance he might see this; so i'd hesitated to write about my dream. but we should tell the people we love #that we still think on them fondly #ig #would that we think of the ones we've loved with fondness.#i dont expect it but i hope the people ive loved think of me and the time we spent together fondly too #; as i do #tra

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abby-studies-art · 7 years

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Five Things Tag!

tagged by: @@studyarts , thank you so much!

rules: tag 15 people

5 things you’ll find in my bag:

Headphones so that I can ignore people on the bus

My iPhone to play music to help with the ignoring

Wallet so that I can buy coffee in emergencies or buy stationery

Some Cool Rocks bc I always have amethyst on me for headaches

A million things of lipgloss bc I keep losing them and buying more

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom:

My plants, Jade plant, my succulents

My desk and desk organisers and stationery!

Fairy Lights to set the mood ;)

My guitar on my wall that I haven't played in a month??

A buttload of art and polaroids and stuff on my walls

5 things I’ve always wanted to do:

See the northern lights from Iceland!

Watch The 1975 live in concert (maybe soon!!)

See Starry Night in person, for real!

Go on a road trip with my friends and sleep in the back of a van

Visit a Muji store! I know that sounds crazy but there is literally one in Canada and it is not near me at all...

5 things that make me feel happy:

Journalling

Going out with my friends

Sleeping in and waking up feeling actually rested

Hanging out with little kids

Reading new books

5 things I’m currently into:

Studyblr-ing is the newest obsession/kick I've been on for like a year and I am not bored yet! And it's doing me a lot of good!

I've been reading Marie Kondo’s books on organisation and lifestyle and it's really interesting

M A R B L E A N D R O S E G O L D on everything it's so pretty

Listening to true crime/mystery/horror podcasts!

HONNE! I love their tunes and oh my goodness playing on repeat all day

5 things on my to-do list:

Get another job (second or third, depending)

Finish decluttering my room and packing away my crap for my move

Making my own notebooks for pen/watercolour drawing from scrap paper so I don't have to waste it!

Continue my 31 Day Yoga Challenge and be super fit at the end lol

Sell a few of my big possessions before the move and use the money to pay for school stuff

I will tag @procrastilate (I know I tag you in everything?) @productivityplant @rhubarbstudies @julstudies @getshitdonetbh @lawandcoffee @designstudy @smolgeorgo @hannhstudies @extracademic @starlight-student @meg-is-studying @architstudy @stvdyblogs @yume-studies and anyone who whats to do it! (also no pressure if you don't feel like doing this!)

#about me #tag game #abbystudiesart #my posts #studyblr #studyblr2017network #queue are an artist

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