#i am going to get absolutely BLASTED for this but

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to all my fellow 4th Unenjoyers who curl up in a corner with earbuds/headphones blasting music or videos to drown out the Noise <3 i hope the night passes Quickly for yall <3

#and if you're stuck doing a family thing for it. i am so so sorry #i wish you strength and again: a quick evening #anyway. may your blanket be soft and headphones/earbuds be cozy #get yourself a tasty treat! You Deserve It for dealing w/ this bullshit #absolutely unprompted #it sounds like a fuckin warzone out there ARENT FIREWORKS ILLEGAL HERE??? HM??? APPARENTLY NOT! #one of my cats has evaporated (hiding) and the other one is in the little fort i made for her #i predict that soon i will make the fort Bigger so that i may join her #im blasting music to try and cover up the noise for Both Of Us #every so often i turn around to exchange reassuring slow blinkies #yknow i almost roped myself into a (step)family function. thank fuck i decided not to go lmfao #my ideal 4th is Not hanging out with a bunch of conservatives for a fireworks party #in a state where its Legal to buy/fire your own #that wouldve been Hell on Earth

[sleep-nurse]

I like to do normal things while home alone

VIVA LO ZER0HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOS ENCANTA EL CARNAVAL ROJO

#asks #zer0h #my photo #<-??????T?^?^?^?^ HEJKSDH;GJEHGJKEHKGHGE #this is fucking 9 MB im surprised tumblr didnt shit itself #this looks like im playing it at 3 am with absolutely no light but trust me there is light #tbh my bestie once told me my screen is weird because it does wacky things to the phone camera #anyways i think everyone should do a selfie with red carnival💖 #yeah i have 3 arms problems? #ANYWAYS LETS FUCKING GO LETS ALL GET THIS SONG TO 2000 VIEWS PLSSSSSSSSSSSS #YOURE SO BASED SOCKS I BLAST THIS SONG EVERYDAY

[youareinlove]

📣 IF IT WASN'T INCREDIBLY CLEAR ALREADY SHE HATES HIS GUTS 📣

#i am well aware that this is going to get me absolutely blasted by the fandom police #and i don't really care i am fine with being the bad guy #.txtpost

[dutybcrne]

Thunderings are happening, my brain has funneled off into hcs mode

#//Aka; guess who am I gonna ramble on abt rn lol #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #hc; kaeya #//That's right; babes! #//Anywho; Kae is NOT a fan of thunder #//If it's not tales of the Electro Archon from his father; then it's the circumstances in which they'd parted #//The moment the storm rolled in; he was terrified esp of the sound and ran himself ragged trying to find a place to escape it #//Damn near ran himself off a cliff had a strike of lightning not made him stumble back from it #//Managed to find his way to the winery where he hid for a bit before Tunner found him and Crepus managed to persuade him to stay #//After damn near running the man winded bc he thought he was trying to chase him off or worse #//The fear lingered and festered more the longer he stayed in the Land of the Anemo Archon; out of guilt for 'deceiving' the Ragnvindrs #//For letting him stay there; for not telling them why he was here. Grew up half expecting to get Smote or smth at any time #//Esp whenever Luc dragged him into mischief or he went to the Church with them for whatever reason #//Mostly the former; but bc it was Luc asking him to clown; he didn't mind the 'potential risk' #//Even as a knight; he tended to get extremely skittish and quicker-tempered when it came to patrol during storms. Still does #//Tho at that time; thinly veiling the fact that he very much felt like a cornered animal every time he had to go and couldn't get out of i #//Esp if Luc was the one who asked him to come with; bc like before; he really didn't ever want nor like to say no to him #//The aversion got worse bc thundered the night of his Confrontation with Diluc too; absolutely increased how much he hated it #//His aversion tends to manifest in a drop in temperatures or frost formation; as well as him pausing and quickly glancing about #//As if he's half expecting a threat of some sort; really he's quickly locating things to distract himself with #//If he's with a trusted person; he'll tend to wordlessly press against their side; then either brush it off like he just wanted to #//Or mutter a quick 'thunder' and Not Elaborate whatsoever. Either they get it or they don't #//He WILL get annoyed if he's teased about it. And it will take him AWHILE before he lets the person comfort him during bc of it #//Bc from that point; he will assume it's done mockingly or bc they feel they HAVE to; and he hates that #//If they let him be or even support him more instead; he will make a passing mention abt how much he hates thunder to start cuing them in #//They just gotta show they are a Safe person--bonus is this opens up a LOT of doors when it comes to trust later #//It doesn't help that he already hates dealing with loud sounds as is; even the blasts from Klee Jumpy Dumpties set him on edge #//But the bad memories he has to thunder make it the worse by far to him

[qeyond]

all these wammy house bitches (except near) are out here eating mass amounts of sugar and its like, WHERE is my savoury boy?

it's matt deathnote. he's the savoury boy, eating boat loads of french fries with ranch and mello is feeling ill watching him shove a Checkers Big Buford into his gullet

#my secret kinship with Matt DeathNote cuz he's a lil hermit and eats like crap and just wants to hang out with his bf and no one else #qeyond sucks #matt death note #mail jeevas #god i love savoury stuff and fats and grease and salts #(i am much like a cat) #its my head canon and i get to make him as yucky as i want #but he's eating like WAY too much condiments all the time #SO much ranch SO much sour cream SO much ketchup SO much mayo #hes a fiend (its me im the fiend) #god i love big bufords they have a 50/50 chance of making my aging stomach absolutely scream #im blessed with a stomach of steel. unless i eat instant ramen too many times or i detect a Texture that is No Good #matt and i going to taco bell and having a blast and NEVER reaping any consequences for it <3

[kaeyaphile]

(muffled screaming) power outages are great

#kayleigh.txt #once summer gets here it won’t be anywhere near as stressful 🥲 #i just have 6 snakes and 3 geckos who can’t get cold obviously because they’re reptiles 🐍 🦎 #my rabbit and my 4 cats and my feeder insects will be fine as long as it isn’t like. freezing 😂 #in the summer i don’t have to worry because it’s usually the perfect ambient temperature for the reptiles so 🤷🏼‍♀️ #but alas in the winter i am. constantly stressed. power is back on for now but i have space heaters blasting #because it is so fucking windy it is almost definitely going to go off again 💀 #if we could just stop having severe windstorms once a week that’d be really great 😭 🤞🏻 #anyways i am going to actually attempt to nap now because i am absolutely exhausted ugh 👋🏻

[sunrise-on-the-shore]

temporarily back with one post. i am not ready to fully come back.

all the stuff you need to know about the future of this blog are in the tags.

#sunrise thoughts #after i thought a lot i made multiple choices #i am still going to post about dsmp #i am still going to post about cwilbur #dsmp has been my biggest special interest ever #and i cannot move on from cwilbur in a day or week #i obviously won't talk about the cc anymore duh and to me the cc and c are extremely disconnected from each other #i will do all my screaming and kicking and nasty emotional stuff in private #i got fucking blasted by the consequences of forming a parasocial relationship!! ouagh!!!! #if you're uncomfortable following me for my dsmp posting you can obviously unfollow me i completely understand<3 #i will be tagging everything with my usual tags and you can filter them all you want if you decide to stay for other things! and uh— #i am so proud of shelby for speaking about something so terrifying and painful and i wish them the absolute best #i hope they will find a wonderful support system and get all the help they need and want and recover in a good safe environment. #(now back to blog related things haha!!) #i will try to be more multi fandom #you will still see from me a lot of minecraft smp silliness!!! #uhhh i'm talking qsmp life series and hermitcraft stuff!! (i'm gonna check season 10 very soon!) #as for non related minecraft things uhhh idk yet!!! #(btw don't expect me to reblog posts about the situation because the subject itself is so fucking uncomfortable for me) #(i am myself a victim of abuse [very different type but yeagh] + i am a mess atm for many different reasons) #(remember to always believe victims and such. [you probably heard the whole talk from people who are so much better at words than me #so i won't repeat things in a badly worded way] #anyway #(i am so sorry that this whole thing is messily written and in a bad order i am writing everything at like past 4 am) #(and i really really don't want to go back and rewrite tags in the right order) #(but yeah. erm.) #this is all you will hear from me for a while #take care everyone

[lycanthian]

the horrors

#pov u go home with full intent to have a good night in doing what you want after weeks of agonizing over schoolwork every night #and then you get hit with like 10 different types of horrors #but youre like no were not gonna let that stop us from having a good night fuck you and you push past it #and ypu make a little treat for yourself because you deserve it #then almost immediately are blasted with a wave of The Horrors the likes of which you have never felt before about this specific topic #was gonna play a little bit of echo to hit one of the routes i hadnt yet but i am now rethinking this #already feel horrible enough right now i absolutely do not need to make it worse by going insane over new game material rn #going to desperstely draw shit to get rid of the horrors. hope that helps a little #lycan howls

[constellationcrowned]

((I want everyone to keep something in mind in regards to this blog and this is going to sound like a general, common sense post (and in a way it is) but it's also hi I'm in your house, whispering into your ear, telling you to call ga//amestop and ask them if they have bat//tleto//ads---, blah blah, basically it's personal too:

With me, regardless of blog or content, both communication and engagement go hand in hand. Communication and engagement needs to go both ways.

I love posting and reblogging memes and calls and will continue to do so but you folks---old mutual or new mutual doesn't matter---need to take the initiative yourself sometimes too. Be enthusiastic. Be spontaneous. Be proactive. I don't want to ask people to write with me all of the damn time nor do I want to chase after people all of the time because if I have to do that constantly over and over again it starts feeling incredibly one sided even when it isn't (because ofc people have lives, specific interests, anxiety, and whatever else which are all things that I deal with myself and I understand how that can stop someone from doing something, but that's how it feels especially over an extended period of time) and I don't need to explain how disheartening and draining that can be.

My seeming to interact with only one person---and for both of my blogs it's @magioffire and we all know that---it's not because we're being stuck up, elitist or whatever inane and incorrect term people want to throw at our feet it's because we engage and communicate. The give and take between us (both from an ic and ooc standpoint) never feels imbalanced or even transactional (I really hate using that word but, again I gotta stress this, that's how this makes me feel) and I have never felt like I needed to chase them down for an interaction or had to fight for a scrap of their time---which feels like a feat bc Blair has a lot of people scrambling at their door---and I cannot tell you how huge that is. That sounds like a huge sweeping thing to say, I know, but I mean it in all of the little ways too. I could post some stupid bullshit on here; not a starter or a meme just a little random muse thought or observation, and 100% of the time here comes Blair telling me what they think or adding on to it or just...whatever. They're here for both me and my muses for the big and small things, whenever I've asked and, more often than not, when I haven't (or couldn't) and that's incredibly important. It's that kind of stuff that makes what we have special and that's putting it super lightly. And yes, our relationship both as friends and as writers has developed over a long time, and we did click immediately that's true, but there's never been any doubt to cast upon the work and effort both of us have put forth.

And this post isn't to say that I'm demanding constant or immediate attention from you all---because, again, we all have lives, health issues, etc, etc, and all of that takes precedence over a hobby as I've said before and will say again and again---but....put some effort into it when you have the capability. Yes, like the calls that I post or send a meme in, absolutely, but also message me on your own and ask a question or shoot a muse a random prompt or just @ me in a post. Show me some enthusiasm and engagement on your end because right now it feels like I'm doing all the work all of the time and that's tiring. I'm tired of handing stuff to people all of the time---I'll keep doing it, obviously, because I need and want to engage on my end and love throwing stuff at people and providing opportunities---all I'm asking for is understanding and reciprocation.

If you can't reciprocate for whatever reason? Tell me.

If you're unsure about something, no matter what that something is? Tell me.

If you need help or even a specific kind of accommodation in order for us to start interacting or continue interacting? Tell me.

Don't just assume that I don't want to write with you or that you can't ask me for things. Don't assume that I'm being a snob or whatever else just because I seem to be paying attention to a certain mun full time because do you know what that actually is? That's friendship. That's effort. That's me giving back what I've been given. That's me reciprocating the enthusiasm, love and creativity that I've been handed, nothing more. There's nothing unobtainable or gatekeep-y about that either, you just need to be earnest and forthcoming with me and I can assure you that I'll return the favor in kind.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #long post #this isn't a guilt trip of any sort (it doesn't even feel right calling it a vent tbh) I'm just being earnest in my point here #I'm tired of constantly pulling teeth (and this is an issue for both old and new mutuals rather than one over the other) #it just....doesn't feel good. there shouldn't be this much of a struggle for *any* of us #and are we all going to end up on the same level as what I have with Blair? No absolutely not and that's not what I'm asking for #the difference between them and you all is the lack of struggle and just...the earnestness to put it mildly #I'm honestly tired of people trying to give me shit for writing w/ them so much because??? why wouldn't I??? #getting mad because I'm having a blast with someone who wants to write with me and actually does/tells me? that's nothing to be jealous of! #in fact you should strive for it yourself!! you could have it all too if you just crawled out of your own hole and thought for a second #I am incredibly fucking lucky and blessed to write with Blair; they've greatly influenced me both as a person and as a writer; #and every day I return that kindness and attention with more (hopefully) great content regardless of what or who we're writing #because they do the exact same thing for me every single day and that should be celebrated #stop wasting time trying to pit people against each other or feeling left out and actually step in yourself #I've said this before and I'll say it again: the main thing holding you back from interacting with me is you #so think about it and just...get over whatever is telling you that you can't and just do the fuckin thing. come have fun

[greyias]

Posting this here so I remember to go nostalgia dumpster diving later

#i am absolutely going to have a blast with the old bbs files #i was just thinking the other day i needed to install a dos box and get both versions of lord running again

[belethlegwen]

If you had a friend who suddenly got shrunk, and they lived with you, what would you do to accommodate them and make them as comfortable as possible?

Just curious if you would do it like Melanie or do something different.

This is gonna be the last ask for the night because I am a grandma and it is 10:30pm here so I am sleepy.

I feel like I would probably do it like Melanie would. Help set up points of accessibility as much as possible, try to give them their own space and freedom but also just... worry about them and try to be there as much as possible to help them out.

I imaging for a few of my friends it would be... annoying? I guess it depends on the friend, there are only a few I'd be comfortable around in this situation, and most of them I would probably let try to call the shots on how they want help/need help in the situation.

This is also like, setting me up fantasy-wise in a space where I do not have a roommate or cats to worry about on top of everything else. In the ideal I would try to do things Mel's way. In the reality? Oof. No idea. trying to cat-proof anything when it comes to my tiny orange terror is a task and a half and I am paranoid about that kind of thing.

Honestly, thinking about it and being tired AND drunk, if it was more akin to my reality with the cats and stuff... they basically wouldn't leave my sight and there would be significantly less freedom allowed purely just out of fear for their safety. That would absolutely be horrible for everyone involved. Big oofs.

Thank you so much for the ask!

#asks and answers #drunk posting #I gotta go to bed because I am OLD and LAME #This has been an absolute fucking blast though #people can still send asks I just won't get to them until tomorrow or later #Love you all #Be good to each other #but great to yourselves #g/t #giant/tiny #g/t thoughts #big little thoughts #g/t author

[esotericdescent]

I HAVE FINISHED S2 and y'all .... I have so many feelings without any idea of what to do with them all right this moment ( bonus points for having a headache rn from crying lmAO ), but I can give some thoughts for now. I absolutely fucking LOVED season 2. It was very different in a lot of places, but the thing I loved about it was that it lead with something in Leigh's writing that, imo, she is known and loved for ( or at least she is by me ); her twists and turns, the way she keeps you constantly guessing until the very last moment. I feel like if they hadn't changed things, they wouldn't have been able to pull off that specific feeling for those of us who read the books. I had no idea what was going to happen for most of the time, save for the direct references and foreshadowing I caught, and it was a wild ride and SO much fun. I loved it. I cannot overstate how much I loved it tbh. The soft moments and those heart-wrenching, complicated moments, the equal attention in the various types of relationships was also spot on imo and it's something I love about her writing as well. There were so many different kinds of hugs and shows of affection between those various relationships and I'm absolutely weak for it. The show is 100% like a fanfic, an AU, and I personally didn't feel like they did a disservice to the source material or the characters. Things made sense in the context of the AU. I feel very passionately about all of this, but I respect those who feel differently. I just wanted to get some of my feelings out. This does mean that it'll be a lot harder to mix both book and show canon, so I may keep things more separate—but that just means that I'll lean into either show canon or book canon, depending on who I'm writing with and what their preferences are. I love both the show and the books as their own separate canon so I am more than happy to lean into one or the other.

#( OUT. ) #sab s2 spoilers #shadow and bone s2 spoilers #s&b s2 spoilers #s2 spoilers #season 2 spoilers #I just have a lot of feelings about the show okay #I love love love it so much #and I can't overstate how much i love the books #i love them both and I am so happy we have both #I can't fucking WAIT until we get more ( assuming we do get more fingers crossed ) #bc I won't know a lot of what's gonna happen and it's going to be an absolute blast #like reading the soc duology for the first time all over again tbh #anyway #those are my thoughts

[foxcassius]

i am not going to japan in september so should i allow myself to order the icelandic yarn i need to make my christmas presents instead

#it would cost me like ₩270.000 but thats for like 36 skeins of yarn. #i want to make a shawl for jiwon's mom for christmas and then i want to make jiwon and i matching sweaters before we go to arkansas #in december and since i am placing the order and shipping will be $50 regardless i also want to order the yarn to make myself a shawl #but i want to get it all in-hand so i can start absolutely blasting through projects once i have more time on my hands #t

[soldier-poet-king]

Has anyone ever considered that I don't want to do chores and run errands after work and commuting and I WANT to go home and nap and play video games and read

#UNFORTUNATELY. IM WEAK WITH NO SELF CONTROL #i told myself i wasnt gonna start pf wotr until after this weekend #bc i am out of town w maria and rae!!! and dont wanna be spending the whole weekend stuck in hyperfixated hell #thinking abt game. #unfortunately. guess what ive started #i have SO MUCH backstory for my duelist ex spy dhamphir rogue-undead sorcerer #its about the ANGST and the REDEMPTION #ugh. combine alucard. essek. mhm maybe a lil fenris and finnick odair #honestly. being like. im a grown ass adult but i can create cringe ocs like im 11 yrs old #what absolute freedom and joy!!!!! #i am having a BLAST #yes she has white hair trauma. yes there are scars. yes shes now devoted to sarenrae the SUN god of mercy even tho shes dhsmphir #yes she still wants human blood and hates it #/SCREAMS/ #anyway i am going to run errands and also desperately get a haircut #and i SHOULD be reading #but 2 guesses what im gonna do after o get home #IM SUPPOSED TO PACK TOOsgdbshhf i have no idea what the dress code is #Franposting #YKNOW WHOS THE BIGGEST PUSHOVER???? ME #i am WEAK and TIRED after all day at work i want FUN

[kadoodles-on-ao3]

Sickness update: Still coughing, but it's (mostly) dry coughing now, and my headache is gone! But I'm not at 100% back-to-normal mental capacity yet either :(

Writing update: I've been hard at work on my angsty longfic! I was going to work on something lighter (especially with my cold) but all of a sudden more and more ideas to add to my AU kept popping in my head and I just had to jot them down.

Before long I was finally organizing my outline by putting all my previous bullet-point came-to-me-at-random-times-of-the-night-and-put-in-an-equally-random-order concepts into plot-chronological order as they should be, and making headings/sections for the major location changes to find stuff easier, and getting down how exactly series-and-collection-wise I want to go about categorizing the fic and its sequels, and finalizing their titles (which are all names of songs on The Glitch Mob's Drink the Sea album, give it a listen with good headphones if you haven't before, it's great background music!!) and oh yeah I needed to go over the h2hs again better open that doc, and I definitely need to have the game's script and cutscenes on hand for reference as needed (which was very frequently) and now baby I've got a stew going

I'm having so much fun writing characters I haven't gotten to write before, and (minor/vague Xenoblade spoilers) digging into the details of the lore about Face Mechon and expanding on my take of what was happening on the Mechonis before the party got there, and fitting lots of little puzzle pieces that the game gives you but doesn't directly tell you they belong together which is why I love it so much, and getting into such a nice flow state with it all and gjshfhskfh I love Xenoblade 1 so muchhhhhh!!!

So all that is to say I will hopefully be posting the prologue tomorrow or the day after! :) No promises as it's gotten much longer/more-detailed than I planned for (although I really should have expected that, it's always how it goes with me when I'm having fun writing I just can't stop haha) but it is most definitely on the way to being published soon!

#aside #before i get into mild spoilers for my fic (as in no details about the plot itself but i mention #which characters i'm writing in the prologue so if you want to go in completely blind turn back now!) #i will fill space by reiterating that drink the sea is such a good album and you should listen to it #my favorite track is Starve The Ego Feed The Soul :) listening to it with really good headphones and no other background noise is so #mmmmmmm it tickles my brain in the best way #as for the fic though i am having SO. much. fun. writing egil and mumkhar #i don't mention egil much publicly but he's one of my absolute fav characters from xc top 5 for sure #finally getting into his headspace and delving into his subtleties like his arrogance and loss of empathy is very :) #quite different from anything i've written before but in a good way. hope you like it as much as i had fun writing it! #and writing mumkhar's enthusiastic and sarcastic dickishness is a blast lmao #he was only supposed to be a small feature and likely even just an offscreen mention or two from egil #but then i realized how much i had written with zero dialogue (i like to do that especially in the middle of a conversation lol) and #i thought ''hm let's fix that! in fact part of my reason for having mumkhar here is that #he talks way too fucking much and it annoys egil to the point where he literally stitches his mouth shut so yeah having him actually #talk with specific words is important to the point i'm trying to make!'' and then oops my draft is an extra page longer now #but i had fun writing it and if it serves the story and the points i want to get across then i can't find the heart to delete it #and hey it's been so long since i've published anything so more is better anyway right?

[heffrondriving]

first big time rush drops a new song, then young royals shows up with some season 2 photos, then omar rudberg also premieres his latest single + music video, and now the whole news about kendall just to put the cherry on top of this disaster crockpot......we really out here risking our lives and losing our fucking gourds today a whole lot folks!!!!!

#my mind has entirely shut down and i'm not even kidding there's absolutely nothing in my head but a rattling plinko ball #defence mechanisms i suppose. although that doesn't stop my anxiety levels from also going full blast and making me wanna chew my skin away #what is this behaviour @ self. i just think you need to fuck off to sleep forever at this point yet we're still in this discussion table? #i promise all of the aforementioned are good things that should make me lots happy but unfortunately my synapses don't work right so just #rawrtgrhrgahagwgwhahahrgrhrhahw *goes feral on main and has to be sedated and put down* #cw blood? #do pretty girl don't speak #will delete #i'll get back in business after i chill tf out. whenever that may be #might be a day. might be another month. again i am so sorry ;-; #idk anyone else who likes big time rush and young royals so unfortunately everyone gets the brunt of my mania whoops #titled: my top two current hyperfixations violently taking out my kneecaps and wiping the floor with my bitch dumbass.exe