#i cook too much to do the dishes

[mafuteru]

having a decent salary and thus being able to spend more money on food has me obsessing over the idea of cooking for other people

#wanna visit back home just so i can cook something nice for my mom #guy who will set up an alarm so that he can make a savory breakfast for you #accompanied by scones and a carefully selected tea that compliments them #ive also been lvling up my cooking skills lately.. properly studying on what makes things taste good etc #a few of my latest dishes have had the restaurant quality taste to them i must admit #there was one flop pasta but its okey. if i tried it again it would b much better #it was still good. basic homemade cooking taste. bites were a bit too homogeneous perhaps #sorry i enjoy being a tryhard at everything i do #diamond rank at sleeping. relaxing. and dreaming too... 💤 #shion.txt

[saturatedsinset]

cookie time :-)

this makes me really sentimental because it is a representation of cooking as an act of love, and of cooking as a chain of love

this is the same recipe my mom used to make for me and my sister growing up - she'd make the dough, and we'd cut them out with our million and one cookie cutters, and then she'd make cream cheese frosting in a variety of colors and we'd have a cookie decorating day.

my mom got the recipe from the day care me and my sister went to as a baby - in our family cookbook (it's more of a compilation of all the recipes we use fairly regularly and enjoy; my dad put it together and he updates it every so often. I actually made my first independent contribution to the cookbook this year, when I made chana masala for my family and he asked where I found the recipe so I could add it to the cookbook) (it was bbc good food) the recipe is still titled after that day care.

and now I get to make it for Lucy and their family, my new family. I get to show them what I love so much about food.

#got a bit weepy writing this one lads #i talk shit about my family all the time on here but like. its not like there are never bright spots #until she retired my mom actually did the cookie decorating day for her kids (the ones she taught) too #obviously she couldnt let them cut out their own cookies (no ovens at school) but she made frosting and got sprinkles and they made it a day #i made this same recipe for my friends in the uk a couple years back and we had a decorating day as well #just. love. i love love. i love cooking. i love cooking for people as an act of love. im emotional #also holy shit im in so much fucking pain. i love cooking but my body does Not #i was gonna do the dishes (i used so many fucking dishes) but i literally could not stand up any longer. also i was nauseous from overheat #anywayyyy. cooking :-) #sinjamin #food //

[pups-2-dust]

I perfectly poached some eggs btw, if you even care

#they just went on toast nothin too fancy but they were perfect #i fucking hate cooking so god damn fucking much #labor of hate #now i gotta fucking do dishes too this sucks

[truethes]

did some muse changes to my carrd!

#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜. #PRODUCIVITY IS REAL (NO JOKE) #added hs.r muses. removed a couple of muses i didnt have too much muse for / no interactions with either #to take some time for some new ones #tempted to do a hoyo.verse multi STILL but resisting the urge #im going to be writing this weekend because i was supposed to this week but unfortunately being an adult took over everything! #me: omg time to write #me that night fixing my pc cooking dinner doing the dishes: my mortal coil cannot handle this existence ... #i made this weekend planless #for a reason! #just wanna sit down with a nice cup of tea my playlist on high and something written

[chinzhilla]

for all the absurdity of cooking crush the friendships are spot on and i keep having to pause and collect myself over the many relatable character moments

#i'm not even through ep 3 but like #prem randomly remembering his oven mitt in the middle of doing the dishes (and slipping while dashing to his phone) #fire and metha being like 'our friendship's too old you take forever to text US back :(' to ten #ten repeatedly begging himself to just act normal #i could go on #the dialogue and delivery and acting in general are all really high quality even if there are times it's a bit much for me #bon.txt #bon watches cooking crush #liveblog tag

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Immovable object (my chronic fatigue) vs unstoppable force (my desire to do literally anything other than lie in bed)

#was cooking nonstop for an hour yesterday #then did a bunch of dishes and some cleaning #my body did not appreciate that #i could tell when i was going to bed last night that i overdid it #but today was worse than i thought it would be #btw ive been trying to process my grief or whatever over losing so much of my ability to function over the past year #its not going well #thought a therapist might help but the ones i found and liked dont take my insurance #my last therapist specialized in trauma (was good at helping me process that) but isnt a good listener lol so i need someone else #im not thay motivated to find a new one though tbh #its a hassle and im too exhausted to deal with it #maybe ill save up all these feelings and put it into a fic someday #i talked to a fandom friend once about writing a story about a disabled character so maybe ill actually do that #someday #after i finish sgb #which will be a long time from now #a long long long time #at this rate #its so frustrating to be incapable of doing the things i want to do #especially when those things were within my capabilities not that long ago #i have to chill out about it though because emotions use energy and i have so very little of that to spare #ha ha #ha ha ha ha ha #its all good #we press on

[toytulini]

im opening tumblr. i am closing tumblr. if you see me on here today tell me to leave. i need to go do shit. aaaaaaaa

#toy txt post #i need to do laundry! and maybe go to the store! and maybe cook food? idk if i will cook food that might be asking too much of me #i need to do the dishes and shit aaaaa

[possum-tooth]

life is so hard. youre telling me i have to figure out whats for dinner every fucking day????

#yes i do the cooking yes i do the cleaning #kinda. i clean when i wanna. ANYway. figuring out meals for this week and honestly id rather just be shof #shot. learn to type idiot #anyway gotta go grocery shopping and hopefully not spend Too much bc i still owe rent this month yay 😐 and i didnt make enough #this weekend to deffo cover it And food so. easy pasta dishes it is! #trying to figure out new stuff tho so its not just garlic shrimp pasta or spaghetti every day #also things that dont take hours to make bc a bitch is tired! and incompetent in the kitchen! :( #anyway. happy monday i also think i have another job?? but i gotta call back tmrw to confirm bc im too scared to call today. you know. #talk tag

[natandacat]

I made bread for the first time in months!!!!!!!!!!

#:DDD #ive been pushing too much this week bc my brain is like omg omg omg i can do things #i must do ALL THE THINGS and i wont stop until my body stops me #obviously my body is stopping me rn #ive been weak since yesterday but its not as bad as the past few months!!! #like i can walk without help :3 #and i can still cook/do the dishes #i just. need more time. and breaks. #i made a very intensive labor soup the other day!!! i managed to do all the dishes at once!!!! #fuck i missed doing the dishes #dont take doing the dishes for granted #medical

[genderjester]

Why is my job not living in a house with all my friends and cooking for them. Huhh. Why

#im not. nobody's housewife. #except when i get to cook for other ppl #i want to bake a big batch of cinnamon rolls for the rats is that too much to. ask from the universe😭 #sel talks #i will even do the dishes

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Well fuck, I know I need to go eat and then do chores but I'm feeling too fucking overwhelmed with The Sad to do either

And yes! I know eating would probably help! But getting the food and wanting to actually eat it are both difficult tasks to contemplate at the moment. There are just... so many tasks 😭

#i shouldn't feel like this #it's a nice day and things could be worse #but I'm in a Sad Hole right now and the sides of it are slick and hard to climb #like have you ever seen homeward bound? it's like that part near the end where shadow falls into a big slippery pit of despair #it's my own fault i think too much #was thinking about being lonely and about how nice it would be to have someone to help out sometimes #thinking about how even most of my earliest memories are of me being alone and taking care of myself #getting myself ready and feeding myself and being left alone all day even as a toddler #and now it's still the same shit #like I don't need anyone to wait on me but i would just like to share the load sometimes #i can cook dinner i can do the dishes and clean the kitchen but having to always do both alone is why I eat so much takeout #sad bitch hours #texts to nobody #depression

[viovio]

mamas making soup tmrw which is great but i reallyyyy want curry

#thinking about my college course cuz rn im taking up home ec and cookery #which includes table setting reservation systems and just working at food establishments #and cleaning. which i can do #w cooking my mom told me i had to fix my habit of being a picky eater which i cant but i can follow directions and taste stuff #speak iza #idk why i picked this course.. i like cooking but so far i only make simple dishes and pastas and soups #bc i. likw my cooking. not bc it taste good it tastes alright and how i want it to #and thats the rhinfg i KNOW whats in it so i wont get surprised by different textures or ingridients #(?) not surprised more like uhh idk the word. like i love peppercorns bayleaves ginger and bones and what they do for flavors but when #theyre left in. worse is whenbits MIXED WITH MT RICE FUCK NO!!!! #if i know all the ingredients or see that its a dish without them i trust ro mix it with my rice. if not #like a dish w meat that has too much taba or bones i will section it off from the rice. and organize each bite #other people do ir like. one carrot. meat. potato. liver. and a spoonful of rice in my mouth #repeat and i just ate lunch (1 hr

[universalsatan]

i am being gay again and makin yall suffer

so my Boy (as in, the guy i’ve been pining after for almost 5 years but have been talking more w lately and my friends Say he’s flirting back????) is somehow??? the ideal malewife?? i already knew that plants/gardening is his fixation (as an ND person that’s how i can best describe it), and when i went to his place ofc he has the most PRISTINE garden (and grows all these cool things inside too) with all these types of plants AND OH MY GOD THE RANGE OF VEGGIES AND FRUITS GROWING, but then turns out he’s an INCREDIBLE BAKER TO THE EXTENT THAT MY MOM WAS SO ENAMOURED BY THE BAKING THAT SHE SAID I NEEDED TO FIND A WAY TO MARRY HIM “EVEN THOUGH [SHE] KNOWS [WE’RE] JUST FRIENDS”. not to mention he also made me sweet tea and mac n cheese (but the way we both like it, as apparently—as does mine—his family makes it too Dry; it’s gotta be Soup)

and im sitting here like. okay i have a specific set of skills, but what do i need to work on to become the ultimate DAD, yknow??? like, i’ve been wanting to figure out building so i can eventually maybe in the future build a dream greenhouse (i’d say for me but i’d be lying if it weren’t for him), and i do more heavy-duty yardwork like mowing the lawn and trimming hedges and weedcutting and snowshovelling, and maybe i should bug my dad to teach me how to Really bbq properly, but what else is there????????

#also gonna mention these are the things that Specifically pertain to malewifery in my head #theres so much more but i am actively restrainiNG MYSELFJDJDKDKD #i think he also does lawnmowing but yeah. and i remember him mentioning that while he knows how to cook. he doesnt really know much about #bbqing as it’s something his dad takes care of #cause like. god. we’re both. well our lives are somewhat immersed in music #and i’ve Tried writing a love poem but it flew right over his head #i can Technically chop wood but also. we live in the city <3 #what elseeee 😭😭😭 ive been thinking about this ever since i finally went over to his place to do the baking #and it really was funny cause im very good at messing baking up so he did most of it while i watched like a helpful dog #and he was TRYING to stop me from cleaning up but at one point i just ended up working on the dishes #and im Very particular about the cleanliness of washing dishes by hand too #as he was running around finishing up the sweet tea and getting whatever pastries prepped for the oven #n e ways. 😔 #personal

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I've been wanting chicken quesadillas for days, and finally finally finally I got up enough energy to go to the store for the ingredients. That's a very difficult task on its own. Gotta get dressed. Drive there. Shop! But I did it!

I dressed cute but comfy and low effort. I drove all the way to the store. Shopped. Got some Starbucks as a fun reward. Barely had any guilt about spending money, and bought only the stuff on my list! Healthy stuff!

Brought it home. Unloaded it all. Appreciated how nice my fridge looks when it's full of healthy food.

And then I realized that I don't have enough energy to cook. I went to all the effort of buying the ingredients that I don't have anything left in me. Why. Why am I like this.

My quesadilla ingredients are sitting. Alone. In my fridge. Wanting to be cooked. I want them to be cooked. But the thought of standing. And cooking. Is so much. I cannot do it. But I want my quesadillas :( But I need to wash dishes. Need to cook. Can't wash dishes. Can't cook. Can't even stand. What the fuck is this bullshit.

#i am exhausted and i dont know why #well i know why. my body and brain are nightmares. thats why #i got home. put sll my shit in the fridge. needed to sit. then needed to lay down. cant get back up. too tired #it seems like ive been getting tired so much easier these days... #i dont know why shopping has taken so much out of me. but it did #i even rested before i went to the store... #im so sad that i xant make my quesadillas :( #but tomorrow maybe? i think my gf will be over #so she can do dishes for me. and the ingredients are already bought. so i dont need to waste energy on shopping #so maybe. if im lucky. i can make my goddamn quesadillas #wait im a genius #i need to eat. thatll help something right. i havent eaten much today #i know myself. i know that i need easy meals. so you know what i did? #i bought nacho ingredients. and thats just a layer of chips with cheese and jalapenos in the microwave #its easy. basically no effort. itll give me a bit of energy. i probably still wont be able to cook more than that #but im so smart. i anticipated low effort meals. holy shit im amazing #nachos are pretty much zero effort. than at least ive eaten #i cant get over how smart this was btw. buying low maintenance meal ingredients. its almost like i know my brain and body are shit #and ive grown to anticipate and adapt to that #wow. thats pretty cool #its not quesadillas. but it is food and its only two steps #at least i know how to work with myself #i can even sit for the most part. i am so smart. only requires one dish. little effort. god im exhausted #its 10pm and im gonna make nachos. no one can stop me. except maybe my neverending exhaustion #okay wish me luck