#i could pay off my debts

[1smolbean]

the whole “a submarine that costs 250k per ticket and is made up of cobbled-together parts that you can only open from the outside because it is secured by 17 deadbolts went missing while carrying several very rich people to tour the wreckage of the titanic, a ship that over 1500 (mostly working class) people died on, a ship whose wreckage should not become a tourist attraction because people fucking died there” situation that’s going on right now is just. so much in a way that i can’t really describe

#lee speaks #titanic #oceangate #my main thing is like. $250k could pay off all my family’s debts and we could still have enough for a down payment on our house #we’d probably even have some left over #i don’t want to judge people for how they spend their money but why would you go on this sub if it wasn’t completely up to code #which it absolutely is not #like its horrible that theyre in this predicament and i do hope theyre rescued but like. #don’t be spending 250k on stuff like this cmon

[andy-clutterbuck]

#can you make one of these at build a bear? #Andrew Lincoln #* #andygifs #GRADE A SPECIMEN #S I R #excuse me but the nose™️ #H A N D S #looking like he could pay off my student loan debt #....i mean he legitimately could but you KNOW WHAT I MEAN #that profile man.... #the hair flipping out at the back #perfection #gray hairs are sustenance #people who think otherwise are weak #tag reads: made of 100% husband material

[the-doggy-diaries]

sooo annoying that one of my friends is like "and when mitski said 'mom wld u wash my back this once...' i felt that" when they get monthly automatic deposits into their bank account .... washing your back is all she does girl cmon 😭

#im sorry this is so random but they follow me everywhere else i have to complain #complaining about their mom ALLL the time to me #saying they have an 'almond mom' when their pantry is so full of food and snacks and ingredients i could live off it for 6 months #complaining when their monthly allowance is late when my mom refused to pay me back the money shed owed me for years #when i was on the verge of HOMESLESSNESS #i know comparison is the thief of joy or whatever #but iDGAF #all they do is complain about their life to me and i have to listen to it #also they r at a super fancy university and im a community college drop out #and my mom SAIDDD shed pay for it but she DIDNT #so im 2000 in debt 😄😄😄 #YAY!!!!!! #vent

[mothric]

happy new year!! I had a horrible nightmare that (check the tags before proceeding please) I had to get a surgery to release some kind of fluid buildup in my brain and the surgery involved drilling a hole into my skull and I didn't find out they weren't intending to put me under until I was on the operating table with the nurse hovering over me with a GIANT drill

she reassured me they gave me local anesthesia but i flailed and begged to go to sleep and tried to shove the drill away while the nurse basically forced me into position, and I kept tapping my skull trying to confirm that the local even did anything because I couldn't remember them administering it. before I knew it they were drilling into the side of my head and it wasn't painful, so I guess the stuff worked, but I could hear it and feel it the way you feel what the dentist is doing even when there's novocaine. eventually i stopped yelling and fell silent because the drill was so loud and what can you even do at that point.

when they were done they cheerfully showed me an x ray of the hole they made, which went ALL the way back to my spinal cord and brain stem and stopped just a millimeter short of touching them, and they acted like this was normal and they hadn't just gone within a hair's breadth of killing me, and then they gave me a flimsy paper towel and told me I'd just need to hold it over the fresh hole in my head for awhile until it healed.

bizarre and upsetting New Year's Day dreams are practically a tradition for me at this point but, genuinely, what the Fuck was that.

#tw medical #tw medical trauma #tw surgery #tw body horror #tw nightmares #cant decide if this is better or worse than the religious nightmare i had a handful of january firsts ago #my dreams #jan 2024 #happy new year!!! :) :) :) #trying to figure out what in my waking life could have possibly prompted this #it's probably a combination of stresses all rolled into one big awful thing tbh #i guess the thrust is i wanted to be fixed or cured of something but i didnt get to be in control of how that happened #and the solution felt archaic and the aftercare was nonexistent #and i mean that's. a sensible thing to be afraid of #it wasn't even clear in the dream if the procedure even helped #but i went to this clinic at the recommendation of someone i knew. whose input- in waking life- i dont especially trust. so #maybe there's something to unpack there #ive also had friends experience some really shocking malpractice this year #and i'm still paying off medical debt #and doing year in review has brought up some unpleasant emotions as i'm realizing this year was more stressful than i thought #like a major element of this dream was 'yes i did sign up for this but some Very Important Information was withheld from me' which HONESTLY #sums up a lot of my year >_> #AND on top of that i've been wrestling with faith stuff. not getting to pick the healing process and fearing the outcome... yea #at the end of the day it's just another stress dream. it just took a form it doesnt usually take so it stands out #blegh. we'll get through this

[rewild]

Listen. I’m as anti capitalist as the rest of the disillusioned proletariat but if u put me in a farming simulator? I become possessed by the spirit of old man Rockefeller, who injects the very essence of capitalism into my veins. I become bound and determined to sell every material good I encounter in game. It seems im living my unachievable dreams of owning property and paying off debt. 🤠

#animal crossing #stardew valley #if only I could pay off my credit card debt like how I pay Tom nook for my house loan

[strawberrybyers]

realizing i’m so funny and talking a lot and making a million plans right now is not because i am healing for a new year new me era but because i am entering a state of ✨hypomania✨

#i am still dealing with the consequences of my last hypomanic state #i literally just received money to help pay off all the credit card debt from my last reckless era #i need to pay off these debts and bills TODAY before i start booking trips to all these vacations i’ve invited all these ppl on in the last #24 hours 😭😭 #the other morning i woke up and immediately went into full detail explaining to my mom how i could survive a zombie apocalypse #and today i drew a rectangle to represent this house that i remember and wanted her to remember it too bc i couldn’t remember whose house #it was #deadass i draw a rectangle and i was like ok so this is the house and i draw an oval to represent where we would park the car #that is it. that is the image and i expected her to remember where this house is 😭 she was like hey maybe we need to think about if youre #in a manic state because you’ve been on 10 for a few days now and going from rotting in my bed for weeks to THIS is giving ✨hypomania✨ #hypomania #hypomanic #bipolar ii #strawberrybyers text post

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Gonna have to bust out the comm sheet soon bc work is not scheduling me and. frankly. I simply do not want to be there as of late

#management change has been BRUTAL but we're working on it #anyways. need to get the business email set up bc i lowkey don't really wanna keep putting my full legal name out there lmao #i just. hope i can feel good enough to carry this out. all the time off and i feel so eh bc of work stuff #i wish it didn't bother me so much!! i don't WANT it to bother me this much!! i want to make art and make art for ppl bc i love to make art #maybe i'll go for a walk and feel like the light is coming back into my life. #also the extra money would really help me pay down my credit card debt so i'll be including that in the sheet lmao #it'll be a pretty simple sheet. flat rate. feeling lazy about it but i wanna be a little more serious about it this time #bc i uh. would really like to not be in debt if i can help it lmao. i'm making it work but it could also work better #anyways. keep your eyes open for that! #shai speaks

[k00ldino]

slamming my head against a brick wall WHYYYY WON’T IT LET ME FILL OUT THE FAFSA WHY WHY WHY WHY

#I’VE SPENT ALL DAY TRYING TO GET IT FINISHED BUT NOOO #I FILLED OUT EVERYTHING CORRECTLY I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY IT WON’T LET ME COMPLETE IT #what makes it all the more frustrating is that this could all be avoided completely if we #just STOPPED BOMBING OTHER COUNTRIES #WE DON’T NEED TRILLIONS OF DOLLARS FOR OUR MILITARY #and the old fucking asshats who run this stupid shitshow all think that since THEY had to pay off their student loans #(even though they almost certainly did not because they’re all banked up with their daddy’s money) #then WE should have to pay it off too #and it’s ridiculously overpriced too #for me to attend for four years is $120.000 #for WHAT?? #i just wanna learn about plants man please this is insane #it would be soooo beneficial to our overall economy if school was just free (or wayyy cheaper) but no #politicians LIKE when we’re in debt to them so they can control us #i’m so mad rn if you couldn’t tell #i had a whole rant ready but i don’t feel like being put on a watchlist #if the revolution doesn’t happen within my lifetime i’m gonna be so fucking pissed off

[projectcatzo]

#indiana jones #gee it's not like they're not fucking numbered or anything it's not like there's a one two three and four!!! #pay me to write this shit pleeeeeease i could pay off my mom's student loan debt writing about the chronology of the john wick movies

[ereh-emanresu-tresni]

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#gffiirativ i finally got around to submitting FAFSA and should be getting my full tuition refunded via pell grant thank fucK #budget has gotten so much fucking tighter in the last 6 months since i thought i could afford to go back to school lmao #depending on how cost of attendance calculated i could even get up to a few thousand extra which would be pretty rad #might be able to finally justify finally replacing laptop or getting an ebike or something if so #or just paying off more of debt that's been spiralling again lol #my relief is immeasurable and my day is made

[twinknote]

for my bday would anyone possibly be willing to chip in for me to sub to the anigomi patreon 🥺 i fucking love their L audios and i literally listen to them on the daily, i would go fucking insane over being able to listen to all of their spicy audios… they have a $10 tier too but this one gives u access to All of their content which would make me BARK BARK WOOF

#i would just get it for myself but i’m trying Rly hard to limit the money i’ll be getting from this gig to paying off my debt and saving #to get thru the next month or two until i have stable income #you would be making this faggot’s dreams come true #u could just kofi me or i can give u my cashapp

[andy-clutterbuck]

The Hollywood Reporter | 2018

#in THIS mood today #Andrew Lincoln #* #andygifs #pumpkin spice jumper ❤️ #EYE CRINKLES 💕💞 #looking like you could pay off my student loan debt #i mean you legit could but that's not the point #D_ D D Y #Pat I'd like to solve the puzzle #all the text of those videos should be considered a felony #lips brought to you by Mattel #you know those sticky hands toys from the store quarter machines? #that'd be my existence

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#what does one do when their perception cannot b trusted? im so physically and emotionally exhausted #and i can go from feeling hopelessly terminally bad to completely normal for no apparent reason. and on occasion i can go from normal to i #think i can stay up all night. i never have to sleep again. look how great i can focus. i could kill god. #and i have no emotional object permanence so it feels so stupid when im normal. i cant sympathize with myself in altered states of mind #and it doesnt matter but it makes me crazy the idea that i might not b bip0lar but i just push myself so far that under pressure my mind #splits into the catastrophically positive or negative. but i feel like this is how i have to live. i have to b perfect or pay a blood debt #and thats just how it is. and thats how its been. so at this point ive spend thr last idk 15 years of my life being d #some measure of miserable for no reason. i dont kno y i do this to myself and im 26 now and idk how to stop bc even pushing myself as hard #as i can im so far behind. how am i supposed to do less and not #and not just quit. im compulsive for a reason. there's a fundamental barrier between myself and understanding language but if i do more and #more and more then i can at least try to keep up with everyone else. idk im so tired. and im 26 and im afraid im stuck like this #and i cant even... its like ive split my head in 2 to cope. ive created distance within myself so that i cant fully feel how terrible i make #things for myself. half my brain is always like lol suffer idiot. it throws off my therapists bc i cant take my own pain seriously. ill #laugh and smile while im like yea i feel horrible like most of the time and i dont kno what to do lol. idk so it goes. i think im gonna stop #with the birth control tho. as it doesnt seem to help with my sadness levels. idk if ite making ot worse or not. guess well find out #itll b easier once i dont have to b trained on things. then i wont have to ask a question and burst into tears on my lab mate 🙄 #unrelated

[doubletrucks]

back on my talking in the tags bullshit like it's 2015 🫡

#i am feeling very Ack lately because i have abt ten months left to pay off my stupid ass student debt #which is exciting! i'm ready to go back to school! #but i have noooo idea what i'm going back for and i feel like i need to start firming up a decision so i can kind of get my ducks on a row #but like. girl. it's HARD #i have approximately 5/8 of an elementary education degree #and in an ideal world i would just finish it and become a teacher. boom done. i love teaching i LOVE it!!! i really do!!! #and i'm fucking good at it!!! #but we do not live in an ideal world. lol. i love being a teacher in theory but the reality of becoming a teacher in america #at this current moment. #where im essentially putting myself in the middle of a culture war where i am being casted as a criminal for Being Visibly GNC in front of #people's children. is not really ideal!!!! #and nkt to mention the gun violence and the fact that increasingly parents think they know better than teachers what should b taught and #TERRIBLLE pay a d tons of extra work w no administrative support #it just sounds. nkt great. to be honest. #but like.. what else do i do. i like the idea of mass comm w a production focus but i worry that i'll get disillusioned or dislike it once #it's what i Do... #and i could go back for the science-y stuff i wanted to do as a teenager and that sounds awesome but also #i think i am too dumb. lol. and i would be starting completely from scratch because all my science credits are like #Biology For People Who Just Need A Credit. yknow #and starting over wouldn't be the worst thing in the long run but it's so fucking daunting #i've already dropped out twice 😝🫶 i kinda just wanna finish it all in one fell swoop yknow #ANYWAYYYY. i have time i have so much time actually [shaking and crying and throwing up]

[stellardeer]

i have to come to terms with the fact that I am actually well off for someone in this country now, like.. idk it's weird

i'm still living the exact same lifestyle that i was before, so for the most part it feels almost like nothing has changed, like maybe im spending a little bit more money on food and buying the "good" toilet paper, but all that does is allow me to actually have savings in my bank account

i still stand with the working class and impoverished people of this country, and I am very much still in the boat of "one [very] bad day from homelessness" so i am not taking this for granted whatsoever

i've just been watching some of those youtube channels where they interview random people all over the country and just like.. kinda show what their life is like and it's definitely putting mine in perspective

very very grateful for the opportunities i have had and very proud of myself for forcing myself to stay in college (even tho it took almost 10 years to finish and left me with a mountain of debt) and just like.. idk, i feel like i could be doing more to help people out, i can't wait til im out of debt ;o;

#like idk it makes me feel a little bad sometime that im able to live comfortably while others arent #fuck i mean i got one of my friends living on my fucking couch rn i have a daily reminder of the inequality in this country #cause he doesnt have any qualifications to get a good enough job to fucking LIVE in this city #he's been trying to find a place to live but everywhere wants you to be making 3x the rent #and there's not a fucking job in this town that will pay you that much... #it's college town most people here are not even paying their own rent their well-off parents are paying it #ive never even fucking paid rent here i was living off the good fucking graces of my friends and my partner for like 7 years #and im still not paying rent i live in a trailer park and i own the trailer it's a shitty 2bd that i've had to pay to fix multiple times #but the fact that i can even afford to do that now is INSANE TO ME #I OWN A BUILDING WTF #i mean i do pay lot rent but it's only $300/mo #but rent prices here keep going up and up and up and i feel bad for my friend cause i dont know wtf he's supposed to do #i'm not charging him anything to live here so he's saved up a bunch of money but no matter how much he has the apartment places dont care #cause he wont have that money once he has to spend it all on bills and then his paychecks wont be able to cover living costs... #and i love him but he's just a little bit stupid and like.. doesn't seem to comprehend that he cannot afford a place that's $900 :'D #like he thinks that because he makes $1500 a month that he can spend $900 of that on rent like buddy NOO #what about FOOD? and OTHER BILLS? that's JUST rent dude what about lights and water???? #but also idk i dont feel THAT bad for him cause he could always just move back in with his mom or live with a roommate but he fcking refuse #anyway this got off on a tangent the point is once im out of debt im donating all my fucking money

[yuridovewing]

Basically like. Onewhisker definitely has a point in wanting to keep relationships good when WindClan is just now setting up it's borders. Mudclaw instantly jumping to "no we gotta hate the other clans and beat the shit out of them if they look at us NOW" isn't productive and would have been a terrible beginning for WindClan. But also Onewhisker is definitely vulnerable to being taken advantage of. If he's too giving, then that's something the other leaders can exploit and hold over his head. Firestar in particular, cause they're besties, and they're both like "oh windclan owes thunderclan soooooooo much! we HAVE to give them everything or else we're ungrateful brats!" at this point. It's one of the reasons he doesn't bode well as a leader. I find it perfectly believable that he snaps so hard in the other direction when ThunderClan DOES take advantage of his kindness AND he nearly gets assassinated by half of his clan over this. Like goddamn I'd be throwing hands too.

#idk. i kinda relate to onestar in this regard? where other people will do a nice thing for me and ill feel compelled to defend them over it #but said people would also hold that over my head to make me do things i didnt want to do and give them so much #and i felt like i HAD to overcompensate and give them so much ''in return'' cause like. well i didnt want to be ungrateful. #i couldnt ever pay off my debt and i could not get out of it without being shamed. and then id face the consequences of giving too much awa #back at home where my family would be rightfully pissed saying that i was wasting their money by just giving so many things away #and also as soon as the well stopped? id get dropped like a hot potato and antagonized and mocked by those people #thats something ive definitely improved on over time like i dont give people my possessions anymore and i hold ppl borrowing from me accoun #accountable #but being a doormat is something i struggle with to this day. actually going through something that happened cause i was doormat #and idk i see that in onestar. hes being a doormat in starlight. hes being taken advantage of #so i dont blame him for finally snapping and full on being a dick to firestar. he kinda earned it #its better than him giving up everything for him #gn liveread