#i fully cannot function

[ggigigoode]

now you’ve seen her rolling her eyes at me this is her giggling when i tell her she has the lesbians in a chokehold </3

#no like the way she’s looking down at me with that smile </3 #i fully cannot function #how can i be normal #how can i ever get over this #😫🥵 help #the way you can literally see her smile get bigger #the way her mouth twitches #oh no can you tell i’ve rewatched this video an ungodly amount of times #thank god my bestie filmed our entire interaction both times i met her <3 #her smile lines i CAN’T 😵‍💫 i’m #daya betty #rupauls drag race #rpdr #rpdr 14

[hellenhighwater]

Hmm....how hard can large scale mosaic possibly be? I feel like my plans for the room I'm working on could use something really shiny and impactful and maybe I want to make a fold-down cutting table and maybe I want to do it out of mosaic, even though that will be ungodly heavy.

It's a fun idea. I'm not sure if it's a good idea.

I haven't done mosaic since a one-off high school art class but I feel like the component skills are ones I already have, sooooo....

I have been keeping to a blue and gold celestial theme for both my guest room and my art workspaces, because if and when I move those spaces are likely to be combined. Cutting table, even though it would be for a different room, falls in the same vein, so I'm thinking something with a nice dark night sky and maybe some branches or leaves...

#if nothing else #I am likely to bleed less on my project than I did on the one in high school. #i sliced my arm open and bled profusely and never quite got all of it out #the third bedroom in my house is basically a junk room rn because the layout is awful #and i have been rotating that room in my head for weeks trying to see how it fits together in a functional way #it's going to still be storage but also my digital workspace/home for my modern tools #aka four ink printers #the laminator the 3d printer the laser engraver the cutting mats the paper storage #and also random crap like luggage and wrapping paper. #i think im settling on a library/bindery vibe #so loooots of built ins. #on a budget level i cannot afford to start this room for a while yet #and the same is also true on a time management scale #but for each project like this I tend to prefer to have everything fully realized in my head before i start #so im doing that now #mentally putting together lumber cut lists and figuring out if im going to have to buy a jigsaw

[solitairechimney]

Me two seconds ago: Eddie's obviously going to go out with fake Shannon

Me when Eddie actually goes out with fake Shannon: 😮

#the way this woman has catapulted eddie into insane territory in such a short amount of time #should be a very fun storyline though #i dont know how i feel about it fully yet and will have to see more #but shannon really has been a lingering ghost for him like he cannot have a functioning relationship because of shannon #so i love that we're really gonna dig into this #911 spoilers #911 abc

[mommytimmy]

what do you mean people can make posts on the internet without knowing anything about what they're talking about? 🤯

#this is not vaguing . my brain just cannot let go of that post #that post about adding pause options in games for accessibility (valid and correct) #and then mentioning soulslike games #i dont know about other souls like because i don't play them #but DS/dark souls/bloodborne at least #have the stable ground feature that functions as a live save system #its a strategy to quit out of the game to reset enemy positions (TO MAKE THE GAME EASIER BTW) #and it doenst make you lose any progress #and quitting out requires so few buttons you can do it in a split second when u need a moment #it only really resets bosses (which is a feature not a bug) #and sekiro HAS a pause function afaik--because its fully single player + the stable ground feature #the greatest problem of the fromsoft-souls francise is gamers treating is as gamer cred for its difficulty #when the real appeal is the unique narrative and the fact that you can fine tune your own difficulty experience with different routes #routes-mechanics-and weapons #THATS the reason challenge runs are so big in those games--but what challenge runs don't tell you is that #you can choose to make your game harder #but you have the same control to make it easier #exactly as you want it. not just by changing HP scaling and damage as is the standard- but by changing the game experience itself #and theymay not be games for everyone. but no game is ever for everyone #but in terms of actual accessibility i believe fromsosft games ARE accessible because of their simple controls that can be easily bound int #easily bound into any controller might suit the player's needs best #while offering an experience that is exactly as challenging as the player chooses

[randomravager]

dude I hate being antisocial whenever im overwhelmed like im avoiding all human contact sitting in a corner with all my work around me like some sort of demonic summoning circle getting up in the middle of class to “go to the bathroom” which is code for walk around in circles and go full on flappy hands and then I feel bad because ive been pushing off my friends but like socializing and being a blubbering whiner is NOT something I have any energy reserves available for

#blippity blap #nothing particularly bad but I always feel bad when im unable to do anything #like in terms of emotional functioning #barely mumbling along and a (more obvious) anxious mess #and like im usually self-conscious about physical affection in front of larger groups of people #but I fully cannot reciprocate #properly #eugh i was a mess today #a social failure #I apologize to anyone who has/will be subjected to me <3

[knowlesian]

“what if i made this website even worse and way less functional, would people give me money then” was a super hilarious question elon asked himself, for the first time well done buddy no notes

#not only is the search function on twitter fully fucked you can’t even look at hashtags anymore while logged out #he wanted to be god of the posters and he broke the site #that’s comedy gold. love it #i guess thanks accidental comrade elon??? #truly the dumbest man no notes on his choice to let the world know what the bay area was already aware of #dude was only ever the Money Man turns out daddy’s apartheid emeralds cannot buy him a clue

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

when will our DMs come back from the war (Tumblr randomly deciding we need to "verify" the exact same email address we've been using since we signed up for this godforsaken webbed site in 2012, without actually sending us a verification email.)

#saltposting #if you can no longer send us direct messages: this is why and I am very sorry. #we also cannot access our conversation history anymore. #mutuals: you may send in an ask to exchange Discords -- still willing to receive and send Tumblr posts #even if we have to go off-platform for this to happen. #tumblr is a fully functioning website that has no technical issues whatsoever. (/lies.) #we have emailed support about this for the record. it has been a mere two days. (perhaps three? what is a passage of time.)

[cosmicfoole]

literally so me core rn, for day 3 of this stupid af cold:

#its fr sucking all my energy so u can count on me to be fully active when i revive out of this nasty shit #earlier it seemed better but LOL NO it got worse. my ears have been clogged my eyes are unbearably water and itchy. #i cant breathe from my nose its so stuffed tf up #the pressure in my ears??? its driving me mad i SWEAR #u dont realize how good u got it until ur mfin ear caves are clogged and it has u dizzy af and out of it all day #u cannot even function as a human when ur ear caves are clogged i stg its crazy #yea ! ear caves ! lmao #i am so grumpy bear rn i cant i just need to punch the mf who gave me this in deadass 95 degree weather too. only then i'd feel better !! #ok sry for getting violent on main<3 #i get so dramatic when im in pain LMAO

[aria0fgold]

Treating the lil Childe shimejis like labrats as if I'm a scientist observing em in their natural habitat which is just my desktop.

#aria rants #i havent slept yet. and i feel like im in the boundary of sleepiness and being fully awake #which just means i can function. but i cannot think. my brain is basically lagging #anyway ive gained valuable info from my observations and its makin me feel a liiiil confident that i can indeed make a shimeji #its a matter of duplicating layers. consistency. and a large bucket of dedication. also creativity. cuz tbf... #i havent rlly thought as far ahead as figuring out what actions alec and ray gonna have for the shimeji. thats for another day

[quodekash]

well. that. that happened. 

um. the show is over now. 

it took me until 2am to finish it, again, and who is surprised? that’s right, no one. 

anyway. uh. 

soundwin kissed first and im dying. 

and im not okay because attachment issues + graduations in any media = full blown mental breakdown 

but like its fine 

um. i have commentary on the episode but at the moment i need to process the fact that a) all of that actually happened, b) soundwin actually kissed, and c) the show is now over entirely and theres no more friday nights/saturday mornings of happy feelings from happy high schoolers in their happy band 

and by ‘process’ i mean i need to go to sleep. 

also i wouldve been content with the little cheek kisses we got BUT THEN THEY FULLY KISSED AND THEY KISSED BEFORE TINNGUN 

WHICH MEANS, AS PER USUAL, SOUNDWIN DID IT FIRST 

#SOUNDWIN DID IT FIRST #THEY DID IT ALL FIRST #TINNGUN'S NOTEBOOK KISS? SOUNDWIN DID THE MEDAL KISS FIRST #THE SPRINKLE WATER? THEY DID IT AND THEN BOTH TINNGUN AND TIWPOR COPIED THEM #JUST FULLY KISSING EACH OTHER? S O U N D W I N D I D I T F I R S T #i literally cannot function #this freaking hapepned #in canon #they kissed #they ACTUALLY kissed #AND SO DID TINNGUN eventually #SOUNDWIN KISSED HELP #sorry it keeps randomly hitting me again and again #im gonna pee and then go to sleep #after rewatching the soundwin kiss scene ofc #BYE #soundwin #winsound #tinngun #tiwpor #tiwsonpor #satangwinny #winnysatang #geminifourth #markford #satang kittiphop #winny thanawin #gemini norawit #fourth nattawat #mark pakin

[beeapocalypse]

oh tma is nipping at my heels. i miss the extinction

#admittedly almost all of my love of the show now is FOR the extinction and that is bc the idea of this nascent burgeoning embodiment of-- #--the apocalypse seeping into reality and ppl walking into raw ugly glimpses into it is SO good. it is so interesting to me #like the way the extinctions influences from other entities is so much more obvious than the other fears bc it is still a baby and still-- #--more Blended into them than the others which have established themselves enough in humanitys fears to have shit like avatars and-- #--beasts. god ! #gary boylan as this proto avatar where HE was not the victim but instead him+his obsession was the weapon wielded to obliterate others #<-- how freakyfun is that. he pokes around and ends up running w the cult of the lightless flame for a bit mistakenly thinking That is- #--what happened b4 both him and jude both have this epiphany and realize theyre dealing with something WAY different. if jon annoyed jude-- #--just a tiny bit more she wouldve sent him to gary instead of mike lol #very funny that almost every extinction detail is crystal clear in my head but i just had to look up judes name bc i forgot it. all is ash- #--except for the extinction and a couple of funny jon moments in my memory #hope that tma2 has some extinction stuff in it bc the resolution for it in tma1 was SO boring. what do you mean a baby suddenly elevated-- #--to the power of every other fear in The Change just became a fully formed and functional entity. so much missed potential there of the-- #--eye not properly predicting the effect its ritual would have on the extinction bc it is a thing which CANNOT be known bc it isnt even in- #--existence yet. all seeing rather than all knowing you know. an inability to predict the future

[coffee-without-anesthetics]

oh this is No Bueno.

#the transitory phase after a long-ass hyperfix/obsession is the worst thing in the world #without obsession i cannot function fully btw. i am optimized to solely work under those. the touch of the 'tism && allat #i can feel bsd leaving my brain a bit more every day. it's been in there since end of april. what the fuck do i do now huh #post anesthetics posts

[sagemoderocklee]

truly so appalled by that screenshot about a*3 that i cannot sleep. i used to talk about this a lot more but the way ppl in fandom spaces absolutely don’t respect writing as a craft… like this is it!!! this right here is the culmination of that!!! this is killing actual literature and why we get bs like that r*ylo fic that got published and is supposedly a nyt best seller

genres exist for a reason!!! genres are what you’re looking for when you go to a book store!!! not tropes and tags!!! and guess what a poorly organized bookstore is partly because ppl are underpaid and overworked, and partly cause customers be lazy af and don’t put shit back cause “it’s not my job”

i love going to bookstores. i love looking through shelves of books. i love looking at covers and reading summaries. i don’t wanna pick up a published work that’s actually just fanfiction masquerading as something else with blurbs like “enemies to lovers!” on it cause it doesn’t tell me anything!!! the reason those work for fanfic is because fanfiction exists within an already established story!!! we already know what the story is and who the characters are!!! so you can tag it with “there’s only one bed” and have that be enough because the actual story already exists separately!!!!!!

i love to write and read fanfiction, but it has done something to yall, this whole entire fandom culture becoming mainstream has ruined ppls respect for storytelling. like it is truly and sincerely wild (and awful and disheartening) to me the utter lack of respect for writers and the craft of writing ppl who claim to love reading/writing are espousing rn. if all you ever wanna do is read/write fanfiction no one is stopping you, but published books need to behave like literature. and if you truly believe and want others to believe that fanfiction IS transformative then you have got to stop dismissing and disrespecting literature

#literally every single time some shit goes down on the fanfiction webbed site #ppl come out the wood work to say the worst stupid shit #genuinely just cannot wrap my head around someone saying wit they WHOLE CHEST what that tweet said #and YET someone did someone really said that #it’s mindboggljng #and the way ppl will admit fully they think only white straight men write books #like ‘oh all books are boring it’s all about mundane shit like divorce’ #or ‘it’s all dead white men’ as if there aren’t whole ass displays when you walk into fucking b&n #for like diverse books #as if there aren’t sections dedicated to lgbt books #ugh anyywayysssss #i am simply turning off the reblog function on this

[lightningbig]

I think the slow ego death of fandom can be pin pointed directly to the first use of the term stantwt actually

#maybe i am swinging at a hornets nest #also my personal hate towards twitter as a platform is showing and i am too tired to shove it in a closet #listen. do i think twitter COULD be a good platform and a good fandom space? #yeah sure maybe. im not ignoring that there are people who have a good time on it and cultivate a wonderful place for themselves #but u also need to come to terms with the fact that the way twitter works is fucking AWFUL for fandom culture #esp when twitter is at the same time a business platform for media people #like not just cc's but also authors/actors/etc #tumblr is prime fandom space both bc of the way it functions and bc it never has been and never will be a business space #no one is coming on here as point of contact for themselves as a brand or as promotion #but thats what twitter IS #and that space cannot coexist with fandom space without an overlap that causes problems #any part of twt fandom is fandom that overlaps with its creators and that like. defeats the point of fandom #u need to ALSO have spaces where fandom exists wholly and fully for the fans and there is no way for the creators to be involved #(unless they are actively searching at which point. that's on them! u made that decision buddy!) #but the raise of ___twt and twitter fandom spaces has caused such an insanely blurred line and has pushed this incredibly volatile #and weird morality police stance within fandom #where fandom is now policed based on purity culture bc 'what if the cc sees that!!' #and also the idea that at all times being a fan of something or someone is being a representative of that thing or person and their beliefs #which is a whoooole other wild problem #sorry for wall of text i didn't mean to go on a rant but it happened anyway LMAO

[aro-aizawa]

@ anyone familiar w it. please,,, i beg you please tell me how to make epub files that aren't reliant on it looking pretty. all im looking for is how to make it a chunk of text that i can put into my screen reader. please,,, i want to cry

#shut up danni's talking #i have a few fics that i have to read exclusively via desktop or on a google docs copy bc i use a text replacer #to even out some quirks in how people are referred to and a few grammatical tweaks and such #so downloading an epub version of the fic from ao3 won't keep my corrections/tweaks #but i need that epub for my screen reader however i cannot under any circumstances find a way to make an epub file #that has chapters so that i can skip to chapters like it's formated in the ao3 epubs #this might be highly specific and niche but i cannot find ANY information on it #and while my screenreader can read pdfs the chapter function doesn't work and instead just marks individual pages #WHICH DOESN'T HELP WHEN IM GONNA BE READING A FIC THAT'S 300+ PAGES #not to even mention when i want to read a series??? if each installment is only 2k+ words and there's like 30 i want to just compile them #so that i can just load the whole series into it at once and not have to switch every ten minutes #i am v near to tears trying to find a way to do this when i have ZERO coding skills #and almost zero knowledge on computer formats esp when google only gives me 'writing the book' things when i search #for ebook makers like sobs that's not what i need and the things that i CAN find all have flowery-image heavy templates #BITCH I JUST NEED THE TEXT AND THE CHAPTER FUNCTION THIS SHOULDN'T BE THAT HARD #i am fully aware that there are other screenreaders that you can just copy/paste things into #but i've done those before and they were INCREDIBLY annoying to use and i'd like to not go back to that #sigh #any help will be greatly appreciated thank you

[kasugas]

the devil is talking.... i should get a cintiq

#i have beef with wacom but i cannot deny its build quality over the years ive owned wacom tablets #my intuos ive had since i was like 14 is looking mighty scratched up now and the buttons are slowly dying on me. emphasis on slowly #like its still fully functional im just. now i have disposable income im a little stupid hehe #i dont even buy that much stuff tbh.... i think i deserve it #as a treat #wormbles