#i wish i had skintones tho lol

[oudkee]

inazuma eleven ask game

but im not gonna make you send me asks i am just answering all the questions out of boredom. original by @marmolao , post here

1-Favorite season/game/manga.

aliea season (2) my beloved. super nostalgic and definitely the arc i've rewatched the most

2-Favorite og character(s).

kidou yuuto my son. also desarm he's a funky alien. uhhh rococo and kazemaru too

3-Favorite go character(s).

TENMA, shindou used to be my fave but on my rewatch i was like ok he's kind of a dick in galaxy like he really leaned into it. kinako my beloved and most of all ray rukh. robot son. I FORGOT BITWAY okay no bitway is my favourite go character and prolly my fave inazumer of all time. sexy older alien man and probably the precursor of my love for the equally evil alien miss founder from deep space nine.

question 3 was actually missing from the copypasta and so was question 4. i took a wild guess what 3 was but no clue for 4...

5-Favorite areori character(s).

shimerigawa kageru. i have his license in my wallet and ive mistakenly grabbed it instead of my id at bars lmao. heres my ugly anime boy card.

6-Least favorite og character(s).

no one really occurs to me immediately. i used to be really hateful as a teenager i had like a whole list LMAO uhhhhhh i guess the evil mastermind from ffi season. garfield

7-Least favorite go character(s).

the bear

8-Least favorite areori character(s).

kind of like. everyone lmao. no one appealed to me and areori just feels like a soulless cash grab so absolutely none of the characters were even interesting beyond having some like surface level thing that got resolved immediately every time

9-Favorite coach(es).

kageyama. what a fucked up old man

10-Favorite scout character(s).

i never used them in the games lol but i like the designs of like. the machinery/mechanical themed ones

11-Favorite og team(s).

mikage sennou and all five aliea teams but especially epsilon

12-Favorite go team(s).

perfect cascade and ixal fleet........

13-Favorite areori team(s).

none oops sorry

14-Favorite hissatsu technique(s).

stargazer... shoot pocket uhh. god there were actually so many but i just don't remember any of them. i think perfect cascade had like the command ones that were cool but i dont remember im geriatric

15-Favorite hissatsu tactic(s).

REALLY dont remember any of these

16-Favorite keshin(s).

plasma shadow.........

17-Favorite keshin armour(s).

every single one of them slapped. they all looked so good. tenma's and ray rukh's were the best tho

18-Favorite miximax(s).

i dont like them.

19-Favorite soul(s).

bitway's fucked up tentacle monster

20-Favorite character design(s).

WAY too many. with a series with hundreds of characters im bound to be obsessed with a lot of the designs. so i really like all the ixalens from a design standpoint because they're almost... insect like but then they have that vorta paleness that's like okay you definitely came from a planet with a dense atmosphere that doesn't have a lot of natural light. the bird people had really good designs. tenma has that awful early 2010s shonen protag look about him but he's just so cute it works i love the cinnamon roll hair. chrono stone had a lot of random background characters that really slapped like engir and rudzhik it's baffling to me that this was the same season that had those awful mixi max designs. speaking of chrono stone i ALSO like the creepy factor of all the robot boys looking like. essentially the exact same like same height same body same skintone but with different eyes and hair it's so icky creepy i LOVE IT. i wish they were explored deeper because i love mechanical horror and the relationship between artificial beings and the organic life that surrounds them. not only that but their maker has like gendo ikari vibes. if u havent noticed i have a lot 2 say.

21-Favorite opening(s)/ending(s).

maji de kansha literally actually changed my life. i got through a lot of really low points because of maji de kansha this isn't even a joke. it's been a decade now and the song still hits just as hard. as for endings uhhhhhhhhhh katte ni cinderella was the best but i don't like the full version only the short anime version

22-Favorite character song(s).

ice road, starline, and yasashii mirai. OH and don't stop that's such a fucking banger from ibuki munemasa himself. he did that for us

23-Favorite friendship(s)/character dynamic(s).

i like the dynamic everyone has with endou like he actually becomes friends with like. everyone even the weird italian kid that thought it was okay kageyama tried to murder him. well he didn't think it was okay he just didn't even really care which is almost weirder

24-Favorite ship(s).

im almost 27 i dont really find fulfillment in shipping teenagers together

25-Favorite protagonist(s).

tenma and kidou my boyz

26-Favorite villain(s).

BITWAY OZROCK!!!!!!! and kageyama

27-Favorite character’s backstory.

i have this really messed up and long origin story for all the aliea season kids that i wrote years ago lmao... as for canon i just don't care i guess. it's not so much the backstory as how the character handles it in the end like the backstory can be Aww Sad all it wants but if the character acts like a dick or just unintersting in the plot bc of it then why should i really care. fudou akio im calling u out

28-Favorite sidecharacter(s)/NPC(s).

the clown

29-Headcanon(s) worth of sharing here.

i remember i had this whole kageyama family/shindou family/tachimukai family tree headcanon that was like basically shindou was kageyama's illegitimate son. kageyama's brother married tachimukai's older sister or cousin or whatever and they had hikaru. and way long down the line hikaru was related to sakamaki who created perfect cascade. much to think about

30-Free ask!

i need everyone to know that inazuma eleven is intrinsically linked with star trek: deep space nine by way of deep space nine's japanese dub. the lady who dubbed ezri dax was the lady who voiced toramaru. that is all

#i had a lot more to talk about than i thought #cant believe ive been a fan of this series for like. almost 11 years

[cowsfae]

when I get bigger, big enough to go somewhere by myself, I want to go to a land that’s far away

#erased #erased anime #i love this show sm #Hinazuki Kayo #Satoru Fujinuma #posca pens are so much fun !!!!!!!!!!!! #i wish i had skintones tho lol #poscaart #poscapens #my art #artists on tumblr

[locktobre]

Can I ask what you didn't like about Snow's design in RBTI? Maybe an opinion of each princess shown in the film if you're willing? Honestly all the princesses of color looked pretty bad to me and Cinderella right after them.

Sure, I’ll rant for a minute lol

I think, in general, the RBTI designs were very bad. It was fun to have the scene and see them interacting, but I think that they just didn’t do a good job on them visually. And the thing that sucks the most is that many of the princesses had been translated into CGI before, either in Sofia the First or Kingdom Hearts... and they managed to do it worse. This is Pixar. This is supposed to be one of the gold standards for animation and character design, and they did it BADLY. Plus, they all looked very samey. They removed any stylization unique to their movies, which doesn’t even make sense bc the WIRverse has characters with different styles interacting all the time. It’s like they were TRYING to be lazy about it. And then there was the Tiana controversy, which just proves that they weren’t trying for shit. Just bad. (I also don’t like the movie, so that doesn’t help.)

Anyway, my opinion of the individual princesses, in order:

Snow: She just sucked. Like I said, see her designs in Sofia the First and Kingdom Hearts to see it done better. But the thing I think bothers me the most is her hair. It’s like they didn’t know what to do with it, and I know her hairstyle can confuse some ppl, but you’d think Disney would get it right. She’s got 30s hair! That’s NOT how it’s supposed to look! And she had the same samey big-eyed skinny design as the others, bleh.

Cinderella: Ugly, looks like a little kid, has huge ears which is hilarious considering that a staple of her character design for years was not being able to see her ears. I think they translated her hair badly too, even tho there has been a shift in recent years to a more simple bun for her stock art, but they didn’t even do that right.

Aurora: Hated the way they did her bangs, kiddish face, I don’t even like the pink dress but they didn’t do it justice.

Ariel: I think Ariel was actually one of the more okay ones, bc she was already in the Glen Keane huge-eye style (since she was designed by him), but I wish they had picked a different shade of pink for her dress. Or just done the teal version that she’s usually marketed in anyway. I know ppl love the pink dress but I don’t lol.

Belle: One of the more okay ones, except for her face. The dress looked fine. But her chin was too sharp/not the right shape, and again, the huge eyes.

Jasmine: I don’t think her hair translated well to CG, which I’m more forgiving about bc it’s a very stylized hairstyle, so it’s not as easy to tell what it’s supposed to look like. But still, not a great look. She’s another of the okay ones to me, but I don’t have strong opinions on her to begin with.

P*cahontas: Bad. Even setting aside how much I dislike the character, she doesn’t look anything like her movie counterpart, from her face to her skintone. All around bad.

Mulan: The shape of her nose and chin are off, and I think the big eyes look particularly bad on her.

Tiana: There was the whole fiasco about her skintone, showing how much they just didn’t care when designing them. Her nose and the shape of her chin are off. (See a theme?) She had another pretty stylized big-eyed design that should have translated well, but didn’t.

Rapunzel: Unrecognizable, and especially egregious considering she was a CGI princess to begin with! They totally baby-faced her! They cut down everything soft and pretty about her and she just looks like a kid in a Rapunzel wig.

Merida: They gave her such HUGE eyes, and she looked like a mutant. Merida has a very unique design, and they just tossed it out the window. Bad. Very ugly. Idk who that was but it wasn’t Merida.

Elsa: They managed to make her stupid braid look even stupider, with how tall her hair was. I didn’t know that was possible but they managed it. Again, baby-faced, but also with that trademark Elsa makeup! Really creepy!

Anna: I will always stan her in any form, but she still looked bad. They only thing I actually liked about her design was that they made her face more angular, since she and Elsa both have such round faces in canon. But still, doesn’t look like herself at all.

Moana: Nose is off, chin is off, baby-faced her when she was already baby-faced... Ugly. Also, the fact that she was just as skinny as the other princesses even tho ppl love to claim her as curvy. Personally I don’t think of her as curvy at all, just a little more muscular than your average princess, but seeing her rail-thin was a trip.

As I said, I think pretty much all of them were done better in Kingdom Hearts and/or Sofia the First, as I mentioned. The Sofia designs were a bit more stylized, to fit into the show, but I think the changes they made were better ones, and they still managed to look more like themselves. For RBTI, it feels like they deliberately made them all look very much the same, and you can’t excuse that with “style,” that’s literally just laziness.

I’m also just a serious person and I don’t like some of the jokes they made. Like, having Aurora be narcoleptic is a common joke, but it’s also... not funny to me. She didn’t “fall asleep,” she was cursed, and she would have died if Merryweather hadn’t changed the spell! I know they’re not the actual Disney Princesses (they’re just the avatars of them on that particular site) but it still just feels weird and wrong, especially coming right from Disney’s own mouth. And them making fun of Merida’s accent? Eesh. That’s writing, tho, not character design.

Anyway, I don’t have strong feelings on a lot of them, but when I look at them it’s literally seeing them caricatured... by their own company... and it’s just weird and I hate it.

#mel irl #anonymous #thanks for asking

[bowlll]

lol imagine drawing an asian character with asian features and people calling you racist for it 🙄 its one thing to colour him with like Pure Yellow, but another to use a skintone with more yellow in it than white skintones like I'm Asian, not Japanese tho, and if you compare my skin to a white person, I have golden undertones that you probably wouldn'tve noticed otherwise, but I've still got that yellow so... and the eyes? It's just skinny eyes I got em too, Am I racist for having thin eyes? 🤔

Thanks! I actually have drawn Kakyoin with pure yellow Once for Stylistic Choices (maybe twice when i drew asexual pride icons but all of the colors in that set were ugly when i look back on it and yes it was like 2017 leave me be) but ive drawn him with different skintones dhskfhd I wish I had better examples but kaykoin isnt a character ive drawn a lot

Besides I think if you look thru my art you'll see that Ive drawn honestly any characters asian or not with a very wide array of skin tones going from very light to much darker, same goes for eyes n body types etc

#misc

[dollsorwhatever]

My Salon Doll

So I’m not gonna do like a full review, but you can find a pretty good one here if you’d like to see all of the specs like the body type and some close-ups of the micro-rooted head, clothing compatibility etc.  Everything is below the cut!

Lemme talk about the doll first, and then I’ll rant about everything else when I’m done lol. 

I knew there were some inconsistencies with the hair length from doll-to-doll, so prior to making my purchase I sent them a DM and they gave me a list of which characters had the longest hair for the current batch, and luckily one of them was on my list of faves (Olivia) so I got her.  I only have pics from after I removed her from the box (the box is hideous and makes the doll look cheap) and redressed (her outfit was pretty tacky but not the worst). Her hair was in two pigtails which tbh was annoying; she had this big kink around the mid-shaft of her hair because of this, and the back was split straight down the middle. A hairnet would have been better. The hair felt...dusty and dry, which is to be expected since dolls can’t exactly produce the oils necessary to protect and hydrate the natural hair that’s been rooted into their heads. Along with that, she also has these short little hairs everywhere- this is also, probably, a result of the hair being real, but I kinda wish they’d have brushed out those shorter hairs prior to rooting- they stick up all over the parting in particular and it’s not the cutest look. I think these dolls are really poorly presented both by the brand and the way they’re packaged, but I’ll get to that later lol.    Her layering is also longer on the right than the left, which is annoying because I’m not sure I can taper the ends enough to match the rest of her hair if I decide to even it out.  Here’s a (crappy) photo I took after I changed her outfit and gave her some quick curls with my curling wand:

I want to note that my bedroom is not a great place for this doll- her skintone has a slight olive undertone, and her hair is also a bit ashy, so she doesn’t look the best in my 100% grey and black bedroom with dim lighting. Her hair definitely looked that dry irl tho lol She also has like...shine spots on her face? I saw this on a few other dolls too, but mostly on played-with, used dolls so I assumed it was a result of product usage and play. But no, my doll is presumably brand new and she has some shiny spots on her forehead and nose. The body is kind of a weird sculpt (you can see this in the review I linked above) and it’s a weird size, too- I’m sure I can find something to fit her in, but she’s much skinner than an American Girl so clothes kinda hang weirdly on her. Her torso is a strange shape, the legs are pretty short and so is her neck. I think a big issue is also that none of the clothes I have for her, are particularly flattering on her body type so I’ll need to find something that works lol I decided to wash and heavily condition her hair to add some life to it, which REALLY helped (and got rid of some of the shine on her face thankfully- the rest will probably need to be buffed out with a magic eraser)

Also gave her a far-far side part like I do my own hair lol  The wash and condition really helped, but her hair was still frizzing up a little while it air dried, so I just went ahead and gave her a full blowout and some very very subtle waves with my curling wand (she’s wearing an AG outfit from Etsy which is P loose):

I’m probably going to wash and condition it again tonight and leave it to air dry- but this time I’m gonna leave her hair soaking in the conditioner for an hour or so, just to really hydrate and compensate for the lack of scalp oils in her hair lol  My overall thoughts are that the doll is pretty; she has a beautiful face sculpt, with subtle paint and and a nice, serene expression, and I think her micro-rooted, human hair is a fascinating concept and a pretty fun experience. Her hair is kind of an adjustment for me, because you can’t work with it in the same way as synthetic hair- it lays differently, reacts differently to heat and product, requires a different kind of care and I’m simply not accustomed to it, but I still absolutely love playing with her and her hair.   My biggest qualm is that everything-everything- about the branding, aside from the actual dolls, themselves, is just..bad. Like to the point where I’ve known about this line for almost a decade and hadn’t purchased one until now because the website, branding, even the outfits and the HORRIBLE unflattering stock photos are so bad that they literally deterred me from buying one lmfao, and even now I was only convinced by seeing other people’s photos of the dolls, like the amazing ones from this user and this photo of Olivia (which is what made me pick her lol) The dolls have such subtle features and neutral hair colors, which should both be the focal points of the line along with the human hair obv, but they drown it all in tacky kiddy MSPaint branding. Like this is the only mass-produced doll line to ever have micro-rooted human hair, and despite being around for almost a decade there is SO little information about them when it comes to reviews and IRL pictures and it has to be because of how poorly the dolls are presented by the brand itself. 

Like you know your branding is bad when it makes you not want the doll lol

Anyway despite the branding issues, I’m gonna buy another one lmfao. I want Brynn or Sydni, but they both have similar qualities to Olivia so I might go with Jade instead. Plus her hair looks shiny and gorgeous in every photo I’ve seen of her lol.  But first I need to find clothes that fit them. I think slim 18′’ dolls like Magic Attic and Kidz n Cats might be compatible. All of the AG clothes are too low on the waist line, so they really drag her down and make her look really stubby. 

#my salon doll #mysalondoll #american girl #18'' doll #human hair

[0225pm]

wow the quality of the video really sucks after it has been compressed but well i don’t have a choice!

anyway, i’m moving back to tumblr again mainly cus wordpress sucks and it’s not allowing me to post videos unless i buy their premium plan which is tbh a no cus idk why platforms for blogging should even charge you for the features that they were supposed to have???? also sadly, tumblr also only lets you post 1 video per post limit which is why i’ve put the pics and videos i took into in one but it’s better than not being able to post a video at all.

so it’s our monthsary!!!!

we’ve been officially together for 3 years and 5 months now and wow, i’ve only just realised what a long time that is 😂 honestly, if you want to count how long it has been since we first met each other, it’ll probably be about 8 years now. tho han sees it as 8 years but i see it as 3y5m cus idk who he was back then ya know what i mean? like i know the 3y5m him now than the him 8 years ago.

han sent me his live location as he does so every sat, and i was late. even tho he came all the way to my place i was still late :/ and i was so sorry 😭 i know there shouldn’t be any excuses for my lateness but i have my reasons, even if anyone thinks it isn’t valid :/ so i alr prepared right? like i mentally prepared and visualize what i wanna wear and etc. and so i went to take a shower and all. and then my mom all of a sudden asked me to do things like ordering food for her, clipping her nails, airfrying some sotong balls cus she was feeling peckish. initially she asked me to order food, which i then did but it was immediately cancelled due to the weather. it suddenly rained really heavily. and then while i was in her room drying my hair, she suddenly said she wanted sotong balls which i then went to airfry. and then when i alr did that and continued drying my hair, she then asked me to clip her nails and i was like “i’m going out ibu later farhan will be waiting for me alr” and she was like nvm la it will only take a while. so i did that and then i had to just rush cus i checked his live location and he was alr nearing tenaga area which is so damn close to my place alr. then i quickly picked out the outfit i wanted to wear. i mean come on, it’s our monthsary and i wanted to dress up right and i alr had this mental image of what i wanna wear right? so i took it out, wore it and then i realized that it was still a bit rainy??? like kinda drizzling so i figured he’ll be coming up first to wait till the rain totally stops but he texted me asking me to come down instead. and at this point i was sweating profusely. yeah, it was rainy but i was feeling so warm from rushing and doing so many things at once. oh ya, i was wearing this satin white shirt with shorts and that was my initial outfit like it looks laidback and casual and effortless but i decided to change cus i was perspiring and it felt so uncomfortable wearing a satin material when you’re perspiring like heck!! so i ended up wearing my fav tee with the same shorts and brought my hoodie along. it’s also my fav hoodie from uniqlo. i think their hoodie quality is bomz it’s not too thick or too thin and i wanna buy more but maybe wait till they have sales or something. so i ended up just looking super hobo as heck like it just looks like i didn’t even bother to dress up and i felt sad but i didn’t want han to be waiting even longer.

so when i went down he was alr sitting at the seats at the void deck and i can feel anger radiating within him lol like i knew he was mad and he still had his helmet on and his rain jacket on and all. and then he gave me different options of where to go for our lunch and then i just sat there pondering for a bit. and then i asked him if he wanted to put the jacket and pants at home but he didn’t want to so he took it off and then put it on the table and he took off his helmet as well. and then i asked him if we could eat at genki and he told me that genki was one of the options that he forgot to list so we decided on genki! his anger didn’t last long and as he stood up to head over to his bike i went to him and open up my arms cus i just wanted to hug him lolol then at first he tried to act all “ew” and moved away but he ended up hugging me anyway hehe and then don’t want to let go lol so bobo so cute. honestly i’m still shy??? around him wtf. like when i initiated the hug itself i felt so shy loooooollllll and when he didn’t wanna let go it made me blush wtf but ofc he can’t see cus we have to wear the stupid mask bc of stupid covid. i hate it wtf my face is so sensitive and it’s breaking out bc of having to wear the mask so my skin can’t breathe. like what’s the point of me not wearing makeup underneath the mask when i still break out anyway right zzz hais. ok sorry side track a bit but ya hahaha so then i told him i wanted to show him something!!! and then he was like “eh eh who said you let go” or was it “who said you can stop hugging” but it’s either one la hahaha then i took his hand and pull down my mask and then kissed his hand 😂 then i told him to look and i said “no transfer”!!!!!! hahahahaha cus i was wearing this lipstick and wtf man the formula is damn amazing really didn’t transfer anywhere at all. i even kissed my own hand and i even drank water but not transfer AT ALL. it was a gift i got from two years back i think hahaha for my bday from rai, a kylie kit and i haven’t worn it out before mainly bc the color didn’t suit my skintone cus the shade felt so light but when i wore it this time it felt like the shade was darker somehow? idk if i became pale from staying at home all the time or idk lol but i like the shade now 😌

oh at first i didn’t wanna go to tampines cus we always go to tampines hahaha and i guess i made a face and han teased me about it lol as much as it annoys me it’s a good kind of annoying? 😂 cus he’s so cute whenever he teases me in that way lolol but we ended up just heading to tampines anyway cus he wanted to save up on petrol also and i thought ok ya cus he has to work now and he has to go to and fro everyday so it’s better for him to save the petrol as well. i put on my hoodie and then we went to the usual parking spot at tampines. and then bc both of our masks were down i could actually kiss him hehe. and then from there we walked to the front entrance of the mall cus of this covid there’s only one in and out entrance but entering was a breeze tbh cus even tho there was a long line, we didn’t have to wait long.

then we went up to the escalator. and genki wasn’t crowded at all either so that was great!!! we did the safe entry thing, got our temperature taken and got our seats. then we ordered some food hehe. i was excited cus lol i love genki. not as much as i love my bf but if i have to choose an express sushi shop i would choose genki 😂 i wanted something soupy and filling so i got their beef udon since i alr had their duck udon the previous time we went there. and then i got a drink and chawanmushi as an appetizer. i love their chawanmushi as well and it’s something i will always get. i used to buy their clams miso soup but since it was taken out of the menu, i got their chawanmushi instead. and i was so happy when han decided to try the chawanmushi!!!!! i’ve always knew him as someone that wasn’t into eggs but he actually liked this one!! and he even ate the prawn and the naruto/japanese fish cake when i fed it to him omg 😭😭😭 i was legit so happy wtf hahahaha and then his fried squid came, also one of the hot foods i will always order but usually i’ll get it if i didn’t buy any of the udon. but since i alr got the udon i didn’t order it. and then his mini chicken teriyaki don came and lol the bowl was rly so mini ahahaha i wish i took a picture of it but i didn’t. but it was worth for the price of $4 i think since it was actually filled to the brim. there was even slices of tamago in it. he fed me a spoonful and it was nice!!! i’m gonna try that next time i go to genki if i’m feeling like eating rice 😂 i like udon cus of the chewy texture of the noodles and the soup. and then a plate of mentaiko fries came 🤤 there was A LOT of mentaiko on it it was so amazing and i was so surprise cus i didn’t order it but at the end of the day han said that he saw that i didn’t order the fries so he ordered it for me 🥺😍 so sweet hais and i really enjoyed it. i love genki’s mentaiko sauce it’s so damn goooooodddddd. so salty so nice. and then my udon came hehe and i devoured it. i fed han some too and gave him one of the fish cakes cus i think they made a mistake and put two pieces. the udon was so good i love it hahahaha. and then han ordered a seaweed roll, 2 more beef sushi and 1 mentaiko salmon for me hehe yes i know how to eat salmon now!!!! but it must be seared. i still can’t eat raw ones unless i rly dipped it in soy sauce or if it’s cut super thinly then maybe can try 😅

then after we finished eating, we went up to see if we can catch a movie. i wasn’t sure if we’re allowed to sit together so i asked him to ask first if we have to be separated and yay we don’t have to separate!!! so we decided to watch train to busan 2: peninsula. since we alr watched the first one together and there wasn’t much movies that were showing so we decided to catch the 5:10pm slot. it’s been so so so long since we last watched a movie tgt so this was nice. we didn’t get anything to eat since we just ate and i was still full but we had some time so we went to fairprice and got some candies. then farhan bought a root beer slushy which turns out to be scam!!! cus it’s just ice and it was practically solidified even after the movie was over it didn’t even melt much within 2 hours wtf. and then he also got a hotdog bun 😂

the movie was great. not as great as the first one cus the first one was definitely much more impactful but this one was not too bad. a bit too much “racing” scenes but i guess it’s to keep its audience on the toes. the storyline is a bit meh as well but i guess the suspense from some parts made up for it. it’s quite tragic though.

and then after the movie, i asked han if he still wanted pizza but when we saw the queue there was still a bunch of people waiting for their orders. even some foodpanda and grab delivery riders were waiting so i told him we’ll just order in and at first he was like we’ll see how but i ordered anyway. then we went out to head home and han finally lighted a cigarette. hahahaha he actually had to suppressed his desire to smoke cus we didn’t have time since i chose the earlier slot for the movie and im so proud of him for being able to suppress the feeling and yet not turning into a cranky momok.

while on the way back, he wanted to top up some petrol so we stopped by spc and then he wanted to top up his cashcard so we had to go one big round from the carpark to where he can top up his card but the machine is stupid!!! and he got upset cus he wasn’t able to top up his card. i think he still prefers the card with chip reader than the contactless ones. so then we decided to head to 7-11 so he can purchase one with chip but they ran out. so we decided to find another petrol station cus he said usually it’s being sold there too. so we did and this time round i guess i was being cranky cus the seat of his bike was eating into my skin and it hurts like heck so i told him to just top up the card since they don’t have the chip ones and he needed to top up anyway but then in front there was another petrol station and apparently they had a chip + contactless card there and i think they only accepted cash for it so he came out and then went in back and bought one there. and i was still cranky lol and i was perspiring so much both from my scalp to my body and it was drizzling too so all i wanted to do was head home so i got upset and i lashed it out on him when we made our way back cus he kept trying to make a joke out of the pain i felt and it just triggered me cus it’s like he doesn’t understand how much it hurts??

but it’s not his fault. cus i’m the one that chose to wear shorts even tho i know how much it hurts when i sit too long on the bike. and then he said he’ll cut the netting off but i was like no wtf. cus 1, we don’t meet everyday which sucks but ya we don’t and thus i’m not the one sitting on the back of his bike everyday so having to sit one day out of the week doesn’t bother me as much as having to sit on it everyday ya know what i mean? and 2, the parts that are still protected which is probably about 90-80% of the seat is still useable so it’ll be able to help protect the other areas from getting damage by the claws of cats.

and then when we got back, he wanted to pass his gummies to me but no one in this household eats gummies or candies. my mom can’t even eat sugary content cus of health, my dad isn’t a fan of gummies or candies he much prefers chips and chocolates and my brother too prefers chocolates or ice creams. i don’t like sugary content either but unless it comes from cakes or pastries or ice creams or chocolates so rly, no one is gonna eat it. and then he got mad at me and all i could hear was “you do to me can but when i’m doing it to you cannot” and i didn’t get what he meant by that tbh so i just kept quiet all the way till we’re home. i quickly took off my hoodie, changed into a more comfortable shorts went to take a piss and then went into my room. i sat down for awhile in front of the fan cus i was sweating so much and then i cooled down before i apologized to him and then asked him if he was still upset. i tried to get him to explain what he meant but couldn’t get anything out of him cus he just prefers to sweep it under the rug whereas i like to talk about it so i can see what i did wrong or which areas i have to improve or change so it can better our lives ya know but he’s not like that and i have to understand it so i just kept quiet and then i kissed him and stroked his face and hair a little.

and then he asked me if the pizza was here and i said ya hahaha it’s alr in the kitchen and whether he wants me to take it so he was like yes and as i was going to take the pizza he grabbed me and hugged me tight and i just instantly melted. it was genuinely hot lol i like this kinda shit hahahahaha but i’ve always felt afraid that i was gonna hurt him with my weight so i didn’t dare do anything that will shift my whole weight onto him but he didn’t care and he said it doesn’t hurt 🥺 haissss

honestly going home was all i was looking forward to. it’s not bc i’m horny lol or maybe that’s one of the reason but it’s mainly bc i just want to lay in his arms and just cuddle and give him kisses and also receive kisses. i’ve missed him all week long and we haven’t really been able to talk much since he’s working and he’s always tired when he gets home but it’s good that he’s working hard for his future and for our future.

and then the time for him to head home came. a truly saddening end of the day and he left a little later than usual but i’m just glad he got home safely and didn’t get lectured for being home a little late.

#adaywithhan #julywithhan

[fidelishaereticus]

I was tagged by @legolasgoldy :D

Rules are the standard answer questions and tag 10 blogs you wish to know more about!

Age: o u kno, somewhere between 20 and 2000. it fluctuates.

Born: December 11th

Current time: 14:18

Last drink: keemun tea or water.

Easiest person to talk to: @thisbackworld 

Favorite song: ????? i do not comprehend this question i love way too many music. To pick a random song from my like top 40 or whatever (all tied) Slowly Comes My Night by Deine Lakaien marked an important turning point in my appreciation of music and i dearly love it.

Grossest memory: o fuck um,. a pizza. a pizza that was awful,,,,just.,,bad smells bad texture bad eveyrthing, but i thought i had to at least try to eat it, i was like. 8. i stopped eating it and walked away but the grossness lingered, haunted me, morphed a horrible nausea monster that c o n s u m e d my thought and being. i couldn’t bear the thought of food for the rest of the day. i have no idea why this was so awful but. it’s at least ONE OF my grossest memories.

Horror yes or horror no? yeeeeeeeeeeeee though, there must be sthg else interesting going on alongside the horror. I like horror as an addition to a great character dynamic or a setting or a conceptually fascinating topic. also, in addition to enjoying physical horror, i HERE for conceptual/existential horror (my brain cranks that shit out on a daily basis but i cope with it through explorations in literature/art/etc)

In love: YEes. well. im either in love or i’m depressed. whenever i’m in a good mood i’m in love with something or someone. its what make life worth living

Jealous of people? nope. with the caveat that i draw a HUGE distinction between envy and jealousy. To me, jealousy is “being possessive of the Good Things that one enjoys or possess,” perhaps even being paranoid that others will take them away. Jealousy is Feanor. In this sense, I don’t have a jealous bone in my body. So long as I can still enjoy the Good Thing, i’m more than happy to share. I want everyone to have the Good Things!!! Envy, on the other hand. I can not abide watching other people enjoy certain Good Things that are denied me. I’m absolutely horrible about this.

Ke$ha: her music is great fun, though it’s not the kind of thing i would usually  listen to on my own. she seems like a cool person tho

Love at first sight or should I walk by again: Not quite sure what this question is asking but in general, walk by again---and maybe show me something cool? Something you made? Idk, the human body, stripped of imagination, is not attractive to me. And in general i fall harder if my aesthetics are challenged and stretched rather than instantaneously catered to.

Middle name: Danger. >B)

Number of siblings: one, sister

One wish: uh,...*sweats*.,, I’m guessing that “omniscience” and  “omnipotence” are Right Out? More realistically, i just want the climate change apocalypse to stop. i want amurica run no dun dun to stop. I also want the facts of existence not to suck. i want to not have to watch my body and the bodies of my friends fall apart in slow motion while the world burns. haha none of this is realistic i don’t ever wish for anything realistic 

Person you called last: My dad

Question you’re always asked: uhhh....no idea.

Reason to smile:  MY KITTERS, MY FREENNSS, MUSHROOMS, THE SEAAA, and also the fact that a few people like my nascent stories

Time you woke up: 7am 

Underwear color: well if i had my way they’d all be deep prussian blue or ultramarine (or skintone, cuz some clothes require that) but instead they’re a v dumb fuchsia, bc thats what came in the Affordable Bag that was in my size, alas fund to buy fidelis fuckable!blue panties. no lace, just sexy color.

Vacation destination: i thought this said vaccination destination and had to stare at it for a good long moment there like ‘oh did i get the flu shot yet?’ um. aside from the olympic peninsula and mt rainier, which are just a few hrs drive away, uh,., boston, so i can visit my friends. thats all i want. but i cant because Money :/

Worst habit: lol im with you @legolasgoldy​ overapologizing is DEFINITELy one of my most annoying habits. Additionally i have a lot of chaotic/self-destructive/negligent tendencies that eventually pile up until i can’t contain the mess they’re causing anymore and then they effect other people & thats.....bad.

X-rays: ....*nods*....nice. looking at bones is cool. 

Favorite food: i don’t have favourites but uh.. FISH EVERY DAY 3X A DAY FRESH FROM SEA (i love raw salmon). 

Zodiac sign: Sagittarius. i don’t really believe this means anything but if you do that’s cool too

Tagging: imm....not tagging, buit if you see this consider yourself tagged!! EVERYBODY IS TAGGED. NOBODY IS TAGGED. 

[stdankus]

10/07

whoa, I was tagged by @studywithbread at the perfect moment as I seriously need some break from angsty fanfiction (thank you my savior) get some tea if you’re going to read this all, because man, it will take some time

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST: 1. drink: water 2. phone call: my dad 3. text message: last one I sent was a screenshot that I was tagged in this (lol) and last one I received said: I can’t see it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 4. song you listened to: I’m pretty sure it was accidentally in love from shrek soundtrack (it IS a very good song) 5. time you cried: well, as I said - angsty fanfiction

HAVE YOU: 6. dated someone twice: lol, I’ve never dated anybody 7. kissed someone and regretted it: what is kissing 8. been cheated on: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 9. lost someone special: unfortunately, yep 10. been depressed: I’m pretty sure I have seasonal depression? every year during autumn/winter I’m basically a wreck™ 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drunk - yes, thrown up - no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14. blue, red and lately yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yES! and I seriously would be dead without them (it was last year, right? or year before? whatever) 16. fallen out of love: does crush count? 17. laughed until you cried: why wouldn’t I do it this year? I do it all the time lol 18. found out someone was talking about you: bruh, I’m so amazing people talk about me all the time 19. met someone who changed you: bet I did 20. found out who your friends are: yup 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: what did I say about kissing

GENERAL: 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know: all of them, I guess? 23. do you have any pets: I have a cat and a dog (I used to have also a hamster but my cat decided to eat it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) 24. do you want to change your name: I already answered that question - not really 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I invited my closest friends for a little sleepover 26. what time did you wake up: today, surprisingly around 9 am, but don’t be fooled, I sleep crazy hours 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfiction, duh 28. name something you can’t wait for: drabbles from @shookspears, going to cinema with friends, 5th season of sherlock (HAHAHAHAHHA) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: a second ago, she told me that i should see a doctor. sorry mom this fanfiction is jUST 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: in the past - nothing really - everything that happened made me a person that I am today, and I like that chick. in the present - well, I should get a job probably 31. what are you listening to right now: my jeanmarco playlist I’m sorry 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I know and talk to two toms actually 33. something that is getting on your nerves: poorly written smutty fanfiction (I can only get through it when it’s well written and has, well, some plot), people telling me that I should care what other people think, being told that I should do something differently by a person who has no idea what I’m doing, raisins in pierogis (who puts that shit in them) 34. most visited websites: ao3, tumblr, youtube

LOST QUESTIONS: 35. mole/s: I have two on my face 36. mark/s: I used to have something shaped like diamond on the small of my back 37. childhood dream: I wanted to be a fashion designer, that’s all I think 38. hair color: chestnut brown, but I used to have red-ish something on my head and subtle ombre (not at the same time) 39. long or short hair: short 40. do you have a crush on someone: uh, martin freeman, benedict cumberbatch, levi ackerman, kageyama tobio? irl I stopped really caring 41. what do you like about yourself: my butt, being able to lose my weight without problems, my strong legs, brows, big lips, being able to change my handwriting as I wish, being good at math, not caring much what people think about me 42. piercings: I don’t have any 43. blood type: I’m pretty sure it’s B 44. nickname: when I was in primary school older guys used to call me “chocolate” because of my slightly darker skintone and being cute (thisissoadorableksks) 45. relationship status: single, and I don’t really want to change it 46. zodiac: sagittarius 47. pronouns: she/her 48. favorite tv show: SHERLOCK, duh, sense8 49. tattoos: I don’t have any but my friend is getting one done soon and shE WON’T TELL ME WHEN 50. right or left hand: right 51. surgery: nope 52. hair dyed in different color: as I said, it was red-ish burgundy something 53. sport: I wish I was good in any, but I like rollerblading, skating and when I’m in the mood - basketball 54. where’s 54 55. vacation: almost every year I’m going with my family see some polish lakes, but I was once in london (blessing) and in milan 56. pair of trainers: I don’t really understand the question but converse and nike roshe??

MORE GENERAL: 57. eating: biscuits called ‘maltanki’ (good shit) 58. drinking: my cat stole my water 59. I’m about to: continue reading fanfiction 60. stop skipping numbers, dear author, it’s cheating 61. waiting for: cinema and gabi to show me her tattoo 62. want: uhm, money? more washi tapes, more mac lipsticks, money, better grades (tho it’s summer, I’m relaxing), to sing well, watermelon 63. get married: don’t think so, I’m pretty sure I’m asexual (maybe demi?) so it should be a similar person so that it could work somehow 64. career: I’m considering few options - graphic designer, something connected to advertising, or criminologist

WHICH IS BETTER: 65. hugs or kisses: I don’t kiss, and I’m not a fan of hugging (only with v close friends/my mom) 66. lips or eyes: my lips, someone’s eyes 67. shorter or taller: honestly it’s hard to find someone shorter than me 68. older or younger: oLDER, like benedict cumberbatch older (jk)(or do I) 69. COME ON IT REALLY IS CHEATING. at this moment is what, 89 questions to answer you lying duck 70. nice arms or nice stomach: nice back 71. sensitive or loud: depends, sensitive I guess 72. hook up or relationship: relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: what did I say about kissing 75. drank hard liquor: well, my friends broke me (I’m looking at you) 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear them 77. turned someone down: a lot (sorry guys) 78. sex in the first date: what is sex 79. broken someone’s heart: yuuuuup 80. had your heart broken: I don’t have a heart 81. been arrested: nope 82. cried when someone died: a lot 83. fallen for a friend: duh

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: as much as I like myself, I don’t always believe in myself 85. miracles: if I pass my oral polish matura it will definitely be a miracle 86. love at first sight: I think so 87. santa claus: hoW CAN YOU NOT BELIEVE IN IT 88. kiss on the first date: not really 89. *coughs* 88 questions

OTHER: 90. current best friend name: patryk, gabi, magda, love you guys 91. eye color: grey-ish 92. favorite movie: kingsman: the secret service

now, tag 20 people (well, I tag as many as I can think about right now, but if you see this post consider yourself tagged) @teddvlcpin @madstudies @sleepisnotmydivision @rawbug @designstudy @successaesthetics @officiallystudying @heyheyheyitsolehickoryhammike (man, someday I’m gonna break my fingers writing your username) @026ml-studies

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