#i wont him so bad its crazy

[morika]

helmsman

#gbf #rackam #morikart #long time no see #i wont him so bad its crazy

[clover-46]

the writers on here making the miguel fics need to remember his fangs inject paralytic venom hes not a real vampire it was just a joke in the movie 😭

oh but i still want him to bite me don’t get me wrong idgaf if they have venom 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️

#the copious amounts of smut i’ve seen with this man and the fangs is crazy #y’all need to tone it DOWN wheres the fluff omg?? #there’s like so many smut x reader fics clogging the miguel o’hara tag and people can express their creative liberties or whatever but it’s #getting CRAZY #like why is almost nobody talking about his character and writing an analysis on him #AND WHY ARE SO MANY FICS WRITING HIM TO BE SOME FERAL AND MEAN BEAST #firstly it’s feels racist to write a brown latino man that way. #second it feels fetishiz-y with how people only sexualize the fuck outta him and talk about nothing else when it comes to him #to add onto that people are drawing him with a MUZZLE on #at first all this didn’t really register in my head as bad but after seeing so much i see it 😭 #also some spanish speakers have said people are using incorrect spanish when writing dialogue for him and thats kinda funny #don’t use google translate please 💀 #miguel o’ hara #spiderman 2099 #across the spiderverse #i also saw someone say miguel would not be a good partner or something and i just know you didn’t pay attention #and i wont go into why because its spoilers but we have seen him be soft and happy with someone he cares about it’s just trauma that has #made him mean and depressed #he was obviously projecting onto miles in the movie when he acted like that let’s be fr #why am i writing a novel down here idk i just wanted to talk about it a little #i love the smut (trust me) but pleaaseee don’t start being fetishize-y

[welcometoteyvat]

jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic

#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship' #like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse #if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY #now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default #also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet #subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate #also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)??? #at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him #too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed #listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci #jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person #plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing #also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍 #JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving #the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female #mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3 #the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting #tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO #ramblings! #zhongxiao #if you want to filter it out ??

[dixidin]

Save a horse

#I don't think I need to finish myself #GAWWDDDDD #I don't play honkai nor am I in the fandom #but after this.......maybe I will #I want him so bad #like #you don't realize how much I am stimming on the other side of this screen #CAUSE ITS CRAZY #also some people call him malecchino (male arlecchino) #and because of that I will now be drawing them as siblings #why?... because its iconic. And I love to do iconic shit/ref #hope Tumblr wont put me down for this #Pleasetumblrpleaseplease #honkai star rail #hsr #boothill hsr #boothill

[mcybree]

Random limlife Scott rant, GO!

I got this ask and decided that I’d give it my best shot but got so mad on my skim through some of the moments I remembered that I gave up.

#Okay im half joking #I got angry enough for me to decide that writing a post without careful consideration would probably lead to an inaccurate little ramble #I need to like. actually sit down and watch limlife and do a full overall analysis #because the context for how scott acts each season is so important. a skim just wont do #The reason I dont have notes on him to share with the class already is because when it was coming out I was pretending that— #Scott grew as a person after 3l and I wanted to believe that so badly I started making stuff up about memory erasure and limlife being— #dubiously real so that I could look the other way when scott started being weird about jimmy again #I was like yeah they barely remember it thats why scotts being uncomfortably weird about jimmy this season #not because scott doesnt think about jimmy like a person and just wants to hear him say words that make him feel better about his— #rough relationship history #not because the idea of jimmy gaining independence from him makes him feel insecure or anything #sighs. sorry im just saying things. again its been a while since ive watched it so I need to actually. Yknow. Watch it before making posts #Its just crazy how he treats it like proving a point more than actually caring #“I mightve given you the 30 minutes last week if youd said love you” he wouldnt have. he was already leaving when he said it #he’s literally just trying to get him to feel bad about not saying it #pretty sure he kills jimmy in the same episode he lets jimmy kill him. Like. He doesnt really care like that #He just likes to pretend that he does. He is going through the motions of caring #Its like he needs to believe jimmy still needs him. in like a possessive way. Its really weird man #I will say though since I see this a lot: I dont think him singling out tango in the 30 seconds scene was intentional #because if im being honest. I dont think he sees the ranchers as anything serious #He assumes tango was just putting up with jimmy bc he had to. He doesnt think tango actually cares about jimmy #in his mind no one actually cares about jimmy. because if scott struggled to care about jimmy and Scott is known for being an amazing ally #that must mean everyone else struggles to care about jimmy. If that makes sense #rant over I think. tldr limlife scott analysis postponed until I get my life together enough to be able to sit down and watch forthree hour #bree barks so fucking loud #asks

[marsbotz]

OK OK sorry sorry ill stop hulk posting now. im going to bed

#ill actually try to reduce liveblogging stuff too i just got excited -_- wont let it happen again LOL #URGHHHHHH THO….. its soooo painful im literlaly the only hulk fan ever …. (lying) #so funny i remember the exact moment i became obsessed last yr too #i was watching the first avengers and it was the line where banners like #‘the cell was just in case you needed to kill me but you CANT. i KNOW i TRIED’ #‘i got low and i didnt see an end so i put a bullet in my mouth and the other guy spit it out’ #like….. jaw drop. #that entire scene is so crazy good btw. the dramaaaa #it hurts soooo fucking bad seeing everyone try to like coddle banner acting like its bc they care #when rlly theyre just scared of him #OOHHGGGGHG. shout out to the incredible hulk and avenegers assemble fro being the litwrally only two good hulk films #i kinda hate what the mcu has become but at the start it rlly was crazy cool

[raelyn-dreams]

Some characters get so much more interesting when you look outside the fandom view and get to know them on their own terms.

#this post is about leo tsukinaga #like i know hes crazy and a genius and goes uchuu and had a lot of trauma and whatever #but seeing how he is constantly shoved into the damsel in distress role and wants so desperately for someone to recognize his autonomy? #how he now trusts knights to do what is hood for him and the unit without taking that away from him? #how it was HIS FAULT TOO because not even the most gorgeous muse can possibly uphold someones mental health on their own #and how he and izumi are still fucked up because he wont admit that and izumi relapsed in a dark night's passing #and how its not as bad as before but everything is slowly building and stable but could come crasing down at any second #how he does have flaws and he is cruel but his cruelty comes so deeply from love and how everyone in knights needs to learn how to again #see reading knights in the fandom i could get their popularity from a surface level certainly #but god their story arcs. hoping !!! era will bring back ! era quality for them bc on god it was soooo. ugh. so fucking good #raelyn rambles #fandom

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

#heed my warning boy #it seems i am not well today #recently made the reluctant decision to revisit what was probably my VERY FIRST real hyperfixation #something that i don't necessarily want to mention by name right now because. well #its pretty objectively bad LOL like i dont think i know of ANYONE still posting about it or really proud of having liked it back in the day #i dont think it is as well known to the general public so it wont get me hunted down for sport even if i did name it probably hopefully #but for those who know its. probably not the best thing to be revisiting lmao (even though i think it might still be being made?? wtf) #but i felt i had to because i was about to start my period and was going crazy insane like you do you know how it is #and i randomly remembered a fanfic i loved and then remembered my fav character and how much i loved him #my actual first ever blorbo oh my GOD he was everything to me #so i reluctantly decided to rewatch “just the first few episodes” just to see how much i remembered and also to prove to myself it sucks #but surprise surprise: nostalgia and hormones are making me actually kind of enjoy it #and now i am suffering from fucking Catholic-like Guilt for not hating it which i think is pretty silly lmao #so im kind of posting this in an attempt to convince myself that its like. FINE and cringe is dead and all that #and that sometimes i gotta be nice to my little mentally ill brain and give it the junk food (bad media) it craves #ESPECIALLY when im on my period LMAO #anyway completely unrelated: why the FUCK do i still remember almost every single fucking word to the delicious tomato song SDHJFKSAJF #i hope no one actually reads this far in the tags bc i know that reveal will probably deal psychological damage to some of you LMAO SORRYYY #ok yeah posting this and then immediately going to bed so that the Haters cant reach me LOL SEE YA

[voidwolf]

the “change yourself to look like him” urges are getting harder and harder to control :)

#yes this is about benrey hlvrai #no i will not go into further detail its embarrassing #ok i lied i’ll go into detail but i’ll be incredibly vague about it #basically i have this hc for one of benrey’s physical characteristics #and i kin benrey #however this physical characteristic that i hc that benrey has is unfortunately very different from the physical characteristic that i have #in fact they’re opposites #now its important to note that im insane #and bc i kin benrey and am insane i want to be just like him in every aspect possible #and i have the ability to change this physical characteristic of mine to match benrey’s #and i want to do it so bad #but im scared #im scared i wont like the results #and im not sure how to go about doing it bc of how my body works #so im not going to do it #but my god the urges are getting stronger #tldr: im crazy LMAO

[todayisafridaynight]

sometimes i like to think about ichi and the gang letting jo go up the millennium with them before shipping him off to the big house and then just sicking him onto tendo like a rapid dog when they get to him

#snap chats #ive been having such bad art block today like theres things i want to draw but my hands just... Wont. so Text Posts time #hopefully i'll be good for wednesday when i stream but anyways hallucinate with me #i dont have any deeper reason for liking the idea its just funny as hell to imagine #bro like one of them pit bulls on a leash chained to a stake in the ground ykwim #they clamber on up there and ichi and tendo have that Pre Fight chat and Oh Bitch Is That Adachi With Jo Coming Out The Elevator #comically oversized dog collar and chain included adachi can barely hold him back. jo might as well start using the chain as a weapon too #listen the eye scene wasnt enough for me. i just think jo should go a little crazy. a little stupid even #is it what he deserves i dont know but its what /i/ deserve #this can be the one (1) time he and ichi get along too see it's called bonding

[1980ssunflower]

SCREAMS

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #i forgot i didnt finish taking all possible screencaps from this ep and went back and WOO #dude aughh the color pallete for the end of this ep/ beginning of next ep is CRAZY its my favorite pallet for them in all the show #theyre scared during that scene tho so not ideal for gush posts but theres no way i wont use it lol #tbh im considering using one of those screencaps as my new header maybe #i just love the colors sm #BUT AAHHH IM SO SOFT FOR MY BABIES!!! #rewatching this ep i was reminded how much of a BASTARD min can truly be like JESUS min #my dude truly said some heartless shit to ryan like CALM DOWN #but i LOOOVE his line that acknowledges a HUGE thing for him #'so... waiting didnt work... you can mess up even if you stand still' #HIS ENTIRE THING IS STANDING STILL LIKE FREEZING UP AND BEING FROZEN IN MULTIPLE WAYS LIKE #AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! #i feel so BAD for ryan this ep for how shit he gets treated by min like MY BABY!!!!!!!! I WILL BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF MIN FOR YOU BABY #and on TOP of that min YELLS at ryan immediately after saving him from falling to his death GHJSK #MY MAN DOESNT EVEN GET A BREAK!!!!!!! #BUT AHHH SEEING HOW GENUINELY TERRIFIED RYAN WAS WHEN HE WAS SURE HE WAS ABT TO DIE LIKE!!!! #NGL RYANS VA WAS SOOO GOOD IN EXPRESSING JUST GENUINE TERROR IN HIS VOICE THAT SOUNDED PATHETIC EVEN #made my heart hurt ;;w;; #tbh this ep really shows mins character tbh esp towards the end when he realizes he was wrong... but also ends up not apologizing #even when he was abt to #hfdjsk he can be so grouchy and bitchy but so so sweet and fun and nice and GHDFSJK FUNNY TBH W HOW MUCH OF A SMUG ASSHOLE HE CAN BE #HES REALLY FUNNY WHEN HE GETS LIKE THAT TBH #AOUHHH BUT THEY LOOKS SO CUTE THIS EP I GOT SO MANY SCREENCAPS OF MIN #SOME VERY CUTE ONES BUT ALSO LOOOOTSSS OF HIM JUST YELLING AND BEING ABSOLUTELY PISSED OFF HFDSJK #anways kissing them kissing them KISSING THEMMM #MY SOULMATES MY BABIES MIS AMORES TE AMO TE AMOOOOO #my heart hurts thinking of them rn i want to pet ryans hair while he lays his head on my lap while playing guitar #want to feel min wrap his arms around me and bury his face in my neck while i cook us dinner

[officialbillhader]

Homophobia

Listen i understand this book was written in the 80s but between the main character being a mary sue, the characters all being rather typical stereotyped characters, the lack of an actual female with a unique personality (assuming any of the characters have a unique personality), an unnecessary sex scene just to show the mary sue can get laid, the author also decided to make one of the (kind of nuanced) bad guys a gay pedophile, and i seriously put my head in my hands and debated if i wanted to continue reading this book

#awesomepie3221 #thank goodness i bought it second hand #its not that the story is bad. nor that its written badly. its all the characters are so basic #the hospital administrator is a piece of shit ✅️ #the one female doctor was abused and is traumatized but trusts the main male character immediately despite him basically just being a good #person ✅️ #the corporate woman is cold and smart and wont sleep with the sleezy administrator ✅️ #the secretaries sure will fuck him tho! ✅️ #main characters raised by a cold on the surface but warm deep down nanny ✅️ #cold tough father that judged his kids harshly ✅️ #mom with no personality exceot to be hysteric abt things i guess ✅️ #the guy who is deemed crazy bc the bad guys are ruining his life but no one will believe him ✅️ #the mom who is destroying herself while trying to help her dying son while the father isolates himself at work ✅️ #did this author have no original character idea. like at all #maybe this is a bad book #homophobia cw #im sorry i shouldve put that before the rest of the tags #this one part. like come on

[postalplants]

Venting again lol

How can "I don't think I'm more disabled than you," "I can't handle supporting you when you express symptoms of your disabilities," and "I can't handle you getting a service dog when I'm so disabled that I can't get a job" all be true? Throw in the fact that I didn't think that I could handle a job but had to for the sake of finances.

So I work, despite being so fucking exhausted by it and getting so fucking triggered every single shift I work. But I can't fucking say that! Because that's upsetting and destabilizing! You want me to be honest, but if you react like this to my honesty, how am I supposed to be honest??

I mentioned needing a service dog because I'm thinking about the fact that I'm struggling with my mental health and functioning but can't tell you that and I know that there are guarding and grounding tasks that a service dog can do that will help me do my job. And you know what! I need to get a second job because I give you the majority of my income and you still need more! You haven't asked me to get a second job but jesus christ you've done everything but.

#vent #im sitting in the work bathroom having an anxiety attack because my least favorite coworker wont shut up about me needing to retrain her #on things that ive already retrained her on while im on my fucking lunch. and it smells like shit in here and i want to cry. #and my body hurts so bad because ive been spending my days off working like a dog on things that need to get done around the house. #but i got told last night that im a deeply selfish person and all of the helpful things i do are just ways that i try to distract myself #from how selfish i know that i actually am. #the joke is that im so selfish because i told them that i need a car because i feel like i need to feel in control of my own life. #and thats selfish because apparently i control their lives by them driving me places and waiting at the hospital for me when im sick. #well. if i had a car you wouldve only had to drive me to & from my colonoscopy. and im really fucking sorry that i make your life harder #because im sick and disabled. im actually genuinely sorry and ive felt guilty for it since it happened and i tried to thank you for it and #ive been trying to do my part around the house to make up for it. and im glad that you finally confirmed that im a burden so that it #wasnt only in my imagination. you really feel like that i guess #god i cant SAY any of this because they didnt explicitly say that im a burden #they said that i controlled where they had to be when i was in the hospital and emergency room and had appointments. #its not a stretch to say that that implies that im a burden right? right?? am i crazy? #god i feel crazy. #and believe it or not these tags have NOTHING to do with the post lol. #also :) my other roommate wont talk to me until im adequately medicated :) #because im too much of a POS when im unmedicated for him to talk to me apparently. #and im the only selfish one because they give their lives up for me apparently? i guess i need to complain more about #how much effort i put in to try to help them? (i wouldnt actually do that because i dont DO things like that. even when ppl do them to me) #FUCK

[sunasbabie]

no cause in the first place why are people allowing the people of m*arcos to buy their votes and the fucking comelec have no response to the broken machines

#.txt #like u fucking tested it out before the elections why is ut suddenly broken??!! #are u fucking dumb or are u fucking dumb #istg the people in this fucking country dont think #they only think abt the money that was given rn to them cause they allowed their votes to be taken away from them #but in the end its gonna bite u in the fucking ass cause when u call for help from him u wont ever recieve a response #its lit so crazy how people are so blind to what that family did to the country #and now theyre allowing it to happen again #and then youre gonna complain abt how bad the situation is here??’n #well whoopdie do i wonder whose fucking fault is that #i refuse to suffer from the ignorance of people #honestly once i work and get enough money im moving away from this awful country #its lit going to be the laughing stock of the whole world #also how is there already that much votes when the claims are theres a lot of broken machines??!! #make it make sense

[chisungie]

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#lost how far i was into death is the only ending for the villainess manhwa #and im sure i read through like. waay further in novel form but obv its been long enough that the manga should be pretty caught up now #BUT OH MY GOD i picked a random chapter and iT WAS ECLISE(? girl whats the actual romanization for these names) #TELLING THE FEMALE LEAD TO LEAVE HIS COLLAR ON AND HE'L BEHAVE SO SHE WONT THROW HIM AWAY #GIRLLLLL 😭 i always felt so bad for him i think i liked all the male leads enough but he always. damn. he doesnt miss </3 #44597 #THE LATER CHAPTERS WHERE HE GETS CRAZIER(?) ARE WILD TOO BUT I FORGOT HOW CRAZY.. MF DO BE CRAZY THO 💀 #also liked vinter.. forgot if he was any good in the end but hes v perceptive and a little manipulative but w good intentions #which sounds shitty but i swear it makes him interesting. forgot the other dudes tbh but i probably didnt like them 💀 #loyal wolf guardian and clever bunny wizard.. my choices are funny im ngl #WAIT THERES THAT ONE GUY THAT LOVES PENELOPE THROUGH AND THROUGH.. THE ONE WHO SAVES HER FROM THE ISLAND RIGHT? #such a good guy i support that mf so hard ! but hes just not for me yk </3 #the brothers suck tho 🤷‍♀️ iirc #ohh its kallisto. hes hot tho #actually him saying he dgaf abt the empire and would run it to the ground if penelope wanted it is pretty lit too. team kallisto tbh #OUgH CALLISTO IS SO FUCKING FUNNY IM NGL #WATCHING PENELOPES FOCUS ON JUSTRAISING LIKABILITY FOR SURVIVAL TURN INTO HER ACTUALLY FALLING FOR CALLISTO IS SO AAAAAAA #nvm seeing his favourability for her vs eclise's just broke my heart. i hate him sm #penelope slowly and unconsciously realizing shes formed a real connection w these ppl outside of treating this like a game im going to sob #buT STILL NOT KNOWING HOW TO MAKR THAT 99% INTO A 100%.. PLEASR THAT MAN CAN READ YOU LIKE A BOOK HE KNOWS YOURE LYINGGG 😭 #ohhhhh then it all goes to shit and she doesnt trust anyone this is so pAINFUL STOP