#i'm gonna try to be more active now

[thephantom]

floating, falling, sweet intoxication! touch me, trust me, savor each sensation! let the dream begin, let your darker side give in, to the power of the music that i write! the power of the music of the night!

#michael crawford #sarah brightman #the phantom of the opera #phantom of the opera #poto #west end #potoedit #e/c #erikstine #the other two were just warm-ups.. obvi #the .psd files for these on my laptop are literally just 'erikstine1' 2 3 etc #and the coloring grouping i titled 'erikstine special' so. y'know #that's how it be tonight #GOD BLESS THEM they are my Parents actually #also in making all of this i have learned that mikey c is INCREDIBLY fuckin' pale lmao #like you. can tell ofc. it's obvious but YOU PUT ONE CURVES LAYER ON THAT MAN it's all over #washout city #but anyways enjoy my first long LONG post after like a year-long hiatus <3 #i'm gonna try to be more active now #as my poto interest peaks in the wintertime

[mattodore]

salt in our memories

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 cas #simblr #editing recent-ish cas screenshots of them in outfits and poses that everyone has already seen before. groundbreaking. #i was just trying to make myself feel better by doing something mindless for a bit but it didn't work so . now i'm just sitting here #there are two more screenshots that i edited but tumblr keeps crunching on them and tbh i just want to go lay down #maybe i'll add them here later but probably not i love wasting my own time <3 new edits after three weeks tho so there's that #caption is just a quote from salt by chelsea wolf which is one of theo's playlist songs #bc i fr had nothing else in mind for it 🤷 #ik i said i'd get to my activity but i really don't feel up to it #i'm just gonna read i think and maybe write a little later #okay. bye 👋

[13thdoodle]

bunch of Phantasy AU doodles n wip from earlier this year

Basically I just found out this year that ball-jointed dolls actually have strings in them and not just... magically attached by the ball joints themselves? And 31 in this AU is a ball jointed doll that were made out of Danny's energy so here we are :3c

I've been watching a lot of doll customization since earlier this year and found out from dollightful's video that no they are all connected by elastic strings inside so that's where the idea came from

...i was looking on google to find a good example to put here and clearly I'm not exactly paying attention to how the main body strings are actually.. pinned to?

the video I've been watching the most is dollightful n moonlight jewel and they have their bjd usually only to the bottom of the doll head instead of all the way to the top on the skull pin like the diagram above

Which is why 31 has his strings all connected to the 'heart' in the middle instead of the head kasjdnkasjnd

But yeah uhhh specifics aside...

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Those ball jointed dolls made me think of 31, and then thinking about the clones in Phantasy AU and like.. the logistic of it

for 31, the idea is that during the circus gothica arc for this AU, Danny actually got kidnapped all the whole way into another universe/plane in which he met Valeska (Enn's oc) who unalive what his face the circus leader n break Danny's hypnosis

and now that Danny is essentially stuck in a whole other plane/realm/or sth he just following Valeska hoping she'll help him find his way back.

In one such trip, Danny got kidnapped (again) by another group/cult who wanted to use his power/energy as a gate keeper to the ghost zone to make their own gate keeper so they can open portals to ghost zones and maybe other realms too

31 is part of the experiments. He's a doll made with part of Danny's energy as his core.

And then it's.. uhh.. sth sth Valeska finally found out where they kept Danny and devour everyone there safe from Danny n 31 who helped him escape so now the three of them travel together~

The last pict is me thinking about clones and kingdom hearts :tm: so dramatic about Danny being the soul separated from the main body and 31 a clone made from part of the soul too and all that Not sure where I'm going with that but it do sound cool

And there's also Danielle but I'm not exactly sure.. how she would fit in? but it would be interesting if she was made from Danny's body somehow

so 31 made from part of teh soul and Dani from part of the body sounds poetic somehow

#13thdoodle #dp phantasy au #dp fantasy au #dp 31 #if u noticed that I've been putting some read more lately #it's bc one of the school project is to document all your progresses in a doc including all ur research and fails and what not #and basically i'm trying to make it into a habit by doing it here too #like.. no harm done i think in putting up what inspired me and where ideas came from #n what rambling about things #yall follow me here so i assume ur interested a lil bit about me rambling my ideas n such #i put them under readmore specifically bc I know how long I can go on #and like the main thing about documentation is to be transparent about it #u learn from ur failures n ur successes n this is one way to track them #if u fcked up figure out where how and why and what u can learn from it n then improve from said fail so yea anyway #but yea i been trying to keep things short n clean so it look nice before #but i got a p good grade for documenting everything last tri so now I'm well actually I DO have a lot to say about things #so heree i am #am i gonna be more active tho that would be a whole different topic all together bc ha ha capstone qwq

[oh-no-melon]

Remember when I drew these guys A LOT? I still love them, everyone. They are my comfort characters and I can't not love them after almost 20 years. My boys. Probably more to come.

#dbz #dbz fanart #dbz goku #supreme kai #kaioshin #dragonball super #dragonball z #fanart #my fanart #i'm gonna try to be more active artistically #now that i have a good job schedule again #and life seems to be -ok- #at least for the moment

[konkuurito]

OLD FRIENDS, same disease. i'm killing myself again. OLD FRIENDS, same to me. i can't get away from it. OLD FRIENDS are just a memory that i didn't need. I CAN'T BE SAVED. コンクリート

#KONKUURITO: INDiE FANDOMLESS/DEAD BY DAYLIGHT ADJACENT OC. WRITTEN BY CINNA.

#I'M GONNA TRY TO BE MORE ACTIVE YEEHAW #i say as i make this promo and go to bed immediately after jfdgkjdfkjggjk #shhhh i've been working on it for way too long and now i am sick of it shhhh #self promo. #horror rp #dead by daylight rp #independent roleplay #indie rp #suicide mention //

[skrunksthatwunk]

went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share

+ more thoughts and old yyh art below

(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)

something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah

but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)

i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun

however i did transcribe the notes i left:

7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show

8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy

7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3

1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it

[+ this drawing]:

anyway. forever fornever. if you even care

#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore #skrunkart #yyh #yu yu hakusho #you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate. #ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done #also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way #ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back #to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous #and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se #like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol #some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth #there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader #no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too #part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so #well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented' #stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D #ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd #probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah

[master-k0hga]

| ... Well, I WAS ok with this last night, but now I'm not entirely happy with this doodle...-

Oh well, not like they're the main focus on this blog, I'm mostly really focusing on my OCs and the other few personal projects here... Although doesn't help with Tumblr just no longer filtering themselves, showing off their true colours for the longest time and also jumping on the "AI" bandwagon too along with just being a dictated lot like the rest of the assholes who make up 100% percentage of all brands-

I'm just a fucking idiot who just wants to draw OCs, post random fcking art and show it off when I'm not fcking working and killing myself over a job that will never release me from the clutches of bullshit!

WHAT WAS SO. FUCKING. HARD ABOUT KEEPING ONLINE AS A DUMBASS PLACE WHERE THERE WAS NO PLAGIARISM, POLITICAL BULLSHIT FOR SITES TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF AND FUCK THEIR OWN USERBASES. WHILE ACTIVELY CONTROLLING AND TAKING THEIR FREEDOM AWAY!

Not like we ever had freedom to begin with-

Twitter, Reddit, YouTube, DeviantART, Instagram, T- HERE! WHEREEVER FUCKING ELSE! Fuck all CEOs and teams of the online world, people just wanted ONE place where they could escape hells of reality even just for a LITTLE WHILE and NOW look what you did- Kill yourselves!! I fcking hate corporates I hate the rich I hate the system and I hate governments all around thr world, D I E ffs fuck humans and their greed I hope this shit ass race gets OBLITERATED with NO fcking trace of the human existence left!! Fucking disease, pests, a literal INFECTION of life itself!

Fuck you fuck you fuck you I hate this fcking world, do me a fcking favor and fcking blow up already!! I've had e-fucking-nough

. Art © Me . DON’T RE-POST .

#..... #AND FUCK YOU TOO!! #........ #MASTER-K0HGA #Ary / Kohga Chronicles #Ary / Kohga OCs and Works #....... #No I'm not gonna fcking tag this shit!! Why tf should I!? #Nobody fcking gives a shit. Let alone the people who are ACTIVELY GETTING MASSACRED TO OBLIVION AND BACK!! #Humans are a fcking selfish lot and you can see it with the cunts who run it! #The cunts we vote for are all vile and evil and desrrve to get shot and killed #The shit ass rich cunts who try to ''influence'' our way of thinking and speaking to benefit themselves #Make themselves more fcking richer or whatever. Dickheads dictating and controlling people's lives #Assholes being cunty assholes who also need to die! Fuck everyone who says the good outways the bad #IT FCKING DOESN'T AND YOU CAN STOP THAT DELUDED BULLSHIT!! HUMANS ARE NOT FREE #WE ARE LIKE ANTS!! WE ARE AN ANT COLONY WHO'S JOB IS TO WORK TIL WE'RE DEAD #THAT'S WHY EVERYTHING THE GOVERNMENT DOES IS TO NOT. BENEFIT. OR. HELP. US #CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL AND THEY JUST GO BACK TO THEIR FCKING YACHTS HAVING- #THE MOST EXPENSIVE SHIT ASS WINES AND DINES WHILE WE WORK OUR ASSES OFF TIL OUR BONES BLEED RED #TIL THERE'S NOT LEFT OF OUR MIND OR ENERGY TO THINK. SPEAK. LISTEN AND FIGHT FOR OURSELVES!! #THIS IS THE REASON WHY PEOPLE CRACK AND KILL EITHER THEMSELVES OR OTHERS!! #EVEN OUR FCKING HARD WORK IS BEING USED AND PROFITED AGAINST US. AND THERE ARE STILL #CORPORATE SHILLS WHO ACTIVELY SUCK THE OPPRESSORS DICK LIKE A LOLLIPOP. YOU'RE BEING UUUUSED!!! #I'M BEING USED. WE'RE ALL BEING FCKING USED AND PEOPE ARE TOO COWARDLY OR DELUDED TO SEE THAT #THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU. ME. OR US. YOU SOLVE ALL ISSUES BY SNUFFING THEM OUT #KILL. THEM #YOU KILL THE OPPRESSORS. THE ONES IN CHARGE WHO USE FALSE HOPE IN EVERY WAY #..... YES I AM FCKING PISSED. I WOKE UP LIKE THIS!! #...... Anyways this is a fairly recent post so. I'm gonna get on with this little art spam for now. #It's been a couple months since I mentioned about it so.. Yeah whatever..

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Oh yeah uh. No I didn't get the Chica design stuff done yesterday I got absorbed in the maths of horses on car parks. Uhhh sorry?

If things go well, I may start offering doodle requests for good reference pictures of Mazercise though so we have that to look forward to I guess lmao

#there's no good ones on image searches it's truly devastating :( #I really wanna draw horsies though #I'm. very tired right now though so imma eat and go sleeps as early as possible I think #might be able to be awake for more than uhh half of the time my meds are meant to be active? #also yes. i'm going back to sleep after taking my adhd meds. so sue me lmao #'theyre meant to keep you awake!' sounds like a skill issue. #lmao nah it's a new type of med so I'm on a really low dose and also I think it's ACTUALLY lasting the intended amount of time?? #wild... strange... crazy even... none of the others ones did that lmao #anyway yeah I'm gonna try that and see if it improves ability to create things #it should! I don't see why it wouldn't! I have SO MANY horsie drawings to make you've no idea #and a few cupcakes to finish up the chica design thing #and maybe more!! we shall see!!! #I'm gonna save everything for next Sunday and you're just gonna have the most PACKED Sewerhell Sunday ever lmao #pop rox talks #IF it works #it might not #so.... we shall see!!!

[sinnersalvation]

SINNERSALVATION: an independent multimuse for characters from various pieces of horror media, written by meri. featuring sadako yamamura, yoichi asakawa, heather mason and more. please read the rules before following, and feel free to send an ask if you need any triggers tagged!

#indie horror rp #video game rp #ringu rp #silent hill rp #stranger things rp #until dawn rp #this will likely be a low activity blog for the most part; but i'm gonna try and be around more from now - hence the promo! #you can also find me at @occkalt if you want to see more samples of my writing. ;w;

[sunnova-art]

Stray Gods is so good but I have no idea how it took me so long to notice that Grace is Laura Bailey. I watch crit role for years and I couldn't recognise her voice lmao

#stray gods #arthurs random thoughts #I'm close to the end I think so I'm trying really hard to avoid spoilers rn #My favourite song so far is Medusa's one though #Also gonna try to post my random thoughts here now so this blog is a little more active how you don't mind #I'll tag them all anyway

[paleode-ology]

spent the last solid couple of hours going through my old tumblr likes in order to have things better archived... unfortunately didn't make a note of how many I started at but it was probably in the mid 2000s and I've only cut it down to 2000 now. this is gonna take so long

#ode by ode #spring cleaning ig #there are so many things I should be doing instead!!!!!! #but I've been trying to just get more into my computer and browser setup #we started off making sure calibre was set up the way i wanted since i'm 100% gonna be an anna's archive bitch now that i've heard about it #and then I've been making reading lists #and organizing my bookmarks and bookmarking all of the sites i had saved in liked tumblr posts that i wanted to actually look at #set up my rss reader but haven't put anything in it yet #idk the onset of me realizing how much i do love archival management #and then the fact that my gf is sharing her vpn acct with me #sort of added together into this internet weirdo vibe i'm actively cultivating #and i mean i already lowkey had it going on #like i've been a firefox girlie since high school #and i def do a lot w privacy and the firefox qol extensions #plus i've been... how shall I say... well versed in the usage of shadow libraries for a couple years now as well #but fringe web things haven't been on my radar NEARLY enough #and i've been meaning to make actual lists and compilations of advice and book and game recs for eons #so just. continuing with that #even if i don't do anything else for a couple months i'm glad i made a decent dent in the tumblr likes bc they've been eating at my soul

[mattodore]

the 1.5k of matthias lore that's just sitting in my google docs since the ask i answered about him still won't show up on my blog

#river dipping #i'm going to try posting this ONE MORE TIME. #and if it doesn't show up on my blog (like mattodore.tumblr.com/tagged/river dipping) then i'm just gonna revisit this tomorrow #maybe i'll just make a regular text post but with a screenshot of the ask attached? idk....... #anon i'm so sorry kdjfnhdfkgjhn #fr SO embarrassing for me trying to post the same thing like four times in a row now #EYE COULD BE READING RN TUMBLR!!! I COULD BE SEVENTY PAGES DEEP IN AN EPUB RN!!! #AND INSTEAD I'M OVER HERE WITH EGG ON MY FACE #also i still haven't checked my activity feed kjdnhkng sawrry i'm just so annoyed by this i'm distracted

[tvrningout]

i genuinely don't know how it's almost 8 o'clock ;;

#i feel like i really did just waste this day but i've felt so drained #definitely gonna try to sleep at a decent hour tonight unu #for now i'm gonna try to do some bingo sheets and maybe answer some #honestly doing might be easier than answering rn bc my head feels incredibly empty asdfgh #tomorrow i'll be more active -- sorry y'all ;v; #get ready to ramble | ooc

[writelives]

With my birthday coming up and my brain rattling about how cluttered this blog is, i think i'm going to remake this blog elsewhere, possibly even with a new url & graphics overhaul and everything. I'm thinking i'm going to pull my canons from @writefate & even my naruto ( @gakureis ) & ygo ( @oreturns ) canons over from their multis onto this new blog too! basically shoving all my muses back into one place again wow look at me go.

but yeah, that's what's going to slowly happen. Idk how long it'll take because I do have lots of muses but !! When the new blog is done I'll follow you there if you leave a little like on this post ( so i can keep up with who is interested in following me there ). Thanks a bunch for putting up with my brain during these times of seeing my blog as absolute clutter. I can't wait to write / interact with everyone more on the new blog.

#⸻ ❛ 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐨𝐰 » ooc. #// i try not to move blogs so damn much but oh well it's happening again #// will probably even pull kakashi & itachi from their solo muse blogs for right now too! #// if the naruto activity picks back up i can always move them back but i don't see it picking back up again for a while! #// so solutions solutions #// if you want to continue threads from here that's absolutely fine with me too i will gladly write threads i started here over there too #// yeah this will absolutely get reblogged more than once but! #// sorry about that dash alksdjfjks #// i'm not expecting a lot of likes rn because the dash is fucking dead at this hour but! #// shrugs gonna try and keep my space really clutter free on the next blog and keep everything tidy and small

[despairforme]

This month better be fuckin GOOD.

#[ happy may 1st! :D ] #[ last month was so great like ?? WHAT ] #[ i'm excited for this month too! ] #[ of course i'm gonna try to write lotsssss ] #[ gonna attempt to be more active on my other blogs ] #[ bc they have been SUFFERING for a while now xD ] #[ time to give them a boost uvu ] #[ wish you all a wonderful month guys! :D ] #despair for me. ╱ in character.

[chaoticspacefam]

@vihola tagged me to make some OCs in >this< picrew so ofc I jumped on the opportunity!

Tagging (if you want to, up to you & no pressure if not!) @rainofaugustsith @mercurypilgrim @tearlessrain @darth-bagel @outcastcommander @messes-of-men and anyone else who wants to do this one! <3

Have one Saarai because, of course, she is my favourite hahah Also a Maiite!! because this one has vitiligo!! (honestly it has so many options, props to the OP of the picrew! <3) Maite’s a little more red than she should be (she’s more orange-y red really) and ideally her hair would have a more reddish undertone too buuuut everything else was lovely to be able to find options for her in a picrew for once! :D I gave Rai a cocktail and a nice jungle bg because honestly ya girl needs a vacation to a planet that has a nice jungle to remind her of home, she’s EARNED it lmao I had to think a bit for what to put Maite in bc I didn’t really want to cover up all her vitiligo but also I didn’t want them to be dressed exactly the same lmao then I remembered that IRP she likes to steal her husband’s work button-ups and wear them as sleep shirts when he’s done with them so I went for that and some cute shorts & sandals :3

#swtor sort of #OC picrews #swtor oc: saarai ahaszaai #swtor oc: maite ahaszaai #my babiessss #god i love this family. we all know how much i love this family lol #sorry that my activity is so random & sporadic lmfao #i'm trying i really am #but half the time tumblr is the last thing i think of so i don't check here very often anymore when i'm Goin Thru It (tm) #this week has been especially crazy but also a lot of stuff that was stressing me out has now been sorted this week #so hopefully. i will be able to focus on doing more fun stuff soon!! #i'm gonna be playing some more swtor tonight hopefully #so tonight/tomorrow there should be some more screenshot posts #still no art tho sadly D: thats one of the things i've been dealing with #i'm not gonna go into details bc in thegrand scheme of things its dumb really sjhdsjgdhj #but its been kinda...hard. for me to make art. hopefully in the next few weeks that will be resolved & i'll be able to draw again tho