#idk what to do now really. for now i am listening to sad elvis presley songs which is how you know i’m really going through it

[kaitosimp]

MORE MUSIC. I can keep going forever.

Despair by Leo. It could either be taken as saimota or oumota. Kinda sounds like shuichi so 👀

Starships (specifically the Pentatonix cover). This song gives me saimota love hotel VIBES!!!

From me, to the moon By Lav. SAIMOTAAAA specifically from shuichis perspective!

Can’t help falling in love by Elvis Presley. Saimota. Kaito seems like he digs elvish. I can imagine the two slow dancing on the night before kaito leaves for space. It becomes a tradition for them to dance.

Dancin by Aaron smith. Idk what it is about this but it gives off kaito vibes

Believer by imagine dragons. Saimota. 100%

Fake it by seether. Just gives me kaito vibes. Kinda gives off slight Oumota vibes

Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars. Saimota. Duh. It’s Shuichi after chapter five

Ahhh I know a few of these!! Dancin, believer, starships, can't help falling in love- I love the last one, it's so nice and makes me feel at peace and like I'm in love too even tho I'm single af 😂 Also I just saw the asks in my inbox rn while doing homework at 2 am so I am thankful for the distraction/music break 🌚💜

The despair song is so catchy, damn!! You're right, it sounds like both saimota and oumota but I got more oumota vibes actually!! Just cause of it saying it's despair, not love, sounds like something from Kokichi's perspective and him being totally in denial and scared of falling in love with Kaito but y'know, he's already fallen 😔✋🏽

Just cause of the starships title I already relate it to Kaito 😂 I lowkey forgot this song existed but now that I'm re-listening to it, I totally see the whole saimota love hotel scene in it!! It really sounds like its talking about their last race in some bits, specifically the "lets do this one last time" parts 😩

Goddd, from me the moon made me feel so nice and at ease/relaxed, i love it sm 🥺🥺🥺 I just gave myself major feels though cause i pictured the song post-game and it's Shuichi @ Kaito waiting for him to wake up and he's just a sad boy in love who blames himself for Kaito's death ("do you still keep counting my sins" "will your heart ever forgive my skin" sOUNDS LIKE SELF BLAME AND HIM FEELING GUILTY) and he constantly worries Kaito will blame him for what happened???? Aha, it hurts, why do I do this to myself :,)))

I already knew elvis' song but I had to listen to it again cause its so nice! I apply this song to oumota cause yeh so when thinking about hc's for them, I hc he just loves this song and dedicates it to Kokichi a lot cause, y'know, he's in loveeeeee 💘 That's so cute bruh, just imagine them dancing for hours cause they wanna spend as much time together before Kaito has to leave 🥺

I've listened to dancin so many times and i am just now getting the kaito vibes 👁👄👁 "Dancing in the moonlight gazing at the stars so bright" is already a clear indication of the space babe 🌚 Idk man, I see it as Kaito being in love and him having a fun time about it!!! I literally see him singing this in karaoke and just having a blast 😂

Believer is another one ive heard a ton but am just now relating it to saimota 👀 I kinda see it from Shuichi's perspective, it just gave me vibes of Shuichi being lost as hell when it came to just, life in general, and then Kaito swoops in like the hero he is and helps him and builds him up??? Asdfghjkl my saimota braincells are on fire rn with these songs 🤣

"You should know that the lies won't hide your flaws, no sense in hiding all of yours" oUMOTA OUMOTA OUMOTA OUMOTA- fake it, oumota vibes from just that one line, yes 👁👄👁

OH GOD TALKING TO THE MOON IS LITERALLY SHUICHI AFTER KAITO DIES AND HIM MISSING KAITO LIKE ALL HELL- FUCKING HELP IT HURTS 😭😭😭😭😭💔

#kaito momota #oumota #saimota #talking to the moon fucked me up #and so did from me to the moon

[childofsquidward]

Tag Game!

Rules: answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people (bold of you to assume I know more than two people on this hellsite) who you want to get to know better.

I was tagged by @temmie-loony who is awesome, like thank you, I don’t know why I feel so flattered right now, but I do

Nickname(s): Diyu (everyone on my mom’s side of the family maybe), Diyumuni (grandma, mom’s side), Diyappa (my mom’s youngest sister), Gubbu/Gubbi (my mom’s other younger sister; the two names are kind of interchangeable), Diyapochua (my mom’s younger brother), probably others thanks to my mom's side of the family who come up with 135% of my nicknames as mentioned above

Zodiac: Sagittarius!

Height: 5ft. - 5ft.2 (maybe 3? hopefully?)

Last movie I saw: Ready (I've watched it 500 times over, no joke, just check my Netflix account)

Last thing I googled: statistics a tool for social research 4th edition (if anyone wants to hit me up with a pdf, I will be forever grateful; I hate this class, it’s 8am, I’m there right now, I’m a language student what the fuck is this?!)

Favourite musician: ummmmmm idk it changes this is hard wtf

Okay, so right off the top of my head - Shawn Mendes (I love every single one of his songs, I didn’t think I would, but I did), P!nk (all-time fave), The Pretty Reckless (Taylor Momsen’s voice you guys!), Big Time Rush, Kurt Hugo Schneider (okay, technically he’s a cover artist, but this man is magical like he plays a ridiculous number of instruments, his production quality is so unique and wonderful and his VOICE - listen, he does not sing as often as he should, and he shouuuuuld), and just like any song that was composed by A. R. Rahman, written by Javed Akhtar and sung by either Arijit Singh, Atif Aslam and/or Shreya Ghoshal you really can’t go wrong with

Song stuck in my head: A constant is Oi Dur Paharer Dhare (I still haven't heard the original) but as of recent Naa Tum Jaano Naa Hum from a movie called Kaho Naa Pyaar Hai (which defined my entire childhood solely) because I didn't realize that it was on my phone and I've been using Spotify the entire time but now I'm obsessed and I can't stop and basically I'm my own worst enemy; also, sometimes L’oiseau et l’enfant by Marie Myriam makes an appearance and it tends to make me like 4000x more dramatic than I usually am, which is saying a lot and I Like Me Better by Lauv (the KillerVibe theme, fight me)

Other blogs: I wish I was fabulous enough to have more than one blog (maybe one day... *wistful sigh*)

Do I get asks: once in a blue moon, yes, but I love and cherish every single one of them

Following: I’m assuming you mean how many people I’m following and not how many followers I have, so 554, I’m following 554 people

Amount of sleep: it depends... in high school, it used to be that I just wouldn’t sleep during the months of January and June, but now in uni it’s changed to October-December and February-April; honestly, I could go to sleep at like 3AM, and still wake up at 7AM and be fine as long as I finish classes by like 6PM - I don’t need more than 3-4h of sleep  

Lucky number: 13, 7, 4

What I’m wearing: my favourite... what colour is this maroon? like a plum, reddish-purpley (burgundy? I don’t know colours) thing (matches my hair) sweater that says ‘hello’ the bottom in white, the one pair of jeans I wear even though I have like 10 others, and my gray snow boots which are pretty cute considering that snow boots are ugly as fuuuuck (and probably pizza socks... am I wearing socks today? I don’t think I remembered to put on socks, nvm)

Dream job: to work with the UN, that's what I'm striving towards anyway, and maybe get a book published (my main goal in life is to be a functioning adult, and honestly, the UN thing seems infinitely more realistic)

Dream trip: a road trip to I don’t know where yet, but it’s gonna be a road trip

Favorite food: does food in general count? the first thing that comes to mind is chotpoti (it’s basically the filling you have inside a pani puri, but better cuz phuchkas over pani puri every time - but it’s literally these tiny lentils, chickpeas if you wanna be lazy, cooked with potatoes and every spice known to the world and then you add the tamarind sauce which is so hard to make and that’s why there’s always a limited amount but every asshole that comes to our place on Eid literally drinks it like some animal but whatever you literally have to soak the dry tamarind in water and get all the gross stuff out while keeping the good stuff and figure out a good balance of chilli powder, salt and sugar and it’s never as good as when mom does it)

Idk why I just ranted like it’s my job, but I’m leaving it there. I also like thin-crust mushroom pizza (the brand is Ristorante and it is the best), my dad’s shrimp and potato curry (idk what else to call it, I don’t even eat it with rice, I turn that shit into a taco, I’m not even sorry), naan and bihari kebab w/ that really spicy green chutney/raita/whatever it is, piyaju and aloo chop (it’s fried and it’s so bad for you, and I hate onions but for some reason I don’t give a fuck when it comes to piyaju even though it’s just lentils and onions - it’s frieeeeeed), and apple pie (apple anything dessert tbh)

Play any instruments: I've played piano kinda on and off (I could probably follow a song), I learned flute in middle school but I never continued it and ooooooo I'm trying to teach myself guitar; I also sing

Languages: Bangla (I need to re-learn how to read and write though, which is so sad), Hindi, Urdu, English, French, I’m slowly becoming fluent in Spanish and I’m trying to teach myself Arabic (listen, I might not be the doctor cousin, but look grandma I can read the Quran - I know my strengths! also, Arabic is a really pretty language)

Favourite song(s): Crazy Little Thing Called Love (Queen), Cheer Up (A Great Big World), Can’t Help Falling In Love (Elvis Presley), Raabta from Agent Vinod (the Shreya Ghoshal version!!!), Tujhko Jo Paya from Crook and Jo Pyaar Ho Gaya from Ishaan

Random fact: I am deathly afraid of birds. I always thought that birds just kinda freaked me out, but then I ran into oncoming traffic because there was a pigeon nearby so there’s that.  

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: black with splashes of pink and yellow because I have no sense of anything, snow, plaid shirts, sweaters, leather jackets, boots, coffee, cute stationery, studying (y’all know what I’m talking about right? like those images on Pinterest of ‘messy’ notes and pens and crap, usually with glasses there), pizza socks, fuzzy animal socks that probably have the little 3D whatever ears and nose (do they use pom-poms for those? idk), any variation of the ‘world’s okayest sister’ quote, BOOKS, candles, white lilies (the only flower I acknowledge as a flower)

Tagging: @maniq1 @darwinquark @ciscoscaitlin @dibs4ever @winxy-writing @thatkillervibe @sunshineoptimismandangels @lightninginmyeyes @headoverhiddles @hope-dyne @nordarhk @kendrasaunders @jwmelmoth @daftydraw  @taakoshell  @lewispanda @jalonii @cheleonrage712 @deathly-smirk @purpleyin  @crelliefan4life

#tag game #get to know me #and then watch as my followers drop like flies #about me #personal #diya rambles

[mental-health-advice]

Submission from Tc16

Hello! (Sorry for going over word count! Here is shorter version:)

last time I messaged you, I was 16 almost 17. I am 18, 19 in June. I messaged about SH but now I’m glad to say Im a year clean! Never talked to The guy I liked.. But as long as he’s happy it’s ok. I messaged about loving pop punk… Now I’m into Elvis Presley, 50s and 60s songs, and Michael Jackson. (this is great because these songs are happy whereas the old songs I listened to, whilst I liked them, I think made me sadder.)

I messaged saying that I wasn’t interesting, I still think that, which I am dealing with, but now I have been learning Spanish (which I might give up), been drawing portraits (which are turning out pretty good), gonna draw more nature and animals soon, and continue playing piano (been playing since Age 14) Do you have any tips to make a person more interesting?

Still have no idea what I want to do with my life. I messaged saying this when I was in grade 12. I graduated in November 2015 and haven’t gotten a job or studied anything because Idk what to study. I literally wasted whole of 2016 doing nothing.. Was on my laptop ALL day everyday because the only friend I had left was always at school or work. This makes me so angry with myself.. I wasted a whole year (and so far of 2017).. it gives me so much anxiety, I’ve wasted the best years of my life. (Because of how bad I was mentally in school, was ALWAYS on my laptop if not at school). My laptop broke December last year bc I dropped it, idk if it’s bad to say, but I’m glad bc now less time wasted.

only thing is… I still have my phone, which now replaces laptop. I don’t waste as much time bc deleted all my social media and I used to sit on YouTube most of the time on laptop, but now I hardly go on YouTube (I still do waste a little time but no where near as much) unless it’s for useful things like music or tutorials. But I do think I can do without my phone. I wish I could give up my phone but I need it to talk to people for things like work (when I get a job), getting pictures to draw, learning Spanish and learning piano songs. Anyway back to the job thing..

my mum is gonna help me do a resume, I have two places where I would like to work, once my resume is done I need to gain the courage and strength to hand them in. I hope I can! Because it’s stressing me out soooo much. can hardly sleep because of it and have so much anxiety, I feel like because no job and no studies, no supporting friends, wasted my teenage years, etc, I feel like I’m ruining my life badly.

reason I have no ‘supporting’ friends is because atm I only have two (rest moved away or stopped taking to me) but one’s moving to a different country soon, and the other isn’t someone I can be around alot because sometimes I feel as though she is fake towards me and using me, and sometimes her personality just doesn’t agree with mine (if that makes sense?)

Also I’ve never had a relationship, I’m really stressing because Ive never even really had a conversation with a guy (was scared of them in school because of a few who used to bully me) and am still kinda scared to talk to them. I’m honestly scared that no one will like me. What can I do? I’m different to alot of people as an effect of what I’ve been through, which adds to my worry that no guys will like me.

thank you sooooo much for replying to me and other people in the past and future!! I really do appreciate it and am grateful for all the times you replied to me in the past!! I truly hope you are all doing okay!!

Hey there, Tc16. Thanks so much for sending in a submission! I am glad that you have been clean from self harm and coping pretty well. You are very welcome for everything. We are happy to help you in everything and try our best in our replies.

I am very glad that you are doing well. I like your taste in music as well. I like pop-punk but agree that it can sometimes be sad. Your new taste is very nice. Also, you will find someone who loves you so it’s okay!

If you are curious as to how to be more interesting, I think it really depends on a few things. I think we are each individual beings who are all interesting. Every person is so unique and interesting. But if you don’t feel interesting, then maybe try to engage more in the things that you do. Take more classes, read more, talk with others, and learn everything that you can. Knowledge makes for a very interesting person.

It is alright that you do not know what you want to do with your life. You need time to decide what you want to do because you are going to be doing it for a long time. I would suggest seeing a therapist to talk about possible career options. They could guide you in the right path of options.

It is great that you are starting to write a resume. That will be good for school and work.  It’s also great that you have found some places that you are interested in working. I know you can do it! A job will give you a sense of accomplishment and will give you something to do, plus you make money!

If you get a job there is a possibility of making friends. Just try to talk to people and find out what they are like. You don’t need that many friends, just a few is good enough. I know that you can do it! And with relationships with guys, just act like yourself and try to calm down is what I say. Take everything slow and enjoy it. Try to talk to people ad be friends first. That will make things a lot more comfortable for you. I believe that guys will like you.

Again, thanks for sending in your submission. You’re so welcome and thanks for coming back to mental health advice! I know that you can get through this! Remember that we have a live chat service that is available to everyone. You can send in a request or see if an admin has posted that they are online. If you feel like you are in immediate danger please go to the hospital. I want you to be safe.

I wish you luck!

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-Rachel

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