#im already sleeping as i type

[averagecatdoodlesenjoyer]

my minecraft cat Horrid Roblox suffocated in a wall.

#my fucking screenshot didnt save and i already closed the game so i have to type it out like an idiot #theres a glitch where if my cats aren't seated when im sleeping then after i wake up they just teleport to a random place in the house #how was i fucking supposed to know they were going to teleport into a fucking wall #i cant take this anymore i cant live on this cruel planet

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[todayisafridaynight]

cant stress how obsessed i am with yamaguchis shirt

#snap chats #this is rgg related because i said so shut up ANYWAY #i DID steal this from twitter but i need to share it every with everyone so im not sorry #the person i stole this from rt'd a photoset from themselves and in it motomiya wearing The Silliest outfit ever #but ive already shared too much. ive already gone off topic too much we're moving on #i will bookmark it tho cause it makin me giggle #anyway if you cant read it. and id be so happy to type out what it says. #it says 'can't miss it!! you've got to go to nepal they have a big festival called Maha Shivaratri full moon night in february' #dont know why it makes me giggle it just does. like fuck man maybe i SHOULD go to nepal in february <- maha shivaratri is in march next yea #anyway everyone be nice to me today i have a spanish exam later and it Should be easy #but i was fighting god and the devil last night trying to sleep because my cramps decided to kick my ass EXTRA hard #I NEVER GET BAD CRAMPS WHYYYY DID IT HAVE TO BE BEFRE AN EXAM WHEN I NEED GOOD SLEEP !!!!!! #im lucky my spanish class is in the evening but god it was so painful #the last time i experienced pain as bad as that was when i was trying to sleep after busting my wrist #so awful.... i hurt a lil now but i'll get through it #ok bye let me study up just to reaffirm some Spanish Knowledge with myself

[whack-patty]

So guess who completely forgot that chocolate milk and strawberry milk is such a big internet thing and made a poll in the heat of the moment and now my inbox is full of T H E funniest tags but also now i can't find any of the non chocolate/strawberry milk debate stuff in the chocolate/strawberry milk flood i am drowning in

GOOD GOLLY

#i genuinely dont mind how bad im getting smoked because it is CO M E D Y G O L D #i will gladly put my dignity on the line in public as long as its a funny story later #the person i was debating with likes to scroll through the tags while im ignoring my phone #and read through her favorite of the mean choccy milk tags #right to me <3 its a good daily routine #anyway please universe do not let this one become a ten thousand billion note one i miss having like 12 notifications all about the blorbos #FR IM SURE I ALREADY SAID THIS BUT IF YOU NEED ME FEEL FREE TO SEND AN ASK and ill see it. late #the seeing it late is unrelated to the choccy milk thing #ive already made this announcement right before the poll thing #im making it again because theres a new reason im not seeing anybodys stuff #it is; being overwhelmed #in a good way i promise its really funny #but also oh gosh i have made a tactical error #i am lying in bed typing this instead of sleeping #if you read this far heres a fun fact for you; the human eye can percieve more shades of green than any other color #neat right #🟩📗🟢🍏🥗🥬💚♻️🐍🍃🌱🍀🤢🌲🌿 #green :^) #ramblin

[pcktknife]

staying up late watching um actually and feeling so proud about knowing where the sickle hand weasel is from I almost called it sneasel as I was typing this lmao

#thank you legends arceus aha #also the myling i was like that sounds like some finnish moomin tove jansson shit and i was riiiiiight #i said thats probably up north in europe scandinavian woohoo #i did forget where the very well known minotaur was from so thats imaginary points off of a game i wasnt winning already #got the fake transformer too that makes me so sad i wanted the keyboard to b real so bad #kae.txt #i gotta sleep man 😭 #wait im thinking why the hell wasnt sneasel flying type kamaitachi(?) are wind spirits that felt like a direct connect #whatever i dont care i do prefer poison over flying shit dont gotta tie in with every piece of mythological lore #the point comes across is what im saying

[kineticallyanywhere]

I am bundling everyone up for the cold. everyone gets a blanket. I am going down the line. snuggle you up tight in one of those soft throw blankets giving you a soft smooch on the forehead (with your consent) and placing you at a window with pillows and a nice view of some trees. we all come here together for the soft times. there are leaves on the ground and we are full of hot chocolate and it’s time to sleep

#i have been on a constant stream of day/nyquil for like 3 days #i have not known health since the first two days of december #i have a sinus infection #i crave sleep and id like you all to come with me #i have been awake less than 4 hours and it is perhaps already nap time #or lunch time #one of those #my eyes are closed as i type this now #im sleepy #me talking

[titan-god-helios]

fuck, audhd burnout is a bitch.

#i can barely move my body without it feeling like a herculean task right now #my arms and fingers and legs feel like lead #my brain wants to do nothing but sleep for eternity #and everything is loud #so loud #i hate knowing i’m in burnout but not being able to do anything about it because im not diagnosed #i know exactly what i need but i cant get it its just out of my reach #and i wonder if i’m going to just self-destruct one day #if i’m going to be stuck in burnout for another three years on top of what feels like has already been a couple years in it #i feel like crying #not a hard cry #i dont even have energy for that #but the type where you sit there staring at nothing #sitting very still whilst tears just fall out of your eyes #i cant speak i dont want to speak i never want to go to school in person again i never want to open my mouth again #i never want to interact with another human being in person ever again apart from a very select few #im so sick of this #and sometimes i wish i could believe in god #any god would be alright #but i cant #thatd be lying to myself #cause i personally simply just do not believe that gods could exist outside of fantasy #but it leaves me with nothing to believe in #and thats tiring in itself #i want to stay on the bus #an empty bus #listening to music as it takes me who knows where #touring the city aimlessly #forever #i think that would fix me

[theperplexednavigator]

As promised, I've watched the playthroughs for John Doe (and +), and House Hunted 1 and 2.

Somewhat comprehensible happy ramble ahead.

This Uncanny Valley series! It's so intriguing! I love the characters and the generally absurd vibe of the city (that food sounds fun too). It's all so cleverly designed.

Also, in regards to HH2 (which i just watched today), I did not expect to love Heim as much as I do! He's precious and awkward and so strangely lovable. He deserves a platonic cuddle. And young Doe! He's so sweet!

Overall, this series is delightful and creative, and I look forward to seeing more of this world.

(As a side note, b4 HH2, I've also discovered - and am still hyperfixated on - Purple. I highly recommend it. Next on my list is The Phobia Project.)

-

All these words, although many, still can't properly describe all the little things I love about these games. Like, there's more, but it's not translating into words, so I'm just going to pause here.

#navifitzspeaks #john doe game #john doe + #house hunted game #house hunted 2 #purple game #the phobia project #scopophobia studios #purpleverse #uncanny valley series #john doe #maison talo #heim baile #randall purpura #idk why i typed this all out #i guess i just needed to ramble enthusiastically to an outlet and my sis has already heard it but im still vibrating to tell someone #so now you're left with this #also if i get these words out of my head and onto a post maybe my brain will shut up long enough for me to sleep

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake. #The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good! #so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies. #the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

[theygender]

I'm now OFFICIALLY permanent at my new data analysis job which in addition to being super cool bc I get to autistically play around in Excel for money now ALSO means that I can get my next piercings since I no longer have to wear a headset for ten hours a day and I am vibrating in excitement. I can finally get more holes stabbed into me

#ive been wanting to get more ear piercings for YEARS #but that is not a good idea when you work at a call center #i can FINALLY get my next ones done tho. im gonna be getting two more helix piercings on my left ear (for a total of three) #once they heal enough for me to change the jewelry ill have so many options to make them look cool #i cant really buy a lot of cool jewelry bc im allergic to most metals which is part of why im just sticking to ear piercings #but with them all being in a line like that i can mix different 'plain' pieces in cool ways #three barbells in a line is already gonna look cool but imagine three jeweled studs in a line #or three captive ball rings kinda draped over each other #or MAYBE if i can find one thats the right type of metal even one of those spiral piercings that goes through all of them #the possibilities are endless #after those heal completely (i am NOT gonna have both of my ears healing at once i would like to be able to SLEEP bro) #i plan to get an industrial on my right ear #im SO excited yall ive been waiting for YEARS & now im finally gonna have my plans for my left ear finished hopefully within a week or two #and then in about half a year or so i can get my plans for my right ear finished too #a year after that ill be fully healed and either be completely done or ready for the new ideas i came up with in the meantime #im going to become the cool dyke with a lot of piercings that i was always meant to be 🙏 #and healing is gonna be much easier now that my sides are shaved. less chance of getting my hair caught or getting shampoo in it #this is gonna be great #rambling

[replicasoul]

pain garbage

hate that even w/ all the pain meds in the world i end up sleeping like 4 hours, and All of it is Bad Sleep. so within like 3 hrs of being awake, the body just fucking Collapses like. im trying to. do Anything rn, even just to pass the time bc i KNOW i cant try to sleep yet (cant take Too many pain meds over short amt of time) and im just *is tired* *is tired* *is tired* *is tired* *is tired* *is tired* like a ping over and over like. yes i Know, body. i cant do shit about that until ive waited long enough and can take pain meds again to Attempt Sleep again. please shut up and let me exist for a little bit

#not sure why im typing this up here #probably bc im exhausted and annoyed about that and it feels like theres very little Anything i can actually Do atm #but i sure can Complain #i will never stop being jealous of ppl who can just be like 'hm. im kinda tired. i think ill sleep for a little bit' #like How. how can you just Do That. whenever you want. how can you sleep 8-10 hrs a night. i miss that so goddamn much #i know i should know this already but i keep re-learning that I Am Disabled and that Being Disabled: Fucking Sucks

[josephslittledeputy]

well its almost 5:30 am and I’m feeling accomplished af, changed my AO3 username & icon, made a new pinterest account to make boards for the new IF characters, and finally have picrews of all the IF ROs!

#also been editing willa's stuff again and ahhhh im just so happy with myself #not ignoring tags ill get to them sometime later when i have enough mental capacity to leave a good tag! #just so happy ewkrpgoihwerg now i just need to... find more pics and do a lot more hard work ugh #also already have like a background and concept for the story and yet my brain is like #'hey what if we scrapped that and... made it so it was on a boat??' like NO. bad brain. we're sticking with what we have and maybe LATER #we'll do some type of if with a boat #MAYBE #thats if this first one ever gets done and if i like it and how easy it was ughh #learning and lot and doing a lot of different stuff that pushes me out of my comfort zone and its... scary lmao #tbd #personal #also now i can finally comb through the first chap of willa's dark au and post it!!!! #who needs to fix a sleeping schedule when im getting stuff done eh? #also realized this means i need to create a fourth side blog.... halp. not now and probs not anytime in the future but eventually #PLUS picking names out my beloathed

[jaeyooniverse]

230530 Dawon Message

Let's grow old together

I love you^_^

#dawon #dwn.log #etc #was clearing out screensots and forgot i meant to share this..... #i would gladly grow old with you lee sanghyuk #i already feel some type of way thinking about how i started stanning while we were both in our #'early 20s' and now we're 27/28 like.... #looking back at old vids and like he looks the same but also so baby skgskshk 🥺 #thinking abt how he motivated me to improve in so many ways ... i'm slacking now but i promise I'll get better 😭 #anyway i did NOT mean to get in my feelings abt dawon but i mean. i cant help it. you know me #i know june just started but my mind really is already like omg dawon month coming up 🥰 #he is truly my ult..remember when i would deny he was even a bias...hilarious #okay im done rambling im sorry i just 😭😭 like him a lot 😭😭 #im gonna start writing fc letters to him again tho i really feel like he doesnt check fc as often as he used to #which is fair bc he already posts on sns & messages in fromm but stilllllll #i miss fancafe dawon #okay im done now for real #i meant to go to sleep 2 hrs ago????

[aynut]

COMFORTING A PERSON FOR DUMMIES

#CLICKBAIT🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵 #god its just. how do you comfort a friend who got their really favourite Thing partially destroyed without overstepping boundaries or #being weird about it #this Thing was damaged by a classmate she barely knew and didn't even let them borrow it (fuck that bitch) #like. i dont blame her honestly and i dont think theyr overreacting because that Thing was really important to her #and i know that these types of incidents can kinda put you in a bad mood or have a mental breakdown since *i* also went through this #but the only thing i did was cry then eat then sleep #i was given space and it was fine with me #but everyones different. and that comfort i was given will not have the same impact towards other people #unfortunately i do not know the other methods #like i try to give them space just let them cry and all that but what im really worried about is that #I DONT TALK. I JUST STAY BESIDE THEM. #AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S GIVING 'JUST BE HAPPY ALREADY' #'IT DOESNT MATTER. STOP CRYING AND BE NORMAL' #ghrhgrhhhrhrhjrhhruhhghrhhhrgfhr whay #how do yall do it??????? #imalso kinda nervous bc what if i mess up?what if i say smthn weird?but if i ignore her wont that kinda giving i dont care abt her feelings? #and NOW SHES KINDA IN A BAD MOOD AND CHATTED SOMETHING IN A GC AND I LEFT HER ON READ #AAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH SHES MAD #I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THIS. SHES MAD NOW. I KNOW ITS NOT ABT ME BUT IT MAKES ME GUILTY- #SOMEHOW?????????? #LEAVING SOMEONE ON READ *ESPECIALLY* WHEN THAT SOMEONE IS MAD WONT THAT KINDA GIVE I DONT CARE ABT THAT??????????????? #i hope shes doing okay. i hope she was able to let out some feelings and was able to get the comfort she needs. #aynut

[pepprs]

not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

[indecisive-dizzy]

hmmm I talk a lot in the tags! so friendly reminder to .. 1..2..3- all three of you (yippee!!) that I leave side rambles/extra stuff in the tags! :)

#i may have stolen the tags idea from someone else #buts it fun and i dont think they'll mind haha #tags are free real estate i cannot be stopped #felt like this would be good to post #a good idea that is #unless... #you're already here! #Gasp! Hello! #good to see you #how are you? #I'm drinking coffee at an unreasonable hour #so im having fun! #haha i will Not sleep tonight #cough- #anywho! hope you lovely folks have a good time #whatever that time may be #typing out loud #if you made it here #ummm idk there's really not many tags to go through... #uuuhhhhh #good job! congratulations! #have a cookie 🍪 #!!