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notcolleen · 2 years

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realizing how much i crave outside validation bc my current situation is: feeling really proud of myself for pulling myself out of a relapse that would have inevitably landed me back in treatment, but also being unable to fully voice that pride bc i never let anyone know how bad it had gotten lol

so that’s when i turn back to tumblr aka the social media platform that has honestly seen way too much of my Worst over the years (consider that a tw for ed behavior talk behind the cut)

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for ppl that don’t know, i just got back from a ~10 day trip to oregon (half of which was spent on a greyhound, a nostalgic throwback to my Journey to Rainrock in 2014 lol) — and before i left, i was feeling really stuck because i was feeling better mentally (thank you ect and therapy) but also still trapped behaviorally with bingeing and purging and restricting/compulsive movement outside of that

i was in a virtual “emotional eating” dbt group, but i was not being honest with them because they made it clear that the group was for “disordered eating” and not a clinical eating disorder — and the director was someone i had previously worked with while inpatient, so she was very aware of my history, and i think on some level she knew i was holding back information lol but it was super anxiety provoking feeling like at any moment i could slip up with what i said and be kicked out

im technically still in the group bc they are able to hold my place for two weeks, but i also really need to go back to work and want to have full availability there so that i can actually get hours (and ultimately it wasn’t very helpful bc it truly wasn’t the right level of care) — so im gonna need to make an awkward phone call on monday and explain that i don’t need them to hold my spot (typing that out for accountability so that i don’t just ghost them, which is 100% my pattern 👀)

anyway, before leaving for my trip, my brain was 50/50 “you can use this as an opportunity to fully relapse and lose 46291846 lbs” and “you can use this as an opportunity to pull your head out of ur ass and start breaking patterns and build new neuropathways and all that fun recovery stuff” but either way the one thing i knew i needed to stop was the purging, bc it was destroying me physically and mentally and causing issues all over the place

so i can officially say it’s been 11 days without purging and while that seems insignificant in the grand scheme of life, i know how important those days are. this is one aspect where my black and white thinking is helping bc once i have built up any number of days, it’s easier (👀) to say “no this is not an option anymore”

(and yes the cheesy tracker apps are actually very helpful, especially when you get to collect trophies lol)

my brain is still a mess (every time i ate my mood crashed and the guilt i felt was ridiculous) and now i have to battle the part of my brain that wants to start recovering in the ✨healthy✨ way (aka quasi recovery) and im still struggling a lot with feeling the need to compensate with movement

but i also was able to create more safe foods (not in like a “black coffee is my safe food #anarecovery❤️ type of way, but in like a “i know now i can eat peanut butter and trail mix and other previous trigger foods and don’t have to purge”)

and i was able to have moments where i knew i overate (probably bc mentally, part of me was still like “okay after eating this im not allowed to eat until x and it will only be y foods and only if i walked z amount before !!” so of course my brain/body wanted the most food it could get in that moment lol and also because i was so used to overeating bc i knew i would purge after) but even with that, i still didn’t let myself purge so now i know i can survive if i do overeat. other aspects of my recovery might be iffy, and i feel like im constantly going back and forth with a lot of it, but i want to take purging off the table forever. and that feels possible rn 🙏

so that’s where im at with that. i also hid my scale right before i left (the next step is to donate it but i don’t want to be tempted when i get it out lol) so other than getting weighed when i have ect (although that was initially for them to send to my dbt group so idk maybe not) (also ultimately i want that to be blind weights but it’s hard to give up that sense of control in seeing my weight tbh) i won’t know my weight — and that’s kind of terrifying but i was never happy when i knew it anyway so ???

in other news, i shaved my head and i think i actually need to go even shorter bc right now i feel like a chia pet 🤡 and i have been called sir 3 times since shaving it, including being told that the mens rest room was being cleaned so i couldn’t use it (the woman ended up giving me my coffee for free after that bc she felt bad lol but tbh “sir” feels much better than “ma’am” to my gender confused lil brain 👀) which is funny bc other than the hair i think i present myself pretty ~femininely lol

in other other news, i love my cat and my cat loves boxes 🥳

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syfynjvall · 4 years

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OTP ASK GAME - farah & juliette

tagged by @havennly thank u!! i’m gonna tag @agentnatesewell @bryceslahela @agentfreckles @serafinedupont @agentnats if youve done it already i apologize ksks

(long post warning)

DISAGREEMENTS.

Who is more likely to raise their voice?

juliette, but it’s honestly never anything serious. more often than not its just bc she gets very competitive during game nights

Who threatens to leave but never actually does?

neither, even kidding about it kinda hurts each others souls

Who actually keeps their word and leaves?

neither

Who trashes the house?

i cant see either of them doing it

Do either of them get physical?

never in a million years

How often do they argue/disagree?

not often, and when they do its mostly about petty things like leaving empty containers in the fridge

Who is the first to apologize?

both are good about it

SEX.

who is on top? Who is on bottom?

hmmm they switch

any kinks?

welllll jules put on her old cheerleading uniform from college as a joke once and farah was into it. theyre both into roleplay

who has the strangest desires?

jules

who’s dominant in bed?

it’s a pretty even split

is head ever in the equation?

yes

if so, who is better at performing it?

probably farah

ever had sex in public?

once. under the bleachers at the football field. pretty cliché

who moans the most?

uhh both

who leaves the most marks?

farah

who is the more experienced of the two?

definitely jules. she had a LOT of fun in college

do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

make love. it’s very special for both of them bc they know they’re gonna last

how long do they usually last?

it depends but both of them can usually go pretty long

rough or soft?

typically soft, but rough if theyre in the mood

is protection used?

does it ever get boring?

where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

dont know? maybe in an empty room in the agency? idk lol

FAMILY.

do they plan on having children/or have children?

oh yeah definitely

if so, how many children do they want/have?

juliette loved the look on farahs face the first time they talked about it and she said she wanted ten kids. it was a joke obv but they probably end up having three or four. jules always wanted siblings growing up and she was sad she never got that wish so she doesnt want her own kids to be lonely like she was

AFFECTION.

who likes to cuddle?

both of them are huge cuddle bugs and they get cozy almost everywhere

who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

juliette

who struggles to keep their hands to themselves?

both

how long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

their cuddles can last a while but farah probably wiggles away first

what is their favourite non-sexual activity?

they love girls night out and its even more fun when tina joins them. put the three of them together and its basically nonstop chaos, but so fun

where is their favourite place to cuddle?

predictable, but the bed. jules is one of those extravagant mattress people so her bed is basically a giant pillow and its very comfortable

SLEEPING.

who snores?

both

if both do, who snores the loudest?

jules, and you better believe farah teases her relentlessly

do they share a bed or sleep separately?

jules WAS a very picky sleeper until she got together with farah, now she gets pouty if they dont share a bed

if they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?

they cozy up, but juliette is a blanket hog so she usually ends up with most of the covers

what do they wear to bed?

jules usually just wears a top, farah wears pajama sets

are either of them insomniacs?

can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

not before everything that went down in book one, but since murphy, yeah. jules has a hard time falling asleep now

do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

definitely cuddly sleepers

who wakes up with bed hair?

both

who wakes up first?

farah. she’s usually the one to rouse juliette when she’s about to be late

who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?

neither of them can cook so... neither lol

what is their favourite sleeping position?

farah loves being the little spoon and jules loves making her feel safe so

do they set an alarm each night?

jules does but she hits snooze at least six times a morning

who has nightmares?

juliette, and farah has no problem soothing her back to sleep when she wakes up

can a television be found in their bedroom?

yes. they’re both obsessed with trashy shows

who has ridiculous dreams?

farah!

who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?

again, juliette is an unfortunate bed hog

who makes the bed?

farah. juliette is cute but she’s not always that tidy

what time is bed time?

whenever jules feels like it, and farah will follow her lead

any routines/rituals before bed?

other than the typical going to bed things, no

who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?

farah probably

WORK.

who is the busiest?

both are pretty busy but since juliette has two jobs i guess she is a little bit more

who rakes in the highest income?

juliette probably?

are any of them unemployed?

UB gets paid right? so neither then? lol

who takes the most sick days?

juliette. her “bend the rules” stat is at 88%

what are their jobs?

detective and agent

who sucks up to their boss?

definitely not jules. farah might a LITTLE bit since rebecca is juliette’s mom but i think we know how that turns out lmao

who is more likely to turn up late to work?

despite juliette’s aversion for rule following she’s usually pretty puntcual at least, so im gonna say farah

who stresses the most?

im gonna say neither

do they enjoy or despise their careers/occupations?

farah loves hers for the most part, jules feels like hers is more of a chore but she does love interacting with people.

are they financially stable?

yes

HOME.

who does the washing?

farah. once again juliette isnt super messy per se, but she is a bit cluttered

who takes out the trash?

both

who does the ironing?

jules is pretty good about that

who does the cooking?

neither. they both try but they’re both disasters so they order out mostly (more than they should)

who is more likely to burn the house down just trying?

it’s about equal because again, they’re disasters

who is messier?

juliette

who leaves the toilet roll empty?

farah

who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor?

neither

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who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere?

both

who answers the telephone?

juliette

who mows the lawn?

they dont have a lawn

who does the vacuuming?

probably jules

who does the groceries?

when they remember to do it, they like to go together

who takes the longest to shower?

jules

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MISCELLANEOUS.

is money a problem?

no but farah does love buying stuff

how many cars do they own?

just one

what’s their song?

it changes but rn lucky by jason mraz fits them so well

do they live in the city or in the country?

juliette LOVES city life and farah thinks it would be fun too so they plan to move to the city one day

do they own their home or do they rent?

rented for now, for juliette anyway

do they enjoy their surroundings?

jules has a nostalgic fondness for wayhaven but again, really she’s itching to live in the city. farah likes it too but it’s a little too mellow for her liking sometimes

what do they do when they’re away from each other?

oh my god, theyre both clingy babies so they’ll be pouty and sad and constantly just text each other

where did they first meet?

juliette’s office

who spends the most money when out shopping?

probably farah

who’s more likely to flash their assets?

jules, but farah will too

any mental issues?

juliette definitely has ptsd after book one, and then its worsened after the trappers (she saved farah so she had to see sanja die)

who finds it amusing when the other trips over?

they both do lol

who’s terrified of bugs?

im thinking farah

who kills the spiders around the house?

juliette

do they have any fears for their future?

they’re both afraid of losing each other, mostly. juliette also worries a bit that maybe farah will get sick of her because she’s a “lot,” she was always told by past bfs/gfs that she was a handful or too wild or whatever so she worries she might scare farah off but when she voices that thought farah is very quick to very seriously assure her thats not going to happen

their favourite place?

the bar, also the forest to stargaze or picnic

who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?

jules, but it’s definitely at a restaurant lol

who pays the bills?

definitely juliette

who’s the tallest?

jules is 5’9, farah is 5′4

who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

farah

who wanders around in their underwear?

jules

who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

both!! theyre both so goofy about it

what do they tease each other about?

pretty much everything, they’re bantering almost constantly

who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

neither of them are exactly fashion experts, so

who crushed first?

juliette

any alcohol or substance related problems?

no, jules enjoys drinking but she knows her limits

who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

jules

who swears the most?

both

#this was so much fun!#thank u for the tag #twc #tag games #twc: farah x juliette

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angelblumes · 3 years

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hi hi hiii so one of my fam members is ignoring me 😟😤I tried texting her many times, but at least I tried. She knows that im here for her i dont know if she is there for me tho but its ok. I drank coffee for the first time in a couple weeks and its 1 30am and im up. I had therapy today, fun activity: timeline of my life by year and it will be mostly "traumatic" events. I say "traumatic" because technically they are, but tis normal to me Im a pretty afraid person so im scared I thought abt my past so much. I found out that I could start going to a lgbt support group im excited to see 😁 we for real on the same wavelength, tmi but Im also on my . this week. 🙄 I wish I could tell you my dreams because even-Steven, I dont remember though. We did research on that possible diagnosis today 👀 uh yeah I might have it, it scare me😔 but dont worry its not bad. TWO (2!!!) caterpillars crawled on me today I took them to safety tho. They dont scare me as much as other bugs do for some reason. It sounds silly but I'm a little afraid of butterflys so I have no idea why. Okay this is rambly so im sorry but not really because I do like talking to you 😊 Also just post it the og I saw you "🙄" jk. Ok goodbye 'night ❤

hope u slept well❤️ and ok mood. what if i just said that and nothing else😭 jk. i had to do that w my psychiatrist and it was awful like she didn't explain what i was supposed to say so i was like um uh er .... *nonsense*. good luck(?) w the diagnosis!

let's see. i dreamt... something. i don't remember. i woke up intensely thinking about hannibal though so if i had to guess i'd say it was that. now ok i read that one fic the other day. it was bc i saw it on a diff webbed site right so i was like hm i've never ventured into hannigram fic. i wish i still hadn't. like that fic was INSANE but well written. the rest of all hannibal fics ever? just insane😓😭🙁. thats what i did all day. search for good hannigram fics. i read a few decent ones like one where will graham owns a coffee shop but it still includes murder. it was ok. but really i just want will to kill people. like let him be evil! w/o hannibal ab*sing him😐. um wow was that all one thing? i cleaned a little. found this fancy hand cream i forgot i had. its worked rlly well for the skin peeling on my hands but i put it elsewhere today. other peels. hoping it works! so far i just feel greasy. found some other old stuff that just made me super nostalgic 🙁. realized my mom still thinks i'm 8. it's lowkey a little depressing. like she's so contradictory like if i'm too upset i'm a child but if i'm not upset enough "i'm not her baby anymore"..... #5....ummm...... i'm going to sound a little insane here. but i don't have a therapist rn right. and i'm all ohoho hannibal right. so before bed i like to be like oh what if i'm in *whatever media i'm into* so ofc i was like let me do that with hannibal. and the show is him as will's therapist right. so in this scenario i am the will being therapied. therapy-ed. it made me realize how many problems i really do have! and idk made me reflect like how awful i explained it all to my new psychiatrist HAHA. if she was hannibal she would have killed me.

#sorry for the hannibal i cannot help it. its bleeding into my other interests. help!#5 daily things #asks #anyway she would've killed me bc 1. i cry immensely during any sort of talk abt personal things #2. i used up many of her tissues. i set them all on one clean tissue on her couch but what if she didnt see the clean one?#3. soooo many answers were 'i dont know' or i stuttered some nonsense out #i couldnt even tell her im lesbian i want to shake myself like a carnival goldfish

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thechampagnelovers · 3 years

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Oh I totally feel you on HP. My mom used to read it to us and then I read the books myself when I was a bit older... Even if I always knew it was fiction I couldn‘t help but cry on my 11th birthday. And now I am 22. How time flies?? Ohhh and re-read! But take time for it, personally I always forget what a real escape from reality the books truly are. You totally emerge into a different world, if that makes sense. I started last year with books 1-3 and got stuck on 4 because of uni but it‘s like the fifth re-read so I wasn‘t that determined to finish, buttt I will set a goal to finish them until december 2021. 💪🏾

That‘s so cool how did you make uni friends or even people you talk to from uni in the pandemic? With us the meetings we get into are always super anonymous and everybody hates putting on their camera and barely anybody speaks except for the professor. It‘s really cold and clinic I couldn‘t imagine making friends under these circumstances. How was it for you? I definitely love and also prefer going to classes for... multiple reasons!

Yeah I can definitely see what you mean with the voice over! That is actually a pretty cool mental image. I agree that Tightrope is one of the best songs Zayn made so far. I had never heard Syd’s voice before but it’s beautiful isn’t it? I really enjoyed her voice, which is unusual for me, I am really picky with voices. Glad we both enjoyed the album. ☺️

Okay listen... Little Things and I, we have a love-hate relationship. I remember loving the fandom hype around it and the „you sing“ and the way it was the song we supported Niall with that always made me so happy. I don‘t know what I blogged/said about it before when I was younger but now, when it comes on, I let it play respectfully, ignore it, sing „you sing“ and then... move on hahahaha. I understand peoples rage at it, but it makes me too nostalgic. She is like a friend that just doesn‘t fit with you anymore and what you see/hear from them now is nothing you‘d ever surround yourself with, but because of those memories you just can‘t bring yourself to hate them, you know? I don‘t really have any hate songs like that, but there are some which I don‘t skip, but I just... you know? There are no words for that empty feeling ahsks. How was your weekend? How will your week be? I still have uni this week but it is a lot less stressful so I hope I will be able to pop in more often and talk/catch up/interact with youuu. x

i also cried on my 11th bday skdkslkd i love just how much we have in common, if i reread the books i think i will blog about it, just to annoy everyone sdkfklsd and we can share our thoughts! rn im reading a great book (not the other one from last time, a new one) its called the knitting circle and its so depressing but beautiful sdjklds completely opposite from hp

okay it really was a combination of factors: i already knew a couple people in the class, one or two people i already had classes with and there was a friend of my ex sjdjks and the same thing for the rest of the group. second thing: it was a creative writing class, so we all shared thoughts and ideas and thats how we built something so cool. and third: i think it was just luck that we all liked each other and had fun. i miss going to classes too, but if you find a cool group of people it can be super fun to have online classes too.

nil is just so so so good, zayn really did something so cozy and personal and warm, its totally a comfort album, a quarantine album.

i looove your respect to it! tbh i kinda have to respect it too because it really was an iconic fandom moment only og stans can relate too but at the same time im so deeply traumatized by that song dkjjfksjkfs i just cant listen to it, i skip songs from time to time if im not in the mood for them but that song is probably the only exception to that, i just never listen to it. i would probably only listen to that song in a live concert, like if niall sings it (i know liam does all the time but tbh if im going to put myself through that, niall is the only one i can trust)

my weekend was weird, so so so weird. yesterday i spent all the day at the beach and it was great, i read my book, swam in the ocean, tanned and the weather was beautiful. i went to bed like at 2 am and woke up at 4 am with the worst period cramps, just like the last time :/ thank god i had ibuprofen this time, but i didnt sleep much after that. but yeah, i was in pain for a while and i got a little nauseous, but i was much better than the last time. my mom wants to take me to her gynecologist to check it out, and she says i should go back to take the pill and she’s right, im just. so lazy but i also hate this sm, its also really fucking up with my mood and ive been crying a lot today (although that part is not really that bad bc i struggle with crying and its good to cry from time to time lol, its the moon in scorpio what can i say)

#beer nony #ask #personal

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prtag · 5 years

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23 and 49?

23. favorite music track from a pokemon game

OK i have a few..the alola elite four ost is just AMAZING. its such an epic track and it really set the mood when i first played sumo!!! i really felt like i was..there battling them bc it made me nervous and cautious in a really nice way..!!!! i remember it very clearly bc after i beat the elite four for the first time i battled them many other times bc i just..really wanted to hear it again HJFV

another one from sumo is the team skull track!!!! it is SO exciting and it has a bunch of fancy sound effects and!!! im replaying sumo rn and i always look forward to skull grunt battles bc i get to hear their fancy theme HVJFvf my fave part is when u first start the battle bc in the beginning theres a cool sound effect thing..

ACTUALLY i have a bunch of hoenn ones… the oras opening soundtrack is so important to me..my first pokemon game was pokemon red but when i played it i was very little, and i was still figuring out how to play pokemon (i also didnt understand english very well so it was a bit hard to..actually be invested in the story). pokemon ruby was my second pkmn game n i was more UH. prepared ig? so hoenn is very very important to me!!! rse had this opening soundtrack and a fancy little animation and when i heard it remastered for the first time when i played oras i cried a LOT. HVJFvf

rse also has the littleroot town soundtrack and that has always sounded like home to me :“) i like treating npcs like actual ppl so from time to time id visit my hometown ingame so i could talk to professor birch n my mom n hearing the ost just..made me feel really warm and happy..

OH AND..another one from rse is!!!! the underwater soundtrack. i associate it with the time i was looking for the regi trio and that was one of the most important things to me bc regice used to be my #1 favorite pokemon and i had SO much fun doing all the stuff to catch the three of them!!! hearing it remastered when i was playing oras also made me cry a lot bc it brings very warm memories in general vdfhjvhf i think the remastered version actually fits the theme more? IDK BUT. theyre both so wonderful and i love them SO much.

IDK IF THIS COUNTS BC ITS NOT REALLY JUST ONE TRACK BUT..the battle themes r probably the most nostalgic soundtracks to me..theyre all a bit similar but i think my faves would be the rgby and the frlg battle themes!!! idr THAT much abt my first red playthrough but the battling ost is very clear to me bc battles were the easiest part to understand since i mostly did those instinctively!!! listening to it again brings me a lot of warm memories of catching my first pokemon!!! hjfhvf

ALSO UH. im SO sorry but take this last one..its the pokemon main theme and i was listening to it while writing this and i started crying really hard ITS. so important to me i love pokemon so much. i have..two versions of it that r very important to me!!! this is the orchestral version which makes me very sentimental in general and!!! this frlg version also includes the..gamefreak sound effect that the gameboy makes when u start the game and even that small thing wasnt actually part of the soundtrack id always hear it when i started my game and i associate it with very happy moments..vhfjvhf

49. favorite ice type

for the longest time ice types were my favorite type so!!! i have a bunch of opinions abt them..i think my #1 fave would HAVE to be froslass tho!!!

i always have a froslass on my main team bc i just love her so much!!!! froslass is SO beautiful tbh.. her sprite makes her look like shes giggling a little and its super cute!!! im pretty sure her design is based on 雪女, who is a japanese youkai!!! im really glad nintendo can incorporate parts of japanese folklore into their games :D she is a dual typed pokemon and her two types are ice/ghost which is. one of the coolest combinations EVER. grass, ghost, ice, and fairy are my favorite types and im so so glad theres an ice/ghost pokemon!!!!! i really like the idea of grass/ghost (which is decidueyes typing combination!!) but ice/ghost is also such a fancy concept..shes one of the few pokemon who can only be female bc only female snorunts (her initial form!!) evolve to froslass!! it makes finding a snorunt really fun..

#TYSM FOR ASKING!!!!!#im SO sorry i started rambling #i just..love pokemon so much...its so important to me and #im so glad i get to talk abt it!!!!!!#:'''D #this was super fun to write and think abt and now i cant stop listening to pokemon ost..#asks #ask games #rainbowroad #long post #bla bla

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shipsthatcouldshowyouthestars · 4 years

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1-98 coward

Talk about your first love: bet ok my first crush was my cousin’s best friend but like my first real love>>> i love i love i love you so much

What’s the most beautiful songs you’ve ever heard in your opinion?: bright by echosmithhhh

How’s your heart feeling right now?: really light for once, which feels nice

What kind of self care is your favorite to do?: just writing with my feelings

What’s your skincare routine?: god fuck i dont take care of myself

How did you get to be so beautiful?: IM NOT well probably the drugs

Do you have any stuffed animals?: yes oh my god

Best trip you’ve ever been on?: honestly my trip to georgia was so nice

Favorite thing about your room?: so rn im residing in the basement and i love having the cat there

Opinion on love?: love is so good

Are you affectionate?: YES

Who do you look up to?: my nana

Favorite poet?: uhhhhhhh i dont know

Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?: happy: climate change from firebringer. calm down: i just put on the rogues medley and pray that i can calm down at this rate

Do you play an instrument?: no

Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?: i cannot draw or art to save my life

Do you dance? What style of dance?: i do what you call bad dance

What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology?: im a taurus , kind of believe

Favorite old film?: TKAM TKAM TKAM

What’s your hairstyle?: my signature is actually a ponytail, but i do a half up half down quite often

What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?: sunny summer mornings

What upsets you most about the world?: fuckin hate and bad people and mean parents

Are you in love right now?: y e s

Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!: well u see my crush is actually my boyfriend and i adore you so much

Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them!: i have 2dogs. emily is so fuckin soft and she hides under my bed whent hings get loud or she misses me. pepper literally climbs on top of me when i get home. and i have 1 cat, cash , who lies in bed with me

Do you have a lucky number?: 524 or 624

Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash?: yes and yes

Do you believe emoji spells to work?: i dont know

Do you believe in magic in general?: a little bit

What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?: love, happiness

Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue?: pINK I LOVE PINK and baby blue is pretty

What instrumental sound is your favorite?: wind wind wind soft sind

Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain? wild: es rain: no, it makes me really upset?

Who makes you happy?: ollie, cam, my friends irl, my family

What makes you happy?: im so easy to make happy,,,,i love getting good grades

Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like?: god,,,,i’d have a little farmhouse, in sort of the country, i’d have a couple kids and some dogs, id be married, i’d have some fruits i grow,,,,

Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup?: i very rarely wear makeup. my fave is red lipstick, i get from ulta a lot

Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own?: my fave dress is this red one ive got, it’s super pretty, but i dont have it anymore

Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it?: ive been heartbroken, but not in the romantic way..i didnt deal with it very well

Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them? my closes friend is my friend abby. shes been my best friend for 8 years now. i love how energetic and friendl she is. she doesnt care what others think.

Introvert or extrovert? ambivert

Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI? kind of, im an ENFP

Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, a or an angel? FAIRY

What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? it’s gonna sound so funny, it was the schuyler sisters

Parlez-vous français? a little bit, i can read simple stuff and kind of understand

Most beautiful place you’ve been to? my cousin’s town. everythign about it makes me happy.

Where/when do you truly feel at home? camp.

Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is goreous! i just smiled thank you

Favorite shoe you own? my crocs

Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them? god i cannot walk in refular shoes how am i expected to walk in stilettos

Do you feel loved? i think so

How do you express love to those you care about? it’s all i can express, love--i try my hardest to express it through everything

Favorite term(s) of endearment? baby, love, honey, sweetie

Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you? literally,,,,love me for me? and also to calm me down if i was spirallng

When is the happiest you’ve ever been? i think it was this summer, i won an award at camp and it made me happy.

Are you happy right now? yeah

What makes you smile? a lot

Do you laugh a lot? i do

What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic? soft soft soft

Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)? love.

What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married? i wanna get married. i never thought about my wedding.

Favorite flower? red roses

Favorite artist? van gogh

Favorite music artist? i dont know,,,

How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you? i think i can be kind. it’s really imprtant to me.

Ever made a playlist for someone? i have i have

Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath? physically? if im with friends, i just want hugs,,,,but if im alone, idont really have anything

Early bird or night owl? early bird

Morning routine? coffee

Night routine? procrastiate sleep

What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion? kindness

Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after? i dont cry often i hate crying crying makes me anxious

Do you like hugs? i love hugs

When was the last time you kissed someone? ive never had my first kiss

Are you small or tall? i am tiny

Do you like wholesome memes? yes

Favorite thing about the past? what i looked like

Do you ever wonder abou the future? yes yes yes

Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in? no

Do you like plane flights? Airports? i havent flown since i was 9, but yeah

Sunrises or sunsets? sets

The beach or a forest? beach

What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood? morning

Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t? yes, i try

Favorite kind of tree? pine!!

Do you care about the health of the Earth? YES

What did you like most about your childhood, if anything? god i was so,,,,motivated

Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? i used to read a lot, but as ive gotten older, ive struggled, i love little women

What are you most nostalgic for at the moment? summer

What’s your favorite personality trait you have? i honestly, truly hate my personality.

List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance. my hair color

When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about? honestly like an hour ago

Do you worry a lot? yes, my anxiety is all worry

The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside? country

Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason? no

Favorite pastry? tiramisu

Do you like doing little acts of kindness? yes

How’s your day/night going? todays been one of the best days in a long time.

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