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loredwy · 10 months

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Good evening

Im here to show you all how normal I can be about comics I read (not normal)

Today, I will talk about Im the Grim Reaper, comic made by @/Graveweaver! (here in tumblr)

And this essay will contain reasons why you should vote for Scarlet, Chase and Brook in the @friends-to-lovers-tournament. So even if you dont read all this text because its way too long, please DO IT. FOR ME.

Disclaimer: The following paper will be based in my headcanon of the three of them being a little polycule. Therefore, although it will describe actual content from the comics, they will be as unreliable as I can be <3

Disclairmer 2: This will contain SPOILERS, and even though I will be mentioning which chapters the spoilers are from when I show screencaps, I recommend stopping to read the comic if you think it sounds interesting, for you to not get spoiled too much.

NOW LETS START

So to put you all in context (tbh you can skip this all because I wrote a bit too much), the story goes about what Satan calls Grim Reapers, which are human souls he chose to work for him, sending sinners to hell by killing them. Reapers, however, are not regular humans, as their bodies are 'meat puppets' Satan made to put their souls into, along with demons that give them their reaper powers.

Our protagonist, Scarlet, reacted to being told she was sent to hell as anyone would: 'WHAT DID I DO', accompanied by multiple other questions like why she couldnt remember her past. Because of this, her past becomes a goal to achieve, wanting to discover what she could have done and why.

In the process, she encounters a detective (?) who, recognizing her appearance because of Scarlet's corpse, started suspecting she might be related to the mistery of her death. Which was true, although he didnt expect in which way tbh. -> they teamed up, decided to fuck around and find out

Then later on, investigating some of Scarlets memories, they ended up encountering the city's mafia. Which, funnily enough, had a reaper with them. Why? Because the reaper was way too entertained posting stuff in their blog he didnt want to go find sinners (canon).

Now, were reapers ever against each other? Not really? They have the same boss. So Chase, as the tumblr sexyman he is (<- questionable), convinced Brook of joining them and kill sinners who actually had done bad crimes.

Are you still there? I know I might be boring yall by just telling you the context, but I swear its important to understand (?)

But my point with this post is show you how over time, they start showing how much they care of each other on their own ways, Chase x Scarlet having the advantage because of them becoming closer before Brook joins. Having a confession (?) and everything. But even then they didnt dump Brook at all 🤩

[Spoilers of episodes 47 and 55-57]

Up to this point, not only do the three of them live under the same roof (because Brook and Scarlet were homeless), but bond over their shared circumstance of being partners in crime (literally).

And because there are lots of fights in the comic (?) we can also see the extent at which they would go for each other. Including, but not limited to, sacrificing themselves (because comic readers are destined to suffer) 🥳.

But how much did they sacrifice themselves may you be asking? Well, if Im remembering correctly... Scarlet might have died about 3 times? I might be confusing some with the times she just got brutally hurt or severely traumatized, but lets say its around that number: just to save Chase and Brook <3 (different occasions). She even LET GO of her PAST to save them, which she wanted to know so bad before, to know herself better. She's honestly both impressive and scary by how much she could do for those she cares lol. In Brook's case, he almost gets doomed for eternity to save Scarlet, and im pretty sure he didnt escape fully from that (but hey, Scarlet is fine <3). And Chase... 👁👁 situations happened. Lets be honest tho, Chase was an emo child, like, what he did had to be dramatic as fuck 💔, otherwise it wouldnt have felt like a Chase thing. He was a theater kid, im sure. He is a Batman kinnie. That should tell you enough.

BUT EVEN AFTER ALL THEY'VE GONE THROUGH. EVEN AFTER EACH OF THEM SCREWING UP AT LEAST ONCE. EACH TIME, THEY DO FORGIVE EACH OTHER.

And hear me out, because im not crazy. THIS PEOPLE. They, who live thanks to drama and edgyness. Are you telling me it wouldnt be fucking easy for them to just explode out of anger and break up, and like, get to be enemies or something.

NOT. EVEN. ONCE. HAVE THEY ABANDONED EACH OTHER.

JUST

LOOK

[Spoilers of episode 70, 80 and 110]

Anyways :3

Even if they dont win is ok, but if you got to this point read the webtoon its really good 👍

Thank you for coming to my ted talk

(vote for Scarlet, Chase and Brook....)

#webtoon recommendation #webcomic #screencaps #i'm the grim reaper #itgr #itgr scarlet #itgr chase #itgr brook

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petrichoraline · 1 year

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⭐️Getting to know your BL mutuals⭐️ (2022 Edition)

Simple, answer the questions. @ some people. Include the tag 'g2ky BL mutuals 2022' on your post so we can find everyone's answers!

some MDL links included

mostly spoiler free?

i watched bls from the past 8 years in the span of half a year, i have OPINIONS but i'll stick to the premise

wrote for hours then checked the tag and realised im gonna have to keep it simple so this is the dry version of a full on essay lol

What has been the BL that took you by surprise this year?

Secret Crush on You was so unique i just kept laughing at the insane sexual chemistry combined with the "what if he doesn't like me"; daisy, touch and som were everything to me; i watched it cause of positive reviews tho, wasn't there while it was airing

i got to experience Big Dragon Season 1 though - went into it intending to enjoy it after 3eps were out but i got really attached to mangkorn, yai and their relationship; wasn't interested in the nsfw scenes, just yai's big brown eyes

What has been the BL that you felt a bit disappointed with this year?

The Eclipse - truth is i initially loved it, definitely had fun with the later eps too but took issue with the pacing (some things time was spent on vs quick wrap up); plus the trailer vibe was quite different -not inherently bad, just smth that disappointed me a bit; i acknowledge the show was definitely not made for me though 📏

What has been your favorite BL this year?

KinnPorsche - i enjoyed it immensely while it was running - now im annoyed with it; the acting was great, the chemistry was undeniable, the plot was exciting, had me gripping my chair

special mention: fifa wwc tiktoks

What are your favorite BL couples (not just of 2022)?

actors (as couples, i like a lot of individual actors but not the couples theyre a part of):

BounPrem (two episodes of Between Us are all the introduction i need, they are extraordinary)

MaxTul (the comfort they bring me.. it's like they're meant to stand by each other)

characters (a lot of them get on my nerves but the heart wants what it wants):

Ou Wen and Mark - they're so!! aside from the chemistry, the characters are fun on their own and chaotic together, their story is unique too, skipping through the whole show for their scenes only with a compilation opened on the side was worth it

Seojoon and Jiwoo - TMS2 made me go from barely interested into insanely invested in their relationship

PatPran - a couple this powerful is rare

Shao Fei and Tang Yi - shao fei's openness and the way he cares, how tang yi stops and listens to him, i gotta rewatch for them only

Zhou Shu Yi and Gao Shi De - honestly they're a bit questionable to me but also the ride or die type which i respect, that one deleted scene from Fighting for Mr.Second keeps popping in my head

HiraKiyoi - they are so perfect in their twistedness

VeeMark - YES i said what i said, they can make it work, i believe in them

Kang Gook and Han Taejoo - the ONLY thing they lack is a proper kiss

both

Seoham and Jaechan (waiting for jaechannie to get his ring and brag on Jaechan's Dream lmao)

Jaeyoung and Sangwoo (unhinged upfront pursuer x adorable closed-off pursuee in an enemy-to-lovers romcom? pls)

If you had to suggest a BL for someone what would it be?

if you want:

to turn your brain off for a while:

8.2 Byo no Hosoku - smth to play in the bg, really, not everyone appreciates the humour (that i think is fully intentional), you learn a bit about the history of famous confections too, it's cute

something refreshing:

Kimi no Koto Dake Mite Itai - i don't have the words to describe it, maybe i didn't understand it too well? but that's a part of the charm, it's magical (read Metamorphose no Engawa cause of it too)

to save time:

Kabe Sa Doujin Sakka no Neko Yashiki-kun wa Shouninyokkyuu wo Kojiraseteiru - about 3 hours total, made me actually lol, really soft emo x sunshine with a dark side

What's your non-BL favorite for this year?

oh, the way Love Between Fairy and Devil just pops by reflex...the fl who shows common sense where many fls before her have failed meets the ml who wants to off her from the getgo (but dammit this curse won't let him and now he's a plant dad) and the greatest love the three realms have ever seen blooms and burns 🥰 no but seriously, story, character arcs, acting (my gosh the acting, the body switches had me floored, was stunned to hear dylan isn't usually considered that good of an actor, he slayed this, no one else can ever be the supreme lord); also enjoyed not being bothered about the sml; i didn't mention THE WARDROBE and stylingg and hairr, i could go onnnn

thank you for the tag, @gillianthecat💓

i don't have many moots and even less i actually interact with often so i'd love to see your answers but please don't feel pressured to do this! (i tried checking if you've done it or been tagged before, could have missed smth) @howitrulyam @chicademartinica @bnprm @sugarbabywenkexing @voicesofreasons ; anyone who sees it and wants to do it should consider themselves tagged by me tho 🤗 would love to see it

#g2ky BL mutuals 2022 #i learnt that i only fall for couples with insane chemistry #craving to make recommendations and talk about shows #ive been writing for hours i am not spell-checking if theres smth weird pls tell me

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wiccamoody · 5 years

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on internet friends, vidcon, and being brave

I’ve been in fandom for over 10 years now. Despite that, I never really talked to anyone until the phandom. I made one friend in 2015 who doesn’t even watch them anymore lol and I can’t remember the last time we actually talked. But when I jumped back in ready to talk and write in late 2017 I decided maybe I’d let myself socialize or let people in. Which I did, in my own awkward way, and I’d say I now have a lot of really fucking phenomenal people in my life.

Flash to last thursday when I got to meet three of these people who I’ve grown really close to (and on friday a fourth!!) and I immediately knew there was no going back. (For those curious or who don’t know I met @nihilismdan, @ataraxia-25, @kay-okays, and Lucy). No going back in that I spent 4 whole days with them (2 with Kay!!) and I’ve never felt so comfortable and like, accepted immediately. Of course I got to know them over the last year and a bit, but meeting irl actually does bring that to life, and it’s fucking surreal to meet people and hang out with them and just feel so together and comfortable. The beginning was awkward for me; I’m awkward, I have RBF, anxiety etc., but once it faded away it was so amazing. Amazing to wake up and know that they’re a maximum of 20 mins away on foot, to be able to spend the day together and use our single brain cell to get around and laugh almost until we pee at stupid shit. It’s so fucking comfortable you just get used to it (I would liken it to the way a lot of people felt about ii and the content stream we got then, and in the same way the hiatus hit people hard). When it all ends and you go back to real life and you don’t have those moments to look forward to everything just feels numb. Distance is hard. Goodbyes are hard. Not knowing when you’re going to physically be around each other again is hard. Skype and facetime and all that stuff exist but fuck, I started crying in LAX because I honestly had the best weekend of my life. There’s no awkwardness when you’re already friends with someone, no weird phase where you don’t know if they actually like you or not because they already know you and would have stopped talking to you ages ago if they didn’t. And idk, I’ve spent the last 5 years (and really, my entire time being in fandom) trying my best to quash my excitement, to tone it down and shut up in my “real” life because no one cares as much as I do, and I know they don’t really want to hear it. But to have that stuff in common and to have people on the same level of intensity as you, while still ofc talking about other parts of your life because that’s what friends are there for, it’s fucking amazing. As an introvert with anxiety it’s so ideal for me, so saying goodbye to these wonderful people in my life just hurts so much. It’s hard to process. I think we’ll absolutely meet again, it’s just the not knowing when that kills me. And having to go back to real life where things kind of suck (at least on my end) is like a slap in the face. It takes some getting used to again, but I guess the pain is worth the memories I have.

Onto vidcon itself, I wanted to do a little recap. I kind of did that during my trip and to some people in DMs, but overall as someone who’s wanted to go since year 2 or 3, finally being able to do it was amazing. I have some complaints and things I’m actually really angry about, but to keep positive, for my first con ever I’m glad this one came into my life in the last minute way it did. I got to have the experiences baby me wanted, and I got to give me at 15 some closure to how she was when all this phandom stuff was thrown at her. Being able to meet queen Natalie Wynn was fucking amazing. She’s so stunning and I’m so GAY and she’s a literal icon. It was so lovely to talk to her and get a photo, I’m still shook I was in her presence at all! Meeting Dan and Phil was amazing and terrifying. I froze up, embarrassingly, and didn’t say anything I wanted to say to them. I just wanted to tell them how much they mean to me but I wasn’t able to. Which is fine. I’m trying to not beat myself up over it because I got to see them and hug them and smell them (don’t fucking come for me okay, they smell like warm men and it’s NICE OKAY) and everything that came right before and after with my friends was hilarious and perfect and wonderful. Not to mention, like 30 mins later I met Martyn and Cornelia, which tbh god fucking tier, who cares about dnp when mnc are there?? They were easy to talk to and lovely so we talked for like 3-5 mins and I’m happy we met them. And some other stuff happened at the IRL merch booth that I will never forget jaskljdlak. It was an Experience. tbh I’m still processing the entire day of Saturday lol. But it was good. A lot, but good.

I want to go to more cons. So many more, and with friends like or who are the ones I had with me. I’m so fucking grateful and amazed this was the con to kickstart me actually going to them because it was truly the best weekend of my life.

And going to Universal Studios in Hollywood with Julie on Sunday (especially since she didn’t know if she could come or not, and we had already said goodbye) was the cherry on top of everything. Harry Potter was my first fandom. It was the first thing to really make me feel seen, to give me an escape and a safe place to go and be myself. It was so full circle for me to go there, and I’m glad I went with someone who I love a lot. It was an amazing experience, and I could write a whole ass essay about it. I’m glad I went, and kind of in shock that it all happened really.

As for bravery, I’m a total wuss. I’m nerdy and shy and introverted and my anxiety always gets the best of me. I’ve never flown internationally, and had only been to the States once before, and it was with my best friend and her parents. I hadn’t been on a plane in almost a decade. I was so out of my element but I really told myself to fuck off, dug into my student loans bc ya girl is broke as shit, and got myself to LA, then Anaheim, then to meet the wonderful people I did and survive the whole thing with my only panic attack the entire trip being related to meeting Dan and Phil (so like, it was expected). I’m proud of myself. When I started watching Dan and Phil I was 15, depressed without knowing it, and lost and trying to find a place to fit in. I owe it to my best friend for literally forcing me to watch them because I wouldn’t be the person I am today without her or them. I figured out my queerness, survived my worst days, am getting help, and now as a 20 year old who grew up thinking she would be trapped in the seeming hell that my life was sometimes (and still is I guess) I was brave and I’m proud of that. Idk if anyone is still reading this, but if feeling lost and stuck and scared but wanting so fucking bad to do the thing they want to do, no matter how big or small, resonates with anyone, I encourage you to do it. I believe in you, and I know you can. I never in a million years thought my life would have the last 4 days in it but it does now, and I’m grateful I was brave enough to take that leap.

#this is a ramble #im really emo so i wrote an essay lol

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carpisuns · 3 years

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I can't speak for everyone but I don't blame you for trying to make some positivity on that post! I'm personally just glad people are finally talking about how the way people talk about their own fandom and other fans of the show can be so rude and upsets a lot of people. For YEARS I've just seen people dismiss the show and people who like it (and even the fanfiction and whatnot) when they were all int the same fandom and it was so frustrating, I'm really glad people are rightfully saying that maybe that behavior isn't ok anymore!

aw thank you so much mari!! this is really sweet of you to say. and i totally agree!

i have only been in the fandom since mid-season 3 so im not one of the Veterans™️ who has seen every bad take and annoying fandom trend through the years, but i have seen enough to know what's out there. and while i do avoid certain kinds of fan content, it bothers me when people act like good content is hard to find. it's really not! in the ML fandom i have met some of the most passionate, talented, and delightful people i've ever known! and some ML fics i've read are some of the best writing i've ever read period, published or not. and apart from that, there are lots of fics that maybe aren't the same level of writing quality but that have creative ideas and a clear love of the characters and the story, and really that is the most compelling thing about fan content for me. sure, old tropes still stick around, but the fandom has evolved a lot since season 1 and 2 and it's getting tiring for people to pretend that it hasn't. and also to ignore all the good stuff that did come from the early years. every fandom has a mix of content and ML is no different, but finding the stuff you personally like is as easy as just looking around or asking for it.

on another note, I am a 26-year-old old fan of a children's cartoon and i already feel enough shame about my "cringey" interests to the point that i hide my favorite thing from most people i know IRL. so yeah, it's extra hurtful when people within my own fandom try to act like it's cringey to enjoy both the source material and the fan content. i'm not in the miraculous ladybug fandom in spite of canon; i'm here because of canon. for me, it's not "i like the show except ABC" or "it's ok if XYZ." there is no asterisk to my enjoyment of miraculous. i just. genuinely love it. and i feel like that should not be a radical statement haha

when i make fan content, i'm not doing it to "fix" canon or change ML into something i can enjoy. i do it because i just really like thinking about and exploring the story and characters! i'm also not doing it because i absolutely have to feed myself. like i said, there is plenty of awesome content and other creators keep me very well fed! i love interacting with them and enjoying their content and sharing it with other people so they can enjoy it too.

tldr; im so done with cringe culture lol. it's time to unironically enjoy things binch!!! enjoying things is cool!! and tbh i actually get emo sometimes thinking about how lovely it is that all these fandom creators put in their time and effort and skill and talent to make stuff for their fandom simply because they enjoy it. like. that is so pure to me. what a gorgeous, human thing to do. enjoy something, and create something new as an expression of that enjoyment. wow.

anyway sorry i wrote an essay,,,i literally can never shut up lol but i appreciate this comment also you and your blog!! you have such good vibes<33

#ask #mari-monsta #ml fandom salt #positivity #ml fandom discourse #funny that i am using this combination of tags lol

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souryogurt64 · 3 years

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this is kind of a vague question but do u have any like. obscure lesser known fob facts or media. because currently ive been having fob brainrot for the first time in three years and im running out of fob media to consume

i feel so bad, im super out of practice in terms of being fob encyclopedia secretary so im not as helpful as i probably would have been 5 years ago lol. maybe my old pete facts posts, or this old compilation i made of old interviews i found via wayback. also this super dark essay i found on chicagohardcore.com pete wrote when he was like 20-22, trigger warnings for suicide etc . also my documentation tag where i saved a bunch of stuff when i was like 16, apologies in advance for all my teen hysterics general weirdness and caps lock crytyping tags lol. also ryan ross’ LJ comments about pete. also the hardcore messageboard compilation

also journals:

a lot of older or longer form content is gone due to being too NSFW for youtubes toc these days or but ive noticed the youtube algorithm seems to be broken for videos uploaded 10 or more years ago? so ive been seeing a lot of videos i had never seen before in the recommended for other old fob videos (like this one) and then if i type in the title to watch them again they dont show up lol, so i would do that maybe, theres also a 10 part funny moments video that has a lot of great stuff but thats not really underground.

release the bats is too NSFW to be hosted by any platform these days so only about half is up on youtube, i suppose you could order a DVD. it also seems like theres loads of clips from some dvds that were my heart will always be the b side to my tongue or cutting room floor on youtube?????? so maybe you could order those as well because there might be stuff thats been taken down or never got posted.

i feel so bad about not having much for you off the top of my head so here is ALL of hey chris' interesting journal entries that mention pete and some bits of old interviews i have saved on the notes app of my phone . i hope to god the read more works, if it doesnt im sorry guys

old interviews

2004

Patrick: What's the best like, middle of nowhere town we ever played?

Pete: Fargo was fun.

Patrick: Fargo was awesome! Fargo. Go for it. Fagro was awesome, and Iowa. There's a place in Iowa. Crud, whats the name of it?! I can't remember. For some reason, Iowa city, I haven't played enough but there was some weird farm town and I can't remember the name of it, but it was probaly one of the most fun shows I've ever had. It was great.

Laurren: Yeah, the kids were probaly really excited, because they probaly never get any shows. And then to have you guys of all bands come out there, I can imange.

Patrick: Oh, thank you! But yeah, and for some reason there's this thing where alot of times people expect us to be like rock stars, you know? And in some of these smaller towns, I don't know. You're just like, one of the guys. So like, people just walk up and are like 'Hey, good job' and they keep walking. But it feels just like you're hanging out there and ontop of that, they go nuts. It was awesome. If I could remember the name of the town it would be perfect, but I can't and I feel stupid. But if you saw us in Iowa, you probaly live there so.. [laughs]

2004

How would you describe yourself or the band in five words?

Pete: Myself?

Jennifer: Or the band, whatever.

Pete: Which do you want?

Jennifer: Whichever one.

Pete: Myself, I'd say.. they all contradict each other. Shy, but really outgoing. Insecure, but really arrogant. I don't know the word for it, but just unhappy. I'm always unhappy with everything, I'm just an unhappy person.

Jennifer: Unsatisfied?

Pete: Yeah, unsatisfied, probably. Disappointed.

Jennifer: Aw, why are you always disappointed with everything?

Pete: I don't know! I'm just weird, I can always find a flaw in everything. I'm weird like that. It's pretty depressing.

Name for things you don't understand.

Patrick: I don't understand why girls will wear open toe flip-flops essentially and call them shoes. I don't understand why people speed up to red lights. It's red.. you're not going anywhere. I don't understand why people get into smoking. It's not pleasent.. it's not like one of those things where you're like *coughs* this is great! I mean you get a buzz maybe... but there's nothing that atrractive about it. And I'll never understand why Oingo Boingo never took off. They were never nearly as famous as they should have been.

HEY CHRIS JOURNAL ENTRIES START HERE

august 22nd 2002

my ex and her friend once wanted to pay me and pete $300 to make out for a minute in front of em

april 24 2004

pete and i definitely made kissy face and i humped the shit out of patrick which is always good.

april 29th 2004

i should make a 10 things you dont know about pete, like how every time hes over he steals my porn and toys.

but what i can tell you is that the fob dvd is honestly amazing and fucking hilarious, especially when pete and i are talking about banging...

may 1 2004

maybe i can get petes cheap ass to buy me scooters when hes not busy stealing my porn.

july 6th 2004

it was 1996, the remnants of a few early 90s chicago hc bands got together and formed the notorious chicago vegan straight edge band, extinction. now extinction was different from all the other shitty basement show bands we were in just by the simple fact that they actually had a 7", a record deal (catalyst) and people actually knew their songs in other cities. in the few years they were together i would roadie and tag along to whatever really great city (buffalo, indianapolis and the like) pack 15 deep sardine style in a van and roll to whatever shithole they were playing. around this time they lost their bass player, and in a pinch decided to go with some young little asshole with dreadlocks who used to sing for this horrendously bad band, firstborn. i was familiar with firstborn cause somehow they managed to open every goddamn hc show in town. no matter how many times i tried to show up late so as not to have to sit and watch them butcher their way through earth crisis covers, they always ended up playing right when i walked through the goddamn door.

then i would see him.

that little fucker with the size 40 jeans around his size 26 waist. bleached dreadlocks flying around with what may have been the absolute worst voice of all time. he was the kid at the show that you hated for absolutely no reason at all, we all have that kid.

grimes calls me up and tells me that the dickhead with the dreads is going to be their new bass player. i was furious, not that i actually had any say in what scrubs they let in the band...but i was tight with all of extinction and it would fuck up the dynamic of the road trips. now i would have to try and not get seated next to this gross little fucker. grimes tells me to give him a chance and that we would probably end up liking each other since we were like the same dude. this just infuriorated me further, to be compared to that asshole, the one dude i couldnt stand, my arch nemesis. grimes tells me hes bringing him by my apartment that night, i told him to fuck off.

he brought him over anyway.

the first half hour or so i just did the dude move, "whatsup." he just sat there quiet, not adding anything to the conversation. then grimes looks at him and tells him to recount some random vandalizing story for me...it was all downhill from there. we were like 2 old women swapping gossip and recipes for new scams, vandalism, and general anarchy.

in the end, grimes was right.

we became great friends after that night. years pass, many anarchy filled nights us out stealing bikes and using our last $20 for 2am strip club adventures. then one day he gets this great idea to start a new band, novena. he told me they sounded like a cross between buried alive and damnation ad. i was like, eh...this is the irresponsible dickhead who would was notorious for ditching extinction practices to go rob frat houses and even for ditching out on entire shows...and now the kid wants to start a band? pssh.

one night i picked him up from one of his many apartments (who he shared with my current roommate, charlie) in chicago and he played me the demo. it was amazing. i couldnt believe this kid actually got his shit together for long enough not only to form and record the band, but to actually make it sound good. i was jealous. but on a cold october night in 1999 (i could be off), i got a phone call from pete telling me their bass player tim quit (to form rise against)and asked if i would be interested in playing bass in his band novena, which he had recently re-named "arma angelus"...

up next:

arma strikes back.

****fact checker charlie just came in with some corrections:

1. extinction was only vegan in the beginning.

2. pete didnt sing for firstborn, he played bass. but he still had a bad voice.

3. charlie didnt live with pete at that time, he lived with him at the apt before. white trash joliet bob was staying on the couch with pete at that apartment, where pete would wake bob up by sticking his hard dong in bobs face yelling, "bob! wake up! take the mic, take the mic!"

july 8th 2004

i remember sitting on our amps after an arma practice when pete told us the news, "yeah dude...its gonna sound kinda like new found gloryish". stixxx immediately yells, "its gonna break up the arma." i didnt care, at that point everyone in chicago was in 12 side bands anyway. andy hurley replaced stixxx after pete gave him his walking papers. andy played with arma on our last tour. but as we started playing less and less, fallout boy started playing more and more.

then i got the demo. some shitty cassette tape with 3 songs that was surprisingly enough, pretty good. the new improved 3 song cd demo came next and i found myself not only being the only person at some of the shows but actually singing along (this was the point when i told them, "honestly, this shit is really good...im riding with you all the way to TRL" we laughed, but how far off do you think i was?"). they were a five piece at that time and searched out only the shittiest of shows to play. lugging equipment, handing out demos, and selling crappy merch got me about the same it gets me today, into shows for free but actually not a goddamn thing.

september 1 2004

roll to petes where i look around for my stolen porn and dvds to no avail.

november 7 2004

pete decided to stop by and put in his 15 minute hang out for the night. he did something in my bathroom that i should tell you guys but i know he would disown me as his boyfriend.

november 22 2004

(but referring to an arma angelus show that most likely occurred between 1999-2001)

it was 2am and i had just awoken up from a sweet 2 hour uninterrupted sleep, which if touring in a van full of stankass, obnoxious motherfuckers, is amazing. i woke up because i couldnt feel my legs. i thought to myself, out of all the years ive been on this planet, at this very second, this is the most uncomfortable i have ever been.

it was somewhere between 0 and 10 degrees outside.

we were somewhere in quebec.

there were 9 other guys and 2 bands worth of equipment lodged in around me.

there were 4 seats.

we were in a blizzard of blowing snow.

we were in a van with absolutely no heat.

when i say no heat i mean so cold that we continually had to scrape the inside windows of frost and ice. the only measure we could take to slow this was to keep the vents blowing cold air on the windows to prevent the condensation from turning into ice. this meant that not only were we in 0 degree weather but there was a constant breeze on all of us.

…..

november 22nd 2004

(but referring to an arma angelus show that most likely occurred between 1999-2001)

e had just come from syracuse, ny where a friend of the band had put us up for the evening. his girlfriend went to college there and since she was out of town for christmas along with the other 8 girls who shared a house, he thought it would be a good idea to let us stay and actually behave around girls underwear. the house had 9 rooms, one for each of us. we jumped at the opportunity to sleep in actual beds. he opened the door and we rushed in picking rooms. rooms were chosen based upon which had televisions and largest bra size.

immediately we started going through underwear drawers and looking for diaries. picture 9 guys wearing nothing except for matching bras and panties reading aloud from girls diaries. we designated one room the 'masturbation room'. this room came complete with a tv/vcr combo and someone had a porno. we took turns.

stix was up second, after he was finished he left the door open for the next in line. pete was up 3rd. he walked in, put in the movie, pulled out his wang and started jerkin'. no sooner did he commence the jerkin did stix jumps out of the closet naked screaming, "IM EVERYWHERE!". pete scrambles to hide his junk and runs out the door. i was up 4th.

one of the poor girls left her disposable camera lying out, it still had about 10 pictures left on the roll.

we had a photo shoot.

we each put on her bras and panties and laid in her bed in sick ultra gay poses and took pictures of one another.

then we put the camera back...but not before we peed in her fish tank.

the day before this we stayed at chris from long islands apartment. he let us stay the morning by ourselves with the strict instruction to "stay out of shit".

we found a note in his girlfriends underwear drawer that said, "please stay away from my panties."

December 7th 2004

petes busy driving around looking for obscure toy stores, shooting his friends (and parents) with paintballs, hitting the ignore button on his phone every 14 seconds and stealing my dvds, he has no time for you circus animals.

december 28th 2004

I was awoken by a penis of one peter wentz in my eye.

…

Pete made the dirt drink an entire 2 liter of mountain dew on stage during a song, he almost finished and followed up with a puddle of vomit stage left.

may 15 2005

i miss being in a band with pete for different reasons. we had the best love/hate relationship. sitting there forced to be next to me in the van he would put his hood up and pretend to be asleep and i would try and cuddle and he would get all pissed ala steveo on wildboys. hes a cranky cranky boy when he wants to be...but then again so am i. especially when im woken up by people attempting to smash me in the face with a semen soaked napkin that ends up on my arm. nonetheless, i think we complimented each other well on stage and i miss that

january 20th 2012

After he got out of the hospital Pete showed up at my apartment wearing a jean jacket with no shirt and asked if I wanted to roll up to Woodfield Mall to see the new Clandestine display at Hot Topic. We got in the car and drove west on 90. We passed the lights of the airport when he played the demo for me. There was an odd moment when he was telling me about the lyrics that I don't share with anyone. There are times when I still choke up listening to this.

#also I SEE the other asks #i will get to them lol #i am answering these while making copies at my internship which uses a law office i feel like april from parks and rec #also is anyone else getting concerned about how impermanent and censored content has become due to copyright and strict rules on nudity lol #hell world #fall out boy #documentation

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Idk if you’ve ever answered this, but I’m curious, why do you bias Johnny so hard? Messy actually made me start paying attention to Johnny more and I don’t regret it lol so thanks.

Ok so I have answered this before but I can't for the life of me find where I put it in my asks so I'll just rewrite my essay here. Bare with me it's long lmao. I remember I wrote about some physical stuff I like about him but let's take it from the top lmao.

SO I went to kcon ny 18 and I was a avid listener of NCT but I didn't really know any of the members by name or face or anything. And of course Johnny was one of the hosts because he speaks English and I was trying to find my bias and I thought maybe I would like taeyong (ppfffttt lmao) but my friends friend (who is a very toxic and gross and mean to other idols/groups) is a ty Stan and basically said "no he's mine. You can't have him. Go after Johnny or something." And I DEADASS SAID "NO HES UGLY"

Yah I thought my whole ass man was uglee 😂😂😂😂

So anyway I think around Sept or October my friend was really into NCT and was helping me to learn them and I don't remember what made me love Johnny so much specifically but it just kinda clicked.

So after that I just started biasing him so hard, he became my ult bias, and I flew all the way to Chicago for the concert just to see him cry.

So the reasons why I like him include:

Physical: BIG TOL BOIIIII. I have a thing for tol dumb goofy idiots with deep voices and big hands. A lot of my biases are like this lmao. But also BIG HANDS. His voice isn't super deep but I find it to be a nice tone in his own way. He has this cute overbite also?? Like idk why it's cute but I think it is and it makes him suck in air alot when he talks and it adds to his little lisp. (Don't @ me, I have an oral fixation ok) his smile is the cutest and makes me seo soft UM THOSE LIPS??? HI HELLO. His big ass broad shoulders??? HIS CUTE LIL PEACH BUTT??? THOSE THIGHS???? He competed with shownu on lipstick prince in a thigh separating contest and they tied one to one and shownu said it was kinda hard to beat him so this boy got STONK THIGHS. CHERRY BOMB EMO UNDERCUT JOHNNY BEING THE SUPERIOR JOHNNY??? His eyes are the most gorgeous things ever and he's made me fall in love with brown eyes. His hair always looks so floofy and soft. (Also we cannon him as having a big dick so)

Personality: A BIG ASS FUCKING AQUARIUS. so he's basically a big soft teddy bear thats extremely goofy and klutzy (which is also a majority of my biases). He puts his heart and soul into dancing on stage and masters choreography so damn well but when he dances on his own he's just...a white suburban dad trying to fit in with his teenage sons. It's soooooo bad. I am in a constant rotation of disappointment, second hand embarrassment, soft gushy lovey dovey feelings, and horniness when it comes to Johnny Suh. He's so awkward and weird like all the time and im just like WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS PLEASE STOP. He's the most extra person and can't do anything normally and with all of that he never fails to make me laugh. He's the biggest dork to exist. Also he has the best duality of man ever. On stage and in super modelesque pictures and some MVs he looks like a daddy that will tear your ass up in a heartbeat and other times he's just like (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ and the best uwu bean. He's literally so sweet and caring to people and so passionate about his hobbies (although he really like photography he's the worst fucking videographer ever and can't keep a camera still to save his life). He's a really great leader and his relationship with the others are so cute. Marks his brother, taeils his husband, Jae's his best friend, haechan and chenle are his sons, ten and ty have big ass gay love crushes on him (same sis). And it's all so precious. He's a big ass fucking Mama's boy and his relationship with his mom is the cutest thing ever. She loves her big ass baby so much and ME TOO MRS SUH ME TOO. He'd be the sweetest and dorkiest boyfriend ever and would always try and make you feel better when you're sad and make you laugh and give tons of hugs,kisses, and affection. And even tho us sluts categorize him as a big ass Dom he'd be really sweet in bed irl. He's just too much of a goofball to be any other way.

Career wise: well this one's hard because johfam suffer a lot when it comes to Johnny's talents. He's completely overlooked and forced to get one or two lines or some hype up chorus shit and it's really annoying but we find time to support him anyway. He has a really sweet soft voice and doesn't really have a big range like taeil but it's really nice none the less AND THEN THEY SLAP AUTOTUNE ON IT AND MAKE HIM SOUND FAKE. (See highway to heaven) he can play piano/keyboard and he's so good at it and I was at least happy that at their concert Johnny had a mini solo for the transition into regular where he got the spotlight and got to play the keyboard (cries forever). THEY DONT LET HIM DJ ANYMORE AND I DONT KNOW WHY HES SO CUTE WHEN HE DJS. BRING BACK DJ JOHNNY. Also he's supposed to be a rapper? Never raps? Supposed to be a lead dancer? Gets center for like 10 seconds. One day I hope he expands into other stuff though sm doesn't really let their idols do anything else (much). Like I think he'd make a good model. He knows how to take pics well. He walks well in heels believe it or not so maybe he won't completely fall on his face on the runway. Anyway let Johnny Suh have his moment to shine and showcase his talents bc sm thinks he ain't got any and wants him to suffer.

In summary he's just really sweet, kind, funny, and caring and hes talented but overlooked so we try and give him a lot of love and support.

Tl;Dr: Johnny's great. Stan Johnny.

#johnny suh #nct 127 #johnny nct #i love johnny #i have to tag this so i can find it later

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crab-goddess · 7 years

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Lala land more like Po land cause that shits gay ad I do not like it cause the cant sing Very well and mate I’m just over the hype like let it go the love you feel towards the film? – DROP IT

Reaching into my thoughts I pull out the hated memory of seeing lala land because it ruined my faith in cinematography to cast people for singing roles. I love advanced higher and I know this essay is really shit right now I really need to get this grade because I want to go to the cconsevitour you feel me

Lala land goes against my morals also because of how it shows examples of cheating because mate she has a fucking boyfriend and she makes a date with this guy when she is still with her boyfriend and she stands up the date with this new guy cause she has a boyfriend and half way through her date with her actual boyfriend she goes with the dancing man. I wrote in my diary how outraged I was after seeing the film because I had to document my utter rage, long story short I tore up the page because I was fuming

What else do I not like about it? They have so much money but they have loads of money, they have so many costume changes like obviously they have money. There are so many changes. HE DRIVES a convertible.

Every single time someone is shot in New York they have no money like what’s the deal I am concerned. I cannot not see my genitalia, my little buddy.

I should talk to my dick more actually, oh hi penis

Hold me while I pee small bowl. Kerry has departed and so has my inspiration for the cause because not gonna lie I did enjoy lala land despite its bad qualities it made me feel good and that’s all the matters to a young emo boy living in the suburbs you feel me sqa marker like seriously not gonna lie either I really want a fucking A give me it you low life piece of amazing literature like the essay you are reading right now so shut the fuck up and don’t go to the cinema

Turning point baby Kerry is spitting on the attack, she doesn’t really care about poussey anymore which me as the writer I am happy about. I should use periods more, periods only stop sentences. Lesbian teasing in orange in the new black is so annoying because it is like oh here are some sexy lesbians oh wait they are dead now or in shu or whatever it’s called like nicky was an example. Lexa wasn’t the best like gay character I just want a consistent gay character, you can tell she hasn’t seen sense 8. That’s something I could talk about

I don’t like ben aaffleck.

Sense 8 is great, there Is no doubt about that but man there are somethings I am not happy about. I feel as if they are just ticking off all of the stereotypes in today’s society in the sense that they have to have ever interesting character like what are the chances that they are from different countries, surely there must be like two in India or something it kind of annoys me but however, new sentence. It does give me everything that I want in a tv show like there isn’t a character I would want added to the show because they have everyone I could ask for and more. I think im doing well so far, lewis is going home –wait sorry I am the writer lewis Gemmell I have not got a ghost writer

Cactus? Katniss? Obi wan? What is the difference, ben kanobi that what. It literally just goes back to the same position. I promised my mum and dad I wouldn’t get drunk I am a bad person I just need to start taking responsibility for my actions. I am a bad person. Responsibility is coming, are we doing this hand thing. Who is dominant? I like treating this essay as a mental release, they are being so loud. I do think I am kind of mental with this parasite thing also me and Lewis are opposites on another level with me being a bottom an ben being a just o top not like ben is writing this he just promotes instinctfulness , Melissas belly is making funny noises. Melissa is such a twinky bottom, only a bottom as a boy don’t get her wrong.

Vegan cheese thats fucking disgusting oh my god how am I typing when im walking around like a zombie omg that’s hat school is like. Endurance is key top tip sqa. Ppinky then thumb, 12 inch instantly would just make you vomit, dick comes out mouth and it touches your delicate stomach and you projectile acid all over the sheets and dissolve his dick and bed sheets. Lewis wants – wait I – want to bottom properly. Douche for week not years. parks and rec inspiration mate the banter is flowing like nates cum in my mouth – said by Jeffree star 16/02/2016. How cool is numbers in essays. Braid my asshole hair into a nice messy bun/ wreath

Have you never heard of jeffree star? He’s hilarious. Slurp that shot babes, hump till you make that fucking calorie burn. Everybody clap your ass can you bring it to the top, slam into my sister room bum first. Dick of terror – oh wait caterpillar ride omg the caterpillar ride is like a 12 inch dick coming out his mouth like the caterpillar through the apple, sorry sqa I’m just on such a tangent. Holl boll screaming low blow puff poof

Back to lala land anyway, sorry about it. OK I want to type that emma stone is very ugly but I do not believe in what I think because she is beautiful but I am gay so I can just stfu, sorry sqa I’m really into abbreviations and tbh I’m liking my structure the flow is as potent as the banter. Cactus up anus? YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID SO? I fucking love numbers in w0rd5 LOL. Spike in every orifice, Cactus in every orifice. Are eyes hoes? Only if you don’t have them. I have work in 5 hours but I care more about advanced higher english than to be caring about my fucking money situation. New paragraph for the editors enjoy babes take a s

Bit h I cannot ad

Mate you have no idea how hard it is to see he keyboard I’m typing this from memory of I’m decided am going to get married even tho theres like no point I like buy dress

Poke me with that dick bc I love jesis- the blind woman

I can’t imagine being Minnie driver

I think I am kaput, I’’m just out of energy towards getting my point across aand I think I have made some really potent points, melissas ass in this game. Sorry I keep going on these tangents and its about lala land not fucking reptiles. Emily is being really good at running in overwatch. But anyway I’’m coming to an end, I do like lala land but I respect the aspect of disappointments within the film.

I am going to make a film about am man who talks to his aunt in scrabble just so you know sqa I am doing other things than my advanced higher but I am only going to start when I finish this masterpiece cause again I love advanced higher English.

I want lola to pierce my nipple and I do like lala land ok and fuck emma stones hate on her

Bye, kind regards

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12, 14, 21, 25 :)

hello there thanks for noticing me and asking me questions :)))

12. Your favorite live performance?

omg… i dont’ even know. i’ve watched so many live perfs over the years i just- i just enjoy every single one of them. omg their mama 2016 one was fucking iconic. like blindfolded jimin blowing us all away with his amazing dancing (HE WAS FUCKING BLINDFOLDED) and then tae and jin feeling each other on stage and then bts having a million backup dancers for their ‘fire’ perf. like everything about it was so amazing. i’m a proud mother

14) Your favorite ships/interactions?

…. this is pretty obvious but JIKOOK MY BABIES. that’s my fav otp in bts. that’s my #1 otp. i just want them two to be happy with each other and to get married and to invite me to their wedding when it happens (if it already didn’t happen). fun fact: i was the creator of the jikook otp thread on bts’s international fansite forum (remember when those were a thing?? lol) when it first opened and was running back then. back then the ship wasn’t too popular (bts in general wasn’t too popular) so i termed their ship name ‘jungmin’ but now their ship has grown and sailed. i am a proud mother

i’m also v weak for sugamon but that’s b/c they were the first 2 bts members and have gone thru hella shit together so it makes me emo and proud when i see them interact with each other

21) Name the feature you like the most about each member!

oh boy this one gonna take a long time b/c i love so many things about each member. let’s see..

namjoon - idk how to put this in one word or phrase but his wisdom, his intelligence, his words of encouragement. as i mentioned in an earlier ask, he’s so inspirational and whenever i’m feeling down or stressed or nervous about something, i remind myself of his words and his messages to make me feel better. (fun fact: my desktop bg is actually his message in the v chat that he posted not too long ago where he said that we army’s are his inspiration and he thanked us for all the love and support. that just really got to me and hit me so hard so i put it as my desktop lol).

suga - HE IS SO SOFT. SO SOFT. people think that yoongi is so cold and reserved and aloof but he the total opposite. he’s so caring and soft towards the members and he doesn’t always show it but it’s obvious that he cares for the members so much and i love it when he calls them ‘my kids’ or does things for them or gives them bday presents and gifts. ELAN;FKDNF;KD I LOVE YOONGI SM.

hoseok - his optimism. im thankful that he’s the moodmaker of the team and brings such fun and positive vibes to the team b/c sometimes u just need someone like that and i think hoseok does a really great job in providing laughter, support, and happiness to the members. sometimes i get sad b/c it must be tiring for him to always maintain this image of looking ‘hopeful’ and ‘happy’ and ‘energetic’ all the time but i appreciate his hard work and his energetic vibes and positivity.

jin - his reliability as the eldest in the group b/c for jin we often see the childish side of him where he makes weird dad jokes and bickers all the time with the maknae and the members often joke around that he could be the youngest in the group but i think when you look past all of that, he’s such a reliable hyung to the other members b/c he wants to make them feel comfortable and he probably feels the pressure from being the oldest in the group. whether it was driving jungkook to high school or having real honest conversations with namjoon (as seen in bv2) or cooking for the members, those things and so much more prove how caring and reliable jin is as the oldest. he’s so nice and kind-hearted inside.

tae - his carefree personality. he doesn’t really give a damn about anything (he wore pajamas to their recent rehearsals y’all). and i love this attitude from v b/c it’s so refreshing to see him just be like ‘idgaf’ what u say about me. he buys clothes that he likes even if fans don’t necessarily agree with him (then gets mad when fans say it doesn’t suit him lolol). now in this time and age it’s hard for people to not care about what others have to say about u but v is just like ‘ima do me’ and i like that. OMG. Also, his social skills b/C BOI BE MAKING FRIENDS WHILE IN THE RESTROOM AND I’M LIKE HOW U DO THAT V TEACH ME PLS. tae actually motivates me to become more social and to talk to people more and learn how to do small talk or make friends. that’s something i find so admirable about him that i wish i can do and learn.

jungkook - i wanna cry every time i think about jungkook b/c i saw him as a fetus during debut and now he’s grown up to be a baby. i think for jungkook my fav feature of him is that.. he’s so hard-working. he’s always aspiring to be the best in whatever area he chooses to focus on. whether that’s playing video games, learning japanese, learning the drums, making music, doing covers, or trying something new he’s never done before, he puts his 110% in it and him being the type to not lose or want to give up, he’s gonna obviously put his all in everything he does. that’s what i find most attractive and cute from jungkook. also his kindness b/c we all know that he can be a lil shit 99% of the time but he’s really kind and a kid at heart.

jimin - saving my bias for last b/c he’s the best. i think i love how warm jimin is. jimin is so kind and warm to everyone he knows. you understand why the members open up to him, why they term him the ‘king of chemistry’, why jimin has so many celebrity friends and other idols who look up to him as their role model. he’s just full of warmth and kindness and he opens his arms wide to everyone. this is why jungkook follows him around everywhere b/c jimin makes him feel comfortable or this is why in one of their live perfs back in 2016 jin walked over to jimin (out of all members) for comfort and words of encouragement. jimin is just that one person who makes you feel comfortable to be yourself around him and that’s why so many people (including me) are attracted to him. you can rely on him b/c he’s just so warm and full of kindness and acceptance.

25) What immediately comes to your mind when you think of Namjoon?

wisdom. boi knows a lot and has a lot to offer. he’s so inspiring and i love watching his v lives and his bangtan logs b/c they’re always so raw and real and motivating and it’s like having a conversation with him where he just opens up to you about what he’s feeling or what he’s thinking and offers any advice and tips he has about life. he’s so young but he already knows so much and is continuing to learn and improve to be better. i’m a proud mother

ANYWAYS, I WROTE ANOTHER ESSAY. WHAT’S NEW. keep on asking me more questions if ya want :D

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