#incapable of thoughts other than

[karamazovanon]

controversial opinion maybe but it BEWILDERS me when people (mostly americans ime) genuinely seriously with their whole chest complain about how impossibly hard russian names are. like. do a single google search. i don't see how you can comprehend that charles = chuck and margaret = peggy but can't fathom that rodion = rodya. how is this such a huge barrier of entry for people

#and this doesnt apply to ESL ppl or any other ppl who have actual reasons like dyslexia or something #im talking about other americans who go yeah i had to stop reading bc i couldnt understand the names #how are you seeing different cultural naming conventions as an unsurpassable barrier that forces you to quit and give up on ever reading it #instead of an opportunity to learn and expand your narrow worldview?????? and over something SO SIMPLE?????????? #like i know damn well yall know a katherine that goes by katie or a john that goes by jack #and those make even less sense than something like aleksey -> alyosha! #there are general rules and patterns unlike english! like the progression from aleksey -> alyosha -> alyoshka -> alyoshechka is so easy to #comprehend i dont understand how its SUCH a common complaint #i definitely understand the struggle of keeping characters straight when they have the same first name #like katerina ivanovna and katerina ospovna in t/bk etc #and of course the names in general are something you have to adjust to if youve never encountered it before! it takes a bit of thought #but its NOT FUCKING ROCKET SCIENCE and its asinine to shrug your shoulders and say welp guess im incapable of ever reading any ruslit! #like ohhh my goddd it grinds my gears so bad #bare minimum effort #anontalks #sorry for rant but i keep fucking seeing this shit and it rubs me the wrong way every time #like yeah its funny that dunya = avdotya and grushenka = agrafena #but richard = dick and elizabeth = betty so who fucking cares read the damn book

[slavhew]

Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

#not art #admin answers #paranatural #pnat #richard spender #pts-fic-notes-and-blog #before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask! #none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them #this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship. #idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell #he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those #to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness #has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count #to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said #also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats #sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him #its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF #which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him #so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time #TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol

[mamawasatesttube]

you guys i have so many thoughts about tdr. i have so much to say. like i don't want to be super mean but dude that comic fucking sucks and i can't lie i think it made me kind of homophobic actually

#my stance up to now has been that i don't really care about tim/ber but now that i have read this. dude... #it sucks that they gave a canon queer tim narrative to someone who uses homophobia as shock value and virtue signaling points #and who actively tears down characters who don't like her special little uwu flawless oc (kate im so fucking sorry) #there's no substance to this relationship i don't see why they even like each other #bc she keeps just stating oh they're perfect they make each other so happy but she doesn't like. show that at all #and i HATE the shock value homophobia like i cannot overstate how much i hate it #oh these random cops are homophobic (that's how you know they're BAD!) #oh bernard's parents are homophobic (that's how you know THEY'RE bad too!) #it's so hamfisted and it reads like such. cheap storytelling #especially bc tim as narrator doesn't even get to have ANY thoughts on his own queerness or seeing this homophobia in the world around him #and then she can't go more than two pages without being like BTW BERNARD IS THE BEST EVER AND TIM CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM #while against this ugly backdrop of shock value homophobia #there's no substance to this relationship. why do they even like each other. it just falls apart if you examine it at all #because she just is fundamentally incapable of writing either of them as people with character flaws #for fucks sake she can't even be consistent with tim's BASIC character tenets. ''i always dreamed of being batman'' false lmao #but then to follow it up with ''i never wanted to be batman i always wanted to be my dad'' #and then on TOP OF THAT to make the Only mention of Jack drake and his impact on tim's life ABOUT BERNARD AGAIN. #yeah sorry im a hater now. this was shit tier #rimi talks

[jojotichakorn]

my school president is so fucking perfect from start to finish sometimes i think it's not real. but it is. it wasn't a dream. holy fuck.

#i think this is one of the reasons i am physically incapable of watching specific scenes in it or whatever like i do with other series #because its just all so... cohesive? idk if thats the right word #but it's such a well thought out story from the very first second to the very last #in every aspect #to the point that i cant just take out one scene and watch that no #i absolutely fucking have to see the entire thing #rewatching just one scene is like taking out a tub of ice cream and only eating one spoonful #like at that point ur punishing yourself more than anything because u gotta eat the whole fucking tub now its just that good #and there are no like better or worse parts to that ice cream no its perfect in its entirety #man i gotta fucking rewatch msp #my school president #archer speaks

[some-pers0n]

Hgnnnnn ghgrgnnn god I actually have to get up today and get back to writing emotionally heavy stuff full of regret and shame from the past yet still holds a vibrant ray of hope from a realization that one is still full of love

#Heavy emphasis on the “love” part he thought he was incapable of it #Not realizing there's other forms of love than romantic and platonic and what he felt was love #sp-rambles

[daswarschonkaputt]

on the rocks sneak peak ii: wip weds edition

on the rocks | kinn/porsche/tay | wip, snippet ~950 words

Tay’s trying to drow his sorrows when he meets an attractive apparently-straight bartender who fills him with want -- and then things get complicated.

Chay enters the kitchen a few minutes after Porsche has started cooking, eyes wide and curious as he watches Tay. Tay smiles at him.

Chay doesn’t smile back. He keeps watching Tay, quietly taking the seat furthest from him. It places him between Tay and his brother, his back to Porsche.

Porsche glances over his shoulder from where he’s stirring a pot on the stove. “Did you get your assignment printed?” he asks.

Chay’s eyes flick off Tay momentarily. “It’s in my bag.”

“Are you okay to walk to school today? I have to drop Tay at Yok’s.”

“P’Tay?”

“My guest.”

“Oh. Okay. Yeah, I can walk.”

“Text me when you get there safely.”

“Okay.”

“I’m not trying to be a nag, Chay, it’s just with Uncle Thee out—”

“I said okay, hia.”

This is—this is the worst thing to happen to Tay in a long time. It’s—domestic, and sweet, and comfortable, and doing absolutely nothing to help Tay move past his building attraction to Porsche.

Because, what—Porsche worked a shift at a bar until closing time, wrestled a drunk man onto his couch, caught a few hours sleep, and then hauled his body out of bed to help his little brother print his homework and make him breakfast before school?

Tay never thought the barefoot-in-the-kitchen thing would do it for him until this very moment, when he’s realising it’s doing everything for him.

Something is placed on the table in front of him, jolting Tay out of his thoughts. It’s a steaming bowl of congee, with two poached eggs and a heaping of scallions sprinkled over the top. It smells delicious.

Tay looks up at Porsche, who’s already dropping into the chair next to his brother, bowls of congee in front of them.

Tay dips his spoon in, and mechanically raises it to his mouth. It scalds his tongue, but he swallows it nonetheless.

“Good?”

Tay makes himself smile. “Good.”

He’s not doing this. He can’t. He is not getting his feelings bent out of shape by a straight boy. It doesn’t matter if he’s a good brother. It doesn’t matter if he cooks. Tay is not going to pine after the bartender he spilled his most humiliating secrets to. He is not doing this when he knows damn well he’s going to have to turn around and go right back to Time.

It’s—already far too messy, to be sat here with Porsche, eating breakfast. Porsche was meant to be a contained fantasy – a momentary wondering, geographically confined to a bar Tay was never going to go back to. Something he could attribute to his own drunken stupidity.

Tay doesn’t want to have to live with Porsche in his head, a potentiality lost, and spend the next decade of his life trying to make Time come out on top.

It makes the congee turn to sludge in his mouth. Tay lowers his spoon, and tries not to let his feelings show on his face.

“—to my parent-teacher evening?” Chay’s asking. Tay’s missed the beginning of the conversation.

Porsche frowns. “I thought we agreed Uncle Thee would go to that.”

“Teacher Ot isn’t going to be there, this time. His wife just had a baby.”

“I don’t want to cause trouble for you at school,” Porsche says. “Your teachers prefer to deal with Uncle. A lot of them still remember teaching me. They get weird about it.”

Chay looks down at his bowl, spoon hovering above it. “It’s—it’s okay if you can’t come,” he says. “Or if you don’t want to. It’s just—do we even know if Uncle Thee’s going to show up?”

“I’ll talk to him. He’s just—busy, with work, and things.”

“Sure.”

“Chay.”

Chay looks up from his bowl, and meets eyes with Tay. He looks away. “Sorry,” he says. “Let’s talk about this later.”

Porsche’s eyes flick over to Tay as well. “Okay,” he agrees easily. “Later.”

Conversation stalls.

Tay looks down at his congee and forces himself to concentrate on eating.

Eventually, Chay pushes his chair back. “I’m going to go brush my teeth.”

Tay watches him leave. “I’m sorry,” he says to Porsche, once Chay is gone. “I didn’t want to disrupt your morning.”

Porsche starts gathering up the crockery from breakfast. “It’s fine,” he says. “Chay’s just a bit shy. I don’t usually bring people home he doesn’t know.” He carries the saucepan, and their bowls to the sink. “He was meant to be sleeping over at a friend’s last night, but he came back early to work on an essay. No offence, but I probably wouldn’t have brought you home if I’d known he was here.”

“None taken.”

“Once he’s left, we can head off to Yok’s,” Porsche says. “You’re fine if we take my motorcycle, right?”

Tay very carefully does not think about Porsche on a motorcycle, and even more carefully does not consider himself behind him, curled around him. “Sure.”

Porsche pauses, hesitating. “Tay,” he says. “About last night—”

But the ending of that sentence is cut off by a loud buzzing sound.

Tay frowns. “Is that—”

“Doorbell,” Porsche says. He shifts around Tay’s frame to peer out the kitchen window. Whatever he sees on the driveway outside the house makes him frown. “Shit.”

Tay turns to look, but Porsche catches his wrist.

“Do me a favour?” Porsche asks, with a smile that doesn’t reach his eyes. “Could you go upstairs to Chay’s room, and tell him Uncle Thee’s friends have come by for a visit? He’ll know what to do.”

Something’s wrong. Tay goes to turn once more, but Porsche tugs him back.

“Please?” Porsche presses.

Tay takes one look at his face and then crumbles. He goes.

#fic: on the rocks #kaputt wip weds #kaputt writes stuff #kinnporsche fic #kinnportay #kinnporsche #included in this fic is my thesis statement on why uncle thee was a piece of shit #peer-reviewed by tay #also i thought after finishing between the sheets my search history would recover #instead i spent a lot of time researching loan sharks in thailand how they operate what their interest rates are etc etc etc #there were other things! #thai honourifics! #flowering trees of thailand and what months they flower in #the availability of fresh cherries #(i just think it'd be neat if tay could tie a knot in a cherry stem... you know. for plot reasons.) #international courses at thailand's top universities and their tuition #oh and i read a whole bunch of bartending blogs about cocktails and flavour profiles #i do not drink and nothing makes me realise the gaps in my education more than having to write abt a bartender #i think i am incapable of writing a fic without research

[bigassbowlingballhead]

When it comes to women, Roy Kent is submissive, he wants to be told what to do, where to go, he want's to know when he's been bad

When it comes to men, Roy is in charge. Roy is tying them up, Roy is tying a string to their dick and leading them around.

#incapable of any other thoughts than bi!roy #ted lasso

[devotedlystrangewizard]

the astarion & durge scenes are very fun and have a behind the scenes reason for existing YES but i cant help but think about what if karlach had met the durge ten years ago. what if the pact was old, old enough for karlach to have followed gortash to some shady part of town to meet them.

what if, when she meets the durge again, ten years later, she assumes they were betrayed too. what if she doesnt say anything because they were so horrible back then, she heard them speak, just barely masking their loyalty to bhaal well enough for her not to know, but theyre so genuine now. what if, when they get back and gortash insists the durge was dear to him, karlach gets angry on their behalf still believing he betrayed them?

what if she found out the durge knew what gortash was doing as he was dealing with zariel and they just let him? could she still believe in them then?

#ramblings #bg3 spoilers #she probably could honestly #by act 3 youve known each other for long enough and if youve been kind the whole time.. #THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THE VAMP ELF AND THE DARK URGE IS GOOD YEAH BUT CAN YOU SEE THE POTENTIAL WITH KARLACH #MAYBE IM JUST TOO FIXATED ON DURGETASH I DONT KNOW BUT GOD #she keeps insisting upon detect thoughts because shes convinced he betrayed the durge as well but he never did #the durge was an equal. a friend even. karlach was barely more than property #shes so utterly convinced gortash is incapable of being trustworthy i just want her to realize he never betrayed the durge once in ten years #in this scenario obviously. larian drop the timeline when did they meet this is important to me

[sonknuxadow]

why are there so many people who seem to think that sonadow either Is canon or will become canon someday. what alternate timeline are you people posting from. please turn your shipping brains off for five seconds !!!!!

#idk when people suddenly became incapable of liking a pairing while also being ok with it never being canon #and not expecting it to ever be canon #no sonic ship should ever become canon Tbh. not even the ones i like. or at least not any involving the main cast from the games #no romance in sonic EVER !!! unless its highly specific circumstances #like if they were already introduced as a couple and the fact that theyre in love isnt a huge plot point its just a Thing thats There #(examples being tom and maddie from the movies and nite and don from idw sonic) #and i would also be ok with whisper and tangle becoming official. assuming their dynamic doesnt change too much #but thats IT!!!!!!!!!! no romance in sonic other than that #the thought of anyone in the main cast getting an actual official romantic partner makes me start shaking like a frightened animal

[spellsparkler]

row's dearest desire is to be in a deeply codependent relationship. this is why the emperor has such an easy fucking time

#not a joke or an exaggeration!!!! #row's highest held quality in any relationship dynamic ever is reciprocity. they will not continue to give if there is no equal return #but they are fundamentally incapable of being normal about any relationship ever. no middle gears. #(this is a big part of why they struggle to be close to anyone in a way that lasts - because if they get less than they give #it's a slight and a sign to stop bothering. but no-one can healthily match what they've got going on. they hold an impossible standard) #(the other big part is their simultaneously far too high and far too low self esteem) #the emperor thought it could capitalise on their need for external approval with a powerful and cryptic figure #who trusted them with a lot but still left them a little in the dark. #WRONG. #turns out that the 'two little freaks who hold each others' lives in their hands' gambit would have been a better one from the beginning #row didn't know what they had to offer the dream visitor and they didn't trust it enough to believe what it said they owed it #but they know - more or less - what the emperor wants from them #(destroy the absolute. become illithid. profit?) #and they know exactly what it's doing to help reach those goals #neither can fuck over the other without dooming themselves #the ideal relationship pattern for faerun's most mentally ill gnome #anyway #row tag #I'm so normal about them. worst duo of all time. I think I have created something beautiful (it sucks so bad)

[redstrewn]

Yes to be evil but i hope we cry w how much of a bitch leanders real personality is

#i want him to be nasty i want him to be vitriolic i want him to be extremely off putting #sorry #redstrewn talks #im all about that contrast that gap moe #i want him to break our hearts w the real him #i want him to actually be a horrible person actually #ofc that doesnt mean hes incapable of caring or feeling genuine feelings.. probably #just that as vere said: hes not as much of a nice guy as he lets on #i feel that EVERYTHING he does is strategic to him #i hope hes a nasty calculative person who sees people as opportunities more than anything. but ofc with capacity to...maybe somewhat care #bc that would ofc have more depth than just being a plain one dimensional asshole #its been discussed before but yeah: instead of a yandere—kind of reversed #him as a user instead. it would be a very fun misdirection w seeming like yandere #but its just greed for power. using you for power. but like others said: there has to be a romance aspect in there still somewhere somehow #basically the “new” idea ive tacked on is that his real thoughts and attitude are actually off putting. like his real demeanor #to lust for power to the extent he does: its likely he at least subconsciously views people in hierarchies. “superior” and “inferior.” #his savior complex with vere was already pointed out. and he seems to have one with the whole of lowtown too. #pushing boundaries of planes. “as above so below.” the vibes of playing god as others have pointed out. #its all giving narcissistic egotistical vain bastard

[mamawasatesttube]

you guys i have so many thoughts about tdr. i have so much to say. like i don't want to be super mean but dude that comic fucking sucks and i can't lie i think it made me kind of homophobic actually

#my stance up to now has been that i don't really care about tim/ber but now that i have read this. dude... #it sucks that they gave a canon queer tim narrative to someone who uses homophobia as shock value and virtue signaling points #and who actively tears down characters who don't like her special little uwu flawless oc (kate im so fucking sorry) #there's no substance to this relationship i don't see why they even like each other #bc she keeps just stating oh they're perfect they make each other so happy but she doesn't like. show that at all #and i HATE the shock value homophobia like i cannot overstate how much i hate it #oh these random cops are homophobic (that's how you know they're BAD!) #oh bernard's parents are homophobic (that's how you know THEY'RE bad too!) #it's so hamfisted and it reads like such. cheap storytelling #especially bc tim as narrator doesn't even get to have ANY thoughts on his own queerness or seeing this homophobia in the world around him #and then she can't go more than two pages without being like BTW BERNARD IS THE BEST EVER AND TIM CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM #while against this ugly backdrop of shock value homophobia #there's no substance to this relationship. why do they even like each other. it just falls apart if you examine it at all #because she just is fundamentally incapable of writing either of them as people with character flaws #for fucks sake she can't even be consistent with tim's BASIC character tenets. ''i always dreamed of being batman'' false lmao #but then to follow it up with ''i never wanted to be batman i always wanted to be my dad'' #and then on TOP OF THAT to make the Only mention of Jack drake and his impact on tim's life ABOUT BERNARD AGAIN. #yeah sorry im a hater now. this was shit tier #rimi talks

[dumblucksers]

genloss has completely taken over my brain

#incapable of having any other thought than genloss

[britneyshakespeare]

One thing that's really striking to me on my reread of David Copperfield is how Dora is arguably the most consciously humorous character in the book. David Copperfield is full of humor, generally. Most characters have at least some comic element to them, but Dora is very aware of her own, as much as she is her shortcomings. Dora is imaginative, creative, whimsical, and purposefully playful. The idea that people read this as vain frivolity is absurd to me.

#dora spenlow #diana rereads david copperfield #me forever and always the number one dora spenlow defender #i really do relate to her character in a lot of ways #she IS a silly thing so what??? she's funny! she's enjoying herself! #this isn't some sort of function of her lacking awareness of others. if anything it's an extension of it #she's always trying to be pleasant to the people around her and she uses humor as a distraction #for when she starts to feel insecure. #she is acutely aware of when she is disappointing people. #i also love that she's just a creative and impractical sort of soul. very very true bestie #i am exactly in your boat girl i will also be painting flowers and playing the guitar rather than housekeeping #she is not incapable of understanding other people's needs tho #idk im not being as eloquent in this as i thought i would be but i just really feel defensive about her #people do not understand her and i will never make enough posts about that subject in my life

[bewilderedbuck]

having benvi thoughts bc of course i am. will be sharing them later but just know i am going Insane right now

#i am incapable of being normal about them i apologize to anyone who followed me for something other than nhie #it's devi vs david thoughts in case ur curious bc Of Course It Is because devi vs david lives rent free in my head 24 fucking 7 #i want to go back and re-analyze his use of them in seasons 1 thru 3 again but. alas i will do that AFTER s4 edition is posted #sorry for being insane it will happen again #s.txt

[roobylavender]

i think one of the things i want to do over break for funsies is like. rewatch every pak drama of the major contemporary writers nationally hailed as progressive (e.g., umera ahmed, farhat ishtiaq, sameera fazal, etc.) and see how many of the male leads i come out actually still liking. like i want to make an excel spreadsheet cataloguing every red flag that went under my radar as a kid. for science

#bc if we are being real. sooo many of these guys are nothing short of rancid #and while i get the point of a lot of these dramas is to show emotionally stunted men grow #idk how much tolerance i have for certain behaviors now like idk.. #tangentially this is also why complaints of saif from kuch ankahi Really amuse me #like ok so all of the most toxic and insecure men imaginable aren’t a problem for most pak drama fans #but a man who simply lacks agency and is maybe a bit cowardly bc his mother overimposes on him is horrible and unappealing.. #like i’m not saying people have to like him or have a crush on him by any means #but i think it’s weird people are blatantly ignoring he’s being used to comment on how mothers emasculate their sons and strip their agency #and how that doesn’t always translate to those sons being weird toxic alpha males but can simply make them cowardly and unable to stand up #for themselves. which yes. is totally worth criticizing. but it’s strange people think samiya is coddling him #simply bc she’s willing to ask him what he thinks when his mother does or says certain things #if she were coddling him she wouldn’t even bother worrying that he’s a pushover #but instead what she does is prompt him to slowly recognize that he has his own thoughts and feelings and that he can act on him #and that she’s not going to solve his problems for him bc he’s capable of solving them himself #and idk i think that is a narrative worth telling. and i am so willing to cut him slack for being a coward bc he’s the farthest thing from #a toxic alpha male. people have twisted him into being this horrible liar cheat etc for liking someone else prior to his marriage #despite the fact that we are literally being told and shown he’s forced into the marriage and his mom Knows he likes someone else and she #doesn’t care. saif cannot realistically say no without effectively running away and he’s incapable of that bc he fears his mother #he’s not a bad person. he’s just a coward. and his growth will entail that he becomes someone brave enough to take a stand for himself #and personally i am way more open than whatever shite we have in other dramas where it takes a saas abusing her bahu for her son to wake up #to be deleted