#its been too long since i did one anyways

[quillkiller]

pleasepleaseplease elaborate on bartylus as orpheus and eurydice variants please if you want

mil!!!!! you sent this to me 2 minutes before my shift started….. i was losing my mind…. they’ve been in my head ever since…. i just got home thank god !!!!!!

anyway. so i have this au/wip which is loosly (very loose!!) based on the eurydice and orpheus myth but also set in canon. i have a tag for it ’fic: don’t look back’ <3

here’s a little snippet:

”Barty,”

It comes out as a breath, as an exhale— but it almost shatters him. If he wasn’t on his knees already he knows they would buckle. Knows he would fall down at Regulus’ feet. He almost looks.

so regulus still goes to the cave, and he still dies. he doesn’t go out of the kindness of his heart, but because he’s tired and he did it all wrong and he can’t win and he just wants it to be over. he goes because he misses his brother and he wants his brother to live. he doesn’t care about the rest of it, the war, the two sides, voldy or dumbledore or the prophecy. he wants out and he’ll never get his brother back so he’ll do this one thing to (hopefully) save his brother even if sirius will never know <3 after that he’s done. he goes to the cave knowing he’s going to die and he wants to. he yearns for the dark and the quiet !!!! he’s 17 and he thinks he’s lived way too long and he just wants out now

he leaves barty a letter. it’s vague but barty figures it out. they spend one last night together because regulus is selfish and greedy and want him just one more night. they used to fumble around back at hogwarts. they were each others firsts and they trusted each other but they were never together. not actually. just stumbling into each others beds, shakey hand jobs, clumsy blowjobs, sloppy kisses. they didnt really talk about it either but not in an awkward way, they just didnt really need to. it was about comfort and love and boyhood and fear and safety and they’re just. so special to me. not dating, not best friends, but a secret third thing. just so completely intertwined but so different from each other.

- virginia woolf. this is the bartylus dynamic to me. like. everything was awful, their homes, their circumstances, their surroundings, their expecations. but they were also just boys. everythings awful but sometimes they’d sit in the slytherin common room and they’d make each other laugh. sirius left but barty is waiting for him at kings cross with a grin :,)

anyway. it all sort of stopped after they both took the dark mark. they still had each others backs and they’re always best friends and intertwined!! but i guess there’s just too much else to think about now ahdhdjajfjkd. but reg comes to barty the night before he leaves for the cave and they properly spend the night together. its messy and miserable and lovely and it feels like a goodbye. reg leaves before barty wakes up the next morning.

barty!!!!!!!! goes mad. mad with regret and anger and desperation and love and hatred and every other emotion under the sun. he wants him back and he will get him back. barty is smart, was top of his class, is a quick learner in all things magic. i don’t know how long it takes, if its months or years, but barty is on a rampage and he’s seeing red and he’s not sleeping and he’s not at all himself. he sees reg as a ghost, talks to him, he’s haunted. he aquires several forbidden books from shady sources about magic that has long since been banned. he will bring regulus back if it’s the last thing he does. eventually he finds either a spell or some magic ritual (haven’t figured it out yet) that existed back in the 1700s but has been banned almost immediately due to people just. coming back wrong. miserable and wailing. barty’s not seeing that though. he’s just seeing that he can bring him back. so he learns everything there is to know about the spell/ritual and then sets out to go to the cave. months or years later, i still haven’t decided. i think it would be a little sexy if it was a couple years after reg died.

that’s where the eurydice & orpheus myth comes in. basically barty isn’t allowed to look at regulus until they both get out of the place where he died. but it also differs because regulus so desperately wants him to look. regulus is miserable when he’s brought back. miserable and young and confused and angry.

by paul tran is and always will be rab when he enters the cave!!

so reg is trying to seduce barty to please look at him. please look at me. and barty wants to more than anything. the first time he finally takes a breath since regs death is when he finally brings him back. the relief overwhelming. and it lasts for 0.01 seconds because regulus doesn’t want to live. he’s so angry and he’s sobbing and wants to go back. but barty doesn’t want him to. and he’s telling regulus it’s going to be okay and they’ll be okay and he’ll protect him and take care of him. but regulus doesn’t care. and barty is desperate:/

sadly barty is greedy. and weak. and it’s been years and it’s desperate and he can’t remember the shade of blueish gray regs eyes were. and regs pleading hurts. and barty just wants him. he just wants him and wants to keep him and he was never ready to lose him and he isn’t ready now. but it all boils down to the fact that barty is equally impulsive as he is strategic. he spent years (?) trying to figure out a way to being regulus back and more of his friends died during that time. he’s done what he set out to do. so he looks. because reg is asking him to and because barty isn’t strong enough not to look at what he wants

and yeah.

#fic: don’t look back #THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY……. #bartylus #ive missed them

[thapunqueen]

He must think he the king of foldin his arms and not givin a fuck 🙄

#but really why he always crossin his arms when i talk to him...cmon boobear its me man #also HELLOOO IM ALIVE #ive been MOVING and its taken up so much of my time and energy but after setting up my computer finally #i just..needed to draw..it was like a demon possessing me #so ofc i wanted to do another boone page :3 #its been too long since i did one anyways #fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #fallout fanart #craig boone #new vegas #fnv boone

[buwheal]

eeeyyyy, got bored and tried to draw you from memory.

how good is my memmory?

#goldfish equivalent /j #Love this one too lol hes so shapely #as neat as these types of asks are they are SO HARDDD to create a response for cause i dont want him to be a total asshole about it #because that'd suck and im not THAT THAT evil #anyways we're (kinda) back in it #i finished this yesterday but didnt have dialogue written yet lol #man this ask is oooollld #sorry i took so damn long with doing the askbox again :-P #if this one seems off then its the dialogue idk what whats up with it but i was struggling cause something was weird but no clue what. #Maybe its just been too long since i did the last one so im thrown off idk. #spamton #[you've got mail!] #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #spamton fanart #wtf Bu actually does the askbox for once?? outrageous.

[can-of-slorgs]

The other researchers are also here! (magical edition!)

#neopets #neotag #neoart #eyrie #gelert #THE BOYS ARE HEREEE #vin doods #my beautiful magical boyssss #had some time to kill this weekend so might as well finish rendering some stuff i have lying around lmao #its ironic cause my oc stuff is the stuff that gets less views or reacts overall but is the ones im more interested in for the most part #its been a while since i've actually really loved an bunch of ocs and this 4 (technically 5) are going to be the death of me lol #just to be consistent with the other post #eyrie's name is Ozzi or Oz #and gelert's name i'm still unsure of but for now I'm going with Faeran #i'm so emotionally invested in these characters you have no idea LMFAOO #also I did base Faeran's looks in a lot of “long dogs” like borzois and the ears just came naturally to me lol #I'm still working on a doc with all the info for those interested tho buuut if any are reading by this point feel free to ask about them!! #I'll just never shut up lol #the neopia i did put them in is a tad bit more.... “dark”?? i guess?? #its less abstractly magical and i did have to find out how to build a magic system for everything to work lol #and my dnd knowledge did filter a l o t into it so sorry bout that oops:;; #anyway this is too long and hardly anyone really reads this much but hey! finally my babies have faces so i don't feel so bad!!! #it doesnt help that i post this stuff at buttfuck hours LMFAOO

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#me reviewing this: #man this shit is still too long 😭 #i had something else i wanted to add but i cant remember #eventually ill get to a point where i just list shit down and wont explain myself #actual Proper bulletpoints #anyway im doing this bc im going to be posting shit here and i wanna warn the like #[REDACTED] new followers ive gotten since my last pinned post #and no one reads that shit willingly so im putting it on ya dash #OH I REMEMBER. ITS THE SHIP STUFF #im going to add that hold on #actually. no… #i feel like the fandom has been alive long enough that people expect that shi #*shit… #so funny. i went to correct it and i wrote *this… #like my hands are working too fast for my brain #i guess i could add that i dont bother w ship hate; something i did not think i would experience in the funney pizza game #so like u will just see any and all ships here. ill tag it for my own convenience #but if ur like ‘dni if u ship[perfectly fine and funny ship]’ then maybe u dont want to follow me LMAO #okay thats it bye mwah

[dashiellqvverty]

ive only ever seen like 2 or 3 james somerton videos max and i forget what the first one or two i watched even were (something to do with disney i think?? but not the evil queens one im almost certain) but i have hated him ever since i watched the attack on titan video and he said something along the lines of "yeah this isnt an ALLEGORY bc the ghettos in the show arent literally identical to actual historical ghettos" and i was like what do you think an allegory IS

#its been a long time since i watched it bc it made me mad #im always curious to read and watch stuff about attack on titan bc i never watched it (i quit partway through s1 way back in 2013) #and i dont ever intend to watch it #but i want to hear multiple takes on it from ppl who HAVE seen it so i dont just take ppl saying its bad at face value #and i was intrigued by this one bc it mentioned media literacy in the title and i was like ah #perhaps this will be about how ppl defending it because the fascists are the bad guys is shortsighted actually and theres more too it than #that* #or at least generally might give more insight into the show #it did not. and if anyone lacked media literacy it was him #i forget exactly what was said but 'its not an allegory bc its not a literal representation' was essentially his conclusion #and that does not seem to be something pulled from any of the plagiarized articles #it looks more like hes taking the articles calling things allegorical and then saying 'well umm heres my original bit' #but maybe i missed something. im not willing to watch the video again. or the current version of it. to find out #ANYWAY #having a great time w the hbomb video but wouldve been super curious to see him dive more into that one specifically #bc i have a personal vendetta about it #r.txt

[aria0fgold]

In this world, the storm will pass

Alec sat atop the railing of the balcony, looking up at the sky as it slowly dims to reveal the countless stars awaiting the night to be seen, to twinkle at the life below the vast sky. A cigarette placed between his lips, smoke rising up to the stars that he can only dream of reaching someday.

His eyes were vacant, what was once a vibrant blue, like the sky in a cloudless sunny day, is now merely as dull as the sky in the fog, in the stormy weather that never left. But it's getting better now. Slowly, slowly… Like clouds drifting in a windless day, moving an inch, yet moving still. Slowly… The storm will pass. But for now, he'll stay in the eye of it.

Standing beneath the stars surrounded by a quiet storm all kept inside. In this world, everything is the same, yet different. In this world, everyone is alive, safe from a greater danger than life itself. In this world, Alec is supposed to be dead, yet here he is… Someone else. In this world, his family lost Alec, yet in his world, he lost everything.

So what is he doing here then? Intruding in a world that didn't need someone like him. An Alec that was doomed to have nothing, living in a world that has moved on from Alec's death. He doesn't know, doesn't understand. He gave up understanding the world ever since that day, the day where it collapsed, leaving him with nothing but ruin. He always thought that, it would be better for him to have lost himself to the forest instead than be brought here by whatever force, whatever power, whatever God, who thought it entertaining to put him here, in this world. Is it fun? His life… to be toyed with by fate, by the world itself, is it fun? He gave up wondering about it, gave up on an answer he didn't need to hear.

Alec took a drag on his cigarette, frankly, he isn't one to smoke, he isn't one to drink, he isn't one to do any such things. But what does it matter anyway? His body… won't sustain any damage from it anymore. It's different. Everything is. Nothing was ever the same ever since his world started collapsing. Nothing was. So it didn't matter, whatever damage he does to his body didn't matter, it'll just heal it all anyway. Leaving not even scars on his skin, what a picture perfect body, devoid of scars. One would wonder if he ever went through such things, when there's nothing for him to show for it.

Alec glanced down, it was pretty high. This house, this balcony on the third floor. He gave up on that thought long ago though, it was the only constant he has left, his will to live, even after everything. Foolish, isn't it? To continue wanting to live even after all that, for what reason really? He doesn't know anymore, his memory isn't as good as it was before. So much so, that he's guilty of forgetting what his family looked like. Had he not been living in this world, he would've forgotten their names too.

Alec looked up again, to the pitch black sky, the stars brightly twinkling at him. Back in his world, he found solace in the night, in the stars above. He thought of them as his family watching over him, was it a myth he read back then? The souls of your loved ones becoming stars in the night sky. What of it now, however? In a world where everything is okay, is his family's souls still amongst the sea of stars, watching over him like they did before? What would they think of him now? Would they be happy? Glad? Relieved? Or would they be mad? Upset? Betrayed? To see Alec be happy with someone that's them yet aren't at the same time?

He doesn't want to think about it.

Just as Alec brought the cigarette to his lips to take another drag, the hand of another reached out to take it from his own, he didn't need to turn around to know who it belonged to. He knows it already, by heart.

“You okay?” Ray stood beside him, leaning on the railing as he threw the cigarette to the ground. Putting the fire out with his slippers.

“You're going to ruin that pair soon if you keep that up…”

“Well, that's fine. I forgot to grab the ashtray on the way.” Ray hummed, “You dodged my question again though.” His voice had a slight teasing tone, mouth formed into a small grin as he glanced at Alec.

“It's always the same answer, anyway.” I'm fine. That's the answer he always gives to that question, every single time. He knows it's a lie, they know it's a lie, but what else can he say when words aren't enough to convey whatever he's been feeling ever since then?

“I don't mind that. Maybe, once a lie is repeated enough times, it'd come true someday.” Ray chuckled, “Though that sounds a bit dangerous, now that I think about it.”

Silence fell between the both of them, it isn't heavy nor is it tense. It was comfortable, like the breeze of the night. Ray looked to the sky, and Alec… he looked to Ray's eyes. It was as dark as the night sky, reflecting the countless stars twinkling high above with a light all too familiar yet not at the same time. This is Ray, yet not his Ray. That is Ray, one who've turned into light, amongst the sea of many others, high above the sky, a bright twinkling star. In a way, he did become a ray of light, just not that of sunshine as he would always say.

Alec moved his eyes towards the sky once more, and the two stayed there, in the silence, below the night sky, underneath the stars, they bathed in the light of a hundred promises, a thousand wishes and a million hopes for a future gentler than their present.

#ariawrites #ariaoc #ariaoc: Alec #ariaoc: Ray #angst #uuuuhhhhhhh how do you tag this thing. nothing triggering in it??? i think? other than angst it aint that heavy #well theres smoking so ig i should tag that one then???? its been waaay too long since i did smth like this #tw smoking #also also to have a lil more context bout whats happening here. basically this is set in an au where the alec here #belonged in a world that ''collapsed'' like some doomsday thing. Stuff happened and everyone he loved is practically dead #hes one of the survivors. he gained some regeneration/self healing from the Event. a lot of things changed and hes desperate #to cling onto anything that Didnt change. a constant to find comfort in. and thats his will to live despite *gestures vaguely* everything #anyway when he reached his limit he was just thinkin of going into a forest to walk. to be lost. or just anything #but theeen he fell through a portal (i call em stray portals in my universe. they pop up randomly) that appeared below him #That portal led him to This world! where everything is alright. no world ending event happened. everyone is alive. except #for one thing... the alec in this world is dead. and his family were still in the process of moving on from it when suddenly #this Guy appeared that looked Very much so identical to alec so Things happened. and theyre all in the process of healing #alec is healing from the Event. the others are healing from their alec's death and all of em are relearning to love #alec is relearning to love these ppl that are his family yet not at the same time. his family is learning to love and give space to #this alec without seemingly replacing their own alec that had died. its a pretty delicate process of healing from grief

[bibleofficial]

punya told me that i’m referred to as a ‘one way map’ bc i’ll get everyone there, but someone else needs to take me back [bc i’d have progressively gotten to drunk to get home]

#stream #ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAJSL #IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO KNOW WHAT THE INPLICATION WAS 😭😭😭😭 #my sobriety journey … #but also tea bc i’m good at mental mapping & navigation but it’s soooo TRUE bc literally was thinking abt like everytime ive been on #vacation w my brother like he has 0 mapping or navigation ability so i’ll take us somewhere but then he’ll have to pull up a map to get us #back bc i won’t even remember the hotel name at that point ALAKALKSLAKSLAKALAKAALALLALSKALSKLK #ITS SOOOOOOO BAD #like i even look back at everytime i was drinking like yea bro u literally just #don’t stop once u start #like oh empty glass ? owo i’ll fill it back up ! #& at least i realize that now #like oh my god i’ve been drinking straight liquor since i was like 17 #like i’m remembering my cousins wedding ??? 😭😭😭😭 #BUT TO BE FAIR I WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE BLACK OUT LIKE UNCLE WAS RIGHT THERE W ME #& SO WERE MANY OTHER GUESTS I KNOWWWWWWW IT WAS OPEN BARRRRRRRR #girl even the family gathering that we did before the wedding … mess #we were taking pictures i was too drunk to stand straight & my mother was soooo MAD ALSKALSKALKSLAKALAKSLAKSLA #anyway #this is me alcohol-iniscing

[mariska]

well! bye everyone i'm off to re-read my fav book trilogy of all time that i havent read since their original releases when i was a teenager and also finally get to read the prequel that i never got around to reading for the first time so. i'll see u guys on the other side and by other side i mean i'll see u guys when i re-emerge into society drenched in blood and tears rambling about all the new mental evidence i will have collected for my years-long headcanon that Katniss is autistic and sobbing about how many more details of the whole story i understand on a more profound and deep level than my teenage self was capable of processing properly

#also idk if its visible in this pic but the covers for all of these #have that awesome multi-textured thing where the text and graphic design is slightly raised and has a sort of gilded shimmery effect to it #and its so so pretty!!! these are my own brand new copies im so happy to finally have the whole series after such a long time #i wanna re-watch the movies with my moms once i finish reading everything too cus its been a while and also #i never got around to seeing either of the Mockingjay movies when they came out #(my own horrible life events got in the way of that unfortunately and also my at the time untreated adhd) #so even though i've always loved the books more cus thats just kind of. a pretty standard book-to-movie enjoyment level thing i feel like #i did like what i saw of the first two ESPECIALLY Catching Fire i really like that movie #when i first read Mockingjay it messed me up for such a long time afterwards cus this whole series hits so fucking close to home with me #from Katniss' POV especially in the books. so i have no idea what i will eventually think of the movie versions of that #since that book has never left my head as one of my favorite things i've ever read so far in my life. i love u suzanne collins #ANYWAYS IM EXCITED this will be my first time reading these as an adult!!! wooo the horrors!!! the existential dread!!!

[s0fter-sin]

i’ve tried so many energy drinks in the last week and i did not expect monster to be the one that tastes best

#all the others had that gross im an energy drink after taste to them but the monster was just straight up good #none of them have done jack shit for my fatigue but that doesnt exactly surprise me #i had four days in a row where i was awake for over 24 hours #one where i was up for 33 #theyre just getting more and more frequent and since my hearts been up the shit recently they reckon i need to go back to the doctors #i needed to anyway for scripts and cause its been so long since my last in person appointment #i just know it wont be the last one and since im thinking of switchig up my meds he might make me go see my cardio again an i cant be fucked #i havent seen him since before covid and hes moved since then so i bet hell want an in person too #im not driving three hours for an ‘oh at least youre looking happier’ and a new script he couldve just emailed me #ive doubled the dosage of my meds which i know isnt smart but i wanted to do something in the meantime #i dont know if hell want me to increase or switch up altogether #but these were the first meds i ever responded to #ive got through like six others and they all did jack shit #no benefits no side effects nothing #and i remember how bad i felt before i was put on these and i cant be bothered feeling like that again waiting to see if something new works #and yeah these never really worked right but at least they worked enough #as long as i dont have to do an in person with my cardio ill deal #i just doubt ill be that lucky #spoonie #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt

[corrose]

I love traveling! :)

*travels

I'm tired! :)

#mytext #to be clear i still love traveling #but maybe not with other people #also I love my bed and pillows too much to be separated from them for too long #but mostly the traveling with company thing. fucking exhausting esp when they dont have the same priorities as you #im a vacation minmaxer i plan every day meticulously #traveling IS a game and there ARE winners and losers #what do you MEAN you dont know where you want to eat yet. here's like 3 choices. (silence in the group chat) #on the day of : the wait is 2 hours and we dont have reservations. WHAT DID YOU FUCKING EXPECT!!!!! #got to the point where i was wishing i could ditch them to complete my own itinerary 🙃 #pissing me off wasting time and gas and mileage by driving places and having them be all oh. 😔 because of the wait times #its july 4th weekend what the fuck did yall expect. why didnt any of you look at my itinerary. why didnt you respond to my recs. fuck u #anyways. still got to do a few of the things -I- wanted to do but it sure would have been faster and cheaper if I'd gone by myself #oh that reminds me. revokes access to the itinerary doc. since no one fucking looked at it anyways

[uiruu]

my conlang is becoming more respectable lately, i might not even mind sharing it with people as much anymore

#big win! i've had it for 10 years #maybe 11 #that fucks me up to think about #but its true #its completely unrecognizable now and you would never know that the conlang i made back then in high school is the same one #that i have now #aside from maybe a few words here and there #but i know the processes that its undergone #i was there #i feel like im actually making something i can be proud of these days #and not just a mishmash of whatever #it still needs a LOT of work... dont get me wrong #my biggest problems now are having too many phonemes (what can i say... im a phonology nerd) #and not having nearly enough grammar to be a functional language (since i basically scrapped all the previous grammar like a year ago) #(and started mostly over. with some things carrying over i suppose but) #(it was a fusional language like latin and ancient greek because i did most of my coming-up-with the grammar while taking those languages #in college lol. but it was bad cause i didnt understand as much about how languages work and change as i do now) #(anyway i finally scrapped that #which i had been meaning to do for a long time. it's an agglutinative language now mostly influenced by hungarian and korean) #its getting there. its getting back to usability. slowly but surely #ive got vocab like nobody's business tho lol. thousands of words literally #plenty of which are bad... borrowings from other languages... most egregiously ive got tons and tons from english...... #but ive been replacing them with better re-coinings or just introducing sound changes that obscure the origins lol #so that i can recognize them but nobody else would ever guess that i borrowed a word from english

[dashuisofanubis]

Me, already watching 3 or so shows: I'm gonna rewatch HoA s2

#this is my way of saying expect a live blog starting in the coming days 😅 #i havent even finished watching s4 of hha yet and i need to watch de vijf #but i havent rewatched s2 since i made this blog and i want to get a better grasp of the characters for seven sins #bc somehow its been a year since i did my s3 rewatch so im just losing perspective on characters like Amber and Nins #plus ive been rewatching @yackers once said videos and i forgot how chaotic the show is i miss it so much #i do want to finish hha but i also dont bc s4's become sort of mythologised in my mind so i dont want to find out the truth and finish it #on the other hand i really want to see what marijke's all about #so i'll get there eventually 😂 #im also determined to finish watching Voyager before i move out of this flat so ive got 3 weeks to do that 😂 #in seven sins news: they've finally set foot on the path but thats as far as i got bc i got distracted trying to describe fabians outfit #hes the first one as well so this is gonna be fun #im also nearly at 4000 words already so this chapter is gonna be long bc i know where i want this one to end #that being said i think i could find a place to split it if it gets too unwieldy #anyway this is very off topic and i need to sleep #XD #i just realised i said @yackers once said videos and i meant @charlie-pippin-faraday sorry!!

[crest-of-gautier]

video editing is so fun... (specifically cutting down hours of gameplay into a highlights format)

#lizz.txt #it feels really ironic to post about video editing being fun when that's all i've been doing for the past 3 weeks LOL #but i haven't been able to edit something in highlights format since late november 2023 (which is my favorite type of editing) #technically i could've edited the big run recording from december but i was intimidated by the 12 hr-ish length #but after working on my friend and i's video essay im like 'actually cutting down 12 hr footage is way easier' LMAOO #and since im 99% done with that and i had some time to spare tonight i started to work through some recordings :D #there's two major ones i want to work through... a splatoon 1 revisit with friends + big run #hoping to have those done by the end of february at the latest!! but ideally i'd like to have it done earlier because!!! #i'm interested in recording eggstra work (not that they've announced it) as well as um. reload #i have so much positive regard for the characters in p3 that i'm like 'i don't think i can control the words that come out of my mouth- #when i'm very excited about something' so i'd like to have my playthrough documented somewhere LOL even if i dont post it!!! #sometimes i think about how when i was playing fe3h i got to the sylvain and felix A+ support and HOW I LOST MY MIND ON VC #and IT WAS SO FUNNY bc i spent like 10 minutes watching that support conversation because every line of dialogue made my brain explode #AND SOMEWHERE in the middle of it my mom called me and i was like (hyperventilating) “HI MOM! DID YOU KNOW! I LIKE VIDEO GAMES!” #or something like that. i can't remember i was kind of lightheaded but anyway im kind of sad that there's no physical proof that happened #ANYWAY i fully expect that reload will make me jump and down ontop of a matress in some shape and form like idk i just like kitaro a lot #but also because purse owner games are LONG im like 'jfc that's going to be a lot of GB. i need to edit my current recordings- #so that i have enough space to accomodate for that' FDKLHLFDH. hence... wanting to work on my video projects #BUT I SO DESPERATELY WANT TO DRAW TOO.. oh the woes of being a multicreative. its ok! i like having hobbies to bounce between #they call it persona 3 reload because it reloads my brain ammo and revitalizes my creative efforts (joke) #seriously though i've been itching to doodle more p3 but im like 'what the FUCK are ideas that aren't splatoon' (this is what happens when- #you only play splatoon. your brain gets filled with SQUIDS!!!). anyway. i hope everyone's had a nice january so far!!! :D #i am always in a constant state of excitement and overload and i needed to get this out somewhere!! #BUT ALSO i want people to know that i like video editing. and that i am looking forward to making videos. while also drawing :3 #i will post and share the videos i make here. whenever they're done. LOL. sorry not sorry for filling up your screen with tags <3

[thedeliaishere]

YOUNG WOMAN - Actually, detective, I'm a woman.

EMPATHY [Easy: Success] - She says it so insistently, as if arguing with you. You may have upset her.

COMPOSURE [Formidable: Failure] - You feel a pit in your stomach. You did something wrong, but you don't know what.

LOGIC [Trivial: Success] - Her way of dressing, the feminine name, yet deep voice - it should have been clear to you sooner. She's transgender.

ESPIRIT DE CORPS [Formidable: Success] - Almost imperceptible, the lieutenant anxiously twitches his eyebrow.

DAMAGED MORALE - 1

Transgender? What's that?

This doesn't have any bearing on the investigation.

ENCYCLOPEDIA [Trivial: Success] - A transgender person is someone who does not identify with the gender they were assigned at birth. Oftentimes they will dress conforming to their desired gender roles, change their names, and seek medical intervention to, "transition."

Gender is rather bourgeois, anyway.

Why would any proud Revacholian discard their masculinity?

Changing your gender? That sounds like quite the hustle. Maybe we can learn a thing or two from this woman.

That's cool. I have no opinion on this one way or another.

RHETORIC [Medium: Success] - Just as Mazov dared to challenge the established order of capitalism, so too do others challenge the order of things such as sex and gender.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY [Trivial: Success] - IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE'VE FELT THE TOUCH OF A WOMAN. WHO CARES IF SHE USED TO BE A MAN? HAVE SEX WITH HER NOW! ITS WHAT A REAL MAN WOULD DO!

EMPATHY - [Trivial: Success] - Don't do that. It's clear now, you upset her for accidentally calling her a man. Just apologize.

COMPOSURE [Medium: Failure] - Profusely.

ESPIRIT DE CORPS [Medium: Success] - It's important to be a good ally.

DRAMA [Medium: Success] - Make a real show of it, sire!

"Oh, I didn't realize. I'm sorry."

"I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'll leave you alone forever now."

"I haven't been a good representative of the RCM. We're here to help the people of Martinaise, no matter their identity. I'm sorry to have let you down."

[Drama - Legendary 14] Try and come up with an elaborate, heartfelt apology in the style of the turn of the century thespians.

HIGH 83% +1 Found testosterone ampoule on nightstand. +1 Homo-Sexual Underground. +1 Read about the turn of the century thespians. -1 Recovered your gun. -1 Masculinity challenged. This is a Red Check. It cannot be retried.

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CHECK FAILURE

YOU - You try and come up with the words to convey your apology to the young woman, but you come up blank. It's hard to fit, "transgender" into iambic pentameter, as it turns out.

DRAMA - I'm sorry, sire. I have failed you.

KIM KITSURAGI - "Detective? You've been standing there for a whole minute. Are you okay?"

ESPIRIT DE CORPS - Shit, the lieutenant is onto us. We have to say something soon, or we could lose him.

COMPOSURE [Trivial: Success] - Don't worry, we can still salvage this. Anyone have any ideas?

VOLITION [Heroic: Failure] - Let me handle this.

You - "I'm so sorry, I'm so fucking sorry. I'm such a fucking failure. Do you want me to kill myself?"

[badass-sunshine]

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#what's up guys its been a while since i did one of these venting in the tags of a tumblr post #idk im just really tired #hitting exhaustion levels that i just feel like i don't have time to recover from #i was really excited about doing nanowrimo this year because i have so many ideas but im do tired and busy i dont have the time to write and #im really disappointed #*sigh* #i mean i know its not legally binding or anything but i thought this year i could make the fifty thousand words #but im a week in and havent even broken 5k #i also have too much that im doing just generally #i think im working like 50 hours a week? woof i hadnt added that all up in my head properly yet yeah no wonder im tired #plus my sleep schedule is not playing nice with my work schedule and its a problem #i have to leave the house by 7. i am struggling getting up by 6:30 every day #and then also i don't usually get to bed before 11 because im at work all day and then come home and unwind for a couple hours and then its #time to get ready for bed again so i procrastinate because i dont want to lose the time i have to myself which then fucks me over again for #the morning etc the cycle continues #anyway idk if any of this is coherent its getting late and ive had a long ass day #im tired #goodnight guys