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wongpuppy · 5 years

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LONELY II, jung jaehyun

↳ Rating angst + fluff

↳ Pairing idol!Jaehyun x Y/N

↳ Word count 3.5k [ part I + part II ]

↳ Summary idol!Jaehyun needs a drink and you were more than he could’ve ever asked for in a random bar

Jaehyun: let me know when youre down! @4:26pm

Y/n: hey i just parked across the street!! @4:34pm

Jaehyun: great :) ill be down in a sec @4:35pm

You leave your car and gulp nervously. Its been almost two weeks since Jaehyun stumbled into your bar but a couple days since the two of you last hung out.

Your stomach fills up with butterflies at the thought.

The two of you texted everyday, as much as you could (Jaehyun even getting into the bad habit of sleeping much later due to your insomnia) and hung out twice.

The first time was innocent and cute, at a hidden spot in the park. Jaehyun brought a couple of sandwiches and you brought a few blankets and the both of you had a picnic a little after 4pm. It was really cute, especially watching Jaehyun’s ears redden whenever you gushed about his idea to do the picnic and how he remembered and brought your favorite strawberry milk.

The two of you chatted like old friends, talking about pretty much everything you didn’t cover in the bar or through the phone. You talked a lot about the both of your childhoods, and you could hear the love he had for his parents all the way from the moon. It made your teeth stay clamped down on your bottom lip, failing to stop a huge smile.

The second time, however, was almost completely different. It was around 9pm when Jaehyun texted you asking if you were doing anything. ‘Just made dinner and gonna watch a movie why?’ You replied. You take a sharp inhale when his reply comes a second later asking if he could join.

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You had just moved in and even if it was a newly renovated and you actually loved it, the studio apartment was just tiny. The large room was tall and cut into two levels, the first floor overlooking the bottom. The studios first floor squeezed in a laundry room, guest bathroom, and a kitchen which led downstairs to where your bed, bathroom, and makeshift living room was.

You shake off the blush that threatens to bloom when you type out ‘yeah of course’. You quickly type your address and hit send before you could chicken out. You put your phone down and audibly squeal, dancing to yourself.

In the speed of light, you dash around your apartment and tidy up, picking up random misplaced items. Fluffing up the pillows on the couch and setting a blanket on one of the couches side arm, you couldn’t help but be nervous about having Jaehyun in your apartment.

In a little over a week, the both of you kicked it off and immediately, you knew you had an enormous crush on the guy. With the constant texting, the picnic, and even ‘good morning love :)’ and ‘hope you get enough sleep tonight’ texts, it all really got to your head and well, your heart. But being in your apartment alone with him was a step towards something foreign, and even if the two of you met in the bar alone, being in your apartment was more, well, intimate.

You were thankful that the Mongolian beef you made was actually a meal for two, putting it in a big bowl along with a separate bowl for rice and two plates.

You jump when you hear a knock on the door.

“Hey Y/N.” You pull open the door and catch yourself from sighing dreamily when Jaehyun stands in your doorway with a dimpled smile and hands in his pockets. “Thanks for letting me come over kind of late, practice ended and I didn’t have anything to do.”

You step aside to let him in and blush lightly when he walks in and looks around. “Its no problem, I made a lot of food and I didn’t think I could finish it all myself.”

“It smells really good so I wouldn’t have blamed you if you did.” Jaehyun throws you a toothy grin that makes your heart flip. “Your apartments very cozy, I like it.”

You catch the way his eyes look around the space more, almost admiring it. You grin and pull out chopsticks and a massive spoon for the rice. “Thank you, you should see it in the daytime. That wall has a huge window and the view is pretty nice.”

Jaehyun looks towards the wall of your apartment that had curtains drawn together. He smiles back at you. “I’ve always wanted my own apartment.” His eyes scan the kitchen island and nods at the bowls and plates. “Is that the food? Here, I’ll get that for you.”

He goes for the massive bowl of Mongolian beef and the plates before you can stop him. You thank the gods your mom wasn’t here, knowing your guest was carrying their own dinner in your house.

“You’re my guest, Jaehyun, I can grab that. There’s a couch next to my bed downstairs, I already set up the Breakfast Club on the TV.” You reach out to take the bowl from his hands to which he tsk’s and walks towards the stairs.

“If I don’t help, it’ll take you two trips to get everything down and I’m a naturally nice guy, Y/N.” He turns to wink at you before walking down. “And how did you know I loved Breakfast Club?”

You take the bowl of rice and laugh, following him down. “I haven’t met a person that doesn’t like the Breakfast Club. And you’re probably the nicest guy I’ve met.”

“Thank you, love.” Jaehyun sets the tableware on the coffee table in front of the couch. “But I’m probably not, I’m very blunt and straightforward. And you should meet my friend Yuta, absolutely hates the movie for some reason.”

You cover up your fire engine red cheeks with laughter, setting the rice on the table. Jaehyun calling you love repeats on your mind over and over, making you feel slightly lightheaded.

You sit down and watch him take a plate and place heaping spoons of rice on a plate. You reach for the other plate and Jaehyun shakes his head. “I’ll do that, you just play the movie.”

Your movements stutter, never having someone else make your plate for you other than your parents. You always saw it as a sign of care, of love. He places the full plate in front of you and goes to make his plate, filling it up just as much as he did for you. You couldn’t help but feel a spread of warmth flow across your chest when you thank him and take the plate while he was still filling up his own.

You felt so comfortable in that moment, with Jaehyun and you watching a movie in your apartment, it all felt too natural. And he looked so good and comfortable too, dressed in a gray Adidas hoodie and dark gray tight fitting sweats. It was like he invented the word boyfriend material.

Playing the movie, the two of you ate in silence after Jaehyun’s groan when he first tries your food. “This is so good, thank you, Y/N. I needed this.”

Theres chuckles and imitating scenes from the movie, empty plates, and stomachs full. You’re laughing with your head thrown back at something Jaehyun says, unaware that he’s looking at you with hearts in his eyes. You wipe a fake tear off the corner of your eye and Jaehyun beams at you.

And then it happens.

“You have something on the corner of your lip, here,” he extends his hand and reaches for your right cheek, cupping it before wiping the corner of your lip. “Let me get that for you.”

Never in your life would you have thought to find yourself in a situation as unique as this. A beautiful, gorgeous man in your living room holding your cheek. And his smile with the dimples looked so dreamy you could hear angels sigh.

You were shook from the inside out, frozen in front of him with crazy cherry red cheeks. You couldn’t help but stare at every inch of his face; feeling your heart beating so fast you thought it could rip through your chest at any point.

He looks at you with eyes slightly wide and with a nervous grin, he pulls his hand away and looks away with equally red ears. “Oh, I love this scene!”

The rest of the night goes on without a hitch but your cheeks might have been permanently red for the rest of it.

Three days later and he hasn’t mentioned anything about it. He was just acting as if nothing ever happened. So, you decide to do the same even though something between the two of you most definitely changed ever since it happened.

This morning was like any other, made coffee and a yogurt and oatmeal, before getting ready to go to class. That was until your phone buzzed.

Jaehyun and you already talked once you woke up and he was supposed to be in the studio so when you saw his name flashed through your phone, you were a little confused.

Jaehyun: you have classes right? @8:43am

Y/N: yeah im leaving for them in 10 why? @8:45am

Jaehyun: when do you finish? I was hoping you were free to come over and meet some of the guys :) @8:46am

You could feel your heart pick up it’s pace. Jaehyun always talked about the guys, well the rest of the NCT members, like family. So it was okay for you to be feeling nervous.

Y/N: yeah sure! I finish at 12 :) @8:48am

Jaehyun: cool beans :) we’re finishing early so you can come anytime after 4 and its the same building you dropped me off the first time we met @8:50am

You grin like a crazy person at your phone. You giggle and couldn’t help but type and send ‘so romantic’.

Jaehyun: im just a naturally romantic guy Y/N @8:52am

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Thats where you were mentally, but physically, you were walking up the stairs to the front of Jaehyun’s and the whole of NCT’s members apartments. Your knees wobble for a second at the thought of it. You couldn’t help but wonder what this meant, being a person who knows where they live and all the details about their lives. Did Jaehyun really trust you this much?

Before you reach the last step, the front glass doors open and Jaehyun walks into the bright, sunny light. You want to stop walking and awe at the sight, Jaehyun’s beaming smile competing with the sun. He looked magical in the sun and it felt like adrenaline was coursing through your veins looking at him.

“Hey Y/N,” Jaehyun looks you up and down discreetly and you blush profusely. “You look great.”

“Jaehyun, always the gentleman.” You walk up to him and smile when he turns and holds his hand out for you to walk in front of him. He puts a cheeky hand to the small of your back.

“Gentleman’s my nickname, after all.” He nods at the guards behind the desk and they give the both of you a kind smile. He lowers his voice and gets close to you. “You can ask them if you want.”

You giggle and shake your head at him after. “You’re pretty lame, Jae.”

“I didn’t hear the third word in that so thank you, Y/N, you’re much prettier than I am.” He presses the 12 floor button in the elevator.

You blush and nudge him once the doors shut. “Any last tips about your friends? I don’t want them to hate me.”

Jaehyun feels his heart flutter looking at you right now with your bottom lip jutted out in a pout. He reaches out to pinch your cheek lightly. “I can assure you none of them will hate you. You’re too cute to have haters, Y/N, don’t worry about it.”

You laugh loudly and lean against the elevator railing. “You’re in a very good mood today, aren’t you.”

He just shrugs and continues to smile at you. “I guess you can say so, I did really well in the studio today.”

You straighten up a little. “I don’t ask you enough about that, I’m sorry-“

“Don’t worry about it.” He holds up a hand and tucks a hair behind your ear. “I don’t mind, its nice being able to talk about something other than kpop sometimes.”

You feel your cheeks flare up as the elevator doors open to a small walkway and a door. Jaehyun leads you through and reaches into his pockets. “Shit.” He pulls out his phone and meekly smiles at you. “I forgot my keys, I’m gonna have to text one of the guys. Just one second sorry-“

“Hyung, I was wondering what was taking all this time.” The door opens wide to a boy a little shorter than you with deep golden skin and dark red hair. He holds his hand out to you with a grin. “Y/N, I’ve heard a lot about you.”

“My lovely roommate,” Jaehyun narrows his eyes on the boy for a second before looking back at you with a smile. “Donghyuck.”

You feel your cheeks redden slightly when you shake hands with him. “I hope only good things.”

“Oh, Y/N,” Donghyuck holds onto your hand with both of his. “The guy doesn’t shut u-“

“Okay! This way, Y/N, lets get out of the doorway? Yeah?” Jaehyun lightly nudges you inside and you can hear him hit Donghyucks shoulder. “Lets introduce you to Johnny and Doyoung.”

With that, he takes a hold of your hand and tugs you along the halls and towards a set of doors. The warmth from his hand soothing against your usual cold ones. He knocks on the second door from the right.

“I think we’re the only ones here, everyone else is either at the studio or practice rooms.”

Jaehyun lets go of your hand right when the door opens, showcasing a boy with sharp features. Jaehyun lays a hand on his shoulder and waves at the other guy on the top bunk. “Guys, this is Y/N. Y/N, this is Doyoung and on the bed is Johnny.”

“Its nice to meet you.” Doyoung smiles at you and you smile back, appreciating his gummy smile.

“Very nice to meet you, Y/N.” Johnny quickly jumps off the bed and runs a hand through his hair with a charming grin. “Johnny Seo.”

“Y/F/N, nice to meet the both of you too.” You catch Jaehyun’s eyes and blush a little. “Jaehyun talks a lot about all of you.”

“Oh, shit, really?” Donghyuck comes up from behind you with a raised eyebrow. Johnny reaches over and flicks his forehead.

“No cursing under my roof.”

“Oh, beep, really?” The younger boy repeats with an audible censoring. You laugh and nod a little.

“Some of you have reasons to fear but I will not name names.” You crack your knuckles and sightly pat your own back, mentally.

You were pushing your boundaries, something Jaehyun inspired out of you. When he told you about his stage and performance fright in the beginning of NCT and how he overcome it, you wanted to be able to do something like that. And Jaehyun encouraged you.

Jaehyun puts a gentle hand on your back for a few seconds and gives you a great, big smile.

Donghyuck on the other hand groans loudly in the background, complaining about how Hyung ‘always ruins his first impressions’. You quickly became closer to the three boys Jaehyun introduced you to, picking up on why Jaehyun loved them so much.

And thats how the rest of the night went, until it was 10:43pm and just Donghyuck and you in the large living room.

“With all serious, I’m glad I met you, you seem like a pretty nice person and you mean a lot to Jae.” You awe slightly at the younger boy with a small, shy smile. “You’ve helped Hyung a lot, he was in such a bad place around the time he went to your bar, I’m glad he bumped into you. He hasn’t been like that since.”

“Thank you, Hyuck.” You said in a quiet voice. But in your head, you really didn’t know what to come from what Donghyuck was telling you. He excuses himself after the both of you hear Jaehyun call him to the kitchen with him.

In the living rooms quiet expanse, you can’t help but mull over Donghyuck’s words.

You realize that in the two weeks since Jaehyun and you met, he’s never brought up being lonely except the night you met. And according to the guys, Jaehyun was going through a phase where he just wanted to be alone-felt like he should be alone. But up until two weeks ago, Jaehyun hung around the guys more and even when they had their girlfriends over.

“Sorry that took so long, I just never made this before.”

You turn to the sound of Jaehyun’s voice and for a moment, all your thoughts flash away and you’re back to being caught up in the real beauty of this guy. He has a shy smile with the left dimple sticking out more than his right, and when he talks, he subconsciously bites his lips in nervousness.

He holds out two plates with two lava cakes on either one and a good amount of ice cream. You gush at the sight. “You remembered I liked lava cakes?”

“Of course.” Jaehyun says as if it was nothing big. He sets the tray carrying it all on the coffee table. “But first, I kind of want to talk about something if thats okay with you.”

You immediately feel nervous, who doesn’t when they hear a sentence like that? You ignore the way you get goosebumps close to where Jaehyun sits next to you. “Yeah, sure, what’s up?”

He turns to you and you can see him visibly swallow. He plays with the ends of his frayed hoodie. “I like you, Y/N. I realized a few days ago that I really do have feelings for you and they weren’t going to go.”

You look at him with wide eyes, not expecting him to do this, now. As much as you felt your heart soar and the need for your arms to take him for a deep embrace; you had questions and you weren’t going to let yourself get into something without knowing all the factors.

“I like you, too, Jaehyun. Like, like you. But,” you sigh and look anywhere but his eyes, “I don’t think you like me the same way I do.”

He looks perplexed. His eyebrows are slightly pulled and his small fades as time went on. “What do you mean? I like, like you, too, Y/N. I wouldn’t call it love, now, but I have no doubt that I will if we keep talking-”

“No, Jaehyun, I mean...” You reach for his hands and finally look into his eyes. “Do you have feelings for me or, well, theres no nice way to ask this. Is this just because the guys have girlfriends and you don’t?”

Ouch. You knew that came out a little more rough and harsh than you intended. So you mutter a curse and when you’re about to apologize, Jaehyun shakes his head and gives you an understanding smile.

“The first option, Y/N. When we first met, I was in a dark place, mentally. At the bar and when you dropped me off it was kind of like something sparked in me. I realized that I didn’t have to let that loneliness dictate my life, you know? The guys are still the guys whether or not their girlfriends were there and I wasn’t going to be lonely forever. So I stopped isolating myself, stopped drinking, hung out with the guys more. And I’ve never felt better. What I’m trying to say is, Y/N, you make me want to become a better person. You’ve helped me so much and you don’t even know it.” Jaehyun lightly facepalms himself and gives you an embarrassed smile. “I’m sorry, I need to stop rambl-“

And there, you took a leap. You took a massive leap and leaned over and kissed him. You never thought of yourself as a risk taker per se, but hearing the passion in his voice really did something to you.

His lips were soft and shocked frozen at first when your lips got into contact but then Jaehyun snaps out of it and closes his eyes and wow. His free hand reaches up to your cheek and whilst the other one is held tightly by both of yours.

It felt right, magical, intoxicating. Just like the movies described it.

One kiss turns to two, then three before Jaehyun pulls back slightly with a wide grin and low eyes. “Does this mean we’re dating?”

“Only if you want it to, too.”

“Of course I do, silly.” He gives you a too-quick kiss and you resist the urge to pull him back in. “Will you be my girlfriend?”

“Yes, Jae.” You reach your hands up to hold both of his cheeks. “I would love to be your girlfriend.”

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